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So nostalgic. My husband and I while we were dating. Photos taken by a friend but edited by me 🫶🏾

Established in 2017 🫶🏾

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Miss talking to you beauty! Hope you're doing well! 😍😘

Miss you, too, amor! ♥ We need to catch up, ya?

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The Lemons take Bahamas 🇧🇸

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‪I thought that I would be a pro at love, but here I am... failing at it

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Waist beads and tings 💙📿🥰

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Dear black girls/women who walk around with a permanent mug on your face:

1 life is going to be okay.

2. I swear if you start to forgive whomever hurt you, and learn to look at that pain as a lesson.. you will be able to move on! And slowly forget, because no matter what anyone has done to you.. the world does not owe you an apology for it.. you must seek that understanding for yourself..

3 it’s okay to treat other people kindly even if you’re hurting.. I swear you may actually feel better on the inside.

4. Just because you grew up around/in chaos does not mean that your life has to be.

5 you are beautiful just the way you are.. no man should have to tell you that, and there’s no need to hate or compete with the next woman because of you are beautiful just the way God made you to be!

6. Life is what you make it. There are plenty of opportunities out here that has YOUR name on them, and yes YOU are qualified and you are smart enough to live them and enjoy them.

And lastly, just try to think positive life for positive results to follow 😏🌻 you are a sunflower. Don’t give up on yourself.. ANGER isn’t the way Sis.

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“Sweetest thing I’ve ever known…”

Established in 2017!

Married 2021!

Throwback to our first shoot. It’s amazing to see how much he’s in love with me 🥰 true love does exist 😚

09-23-2022

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Self Lovery, 07-24-2022 🌹🤟🏾💙

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I’ve got to stop being petty toward my husband. He’s a godsend to my life. He is patient. He is truly kind. He loves me above all. He gives me 98% of his best. He truly adores me and wants the best for me, and that is all I have ever dreamed of. To truly have a man like the Corinthians 13! He is my Corinth. My truest best friend. A love so rare and yet so gentle. I wish this love onto everyone. To find a soulmate who appreciates you being his rib. A life with him is the life I want.. when I said “I Do.” That means a life sentence to experience ups, downs and the in between, but more importantly that just means the roots that were planted in 2016 have grown stronger and stronger into a beautiful oak tree with many years to flourish. I am excited for his life and my love and is loving each other through it all. Let’s continue growing my love.

10/20/21

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I cut my hair because I was overwhelmed and I sought out change. I cut my hair because I was tired of looking the same. I cut my hair because life was throwing me some serious curve balls, and I wanted to leave all negative energy away from me, so I cut my hair. I don’t regret it one bit, although some times I miss my locs.. I cut my hair because it felt liberating and free. I feel free and I want to continue finding my way back to me. No titles. Just a girl who cut her hair.

10/13/2021

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In retrospect the things that you think truly matters… do not matter at all.. I used to think that working hard— Grinding ALL OF THE TIME was the thing that we all had to do to be “successful,”. That having a lot of money would equate to my happiness, but the reality is I’ve been really poor and I’ve had money, and at both ends of the spectrum I’ve realized that: I need God through all aspects of life, I’m not better than anyone else nor is anyone else better than me, we all can be a better human at times, (Getting high, drunk or even getting or indulging in gluttonous behavior will not take problems away.) we ALL need to ask for forgiveness and grace from the people we love, and the most important part of living is experiencing true love. true unconditional love that should be experienced in families, and friends. My husband has showed me Gods love: has shown me grace, peace, patience and kindness and I truly wish that we ALL could extend that bit of joy to each other! A lot of people would not be depressed or scared to speak up due to judgement, and more of us would get along! Family especially; It does not matter who is “wrong, or who was/is right.” Those things mean nothing when we pass away and we can’t embrace each other anymore or apologize or even ask for forgiveness. Holding grudges are a sign of weakness and bitterness and it’s not okay !! Someone has to be the one to say it, but it doesn’t matter who’s a favorite when everyone else is feeling like the BLACK sheep.. you can’t put one on a peddle stool and expect others to feel comfortable enough to speak to you or try and build a solid, genuine connection. We ALL CAN AND NEED TO DO BETTER. Life is flying by whether we understand the assignments or not.

“Time waits for no one.. it passes us by, just like the birds.. the birds that fly high in the sky.” -Betty

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I wanted to be..... me

I used to want to be one of those girls who wear makeup every day because it’s habitual and maybe even make them feel prettier than they do without it, but I believe makeup is an artistry and it is actually really hard to put on. I like my bare face and carmex, and I’m learning that, that’s beautiful too. I wanted to be one of those women who were tough and stuff in person, ya know “never let your guard down; never let them see you sweat or weep.”

but I cry way too often and truthfully I’m sensitive. I wanted to be the type of person who held grudges, but instead I’ve chosen to forgive for my own sanity, freedom, and peace of mind. I wanted to be the type of person to uphold a perfect lifestyle on social media, but in reality I’m a freaking mess. I wanted to be the person who works out every day, eats clean and feel good doing it, but I can be negative sometimes, I like carbs and ice cream and working out is painful for me. I wanted to be the type of person to show no weakness in losing people, because as life goes on that is apart of it, but honestly I miss my old friends and the jokes we’ll never get back, because life went on and we somehow didn’t go on with it together. I wanted to be all of these things in hopes that, that’s what happiness was to bring, but now I just want to be me. A quirky girl who isn’t afraid to be emotional, honest, afraid and creative in my own light, because life isn’t about wanting to be who you are not.. it is about accepting who you are and owning your truth. I can’t be hard all of the time because I’m actually soft. I can’t be mad all of the time because I love laughter. I can’t hold grudges because I like people (sometimes 🙃) I can’t be who I am not and that statement makes me want to learn me without wanting to be anything other than who I truly am.

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Imagine not seeing your raw smile for months, and then suddenly fracturing your finger, God literally... literally sitting you down, and then everything in your life becomes clearer.. that’s what has happened to me, so if I seem a little different.. it’s because I AM.. I haven’t felt like myself in soo long (working too long of bourse and not making myself a priority) it took being forced to sit down to open my eyes. AND it has been the best thing to happen to me.. I feel lighter, happier, freer , not so much friendlier lol I still don’t like many people, but it’s a working progress. Overall though,.. my happiness is back.. and things will be different moving forward . 🪴🪴🌱🌱

3-28-21

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I feel like men’s lack of emotions typically make them less romantic, and less romance leads to.... seeking romance from other people, and that’s how women cheat..