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to the best other half i could ask for aka @kaneswrites 💕

let me start this off by saaaaaying happy two years, my love 😘  I could try to pretend that this won’t be the sappiest letter/speech you’ve ever read, but in that case, I’ll probably end up proving myself to be a fucking liar. Because this day, honestly, means too much for me to not be sappy (and it’s not technically even the 17th yet in california!!)

I know exactly where I was when I decided I wanted to be with you. I mean, the moment when I really, really decided it, knew it beyond anything. Isn't that funny? I was at a little outside bar with my mom in Downtown Disney, drinking overpriced sangria and i remember texting you and thinking "she's gonna be my girlfriend." I mean, it’s something I felt so fiercely that I came out to my mom on that same day, just because I didn’t want to have to hide you when we eventually got together. And because, honestly, you were the first person who gave me a reason to want to come out. You’re the sort of girl I’d never want to keep a secret, someone I’m proud to have all of these feelings for — and it’s why I was so sure that I was ready to be with you. It's an idea you initially were resistant to, for understandable reasons — but still to this day, I don't regret trying to convince you to give this a shot. Not even on the bad days, and yeah those stick with me sometimes too. 

But what I also remember? All of those Skype calls we had, for almost a year. Constantly waking up at eight a.m. or earlier to Skype with my girl, to hear your voice every day, and to talk and cry about our ships for hours on end. Our first date; at least what I consider our first date because it was planned out and damn it, I put makeup on for you 🙈 we watched Vampire Academy, and it was the beginning of the whole love we had for Dominic - and I still remember you squealing when he first was on screen. Your enthusiasm about our ships, our faceclaims, and everything is something I remember and to this day, it's something I love about you. You’re the type of person who makes me always want to be smiling, the sort of person who makes me feel validated as a good person simply because you’ve seen everything about me and still remind me every day that I’m worth loving. It’s not an easy task, I know — but it’s something you’ve never faltered in, not when it really mattered.

I know that this hasn’t always been easy for us, this relationship — hell, even our friendship at times. In the past four years, we’ve been through so much. From my side of it, you’re the person who’s pulled me through some of the hardest things in my life. RP drama, friendship drama, stressing over school, work (God, remember Midori at Target — yikes), fighting with my parents, and every hard moment I’ve had in the past four years, you’re the one I’ve vented to about it. You’re the one who was always there to listen, even when we both knew I was just being the biggest fucking baby, and you’ve never really told me that. Like, sure you’ve told me to relax a few times, to breathe — but you’ve never made my feelings feel small. You always listened, even when you had your own shit going on, and that’s something I can never thank you enough for. My only hope is that you know I’m here, fully willing to repay every moment that you’ve been here for me. 

You’re my best friend, my rock, and the best fucking thing in the world that could have ever happened to me. I guess that’s why it makes sense that so many of my happiest memories over the past few years belong to you. Honestly, it’s just... I’m really at a loss for words as to how to describe how much you and this relationship mean to me. I’ve never had the highest opinion of myself, and it’s like... you may not like everything about me, but you never fail to be there for me. To remind me that I’m special and talented and pretty and all of the things that I don’t see sometimes, and like... you just make me feel safe and happy and loved. That’s the simplest way I can put it. You’re an amazing girlfriend, I don’t say that enough and I know sometimes I’m a whiny little brat who’s all ‘pay attention to me Sara why don’t u love me’ but the truth is... you’re wonderful. You’re always there, even trying to text when you’re at work or with your brother, and the fact that you make time for me, even when you’re mad at me or just plain busy means the world to me. 

Thank you, for everything. For all of the memories, good and bad — because they’ve made up two years that I could never, ever, ever forget. And for loving me, something I hope to keep being able to return for a long time to come.

I love you 😍  And I hope you like these gifs too, even if I totally spoiled them a week ago by asking you what you wanted LMAO AS IF I WASN’T GONNA MAKE YOU MANIP GIFS 

Happy anniversary, Sara 😘  Thank you for an amazing two years

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[text] I'm being stupid. / [text] You have nothing to be jealous over, silly. I'm all yours. / hartliam

[text] I’m being stupid.

Liam → Hartley: You’re not stupid, love.Liam → Hartley: You have every right to be worried about this, you know?Liam → Hartley: But I’ll be here for you always. I promise you that.

[text] You have nothing to be jealous over, silly. I’m all yours. 

Liam → Hartley: I just… I fucking hated the way he was looking at you.Liam → Hartley: I got nervous, and I’m sorry.Liam → Hartley: You’re right. You’re mine. :D

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coolest plots

mm, so you know, there’s a million i could talk about? because i love a lot of our plots buuuut i’m going to try to keep it to a few. (but since i’m trash, we both know i’ll talk about 03840284023)

first, i’ll admit that i really, really dig sawyer and allison. like, maybe a huge part of why i have such an insane soft spot for them is because they were our first but like, it’s more than that? they have had such an intense journey and ngl i still go back to creep their early stuff just because they’ve come so far? when we first picked them up, allison was so hesitant on love because she’d had such a rough journey in life because of what happened with her parents, and sawyer was the guy who wasn’t looking for love because he didn’t know what love was. they both had such messy backstories and had such a guard up- and slowly, they started to let each other in and it grew to be this beautiful relationship. like, i’m going to get cheesy for a second but it was this ship that made me realize how beautiful and in-depth our ships could be, because they were partners, in every sense of the word. every trial they endured, they did so together and they were always, always in each other’s corners. plus, i mean... sawyer became a better person because of ally, and he grew to be this total sap who has a dog, and built his wife a fucking house secretly so that he could surprise her with it on christmas. aND HE PROPOSED DURING SEX, MY PRINCE. and then they had a million babies, so yes, definitely my favorite.

the second favorite i have is actually arthur and rose, simply because like... their start was so negative, like he hated her and then one day, they didn’t hate each other. they grew to be each other’s best friends, talking each other through their relationship problems with other people and having platonic kisses (lol when were they ever platonic really) and like... in a way, arthur’s her hero. he’s saved her from every dark moment, and i like to think in a way, they save each other every day. because they don’t struggle with their demons anymore, and it’s actually really beautiful if you ask me???

third third third i really like the plot we did with cameron and nyx??? it’s funny because we started them during a really dark time but like, even in that time, they were still beautiful. like, i remember early on in their ship where she was fresh off of being a crazy partier and thought that cam was too good for her, while he was struggling with the same thing. and i just, as you can see above, i have a very soft spot for ships that save each other, and lift each other up, and that’s the most apt description of cam and nyx that i could ever give you. i know that we don’t do them too terribly often but i have such a soft spot for them, and ngl that’s why nyx is one of my favorite opposites that i’ve ever had with you.

apparently i’m just going to get sappy as fuck but basically, i could go on forever about why i adore the plot with forest and melanie. as you know, i had a lot of ideas about forest when i first played him and for reasons, those plans didn’t work out. and ngl, i’ll admit i was bummed out for a long time because like, i wanted to develop forest from the point i left him at in novella. he’d just lost his mom, and he was homeless, crashing at his best friend’s house and one of my biggest frustrations about how that rp ended up was like, i didn’t get to play around with that side of him and i was expected to just keep the sassy bastard from london. but when you proposed melest (WHICH I’M SO ETERNALLY GRATEFUL FOR, MIND YOU), you did so by offering to continue the dynamic i’d left him in. he was still crashing at eric’s house and he found love with his best friend’s little sister - and like, it’s so strange because they have some of the best chemistry of any ship i’ve had with anyone, ever, and like... why didn’t they come to light in the rp???? literally the fact that we weren’t pals then is sO FRUSTRATING BECAUSE WE COULD’VE HAD IT ALL, AND WE COULD’VE STARTED MELEST TWO YEARS BEFORE WE DID. rip rip rip but yes i love them, and i love that we made something beautiful out of two characters everyone else discarded :*

next, i’d have to say that aurora and ezra are one of my favorites. like i’ve said before, finding the perfect opposite for aurora took a while but like, it’s like that book where goldilocks tries a million chairs, porridge, and beds, because like... finally, we found something that was just right. like, this is another ship where i secretly go back and creep their shit all the time, simply because there’s so much passion and pain and like, we have a fucking second verse for them that makes me cry, because it’s such a sign of how inevitable this ship is. they’re soulmates and no matter what plot, or time, we’ve thrown them in, they’ve found their way to each other - and not to mention, they gave birth to some amazing children, who i love love love. like, in a way, i’m really happy that we picked these babies up late because there’s no negative history with them. they didn’t suffer the dark times, but they were a sign that we were finally back to where we needed to be, because they’ve been epic. they’ve been beautiful, and ngl they’re hot as fucking hell let me tell you

rip... because like, i’ve talked about so many ships and you’re gonna kill me but i’m not done yet. basically, you know i love sebastian and chloe. you know i love them, but a part of why i love them so much is because of the ooc things. when i wrote these characters for devlin, we weren’t in a great place. we weren’t and i’ll admit, i didn’t have high hopes. i was thoroughly convinced that you were going to leave and never talk to me again, and i was all prepared to not love this ship, but somehow, i fell in love with it anyways. i fell in love with the way you write, the way your words make me have this visceral reaction to hug your character, the way you show progression in your characters with every word or text or anything else - and you showed me a reason not to give up on us. sebastian and chloe were a ship that i never expected to want as badly as i did, yet when we were writing their breakup para - you gave that moment where we were like ‘ fuck, we can’t break them up’ and it was so fucking symbolic of where i was with you at the time. because no matter what was happening with us, i couldn’t fucking give you up either. and yeah, i’m emotional now so imma skip off to the next one!!!

adelaide and ryan 😍  you know that these two are my darlings, simply because they were one of our first 1x1s. i still hate damon, this nonexistent prick, but like, let me tell you, i’m such a sucker for the ships where there’s been this longstanding love between them. because you know. i’m a little bit of a sucker for soulmate love - i’ve never made that a secret, but essentially, these babies hurt me a lot and it’s so skdhskhf. i’ve been trying to get through this thing without keysmashing and i guess i just failed, but i’m still remembering when ryan took adelaide for a date in san francisco, and realized he was really, really fucking in love with her. and i cry because yeah, he had to watch her with his best friend for years after the bitch stole the girl he’d been crazy for, and he still waited for her. my prince would wait a lifetime for her though, if i’m being honest... rip

another plot that i absolutely adore (and i know you do too because it sparked a damn multi-muse) is carson and clover. their plot is especially hard because like, they’ve been more or less together for years and like, he wants so badly to just marry her? like he’s planned out their proposal a million times, genuinely, but keeps holding off because he doesn’t think it’s fair to tie her down when there’s a chance he’ll never come home. and like, it kills me because she wants to marry him so badly and he wants it too but until one of them can compromise, they’re going to be at this standstill kshdksh i cry

i’m trying to keep this short (and failing) but another plot i have a really big soft spot for is hartley and liam. they’re a ship that, yet again, i didn’t expect to love so much. because like, they started during a drunken game of never have i ever and there were uh, complications that i shall not go into for now 😇  but i’m still really emotional remembering about how when they were going to spend the summer in california, liam was going to go with her to visit her dad for the first time in like ten years, and she was going to help him track his down. and it just makes me really emotional because like, these are two people who taught each other how to love - and they were each other’s first loves, plain and simple. it’s beautiful, and ngl one of my favorite, favorite paras we’ve done for them was the one where hartley admitted she was pregnant because the way he supported her, despite being really young, was amazing. so so amazing

another one of our early ships that is special to me is nicolette and sebastian. they were super early in our shipping history and i remember how pissed the admins were that we were leaning towards it because aPPARENTLY OUR CHILDREN WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE TOGETHER. but as per usual, once we get started, no one can stop us. sometimes i want to kick nicolette for the fact that it took her so long to realize how she felt about sebastian? because like, homegirl had the perfect guy sitting right in front of her for her entire lIFE AND DIDN’T SEE IT, THIS IDIOT and it took her almost losing him to realize what she wanted. never mind the fact that she basically risked getting fired from her contract at gtv to chase him back to paris because she couldn’t handle him losing her. like, i know nicolette made so many mistakes but i love them?? because they both make each other better people

last but not least, i can’t talk about my favorite plots/ships without talking about noah and maeve. like, their beginning was so quinnessentially noah, with this idiot knocking into her and spilling his drink all over her dress but like, the fact that this society princess still wanted to give my poor child a chance is nothing short of magical. because she’s so fucking beautiful and he’s such a mess, like a lil floppy mess, and somehow, he still captured her heart anyways. sometimes i laugh because like, noah is genuinely so awful at being smooth (this is the boy who told her that he loved her the first time via text oVER DEADPOOL OF ALL THINGS) but still, he loves her more than words can say. and like, he’s always been this guy who was in someone’s shadow, whether it be arthur’s or jaxon’s and somehow... for the first time, someone wanted him. he wasn’t the second option or the sidekick. because of maeve, he got to feel like the hero and let me tell you, that’s not something my prince would trade for anything in the world.

and there you have a novel of my love for you, you’re welcome!!

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"I could get used to this." 💜 liam & hartley

It’s hardly the first time I’ve spent the night in my boyfriend’s dorm room, as we’ve been pretty sexually intimate since day one. But even so, it’s not something we do often considering our different schedules - which is why Liam’s comment surprises me so much. The fact that it comes when I’m straddling his waist is really no surprise, considering he’s always been a bit chatty during sex, and it takes me a moment to stop my movements long enough to consider his words. “You could?” I hate how nervous my voice sounds, how I’m almost shaking at the course our conversation could potentially take. We’ve talked a few times about moving in together, something neither of us really looked into, and it seems like my boyfriend’s finally bringing it up again. I pull my lower lip between my teeth, reaching up to push my sex-mussed hair behind my ear. “I mean, we could do this more often,” I start, a blush heating my cheeks. “Not just morning sex- but staying the night together. We talked about an apartment- and I know there’s one in the complex just off campus that’s opening up if you were really serious about wanting one.” I fall silent for a moment, my nerves getting the best of me. “I guess this is where I’m stealing your moment and asking you to move in with me.”

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[text]: You're not alone. / [text]: I only want you. // hartliam :*

[text]: You’re not alone.

Hartley → Liam: I know, i know.Hartley → Liam: I’m just scared, Li. Hartley → Liam: What if I’m bad at it? 

[text]: I only want you.

Hartley → Liam: These hormones are making me crazy, I swear.Hartley → Liam: I’m sorry for getting upset with you, she’s just.. so pretty.Hartley → Liam: And blonde.Hartley → Liam: And tall.Hartley → Liam: And skinny.Hartley → Liam: With nice boobs. God, she probably doesn’t need to go to Victoria’s Secret.Hartley → Liam: Maaaaaake me stop

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[text]: Prove it. / [text]: Okay, you convinced me. 💜 hartliam

[text]: Prove it.

Hartley → Liam: Come to my dorm, and I will.Hartley → Liam: My roommate’s out and she won’t be back all night..

[text]: Okay, you convinced me.

Hartley → Liam: And to think, all I had to do was offer to suck you off while you were drumming.Hartley → Liam: I think I’m getting the hang of this girlfriend thing 😏

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"There's nothing to be jealous of." 💕 hartliam

“Liam,” Hartley began, laughter spilling from her lips despite the veracity of her words. “I don’t know if you’ve realize this, but you’re quite a catch. There’s a list, you know.” Her fingertips moved slowly against his skin, the movements matching the slow cadence of her breaths. “Of the prettiest boys at Devlin, the ones who people would do just about anything to spend a night with - and you’re at the top of that list. All the girls think so, and they don’t care that you’ve got me now.” But what she failed to mention, partially as it was something the both of them knew, was that in the past she would have been one of those girls, clamoring for the muscular drummer despite his having a girlfriend. And he’d seen something in her, something of value - and it was that ability of his that gave her pause now. A few months ago, those girls had been exactly what Liam wanted, and she couldn’t help but worry that once the allure of their initial honeymoon period had worn off, that was precisely what he’d want again. “I just.. they’re all so pretty, and you’re you.” A small shrug moved her shoulders. “Kind of hard to compete with.”

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"I tried to be good for you." 💕 hartliam

Even though the two had been dating for a few months now, the truth was that there were few days in which Hartley didn’t feel vulnerable with Liam. It wasn’t a bad thing, really, but only natural considering how new the idea of a relationship was - and truthfully, she couldn’t help but feel surprised by his words. The idea of his feeling just as vulnerable as she did was a shock, considering how good he’d always been at the boyfriend thing. There hadn’t been a moment where he’d lied, not to protect himself in the way she’d done with Sebastian, and there hadn’t been a moment he’d pushed her away. He’d been braver than her at every step, yet he seemed to be just as plagued by self doubt now. “Li,” she spoke up softly, taking a step closer to him with an audible sigh. “You don’t have to try, you are good. Believe me, you’re the best guy I’ve ever known.”

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hartliam 💕

“I never meant to hurt you,” was all that Hartley could vocalize in that moment, despite knowing that those words didn’t hold a prayer of being close to enough to mend the damage she’d caused to her relationship with a little white lie. Spring break, it seemed, wasn’t as fun as it had been cracked up to be, and for the first time, Hartley found herself filled with regret. What had started as an innocent game of ‘Never Have I Ever’ had turned to the scene she currently found herself in, and the girl knew she had no one to blame but herself. Because it hadn’t been Sebastian who had lied, or Lincoln, or even Chloe - it had been her, and now she needed to deal with the consequences of it. Whatever her history with Sebastian, it hadn’t been fair to keep it a secret from her boyfriend. “I know you think that there’s something going on between us, Li,” Hartley finally broke into the silence that had fallen between them, her hand finding his with shaking fingertips. “Or you think that the only reason I’m with you is because he’s with her- but that’s not it. I’m not going to stand here and tell you that I’ve never felt something for him, or that what happened with him was just sex to me- but I don’t want to lie to you.” God, she knew this was coming out entirely wrong, but the truth was, Hartley had lost all sense of control when it came to this situation because- she didn’t know what else to do. Keeping her thoughts locked away might as well have cost her him, and that was the last thing she wanted. “But as much as it meant to me at the time, it only took one night with you to realize that isn’t what love’s like? We had sex, Liam, and for the first time, I wanted to be more than just the girl someone texted at 2 a.m. to get off. I wanted to be the girl you held hands with, the one you took on dates- Fuck, I wanted to be the girl you took home to your mom, because that’s what you do when you love someone. You want to tell the whole world about it, and you want to spend every waking moment with them, making them laugh or kissing them just one more time. I wanted to make you happy, to hold your hand, to come watch you practice with your band and to distract you when you were doing your homework, just because I liked the way you looked at me. I liked the way it felt, and I didn’t want that to stop.” A small sob shook her shoulders. “I’ve known I loved you since the first night, Liam. And I know it doesn’t excuse what I did, but I didn’t want you to stop wanting me because you realized exactly how many people had already had me. So I lied, and it was stupid and I’m so sorry.”

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