#she didn't want me!!! and i think a part of me knew thag

[worshipfulmercy]

feeling like i got my life stolen is a new development but it sure is a development

[shuxiii]

Heart to heart— Hanni pham x reader

Synopsis; she dates you as a dare

This endless loop has became a routine in your life. The same tireless and restless night of her drunk knocking on your door, with the same eyes you adoringly stared before, now were hazy teary red once.

It was never like this, it should have never had been like this.

She played you, she lied to you, she never loved you. And all of it started with a simple harmless dare. A dare that ruined everything you thought was love. It ruined your picture of love.

You and hanni had been dating for a good 5 months, meeting each other in a bar. Where she called you those sweet names and you fell for it.

She treated you with all the love she could grasp in her hands, something not everyone had but wanted. Something that everyone envied for.

Not every good start ends in a good note, because once you keep a lie eventually it comes out the light.

Everythinfg was fine, hanging out with her friends in the same exact bar you guys met. Reminscing about the moment you met each other. A love in first sight that was only a wishful dream for others

And caught in the blissful moment, a mere sentence ruined it.

"Good thing Hanni took that dare or we couldn't have met such an amazing person like you," Minji said, drunkenly slurring in the process but still clear for your ears to hear.

Everyone went silent as their catious stares went to you.

Hanni didn't know what to do at that moment, her worried gaze fell back at your blank eyes.

You stood up from your chair, as hanni stood as well in a panic, "ym, its not what it looks like—"

She tries to hold your wrist but you were already out the door.

"Yn, please let me explain" she begs.

"What exactly is there to explain?" You tried to hold back the shake in your voice, but the tears in your eyes made it clear.

"I know, i know baby. I'm stupid to take that bet, at first it was a dare, minji dared me to ask you out. And i did—i did it to win the bet, but it was at the beginning now i reslly love you."

She reaches for your hands, but you move away from her.

"So you never loved me?"

"At first, I didn't, but now I do, and I love you so much." I was stupid to take it, but if I hadn't, I would never have met you!" She pleaded.

"So what? i should be thankful you took that dare? That you lied to my face?"

"No, i didnt mean it like that—"

Her arms clung to your body as you stood there silently, her heart aching even more.

"I don't think I can do this right now," you murmured, her grasp tightening even more.

"Yn, please dont do this to me. Please stay" her voice became more incoherent and her sobs echoed even louder as you felt her body shook.

But her pleading wails were in vain, as you pulled her away, leaving her on the floor as you slipped from her grip, as she saw you fade from her view.

That was two weeks ago.

You were doing well, or so you thought. Ever since you left Hanni crying outside the bar, it felt like you left a part of you. But after you convinced yourself that she never loved you, it became easier to pretend you hated her. It was a loop game with your mind whenever she lingered in your thoughts, you'd just whisper the words like a hateful mantra, it was a cheap reassurance. But if it kept her out of your head then it was worthwhile.

And ignoring her was easy for you; it was like practice makes it perfect, and you nailed it.

As you were ready to attend a night party with your friends you heard a knock on your door at first you hesitated, you never opened the door every time you heard the desperate knocks because you knew who it was.

but Minji's voice made you open it was a scoff on your face.

''Why are you here?''

“Can we talk?” She pleaded.

“What is there to talk about, i think we did thag in the bar two weeks ago.” I scoff.

“Its about hanni” she says

The sound of her name made my heart take its pace.

“Okay 20 minutes and you��re out the door.”

“Thank you,” she smiles.

“So what about her?”

She looks back at me with sheer concern in her gaze.

“I'm here because she hasn't been herself since two weeks ago. You are aware that she easily falls into a bad habit of drinking. We're worried because I believe she hasn't been sober for a single day since then.”

The thought of that ached my heart but i didnt want to.

“Yn, i know you hate her. But she dosent listen to us anymore and im here as a worried friend, im sorry for what ive caused but if you just listen to her just even just an ounce of your time then I’ll get out of your hair and leave you be, so please.”

And here i was stupidly looking for her in the bar the same place we met and the same place that ruined everything.

Not even a minute passed by but i saw her quickly than anyone ever could. But i stopped just a few blocks from her, i was hesitant, i didnt know if i could do this.

But eventually she saw me.

and at first hanni thought she was too drunk to see you standing infront of her but as she rubs her eyes she realized you were real breathing and standing in front of her.

and faster than the own beat of her heart she puts her arms around you and her head rested against your shoulder, the same scent she missed ever since she was surrounded by the bitter scent of alcohol and cigarettes, your fragrance made her safe.

''You're real'' she slurred.

the loud music became silent in your ears and all of a sudden all the unwelcome memories came rushing like a storm, her touch melted against yours, and for a second you almost fell for it again, but this time you couldn't be driven by your feelings.

You fight to break free from her hands, but her hold tightens even more, and then the panic began to rush into her body as you felt her body shake. and suddenly you heard small sobs come out her mouth.

''Don't leave me,'' her voice barely making out the words she said as she began sobbing louder.

you started to realize she was going to panic attack your hands hugged her back as you begin to stroke her back softly.

''Hanni, calm down'' you softly spoke.

Her cries became faint but her body still shooked and her grip was still tight.

I was in conflict, i didnt know what to do but i wanted to be out of this bar.

I intertwined her hands with mine, she followed without a fight.

As we were out the crowded and loud bar, we were now faced with silence that not a knife would got cut off. I didnt know where to start.

“Yn… I’m sorry—“

“I know hanni, but why?” I stammer, “You’re sorry but why did you choose to do it?”

I look back at her, tears streaming down my cheeks, how hard I tried to look her in the eyes without wavering, but I didn't have the power to do so, and in the end, I fell for it again, her gaze the same ones that I adored and that had this soft look even when she was intoxicated, I could tell it was the same ones I saw.

“I dont know,” she says.

It wasnt the answer i want but the only one i get. Maybe there really wasnt hope.

"I don't know, I was afraid to be proven wrong," she says back, "I was always told I was too soft for my own good, and I was afraid—fearful that it was true."

“Even though i was aware it was wrong, i was selfish.” She says “but i faced the biggest consequences in the end.”

“And that is?” I hesitantly ask.

“You,” she tells me “I lost you.”

“Yn… if you give me one more chance to prove to you—to prove to you that i do love you, ever since our first date together i wanted it out the bet, being with you felt so amazing that i was in so much guilty to take that dare and if i was given the chance to go back in time, i wish i met you without the dare.”

She sounded so sobered.

“You still can, han.”

Hope flickered in her eyes.

“Do you promise? Promise not to lie again?” I say

“I promise, never lying ever again, i swear.”

She says without hesitation no stutter.

I intertwine her hands against mine again as she clings to my arms, afraid i’d disappear again.

“Lets go home, han.”

[triglycercule]

i really need to rant about hi3 and the quest i just played. warning this is NOT mtt related but i just really really REALLY needed to get this out

AHHHHHH OH MY GOD i have NOT PLAYED honkai in a month since lantern came out and now im back because of the new event with part 1 characters but OMG??? OMG???? THAT THELEMA LANTERN QUEST!!!!!! THAT SHIT WAS SO FUCKING FIRE WTF THEYRE SO GAY FOR EACHOTBER. prideful powerful and confident queen x the mentally dead inside but still determined office worker/battle soldier. WHAT THE HELL???? WHAT THE HELL i was TWEAKINF OUTTTTT DURING THAT QUEST. THE RIVALRY..... THE TENSION..... I WAS WAITTTING FOR THELEMA TO PULL LANTERN TO TBE SIDE AND TJEN THEH START MAKING OUT SLOPPY STYLE I LOVE WOMEN. AND THEY HAVE AMAZING SYNERGY IN BATTLE TOO???? the way that lantern cares for thelema even if its just in a "langqiu doesnt want to lose one less person" and thelema takes it personally and tries to refuse due to her pride???? THE WAY THAT THELEMA REALIZED THAT LANTERN COULD TELL SHE WAS GONNA LIE FROM TBE MOMENT THAT ONE QUESTION POPPED UP. THAT'S SOME MIND READING PARTNER SOULMATES SHIT RIGHT THERE. AND UGHHH THEY HAVE SIMILAR COLOR PALETTES AND THEYRE OPPOSITES ATTRACT. LANTERN IS SELFLESS AND STOIC AND FOCUSED WHILE THELEMA IS SELFISH (in the way that her way of fighting against shadows is quite literally just indulging in having fun) AND SHE'S EXTRAVAGANT AND RAHAHHHHHHHH. i dont understand how people could POSSIBLY ship songque x thelema when LANTERN IS RIGHT FUCKING THERE!!!!!! theyre so gay,,,,,, theyre SO FUCKINF GAY,,,,,,,,,,, women.... lesbibains....... lesbian....... gay....... theyre so cute together...... they would NEVER fucking get along..... lantern literally says it herself that she and thelema are two different worlds apart but she still tries to say sorry after offending thelema for disrespecting her pride in her identity. AND THE WAY THAT THELEMA CALLED HERSELF LANTERN'S MASTER OHHHHH MY GOOOODDDD THE TOES WERE CLENCHED!!!!! THEY WERE CLENCHED THAG WHOLE FIGHT!!!!!! and the teasing little rivalry comments where thelema was like you hesitated. have you been a hired gun for so long you forgot how you liked to relax and lanterns just like .... or when thelema said she didn't know lantern knew how to comfort people OH FUCK ME!!!! I FUCKING HATE THESE TWO HOW MANY MORE LESBIANS CAN THEY SHOVE INTO THIS GODDAMN GAME. IM ALREADY OBSESSED WITH HELIA AND CORALIE. I ALREADY SHIP MYSELF WITH SENADINA (me x senadina CANON CANON CANON) AND NOW I HAVE FUCKING THELEMA X LANTERN???? oh i cant. thelema and lantern and songque poly except songque is thelema's side bitch and lantern is too nonchalant to really care and she and songque are actually besties (i havent even finished the rest of the quest yet i just..... i think i have a type for character ships but idk. idk but thelema reminded me of nightmare a little bit. and lantern dust. does this mean anything. should i start shipping dustmare (HELL NOW you will NEVER catch me shipping dustmare. if you see me shipping that ship it is NOT me that is a imposter that you need to shoot. actually dont shoot bring it to me and then i can befriend myself and then date myself. yeah thats right i would date myself. i ship more than just sanses yk,,,,,) i got too caught up in that quest with thelema and lantern that i had to rant on the goddamn murder time trio account because i have nobody else to rant too (new school year Please give me friends. maybe friends that i quite possibly might even like being around but anything PLEASE i cant live with no social life it's actually killing me)

anyways thelema x lantern canon. helicora also canon. me x senadina canon because we danced in a dream and did swimming classes and live together and she's so sweet i wish she was real. so glad honkai devs already gave the players a self insert so i dont have to come up with ideas for me x senadina. ugh i love honkai impact 3rd. rant over back to relevant content

OOW btw i think i'm just gonna start posting one jk fashion au 4koma weekly. because i don't think i have the motivation to do more than one in a week and it'll be a nice way to get me drawing through the rest of summer. it's 3 am i really should get to sleep but i wann keep playing honkai impact 3rd so my sleep schedule is gonna have to take the hit LOL!

[yurmomsawh0r]

Mᴜᴛᴇ// 18+ MDNI!!!

Warnings: Physical Abuse, violence, murder, P in V intercourse, Oral (m. Receiving), unprotected sex, squirting, exhibition if you squint, cervix kissing, afab! Mute reader! [Reader suffers from ptsd] Mental abuse. Infidelity

Geto, Gojo, Nanami, Megumi, Daisuke, Iwaizumi, Uzui, Tanjiro, Levi, Muzan, Itachi, Kaneki, Seshomaru, Ban, Hak,

This is my first drabble on here so please bear with me! I also take request!

Part 1, part 2, part 3

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It wasn't always like this. You weren't always like this. You were a happy young woman - always able to see the light in everyone. Even in those who tried so hard to snuff the light out of you.

When you met your husband, everything was perfect. The late nights cuddling and watching your favorite movies. The everyday video calls when he went out on lunch. Even the surprise gifts he would send to you when you were working or out visiting a long time friend. He was just everything you had hoped for in a man.

But that all stopped once he felt that you weren't worth the trouble. His precious cheating wife. How could he had been so foolish to fall for your innocent looks and timid nature. Well that's what he said to you when he confronted you about your infidelity. Confusion barely had time to to strike you before he did.

The blows be landed on you were something so cruel and vicious - like be bad intentions to actually hurt you; punish you.

And all for what? Because he found messages between you and a party planner. You see, you wanted to throw him a grand party, secretly of course, but your husband had took it the wrong way. He thought you had betrayed him, lied to him, cheated on him.

So he took measures into his own hands. And with those hands came pain.

He pulled strands from your scalp. Bruised your eyes, bloodied your nose and cracked a few bones in the process. One of the most traumatic experience you've ever had all caused by the man you had once loved and adored.

You tried to leave - a divorce as soon as possible, but that only made it worse. "You think you get to fuck around on me, and then LEAVE!!?" You remember the second time he beat you so badly. This one was worse than the first.

It caused you to lose the one thing that could possibly help you.

Your voice..

No amount of therapy, medication or doctor visits would bring it back. With the Ptsd you suffered, it was triggering to even open your mouth to do simple task. Talking, laughing, moaning.

It was all dead. Just as you were on the inside.

- 2 years later -

You sat there silently. It had been a few hours since your husband and his guest had been chatting. You weren't really paying attention to what was being said. All that you knew, was that things were getting heated between the two. You hadn't gotten a good glance at him. To afraid it would cause another altercation between you and your husband.

The man on the other end of the table sat calmly, puffing on his cigar as your husband went on a rant about how his product was too pricy for its apparent "quality." In all reality, you knew your husband was full of shit. He just didn't want to pay what he owed. He also didn't want to tell him thag he had been the one using all the product for himself.

You felt eyes linger on you, but you kept your head down, trying to make yourself smaller than you already were. "What's a pretty little thing like you doing here with a man like him?"

The mans powerful voice boomed throughout the conference room causing you to flinch from its vibrations through your body.

Your husband scoffed but stayed silent. As if daring you to even raise your head towards his supplier. When you didn't, he felt a little triumphant. At least she was good for some things.

He knew he was the little man in the room compared to the calm, cool and collected man across from him, but this was his house and that was his wife. To your husband, he was the big man.

"Where's my money Dan." You and your husband flinched from the deep octaves in his voice. The room soon filled with his deep penatrating voice and domineering demeanor.

"L-look, I d-dont think your product is worth the price your dishing out-" He tried again with this argument. "I will give you 150k for what it's worth."

It's not that he thought it was worth less than he made it seem. You knew what the real reason was. He was growing broke. His business going to shit all because he couldn't keep his nose out of the powder. On top of that he owed many other powerful men and companies money. The drugs were turning him into a real monster.

And who was there to take his mind off of things.

You.

Deep chuckles broke out from the man's chest. He pulled another drag from his cigar before putting it out on the ten thousand dollar oak table.

Dan loved this table.

"I can see the drugs are getting to you Dan. My drugs Dan. You know damn well my supply is well over 150k. More like half a million. Your interest keeps adding up. How long before you have nothing but your life."

Dan gulped. The weight of his actions now setting in.

"Soon you won't even have that."

The threat he had laid down on the table was clear as day. This path Dan was going down was going to lead him to knock on deaths door.

And what had this meant for you? Would you die as well, or would you just rot on the streets of New York?

"I'll make you a deal Dan." Silence befell the room. As if they were having a silent battle between each other.

Your head was still down, looking at your reflection through the polished oak. It was blurry but, you could still make out certain features.

A scoff rang through the air before more words fell from Dan's lips.

"What? Her? She's fucking worthless." He spit towards you. His words making you flinch. "If she's so worthless, let her go. Give her to me."

Fear clenched your heart thinking about all the possible reasons - especially about the reason why the calm and mysterious man wanted you. You shook at the thought of him hurting you just as bad as Dan. Possibly even worse than what you imagined. "You give her to me, and we can call this even.'

Silence ensured the room again.

He wouldn't really give you up like that? . . . Would he? You know your husband hasn't been the best one but, he still saw you as a human being. . . Right?

You hoped with all your heart that your husband still had a shred of love for you deep down in his black heart, but in the back of your head you know there wasn't any type of love. Only pain and sorrow lingered there.

The world stopped beating once the words left his lips. Leaving you in an even colder world than before.

"Take her."

[royalwriteroftheuniverse]

Summer Wedding Part 3

Angust ...fluff... oh the fluff... i listened I heard ... I wrote....

Part 1 here

Part 2 here

Reader p.o.v.

I walked in thr kitchen seeing ari there I gasp.

He turns "I'm so sorry  I-" the nervous pang of a sharp knife hit my chest and riplled into my limbs as tears filled my eyes.

"Im leaving I-Im so sorry.I-"

"Wait I-"

I cant believe I did that how did I not hear him. Oh God. The tears started all over.

33rd person p.o.v.

There was a knock on the door.

"I'm sorry please dont make me leave tonight."  She was emotional and scared she'd be out on the street alone.

"Can I come in."

"It's your house"

"Ours."

"You're not worthless. Your not," Ari had trouble even saying it " shit."

"You heard that?"

"I was outside. I just I should have come in. Sammy basically rung me out.I made you tea your throat must be hurting."

"Thank you."

"He'll come around and check your throat too."

There were a few moments of uncomfortable sulance until Ari broke it:

"Will you forgive me for what i said? Ir was stupid and uncalled for. You you mean the world to be. You never did a thing wrong. I did. And I'm sorry you even waited to appologize  so I could cool down and instead I made another mistake."

"You talked to Sammy's wife didn't  you?"

"Yea she about beat me over the head with her shoe. I think she woukd've in person- look I dont exlect an answer now for for you to even 100% forgive. I just dont want you to think ir to , " he used air quotes for the next four words " know you are alone'  ever. I dont want you to even  think you are." When did he walk so close His finger ran down my face. You didn't  pull back so you forgive  me?"

"I want to.

"I'd  never throw you out. You think so little of me?"

"Ari"

"Its Only our first fight."

"Exactly and how destruve would our next one be?"

"Who says there'll be a next one?"

"Ari."

"Im just saying. I mean a year or so-"

"6 months."

"A year and six months only one fight. No "too bad from where I stand."

No its not."

"Baby I can't  lose you I don't even know why I even- you're my strength. You're my rock when you said something about leaveing i - it terrified me.  One more chance even if we have to start all over. "

"What? "

Ari held out his hand "I'm Ari Levinson some people call me Guy Thomas nice to-"

"I get the point" she playfully pushed his hand away.

"But you do realize if we start all over I have to move out right?"

" I changed my mind im not starting over I'm keeping you here," he pulled her close.

"Watch the tea it's  hot!" She scolded.

"What do you say? Give me one more chance? If not for me for Maya. She loves you!"

"Thags because I give hee a bag of candy."

Ari's eyes open wide.

"Before she leaves let her mother deal with the suger rush."

Ari smiles he knew he picked a smart one.

"So what do you say?"

"One more chance but if you mess this up-"

"Never I learn from my mistakes."

"Honey you're a man."

"I know I'm  an idiot."

It could've gone like that but it didn't. Maybe in a diffrent universe it did because it should've gone like that. But Ari's is... Ari so it DIDN'T go like that for a man who surives on luck maybe he srill has it

But this is how it actually went...for worse or for better in Part 4 comming soon

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[zaddylokiandthorsimp]

Immersed-part- (IV)

Dark ram x reader

18+ Don't read if you're a minor

Ram looks at the pendant in his hand his fingers tracing the rose design a gift he would give to his love when he confess his love for her behind the pendant is the date they first met with a picture of them inside

“ ram” there you are looking absolutely divine in that yellow saree of yours that's his favourite colour on you with pink bangles and the beautiful white roses decorating your hair

He hides the pendant in his pocket so thag you don't see it he wants it to be a suprise

“ ram I have something important to tell you” you're gasping out of breath hands on knee as you take big puffs of air

“ easy there” he pats your back before tucking a strand of hair behind your ears

“ I have something to tell you too but ladies first” you roll your eyes at his formality

“ I think I'm in love ..” he smile as he Scoots closer to you taking out the pendant from his pocket

“ with shekhar” he smile disappear almost as soon as it came his world crashing down as rage and jealousy fill him to the brim how could you love him you were supposed to love him not shekhar he was the one you should spend you're life with

“ I - I've been in love with him for so long I realised it now,see I've worn his favourite colour too” you continue to bable on but he can't hear you, so you're wore this colour not for him but for shekhar

He clenched his jaw all he can think about is killing that shekhar . He suddenly smile a very sinister and dirty idea brewing in his mind

He puts his arm around you moving your head towards his chest patting it the smile still on his face

“ every thing will be okay don't worry”

I thought he was crazy but so is everyone the only difference is some know how to hide it some don't

“ I'm so happy for you guys ” bheem congratulate you as you smile shekhar on your left so you've finally proposed him and he , he accepted how could he but then again who would reject you

Bheem looked ag Ram with a pitiful expression only giving bheem a sad smile in return everyone knew that ram Loved y/n more than anything it was obvious to every man and woman in the village everyone but her oh so oblivious from the world

He smiles when you look at him how it's so easy to fool you , you trust people so easily and that's why you need him to protect you from bad people like shekhar

Just few days and you will be all his he will wait for you to come running to his house he would kiss your forehead while he consoles you and that would be the day he would make you his whisper sweet nothing as he makes loves to you

“ oh nothing” he smirks

his love gave me life but mine gave him insanity it's true after all love really makes us do insane things

It's been one month since y/n and shekhar started dating everything was going fine for her shekhar was very sweet to her respectful even and that what made her fall for him hard the way he would look at her with heart eyes as if nothing mattered more than her so in love

But she got so lost in his love that she didn't see the person who she trusted the most planning to steal her happiness she didn't see the jealous look in his face When she talked about shekhar didn't see the rage and jealousy that over took him whenever she got too close to shekhar and definitely did see the love in his eyes whenever he looked at her the pain when ever she would say those three words that is so sacred to his ears

“ love her to the point of madness” is what people tell to do but he loved her to the point of insanity

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[cherry-ber]

Too drunk to fuck (pt 8)

Previous | Part one

He had a strange feeling after leaving your house. He felt relieved that he spent some time with you, he had been craving that for days now, but he knew that his last chance was gone. He decided to go to Jaemin's place, he knew he was wrong, he needed to talk to him, and he needed to make sure thag everything was okay between them. He liked you, and if you wouldn't be together ever, he wanted to keep you, and him, as a friend. He parked on his front porch and his mother opened the door for him.

“Sweetheart” she gave him a fond smile, Mark always felt home with Jaemin's family “He's upstairs, but he's sick, be careful”

Mark went to his room, ashamed and preparing a good speech that was worthy for his actions.

He knocked in the door and immediately opened it.

“Hi”

“What do you want now?” He didn't notice the night before, but Jaemin got a bunch of bruises in his face, the guilt of making him go save his ass forming again.

“I wanted to talk”

Jaemin knew better than to be immature and start a fight, but he felt betrayed enough to do so.

“I don't. Thanks for coming”

“Listen, man, I know that it's hell to put up with me, I know I put you through a lot, I just came to say sorry, for everything, I mean it”

He thought for a while, he knew Mark was sincere, and that he was sorry, but still, he was salty over everything.

“Fine”

“I mean it”

“I know” Mark couldn't tell if there was anything else to do, or to say, so he sat on the bed next to his friend. “You spoke to Y/N?”

“Yes” he sighed “She encouraged me to come”

“She's caring”

“I know”

Both men couldn't help but think about you, and the way that you've shown interest in them, for being them, which felt unreal for some reason.

“She cares for you, Mark”

His words felt heavy, he couldn't help it, he knew it was true.

“I know. I do too”

“Mark, I have to be honest, too” Jaemin's own guilt didn't allow him to sleep properly, and left him with no appetite at all, he felt weak keeping something from his friend “I accidentally confessed to her yesterday. I really didn't mean it, but... I did”

“I know you did. It's okay”

“She didn't say anything, though, I feel like i rushed it, I feel like i ruined it for you”

He didn't want to talk about it anymore, but he couldn't leave Jaemin feeling down any more.

“Are you really sick?”

“No. I just feel down”

“She told me she brought you lunch, she wanted to be with you” Jaemin smiled slightly “She cares for you, too”

“She hasn't replied yet, though”

“Maybe she just forgot, I took her time, sorry”

They laughed it off, somehow the tension was slightly less intense, and soon they felt like they used to.

“Are you ever telling her what happened?” Jaemin asked, in a very serious tone.

“I don't want to scare her away. I don't think i will”

Mark stayed for dinner and went to his own place after, no one was waiting for him anyway. He felt better suddenly. He still didn't know what to do, but the guilt wasn't eating alive anymore.

“Monday, 8:46 p.m, Na Jaemin♡: I hope I'm not bothering you, I just wanted to know if you had dinner already.”

You had been busy with homework and chores you skipped through the weekend, and barely remembered to eat, perhaps you would've skipped dinner too if he hadn't texted you.

“Monday, 8:52 p.m: youre not bothering me

I'm about to grab something, thanks for the reminder :)”

“Monday, 8:53 p.m, Na Jaemin♡: :)

Did you have a nice day? :)”

You could picture him asking that, with a bright smile, and soft look.

“Monday, 8:56 p.m, Na Jaemin♡: Can I call you?”

“Monday, 8:56 p.m: yessssss:)”

Jaemin's voice on the phone was deeper than usually, you had a short conversation about your day, and your time with the boys.

“So Jisung likes you?”

“Well, he said so... Is that a big deal?”

“He's my baby, of course it's a big deal!” he was so excited that you were getting closer to them, he appreciated the time you spent with them, even without him or Mark.

“Oh, talking about big deals” he figured that you had been concerned about him and Mark “Mark came around, we're... On good terms, I guess. I just wanted to let you know, I know you care for him”

“I care for you both” silence, but not the awkward kind, it felt more like something was sinking in his mind “I got you something for lunch today, I was excited to be with you, it's a shame you got sick”

When Mark first told him about the detail you had for him, he thought he was kidding or making it up to make him feel better, but when you reassured him that you did, he felt overwhelmed by your love, even if it was something simple, you cared so much for him.

“You're the sweetest, Y/N, I swear”

You didn't know how, or what exactly inspired you, but you built some courage to ask him out.

“I might be... Would you want to come to have dinner with me on Friday?”

Jaemin was speechless. He didn't want to get the wrong idea, but was that a date? Did you like him, too?

“Obviously, I would love to”

You felt like you made a big accomplishment.

“My parents wanted to know you better, I hope you don't mind”

“I don't. I'm so excited already, wow”

Whatever any of you said after was almost meaningless, with you planning already the day and him excited to tell his best friend, maybe a little bit scared of making a mistake.

When you hung up, both went to bed immediately, having trouble to sleep at first, but finally doing it so peacefully.

On the other hand, Mark felt like everything was getting out of his hands, and he couldn't choose what to save. He hadn't stopped smoking, his throat ached but he didn't care, he felt like he didn't care about anything anymore. He knew he had been selfish, not only with his friends, but also with you, expecting you to give him everything without giving something back. He wished someone at home would try to ask what was wrong, but that didn't happen. He didn't know how to act now, should he stay away from you, or should he show you he could be better?

He wanted to be better. All of his friends did. Living with the stigma of being some sort of criminals was cool sometimes, but he knew that it wasn't worth it at all. He knew that deep down, all of them wanted to be normal, all of them regretted all the mistakes they've made.

But there was not much to do anyway, he was realistic and he knew that he wouldn't change much just by wishing things were different.

He felt like he couldn't stop making mistakes, so, he decided to text you first.

Thursday, 12:34 a.m, Mark♡: Thanks for meeting me today

I really want to thank you for

I don't know

Making me better?

See you tomorrow”

♡Next

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A.N: i think i got too into my own story, tbth i wouldn't know who to choose if i were in this place. Anyway, i just wanted to thank you for reading, for being pacient and nice. I hope you're enjoying your reading, and remember that requests are open, while i post the next part. ♡

Have a nice day/night/afternoon. ♡

[kileyrose-2003]

Rose the Hat x Fem! Reader: Part 2

A/N: Hello lovelies! This is continuation of what @merci-bitch requested. I am putting the link to Part 1 down below if you haven't read it:

Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy! @mewbleu I am working on your request and I'll be in touch with you once I get closer to finishing it.

Love you all and hope everything is well!

One bottle of wine and less than a twenty minutes drive later, Rose had you already figured out and in her bed at the Bluebell Campground.

She drove you mad that whole time and hours after that. It was 2:17 in the morning and you both were still going to strong. Her head was tucked in between the soft flesh of your thighs as she ran her tongue across your clit.

"Damn it, Rose!" The older woman laughed and you gripped your fingers into her knotted tresses. "What's the matter, my sweet? I told you I'd punish you for running from me."

"You can't do it any other..form?" You grimaced. She smirked and stuck her fingers inside you quickly, getting a gasp out of you. "So eager for me," She mused and pulled them out.

You let out a whine and shook your head. "That's not fair!" Rose smiled gamely though there was a hint of maliciousness in her eyes. "It's fair, sweetheart. You've had control of all your previous relationships and now I'm the one in charge here and what I want, I always get."

She ran her fingers teasingly across your clit and you squirmed. "Just give it to me..please!" You grunted.

"For such a dominant woman, you're so submissive to me. I almost forgot how much I like hearing you beg underneath me from the last time we seen each other." She inserted her fingers inside you again. "Beg for me again."

Your cheeks went red at the mere thought of begging but it all felt so right. "Rose, please! I want you." You cried out and she grinned. "Much better." She quickened her pace, eliciting moans of pleasure from you.

"It's fun pleasure though, isn't it?" You bit your lips and let out a whine, hoping your neighbors couldn't hear what you were doing through the walls even though they very well knew how you were.

"Y-yes," You rasped, answering her questions. "You haven't had a true, passion fuck in a while. You're mine, Y/n. You know that right? All mine. I won't share you with the others. In a way that's what you've always wanted, haven't you? Someone to call your own.

"Y-yes..." You nodded and she started peppering kisses on your stomach. "That's my girl." She nipped at your belly button and you hissed, pushing her head away.

"Rose, that hurt!" You yelled more loudly than you would of liked too. None of the True knew you were at their campsite yet and you planned on keeping that a secret for as long possible. You didn't exactly have the feeling Rose told anyone she was coming for you.

"Oh please, you enjoyed it." She smiled and quickened her pace. "You feel so tight."

"I don't think I'm going to..make it much longer! Please Rosie, I want to come!" You begged, feeling like you wanted to cry.

"Then come for me." Her hands slipped away from your folds and you instantaneously orgasmed.

You arched your back up into the air in euphoria. It all felt so surreal and it was by far the best night of sex you ever had.

When the sensation began to fade you plunked back down on the bed next to Rose who pulled you close to her.

"My special girl," She cooed and ran her thumb across your cheek lazily. You smiled softly at first and shook your head, thinking of all the times someone called you special it probably wasn't in a good manner. "Don't call me that."

"Oh? Why not?" There was slight amusement in her voice. "I don't know. I don't think there's much special about me..I guess after being told you're crazy for so long you just start to believe it." You shrugged.

"You know..if you really wanted, we could always pay that back." She nipped your cartilage.

"It wouldn't matter anyways because they'd end up with the satisfaction of knowing I'm not in my right mind in that moment."

Rose sighed and kissed your cheek. "You're sane and very special. I've found over the years, people are afraid of what they can't explain or others who are more jealous of them. It elicts a sort of jealousy. That's why people who aren't special like us are rubes in my families eyes. They're all idiots. You were born into a family of people who didn't understand and appreciate you. It's a shame too because you're extra steamy. Something I haven't seen in a while."

"It's not that as a whole they didn't appreciate me. It was just my parents." Rose shrugged. "Still, idiotic rubes."

"Do they know I'm here?"

"Who?"

"The others?"

"My Crow is out on business so it doesn't matter but do you care?" You decided you didn't and shrugged slightly. Laying your head on her bare chest. "You love Crow?"

Rose chuckled and kissed the top of your head. "You got a twinkle in your eye, don't you?" You blushed and she shook her head. "No, no. No shame. I despise the term love. It's such a rube thing to declare. A foolish promise if you ask me."

You nodded and nuzzled closely to her. "True..but you're avoiding the question."

Rose sighed. "I guess you can say I love him. We have a very deep bond. We're knotted together. The whole family is. I do enjoy him more than the others though."

You laughed and squeezed her hand gently. "For someone who insist I'm such a busy girl, you get around too."

Rose smacked your ass in a way that said she was being playfully but also in a 'don't you disrespect me like that.' nature.

"He knows how I am besides the fact I'm not exactly so patient as to just be satisfied with just his welcome home greeting."

You snorted and she gave you a nasty look before pulling your head close to her warm breast. "Comments?"

"None at all." She raised a brow and placed a sloppy kiss against your cheek. You wiped away some of the spit and the woman laughed throatily, no hint of apology on her face.

"Oh yes..you and I are going to have alot of fun together. Rest up dear, you're going to have a long day tomorrow. You'll be one with us and one of us." She caressed your cheek and kissed your temple. "Goodnight, Y/n."

"Night, Rose." You hummed softly and nuzzled closely to her. She felt so warm and smelled earthy in a good way. It almost reminded you of your childhood but this time it didn't cause you any pain.

You could feel Rose running her fingers through your hair and your eyes began to flutter shut. Soon enough you succumbed to your exhaustion but Rose stayed up for a while, watching you sleep.

She could feel your emotional scars and all the trauma like weights in your mind. Some of it from her but she tried not to focus on thag. It wasn't a wonder how you hid from her for so long now. You locked everything away in the closet. You had to unless you wanted to become a statistic on accidental drug overdose.

Part of her wondered and knew if that your first meeting did go different, despite your age, you would of tasted amazing.

She wasn't concerned with that though. Now it was just going to be the matter of ridding you of your emotional baggage.

"So much pain inside for such a short time in this world..I guess that doesn't matter though anymore. I know what I have to do with you. I'm going to fix you up like my Andi, pretty little things the two of you."

You squirmed slightly in your sleep and Rose hushed you, sending you waves of calmness with her shine. "Nothing to be afraid of, my sweet. I have you and I'm not going to let anyone hurt you like that ever again."

You ceased your squirming and Rose grinned. "Now you get it." She kissed the top of your head and shut her own eyes before falling asleep next to you.

When you awoke the next morning it was to the roar of a car engine followed by the crunching of twigs from the impact of the tires.

At first you attempted to brush it off as some nearby car speeding down the road but the noise was too close for comfort.

Rose groaned and held herself up using the back of her hands. "What time is it?"

"I don't know but I heard a car." Rose smiled and sat up, not bothering to cover herself up. "Oh that's just my Crow."

"Y-you're not going to cover yourself or tell me to get out?" She laughed and rubbed your cheek. "Honey, in case you haven't noticed, norms don't matter around here."

"I know but isn't he going to mad? It's not like we exactly got off on the right foot."

"He'll get over himself. Like I said-" There was a slight knock followed by the sounds of the doorknob jiggling.

You squeezed your eyes shut, preparing for the worst. "Rosie, I'm back. Sorry I'm late but I stopped at District X and-" Crow turned to look at Rose and his jovial expression began to melt. She was completely naked.

Not that it was unusual to him, he was very familiar with her in this type of setting but your presence completely threw him off.

A pang of jealousy hit the inside of him. He knew of Rose's amorous nature and considered himself to bisexual as well, though his experience was limited with men and who was he to judge on what she did while he was gone but you..

You were a rube, their lost food at best and you had seen his Rosie in a way no other person should of. As far it was his concern, you should of been dead the second you struck out at him.

Crow Daddy's posture stiffened and he met Rose's mystical eyes. "What the hell is going on here and why is that little whore in my spot?"

Rose would of been lying if she said the appearance of his rare temper making itself known didn't shock her slightly.

She pulled you close to her and you shoved the blankets around your sides to try and prevent your breast from popping out.

"Crow, this-" She gestured to your form. "Is Y/n. She's going to be our newest recruit."

He made a face and you returned the look with as much crudeness as he gave to you. "Who is laying in my spot." The words came out like an animalistic grunt. "Rose, I thought we agreed we weren't turning her after our last experience with her."

"I didn't promise you anything. I'm the leader of this group. I'll do what I want." Her eyes turned predatorial and you cringed.

"We need food more than we need new members. She might just be on that age bracket where still taste good for her age."

The look in his eyes was no longer one of anger but a hungered expression and you shifted uncomfortably around in the bed.

Rose ignored you and stood up off the bed, approaching Crow. She laced her fingers through his hair and smiled sweetly, laying it on a little thick.

"We're not eating her. That's the end of it . Admit it, you said you thought she was cute." He sighed and wrapped an arm around her bare waist. "Yeah but-"

"But nothing. You wanted to turn her originally. Did you not?" Rose leaned up and nipped the cartilage on his ear. You would of been lying if you said you didn't envy him in that moment.

"I did." His hands pressed gently into Rose's side. Leaving little red imprints on her pale physiognomy. "What are you planning at?"

She smirked and pecked his lips. "You'll see. Now go on. I'll see you later, alright?"

"Sounds good." You could of sworn you seen Crow narrow his eyes at you before walking out the door.

"He's very..intense." Rose chuckled and shook her head. "Not usually. He's just very protective. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm alright. Just got a little scared for a second." You chuckled nervously to try and brush off some of your anxiety.

"There's something else on your mind too. You want to tell me about it?" She pet the back of your head. "I just..I don't know. I guess I'm afraid of getting stabbed in the back. Every person I've ever gotten close to has either hurt me or just abandoned me and I'm scared of that happening again."

"When you join our family, we have each other's back. We might get at each other's throats at times but we don't betray each other because after being alive for a while we've pretty much seen everything. So we get how it feels to be in someone else's shoes, okay?"

"Okay." You nodded as Rose got up and threw some clothes in your direction. "Come on, I think it's time I introduce you to the others."

Once you met the members of The True and they weren't trying to murder you, you found their company to be very enjoyable.

You instantly connected with Andi who like you, didn't have an easy past. Plus she was around your age which made it easier for you to talk to her.

It made Rose a little jealous but she tried to let it get to her so much. She didn't have to be in your head to know you were hoping this was going to be a way for you to settle down and she planned her hardest on trying to give you that.

Later on that night after dinner was cleaned up you sat down on the muddied ground as you looked up at the stars.

Normally seeing them made you feel serene but tonight it made you scared. You didn't know how long you sat there for until you felt Rose tapping your shoulder. "Are you ready?" You nodded and wiped a tear away from your eyes. "Yeah."

"Good.. why are you crying?" You sniffled a tiny bit as she nervously forced your head back into her lap. "I'm nervous."

She let out a snort and had to fight the urge to chuckle. "Oh please, a girl like you? You are a force to reckon with. Just think, no pain after this. All bliss and all you have to do embrace it."

"Okay." Rose wiped your eyes. "Is it going to hurt?" She rubbed your temples. "A little but no fear, you understand?" You nodded and relaxed your posture.

"Grampa Flick, we're ready when you are." You looked up and the entire Knot was hoarded around you. Some of them were smiling while others looked mad.

"Lodsam hanti, we are the chosen ones," All of the True repeated after him. "Cahanna risone hanti, we are the fortunate ones. Sabbatha hanti, sabbatha hanti."

"We are the True Knot, and we endure. Here is a woman. Would she join us? Would she tie her life to our life and be one of us?" You felt everyone's eye fall on you and you tensed, that inner voice screaming to run while you can.

(Say yes.)

"Yes." You whispered it but it was enough for Rose. She pulled out a cannister from her dress and held it up in the air.

"This one is special like you. Her name was Abra and like you, she thought she could run from me. There's still plenty of her left and she taste-" The cannister cracked open, letting out the scream of someone fighting for their life to a pitiful whimper. "Like spice."

You watched in horror as she inhaled the steam. You figured that if they were going to eat your steam, then possibly it was what they lived off of but you thought it was just adults they killed. The scream sounded like it could of belonged to a child.

Your blood ran cold and Rose's hair tckled your face as she leaned infront of you, the steam floating infront of your face. "Breathe deep!"

For a moment you thought about refusing then thought of that girl's scream. If you refused, you would end up with her fate. That was the last thing you wanted.

Despite the moral dilemma you breathed in the steam. You could feel the coldness of it along with the kick it gave on its way to your stomach.

For a moment you felt nothing but then everything went cold. You opened your mouth to try and ask Rose what was happening but nothing came out.

Your throat felt tight and Rose grinned down at you. "Embrace it." Your body began to arch and you could feel your stomach burning.

"It burns!" You screamed and clawed at the dirt. "I know..I know." You could practically feel Rose smiling at you.

There were hands clamping down your arms and legs and you screeched. "No! No! NO!" A big blue burst of energy flashed infront of your face and soon everything around you faded into darkness.

The next morning when you woke up your face and hair was caked with sweat and mud was all over your clothes.

Their was a near by puddle of water and you looked at yourself in it. You looked the same but you felt different. You heard laughter and took your attention away from your reflection.

"Well hi there!" You turned to face Rose. "You fucking bitch! You said it wouldn't hurt." The other woman had to stuff her bad temper in a sack and smiled as she knelt down to your level, brushing a piece of hair away from your eyes. "Well it doesn't now, does it sweetheart?"

'You can pull one over on your little boyfriend or the others, but not me. I don't go for people who lay it on thick,' You thought to yourself then shrugged. "I guess."

"Then there's no need to for us to act like a child, is there?" There was a hint of malice in her voice. You gave her a face as if to say 'I hate you' and Rose chuckled.

"It's okay. You'll feel better after you eat." She took your hand in hers and caressed the tops of them. "What's the matter?"

"Am I even a human anymore?" Rose offered you a cheeky grin. "Do you care?" The words were cold and had no feeling of comfort.

"I guess not." She patted your head. "Good. Now come. I have something special I want to show you."

You raised a brow. "What is it? Like a gift?" In the short amount of time you spent with Rose, you loved her smile but in that moment it sent chills up your spine.

"You'll see. Crow, help her up please." In a moment the dark haired man took your hand in his and swiftly swept you up off the ground.

The other members of The Knot were already back to their previous engagements and from the look on Rose's face, she seemed fine with that so you let it go.

She wrapped an arm around your waist and lead you forward towards the edge of the all too familiar woods.

"You know, I remember the last time I was here," You said, pretending to think. "You tried to murder me."

Rose smiled tightly and squeezed your sides. "Yeah well, no need to hold grudges over things to small."

"I don't know if I'd say killing trying to kill someone as something that everyone should just brush off." For a moment there was very awkward silence.

"Well you woke up in a pissed off mood, didn't you?" You shrugged. "Well after feeling like I was dying last night, wouldn't you feel the same in that situation?"

"It's a gift you should be grateful for, now close your eyes," She commanded. "Why?" You never exactly were fond of surprises.

"Because, it's a surprise," She answered like it was so obvious. "Yeah I know but I'm not so fond of the unexpected."

"Well, I guess it'll be my job to give you a sense of adventure." She smiled in a friendly manner and held a hand out to you, releasing her hold on your waist. "You know I wouldn't let anything hurt you, right?"

"Yeah, I know."

"Good. Now just keep them shut and follow me." Rose held your hand and lead you forward. "You'll let me know if there's a rock or something infront of me?"

"No, we'll just let you trip and break your face." There was a hint of sarcasm in Crow's tone and you could hear Rose slap his arm with her empty hand.

"Don't be an ass," She scolded. The further you went into the woods, the more it began to lose it's earthy smell and a more unearthly one began to set in.

"Now wait, wait! Don't open them yet. Now tilt your head down- No, not up! The other way! That's it now now open your eyes."

You hesitantly did as she asked and peeped both eyes open before letting out a gasp.

There was a boy laying on a ground in a situation much similar to the one you were in except their steam floating above him.

"Tada!" You narrowed your eyes and turned to look at Rose. "What the hell is this?"

"Honey, he's your 'welcome to family' present." She drew a knife out the pocket on her sweater and wrapped her arms around your waist.

"As you know, there are people out like us who have steam. People like us, the steamy ones, we're above the others. However, there is a chain involved. The hunter and the hunted."

She knelt down and took a jab at the child, a large whiff of steam floated into as a residual effect. "Pain purifies steam, fear too. That's why we took you before turning you, because you're so pure."

You shifted in discomfort, trying to move the steam away from you. "Their pain. Our gain. You can have as much as you want from him. All you have to do is take it."

She handed you the knife and you locked eyes with the boy and bit your lip. You didn't have to use your shine to know he just wanted it all to end.

You didn't consider yourself to be a sentimental person or one who restricted themselves from their vices but this was too much.

Eternal life or not, it was just wrong. You bit your lip and tried to reach out the boy with your shine to give any sort of comfort but all you could see was a wind storm of broken memories. "N-no!"

Rose's arrogant face turned shell shocked. "No?" You shook your head. "I-i can't..I just can't! Just look at him." She furrowed her brows in a way that almost made her lose her respective queen stature. "And?"

"And he's suffering! Just look at his face." The child let out a pained sob and you sat down next to him, making sure to keep a semi safe distance from Rose as you ran your fingers through his hair and shushed him.

Despite the hunger you were feeling from his steam, you felt the urge to pull him close and just take him back home.

"He's an innocent child! He doesn't deserve any of this. He didn't ask to be born this way or for people like us to be around. This is wrong! All of this is just so wrong!" You screamed and started sobbing. "It's not fair!"

"Honey, life's not fair. Do you think Andi over there at camp, wanted or planned on having the humanity literally fucked out of her? Shit happen sometimes. It's the same thing with livestock cows. They don't-"

"For fucks sake! This isn't a cow! It's a child. Call me silly, but I think a person has more value sentimentally and in life then a cow."

Rose's posture straightened like a board and her fair skin turned cherry red with lividness.

"Rosie-"

"Quiet, Crow Daddy! Now you're just being ridiculous, Y/n! I tried being nice but now you've pushed too far. One way or another, I will get you to give in and you will kill."

"No, I won't! What are you going to do? Kill me or spank me?" You taunted.

You knew you crossed the line but you wouldn't give in and even in that moment you revelled in getting Rose all riled up even if that meant your anxiety would go through the roof because of it.

Rose huffed and went to stand up from where she was kneeling on the ground but Crow grabbed her shoulders. "If you know what's good for you right now Crow, then you'll let go of me because now she needs to be punished."

"Rosie, if I let go of you right now you're going to kill her. No one needs to know you as long as I have to know that right now. It's blazing like fire in your eyes. Just breathe for a second."

"I'll breathe later. Just let me at her!" She shoved him away and stomped towards you but Crow grabbed her by her waist. "Rose, you're going to do something you regret."

"Regret, my ass!" She kicked him in the groin and he immediately released his grip on her. She took the knife out of your hand and pushed you down on the ground next to the kid.

"I'll show you how it's done." She raised the knife above her head and you expected it to come down plummeting down on you but instead it landed in the boy.

Blood splattered all your face and you screamed. "Rose, stop!" You begged and attempted to get the child away from her.

"No! Now you'll get to have a front row seat on his pain." She leaned forward to grab your wrist but you kicked away before running.

"Y/n, you bitch!" You heard radiating through the trees but you didn't care. Tied to them or not, you wanted out. Even if that meant death.

As you reached the bottom of the hill you stumbled over a tree stump and all that was heard by those nearby was a thump followed by a crack.

"Y/n?" Andi ran towards you. "Oww! Oww! Oww!" You screamed, looking at your broken ankle.

Meanwhile in the woods a very pissed off Crow Daddy struggled to get Rose off of her prey. "Baby..this is a little over board. I don't think there's any steam left in the kid at this point."

She ignored him for a couple of minutes, making stab after stab until she own hands were cut open from all the pressure she put on them. "They all give in at one point! I don't understand it. I could practically the yearning in her eyes!" Rose seethed, hysteria still in her eyes.

"I know but some take longer to adapt than others. Not everyone is like Barry and Andi." Rose thought back on the first time she seen the two harvesting steam.

Andi's especially was pure irony in her eyes. For a girl that could 'never hurt anyone' based off how innocent others perceived her as, she tore her victim apart limb by limb.

"What do we do if she doesn't give in? Just let her starve and cycle out?" She barked. "When she's ready to eat, she will. It wouldn't be the first time someone had a lapse of faith and we had to deal with it."

Rose sighed and Crow massaged her shoulders. "We'll figure that out when the time comes but for now just let her be."

Rose actually listened and nodded, wrapping her arms around him. "Where did she go when she ran?"

"I don't know. I couldn't keep track. I'm sure she's close by though." He rocked her back and forth gently in his arms.

"I should go to her." Crow shook his head. "You're shakey. You need to relax before talking to her. You both will feed off each others emotions and it won't end well."

"Stay with me until I calm down?" He nodded and held her close.

Meanwhile down at The True's campground you sat in Andi's trailer as she wrapped a bandage around your ankle.

The steam healed most of the fracture but there was still some soarness around the area of the crack. Normally, The True Knot never kept first aid kits around but Andi was glad she had one in this situation.

"..and that should be good," She hummed as she placed the last piece of medical tape on the gauze.

"Thanks, Andi." You sniffled and she gave your shoulder a reassuring squeeze. "You're welcome hun."

She grabbed the towel laying at her side and began to scrub the blood off your face. "You want to talk about it?"

You shook your head and curled your knees close to your chest. "She's probably so mad at me right now," You whispered softly.

"Well, she'll learn to get over it. Rose is scary when she's mad but she can't stay mad forever." Andi paused for a moment and moved the towel away from your face. "How bad was it?"

"R-really bad." Your voice cracked and tears began to stream down your face. "Okay..okay." She held her arms out to you and you flung yourself into them.

"I'll never forget the look on that boys face!" Andi patted your back, trying her best to comfort you even though she hadn't felt a shred of sympathetic emotion in her in a long time. "I know."

"I should of stopped it. It's my fault!" Andi shook her head. "No, it's not your fault. It was inevitable. If it wasn't you that was going to hurt him, Crow or Rose would of."

"It just seems so wrong because I know what it feels like to be in pain and I mean yeah, others deserve to feel that same pain sometimes, but not a child."

Andi had to bite her tongue to keep from saying the first thing that came to mind. "Yeah but think of it, just a little bloodshed for a life long gain."

"It's a child, though. A child doesn't deserve that." She could say no more and pulled away from you. "Get some rest, okay? Maybe you'll feel a little better in the morning."

"Okay." Andi stood up and let you get all settled under her covers before opening the door to her trailer. "Hang in there, Y/n. I'll see you a little later."

"Bye, Andi." You grabbed one of her pillows and held it tightly against your chest, trying to relax yourself. 'You're such a damn fool to think of this would work, Y/n,' You thought to yourself as you stared at the walls.

Your eyes burned from all the crying you did and you felt so drained. You shut your eyes for a little bit, trying to just find yourself when you heard the door to the trailer open and shut again followed by a pause.

"Y/n?"

"Yeah, Rose?" She didn't have to look at you to know you were crying.

"I'm sorry." You turned your body to look at her. "About everything earlier..look, I don't want to make you do something you're uncomfortable with but harvesting steam is unavoidable."

"I know, I know..just give me time, okay?" You begged. "Maybe it's just because I'm not used to the bloodshed but I'm just not ready for it, yet. In all honesty, I might not be ready for it in a while."

Rose sat down across from you and took one of your hands off the pillow, holding it gently in her's. "That's fine. I just- You know what, it can wait."

"You're sure?" She ran a hand across your cheek, the bloodiness on it showing you the unholy deeds she did after you ran. "I'm sure."

Rose enveloped you in her arms, running her hands through your hair as if to reassure herself you were still there.

"Rose?"

"Yeah, Y/n?"

"I like you."

The older woman found a smile forming on her face and she placed a kiss against the top of your head. "I'm glad because I like you too, my patchwork doll."

You pulled away momentarily. "Patchwork?"

"Because you're such a pretty thing made out of horrible memories." You thought on her words for a moment and nodded. "I can live with that, being a patchwork doll."

Rose grinned and placed a kiss gently against your lips. "I love you," You told her with such honesty gleaming in your eyes.

"I do too." She smiled and held you close for a long time. For the first time in a long time, despite all the blood and violence, you felt at home. You were home.

[nadjaofstatenisland]

I have so many questions about Jason and Polly's relationship. It's true what you say. She says they were in love and ready to run away and start a life together. And yes, Jason did prepare all of this for them... but there is still so much that doesn't add up.

My theory? Polly and Jason were dating, were happy, were in love even... but maybe there was something a little toxic in their relationship. Maybe Polly, blinded by this popular boy liking her, was a bit mistreated and maybe was just too close to see it. I'm not saying he outright abused her, but maybe started taking all her time, pulling her away from her friends. Maybe she started losing interest in things she loved and only seemed to want to be with Jason.

Alice and Hal saw this and this is why they wanted them apart (and like, the third cousin thing that Hal failed to mention, thanks Hal). Yes, it's totally possible that Betty was just parroting Alice, but I'd bet Betty knew Polly better than anyone. She saw what was happening to her sister and she was worried about her too.

I didn't even consider that Alice delivers that line to Hal. She has no reason to lie or put up a front with him. I can't imagine the rage she feels at that moment is just because this is the boy who got her daughter pregnant. After all, Alice married the boy who got her pregnant. Her anger is deeper than that.

Hal tells Betty Polly tried to hurt herself after a fight with Jason and that's why they had to send her away for her own good. Did this really happen? Is this some version of the truth? Did he and Alice plan that story? If so, thag was some quick thinking on his part. And Betty believes him.

Hal is more compassionate than Alice, hands down. I don't think he would have went to that memorial with Alice because God knows what she would have done there. I do think, while he didn't like Jason, he didn't want him dead. I know I brought this up the other day, but I'll bring up my point about Hal and Clifford being civil to one another while their wives (who have zero stake in this third generation maple syrup feud) are always going at it. (Btw there is a great bit in the background of the memorial that I noticed in my rewatch. Hal helps himself to Clifford's scotch and Clifford says something along the lines of, "Don't want to get a DUI on the way home.")

And now Cheryl. She calls Polly crazy quite a few times, even accuses her of killing Jason. It makes me wonder what the Blossoms thought of Polly. They weren't bothered by the distant cousin aspect. Did they disapprove at all? It wouldn't surprise me if it was a matter of, "Who cares if she's technically a Blossom. It's that Southside blood on her mother's side we're worried about. Hal comes from good stock, but Alice? Tssk tssk."

And now we have Cheryl gaslighting poor Josie. Is that what Jason was doing to Polly? Are both these twins sociopaths? Did I take this simple question too far? I have too many thoughts on this damn show.

Do you think Alice and Hal lied about everything with Polly? Her being "sick" was just her being pregnant, but was her relationship with Jason really toxic? Did she ever really hurt herself after a fight?Would Alice have went to Jason's memorial service with Hal if she was in town during it? We see Hal show SOME sympathy towards Jason-going to the memorial, "He's not even in the ground yet," as Alice talks about her article-but Alice is COLD. Printing the autopsy, "I hope he suffered." Thoughts?

I’m glad you bring this up because I’ve been re-watching S1 with a friend recently and Alice’s attitude towards Jason really confuses me. When I first started the series I assumed she resented him because he mistreated Polly, but then we learned from Polly that she and Jason were actually in love and planning to run away together so, in retrospect, Alice’s behavior makes no sense. I mean, if she had made comments about hating Jason only when Betty was around I would understand, because then one could assume she was only trying to maintain the lie that Jason made Polly sick, but the first line she has in the entire series is, “If he is dead, Hal, I hope in those last moments he suffered. May Jason Blossom burn in hell,” and Betty wasn’t there for that, so what gives? 

Alice can be nasty, but she isn’t so horrible that she would delight in the suffering of an innocent child simply because she didn’t approve of him dating her daughter. Her attitude towards him doesn’t add up unless he was actually cruel/harmful to Polly, which nothing anyone else has said seems to suggest. The only time I can recall someone else speaking negatively of Jason was when Betty told Veronica that Jason’s relationship with Polly “meant everything to her an nothing to him”, but that could have easily been something she parroted off Alice. It’s hard to say. 

The fact that Hal harbored at least some level of sympathy towards Jason doesn’t help make things any clearer. I think Alice went as far as to accuse Jason of being a sociopath at one point, but Hal never utters a bad word about him. Why is that?

Part of me can’t help but wonder if Alice’s anti-Jason lines were written solely to make us suspicious of her being his killer and convince us that Polly had actually had a mental break. But that would be really sloppy writing, so I don’t know what to think. What are your thoughts?