#she deserves the whole world🌎

[flippityflaps]

"Toss him over, break his heart cruelly. I will gladly give our poor prince comfort, and I would make a magnificent queen."

🛐THE DRAGON QUEEN OF RAVKA🛐

[mjtheartist04]

How did u and Cherri meet?? ❤️

Alright kids, ima be explaining the story on how I met your mother/j

We met through the same interests! We were both in the rottmnt fandom and we had shared the same mutuals

I joined on this app last year in February, so I was still pretty new. During that time we haven’t interacted yet. All I know is that she had already followed me🙌

Anyways, April 10th, I took a break on this app for some personal reasons and when I came back, GIRLY LEFT ME SUCH A SWEET NOTE ONCE I RETURNED🥺

I think that was the first time we sorta interacted? BUT ALL I KNOW IS THAT MY HEART LITERALLY MELTED I really wanted to be her friend right then and there, but my shy ass didn’t know how to start or ask😭 but knowing her, if I did asked to be friends, she probably would’ve said yes in a heartbeat, cuz that’s how she is☺️

So I did a lil thank you gift👁️👁️

In a dumb way of asking “can we be friends?”😭 SHE HAD ME NERVOUS YALL, I ALMOST DIDNT SEND THAT TO HER;; LMAO

AND THEN, I FOUND OUT SHE WAS INTO THE LOST BOYS- AND WE JUST SORTA CLICKED FROM THERE🤞

I remember talking and rambling to eachother in our DMs, and we actually had a few things in common :]

It was the best moment of my life and a memory I’ll never forget. She has helped me get through so many obstacles in life and I can not thank her enough for that.

She is my treasure🩵🥺

[reelovesbuckybarnes]

Tj you are my whole world 🌎.

My life .

I need you. I know what you had went through, all the pain,sadness, all your troubles, trials and tribulations...

Just remember that your nana always loved you. She is watching over you.

You deserve love.

You truly deserve happiness.

Where ever you are? I hope that you read this.

I ...love you Thomas James hammond.

[softcarebears]

IM BACK

shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up. then copy/paste this ask to your favorite mutuals <3

my playlists are shit and old so (i probably have to redo them)...i used my favourite mix instead😭 notice how everything is k-pop💀😘😛😘

°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。°。

🎸ive-i am

🍭kiss of life-sugarcoat (natty solo)

🌠aespa-lucid dream

🎙ive-off the record

🍹aespa-thirsty

a mini playlist of new (or not so new) kpop songs i've been listening a lot lately🌷:

💘kiss of life-MIDAS TOUCH (WHEN I TOUCH YA KISS YA YOU GON REALISE BABY DON'T YOU THINK TOO MUCH BOY IF I TOUCH YA KISS YA WATCH OUT KOREAN WORDS YOU SEE I GOT THAT MIDAS TOUCH...MAN I VOTED FOR MY GIRLIES SO MUCH ON STAR PLANET STREAMED MY COOCHIEBALLS OUT ON THEIR MV...AND THEY STILL DID NOT WIN😭 fawk starplanet its so shit ANYWAYS SONG OF THE YEAR FR BRATZ BEEN REAL QUIET SINCE THIS DROPPED AND BRITNEY SPEARS WENT BACK TO THE DUNGEON ON THAT ONE(im joking pls)

👹itzy-born to be & untouchable(BEST ALBUM??)

💋aespa-drama (I LISTENED TO DRAMA SO MUCH AND AM SO OBSESSED BUT NEVER TALKED ABOUT IT ON HERE???😱)

🧜🏻iland 2-final love song (I LOWKEY DESPISE SURVIVAL SHOWS im only watching snippets dw (mnet stole iland from hybe😔so hybe had to do runext lol...mnet and hybe probably fought...BUT...MY MOTHER JEEMIN WILL FINALLY DEBUT FOSHO AFTER NOT DEBUTING ON RUNEXT...ROOTING FOR HER,JUNGEUN,MAI,YUJU,SAEBI,SUJUNG,JIYOON AND FUKO FR)

🕷artms-BIRTH ("I CAN GATHER EX BOYRFRIENDS😏"WELL I NEVER DATED SO GATHER ME INSTEAD😭 WELL THEY REALLY GAVE BIRTH WITH THAT ONE LOONA IM SORRY IF I NEVER STANNED YOU😔)

👽viviz-maniac (THIS LOVE IS MANIAC MANIAC MANIAC😩)

💸tripleS lovelution-girls' capitalism (yes im late to this song but shh)

💗tripleS lovelution-seoul sonyo sound

🧬tripleS evolution-invincible

🎼kiss of life-nothing (SUCH A GOOD BSIDE THEY DESERVE TO GET THEIR FIRST WIN IDC I HOPE THEY GET IT NEXT COMEBACK😔GET THEM OUT OF THEIR NUGUDOM)

🩰red velvet-in my dreams (coquettest album of all୨ৎ)

🎛redvelvet-automatic, be natural (IK THIS SONG IS FROM 2015 BUT IM IN MY REDVELVET BSIDER AND LISTENER ERA OK)

👅irene and seulgi (redvelvet)-naughty...(PLS RELEASE A 2ND ALBUM MY MOTHERS PLS)

🌇seulgi-los angeles

🧝🏻seulgi-crown

⚰️seulgi-dead man runnin (IM SO OBSESSED WITH 28 REASONS...I HOPE SHE RELEASES A SECOND MINI SOON😔)

🫧newjeans-bubblegum (MY GIRLIES STILL SLAYING DESPITE THE WHOLE HYBE VS MIN HEEJIN THING...i hope they are doing alright🥺)

😩enhypen -i need u cover (orig-bts)

(GAVE THEM A SONG TO COVER AND THEY DIGESTED THAT SHIT BARELY MINUTES AFTER THE WAITER SERVED THEM...(hope bangtan is not crying in the military)...NI-KI'S PART UAGRGJAHDGHSH😳...MAY 13TH PLS COME QUICK I NEED NEW ENHA SONGS)

💫ive-holy moly

👑enhypen-chaconne

(&the whole dark blood album haha)

🥀enhypen-fate (no i won't move on from dark blood era)

🧲illit-magnetic (ITS GOOD OK THE WHOLE ALBUM IS GOOD..BUT SPOTIFY STOP PLAYING IT EVERYFUCKASS TIME I KNOW YOU LIKE HYBE'S MONEY BUT STOP)

🌎illit-my world

💃🏻lesserafim-smarter (let them live and breathe a bit after that coachella performance...pls)

🍊deja vu-txt

insert whole ass new ive album...😭😭

🔮ive-accendio ("WATCH ME DON'T TOUCH ME LOVE ME DON'T HURT ME" I LOVE IT AHHHH MAY 15TH COME BABYGIRL)

🌨ive-heya (HEYA HEYA HEYA MORE LIKE ATE YA ATE YA ATE YA)

❄ive-ice queen(I-I-I'M IN THE CASTLE)

💙ive-blue heart (JANG WONYOUNG THE WOMAN YOU ARE😩)

⏮️ive-reset (TITITITI)

😰ive-wow (kinda mid...)

yea...ok bye

[blackskorpi0n]

💢ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

🙈SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

🌎EARTH - will they give up the world for someone they love? is this decision easy for them?

ALL FOR MY WIFEEYYYY NADIAAA MUWAHHH💖💖

rubs hands together, lets do this

💢ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

Because Nadia is a trained killer, she always has to prepare herself for the worst . More often than not, you'll catch her polishing her knives and guns. She's very meticulous about it too, taking her time with each blade making sure that it is sharpened to a hilt. It is the same with her pistols, she disassembles them, cleans the chambers and puts them back together. She usually does this after every mission, helping her calm down after the adrenaline rush. Cleaning the leftover blood and flesh off a knife has a soothing effect, just like smoking a Marlboro on a cool sunny day. Her knives and guns are her precious babies, and she'll be damned if she let them become tainted by some scum of the earth who deserved to perish.

She barely has partners with her on missions but when she does, they are kind of creeped out by her odd repetitive behavior, but they know better than to question her and keep it moving.

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - What's a side of your OC that they don't want to show other people?

Vulnerability. Nadia hates being vulnerable. She sees it as being weak. In fact her whole entire life she has felt weak, hopeless and worst of all, useless. Ever since she witnessed the gruesome death of her parents being shot to death, she has felt a burning rage within her soul, angry at herself for not doing anything to prevent it from happening. "It's all your fucking fault, you know that? You did this to yourself, you could've done something, anything." , she says to herself. Even though she was eight years old, she still blames herself for what happened. For being trafficked into becoming a child soldier turned assassin. She blames it all on herself, guilt wrapping her in a dark cloud.

Her past lovers have suffered the same fate, death , because she was too naive to understand that falling in love has consequences when you're a killer controlled by an organization that has no mercy. All distractions must be eliminated so to speak. "Don't stray from the mission", her handler tells her, but she doesn't listen, because she craves love, she craves affection, warmth, even if it's just for one second. The horror and heartbreak that she feels when she goes to visit her lover one day after finishing a task, she finds them dismembered in their bed. The feeling of iced pain and rage when she finds another one of her lovers covered in a pool of blood in the bathtub. "No no no no! But I was so careful this time!", she screams, tears dripping and mixing into the pooled blood. " You're selfish! You're so fucking selfish!", she realizes outloud, because her yearning and desire to feel loved has hurt others. Her allowing herself to be vulnerable kills others that are innocent. She can't slip up again. Not ever. Not until she gets revenge.

🌎EARTH - Will they give up the world for someone they love? Is this decision easy for them?

Yes, she will. She'll kill anybody and everybody who dares hurt the person she loves. She has taken down corrupt organizations that have put innocent children in danger, including the one that kidnapped her. It is no question that she'll do the same for the one that she loves. She has done some horrifying and gruesome shit in the name of love and protection.

[dramaticmama]

If you're a mum, what is a day like without your child/children?..

They could be in nursery/school 🏫, at their grandparents/fathers' house 🏠 or out on their own adventures...

A day without my little girl 👶🏻 is making sure the house is clean & tidy, her tea 🍽 has been prepared, her clothes are washed, hung out to dry and her clean dry clothes are neatly folded and put away. I make sure food shopping has been done if needed and any other odd bits that need to be done around the house, or I am at work. 👩‍⚕️

But, within all of that madness, I stop, and as guilty as it sounds, take a deep breath at the fact that my living room hasn't got nosiey toys all over the floor that hurt when accidentally stepped on.

The fact that my mum bun has turned into beautifully long brown curl locks, enjoying the feeling of my clothes not having mystery marks on them from cute tiny little hands, and while I notice all these things.

My heart ❤ sinks at the fact that I'd be lost without my mum bun, those mystery marks on my clothes and those nosiey toys 🧸 around my house.

In fact, I'd be completely and utterly lost without my little girl.

A day without your child/children is nice, peaceful, and a time for you to unwind as a mother 👩‍👧, but in reality, it's also a time ⏱️ we worry the most because someone else has our hearts ❤️ within their hands.

Thoughts 🤔 that run through our minds as mothers while our children/child are not within our care for the day are:

• Are they safe.

• Have they ate enough and drank enough throughout the day.

• Do they need extra clothes, nappies, wipes, creams and etc. (Nursery children)

• Will I be there on time to collect them.

Many more scenarios run through our minds, and some are completely out of this world 🌎, but mums sometimes deserve to be extra as that little human right there is our whole heart ❤️ and more walking around outside our bodies 😊..

Being someone's mum 👩‍👧 is the best title I have ever been, and I would never change it for the world 🌎 my mother once told me

" Wait until you have children, and you will understand the love I have for you!"

She was never wrong!🥰 the love I have for my little girl is unconditional!...

[pokefanbri]

To a Shallow mind She is too Deep

for some to Swim.

The Intellectual Dept of a Beautiful

Woman is Sadly Unreached by many

who choose Not to dive beyond the

Surface of her skin.

༺꧁❤️꧂༻

My siSTAR.

You’re a Soul -Deep Woman ; you won’t find a worthy Love in the shallows.

Within your chest beats a Warriors Heart , and your bones are woven from star-dust.

You deserve someone who sees you as holy,

like the high priestess that you are.

Who worships at your altar as you do theirs, in body, mind, spirit and heart.

Someone whose words are prayers of reverence pressed openly against your bare soul.

Earth Mother, you deserve someone who sees that your wild medicine grows feral in the trees and honors it, not dismisses it.

Someone who sees the magic that surrounds you as you move between the worlds and feel between the layers of time.

Who understands that in every petal and branch, you see a ritual to be Awakened and know the names of the spells etched upon the stars.

Who howls to your Full Moon light as you summon the wildfire that stirs in their veins.

Medicine woman, you deserve someone who understands that to do your deep soul-work, to walk the path of your ancient mystery, is to disappear at times into the realm of the unseen, but that you will always return to them on the other side of the darkness.

That your love is strong enough to withstand time and space, and will last even when you move among the shadows and swim in the unknown.

My sister, you deserve someone who will choose you fully and actively seek to build a world with you — one of peace, love and passion.

A wanderer who longs for the little adventures that are found on a Saturday morning out on the open road, listening to songs that others make fun of.

You deserve a best friend who wants your calm, your storm and every loving breath in between.

One who understands the deep healing found in deep belly laughter, silliness and lying bare in one another’s arms.

For you, dear soul, only one who embraces you in your wholeness will ever do — someone who will never half-love you or pluck you only to watch you wither.

One who opens fully for you to behold their medicine as they do yours, one who will never be satisfied until their roots have penetrated all the way into the depths of your nourishing soil.

One who loves the fire in your veins and the thunder in your spirit. One who celebrates you for all that you are.

My dear sister, somewhere on this planet beats a heart deserving of your fire.

Somewhere, there is one worthy of your magic made of flesh, blood and spirit, who is not afraid to dance in your endless depths. One who will never settle for less than the brilliance that you are.

Take your throne, sister, rise up and take your crown. Hold your head high, for the one who can see that your bright light is a spirit with a warrior’s heart to match your own.

Those who are unworthy can never truly see.

Never settle for the shade when you were born to shine.

My sister, never forget that you are a soul-deep woman, and you won’t find a worthy love in the shallows.”~

Picture - My Daughter!!

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Creator Writer Author ✍️

Mike Harrigan.

All Rights Reserved

I Am.

You Are.

We Are.

Oneness.

Universal Consciousness..

🔥🕎🔯🕉️ 🔥

💎 ❤️💚💙💜❤️ 💎

♀️☯️♂️

💞♏♌💞

❤️ 🌟 🌎🌍🌏🌟 ❤️

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

8:34 pmpdt 4 April 2023 Tuesday

I thought I worked hard in community college and intaglio printmaking and other stuff but I guess it wasn’t hard enough. I guess I wasn’t sacrificing enough. I guess I lied. I guess I’m really screwed. 🥶👹😓😵😞😖😭🥵acid under skin. 8:37 pmpdt too many excuses too many mistakes. I don’t believe that he spent any time with me. It was probably always a miñion. 8:38 pmpdt so many lies to get me to believe. 8:39 pmpdt I guess I deserve it. It’s sad though to be lied 🤥 to in that way. I don’t see how it would have been possible for me to have a real relationship with incubus. 8:40 pmpdt he’s proud of it. I think he took back the hair. 8:41 pmpdt e particle in Japanese is used when talking about direction/traveling? V=5=go bat 🦇 go? To gas ⛽️? Trying to understand. I guess that means his daughter is gas ⛽️ lighting me? His back w/ 2?crosses The second one made with dots = double crossed. Stabbed in back. Vampire 🧛‍♀️? I guess he’s calling me a vampire 🧛‍♀️ that he stabs in the back with a cross. 8:47 pmpdt intricate symbols?

9:58 pmpdt I guess I was too unrealistically optimistic. I thought 💭 maybe love 💕 is simpler in reality. If someone makes you feel safe, happy, and helps you maybe 🤔 you might start to love 💕 them. But if they hurt you, you will start to hate them. But I guess I didn’t think 💭 enough about it. Why someone might like me or you is it really more complex and hard to like someone? I was annoyed a lot and I thought 💭 maybe 🤔 I need to get used to them, is this how to socialize myself and start naturally adapting and start naturally liking people? I mentioned that to Q, but Q said it should work immediately/click immediately. No work. Maybe 🤔 she’s right? Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️. I watched a Korean dramedy I think titled legend of the blue sea 🌊? I think 💭 it’s based on reincarnation maybe 🤔 in a fictional way? Yeah. If specific dna 🧬 combos are ultimate matches and everyone is different then we would ultimately be more attracted to one person than another and that it would work out magically by Mother Nature. But that was when I started believing all the stuff incubus put online for me to see: (acid burning under skin. 10:08 pmpdt) soulmates stuff, the hair taped on the cookie 🍪 container that said baton on it, the videos in Instagram posts and stories, the bed 🛏 being fixed or replaced after I went for a walk with mom. I started to believe. I think it’s heinous to toy 🧸 with me like that Bcz I grew up 🆙 watching Disney movies and wishing for magic 🪄 and soulmates to be real. But I was hoping for a very attractive soulmate 😥😵 in high school 🏫 an older man came to talk to the whole school 🏫 said there’s no soulmate. There’s no the one. And that there are a lot of people you can be compatible with. And he even joked about one man 👨 impregnating the whole world 🌎. 10:13 pmpdt

10:25 pmpdt I guess I have been too naïve? Didn’t think 💭 enough. God gave a lot of people good reason to ignore me and not know me and assume everything he said to be true. Like that men are attracted to men so we should assume that what we see and know is real? Or if god really talked to you does he tell you he mollified an evil 🦹 person by making him gay???? I m trying to figure it out, otherwise I think 🤔 most or all people? Are virtue signaling and don’t mean anything they say? No one cares if someone else’s daughter gets raped and murdered Bcz god said it was ok, and Bcz it’s normal for guys to rape and murder it’s excused. So I guess I am and was really naïve... 10:31 pmpdt now I’m not. And I feel these feelings that I would have felt so ashamed to feel while I was growing up 🆙. So I’m going to die and no one will care Bcz it really is a dog eat dog 🐶 world 🌎 and incubus has no shame in feeling that way himself but he’s making it hard for me to know for sure. But Bcz it’s gone this far for this long I guess there is no hope for humanity. To be human is to be excused by god so you don’t have to care when bad things happen to people you don’t know and you will never know. 10:34 pmpdt desolation? God/incubus is trying to make me believe I deserved to be treated by Nick in that way. 10:35 pmpdt and I guess Scott. And everyone. 10:36 pmpdt if I really didn’t deserve to be treated that way it’s getting harder for even myself to know anymore even though I was a virgin until 19 years old. How confused 🤷🏻‍♀️ some gay people might be feeling now about themselves????10:37 pmpdt 10:38 pmpdt

10:42 pmpdt I guess I really don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve anything wonderful and beautiful 😻 in my life. 10:42 pmpdt

10:43 pmpdt I don’t have much of a butt left. It’s almost gone. And the incubus gave me a rash on my butt. 10:44 pmpdt it’s really like *NSYNC sings bye bye bye 👋 10:45 pmpdt

10:59 pmpdt 11 pmpdt I guess Nick carter is more valuable than I am. More deserving than I am. I tried too hard a lot of times to like people that I neglected myself, I guess? Right hip pain 11:02 pmpdt I web searched and $35 million popped up 🆙 for his net worth. But I’m not talking about money 💰. What is the definition of a whore? I guess that’s me. No one who adores other rich people are not whores, even if they don’t know them well. 11:05 pmpdt

11:14 pmpdt sorry 😞 I’m angry. But I’m designated whore of the apocalypse. Desolation. Desolated. Loneliness is tragical? 11:15 pmpdt

🎶🎼🎵🎤🎸11:16 pmpdt

11:52 pmpdt incubus hates me. I’m dying 😵. I’m dying 😵. I’m dying 😵. I anticipate dying. I think he’s going to make me want to commit suicide. Soon. Already started feeling it. Which is why I’m begging him to do to it by guillotine. Bcz I don’t believe the nicer things he says anymore (acid pain skull 💀 maybe brain 🧠? Yup there it is. 😵😖😭 he’s really putting it inside more now. 11:55 pmpdt) I was too naïve. He is not faking it. This is heinous. I guess he thinks I slacked off too much even though I had difficulty focusing, difficulty remembering, difficulty comprehending. I took a whole hour I think I remember to read a not very small print page 📄 which was probably only 6” by 6” of a philosophy homework 📚 so I gave up a lot. But when I got help I was more likely to finish the assignment. The please read program. 11:58 pmpdt he’s killing my brain 🧠 with acid and abuse. 11:59 pmpdt I don’t trust god. If he cannot be straight, honest with me then I should assume the darker more heinous stuff he’s saying to me is true. I cannot believe him anymore. I’m afraid 😱 all this acid is going to make me fall. 12:01 am pdt if no one is themself, if we are all messed with like a gay man 👨 then what’s really wrong and right? It’s all lost???? So it seems to not matter anymore to god? I’m too naïve. 😞😖😭😫😩 12:02 am pdt

12:06 12:07 am pdt I am very dumb. For months I thought 💭 we could build parking lot structures and do additional farming on that. Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m not a farmer 👩‍🌾. 12:08 am pdt would probably need to put openings on each floor to let in sunlight ☀️ 🌞 sun ⛅️. 12:10 am pdt

12:10 am pdt I am dumb. Unfortunately, when incubus started showing himself to me he didn’t say he was god immediately. Now I’m concerned what he actually did to me December ish 2016. He did do a lot of stuff in 2022. So I guess that was the same thing continued. 12:13 am pdt everyone hates me! 🥵 my butt is roasting 🥺☹️😖😭 it hurts. 12:14 am pdt I probably won’t like what comes next. 12:15 am pdt

12:19 am pdt I guess I’m too much of a liar 🤥 and slacker. Incubus/god hates me. I avoided getting jobs by going to school 🏫 and now I wish I had a job rather than go to school 🏫. I tried computer animation one semester?, fashion design one semester, (left nostril 👃 pain stings 12:22 am pdt) silk smells like bacon 🥓 if you burn it. 12:23 am pdt I did painting 🧑‍🎨 one semester. I did 3 English classes. (Acid harsh pain 12:24 am pdt) I f I excelled at Java I would have continued computer 👩🏻‍💻 programming. But I did not excel. 12:26 am pdt vag pain. I don’t think 💭 there’s a purpose anymore to writing ✍️. There is nothing to fight for anymore. I’m a fraud. Happy? Incubus? I said what you wanted me to admit.

12:29 am pdt acid pain brain 🧠 I was thinking 💭 about typing 💬 about my fear of being in the public and talking to people but then the acid happened. I guess he doesn’t want me explaining why I was afraid 😱 to get a job. Now it feels like a lie. But I think 💭 I remember that was the reason. I got jobs at school 🏫. 12:33 am pdt ( left nostril 👃 sting). When I was afraid 😱 to get a job in 2015 I thought 💭 about what job I could do. I wanted a data entry job that I could sit a computer 👩🏻‍💻 and not talk to anyone but a boss I could appreciate. 12:35 am pdt I thought 💭 that way, I won’t get into trouble! No more trouble. But I guess I am wrong! 12:36 am pdt

12:58 am pdt I am barking up 🆙 the wrong tree 🌳. There’s nothing to fight for. Everyone loves Nick carter and incubus. I’m the odd one out. 12:59 am (acid brain 🧠 pain) whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. 1 am pdt I guess it’s a trap 🪤 to call him incubus???? But that’s the dominant theme of my blog when I write ✍️ about (acid pain harsher than before! Back of mouth 👄 pain) . 1:07 am pdt you were punishing me for talking against incubus and now you’re punishing me for going the other way. Damned both ways. I would rather not do anymore work Bcz people think 💭 they don’t have to do anything and that they have no problems. And he’s rich 🤑 so he’s one of them. I’m only picking a fight that I should not pick, right? So I’m withdrawing. WHAT DO YOU WANT???????!!!!! 1:05 am pdt they (the winning side ) has no problems with Nick carter. But me (the losing side) has a problem with him. WHAT DO YOU (acid brain pain 1:06 am pdt) want.

1:19 am pdt every time incubus hurts me especially my brain 🧠 I think 💭 I should think 💭 that he lied 🤥. That he lied 🤥 about being my husband. It’s obviously a well thought out deception premeditated? Planned waaaay ahead of time. Bcz my name transliterated is chavah with Greek letter nu. Essentially. Adam + eve. I had difficulty even premeditating? the layout/composition when drawing on my own a vase 🏺 of flowers 💐. I would usually hope for the best once I decided on a spot to start on the paper 📄. 1:24 am pdt dumb (acid pain right arm 1:24 pmpdt) guess I’m dead 😵. 1:25 am pdt

1:28 am pdt I think the other side is bored anyway right? They always get to have fun 🤩 doing movies singing and dancing 🕺🏻. They probably want to sing and dance 💃🏻 with Nick carter. So why rob them of the opportunity? 1:30 🕜 am pdt they love him and want him around. 1:30 am pdt

1:31 am pdt I’m poor. They’re rich 🤑. They are not dying. I cannot breathe half the day and in chronic pain. Left shin pain. Doctors 🥼 like them! Right?! (Acid pain brain 🧠 skull 💀) I was doing this for free. Why no one else trying anything? Even though they have millions? Oh, Bcz they invested in the phony finger clip oxygen detection machine that Amar malek probably created? To kill me? 1:33 am pdt bcz they’re all only killers not saviors?????????? 😱 1:24 am pdt is that why on Wikipedia it says he’s an English major at a different college completely different from what I originally read? Bcz he’s hiding that he know computers 💻 and cellphones 📱??? Did he murder Lauren !? Did he hire hitmen to crash into her to kill her???? 1:36 am pdt

1:37 am pdt did Lauren secretly give my cellphone 📱 to Amar malek? Am I spelling his name right I don’t remember anymore. 1:38 am pdt

1:41 am pdt bcz it’s all gods plans it’s hard to know whether I should be angry 😡 about it or not. Feels bleak. I (left hip bone 🦴 pain 1:42 am pdt) ribs hip bones 🦴 pain! 1:43 am pdt it’s a crime to murder. If Amar malek decided to kill someone who helped him, an art 🖼 and philosophy major what was his reasoning to convince her? And what was his reasoning to kill her after she got my cell phone 📱 willingly from me? Was it greed? But did he fabricate something (1:46 pmpdt pain bone skull 💀 bottom right). He was friendly with the incubus and gym class heroes 🦸‍♂️? Maybe “Brendan”? Did he realize his plan was flawed, & thought 💭 don’t give Lauren time to catch on that he lied 🤥. Bcz if he told her I was a bad person, why would a poor, bad person give their cellphone 📱 to a classmate she barely knew? Too trusting? (Pain pain pain! Right ribs 1:50 am pdt) I’m dumb so it’s possible I am wrong but I feel as if I’m being punished it’s hurting 🫁 lung flesh sharp 😖😭😫 1:51 am pdt) I was too trusting. Maybe 🤔 in lala land. What is lala land???? If I was smart I wouldn’t give my cellphone 📱 to anyone? I could be wrong. But why would I risk it if I planned to do bad things? Bcz I don’t plan to do bad things? Maybe 🤔 he thought 💭 this afterwards after it was done ✅. 1:55 am pdt so, he had to hide his tracks, by killing her. (Acid brain 🧠 1:56 am pdt) all of this is speculation. 1:57 am pdt incubus is eating my brain with acid I don’t like this. This is serious. I will be completely dead soon if this continues. It might make me fall. 1:58 am pdt

1:58 am pdt Amar malek is dangerous if he’s really smart. Computers 💻 are dangerous. 1:59 am pdt he could knowingly be contributing (acid hot spine 😤🥵😤🥵😤😥😤 2 am pdt hot 🥵 brain 🧠) to s*x human trafficking/prostitution. If he read what I wrote on tumblr and chose not to come forward, it is basically like admitting to it, and mthat’s contingent upon proving he was at UCB and maybe following me back to my hometown. It’s possible if he killed Lauren then he probably killed others he befriended there. 2:03 am pdt

2:23 am pdt I wrote more stuff and it disappeared 👻. Not funny . I wrote serious stuff and felt more acid pain in my brain 🧠. I don’t even do drugs! 2:24 am pdt 2:24 am pdt did Amar malek kill ghost ship 🛳 in Oakland December 2, 2016? Cold 🥶 2:25 am pdt

2:27 am pdt if they’re really good and I’m really bad, then I guess I’m screwed: 2:27 am pdt

2:34 am pdt maybe 🤔 I’m too selfish 😞 I watched too many Disney movies. My paternal grand parents seemed like they maybe were happy to be married to each other. But Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️. They lived in SoCal mostly. And I lived in the bay. I was separated from everyone by distance. I remember my grandpa 👴 was not happy grandma 👵 died when I was 16 years old. 2:39 am pdt 2:40 am pdt

W2:46 am pdt left shin pain. 2:47 am pdt head hot. I think 💭 incubus is trying to make me crazy now. They don’t need any more ideas (teeth pain 2:48 Pam pdt) they’re rich 🤑 now. So I guess it’s time to get rid of me. 2:49 am pdt maybe I was a little dumb and weird and a little crazy so I looked crazy. So Amar malek probably thought 💭 he had time to see if he could harvest anymore ideas 💡 from me. 2:51 (acid in throat pain 2:51 am pdt) this is what I would have thought 💭 b4 the “god”/incubus thing was revealed to me. 2:52 am pdt how (acid brain 🧠 pain 2:53 am pdt) I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ what incubus wants from me anymore. I use emojis as markers. 2:54 am pdt

2:58 am pdt how would I know that the idea 💡 was given to me by god? Or if I was given freedom to come up with my own ideas 💡? He did not speak to me and say this is my idea 💡 here use it as if it was your own. I did not have that type of relationship with god. 3 am pdt (acid brain 🧠 pain 3 am pdt)!!! Pain!!! Increased intensity of acid hot. He doesn’t like me disclosing that. I didn’t think 💭 very much. I didn’t put 2+2 together. There are times I forget what I experienced in one situation and then when I’m in a different situation sometimes There is no cross over. Probably was a consequence of hitting my head a lot. 3:03 am pdt I was afraid of getting pregnant 🤰 when I was with Scott and I didn’t think 💭 that god could cancel a pregnancy 🤰. So I took plan b, which was 2 pills 💊/tablets back then, the one I had. 3:05 am pdt if it’s a principle thing, I’m still getting punished. Like for the simple principle stuff. But I guess they are operating on different principles that I guess are higher than my principles that I’m operating on. If they’re better than me then god forgives them for the things that would otherwise be considered wrong. 3:07 am pdt I guess he wants me to acknowledge that. Bcz I had the tendency to not accept responsibility for things that I guess I should. I should not go on dates if I cannot control my desire. I should only (right heel pain 3:09 am pdt) Bcz Scott blamed me for turning him on for messing around. And he’s right. I should not have been on his lap. I should not have been at his house 🏠 without chaperone. I should have went to doctor amen 🙏 . To see if he can help me with addiction. (Brain acid pain 3:11 am pdt) so, that makes me bad. VERY BAD. He’s right. I was WRONG 😑. 3:12 am pdt left shin pain 3:13 am pdt (brain acid pain 3:13 am pdt) and I should have spent 100% of my time on my school 🏫 work. No fun at all with guys. No Nick. No Brendan. So if Amar is friends with them, it’s my fault then that (acid throat pain 3:15 am pdt) Amar malek probably stole stufff from me (acid right arm pain throat again 3:15 am pdt) and I should have not did what I did on any of those occasions I wrote confessions about. I was mean and selfish and bad. Even though that baby 👶, and those kids are probably okay back then when I did stuff, I shouldn’t have ran. I should have faced it all then each time something happened. But I was a coward. Always. With a few exceptions. 3:18 am pdt I guess that makes them better than me. Is that what you want incubus???? Left shin pain 3:19 am pdt (idk if incubus is lying 🤥 or not. What am I going to do. Autocorrect: inn innocent 🏨 3:20 am pdt I guess he’s telling me that it’s all (acid throat pain. Throat feels bumpy 3:21 am pdt) him. Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️. The room gets smelly here like it got smelly in the apartment. Neighbor upstairs in apartment was weird and noisy. They played loud music 🎶 at 11 pm shook walls. 3:23 3:24 am pdt sometimes I smelled fish in the bathroom 🚽. Sometimes gas fumes from cars. Sometimes when I showered my skin peeled after I smelled something bad. B4 peeling I think it hurt. Trying to remember. Acid right arm pain 3:26 am pdt. Incubus lies to me about marriage and children and makes it believeable. So I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️. Everything is weird Bcz of him. 3:27 am pdt making me feel weird and bad again left hip joint pain 3:27 am pdt 3:28 am pdt

[flippityflaps]

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I find it incredible how she manages to look amazing even in baby pink

[eddiexspaghettixx]

Best Friends 💓

@stanleyboii is my best friend is the whole world. She is the Richie to my Eddie and I have no idea what I would do without her. She is feisty, beautiful, and amazing. I love you, babes! ♥️🍝🌎

@edwardtheloser is an awesome person and means so much to me. She doesn’t need anything bad and deserves all good things. She is extremely strong and beautiful. I love you, moose. 👽💛

@turtles10146 is a beautiful person inside and out. I met her because I was her secret Santa. I’m so happy to have gotten her because she means a lot. I love you, Alex. 🐼🖤

I love all these beautiful women. They all hold a special place in my heart. They are my best friends and I’m so extremely lucky and thankful to have them in my life. ♥️💛🖤

[my3amletterstoher]

My girl's breasts would slay this "top" , sexy af my girl's breasts is 😍🤤😍🤤

😩🤤🤤🤤😍😍😍😍😍🐱💦🏆💍🌎💎SEXY AF , melts and swoons 😍🤤😩😍🤤😩🐱💦, tumblr moving so slow right now, wya? You usually pop up earlier I could of sleep in , 🖤🚀✨✨✨, I wanna nap with you, lounge around all day and night with you 😍🤤😍🤤🤤🐱💦holding you, touching you, fucking *you 😍🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🐱💦, gives you a big hug and kiss , I'm right here baby? Can you feel me? Can you feel me? Stay focused, I'm right here 🖤 let's get away ... farrrrrr away 🚀✨✨✨✨

I appreciate you so much 🖤, zone out baby, deep breathing in and out , visualize that white light in and around you, real shiny.. creating a reflective layer on the outside of it .. it can be egg shaped or a bubble as we floattttt and soarrrrr... deep breathing in and out , on exhale soaring deeper, up in the clouds one of the clouds has a hole in it, we go inside and it seals close , it's a whole 'nother realm with everything you could ever imagine , deep breathing in and out, kissing you on the lips, deep breathing in and out, kissing you on your sexy ass neck 😍🐱💦, deep breathing in and out, carassing your sides /waist💋💋💋💋🤤🤤,deep breathing in and out, rubbing on your thighs, kissing inbetween them

I wanna melt inside your thighs .. that ass 😍🤤😍🤤

Post to your SC story.. not IG. post for me, text me, Lemme see your face baby, lemme see your body, lemme see your lips, lemme see your thighs, lemme see your booty baby 😍🤤🤤🤤, lemme see you in your bra and panties 🤤😍😍😍🤤😍, strip for me

You're cuffed by ME, ain't no blessing "y'all", you only blessed me, you only do things for me/in regards to me, I deserve your love, the world and everything, you don't want no one's else's attention,gratification, love, time or anything, you don't give a fuck what no one has to say, or comment on, you run to me, you reach to me, you long for me, you crave me, you're not entertaining no one else out here. Do you think I don't know that? I do 😍🖤🏆💍💎🎁🔒⛓

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Sit that ass down on my face 🤤😍and arch your back , lemme see your body baby, wrap your thighs around me baby 🤤😍🤤🤤, lemme see your breasts baby 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤, I can't wait to see you ***naked baby 😭😩😍😍😍😍😍🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆 spread those as far as you can baby lemme see that booty hole 🤤🤤🤤😍lemme see it breathing/pulsating 😍😍😍🤤🤤🤤deep breathing in and out, keep it coming, zone out, we not paying attention to nothing or no one else, we in our own world and don't care about the outside world, deep breathing in and out, lemme see your lips baby , that arch in your back is perfection 🤤😍😍😍😍

Can you feel me? Zone out , that bitch is tryna drain you, she's already been messing with my energy today. We not paying attention to her, I caught on to what she's doing , she has outbursts and shit on her shit.. that energy gets transferred to our mists (that's one of the ways she does it) and you thinking that she isn't doing anything but she's doing it behind the scenes the same thing happened the day before yesterday .. in the afternoon you posted this

And towards the evening you posted:

She flared up and then she came out of nowhere saying she had mood swings right? Around that same time then all of a sudden conflict with us, she's working against you, me, us behind your back , I noticed that anytime I said something in regards to us, or said something about us doing something.. showed you a sign.. etc she flared up big time .. you witnessed it too.. the other day when you kept flaring up and taking things the wrong way remember? That was her energy/aura

Look at you since she tried to be around more , she's taking the life and any optimism right out of you .. then you wanna smoke more right? You try to find things to fill it voids .. before you were drinking/felt like you needed too.. wanting to party.. wanting to go out .. not even realizing she's the one that's making you feel empty.. but realizing that all along she's the one.. she's always the one.. always in the mix somehow.. yeah you got things going on.. yeah you're going through things..etc but she makes things worse .. she stirs things up in your mind and in your emotions which drags you down then tries to take advantage of that and just like you.. look at the bad luck I had

After she said "kill or be killed" look at all that happened even more

Every since you were distancing yourself from her and said about the universe working in wonderous ways it seems like that infuriated her more and she started to most more after that remember? And then she became more aggressive which made me become more aggressive to protect us

Matter of fact.. doesn't that sound just like what they say the "devil" does? See you doing good and stuff and tries to slither their way back in /around more , all the things I said was harmful to you/your energy..etc she did it even more. I said that her energy and presence causes bad things to occur in your life.. what she do? Be around more. She even tried to manipulate you with that ungenuine shoutout after she read on here that reading about planting seeds. It's not good to talk to her bc she reads things , twists things, tries to justify things look at what she just did.. having you feel insecure/like I don't want you.. trying to make you cheat on me/go against me/not give me your love/the world

Look at how she tried to make it look like y'all was in cahoots when you posted that picture for me. Nothing she says can be trusted. Please don't check for her, don't pay attention to her..etc

She thinks she won yesterday that's why she posted that brain.. remember that reading said that she thinks you're stupid? That she thinks you're an easy target? She manipulates you and boasts about it. All the times you were mad at me, all the times you had things going on in your life she boasted about it, she was happy af, the day she threatened both of us she flipped it around when I went off and somehow you wind up at her house .. that's manipulation, she played the victim even though all this time she was/is the person that should be avoided at all costs. Like how can I person make threats to someone (later on say it's joking which is a lie cause she got it up in her bio too and has said it before RIGHT ON YOUR SNAP) and then when someone defends themselves it gets switched/turned on them? That was very manipulative that's why I'm begging you to please not listen to anything she has to say no matter what it is.

That bitch is still on your account (your IG ) when she's not supposed to me on any of your accounts. This bitch us tryna infest you wherever you go. And she's probably trying to communicate with you on there too when she's trying to get away from her.

PS: get off of IG , you weren't paring frequently like that before or on there, you were posting on SC for me.. see this is another thing I'm talking about this bitch is trying to destroy shit. It's HER fault you fault insecure and see that's her MO.. break you down and then try to manipulate you and say some fake insecure nice shit and you're breaking out because of her too.. see even your body/skin is crying out for help, it's saying this bitch is toxic and it's showing via you breaking out and everything else. You're feeling insecure because of her, she has you isolated and shit, you didn't even pop up until later in the morning and then her ass popped up, she's out to destroy you, your life..etc don't listen to shit that ugly ass bitch has to say and don't let her twist my anger and shit

She's trying to isolate you, she planted seeds in your mind and got you feeling insecure, she's trying to infest you more, she's trying to get you to not do what I want/love /you continue to

That what she said was out of hatred and out to be a obstacle even more for you and us , she didn't like what you were doing and so she manipulated you into not doing and look at you now

She's manipulating you hard af right now, you don't trust that bitch, you hate that bitch, and every time she does something your hatred for that bitch increases and you are even more determined to get away from her. Don't have her feed you that fake shit . She's the one that tore you down, she's the one trying to destroy you and then try to make herself look good to cover up all the bullshit she's doing

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"I turned a corner and sat down to eat the prize I had just stolen. Before I could sink my teeth into it, a stray dog ​​approached me. He was moaning with hunger and his ribs were showing under his skin. "Are you hungry too, little dog?" I asked as I broke the bar in half. The dog ate his share. When I was about to eat mine, a second stray dog ​​arrived and looked at me with a forlorn face. Sighing sadly, I handed him the rest of the bread and patted his head. «I guess I don't have dinner tonight», I thought."

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"Did the Darkling also love my aunt, who died along with countless civilians in Novokribirsk so that he could demonstrate his power to the world?" ... "Did he love the girl he forced to commit those murders? And the one he pushed into the old king's bed to further his own ends, the very one he later mutilated when she dared defy him? And the woman he blinded for not showing his unwavering devotion?" " Who would speak for Liliyana, for Genya, for Alina, and for Baghra if she didn't?" «And who will speak for me?»"

zoya, honey, you deserve the whole world🌎

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

13 Friday Jan u ary 2023 8:04 pm pdt

I’ve had a lot of stomachache and PAIN and diarrhea that smells like vinegar. If you ever used vinegar, you will probably experience some stuff deteriorated because of it... 😭😱😞😖🥵😤it gives me a lot of fear. He is 😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭🥵😤🥵😤 really destroying me. I have no real reason to believe that it’s for any other purpose than to kill me. A lot of times my throat has been dry especially the last 2 years. He is making me drink 🍺 it I believe. Like a doll 🧸. A puppet. I believe that is how he has been breaking down my bones 🦴. Was that usher? Sang so many ways to love you ... break you down.. oh my gosh I’m so inlove you make me wanna say oh oh oh oh. Didn’t realize until last year how demonic it sounds. Incubus and him are friends, right? On the voice together? 8:13 pm pdt. I almost have no moment now. I used to hold it and procrastinate going to the bathroom 🚽. It’s been continuously coming many times this week. I had a small break when I moved a few days ago to a worse location, same place though. 8:17 pm pdt

8:40 pm pdt I’m afraid 😱 of my new location. Too much high powered fast velocity stuff acidic pee not feng shway. 8:43 pm pdt. Incubus I heard likes to fake out a lot. incubus has probably made my whole life complicated and difficult to make and keep friends, even with relatives. He made me think 💭 I did the worse things in the world 🌎 and deserving of condemnation? Suicide crossed my mind several times. I was too scared 😱 though to follow through. That I would do it wrong. I had tried to prepare for in case something happened to me: I tried to minimize paper 📄 and I scanned a lot. And ironically I think I lost all of it??? When I ran away more than a year ago. But now we moved back in with relatives and it’s difficult again. Movers basically swindled us these last 2 times we moved. I have already told my mom that the furniture 🪑 needs to be moved first. It didn’t happen. Everything is disorderly and furniture is piled on top of the other. I caught 4 movers, 2 on each occasion doing bad stuff: moving light weight empty containers instead of the furniture 🪑. I talked as kindly as I could to him telling him he needs to move the heavy stuff, and the previous movers did a similar thing and even moved my shoes 👟 so I had no shoes 👟 to wear and had to borrow from my aunt. My mom and aunt let them off the hook 🪝 and my mom paid $1000 the previous time which they charged us a lot for a moving truck 🛻 we didn’t need because we only moved downstairs 😑. I think it would have been nice if the movers could have had a procedure that helps all their clients such as moving furniture 🪑 first. I literally am living in a fire 🔥 and earthquake 🌍 hazard now. We have away a dining table and a tall ikea hermes? Dresser to them without seeing what happened in the new apartment. 9:01 pm pdt my aunt and cousin moved first days ago but seem to be too busy with work to help much. It would have been nice if cousin helped more than pack a few boxes 📦, we probably could have gave her more money 💰 if she helped more. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ her well unfortunately bcz relationships have always been difficult for me - probably bcz of my Saint Lucia /chavah/Jesus/ apocalypse desolation curse. Please read previous posts. 9:06 pm pdt. I guess in this life Adam is the new god and divorced eve bcz the previous god said eve is bad bcz she ate his fruit without his permission. So instead of sharing the consequences and being kicked out of eden, he divorced eve. 9:09 pm pdt

so much for in sickness and I’m health through thick and thin. I also bought a guitar 🎸 from a white guy prob in his mid 40s married and lived in a 2 story house in scotts valley . I paid $600 for it stupidly. I looked it up a few years ago, not BEFORE buying it, and found out it’s only worth $200. I relied on my mother’s boyfriend at the time he found it on Craigslist and I trusted him with everything. And then he tried to get me to spend more money 💰 on it at a store 🏬 that makes it’s own guitars 🎸. He also looked like a white guy. I used to think white guys were so attractive and wanted to date them. I have not yet met one to fall in love with. I’ve fallen for a half white guy, at least once, maybe 2 times the same guy, but we didn’t survive an argument? He was usually hard to get, too, but whenever we hung out I 98% ? Of the time enjoyed his company even (pain 😖🥵😤😭 hot acidic in flesh front again ) though we never kissed or did anything sexual with each other and I used to believe that he would eventually be my man. But there always seemed to be some other woman 👩🏻 more worth his time Bcz he didn’t make many plans with me ahead of time. Whenever it seemed he was pushing me away he said stuff like someday “you will have blonde babies” he said something like that. And when my first real boyfriend broke up 🆙 with me he said something like “you will meet a handsome blonde guy soon.” I think that’s what I recall. These 2 guys know each other and we all went to the same high school 🏫. Weird similar themes. Both these guys are half Asian half white, but both have brown eyes and black hair. 9:25 pm pdt.

10:54 pm pdt time goes by fast 💨 everyday... when did I do scanning of my documents ? I did it I think 🤔 2014? Or 2015? Until early 2017? And I think I was thinking 🤔 about suicide 2015? And I was watching Inuyasha on Hulu while feeling like my life was over. Some people even commit suicide over grades I heard many years ago? I really believe that there is no heaven, now. (Gurgle? 😞) 10:59 pm pdt. I’ve always had pain in my life since I was a kid 👧 from scratching myself in my sleep making myself bloody 🩸 and scabbed up 🆙 up and down both legs 🦵 and arms when I was 6 or 7 years old, irritable bowels, and chronic eczema from 7/8 years old forward, and then this chronic bone 🦴 and muscle and flesh and eyeballs 👀 pain from ≈July/august 2017; and also occasional? pain (including whole body pain at least once) from 3 seasons of running 🏃🏻‍♀️ sports in high school 🏫 and whole body aches that made it difficult to move and breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ December? 2014, I think I also remember feeling like an old person in probably 2013? And after my parents separated my mom once commented that I look 👀 like a sick old woman 👵 and she said I should get a hair cut 💇🏻‍♂️. When I was very young maybe 6 or 7 years old my grandma 👵 on my dads side took my hair and with her fingers she made a snip snip gesture and said snip snip. I’m not close to any of my relatives. Even the ones we had visited many times in SoCal. 11:11 pm pdt I heard this evening something about ecstasy, interesting. I cannot see maryka’s Instagram anymore. My mom canceled the home 🏠 internet. and she blocked my friend on Instagram. 11:14 pm pdt.

12:15 am pdt 14 Jan u ary 2023 Saturday

(12:27/8 am pdt note 📝 for 12:15 spiky sharp acidic pain in anus when was in bathroom 🚽 )

incubus is faking us out as apocalypse pestilence and faking us out again as if it is not???? Incubus does not like. He got back what he wanted from us. He swindled us out of our strength by making us wait. He will never let us have a happy life. 12:18 am pdt he has no intentions of anything resolving. He probably only has intentions of letting cases become cold 🥶 and unsolved. And innocent men will die in prison. Some innocent men live half their life time in prison before found innocent??? Some men who rape and murdered women with children 👶 say about themselves that they are good people???? How do we (pain 😖😭😤😫😩) know what is true? They confuse me. I don’t know if I can even believe in myself bcz they mess with me all my life. Even football 🏈 players are strong 💪? And wear helmets ⛑? But still! Are very affected by body collisions in the sport. I read once that we are still very affected by concussions and maybe 🤔 they said (gurgling a minute ago 😞bad signs 🪧) 12:28 am pdt unfailing love of god .... kings will forfeit? Their crowns 😭🤕 surrender their crowns. 🎹 I was advised to give up 🆙 the case against the incubus and Sierra Lamar stuff in consequence goes with surrendering to incubus. Bcz incubus is bad and powerful like god and Merlin 🧙‍♂️ king of kings = lord/god? A happy king 🤴 he is. 😑😵 12:33 am pdt Jesus is king 🤴 Jesus is lord Jesus is worthy= stuff found online and then n songs. (Gurgling 😞) 12:34 am pdt expect only weakening and death ☠️ bcz Godzilla incubus is a double crosser. Crossing a line is double crossing your wife. Et cetera. My own family won’t 👂 hear me out when I talk about stuff related to incubus like back in 2015 one-of my cousins started talking online to a guy she didn’t know. They were on webcam but he was sorta hiding himself behind a hat 🧢. I wrote a letter trying to tell her some of my experience of chatting online with guys you don’t know and at least 1 out of 2 was a liar 🤥. Please read previous posts? I might have to write more here. 12:40 am pdt both my cousin and aunt deleted my letter without reading 📖 it. I suspected incubus sent them vibes ? To delete it. 12:41 am pdt 12:56 am pdt I sent it via Facebook.

2:03 am pdt I am completely in the dark, out of the loop 🔁 , not part of the incubus’ plan. This diarrhea is non stop 🛑.😖😭😞 clan not plan. 2:05 am pdt

2:21 am pdt incubus will use the softness of your heart ♥️ to lie to you. He is cunning and conniving? His lies have no boundaries. It’s a trap 🪤. 2:22 am pdt

2:24 am pdt in the apocalypse the whore of Babylon falls. He will rob me of my legs 🦵. 2:25 am pdt he has been giving signs 🪧.

2:29 am pdt we are all connected in a circle ⭕️? A hoop ? That never ends?? 🎶🎼🎵There’s probably an end. Dominos?? There’s a very loud thunderous sound been going all night. I cannot believe no one has complained. It’s the second? Time I heard 👂 it. It’s eerie and frightening. Everything and everyone is strange. God is a grater? Beer is good??? People are crazy. 🎶🎼🎵. Gurgling 😞2:35 am pdt

2:44 am pdt incubus wants me scared 😱 of everything. And doesn’t like it when I write ✍️ type or talk. He makes me feel guilt about everything. He gave signs 🪧 he might throw a car 🚗 at me, make a train 🚊 derail if I ride it, but he’s eating 🍽 away at all the hard materials in my bones 🦴 with vinegar and fire 🔥... lake of fire 🔥. I’m not 23, (but sumner is???) and I’m probably in the verge of spontaneous combustion woe is me 🎵🎼🎶😞 hans Christian Anderson?? Little mermaid 🧜‍♀️. Anderson elementary school 🏫. Everything has been decided before conception. Aries ♈️ ram 🐏 = Japanese 🇯🇵 “r” pronunciation like “L”. Sacrificial lamb 🐑 of Abel. Anne ? Or Anna? Was virgin Mary’s mother’s name I learned last year I think 🤔. My mom’s name is Annabel. And virtu is part of my grandmas maiden name. A lot of psychology to keep me quiet? 🤐 or to keep other sacrificial lambs quiet and complacent? As they weaken. Song of Christians Jesus is defender of the weak. 🎶🎼🎵😞 my middle name is my mom’s maiden name which is like nature’s bathtub 🛁. 2:54 am pdt in the apocalypse it tricks you into thinking rams will be saved when they aren’t. In my dads old dictionary it says goats 🐐 mean lecherous man 👨. Today it means greatest of all time. So I’ve been tricked. And so have many others. 2:56 am pdt god is incubus to Virgin Mary . Incubus is lecherous rapist murderer pestilence. God likes things the way they are, status quo. He prefers white peoples over Philippinos and Asians, but he needs only some of them. During COVID disproportionately??? More philippinos have died in California??? Was it? Sam Diego article. 2:59 am pdt incubus does not prefer Filipino but he will use them so he will make them pay 💰 high prices for concert tickets 🎫 probably when they are still relatively third world 🌎 country? Last time I went you still have to bring your own toilet paper 🧻 with you even at the nice new mall, and he will tell them sweet NOTHINGS. 3:01 am pdt

3:07 am pdt I don’t know much about the Philippines 🇵🇭 they have a lot more conveniences now, but it still in some way retains a sort of third world 🌎 feel? There a lot of dirt roads still, maybe shacks? I’m not sure now. More reading 📖 to do if this diarrhea ever stops. I’m pushing my luck now. 3:10 am pdt haughty? unfortunately?. 😞 3:10 am pdt

3:31 am pdt 3:33 am pdt he did it again to the time. Skipped a minute. Please read previous posts and watch his music videos. You will see why I believe this. 3:34 am pdt

3:37 am pdt can a rose 🌹 rose 🥀 by any other name smell 👃 Hana as sweet? ... Juliet is in the east, and Juliet is the sun 🌞 ouch hot 🥵 don’t want to be the sun ☀️ 😭😰 Susanna ... su... close. I can not trust anyone yet I’m typing 💬 all this. 3:41 ehi = pee. Everything is a con I don’t like it 😭😖😭 3:42 am pdt too big = water 💦. 3:43 am pdt gurgled 🥺😞😖😭 it won’t stop! 🛑 3:43 am pdt 3:45 am pdt god = pain.

3:52 am pdt I feel sorrow. I have had a lonely bitter painful life. It will never get better, I will never be well. If I do have a biological child s/he will probably be sacrificed very soon. I anticipate nothing good from those fiends. 3:54 am pdt 3:56 am pdt that or they have actors pretending. They are always pretending. I hate it. Making me believe this then trying to make me believe that. I’m tired. Extremely disappointed that I feel it the sorrow. 😭. I at some point in my life I was afraid to be alone like dad. So I tried too hard to like som people. Some people I think I start liking them and then my feelings changed to the point of feeling sick 🤒🤕😵 when I try to like them again. 4:01 am pdt

4:43 4:44 am pdt also bcz of all my problems I rarely wear makeup 💄. So maroon 5 sugar is not a romantic song 🎵 for me. 4:45 am pdt in the beginning I think incubus tried to trick me , 2017, and sorta when it came out with the music video bcz my dads bday is around the day that’s printed at the beginning of the music video gurgled I’m doomed. I’m not okay! Either. 😵 4:47 am pdt

5:11 am pdt this vinegar they keep putting in me is probably not good for all parts of the body. I anticipate dying soon 🔜. 5:12 am pdt

5:12 am pdt there was a time in my life I really wanted a best friend. Someone once kept telling me we were best friends but I could not consistently reciprocate the feelings. When she said it though I don’t think we hung out that much. I m not sure if she was being honest anymore at that time. She had a lot of friends. There was one woman she seemed very affectionate 🤗 to and she seemed to reciprocate without being lesbians but close? I guess? A lot of best friends are probably like that without crossing that line. And then she found a new woman 👩🏻 to hang out with, then that friend of hers confided in me and another that she felt she was being shut out and what she should do. All I could think of saying was maybe it is time to hang out with more people. 😬😵 feelings are fickle. Unfortunately. And later on the other woman told me that she Had started dating that woman. So essentially, she probably was being shut out, a third wheeler she became. 5:20 am pdt.

5:45 am pdt b4 that woman tried her new lesbian relationship, we had both expressed interest in the same guy. We at the time 5:56 am pdt

5:58 am pdt I don’t trust a lot of people now . I don’t trust people I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ and that’s basically everyone now. Trust is earned. 😞 sometimes I want to trust but if I see something feel something experienced something then, you know. Maybe 🤔 my flaw was I trusted the wrong people too easily. 6:01 am pdt continued: we didn’t tell one another to back off. But I didn’t exactly stand in her way if she wanted to take a picture with him, I let her, we took turns. Then she says she wants to do an artsy company with another guy 😭 and that’s how I ended up 🆙 with Sagittarius ♐️ incubus’ friend Scott (gurgled). 6:04 am pdt

6:21 am pdt I told her we had s*x (gurgled & heard 👂) 6:23 #3

10:25 pm pdt god enlightens who he wants to enlighten. God gives strength to who he wants. God gives and takes away. Nothing is impossible with god. If you know, you know. Sometimes? You don’t know until it’s too late. A lot of movies/tv shows back in the day used to have stuff in it such as a line that sounded like “now that I’ve told now I have to kill you” #3 gurgle 😵 10:29 pm pdt