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#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf security breach#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf sun moon#dca fandom#dca x y/n#artists on tumblr#fan art#digital art#animation#gif#watercolour background from unsplash!! (phenomenal free photos website)#it's been a tough one lately!!! ooooh boy#its hard to caption this one because I fundamentally want to stay positive but it's been.. difficult. with everything going on in the world#so I broke this WIP out from a few months ago when i was having a bad episode of my own and was trying to make something to get me thru it#i felt like it was worth finishing and sharing now#If you're someone that needs art to get through scary stuff (i very much am) then we're in this together!#I'm gonna keep making stuff and cherishing this community#and we're gonna get through it all together <3
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ten needs to be trapped in a torture chamber forever for what he does to martha. I hope jakey the time lord fucking dies
#heyy girl lets kiss also share a bed in this inn What do you mean it's weird it's not weird winky face but ew i would never LOVE you#what do you mean how could you even think that i must respect the memory of blond 19 year old who was better than you in every way btw#i defintiely find it more INTERESTING than rose's seasons bc i think theres more dramatic tension than just. We're in love! like ok whateve#doesnt mean that tension is always fun to watch and obviously there are Problems with it#but theres something compelling about the awfulness of it just laid bare#like if you thought rose was Grounded & Realistic. here's the actual stuff. martha's family's not even messy in a particularly charming way#as in they dont turn out to become beloved and heroic recurring side characters like jackie/pete/mickey#everythings on tenterhooks if you're not his Object you're constantly having to reassert yourself and recontextualize the relationship#like oh actually this is scary and feels bad and sometimes there just isnt a heartwarming conclusion where Love saves all#she's fighting for her place in the story but it's not even worth itttt#it's kinda cool.... there are som eideas here.....#ten is so frustrating because he's such a human man about it you KNOW he knows what he's DOINGGGG#doc who
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This has been on my mind for weeks and I talked to my therapist about it today and told my girlfriend about it too so now it's time for me to update the gay people in my phone: I may have schizotypal personality disorder
#this is like the equivalent of telling the bees to me#rambling#like ive been thinking about ever since i learned that autism shares a lot of similarities with schizophrenia and looked into that#and then learned about negative/cognitive symptoms and realized i related a lot to them#and then i learned more about schizotypal personality disorder and it was fuckin scary how much i related to it#what with the magical thinking and the severe social anxiety that doesnt go away when i get to know someone#and the ideas of reference and the eccentricity and the communication difficulties and the strange thought patterns#and then i specifically learned about avolition as a negative symptom which describes the exact thing thats ruining my life rn#and. i was scared to talk to my therapist about it bc i was worried it could be used against me somehow#but it was good to talk it out with her and get some additional perspective on whats going on in my brain#and if it means i could maybe possibly work on fixing the avolition and the social anxiety (my two biggest issues for years)#then it would be 100% worth it tbh. and its also kind of helpful to have some sort of framework to understand whats happening in my brain#funnily enough when i told my girlfriend (who was previously mis?diagnosed with schizophrenia and considering autism)#about it she related a lot too. so i guess we'll see how that goes#its. crazy how much of an overlap there is between schizospec orders and autism#i feel like i might should write up a post going into detail about different schizospec disorders to raise awareness#bc like. it is so much more than just hallucinations and delusions#in fact its not even required to have both of those for any schizospec disorder. some only require one and others dont require either#there is so much to the schizophrenic spectrum that i was unaware of and I'm sure that's probably true of other people too
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deviously adding not only a lyric question to my "which member of saints for girls are you" quiz but a lyric question WITH lyrics from saints for girls songs i am writing...mwahaha
#personal#also scary tho bc that means i have to actually share my writing sjfjgk#however it adds legitimacy to the whole endeavor so 😼 worth it
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Everything I have ever written and posted I am extremely embarrassed about afterwards and that’s why I log out for like 6 hours every time I post
#and don’t look at my notifs of my blog at all#it is deeply mortifying u guys are peaking into my heart kind of#but that’s what comes with sharing things#and it’s worth it anyways!!!!!#it is fun!!!!!!!! and scary like so so so scary but mostly fun!!!!!#ghost thoughts
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everyday i sit in wonderment at just how lucky i got 2 get the chance to share experiences w my bf, both theirs n mine,, whenever anything happens i get 2 run n tell them n it makes life all that more meaningful .... woa
#it makes everything feel so worth it#makes everything feel so much less scary#n i adore just being able 2 listen to them talk when it's their turn#there is nowhere in the world that i am more content n comfortable#even if it's just stuff like playing games solo n then sharing the stories of what happened on each of our ends#or like when i go out n try to challenge my anxiety by ordering for myself && i just cant wait 2 get home n share that i did it#so much so that it doesnt feel so scary anymore
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MULTIMUSE QUESTIONAIRE
Tagging: @infernalight, @infernal-feminae, @heartsofhell, @questionablemuses, @because-i-simp, @frostworkxfiction, @deepspacevivarium, @hotelbitches, @voxiiferous
RULES: Answer the questions with the Muses that would best fit the answers. Bonus if you give details why. If tagged, copy and paste into a new post – DO NOT REBLOG!
1) Rank your softest Muse and your toughest Muse. (Personality-wise)
My softest muse is definitely Vick. He's a 0 on the toughness scale, he's a big teddy bear and he will choose kindness over anything else at any point.
My toughest muse is probably Barbie. Girl is tough as nails and will not be stopped if she puts her mind to something. She doesn't take pain as a reason to stop and will go harder when it hurts.
2) Which Muse would blow through $1000 quickly?
Valentino, hands down. He spends $1,000 every day easily on things he doesn't even need. He loves to buy expensive things and will do so at all hours. He especially loves spending Vox's money. $1,000 is a drop in the bucket for him and he doesn't even notice spending it.
3) Do any of them have nicknames? Is there a meaning behind them?
Quite a few of them do!
Valentino answers to Bunny from his lovers, it's a subspace trigger word for him. I assigned him Bunny because he's Cute And Horny, aka a rabbit, and a bunny sub is fairly common.
4) Are any of them up-to-speed on the latest trends? Anyone more old school?
Velvette, Vox, and Valentino are obsessed with always being on top of the next new thing.
Alastor hates new things and will fight them as much as he can.
5) Who has the best relationship with their siblings?
Valentino had a fairly good relationship with his siblings when he was alive. He had seven of them, plus three live-in cousins that were like his siblings.
6) Karaoke night! Who is likely to grab the mic first and bust out a tune?
Beelzebub, Ozzie, Valentino, and Ostello! They all love to sing and party, and they're all pretty good at it. Ostello was a pop-jazz singer when he was alive and before he died in Hell, too!
7) Who is least likely to enter a beauty pageant/model?
Gretchen. She doesn't think that she's very pretty, and would just feel embarrassed even going to watch.
Travis. He is constantly told he's very ugly, and he doesn't have a very high opinion of his looks.
8) If your Muses visited a haunted house where actors scare you, who would panic and who would be unfazed?
Chazz, Gretchen, Charlie, Anya, Magpie, Summer, Travis, and Vick would be the easiest to scare!
Valore, Dimas, Cash, Glitz, Stu, Paimon, Alastor, Darío, Niffty, and Vox would be the hardest to phase.
9) Are any of your Muses particular about taking certain modes of transportation?
Vox prefers to be driven around and doesn't like driving himself.
Valentino only likes to drive occasionally and prefers pretty sports cars when he does.
Anya and Darío are motorcycle people.
Emily enjoys bicycles!
10) Share a little-known fact about any Muse.
Adam is actually a very good father and he loves kids and babies. He is very tender with children even if he can be harder on them once they have grown into adults.
#HEADCANONS ➽➽➽#Reciting Violence Like Poetry (α∂αм)#I’ve Found A Rainbow A Rainbow Baby Trust Me I Know Life Is Scary (ємιℓу)#I’m Standing In The Face Of All That My Story Holds In Its Wake (ναℓσяє)#What We Loved Today We’ll Lose Tomorrow But I Won’t Need To Wait For My Share Of Sorrow Because I Always Kill The Things I Love (∂ιмαѕ)#Who Needs Pepsi Juice Or Sprite? If You Do You’re Weak That’s Right (вαявιє)#I’m Gonna Take Their Hearts For Ransom ‘Cause Everybody’s Always Askin’ When You Gonna Show Us Magnum? (¢нαzz)#Money Can’t Buy Happiness But It Can Rent You Paradise (gℓιтz)#We Put Her Down In A Shallow Grave She Wears A Dress Like A Body Bag Everyday (gяєт¢нєи)#Everyone’s A Winner We’re Makin’ Our Fame Bona Fide Hustler Making My Name (ѕтυ)#Try Not To Move So Fast You Know Dessert Comes Last! (вєєℓzєвυв)#You Can Fool Yourself I Promise It Will Help Every Single Day I Just Wanna Hear You Say I’m So Lucky Lucky I’m So Lovely Lovely (¢нαяℓιє)#Define Your Meaning Of War To Me It’s What We Do When We’re Bored (ραιмσи)#If You End Up On My Table Then It Serves You Right (αℓαѕтσя)#Know I’m All Bite No Bark Like To Catch You Way Off Guard (αиуα)#Take Just One Last Dare Pretend That You Don’t Care (ℓєgισи∂αяισ)#Your Magic White Rabbit Your White Room Straight Jacket (мαgριє)#He Ran Into My Knife He Ran Into My Knife Ten Times (иιfту)#I Love You Oh So Madly But I Don’t Stand A Ghost Of A Chance With You (σѕтєℓℓσ)#Come Come Kitty Kitty You’re So Silly Silly Don’t Go Kitty Kitty Play With Me (ѕυммєя)#Don’t Be Goofy Bring Some Passion To The Table (тяανιѕ)#And If You Get In My Face Then You’ll Get A Taste Even God Would Run Son (ναℓєитιиσ)#Hollywood Made A Killing Machine She’s Like A Teenage Slaughter Movie Scene A Serial Killer Celebrity (νєℓνєттє)#Red Eyes In The Digital Paradise (νι¢к)#Let’s Stop Saying “Don’t Quote Me” Because If No One Quotes You You Probably Haven’t Said A Thing Worth Saying (νσχ)
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I finally caught one of the livestreams last night (I'm in Canada so it's at like ass o'clock in the morning for me) and it made me so fuckin happy. Every time I catch clips of them on stage I'm reminded of just how much MCR means to me. I've carried them with me for over half of my life, their art has impacted me in ways I can't fully explain. I'm just so greatful to be here and to be alive to experience this alongside so many people who feel the same.
I just took my meds and also had coffee so It's Real Kvelling Hours™️ over here so ignore me if you find this sappy shit boring-
I used to get so embarrassed about saying shit like "This band saved my life" because I was scared of sounding cringey or obsessive, but they really did and I'm so fucking thankful. They helped me save myself, this community helped me save myself, and thanks to that I'm living a life I could have never imagined.
I remember being 12 years old, making my first emo little tumblr account and finding the MCR community. My friends and I making matching URLs and blog themes, sharing memes and making edits and just having so much fun. Throughout all the terrible, scary times I've been able to come back here and have a safe place to just engage in my special interest and find some peace. I might have grown apart from those friends, but this community has always felt like home to me so I don't exactly feel alone in it.
It's because of this community, as well as MCR's loud acceptance, support and welcoming of queer people that I've really learned how to be proud and unashamed of my queer identity. When I was in situations where I wasn't being accepted or treated fairly, it made that shit hurt far less knowing that there were so many good people out there like me, and that would support me. Now with all the scary shit going on in the world it's been really comforting to know that I still have this to turn to.
So basically thank you MCR for making art that's shaped me in ways I hold so close to my heart and will forever, Thank you MCR Community for existing alongside me and sharing this beautiful experience, we might not be perfect but I've felt safer here than I have any other fan space, and thank you Autism Brain for slapping me in the face repeatedly with this special interest for over a decade without a moment's rest you're the real MVP.
#lmao sorry for the ramble im just euphoric about being alive right now and after i caught the stream i was like#this is why#i really didnt intend to live this long but im extremely greatful that i did because after years and years of back to back trauma#and painful recovery#im finally living the best life i ever had#im about to go pick up my girlfriend who is the best partner ive ever had and also one of my best friends#yesterday i made a handful of new friends and connections at shul and ive found a wonderful jewish community in this city#ive made friends with someone who went through the same trauma as me at the hands of the same person and have found support and validation#as well as a really good friendship there#my friends are getting married and having kids and making beautiful art and sharing it with me#im making beautiful art and sharing it with my friends#ive also found a home in the local punk community and have been going to shows at sketchy little dive bars and basements and backyards#or just in parks downtown#im getting the surgeries i want for my transition and health and ive got a great medical team behind me and a new therapist and meds#that actually work for me#also my cat has just been such a clingy happy baby lately and is just the Sweetest little guy#life is good life is so fucking good and im so glad i decided to stay alive#if you needed a sign to stay alive this is it please#life can be so scary and awful and traumatic but there are beautiful things out there i promise#and sometimes they take a while and some effort to reach but its so fucking worth the wait and the work it takes to get here#community has played a huge part in that for me#humans can be really beautiful when they're loving and kind to others#anyway if you read all this congratulations we're best friends now thanks for watchinf me dissect my brain u can take some of it#and put it in a jar with some isopropyl alcohol :)
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I like to think that Tomura likes to make art, just so he can prove to himself that those hands can make, not just destroy
#after his whole 'im a god' thing#kiddinggggg after the war#WHEN HE SURVIVES#BC HE DID#Obviously#also i will alwaysssss do this in a highschool/collage AU#where he takes art classes#bc i said so#i think he would draw pretty good actually#and he would draw good horror and gore#plus he knows ananomy from being a villain and needing to know the kill points and where ppl are weak at#i also like to think he draws himself a lot more than youd think#but when he does its more skinny and scary in general#like big blood red eyes that stare jnto your soul#bright white hair#usually with blood#but with everyone else he draws so prettly#dabi? oh yeah#he looks like a god#toga? title worth art#put it in the news or something#spinner? gamer nerd#he makes him look wonderful and makes the green ans purple go so good together and spinner doesn't know how he does it#when he draws heteromorphs he doesn't make them look more human#if anythinghe embraces how they look#bc thats how they are#they are perfect how you are so whats the point in drawing you any different?#deku actually brings him some drawing stuff#and some times they draw together#and share ideas like headcannons (deku mainly) and draw them
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Are you a student who is unable to donate to Palestine, but still want ways to show your support?
Me too! Unfortunately, searching up ways for students who can't drive, spend money, or drop school for a week to show solidarity for Palestine just comes up with "centrist" (if not blatantly pro-israel) articles for teachers telling them how to stay neutral during discussions with students. So! Here are some ways that I've thought of to bring pro palestine sentiment into your school and community! You are more than encouraged to add on any ideas of your own!
Wear shirts, pins, or anything outwardly pro palestine. If you can't find something, make it.
Email your representatives. Email Congress. Email the White House, or whatever your country's equivalent would be. Let the people in charge know you want a ceasefire
Talk to your local library about holding an educational night about the genocide, and/or about Palestinian culture.
Talk to your peers. Find people who share your views. Create a fuss together.
Talk to your teachers about it. Having an authority figure on your side could make things so much easier for you.
Make stickers, posters, pamphlets, etc to put up around your school, town/city, anywhere you can.
Educate yourself on anti-palestine talking points and how to refute them in a calm and logical manner. (Palestinian Toolkit is a great website for that)
Speak up! It's fucking scary, but if you can, don't let people's bigotry go unchecked. (You can use knowledge from the last point to make it easier to talk)
But also, know when to give up. It sucks, but not everyone is worth wasting your time debating. Some people won't change their mind no matter what.
#my stuff#free palestine#free gaza#strike for palestine#strike for gaza#a lot of information posts i see are mostly places you can donate#which you absolutely should if you can#but not everyone can#so i thought this could be a good starting point for some people#do what you can#from the river to the sea#from the river to the sea palestine will be free#gaza#palestine#palestine will be free#ceasefire#current events#endisraelsgenocide#gazaunderattack#activism#gaza strip#palestinian genocide#israel#gaza genocide
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Hello y’all should send me music to listen to
#random post#pretty please. I need more music#like I have LOTS already but. need MORE#pretty pleeeaassseeeeeee 🥺 ?? I wanna hear songs from your own playlists...#OH maybe if it’s a YOUR oc song. you could tell me why or like. ideas you have for it#PLEASE I beg. I’m so curious. I need STIMULATION I’m wringing my oc songs DRY rn. pleasee#just fuckin *cups your face* I need my fix. I’m addicted to music sounds I need it in my brain and blood and spirit#your hearing is the last to go when you die and I need to use it for all it’s worth PLEASE send songs to listen to begging on my HANDS#AND MY KNEES!!!!!! pls don’t be spooked by how pumped and aggressive I’m coming off I won’t harm u I prommy I just really want to listen to#music with friends and this is as close as I’m gonna get <//3 and the last time I shared music taste with a friend I was told the song was#scary. so. anyways give me songs or else!!! I’ll do nothing. cus I have no power over you lol. but if given music#I will be so very happy about it and do a lil dance
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i think it would be adorable seeing a conversation of spencer freaking out about pregnant!bombshell and hotch just calmly telling him all about different ways to help and them talking about new dad fears :((
pregnant!reader, 1k (sorry it was more about the pregnant part than the new dad fears!)
Hotch doesn’t know what Spencer’s going to say when he knocks, but he ushers him inside his office regardless. He has the appearance of someone with grief to share; Hotch immediately starts to think of the people he and Spencer have in common.
“I need your advice,” Spencer says desperately.
Hotch puts his pen in its holder. “Of course.”
“She won’t sit down.”
Hotch lets himself relax. “Ah.”
“She’s acting like she isn’t pregnant at all. I want her to be happy, but she keeps running up the stairs. What if she falls?”
“Y/N has very likely thought of that possibility already.”
“Then why doesn’t she stop?”
Hotch chews his cheek for a moment. “Spencer, sit down.”
The chair squeaks as Spencer sits, scrubbing at his face roughly.
Hotch has watched Spencer grow up, in a way, moving from twenty three to thirty quick as blinking, and he’s watched him fall in love with you, and now he gets to watch Spencer have daily conniptions over your apparent lack of self-preservation. He’s enjoyed it, genuinely, and he doesn’t mind offering some wisdom now as a partner who’s made enough mistakes to know better.
“Spencer, you can’t make her sit down if she doesn’t want to. And she’s four months pregnant. Pretty soon, she’ll have no choice but to sit down. It’s best if you let her stay active as long as she can, so she stays as healthy as she can.” He leans back in his chair. The smirk is unbidden, but he can’t help it. “But you know this.”
“Her ligaments are weakening, because of the baby. The pregnancy. It’s about to get much more painful for her,” Spencer says.
“So?” Hotch prods gently.
Spencer nods. Glances out the window down into the bullpen, before dragging his chair closer to the desk. “Hotch, it’s like she’s two different people. Or three. There’s the crying one, and the happy one, and the…”
“The hates you one?” he offers.
“Yes. Which is luckily quite rare, but terrifying.”
“Just hormones, Spence.”
Spencer breathes out. Hotch can’t help the immeasurable wave of fondness he’s feeling for his colleague. He genuinely wants to round the desk and pat Spencer on the back. This is all a learning curve, a way of life. Partners have been wrestling with their scary pregnant wives for long before he and Spencer came around.
“The happy one is worth it, though,” Hotch guesses. He had some lovely days with Hayley.
“You know what she’s like,” Spencer says.
Hotch can imagine. Before your pregnancy, you adored Spencer. You’ve doted on him since you met him, and if the glimpses Hotch has seen of you these last few months are any indication, you are immovably in love. Yesterday, you brushed the sesame seeds off of Spencer’s sandwich one by one because he doesn’t like them. The day before, you’d pushed your chair next to his and drawn circles into his arm the entire workday (while, impressively, still managing to finish your assigned consults).
“There’s a common theme, I think, when she’s angry. She’s usually uncomfortable. I’ve started to go through a checklist,” Spencer says. He sounds guilty.
“I think it’s a good idea. I noticed you’ve been keeping candy in your bag.” Hotch laughs. Spencer joins in.
“Just the essentials.”
Hotch doesn’t doubt that you’re on every prenatal vitamin you could ever need, that Spencer has researched pregnancy from the latest journals to the very rarest myths. He has no doubt that you’re well taken care of. You’re going to be fine. Spencer has no need to worry about you. Hotch might have cause to worry about Spencer, though.
“Reid, I’ll tell you a secret. It might not work for you, but it worked for me.”
Spencer holds his hands together. “What is it?”
“The next time you want her to slow down,” —Hotch lays it out carefully, without judgement for you or any private teasing, just genuine care for the both of you— “you can distract her with the baby.”
“I’ve tried that,” Spencer says. “She tells me I’m worrying.”
“Not about the baby’s health. If she thinks everything is alright, it likely is. I mean about the future.” Spencer doesn’t seem to understand. Hotch searches for an example. “Baby shoes, clothes. I once calmed Hayley down from an hours-long meltdown by telling her I thought Jack would have her eyes.”
“That works?”
“It’s probably much nicer for her to have you encouraging positive thoughts than negative,” he says gently.
“I guess I worry too much.”
“Not too much, Reid. I’m just telling you what worked for me. When it’s over, you’ll miss it. A few years later.”
They smile. Hotch watches with a distinct fatherly pride as Spencer retreats down into the bullpen where you stand talking animatedly to Anderson. You’ve been on your feet all day, in kitten heels no less, and you look tired but not unhappy.
Spencer joins you for a while. You show no signs of moving. Hotch figures he’ll give Spencer time to act on his advice and goes back to his paperwork, losing track of time, ignoring the beep of his watch that signals lunch time.
He finishes his paperwork a little while after.
“I wonder what she'll have,” he hears Spencer saying.
“She’ll have my hands,” you insist suddenly, your voice floating up the steps. You’ve always had one of those tones that attracts attention, even when you aren’t shouting. “Don’t girls often get their mom’s hands? And their dad’s noses?”
He’s expecting Spencer to cite an article on genetic lottery, but he doesn’t. He sounds the polar opposite of how he’d panicked in Hotch’s office. “I think so. I got my mom’s hands, too. She had short nail beds.” A pause. Hotch glances out the window to find you sitting in Spencer’s chair, a sandwich laid out in two halves on a napkin, a tray of vegetable batons in your hands where they rest on your bump. “I hope she has your everything.”
You lift your chin. Spencer taps your noses together.
“Can I get you a drink?” he asks hopefully.
“Yes, please. Anything you’re having.”
Hotch isn’t smug, exactly, but he is admittedly very pleased at the outcome of his advice.
#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid x you#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid x fem!reader#spencer reid imagine#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid oneshot#spencer reid scenario#spencer reid drabble#spencer reid fic#spencer reid fanfiction
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and I never think of him except on midnights like this
#i just want to tell the world how proud i am and i hope hes happy and i want to lock all of our memeoties together#u were the only guy im sure i loved do u know that? how huge of a deal for agirl whos afraid of attachment?#and sometimes i break down bc i love you i love you forever and my feelings changed so much i can only.feel happiness and longing#saudade#so long together on each others toes and we gotta leave everything behind w a smile on our faces isnt it scary? ull manage everything fine#im so happy you'll leave and a hole will replace the spot once belonged to you wanting for u to come back#but also i wish we could frozen time and live like this forever ...this dream isnt feeling sweet but its worth the pain and the future#we'll manage just fine but ill miss you not quite like i did w my dog but as i did last year and as i did the previous one im happy#i wanna share my happiness wo worrying people will think i still love him the same way i did a few years ago but i do love somehow#forever inked in me close my long lasting scars#and now i sleep but im just so happy i wish i could hug him#stop sophia
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ꕤ 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 '𝟐𝟒 - 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝟏𝟎 ꕤ
Sim Jake x fem!reader: masturbation
summary: Movie night gets interrupted when you decided to get a little too comfortable with your roommate...
warnings: smut, jake being a horny little shit, masturbation, y/n being a lil straightforward (?)
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kinktober masterlist // masterlist // ko-fi
You had hit the jackpot when you found a friend like Jake. You two had met in college, when the history professor had paired you up for a research project. It was in an instant that you two discovered the amount of things in common that you both had. It was crazy. You bonded through your love for dogs, music and movies.
You had even met his friends and they loved you. They found you fun and such a great influence for Jake.
Soon enough, you were moving in together as roommates, when he had told you that his past roommate, Sunghoon, one of his best friends, moved in with his girlfriend and he was in need to split bills.
Movie nights were something that had grown and developed as a tradition between you two. It was two times a week, friday and sunday. On fridays, Jake was the one who could pick the movie and on sundays, it was your turn.
It was a sunday, meaning you had the privilege of having control of what you two were going to watch.
“No, please. Not Mean Girls again” Jake huffed as you hovered over one of your favourite movies.
“Oh, come on!” you whined.
Jake rolled his eyes. “We literally watched it last week! Pick another one, please. For my sanity. I’ve memorized it at this point” he chuckled.
“Okay, fine…” you sighed. “Mamma Mia?”
“Not a musical fan, to be honest” Jake shrugged.
“Okay, what do you like?” you scoffed. “I’m not watching Scary Movie like we did two days ago”
Jake snorted, “It’s a fun movie”
“It’s immature!” you whined. “I hate jokes about drugs and penises and farts. Like what is that?” you groaned. “The Eras Tour movie?”
“What?”
“Worth a shot, I guess” you sighed. “Joker?”
“Okay” Jake nodded.
“Great, popcorn ready?” you asked him and he nodded, handing you the bowl he had prepared.
You clicked on the movie and relaxed, placing your head against Jake’s shoulder. It was just an innocent move, you really didn’t think too much of it when you did it. It just felt comfortable at the moment and you two had shared thousands of moments like this.
But it wasn’t innocent for Jake.
His eyes immediately fell to your head and let out a shaky sigh, that he disguised as a cough while he cleared his throat.
“You okay?” you asked him in a hum.
“Yeah…” he said, trying to seem as nonchalant as possible about it.
Twenty minutes into the movie, you had downed the bowl of popcorn with Jake, so you left it on the coffee table in front of you. Jake didn’t expect you to get back to the place you were, right into his shoulder.
He decided to throw every thought out the window and carefully placed his arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer to him, resting his cheek against your hair.
You let out a giggle and let your hand fall to his thigh, caressing it with your thumb.
Wrong fucking move.
Jake went stiff as a rock and felt himself stirring inside his pants.
What are you doing? She’s just being nice and here you are, acting like a horny thirteen year old, Jake thought to himself.
He was glad you were too invested in the movie playing on the screen in front of you to even notice Jake’s big frown over his forehead as he mentally and physically battled the boner he was so sure was about to pop any second now.
You let out a sigh and squished your cheek even more against his shoulder. Your hand now went up and down over his thigh, in a loving manner. And Jake understood that, it was just that his freaking groin didn’t.
He gulped down hard and started thinking about things that could help ease the horniness creeping up his veins.
My grandma’s underwear.
Sunghoon’s smelly socks.
Layla peeing on the bathroom rug.
You on all fours waiting for him to just-
Alright. It was impossible.
He couldn’t really focus on calming down when the scent of your shampoo was invading his senses, your face was so close to his and your hand was so fucking close to touching his dick-goddamnit.
Jake had to get out of there as soon as possible if he wanted to preserve the last bit of dignity he had left.
“Y/N- I-uh, could you wait for me?” you heard him ask you and you looked up at him with a frown. “I just want to um… go to the bathroom”
“Oh! Yeah, sure. Let me pause the movie” you said and grabbed the remote control that was on the coffee table.
“No need” he muttered before sprinting towards the bathroom in a rush and closing the door behind him.
His back hit the door and his fingers fumbled with the buttons of his jeans. Jake kicked them off his legs and let his cock fallout from the confiness of his boxers.
Jake let out a content sigh, trying to be as quiet as he could manage, as he rubbed his palm over his shaft slowly. He bit his lip and clenched his eyes, trying his hardest not to moan.
He knew he was going to feel embarrassed about this. He literally got hard at just the touch of your hand near his crotch area. He twisted his hand over his base and let out a tiny whimper that racked through his throat.
Meanwhile, you were busy with your phone, answering unread messages and just scrolling through your Instagram feed. Your eyes fell to the hour and your eyebrows furrowed. Jake had spent almost fifteen minutes inside the bathroom.
You decided to walk towards the bathroom, just to ask if he was okay when you heard a low whine coming from inside.
You gasped. Your initial though was that he had fallen and hurt himself.
“Jake, you alright?” you asked out loud.
His eyes immediately widened and his hand stopped moving, frozen over his base. “I- I, I’m fine, Y/N, don’t worry” he said, trying to seem as casual as possible, but he knew he was failing miserably.
Your eyes widened. “Are you um… you know…”
“No, I’m not taking a shit, Y/N”
Jake didn’t know what was more embarrassing to admit.
“Okay… I just wanna know if you’re okay” you asked him in a small voice.
Jake shut his eyes with force and sighed. “I just got a little problem” he admitted. Well, he knew for sure it wasn’t little, it was just a way of saying.
“What is it?” you asked him , getting closer to the door.
Jake couldn’t think of a moment in which he felt more embarrassed than he was right then and there. “I’mhard” he mumbled.
“Eh?”
Jake let out a frustrated sigh and pinched the bridge of his nose with his fingers. “I’m hard” he said, pausing so you could understand each word.
You went silent and Jake panicked for a moment, debating if he should’ve told you or not. He started to think how fast he could pack up his bags and text one of his friends if any of them had a spare room which he could crash in, while he went searching for a new apartment, probably Jungwon had one, or maybe Jay-
“I can help you out” you stated.
Yeah, Jay probably has- hold up.
“What?” he asked. He didn’t trust his mind, maybe it was the desperation he had at feeling your hands on him.
“I said… I can help you out, Jake” you said softly. “Open up” you chuckled.
Okay, not dreaming.
Jake slowly placed the boxers back over his hard on and opened the door slowly.
Your eyes fell torturously slow over the tent in his underwear. You pressed your lips together into a thin line and smiled. “All of this because of a little cuddling?”
“Shut up” he said and grabbed your waist, smashing his lips against yours.
You smiled against his lips and opened your mouth, letting your tongue slip inside, curling with his own. He gripped your waist tightly, rolling his hard on over the front of your jeans roughly.
Your hands went down his chest, raking your nails through the process, and hooked one finger over the waistband of the boxers he was wearing, tugging them down and releasing his leaking cock.
“Holy shit” he gasped. “I’d never… I’d never thought we’d be here” Jake chuckled, moving your hair out of your neck and started nibbling on the skiing there, making your toes curl inside your shoes.
Your hand curled around his shaft and started moving up and down, applying pressure to the base and letting it twist on the points you noticed he was sensitive.
“Shit… go faster babe” he panted against the curve of your neck, digging his teeth into it. You obeyed, moving your hand frantically, thumb sweeping over the tip, collecting the pre-cum leaking. “Y-yeah, like that”
You smirked and, with your free hand, you grabbed on his hair, pulling him away from your neck so you could kiss his lips.
He groaned against your mouth, his hands shamelessly drifting down to your ass, squeezing them over your pants.
“I’m- I’m close…” he whispered against your lips.
“Then come for me, Jakey” you smirked, biting his lip and pulling it roughly with your teeth.
He nodded his head and you jerked him off even faster, pulling him to the edge. Jake spilled his load over your hand with a satisfied whimper, his forehead falling against your shoulder as he panted, trying to regain his composure.
You smiled and slowly took your hand off of him, wiping your palm with a towel. Afterwards, you threw it in the bin with the dirty clothes and looked at Jake in the eye.
“That was intense, huh?” you giggled.
“Yeah…”
Jake was looking at your face with a certain glint in his eye, and it made your stomach erupt in butterflies. But you had only one thing in mind.
“Want to return the favour?” you smirked.
Jake’s smile grew even wider.
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Considering making my first ever post on AO3...
#look i have it saved as a draft and its been sitting on a google doc for months and like... i really like it#i think its worth sharing#but the Anxiety of it#what if i tagged it badly#how am i supposed to know what to put in the summary and what to put in the notes#plus i made my first comment on someone's fic today (look i have anxiety) and its in the same fandom#and they have a similar writing style to me#and what if i post it and they think i copied them or something#this is a genuine concern i have.#i have a friend that posted something on ao3 recently whom i could ask for input but that is Scary#i am so irrational#oh man i think im gonna push through this just so that i dont have to show up to therpay like 'hey. i wanna post fanfic. but i am scared.'#okay actually that would be really funny#but still imagine instead pulling up to therapy like 'hey. i was really scared to post a fanfic. but i did. :D'#getting an a in therapy yk#see but now the adhd is like 'i should totally post this right this second and ask my friend for input tomorrow afterwards'#wild#ao3#dante dicit
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HI this is me and I need you to know that I was just casually trying to scroll through the coalecroux tag and seeing "ready to pay in full by teethies on ao3" jumpscared me so hard that tears came out of my eyes from how startled i was and i had to read your post with my phone facing to the side like it was gonna bite me 👍
I'm so glad you like it and your analysis is wonderful and appreciated and I feel like everyone making observations/analysis about it gets what I wrote way more than me when I wrote it tbh. Also there is another chapter up and like, two or three more coming. So. If you're interested in that :D
Ready To Pay In Full by Teethies on AO3 is a masterpiece and I need to talk about it right now
Mild-moderate spoilers ahead + Cw: mention of sexual harassment and abusive power dynamics
First of all, how the fuck was THAT written in only 4 days? 10k words of beautifully thought out in-character plot? In 4 DAYS??? Good lord, that is incredible! Also, Teethies mentioned that this was their first time writing fanfiction? Unfair if you ask me. (/lht) It was wonderfully written, and I can not believe how much I enjoyed it.
Chapter 1: It opens beautifully. The descriptions are rich, and the characters are so real. Not only is Teethies's voice portrayed well throughout the story, but the characters' voices are seen wonderfully, too. It briefly, but not inconsistently, fills in the end of OUAW and sets the scene in a realistic way. It is admirable how Teethies can make both Kremy and Gideon in character even without having them speak; their body language shows expression without any semblance of "He did this, he moved there." I really enjoy how Teethies handles small details, like how Gideon’s hair leaves ashes on his new shirt; it's not necessary to the plot, but it gives the story so much more life. Gideon and Kremy feel real in the way they interact, and they are sweet in the way that only they can be. Vague flirty remarks just before moderate insults. Reading this feels like I'm listening to their campaign with how accurate these characters are. This whole chapter explores character history, especially Kremy’s, and it really goes in-depth as to why they each do the things they do. Again, they're all so in character that it feels like I'm really there. Even the subtle nonverbal reactions feel like the characters, and it's really sweet seeing Kremy and Gideon interact in the way they're so used to. Outside help brings them a bit closer, and it's a really nice way of showing how close they are, even if they aren't explicitly romantic. Again, I really appreciate how in-depth this story goes with Kremy’s history. I never really considered what his past before the Carnival but after his childhood would be like, but Teethies perfectly explains why Kremy is so powerful and how he knows so much about Garou. It really paints how Kremy behaves, and I loved every second of the first chapter.
Chapter 2: How this fic somehow IMPROVED upon their first chapter was something out of a dream. As someone who hasn't caught up on the campaign entirely, I don't know much about Mr. Garou, other than they owe him money, but Teethies does a wonderful job characterizing him in a way that feels canon and makes me understand the motivations of the characters through the story. Also, Teethies makes him a completely horrible person in a truly aggravating way. He is unredeemable, he is unlikable, and he is perfect for that. Not once was I thinking that he may change his ways, and it makes the morally questionable Kremy and Gideon seem like good people. It made me feel bad for them, and it made me enjoy their character just that much more. This chapter definitely favors the view of Gideon as opposed to the Kremy central story of the first chapter, and it really shows their differences. Kremy’s chapter was anxious. It was so obviously fearful, but it had the comforting figure of Gideon beside him. In this chapter, however, there is no comfort. Gideon is angry, he is concerned, and he has no one to turn to. He is supposed to be the protector, but he quickly learns how powerless he is in the face of Mr. Garou. Around here is where Mr. Garou gets really gross. Again, he is an unforgivable evil man, and Teethies portrays him as such. The way he talks to Gideon, but especially Kremy, makes me a bit sick. He is so cruel, and it makes you feel bad for all that Kremy has had to put up with. Gideon naturally responds with anger, but he then has suggestion cast over him. This part is actually fascinating to me because I've never considered how suggestion would work. I love how Teethies describes it as comforting magic because that really ties in to the wisdom mechanics of the game. Gideon could choose to disobey, but Kremy is mentally praising him and is so happy to see how well-behaved he is. He must be a bit scared to disobey because he feels that Kremy could leave at any point and never take him back, and that's where his wisdom fails him. He does not know that Kremy cares about him as much as he does, and that's why he submits so easily to suggestion. He does not want to lose Kremy over something like disobeying orders. We see again how badly Gideon does not want to lose Kremy at the end, where they find themselves in an argument over the entire scene with Remy Garou. It wonderfully breaks down their feelings into a soft scene, and it concludes a fantastic story.
This fanfiction was incredible from beginning to end, and it made me go through so many emotions at any given point. While there is romance, it is not the main focus which is fantastic. It really dives into the depths of each character and how they exist in their world, but also shows the inner workings of their minds without being too invasive. It was a fantastic read, and I highly recommend it.
#i really hope that when the chapters get added that they work well!#i was not joking about the fugue state#something took over me and i forgot hygene and eating and all the good stuff#so hopefully i still got it even when im not actively out of my gourd 😬#also thankyouthankyouthankyou youre so sweet everyone reading it is so sweet <3#glad we all have worms eating our brain#the fourth chapter is about ready for proof reading aswell so :D#posting on the internet is very scary but lovely people sharing in your insanity makes it worth it
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