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Lily Hunter were a Pureblood Ravenclaw student in Hogwarts, she was one of the best students there, seeing as the perfect student but she were also considered as the 'other Lily' as she were friends with Lily Evans at one point but no one knew why they stop talking to each other, she were also teased due her blind eye that she cover her hair and she had a long white hair so she were always called as the 'Ice Queen' of the school since she could have a cold attitude towards others aside her shyness.

She just ignored everyone and focus on her studies, right now she were at the library, having a look at a few books as she enjoy it better then going around school gossip and fool around.

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With this reply, green eyes watched him carefully, sensing more to this than he was letting her know. Perhaps she could take a wild guess that he was being picked on again, and by who else than at least two to three certain Gryffindor's she had in mind. However, Lily knew better than to ask Severus about it. Instead, she would ask the other boys later.

"I see." She replied with a smile. "But why do you need to study more? You're probably already one of the top students in all your classes. There's no doubt you're incredibly intelligent. It's not as if you can't handle whatever Professor Slughorn throws at you."

Lily had to get him out of here and away from the others as much as she could. He couldn't stay in the library forever, and nor did she want to herself. "Oh, I know! Why don't we go to Hogsmeade together? I need to grab some supplies anyway."

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Severus's dark eyes flicked over the boy, and he could not help the smirk which curled at the corners of his lips. Draco may have fooled everyone else, especially Potter, hell, even himself, but Severus had a gift for seeing through people, and he was not fooled, not even in the slightest, no matter how hard his god son attempted to protest.

"You...are at your wits end..." he said, in a slow drawl. "I beg of of you, to let me assist you...do you have any idea how far I've gone to ensure your safety? I have taken...the unbreakable...vow.."

You are at your wits ends. Alright, this was exactly the sentence he emotionally, mentally, physically KNEW exactly, inside every degree of his soul, than he didn't wanted to hear, especially not from Snape. There always had been consciousness he had been carefully watched by his eyes, which could be deeply problematic concerning his little meddling business … What if, within their double act together, in their separate and different union to protect Potter, he considered that he was going a little too far on the traitor's plank ? Well, actually, he was an traitor --- but it wasn't an knoweldge he wanted concerned villains to know. For one second, as remembrance it concerned Snape and not someone else, he forced himself, deeply within desire of immediate answer of his features, to bring frontal dark glance. I beg of you, to let me assist you. That would have been perfect if Potter wasn't the one insisting within the world of shadows to do the exact same thing, in which he pulled illusions further and rejected what necessery help he needed … ❝  I need to ensure your safety too, just in case you forget. ❞  Immediate bounce back enjoyed that sentence as good manner to an slight discreation. He didn't wanted someone else to be sacrified than him, and nothing could save him than taking somehow, somewhere the responsability about how he was condamned in long term to death … ❝  I just have trouble sleeping, it's not a big deal, really, I'm very, very fine. ❞  He attempted in a rough way.

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Severus sat in a secluded corner of the library, his eyes flickering over the text in the textbook in front of him, as he attempted to phase out everyone and everything else in the room, leaving him alone with this thoughts so that he would not have to face reality, or deal with any of the arrogant dolts he was forced to put up with on a daily basis.

As he turned the page, however, his hands moving swiftly and smoothly across the paper, he heard a familiar voice nearby, causing a jolt to his heart, and he nearly leapt from his seat, as his eyes shot upward.

Lily.

Lily figured she might find him here. She walked into the library, looking for any secluded corners, before finding the person she was looking for. "Sev!" She exclaimed happily, taking a seat at the table, placing her books upon it.

"I thought I'd find you here. How are you doing?" She could tell something was bothering him, even if this type of behavior wasn't unusual for him.

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Draco recoiled subtly at the way Severus' words were emphasized, knowing that frustration lay behind his composed demeanor. He hated asking for help and feeling as though he didn't have control over the situation. More importantly, he hated that Snape always seemed to see right through him, despite his attempts at concealing his turmoil. However, if anything had piqued his interest, it was the mention of extra protection...

While he had no idea what the future held, Malfoy wasn't an imbecile. He had gradually come to terms with certain dangerous aspects that surrounded him - particularly around his father's affiliation with the Dark Lord - and an added layer of protection could very well have been the one thing that saved him in the long term. He seemed to contemplate Severus' insinuation before he shifted his weight to his other leg, holding the professor's gaze with an air of wariness. Draco exhaled noiselessly, tilting his chin up with slight defiance.

"I'll bite... What kind of protection, Professor?" came his steady and reserved response, keen gaze studying Snape intently. "What do you gain from helping me, anyway?" He was careful to keep any accusatory tones out of his voice, although his hesitation to accept help was still evident.

The boy's silent scowl did not go unnoticed by Severus, and it only caused his own smirk to widen, and his eyebrow raised sightly as he caught the color rushing to to the boy's pale cheeks, which only served to heighten the satisfaction which was written all over his own face. He raised his head slightly, in disbelief, his eyes narrowing as they bore into Draco's; how he could possibly think that he was fooling him by now, was beyond him, hell, he was certain that he wasn't even fooling himself.

He allowed them both a moment of slightly awkward silence, as to let them both gather their thoughts, and although his smug expression remained, his eyes softened, sparkling with both concern and relief at the fact that he was finally being honest with him, as the silence was finally broken by the Slytherin.

"...I can offer you reassurance..and more importantly..I can offer you added protection...if certain things were to..go South," he responded, slowly, his tone soft, but laced with urgency. 

When the boy spoke again, Severus could not stop the anger rising in his heart; the boy had just admitted to needing help, and here he was, blatantly lying to his face. "You are not, fine.." He said, gritting his teeth, his eyes wide as he shoved the boy as discreetly as possible to towards the wall behind them, forcing him to look at him.

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Lily didn't release her hold on Severus, wanting to do what she could to protect her friend. Her attention was also focused on Potter, watching him carefully as made his way towards them. He wouldn't dare to attempt anything when she was around...would he?

Her green eyes remained like daggers, even when addressing her fellow Gryffindor. "Last time I checked, what I do or who I spend my company with is not your concern, nor will it ever be, Potter." She huffed. "I could ask the same of you."

She didn't want a fight, especially not with Severus around. It wasn't her intention to start anything. All she wanted was to spend time with her best friend and try to mend the distance that had been starting to grow between them.

With this, Lily knew what she would need to do. They had to go somewhere else--- somewhere Potter couldn't disturb them if it was at all possible. She moved to grab Severus' hand and moved to stand up. "Let's go, Sev."

Severus watched in horror as his bully entered through the two front doors of the bar; at first he looked around a bit, laughing as his friends began to follow him, at a distance, but soon his eyes fell on the scene in front of him, Severus staring back at him, seemingly nestled in Lily's arms.

Very quickly, the grin faded from the Gryffindor boy's face, his facial expression morphing into one of disgust, and confusion, and Severus could feel the boy's eyes boring deeply into his own.

"What are you doing here…with him?" He asked, his tone soft, but laced with anger.

Severus was torn between removing himself from her embrace and remaining where he was, but deep down, he did not want to move, and in the end he remained where he was, his face barely conveying any emotions but the way he stared back into the boy's own eyes, and he remained silent, telling himself not to cause a scene, of course unless James were to push him too far.

For a moment, he wondered the same, but judging from the expression on the boy's face, he didn't seem to have been informed that Severus would be anywhere near the area.

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Just when she was beginning to feel as though she were getting somewhere with him, as if Severus was going to open up to her and this whole thing would be over, Lily was surprised to see James Potter walking through the doors, as if ready to send everything crashing down completely.

Green eyes widened at the sight of him before narrowing like daggers with pure disgust. "Oh great..." she sighed, "Just what we need right now. Don't pay any attention to him."

Lily began to wonder if he had followed them here or just had a perfect reputation for showing up in the wrong places at the worst times?

Honestly, that was the way it felt, as if he would literally collapse under the weight of his burdens, of his responsibilities, over his proposed allegiances, over his very existence, and he had never cried in front of her before, normally he would wait until he was alone, secluded, where no one else could see him, and even then, it was rare; whenever he did begin to tear up, the words of his father would creep into the back of his mind, reminding him of what a weakling he was for even thinking of it, yet here he was, completely coming undone in front of her.

Suddenly, there came touch, and as he felt her arms around him, he gasped. He willed his tears to stop, but he was shaking violently, and his face was soaked with evidence of his vulnerability.

For several moments, her did not speak, still scared, too afraid that it might be too late. He stared, his eyes fixated on the wall, and he knew in his mind what he needed to do, in order to keep Lily, and not seem like a traitor to anyone else at the same time.

He squeezed her hand in return, as a hot, embarrassed feeling began filling up his insides, still in disbelief over how he had just acted, but before he could react, before he could move or speak, he was struck by fear as the doors opened, and James Potter stepped into the establishment.

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Green eyes went wide at his response before spotting Severus leaning towards her, looking as though the weight of the world was bringing him down. She had seen him in moods before, but never in one like this. She could have sworn he was...crying?! The sight of it made her heart hurt.

Lily had always pictured him to be invincible and stubborn. Even if she could tell that his father got to him at times, or certain things bothered him, Severus would push through and continue on. She'd almost consider it to be brave enough for Gryffindor, but that would be the last thing he wanted to hear right now. And his words were playing around in her mind.

The Gryffindor got up from her chair and moved to sit right next to him, letting him lean onto her shoulder as she wrapped an arm around him. She wasn't going to get on him for showing vulnerability. If anything, she wanted to encourage it.

Finally, Lily broke the silence. "You're not too far gone, Sev. You always have the choice, to make the right change--- to do the right thing. I know you're capable of it." She grabbed his hand again, this time squeezing onto it tightly, wanting to let him know she was here. "And you haven't lost me. I'm still here, silly. I'm still trying to fight for you...for our friendship. Will you do the same too? I just don't want you feeling like you need to go searching for something among the likes of Avery, Mulciber and their gang."

She paused, giving a smile, wishing Severus could see how amazing he was and everything she saw he was capable of. "You have so much potential in you. I wasn't lying when I said you're going to be one of the most brilliant wizards of our time. I believe in you. You'll make the right choice..." he just had to believe in himself too.

Severus could feel how quickly his heart was beating in his chest, and as he noticed the look on Lily's face as she reacted to his confession, his own eyes widened in a mixture of fear, sadness, and panic.

As he watched her fall back against her chair, he could feel his entire body beginning to shake, overwhelmed by emotions and circumstance. He held tightly onto her hand, sensing her emotional release before the tears began to even fall down her face. Damn it, he'd made her cry. Was he really just no good, like everyone assumed? Why did he keep screwing everything up? Was he going to lose the only person who'd ever cared about him?

He swallowed, reaching a shaky hand to wipe away the tears from Lily's plale cheeks, before he retracted, lowering his head, and hiding his face underneath his hair.

"It…does…it..I don't..know what to believe…maybe..I'm too far gone, maybe…I've already lost you…"

He dipped his head down further, his black hair dangling down in front of her, as he felt his own emotional release, and he mentally scolded himself as the tears came falling down, remembering the words of his father, though as silent as he was, and such as he tried to hide it, he knew that she could see him, tears visible and falling quickly, hitting the table and soaking the area next to where her butter beer stood. It was not very like him to cry, and he hadn't done it in years, but he felt that if he hadn't, then his only other option would have been to flee the cafe altogether, leaving Lily alone and crying, though right now he was so embarrassed from showing such weakness in front of her, that he had to stop himself doing so, anyway.

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Lily's eyes widened with worry when he mentioned that reporting on Potter and Black wouldn't work. She was feeling even more at a loss of what to do for her best friend. It felt as though he was only continuing to slip from her more and more and no matter how much she tried to hang onto that dear sweet boy who introduced her to a world of magic, something would be tearing them apart in the end.

This made her lean back in her chair, arms crossed, breathing out, trying to hold back tears from it. Butterbeer momentarily forgotten. It hit her to her core even more when he confirmed her worst fears---that there was something more he wasn't telling her.

"What are you hiding from me, Sev? Does it...does it involve your so called Slytherin friends?" And no matter how much she tried to hold back the tears, they started falling from her eyes. "You're smarter than this, and far more talented! I don't want to lose my best friend. If you're going down a dark path, I can't follow. Please...tell me you aren't buying into their beliefs!"

Severus hated it too, he hated the way he was acting, the way he was feeling, he was stronger than this, but he rarely felt that way, especially not now, here in public, here in front of Lily. He knew that she wasn't about to judge him, that he could trust her, but he loved her, and he was embarrassed, and besides, he was usually able to keep better composure in front of her, but here he was, coming completely undone, inches away from her in the Three Broomsticks, and no amount of spell knowledge could save him.

His mind raced, and as the read head mentioned reporting Potter and his gang to McGonagall, he stifled a bitter scoff; would it even do any good? Would he be told that they were merely pranks, and he was to run along like a good boy?

"I'm..not..sure.that will work," he breathed, his eyes searching her, helplessly, as he gripped at the edges of their table.

Besides, there was another element of danger, one that she seemed to sense as well, despite his best efforts to keep it from her, not that he really could, she possessed a sense of perception which rivaled his own, and he knew that it would only be a matter of time before she figured it out. He hated lying to her, anyway, and do so would only make matter worse between them.

"....Y-yes," he admitted, biting his bottom lip with the top of his teeth.

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She could tell he was terrified and she didn't like seeing her best friend like this at all. With this, there was only one thing Lily could think of doing. "There's no way I'm stooping down to Potter or Black's level, so...would you like me to report this to Professor McGonagall?"

If anything, the more they tried to continue with their antics, they could at least be expelled.

However, as she looked into his eyes, Lily felt an icy chill going down her back. "Is there something more you aren't telling me, Sev?" Could it have something to do with his Slytherin Housemates too?

Severus wasn't exactly fond of Lily hanging around Lupin, either, not only was he dangerous due to his 'condition', but he wasn't much better than the others, in his opinion; he may have been friendly, but whenever Severus was in danger, he never stood up to his friends, he never tried to stop them torturing him. Still, as close as he'd come to doing so, he's never said anything, against his better judgment; with everything in his life spinning so out of control, he didn't need another reason to fight with Lily, though it was difficult because not only was Severus not one to bite his tongue, but if something did ever happen to Lily, he'd never forgive himself, and he'd never forgive Lupin, in fact, he'd most certainly do something reckless, something would most certainly get him expelled, even push him over the edge.

At her words, he flinched, though his eyes never left hers. His tormenters had never tried to get to know him, not that they wanted to, perhaps they didn't wish to interact with such a traumatized child, still, how that gave them license to make his school life hell just for existing still baffled him, and it was worse now that the rumors about him were coming out.

As she reminded him of her presence, he felt his heart jolt, and he squeezed her hand once more, as if she might disappear if he didn't, and as hard as he tried, he couldn't fight the pink tint which burned his pale cheeks as she complimented him, though he said nothing more about it, until she suggested that they could be jealous or stupid; he for one, thought the latter, and his lips curled into a bitter smirk.

"They seem to enjoy reaching for any ridiculous reason they can muster in order to justify what they do to me.

Lily...."

He paused, his smirk becoming a frown. His head whipped around the room, his dark eyes darting around to make sure that no one could hear him, before he moved closer, looming slightly over the table, his face closer to hers, though not quite close enough so that she could feel his breath.

He took a deep breath, swallowing his pride in front of her, the one person he could trust. ".....I'm scared," he whispered, his voice shaky with emotion.

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And there it was---the true answer. At least a part of it anyway.

While some may look at Potter and his friends as the cool kids, Lily only saw a toerag and a bunch of bullies, except for Lupin. He was the exception of them. She had surprisingly found herself getting along well with him, sometimes meeting up in the library or common room to study with each other at times. Even if Severus' theory on Lupin's illness got her thinking at times, overall, Lily concluded she wouldn't mind if it were true. He was still Lupin.

However, as for the others...it was a different case, especially with Potter and Black. She sighed, shaking her head. "Why can't they just leave you alone?" It made her blood boil seeing how they picked on her best friend, and for what, assumptions they had about Severus that may or may not be true? Either way, it wasn't right.

"I'm here." Lily said, squeezing his hand with reassurance. "You're a brilliant wizard, Sev, and if anything, I think Potter and Black know that. It probably intimidates them. I don't know why they do what they do. Maybe they're jealous, or just stupid?" She rolled her eyes at that one, having no doubt. "Just please...don't go down a dark path."

Severus could feel her practically staring into his soul, and on one hand, it terrified him, but on the other, he just wanted to her by his side, always. He was scared, he didn't  know what to do, he was lost, he had never known anyone to treat him, or see him the way Lily always had, the way she still did.

He looked down at ther hand as she grabbed his own, and gently snaked his fingers around hers, before holding it tightly, for dear life.

"I..d-don't..know..I'm afraid..I can't help myself," he stuttered, stuttered, embarrassed at the state of vulnerability that he was showing at this moment.

He watched her, her body language clearly showing that she was about to ask something very difficult, and when she uttered her question, his head whipped up from the wooden table that he had been staring at fro the past several seconds, and for a moment, he was silent, his lips pressed into a fine line.

Fuck. Well she was asking him, and even she hadn't known, it's not as it would have taken her long to figure it out, anyway, Lily was a smart girl. It was not easy for him to talk about his feelings, or about his..experiences...but it was Lily, and she deserved the truth.

"...I..yes..partly.." He admitted, in a low voice, squeezing her hand again for reassurance.

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Lily looked at Severus as they sit down, she made sure to not talk to any other Slytherin students like Severus told her not to as she understood his position, she tries to not start any conversation as she weren't sure how to react.

"Hi, you're the Hunter's girl right? I remember you from the Duel Club, you're pretty skilled" Narcissa said to Lily, which caught the white hair girl by surprise.

"Hmm... Yes that's me" Lily replied shyly as she didn't expect that.

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Study partners - Closed RP with sevhalfbloodp4

Lily Hunter were a Pureblood Ravenclaw student in Hogwarts, she was one of the best students there, seeing as the perfect student but she were also considered as the 'other Lily' as she were friends with Lily Evans at one point but no one knew why they stop talking to each other, she were also teased due her blind eye that she cover her hair and she had a long white hair so she were always called as the 'Ice Queen' of the school since she could have a cold attitude towards others aside her shyness.

She just ignored everyone and focus on her studies, right now she were at the library, having a look at a few books as she enjoy it better then going around school gossip and fool around.

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His words made Lily's heart ache for him. She didn't want to see Severus going through this or hurting at all. Should she have stepped in sooner to stop it all? Or maybe it was her fault for not listening to him entirely, thinking she knew better.

She reached for his hand, green eyes looking to him with worry. "You can talk to me, Sev. You do know that, right? What's wrong? How can I help? I'm listening."

Lily had always tried her best to be a good friend towards him and anyone else she came across. But she knew she could let things get out of hand at times.

Taking a note from her Gryffindor bravery, Lily swallowed, trying to approach the subject as gently as she could. "Does this have anything to do with Potter and his friends?"

Severus could feel the way the atmosphere between them had changed, and the hurt in her voice cut him like a dagger. As they crossed the borders of the school grounds, he could not not help but feel worse and worse, and his heart beat fast against his chest at the feeling of the thick wall of tension between them, and the realization that he had screwed up, yet again, no matter how tightly he kept ahold of Lily's hand, which he held onto like it was his lifeline; maybe it was.

As they entered the village, his eyes finally lifted from the grounds to dart around at his surroundings; he'd never been here before, especially not with company, and he'd certainly never been to this particular spot, since no one was normally lining up to take him for drinks. Once inside, he sat down, slowly, a bit overwhelmed by the crowd of people, though he could not help but feel relieved that they were at least a bit secluded.

When she spoke, his face slightly darkened, and his eyes glistened with a mixture of pain, shame, and a hint of innocence, a bit of the inner struggle going on inside of him showing throughout. How could he explain this? What could he say? He almost wanted to get up and leave, but he knew that that would only heighten the rift between them, and beisdes, it was something which needed discussing. With a deep breath, he spoke, softly, and lowly at a near whisper.

"I-don't..want to lose you..either...but..it..it's getting worse..everything..is getting worse, every day..and it's getting harder and harder to distingush between what's wrong, and what's deserved."

He swallowed hard, and attempted to open his mouth, not sure what else he could say, not that he could get any more words out, even if he'd wanted to.

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Lily looked at Severus when he got close to her and holds her wrist, she didn't show any discomfort towards him, however she noticed a certain Gryffindor girl that shared the same name looking at them confused but since they were far, she didn't do anything, the Ravenclaw girl just gave her a cold stare before turn to Severus, nodding at his words.

She waited a bit before she sat close to him, for their luck they sat right across the Slytherin student well known as Lucius Malfloy along with Bellatrix and Narcissa Black.

Narcissa looked at Lily and smiles at her as the white hair girl sat across her. Lily didn't look bother at all which gave a hint that the two girl have meet before.

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Study partners - Closed RP with sevhalfbloodp4

Lily Hunter were a Pureblood Ravenclaw student in Hogwarts, she was one of the best students there, seeing as the perfect student but she were also considered as the 'other Lily' as she were friends with Lily Evans at one point but no one knew why they stop talking to each other, she were also teased due her blind eye that she cover her hair and she had a long white hair so she were always called as the 'Ice Queen' of the school since she could have a cold attitude towards others aside her shyness.

She just ignored everyone and focus on her studies, right now she were at the library, having a look at a few books as she enjoy it better then going around school gossip and fool around.

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