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It's pathetic, really.
How I constantly look into the scrap paperworks of the story of your life to see if something good of me is in it.
Or at least something of me is in it.
Because to be quite honest, good or bad, I want you to think of me.
I want to be in your mind.
I want to be in your memories and see then realize the amount of joy we shared together.
I want to you to realize how even as we begin fall apart, I took my body limb by limb and hook it along the cracks.
I want you to realize how while I keep on pulling you closer into my embrace, you pushed me away until the rope snapped into five irreparable pieces.
With one of them breaking into five more.
And each fragment breaking into yet another five, then another and another and another until I became nothing but dust within this whole that is the Sahara desert.
You wouldn't pick up a grain by then, yes?
You wouldn't even notice I was there even as I fall beneath your feet.
And listen to the sweet torture that is your laughter shared no longer between us, but with you and another.
But even then, I could never wish the worse for you, for I could never bear to see you hurt.
Even if you were the one who impaled me with the sharpest dagger known to man...
I would still know you as the group of people I can to love the most.
So, please... Be happy.
Not for me, but for yourself.
But I suppose it can be partly for me.
For seeing you smile, makes me wish I could as well.
For I love you, even if it means for my heart to break.
I love you.
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â ⌠chose you for a reason!
featuring izumi sena x fem! reader (IMSORRY)
warnings reader feeling insecure :(. izumi literally sees reader shirtless but they're in a dressing room together anyway so like LMAO. tw ooc izumi i think.. deep kisses help
genre + context fluff, comfort. izumi reassures reader while they're out shopping and trying on clothes together <3
a/n harriet dis is 4 u. ily even tho ur such a big slut for izumi sena. @yoshinyaki1330
Today was Izumi's day off from his idol work, and because you've been so clingy and annoying begging for his attention, his words, not mineâ he decided to take you out for a shopping spree.
Totally not because he feels bad for always been so busy to the point that he never spends time with you. Plus he misses going out with you.. Though he'll never really admit that in front of your face.
Partially also because you needed new clothes. You didn't think so, but your boyfriend definitely did. You already have so much clothes.. But naturally, he just loves spoiling you.
And so, you were here in the dressing room, currentlyâ Izumi was finding clothes that he knows will suit you. You quietly stare at yourself at the mirror, not feeling satisfied, for some reason.
"Are you still there? Let me in." Your boyfriend's voice interrupts, before you unlock the door to let him come inside, whilst he locks the door again once he gets in.
Izumi furrows his eyebrows, "Why aren't you trying anything on yet?" He asks sternly, leaning against the door, but then his eyes immediately soften once he sees how blankly your staring at yourself.
He quietly approaches you from behind, one of his hands resting on your waist, his head resting on your shoulder, as he asks. "You alright? You know you can tell me anything, gorgeous."
You pout playfully, turning your head to look at him. "I don't feel confident enough to wear these clothes." You say in a whisper, noticing that he's given you clothes that were supposed to wrap around your body like it was nothing.
Your boyfriend frowns, "Nothing you can't pull off, yeah?" He whispers as he tucks a few strands of hair behind your ear, planting a soft kiss on your temple.
"Still.." You try to reason, until he cuts you off with a kissâ his head craning down for his lips to meet yours as his hands travel to your waist, your arms instinctively wrapping around his neck as he deepens the kiss.
You pull away from running out of breath, your sighs deep and so are his, a thin string of saliva in between the two of you. "I love you. You're so perfect to me, you have no idea," He breathes out with a smirk plastered onto his face.
"You always get what you want, don't you?" You giggle, ruffling his hair as he plants another kiss, but on your cheek this time. "I could say the same for you. You're spoiled and you know it."
"That's your fault! I didn't even ask for half the stuff I have now.."
myunghology: LET ME COOK NOW
#jianâs works!#ensemble stars x reader#enstars x reader#izumi sena x reader#izumi sena#enstars x you#enstars x y/n
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Anddd another request..Iâm not sure if youâve already done it but here you go..!
Again, if I broke any rules please ignore or delete this
How will these characters(Mika,Leo, and Izumi)react to you/reader crying for the first time?
Reader is a very âstrongâ levelheaded/serious person and no one has seen them cry before. Not even their own family(except the mom) or close friends
But of course, everyone has their limits and Reader has been so stressed out that they cried for the first time in years
What they didnât know though was that their s/o was planning a surprise visit that very same day
Iâm Here For You
Synopsis : After dealing with constant stress for the past few months, today you finally reached a breaking point. Letting out your emotions in the comfort of your home, the last thing you would've expected was a surprise visit from your lovely partner.
Era : N / A
Warning/s : Stress / Overworking / Breakdown / Hurt & Comfort
Mentioned Character/s : G/N!Reader / Leo / Izumi / Mika
Word Count : 1,579
A/N : Shimeji anon this actually hits so close to home for me cuz Iâm literally like that too LMAO I keep it in for ages until I flat out explode AHAHAHA Anyways~ Once again I'm really sorry this took forever but I hope you enjoy regardless 𼺠đ
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Today was just awful, you could even argue that it was the worst day you've ever experienced in literal years. Various tasks and projects alike seemed to pile up due to the busy season that's currently happening but the problem was that none of your peers were pulling their weights⌠At all⌠Originally, you were tasked with handling a do-able job, which wouldâve been simple to complete in itself. Yet, the problem was the fact that your part was heavily reliant on your peers' parts but, since your peers were doing absolutely nothing, you ended up having to do their work in order to meet the actual deadlines⌠So itâs safe to say that you were overwhelmed, stressed and overall just not having a great time.
You thanked every star in the sky and whatever higher being up there that you were able to hold yourself together throughout the day but, as you were packing away your things once you got back home, the emotional bottle within you finally bursted. Soft, quiet sobs escaped your lips as you tried to stop yourself by wiping the tears away but they kept on coming with no end in sight. So⌠after years of staying cool and keeping yourself together, you finally allowed yourself to shatter under the pressure and let everything out.
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Leo Tsukinaga :
Leo wanted to surprise you with a new song that he composed so he climbed up the tree beside your bedroom window and was about to swing it open, [ usually he would throw rocks to get your attention but at some point you gave him a small key so he can unlock it from the outside before he ends up actually breaking the glass ], when he suddenly stopped as he felt his heart shatter at the sight that laid before him. You were curled up in your bed as your shoulders shook from how hard you were crying, your sobs emanated throughout the room as Leo looked at you worryingly. So he opened the window carefully before he hopped onto your bedroom floor.
This caused you to perk up but you didnât even have the emotional capacity to hide your emotions as you desperately tried to wipe away your tears instead. Leo could tell that you were trying to calm yourself down and he had his own idea to help you with that! With a big smile and his signature laugh, he tackled you into a bear hug and smoldered you with kisses, no part of your face was spared. He even kissed the tears away before he snuggled into the crook of your neck.
Leo isnât good with words and he knows that so, instead of fumbling to say the right thing, he started to hum a gentle melody instead.
At this point, he has you in an embrace where youâre both cuddling each other, your head's resting against his chest as you could hear the rhythmic beating of his heart while he hummed his ballad dedicated to you. His hums caused small rumbles in his chest that could be felt through the embrace. You both stayed like this for a while as you let everything out before finally calming down. Through it all, Leo was even playing with your hair as he comforted you.
Once you were ok, he would pepper you with kisses once again as he proudly proclaims how much âI love you!â His kisses are light, causing you to giggle from how ticklish they were.
âWahaha~â Youâre laughing again! Ah~ Your laugh is a wonderful melody, my muse! I can feel inspiration gushing forth once more!â
For the rest of the night, Leo would distract you from your thoughts by playing games, singing songs or just generally doing anything to make sure that your project doesnât even cross your mind. After all, to LeoâŚ
Your smile is the most beautiful thing in the entire galaxy.
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Izumi Sena :
Izumi came to visit you because he was worried. Your last text seemed a bit off. There was no logical reason behind this feeling. To anyone else, it seemed like a regular message from you but Izumiâs gut feeling told him otherwise⌠And he was right. Izumi had a spare key since he would often come over to cook for you and just take care of you in general, and he would even proclaim how much he hated waiting outside, so when he entered your house to see you curled into yourself on the couch, his eyes widened with worry as he walked up towards you.
This was the first time Izumi has ever seen you cry, so it was a bit jarring for him as he didnât know how to comfort you. He knew he shouldnât say anything sarcastic or harsh, since that would most likely make you cry even more, so he just sat beside you and wrapped his arm around your shoulders before pulling you close.
The two of you stayed like that as you gripped onto his shirt and cried into it, your tears made his outfit wet but thatâs not important right now⌠Whatâs more important is the fact that youâre releasing all the pent up emotions within you, and Izumi will be that shoulder you can cry on in order to achieve that. No words were exchanged as a comforting silence surrounded the two of you, the sensation of him gently rubbing your back helped you greatly.
Izumiâs quick to figure out what mustâve happened. After all, the timing of everything lined up perfectly; One moment you were venting to him about your peers and your project, the next youâre crying by yourself at home. It doesnât take a detective to figure out that the problem stemmed from your project and peers alike.
Once you finally calmed down and your sobs turned into small sniffles, Izumi would take some tissues and wipe away your tears, all the while mumbling about how you look âabsolutely awfulâ but his tone clearly implies that he just hated seeing you in such a state of anguish.
âCome here... Go wash your face and freshen up. I better not see any more tears or snot when you get back, am I clear?!â [ Translation : Go and wash your face, itâll help make you feel better. Iâll still be here waiting for you when youâre done. ]
This is when Mama Sena kicks in as he immediately starts to take care of you in order to make you feel better. Just relax as he cooks a hearty dinner that will surely take your breath away! Whatâs that? You still need to work on your project even when youâre at home? Thereâs no way in hell Izumi would let you do that all alone! So câmon, donât be annoying and explain the details already! Let him help while heâs here becauseâŚ
Heâll do everything in his power to make sure youâre not carrying this type of burden alone ever again.
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Mika Kagehira :
Mika stood outside your door anxiously as he fidgeted on the spot. Usually you would answer the moment he rang the doorbell or, at least, yell through the door that you were coming to open it. So the fact that he didnât hear anything for a while caused him to immediately assume the worst, and seeing your puffy eyes when you did open the door freaked him out.
You thought you hid your breakdown well but the moment Mika asked you what was wrong, as his heterochromatic eyes were filled to the brim with worry, you couldnât help but fall apart once again. Small confused noises and squeaks left his lips as he guided you back inside your house, closing your front door with his foot, before pulling you into a comforting hug.
You both just stood there as he slightly swayed you from side to side, all the while he would rub your back, caress your hair, and pretty much do everything he could to try and get you to calm down as you continued to cry into his chest.
He didnât know what happened, and the fact that you were seriously so distraught that even you of all people started to cry, caused millions of thoughts to run through his head. Youâre known to be so calm and level-headed, even through the most challenging moments Mika could ever imagine, so he knew that whatever happened seriously affected you to the core.
The moment your tears dried up and you slowly stopped crying, Mika would pull you into a more tighter, but still gentle, embrace. Small hushes would leave his lips as he would comfort you to the best of his abilities and, once you were ok, you would both pull away from the hug. Mika would wipe any remaining tears off your cheeks as he would give you a soft smile. It had a hint of worry within it, but thatâs just because he wanted to make sure that youâre genuinely ok again.
âNo buts! I ainât hearinâ them from ya! Imma stay here till yer feelinâ better nâ thatâs final!â
Mika would be there by your side for the rest of the night, listening intently to your vents and rambles about the entire situation as he would even make some comments here and there about your whole ordeal. Overall, he would be there for you to let it all out because, at the end of the dayâŚ
He doesnât want to see you crumble again in the futureâŚ
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Izumi Sena x F!reader
âźď¸Minors DNI
Genre: smut
Tags: dom! Izumi, reverse yandere, jealous (of you), hate-intercourse, unrequited love (you love him), misunderstanding, rough, mixed feelings
Plot: Youâve been hanging around Izumiâs favorite people for too long. He wants to show you that they only belong to him. For all he knows, itâs him that you love.
Words: 3,059
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First, it was Makoto, and now Leo. You have been hanging out with them from time to time recently. At ES, during work, in town⌠What you may or may not know is that these two are dear to a certain man. To him, your discussions always look fun from afar, fun enough to keep them distracted for a while. The time spent with you exceeds what he, Izumi, thinks is appropriate. Plus, after chatting with you, these two men always mention you to him. That's it, he's jealous.
He's known them for way longer than you, but now all they ever talk about in his presence is you? You would sometimes hang out with them at the same time as him. However, the few times you two interacted alone, you acted differently in front of him than when you were with his friends. To him, it is as if you are seducing them for your own goals, as if you are trying to take them away from him.
One evening, both you and Izumi are held back at ES for various reasons. On your way to leave work, he happens to spot you and takes the liberty to join you.
"Good evening, Y/N," he greets you.
"Oh- Good evening Izumi-sanâŚ" you reply quietly.
There we go. The "-san" honorifics followed by a distant tone. He noticed that when you call out for Makoto, or when you chat with Leo via text, you only use their names. So why were you acting so familiar with them? The answer is very simple: you are in love with Izumi. His friends noticed, and gladly give you some advice every now and then because who, other than his 'little brother' and best friend, could help you out on this? That's why they mention you to him: they ship you together.
However, it goes without saying that he doesn't know. He is too busy focusing on potential threats because of obsessive tendencies.
"You know, you can drop the '-san' with me too," he tells you while opening the exit door for you.
"Really? Okay, 'Izumi'," you reply while walking out the front door as you feel your cheeks getting redder.
You try to hide your face so that he doesn't see the blush mess that you are right now. To your dismay, Izumi interprets this as a passive-aggressive sign. He is now certain that you are acting differently around them. He wants to have a word with you.
"Are you going home?" he asks.
"Yes, why?" you reply.
"Hm⌠Do you want to go somewhere before heading home?"
"Sure⌠But where?"
He wants to get you to a quiet place, where he won't be bothered by random people. But he doesn't want another 'kidnapping' scandal to happen, so it won't be at his place. It is night right now, so most stores are closed⌠A karaoke? No, too noisy. CafÊs? Too crowded. A hotel? Sounds like a good plan. Then, hotel it is.
Wait⌠To a hotel? He suddenly has an idea to make you back off from them.
You, on the other hand, can feel your heart pounding against your chest. Izumi is asking you on a date, right? You always lose your mind when you are around him. After all, your little crush on him turned into something bigger recently.
"Can we go to the hotel? I have something I'd like to tell you in private," he replies with a cold tone that you don't even notice.
"Sure, lead the way," you reply happily, eager to hear what he has to tell you.
Once you get to the hotel room, Izumi closes the door behind you.
"So what is it that you wanted to talk about, Izumâ"
"I heard you had a crush."
"Huh?!"
'There is no way he knows that I like him!' you start thinking, embarrassed. And you are right. In fact, Izumi still doesn't know. He believes you're into either Leo or Makoto and acts according to it.
"I know you've been trying to get with a certain someone?" he says while getting closer to you. "You know I'm the one who's the most worthy, right?" he adds, trying to show you that he's the better option even though you don't even like either of them.
If only he knew that you liked him, he could have anticipated the fact that you just interpreted all of his sentences in a completely different way.
He gets closer and closer to you. As you slowly back up from Izumi aggressively walking up to you, you realize too late that the bed is right behind you. You trip and fall on top of it.
"I'm not gonna repeat, so listen. If it's just a one-night stand that you're looking for, I can do it. So look no more around you," he adds while staring at you with a cold glare from upward, trying to push you to accept.
What you don't know is that his plan isn't only to make you go to someone other than Leo or Makoto for sex. His goal is also to make you feel 'tainted' so that these two would never want to be with you after this night. He wants to ruin you.
But you love him and don't understand why he's acting like this all of a sudden. You believe he thinks you are an easy girl and wants to try something with you tonight after what his friends told him about you. It's the only rational reasoning that pops up in your mind. Or maybe the way he worded it could be a sign of jealousy towards the other men you talk to? After all, who could have guessed his real plan. Nonetheless, you still have some self-respect and decide to draw some boundaries. You are not to be considered some kind of easy girl.
"Izumi! That's not what Iâ"
You hear the sound of metal tickling. You lower your eyes. He's removing his belt. Looks like he's serious about this.
You remain frozen, not in fear, but because of something else. Your crush is really asking you to have intercourse in a hotel room he just rented? Although he's saying nonsense after nonsense, this is more than what you could ever dream of.
"Careful. If you stay here and remain idle like this, I'm gonna assume that this is a 'yes' on your part."
You stay silent. Of course that you want it.
He sighs. After all, in his perspective, you just accepted to sleep with a random guy even though you pretend to love his dear ones.
"You just have to say 'yes'. Or is it that your pride won't let you say it?" he replies aggressively.
"⌠Y-yes" you give in, still slightly confused about his tone.
Suddenly, Izumi begins removing your clothes, trying to make you feel even more vulnerable, as he stays fully dressed. He looks at your underwear.
"Not bad. Although I doubt they like it like this."
'ăThey?ă', you wonder, thinking he's definitely jealous of the men around you. But little does he know, you bought these with him in mind.
Izumi sits in the middle of the bed, crossed-legged, hinting at you to place yourself on his lap. You oblige.
As he removes your last pieces of clothing while you are sitting on his thighs, he notices something.
"Really? You are already wet from this� Aren't you a bit of a whore?"
Izumi secures you against himself by firmly wrapping his right arm below your breast. With his left hand, he slides a finger against your vulva and moves it around your slit. His hand feels warm.
"No wonder why you ask for validation from all kinds of men. You like their attention so much, huh?," he insults you while rubbing his middle finger against your clit.
Despite his harsh words, the only sound that leaves your mouth is a moan.
"A finger was all it took to make you moan? See, you don't deserve either of them," he replies coldly while rubbing his finger against your wet clit harder.
His harsh movements, along with his hateful comments, somehow feel godly. Your love juices get all over his hand as wet noises come out of your cunt. Even though you wonder what he's talking about, the one thing on your mind right now is that you are actually having sex with him.
"A-ah~ Izumi~! W-what-" you try to ask while moaning.
"Now my name is the one that comes up when you're fucking someone else than who you pretend to love? Disgusting."
You don't understand the situation. You thought he knew you liked him. His pace goes even faster. Now he uses two of his fingers to rub against your clit. You feel your body tensing up, your back arches, and your toes curl as he continues to touch you. You throw your head backward on top of his shoulder and can feel your climax coming as he keeps firm his hold on you.
"Hahh⌠Izumi!~" you let out.
You moan his name all over again as you cum on his strong hand, shaking in pleasure.
Izumi remains speechless for a few seconds.
"Wow⌠So you're really having an orgasm all over the place for some guy you don't even like? What a slut," he finally says.
"What do you mean??" you ask.
He ignores your question and shifts you around his thighs so that you face him, with little to no effort. Startled, you close your thighs.
"Come on, don't act all shy after you just moaned my name out loud, Y/N."
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"Get on your back for me now, I'll spread your legs open myself."
You do as he says. You lay your back on the mattress while facing him. Izumi uncrosses his legs, gets on his knees, and spreads your legs open with one arm. Suddenly, he gets his half-erect cock out of his pants with his other hand and starts jacking off in front of your slit.
"Ugh⌠What a pathetic view. To say that you're supposed to be a threat," he sighs while masturbating before you.
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You can't help but stare at his dick. It's quite the length. And it looks thick too.
"What? Don't tell me that your animal instincts hit after you saw my cock? Though I really wouldn't be surprised, considering the fact that you are a bitch."
You can't help but get turned on by his harsh words once again. You move your hips a bit, desperate to feel some sort of friction. Izumi notices and hardens his grip on your leg.
"Don't try to feel yourself up, unless you really are a slut who can't wait for my cock," he says while tossing himself off at a quicker pace.
The view of Izumi of all people masturbating in front of your naked body is just too much for you to handle. Despite his many insults, you reach for your clit and start rubbing.
"That's what I thought, you're a slut," he exclaims.
The man faps his cock closer and closer to your crotch. The noises your two genitals let out are so ungodly. You can see that his dick is twitching, wanting to release soon.
"Get ready for additional lube, slut," he says while his dick is right in front of your entrance. "Take it all, shameless whore," he adds while cumming all over your cunt.
He's shooting more and more of his semen over your sensitive parts, but the way he does it without any lust in his cold blue eyes is quite the view. All you can see in him is hatred. It's like he's spitting on you.
You can't help but moan his name as your second climax hits you like a truck. You wouldn't have called yourself a sadomasochist, but the way he's doing you right now is turning you on without a doubt. All you can feel is your orgasm while you're lying down all naked in front of him, with your lowest part covered in his cum. You fail to notice that he finally removed his shirt.
"I'm gonna give you one last warning. You don't deserve to be with either of them, so you better back off."
"Huh?-"
"I know you've been trying to get with Leo-kun or Yuu-kun. Why is it that you chose them of all people? Is it for your personal gains? They already have me. They don't need you," he says while placing his tip at your entrance.
Leo? Makoto? So this is what it is about. But, he got it all wrong, *he* is the one you like.
"Izumi, the one I love, it's--"
The man penetrates your insides quickly. His thick dick spreads your walls open, while also inserting some of his cum from earlier deep inside of you. It hurts a bit, but you were already so wet that your body adjusts just as fast, taking all of him in.
"Don't you dare say his name right now when you're being fucked dumbed by another one," he threatens you while thrusting.
You remain shocked. You thought that his jealousy was aimed at other men, but it looks like it's aimed toward you. You feel disappointed about the fact that you misunderstood his feelings for you, but at the same time, something else is building up within you.
You stare at where your two bodies are connected. He's placed himself between your legs and is ramming hard into your pussy. He's thrusting aggressively, though each of his movements somehow feels amazing. You look up. Izumi is lying on top of you, his arms placed by both of your shoulders, trapping you. His gaze remains unchanged: cold and hateful.
The one you love is currently railing you hard so that you stop chasing after the one he loves. He loves another one and is fucking you so aggressively because of it. Somehow, the fact that Izumi is jealous of you because of someone else makes you lust after him even more. Your walls clench around his cock. Izumi feels it.
"My, my, what's this Y/N? You're desperate for me now? Bitch," he says while looking at you with his sapphire-blue eyes.
Izumi controls the rhythm and depth of his pelvic thrusting recklessly, fucking you as hard as possible. He wants to make a mess of you after all.
That's it, you don't care what happens next and lose yourself to him. You just want more of Izumi. You wrap your legs around his waist and rest your arms on his back as you moan his name with your eyes half closed.
"Wow... I'm speechless. But you're making it easier for me to ruin you", he says while pounding into your pussy even harder. "No one would want you after I use you like this. You won't be a rival anymore, that I can assure you."
As your legs are now at another angle, he gained even more access to your body. You feel his cock roughly hitting against your cervix, definitely leaving bruises there, as you're holding onto him for dear life.
He is now, like he said, fucking you dumb aggressively. His quick pace without a single care for your well-being is beyond what you could have ever imagined. He just wants to ruin you. But it feels so good.
Ever since you've been locked up in this position with Izumi, both of your body temperatures gradually went high. His back feels so hot against your arms. His hot breath tickles your skin. The entire room is warmed with your respective body heat. As for the mattress, it's covered in sweat, love juices, and semen. You feel yet another climax coming.
Your moans get louder. As Izumi keeps penetrating you raw, you open your mouth, begging for him to kiss you.
"You want to pretend to be lovers now? Ugh, I don't get what they see in you," he asks meanly.
Izumi looks down on you before giving in to your pathetic whim. He keeps his eyes fully open while you are closing yours. His lips softly touch yours before he aggressively wraps his tongue around your own as he continues pounding into you. Now he's even sexually submitting you in your mouth. His saliva mixing with yours feels so arousing. His kiss is so exquisite even if it is loveless.
Your desire to serve him sexually, emotionally, and physically gets bigger and bigger as he's thrusting his dick rapidly against your cervix. You want all of him. If one way to share his frustration and dissatisfaction with you is by filling you up, you are totally down. Even though he doesn't like you, you can't help but want to give him your entire body if it means getting fucked like this.
His pace gets faster. He's very close to his own orgasm as well, you can tell from his hard dick twitching inside of you. He pulls out of the kiss and leaves a spit trail between the two of you. This one strand of saliva is the last straw. That's it, you long for him and wish to own just a part of him, anything.
"Izumi~ ah! Y-you know," you manage to say even though he's ramming into you like crazy, "this whole time..."
"Hm? Do you have regrets about fucking someone else other than him now, or maybe you gave up on him?" he asks while the wet noises from where you are connected keep getting louder and louder.
"*You* are the one I've had a crush on," you finally reveal.
Izumi gives it one last thrust and pours all of his seeds deep within you.
"Wait. What?"
While he's still processing what you just confessed, all of his cum floods your insides. You cum on his dick at the same time. Your arms are gripping his back tightly, your legs are firmly wrapped around his waist, his torso is pressing against your boobs, and his face is as close to you as ever. The pressure he's putting on your cervix is helping more and more of his hot semen to gain access to your womb. For the first time during this session, Izumi stops looking at you with hatred for a second.
Note: Part 2 is now available! Link here
YOOOO it took me so long to write it, it's even longer than my Kanata one
Ugh I had accidently deleted it and had to get the support to look at it đ¤.
But yea hope you liked yandere Izumi fic! Usually all we see is a "omg you can only love me đđĄâď¸ stop talking to him youre mineđżâ ď¸đş"-yandere x reader, but this time I took it around and reversed it. Oh to be hate-fucked by a yandere who sees us as a potential threat đ¤đđź
I left the story there so it's up to interpretation about what he does next: fucks you even more? leaves you? changes his obsession's target to you? You choose
EDIT: I made a part 2! link above
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Knights with a Idol S/O (part 1)
Knights (separately) Leo x gn reader, Izumi x gn reader Fluff, Little angst, idol stuff. Warnings: Anxiety thoughts (Izumi), nicknames, kisses,Â
This is the first part, the second is part here!â
You belong to a new group under ES Square, you were already in a relationship with him when you debutedâŚ
Leo TsukinagaÂ
At the beginning
He was so hyped up when you debut, he attended your concert, and he was the first in the line, screaming the song.
I really believe that he copy and paste the link of your debut song to all the contacts that he had in hold hands.
He will give you advice about how is alright to take the brakes once in a while.
He will make sure to be friends (or leave a good impression) with all your bandmates.Â
How he shows his love (in public, in private, etc.)
He won't stop talking about you.(he talks a lot about the things he loves)
Messages and calls in your free time, even between your activities, I believe that he would make time to do that.
When neither of you has idol activities, you would have dates in his room watching videos and documentaries about aliens, spending time together. (Natsume is so done with you two)
Kisses on the forehead and cheeks (Quick little kisses on the cheek in public) and a lot of hugs!Â
Communication is the key, Leo will make sure to have it!Â
I believe that one of his love languages is dedicating his songs to you.Â
âI promise you this, my dearâ and with that âSilent Oathâ by Knights finishes.
When you and he are in the same concert he would go to the dressing room you are in and would give you encouragementÂ
âYou will shine like you always do!â âYou have nothing to worry about, they gonna love you, but not as much I do!â âShow them your beautiful and powerful voiceâ
Another love language that he had is writing songs for you! if your group chooses one of the songs that he writes, he will say it to his fans.
How rumors start
Has I said before, he would say to his fans âBy the way I write a song for (insert group name), they are very talented! I was really happy when they told me that they choose my songâ
When he said that, all of his fans were a little suspicious about it, why does he have such interest in that group? That is how the rumors begin.
Another thing that caught the fan's attention was your actions.
On variety shows you would answer things like âActually, my favorite song is (insert a knights song) because their voices are so beautifulâ âI usually spend my free days with Leo-kun, we had a lot of fun!â âOn my debut days, I always remember having a lovely supporter, thanks to them i keep going until todayâ
How the fans know about your relationship
Knights won an award, so they diced that Tsukasa and Leo would give the thanks speech to their fans.
Everything was going normal until Leo finished with âI wanna thank our princess for all the support that they gave us, I wanna give a special thank to (your name) for always supporting knights, but above all, for being my inspiration â and with that, all the world knows that you and Leo were in a relationshipÂ
âI´m sorry, I shouldn´t have done that,â he said with tears in his eyes.
âDon´t worry love, I am thankful to be in your life â you whipped his tears with your hands, grabbing him by his cheeks.
âYou are not angry with me?â he asked looking at your eyes, see those beautiful green eyes happy again was the only thing that really matters to you.
âIf I was you in that situation, I would do the same, or even worse, I would scream that I love you, aliens would know at that moment that we are in loveâ Both of you laugh when you said the last thing
âI love you dearâ he saw your lips, he always does it when he wants a kiss.
âI love you more, Can I kiss you?â you said while you approached even more.
âOf courseâ he murmurs, his lips were soft.
You had your world in your hands.
Izumi Sena
At the beginning
Unfortanetaly, He was in Florence by the time you debuted, but after your concert finished, he would call you to say that he was watching you online and all the moments that had him fall in love more with you.
I believe that he has a lot of merch about you in his room, Shu probably has complained about it.
He will give you advice like is alright to do work perfectly, but will be occasions when you can't do that, is important that even if you get frustrated about it, don't give up, you are gonna be alright, you are human after all, take a break, and keep it going.
If one of your bandmates gets too close, he would tell you that he is jealous about it (please he needs a lot of words of affirmation).
How he shows his love (in public, in private, etc.)
One of his love languages is gift-making knit things for you! You already had a whole closet with the things that he made.
He would check on you via messages, he makes sure that you eat all your meals, and you are restringing well, etc.
When both of you had free time, you spent time together on dates outside ( like going to the beach, aquarium, looking at the stars) and inside (watching movies together, taking coffee while you catch up).
He is more to give hugs than kisses, in private we would love to kiss you on your cheeks (he gives you kisses on your hands when you are in public, he is very professional when both of you had worked together )
Izumi spent a lot of time working as a model, but when you need it he always is there for you.
âIzumi, don't you have work today?â âI reschedule it, have you eaten? get up, we are going to the cafeteriaâ
When both of you are on the stage, he will give little glances, only to make sure that you are alright.
Has I said before, he always does little things that prove that he loves you, for example, opening the door for you, carrying your things, ordering food for you, and retouching your make-up, etc.
How rumors start
It was his actions that betrayed him, he always makes sure that you are safe, little actions like holding your hand when both of you are getting down the stage, how he gives you attention when you speak on the microphone, etc.
Fancams of you and Izumi smiling at each other went viral, and soon both of you began to have worked as models for different campaigns (both of you were happy about it).
The connection that both have could be seen through the camera lenses, they invite you to a variety show.
How the fans know about your relationship.
In the variety show that you were invited to, you said it unconsciously, you found out when you saw the episode on the TV, fortunately, Izumi was with you at the time.Â
In the episode, both of you were doing an activity that was a little dangerous and you said âBe careful loveâ, Izumi responded âDon't worry, we are gonna win thisâ, and both of you know that this is only going to confirm the dating rumors.
âAre you scared?â he asked, you were in total shock, how could you say it so naturally? What is gonna happened next? Anxious thoughts were running wild in your mind.
âLove, look, everything will be alright, don't worryâ you don't even notice when he approached until he was hugging you.
âI´m sorryâ tears start to fall while hugging Izumi.
âWhat are you apologizing for? I couldn't be more proud that I have you as my partner, that we love each otherâ he murmurs in your ear âBesides, we are pretty obvious, and the media love us, so relax, believe in me that everything is gonna be alrightâ he whipped your tears.
âGosh I love you so much, you know that?â
âYeah, Who doesn't love me?â
âYou are ruining the mood, loveâ
âI´m ruining it?â he said caressing your cheek with his hand while he approached to kiss you.
âSometimes I hate youâ you murmur into his lips.
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two lovers intertwined
⌠izm. sena x reader
author's note â self indulgent bcs iâve been . eating quite unhealthy these past few days .. i need izumi to nag me LMAO
tags â izumipy nagging !! / mentions of unhealthy diets + unhealthy meals / bad sleeping habits + exhaustion
"you're eating that again?"
slurping the instant ramen that you had made for the nth time this week, you looked up at your boyfriend who had just gotten home from work. compared to him, you were a messâ despite izumi spending hours out, while you mostly stayed inside.
izumi lets out an exhausted sigh, glancing at the clock on the wall. 2:30 am, it says.
"welcome home, zumi." finally, you had said something after taking a few minutes to enjoy your unhealthy meal at 2:30 in the morning.
the model wanted nothing but to jump in bed with you as soon as possible. however, this was not helping. the unhealthy diets and sleeping habits were bothering izumi. more than it should be. though, it really canât be helped.
"alright, give me that." without giving you a chance to refuse, he instantly grabbed the bowl from you and walked back into the kitchen, only to come back with a different bowl filled with fruits and a glass of water.
"if you want a midnight snacks, at least eat something healthier with less salt." izumi lets out an annoyed grunt, placing the bowl and drink in front of you. turning your gaze towards your tired lover, he returned with a blank stare, as if he was waiting for you to eat the fruits he had prepared.
you smiled, grabbing a freshly washed strawberry and took a bite of the sweet yet sour fruit.
"thank you, izumiâŚ" you whispered, shying away from your boyfriend's fond gaze while he leaned his head on his hand. he responded with a hum, and silently waited until you had your fill.
izumi took the bowl and glass away, and placed it in the sink to wash another time.
"we're going to sleep. no excuses! if you can't sleep, i'll make you." he huffs, finally entering the shared bedroom and hurriedly changed into a more comfortable pair of clothes, not even bothering to take a shower due to how tired he was.
a simple black shirt and sweats. izumi practically threw himself onto the bed and gave you a look of impatience, with his arms wide open.
"well? what are you waiting for?" snapping out of your thoughts, you finally joined him, pulling the blanket to cover your bodies and eventually, he pulled you towards him for warmth.
izumi already had his eyes closed. "just close your eyes and listen to my heartbeat⌠you'll fall asleep in no time." you couldn't help but feel the heat rush and burn your face. after all, izumi never fails to keep you flustered and giggly. as if it was a little high school crush.
maybe you should start getting him to nag you more often.
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Tsun... izumi..? | Izumi Sena
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Izumi sena x gn!reader - domestic fluff, light-hearted teasing.. just things I believe Sena would do around his partner ie put his hand on the corner of a table whenever you try to pick something up etc
dating Izumi Sena is an absolute dream, he has it all, from the pretty face to the golden heart, sure he loves to scold you! but that quality sits at the very top on your list, after all, how could anyone resist smiling when he scolds you for small things such as not cutting your nails properly? Especially when goes ahead and does it for you?
however Izumi Sena and his tsundereness is not an easy thing to understand at all, why does he call you stupid through the whole day but then kisses your forehead and make sure youâre all tucked in under the covers when he believes youâre asleep? why is it that he gets irritated at you for being clumsy and yet everytime u lean back, his hand flies behind you, just in case you fall? why does his hand fly to the corner of the table everytime you lean down to pick up something you dropped? and mostly, why does he only do these things only when he believes you wonât found out? whatâs so bad about showing your love, to the person you love?
âAH Fuck!â something tells you trying to figure out Senaâs love language whist cooking was not the best idea, the something being a bleeding finger
âare you alright? oh godâ Sena gasped out
âdid you just .. jump off the last 3 stairs for this?â you spoke softly as he ran your hand under cold water
and all you could do whilst he fixed you up was just stare at him with a gentle smile, his bottom lip was held tightly between his teeth, and his eyes were squinting, making sure heâs disinfecting everything properly, and him leaning down slightly? gave him the cutest fluffed up bangs, so who could blame you when you decided to pat his head?
ây/n.â he spoke up, in a serious tone too, but why does he look so timid right now? is he perhaps shy? is this what all of this has been about so far?
âsenasenaaaâ u giggled at the nickname as he stood up straight
âyou know this is all your fault right?â you continued on
âoh? how so? was my pretty face keeping your thoughts too occupied?â he leaned back against the wall smiling, almost smirking as he boasted about his pretty pretty face
âno actually, i was wondering why my boyfriend kisses my forehead every-night when he thinks iâm asleep but chooses to flick my forehead all the time during the day?â you deliberately chose on not mentioning him looking out for you since you knew heâd only flip it back on you by mentioning how clumsy you are
â.. youâve gone so stupid that youâre hallucinating is all that iâm getting from this conversationâ he spoke back, the tip of his ears going red
âoh is that so dear boyfriend?ââ you interrogated whilst walking closer to him
ââor is it just that THE Izumi Sena might actually be shy when it comes to showing his love? or might be too shy to admit that the love of his life has him whipped?â you spoke teasingly, your hands on the sides of his face as you made him look at you, your noses almost touching now
âitâs not that.. see youâre already teasing me now!â he groaned and leaned back on the wall again
âaw is my baby shy? does he need a hug?â you laughed as you pulled him into a hug, his head on your shoulder as he continued groaning (whining)
âitâs not that iâm shy about being rejected by you, or that i donât like admitting how in love i am with you, itâs just that scolding you and teasing you makes me feel closer to you, and itâs less scary to tease than be vulnerable, and not to ignore the fact that you look adorable when whiningâ he ranted on, mumbling the last part, his hands now placed on your waist, holding you tightly as his face warmed up at his own confessions
â âzumi, you know you have my full attention at all times right? and besides, we already said weâre taking things slow, you donât have to open up straight away andddd you donât have to tease me to get my attention, although your teasing can be cute sometimesâ you laughed softly whilst playing with his hair, his head still on your shoulder, face hidden away
âyeah yeah well! i hope you got your answer as to why your boyfriend is so hot and cold, can we eat now? and donât go thinking you wonât be getting scolded for what you did to your finger todayâ he spoke up pushing himself off you, still refusing to make eye contact
âonly if you to promise to cuddle me after dinner, with no teasingâ you spoke looking back at the boy who was setting the table up
âhmm~ iâll try my best klutzâ he spoke back with a small and fairly timid smile on his face, erupting a giggle from both sides, maybe.. just maybe knowing that your boyfriend does all this to feel closer to you, just maybeee does something to your heart, heâs truly a dreamy boy huh..
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when you blow him a kiss and wink at him in public
knights - tsukasa, leo, izumi
gender neutral reader
tsukasa suou
tsukasa feels a little dishevelled.
"[name], please refrain from such behavior in the open where rumours can sprout wings." he announces, quite flustered but hiding it efficiently. it's only because you have seen the look enough times that you recognise it.
his eyes glance around subtly to make sure that nobody saw the two of you. if he finds someone in the vicinity, he feels embarrassed
"let us find some place more suitable for proper conversation," he says and the reddish tint in his ears give away his intention of enjoying your company alone.
leo tsukinaga
a broad smile spreads on his face. he likes you, he can tell you that. he shows you that he's not shy about winking and blowing you a kiss back and he's extremely conspicuous about it, making eyes turn with how loud his smooch is. if someone chides him because he's in a public place, he guffaws.
"well it's more fun that way, isn't it?" he says with an easy humour. "the sound of their wet kiss made me think of a melody so excuse me â"
*scribble scribble*
izumi sena
arms crossed, his eyes widen as he sighs and shakes his head in dismay.
"now now, why do you have to act like this? it's not like we don't meet in private or that we won't be seeing a lot of each other. so why not wait for a proper time and place? you are too air-headed."
in truth, his heart is dancing with sheer joy. more, more. he doesn't want anything more than to see it again and again. but moments like these are meant for his eyes only. he wants to enjoy them fully, away from prying eyes. he can't bear to have someone look at how adorable you are. so wait till your knight whisks you away.
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I want request request headcanons for Ritsu and Izumi to find that their s/o is a underground singer (maybe seeing her in the underground live-house) please!
Active Flow Below
ft. Ritsu Sakuma, Izumi Sena x fem! reader
thanks and sorry for the long wait, izumi's part was the part i most struggled with, did I make him too yandere-ish... hope you enjoy either way though!
°°``Marked as and included with: fluff, angsty kind of, Ritsu feeling a little possessive mood, stalking and breaking-in implications
Ritsu Sakuma
To be honest, Ritsu would pick up on some assumptions immediately about his girlfriend keeping something from him especially if there are signs; some specific and unfamiliar string of words he wouldn't expect to come from your own mouth even when it's just a thoughtless mumble or being an added part of a ramble, a set of distinct clothes or accessories, or just your random things as if belonging to some obscure band.
The worst assumption coming to his thoughts would somehow escalate to the scenario of you cheating on him or leaving him, even though it just pains him to think about the possibility. He would have asked you about it with all the stuffs he has seen when some crucial clues about what you have been doing is picked up by his hearing from Mika and/or Mao when the latter give him a ticket to some underground live night concert which Ritsu would know about the truth if he comes there (dragged along by Mao's insistence and promise of company in the end).
Even though, he really doesn't want to go through the hassle and mingle with the crowd... He ultimately decides it's best for him to wait himself for the ultimate revealâto another part of yourself that you've been hiding all this time.
The moment he steps in that livehouse, he already feels out of place and hates the noisy and rough atmosphere. He would be hanging around in the back, discerning through others a presence he seeks from the sidelines where he can have some space and keep to himself. He might be far away from the stage, but he can still see it, and even just witnessing your performance puts him in a trance that brings him to another realm of dimension.
- After the truth is revealed, he would make it like you owe him a lot since his energy has been sapped away just for something like this which shouldn't have been hid from the first place (you really made him worry the worst, it could be called as a stingy revenge on his part).
- You wouldn't get off scot-free from his relentless teasing for the next few days. Not even after that you can rest easy (you're the one who should have to let him rest easy on your lap or shoulder, he will be borrowing them a lot)
- He would definitely feel a twinge of jealousy with the specific group of audience you have since you're not that publicly known, it makes them more private and somehow that sour his pleasant train of thoughts whenever it cross his mind.
- Though, he's thankful you don't get exposed much to wide popularity since he doesn't want you to be getting that much spotlight. After all, you're one to be with the dark just like him, right? He would only want you all for himself for the most part he could get your attention.
- In a way, your overall theme reminds him of his certain someone (if the scope of genre is akin to punk rock, metal or anything similar), Ritsu could use it to his advantage for Reiâcasually implying that even an underground singer he's a loyal fan of is thousand times better than his bothersome older brother in general, just to jab it where it hurts him the most or pushing him to get all jealous.
- You aren't that much of an exception for that kind of treatment, still. He makes it an inside joke or references in conversations if there's someone else with you two and especially if you would need to keep it a secret from the others. Oh, he would enjoy himself a lot when that could get a reaction out of you.
- If it isn't obvious enough after you have tried to hide it from him, the truth is Ritsu would feel mostly hurt inside for that fact. Even though you should've known about how much he opens up and gets comfortable with you by now to let him be there for you. Like he cares if you're an underground singer or not, you're stuck with him he would stick with you whatever the circumstances.
Izumi Sena
Since this man has already juggle the schedules of his idol work and modeling jobs, he would focus more about the fact that sometimes you seem tired out of nowhere and even staying up late with reasons of doing important projects. He gets more overbearing, would force scold you to take care of yourself more, sleep early more often or you'll have to tell him what you've been doing like he's probably thinking you're up to some fishy things going on with an illegal group or something. Really insufferable for him to know there's a hidden thing about you and it bugs him so much that he's kept up at some nights wondering.
You really thought you're so sneaky and he would just brush it off, huh? Well, that's where your mistake lays. With his persistence of watching you more closely that he might or might not put a voice recorder taped in your room from an unknown spot. After having gathered enough intel, he would finally follow you out to some place he has an inkling of where the place is.
Either from a backstage or a place where he can see you up close, he's cheering for you in a lovestruck gaze complete with a phone discreetly recording and taking pictures once you arrive on the stage. You simply are breathtaking, leaving him almost tearing up, it's like he fell in love all over again with the same already charming girl who stole his heart.
Your attention would be on him no matter what that you fumble on your lyrics and trying not mind him with your whole might (fail) while keeping up a professional performanceâall at once.
- Izumi is totally having a field day out of it. He would soon nitpick on parts of your performance you need to improve in the first chance he could get. You've still got a long way from the 'competency test and assessment' he gave if you could still get distracted by even his presence, after all.
- At the same time, he would express what he thought in a cool mocking confident attitude about how you color him suprised that your passion can be felt through your hard effort as if he didn't just look like a die-hard fan.
- He doesn't even care anymore about how you were hiding it from him, since he was able to welcome himself very easily into this another part of your life.
- The revelation would give him an ego boost and he's even prouder now to have you as his s/o (he already has a whole album and collection about you anyway). You proved yourself worth of his support, it goes without saying, he would give you advice with valid points that still consider your ideas or feedbacks of course.
- He's quite strict in making sure you don't overwork yourself. Like if you look tired or anything, do it in a place he couldn't see it so he wouldn't be bothered and minding your business (which would be quite impossible because he monitors you closely). Though, it's a living contradiction when he also doesn't let you to slack off too much.
- Not even your audience or longtime fans are safe from his watchful eyes, they would have to pass his selective evaluation. Still, he wouldn't stop your rise of popularity or anything.
- Overall, Izumi would only check how things are progressing with your singing career and butt in every so often when it goes out of track. Just let him have the right to keep your life in check, it's that simple.
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SUMMERTIME MADNESS ! (s.tsukasa)
elementary classmates to enemies to mc partners to lovers. chapter 08
authorâs note â OKAY. [name] and tsukasa acting like fucking three year olds. y/nkasa my little sillies⌠i hope they EXPLODE!!
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Black Hole
Ensemble Stars x you
Feeling down is normal, but what if this kind of feeling never left you alone? And it only grows to the point where you can't see the light anymore. Where you think everything is better without you
Unit: Knights
Pairing/ships: all members of Knights (a bit romantic for Izumi, general for the rest)
Words: 4.6k++
Warning: contains self-loathing, self-doubt, talking bad about oneself, thoughts of suicide, and the kinds!
ENJOY~!
She didn't really know what had happened. She even didn't realize how things going. It feels perfect as it is, but somehow at the same time, it didn't feel like one. She did her best in everything, she even just knew that everything went to the right place and moment. And yet, she still has a strange feeling inside her. The unsettling feelings tell her something is wrong. It's not as perfect as how she sees it. It's not as grand as she thinks it is. The achievement she currently feels? It is all only a fabricated truth she creates to console her own self.
She didn't want to believe it, she couldn't believe it. The numbness started to kick off. The void inside her brain. The blank mind keeps appearing once she hears the others talking. And just like that, her record has been flunked to the deepest end. The moment she can't even think about the next stage, the next costume, the moment she feels the blinding light burn her eyes. That's when she knows she has fallen. The feeling inside her grows and keeps growing, like telling her to just go away forever.
It was so sudden, it was too fast to even be called as the same one as the last. Isn't the problem her? She tries to find something, or maybe someone to blame for this darkness that starts to find a safe place inside her heart. But at the end of it, while she lies silently, she knows who to blame. It is her, after all. It was her fault in the end. The feeling was too overwhelming that at first, she thought it was only an illusion she made to run away from reality.
At last, even when she didn't know the core of the problem, she cries. She cries every night until her tears have dried off. And that's the moment where she believes, she didn't deserve to be happy.
"Practice has finished!" A loud shout startled the girl. She looks around, tries to recollect herself, and finds out where is she right now. "Don't forget we have a big live tomorrow! Especially you, Ou-sama."
"Sena is no fun! Live should be full of surprises, right?" The girl didn't notice it, but turns out the man called ou-sama-- or more well known as Leo--talk to her. "Is there something wrong?"
"Huh? What are you guys talking about?"
"Are you not getting enough sleep?" The blonde one asked, making the guy with red optics chuckle a bit.
"Then, I should do the job to cuddle you to sleep."
The girl chuckled a bit before she shook her head, the brightest smile was evidence, a smile that fool everyone inside the room. "There's nothing wrong, I'm getting enough sleep lately." Lies. How could she sleep when all she could think about was the mistake she did in the previous live? "I'm currently drafting the stage for Ryuseitai and Ra*bits next month. Tenshouin needs it this week, which means tomorrow since school will be off the day after."
"But, are you really okay, Onee-sama?" The red-headed asked with a frown on his forehead. Instead of showing weakness, the girl glared at the youngest in the group. "You have deep eye bags."
"If someone asked me that again I will be very mad, okay? This is my job, so that's fine. Everything has been going the way I want." Of course, that's just another lie. Up until that point of the day, she didn't know how much she has lied to the others. All she knows is that she has to.
The five of them look with doubtful stares, and yet the silver one decided to cut it. If she says she is okay, then it is just the way she says it. There's no point in playing detective or beating around the bush if the preparator didn't want to be caught red-handed. Still, with the biggest smile, the girl packed all of her belongings, the stage layout, the lyrics book, the costume book, and some of her school work too. The rest did the same, they didn't want to make the girl feel bad about going home first. At least, that's the only thing they could do to her for now.
Still with the same "stoic" smile, the girl bid her goodbye to the Knights' member. She bow quite deeply before she walk fast, not letting the others see her face nor her expression started to change. She can't keep it up, the more she stays with people, with humans, the more she wants to tell them all about what she was currently feeling. But, isn't that only burden them? She knows exactly that everyone has their own share of problems. And to tell at least one of them, to show weakness when she should be the pillar for them, does that even make sense?
There's no possible way she would tell Leo, the ou-sama of Knights. He has been through a lot, he has been to the deepest end and she did not want to bring him there once again. Once is enough, and she believes that the scar was still there. It's just that Leo has a knack for keeping secrets from others. Acting like everything is fine when in fact, he started to doubt his skill again. That's when she steps up as their temporary manager, their producer.
And then, there's Izumi. No one in their rightest mind would tell that guy. Not only he has a sharp tongue, but he indeed sometimes do not care about other if it did not involve him. He cares for Leo because Leo is his teammate. He cares for Anzu since she was the one who scheduled a lot of their lives and helps with their costumes sometimes. And so, does she even has meaning for that third year? Does she even have value in front of Izumi's eyes? She bet that she was nothing, especially when she did her job poorly.
People might think Ritsu and Arashi would be the best to tell about this problem. And yet, her tongue was tied whenever she wanted to tell the truth, to tell them that there was a pain inside her chest. Arashi always cares for others and she often forgets to take care of herself, how could she add the burden on her shoulder? While Ritsu, might be a genius like his brother, that doesn't mean he didn't have a lot of things going on inside his mind. His unit, his brother, his Mao, why would she add to the list? About her just feeling something is wrong?
Lastly, there's Tsukasa. He probably got no problem getting asked for help, but isn't that the problem? The fact that he doesn't mind being asked anytime, anywhere, and anyhow. It didn't scare her, it worries her. He has the burden of Knights since he was the only one in his right mind to keep Knights as a chivalrous unit. And so, that end of the reason why she did not tell anyone from the Knights even though she spend almost 24/7 with the Knights, either helping them study, practicing or even before live and after live.
While walking to her own home, where she knows no one will greet her, she could only wear her earphones, hoping that the music currently blasting loudly from there could swipe away the loneliness inside her. But the more she listens to the song, the more she realizes, she's alone. So suddenly she decided to stop, listening to the song intently. Why would the lyrics represent her feelings right now? Why does the song only grow the void inside her chest more? If there was a hole before, right now it was empty, there's nothing left inside her chest.
"Am I really going to be a good manager for Knights this week?" she mumbled while she put out the earphones. Stumbling a bit, the girl finally walked toward her room and put her bag just anywhere before she lies on the cold floor. At least she can still feel the cold, at least she feels something. "Why am I ... so pathetic?"
After mumbling the words, suddenly tears trickled down. She hates it. She hates when she's so weak, she hates it when she cries. Crying won't solve her problem, after crying she probably would have no energy anymore. And that can't happen, there's so much to do. With force, she finally rubbed her eyes, trying her best to stop the tears to continue trickling. The pain did make her think about the other thing, but still, something inside her push the button. And with that, the cries only got louder.
"Why are you even still alive? Why are you still here? No one needs you, and no one appreciates your hard work. You are working alone, why are you trying so hard to get praised? You are a failure ... all your work meant nothing. So, why?! Why are you trying so hard? Just why?!" The girl thumped on her chest, trying to feel something there instead of the pain and numbness. "No one loves you, so why are you still here ...? Knights are probably better off without me, they only need Anzu, right? Then it's alright for me to be gone ... right?"
After saying something like that, she cracked open her eyes, tears still evidence. After that, she looks around, trying to find something. It took a few minutes before her eyes fall on something on her desk. Crawling, and walking very hard, she tries to reach it. Once her hand touches the cold metal, her whole body shudder. This is it, right? She only needs to do this and everything will be fine. She can express her feeling. Or at least, she can get rid of the pain with it. Just once.
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"Don't you think something is strange?" Arashi suddenly asked the Knights when they were changing. The live will be held in a few hours, so it's only right for them to get ready now.
"What is?" Izumi asked, his tone cold and agitated.
"Our manager," Arashi said once again, her tone stern, like scolding Izumi.
"Hm, now that you said it, I think there was something strange about her. Especially, her with that new wound every day."
Tsukasa nodded his head, agreeing with his sleepy senpai. "She rarely wants to put off her blazer too even though she's working outside and gets hit by the sun. I was worried and by accident asked her once."
Hearing what Tsukasa said made all of them silent, even Leo who was busy humming and composing some new song. All of their attention was on the youngest member, but he still didn't say anything, earning a whine from Leo who was already so curious about what will be the answer. Cautious about their surrounding, Tsukasa gathered them in one place and whispered the answer all of them needed.
"She said she's okay." There was silence for a long time, and after that, finally, Izumi snapped at the youngest.
"Do you think we are joking right now? Do you want to get slapped, huh? So annoying!" With his usual words, Izumi pinched Tsukasa's cheeks, earning a yell and whining from the youngest.
"Suo is annoying! We want the real answer!"
"But that's really what she said to me! The only difference was that she pull her clothes, like she want to hide something, and clenched her teeth when saying that."
Arashi sighs a bit, knowing very well where this will go. "Then there is really something wrong with her. Don't you think that we need to do something? After all, she's our manager."
"She didn't ask for our help, there's no use in helping someone who didn't need it," Izumi cut off Arashi's train of thought.
Ritsu stares at Izumi who has walked back to his place, now busy with his phone. "Secchan is really cold. If our manager tries something crazy, then I will blame it on Secchan. Don't you all agree?"
"That's right! I'm with you, Ritsu! It is Sena's fault!"
"Huh? Why is it on me so suddenly?"
But even when Izumi tries to complain and explain everything from his point of view, no one listens to him. With the fear of being pointed to be at fault, and with a hint of worry in him, Izumi thinks about sending a message to the girl. He sighs a bit, looking at his teammates who were getting their make-up done. Didn't know what to do, finally, Izumi decided to text her, saying that he want a drink right at this moment.
Panting, the girl that still uses her blazer even when she was sweating a lot finally knocked on the door. All of the Knights member, including Izumi, stares into the door when it creaks open, showing that their manager seems timid before entering the room. She didn't just bring drinks for Izumi, instead, she brings for all of them. First off, she went to Izumi and give him his drink before going around, earning a confused look from everyone.
"I'm so sorry that I forgot to bring you guys some drink."
"But we did not order it?" said Arashi, more like a question to herself.
"Uhm, yeah, yeah ... you guys didn't. But it's just what I should do, it's my work after all."
"Our manager is sure working so hard, I'm so glad to have our manager by our side," Ritsu cooed, hugging the sweaty manager.
"Ah, Kuma-san, please refrain from hugging me. I'm all sweaty from all the running and it will ruin your stage costumes." Ritsu only whined and hug tighter. But turns out, he slowly pulls off her blazer.
"It's hot here, you need to cool off. Here, let me help you."
"Kuma-san, don't ...!" But it was too late. Ritsu has succeeded in pulling her blazer. She was glad that she didn't decide to roll up her sleeves before so no scar will be seen. But even so, they can still see her fingers wrapped in bandages, almost all fingers. "T-this is from cooking! I know that Sena senpai strict with his diet, and Arashi-san need to look out for her body, that's why ...."
"Why are you working so hard when no one tells you to?" Izumi suddenly asked, his eyes full of menace, while his tone was like spatting hurtful truth. "We didn't ask you to cook, we didn't ask you to help us in every stage, we didn't even tell you to repair our costumes, so why did you do it?"
The girl flinched. Of course, she did all of that. Not because she was hoping for praise from them, but because she will feels like she was important that way. But can she even answer that? If she admits that, won't all of them say that she was just trying to get favored by them? That way, she was even more pathetic than she already was. No matter how hard she tries, no matter what she did, in the end, she's a failure.
Instead of answering with a real reply, she only mumbled a sorry. This was what make all of them question everything, but more importantly, everyone throw a glare at Izumi for saying such things to the girl when all of them knows that she was currently not in her right state of mind. Izumi couldn't care less, at least he can't show his own worry. Inside his mind, he has been cursing himself for acting so recklessly like that.
The words sorry didn't die only once, she repeated it a few more times before she stopped. Saying sorry too much will increase their suspicion and she did not want it. She has been okay, or at least she tries her best this past week to say she's okay. And yet, she had enough of her lies. She knows if she stays with Knights longer than that, she probably would start to cry. Especially, when Izumi's words rang inside her brain all this time. She could not hear anything and only Izumi's words.
So, after all, everything she did was futile, right? No one will like her, and no one will approve of her. She will still be a failure. As their manager, as their producer. How much she wishes that she could be like Anzu, isn't it better? Yumenosaki probably only needs one capable producer instead someone like her. A worthless one. And Izumi has approved her thoughts. She's nothing, she's nothing compared to Anzu. Even when they were the same age, she can't reach Anzu's level.
She often slacks off, not like Anzu. She often forgets things or schedule, unlike Anzu who remember them at the back of her mind. Anzu is always one step ahead of whatever the idol needs, not like her who easily forget to bring the drinks for the Knights member. She only need to take care of Knights, but Anzu need to take care of a lot other units. So why can't she do her job properly? Why can't she achieve Anzu's level?
Her face started to twist in agony. This has started again. The void. It feels like there was a black hole inside her chest, taking all of her and her rationality Everything that everyone said was true, so why would she get offended? She should have learned some self-control. She should have been braver and more selfless. No matter how hard she tries to do all of that, she only disappoints herself more. After all, she's only a failure, right? It's not her mind playing tricks. She is a failure.
Clenching her palm, drawing some blood from her palm, she decided that it was not a good time to show this side to the Knights, not before their stage. She did not want to show her monster to them. She's ugly already, why would she show the ugliest side of her now? Or maybe she could do that so Knights will let her go, isn't that a better thing to do? Shaking her head, she stops that thoughts. If she left the Knights now, she will give a lot of burdens not only on Anzu but the Knights' members. How can she do that?
All she could do only make trouble, how much pain would she bring to the other now?
Immediately she ran, fast walking away after saying that she has something to do again. After their manager was nowhere to be seen, four pairs of eyes turn to Izumi, wanting him to fix this. Izumi knows very well that it was, after all, his fault. Yet, he didn't know how to fix it. Maybe he will think about it tomorrow, or maybe after his stage. Or maybe never. Izumi can't think straight, not after he sees that she has no problem making herself hurt. It feels like she likes to be hurt.
Hours passed and the Knights' performance ended. When they went back to their waiting room, there were cookies, some other heavy food and low-carb snacks, drinks, and a note. Ritsu instantly know it was from their manager, but his eyes squinted when he found the handwriting was rushed. He shows it to the others, earning a low sigh from everyone. Izumi can't take any more of this, so he walked away, wanting to find his manager.
"She's been gone ...? No one sees her?"
"I do ask Shinkai senpai too, in case she went to the fountain. Ah, lately she likes to be there and Shinkai senpai even said sometimes she sits inside. When he asked, she said that she just want to try Shinkai's 'puka puka', and turns out it was refreshing."
"Such a crazy girl! What if she catches a cold after?!"
"I think Senpai already knows? She was down with flu yesterday, and everyone has been saying that for today's live, she can leave everything to us. But suddenly, she shows up and says sorry for being late." Anzu's information feels like a truck just hit him. Izumi really can't take this. What is actually wrong with her? Does she get obsessed with saying sorry?
"Did you hear anything else? Or do you know something more?"
Anzu seems thinking for a few minutes before she claps her hand, indicating she just remember something. "It was that one night. Knights didn't have any practice but I found her inside your guys' practice room. There, she was watching her own reflection. I can't hear what she says but ... she suddenly slaps her own face once."
"This is really frustrating! Why is she so annoying?!"
"Senpai, I know I'm not the right person to say this. But I think ... she often harms herself. You know, the feeling when you get an injury like to show you have done a lot and great things? I think she wants to validate her own work."
At this point, Izumi really didn't know what to do. Feeling suffocated, he finally say thanks to Anzu before searching for his manager around the school ground. Unexpectedly, he found her in the Knights' practicing room, alone, in the dark. If he didn't see her reflection, he probably won't notice her. Izumi didn't know if he should say he was lucky or not when he notices the manager didn't know he was there. So, he decided to walk slowly before showing up behind her.
"S-Sena senpai!"
"What do you think you are doing here?! Alone, in the dark! Do you want some crappy student to find you here and do something to you?! Do you want them to mess you up or something?!" Izumi's harsh tone succeeds in making the girl flinch. That's when he knows he messed up, that's when he knows, she's in that phase, again.
"I'm sorry, Senpai," she muffled, "I'm sorry that I became like this again. Even though you have already taught me to conceal these feelings."
"What ...?"
"You said yourself, stop comparing myself to Anzu. At first, I didn't, I didn't even know what was wrong. Am I just delusional? Or am I overworking myself? Can it be that I'm really going crazy? But Senpai ... the pain didn't go away. It starts to eat me, it starts telling me all the flaws I have. I'm not you, Senpai. I'm not ... perfect like you."
Izumi knows. He has seen this side before. It was a one-time thing and he thought it won't ever repeat. But, how many times does this kind of thing happen to her? How long has she repressed all of those feelings so the others won't see them? Izumi admits it. It was all his fault. He said to her, those feeling are not valid, that they only play, toying with her mind. But he didn't realize. Those feelings are what she feels.
"I'm sorry that once again I'm venting this to you. I'm sorry that I'm so weak that I can't even fight my own mind. I'm sorry that I'm ... me." The girl finally broke into small sobs. She can't no longer stare into Izumi's bright eyes. It pained her, to tell others about her own feelings.
Bewildered by what he found, Izumi walked slowly toward her before he engulfed her in his arms. He tries his best to share his warmth, even though his body mostly is cold, with the girl who was shaking. Who is at fault here? Him? Or is it her to have these feelings? Izumi can't answer it, he can't find the answer.
But he knows, there will always be a black hole inside someone's heart, a hole that will take all the confidence, all the happiness. Even though nothing is wrong, even when everything went just like what they expected, the hole will always be there and took away everything. Anytime they like without any break. And it was all his fault for not noticing it from the start. It was his fault for waiting for her to tell him. He didn't need her to tell him first to show, the hole has come back.
"I'm sorry that I can't be a better manager for all of you." Izumi knows it too, even when he said she's been doing great, her mind would only play tricks and say it was only for consolation. There were a lot of questions, and a lot of other answers he could give. But Izumi could only settle with one.
"I'm sorry too for not noticing this. Let's blame the hole inside our hearts. Let's blame them for existing inside. So, instead of hating yourself, let's hate the black hole there."
"Everything was so well, Senpai. Everything! The preparations went well, the music plays well, the singing was so good, the dancing was so on point, but why do I still feel something missing?"
"Can I fill in that missing piece? Will you let me be the missing piece you needed? The hole inside, can I be the one who fixes it?"
"You will get tired of me whining every day," she mumbled on Izumi's clothes, burying her head deep and inhaling his scent.
"You will be tired of listening to my scolding every day too, so aren't we break-even?" Izumi chuckled even when he knows it was not the right time. "You can fill my hole too when it came. I know that I always want to show you my perfect side, but this time, I will let you see my imperfect side too."
"I'm not good at remembering things," the girl suddenly said, looking up at Izumi's pretty face. "I can't remember how to prevent this hole to come back."
"Then let me remind you every time it came back. No, on second thought, just let them. Show the hole to me, and I will fill you. How was that sound?"
"I will bother you all the time."
Izumi chuckled again, this time with an annoyance--not a real annoyance--tone. "You will always be in my head, making me worry all the time. So, this is the only thing that I could do. After all, two pieces of a puzzle can complete the whole series, right?"
"Senpai is so strange." The girl shook her head, smiling a bit.
Both of them know it was not a genuine smile. But at least, Izumi can once again see that smile. A smile that shows, I will do it again, I will try to stand up again even if it's hurt. She too knows it too, there was still a hole inside her chest, the pain, and the suffocating pressure still there. Except for this time, she will face the hole with Izumi. She will learn once again how to fight it off. And Izumi knows it too. He will be by her side when that black hole started to grow.
"So annoying, you should have told me earlier instead of hurting yourself like this!" Izumi sighs, grabbing both of her hands that have a lot of bandages. "And I know that your mind still playing tricks on you. But I want you to listen to me. You are enough, you did well. You did not need any validation of your hard work. Because after all, you know the best for all of your hard work. At least, I know how hard you work. For now, let yourself rest in my arms."
With Izumi's last word, he once again brings the girl into his arms, he will remind her as many times as he needed to, that she was worth it, and she's worth more than any scars on her body right now are. She's worth even when she's broken.
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A/N: first time writing on tumblr! I hope all of you like this Knights - Izumi story, even though I think it was too long. Though I really wish it's not boring. Please do tell me your thoughts on this story! I always love any feedback about my writing ^^
Also, sorry for the crappy ending, I really didn't know what to do. I still want to show that, that hole will still be there, but even so, they will be all right. So I hope this makes sense
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My Dear, My Heart...
You ask me why I love you...?
Well, I should apologize because I simply cannot give you a logical explanation. Because love.. it is not logical by nature.
It does not follow a predetermined course, or obey a set of rules, or follow instructions.
It is unpredictable and irrational, wild and untamed.
There may be rights and wrongs surrounding the said feeling, yes.
Even though it does not follow a linear path, there are indeed limits that it cannot and should not cross.
That much I can wholeheartedly admit.
But I can tell you this...
When I look at you, I see a future, I see a life.
I see a life in which what surrounds us is laughter and joy, with shared moments and stolen kisses.
I see a life in which I no longer walk this world alone, but rather with you by my side.
I see a life in which I wake up each morning with your visage beside me.
I see a life in which my heart is full and my soul is content.
Oh, and I must tell you...
When I first laid eyes on you.. I thought you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.
But now, my dear, I see that you are far more than just beautiful.
You are incredible, captivating, and enchanting.
You have taken hold of my heart and made it your own.
And with each beat of our hearts entwined...
I fall deeper and deeper in love with you.
It is a feeling both sweet and terrifying.
A force of nature unlike anything I've ever known before.
I am powerless against it, but I have no desire to resist.
So I ask of you, my dear, to not doubt my love for you.
Doubt the color of the sky.
Doubt the flow of the river.
Doubt the wind that dances with the trees.
Doubt even the beat of your own heart.
But do not doubt my love, it is steadfast and unwavering.
For you, my dear...
I would let myself be swept away.
I would let myself be carried on the wings of passion and desire.
I would let myself surrender my heart and soul to you, without hesitation, without regret.
As how a man would when he sees his strength, his destruction, his peace, his conflict, his love, his best friend, in the most beautiful woman to grace the earth.
You have set my world ablaze, and I gladly burn in your fire.
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please don't take this lightly, i like you and you like me.
summary â toxic netizens are disappointed by your boyfriends recent announcement of him dating online, whilst he quickly reassures you in the most izumi sena way he can.
pairings â izumi sena x gender neutral reader
tw â very smug sena :3 but in a good way!!
a/n â for one of my closest friends <33 hehe love u harriettt. also based on this audio, but its a tagalog/filo one đ ALSO BLACK TANK TOP IZUMI SENA NGGHHHH
A huff comes out of your mouth, eyebrows furrowed as you scroll on your phone, right on your shared bed with izumi. The male sees you and scoffs, before laying beside you on the bed, as you instinctively scoot closer to him.
"What's wrong? Why do you look so hm... Pissed off? Ready to.. Throw a microwave to anyone that even talks to you?" You click your tongue at his assumption, but he wasn't entirely wrong.
"Bold of you to talk to me then. I might just actually throw a microwave at you." You mutter, as he stifles a laugh. "You didn't answer my questionnn.." He reminds while you roll your eyes.
You let out a short whine, before you give in and explain to him. "People are madddd. I can assume you know why already," Your boyfriend clicks his tongue, shaking his head.
Unexpectedly, he snatches your phone away from you as you yelp in surprise, lightly scolding you. "Don't mind them, okay?" He coos playfully at you, before you tilt your head. "Why..?"
"Because they're jealous!" He laughs at you, setting your phone on the bedside table, after that, he presses a soft kiss onto your forehead, as you adjust your position to use his arm as a pillowâ still confused.
"Huh.. Why?" You ask repeatedly, as he playfully flicks your forehead before whispering in your ear. "Mm, because you're mine." It's like you could feel like he's smirking, rolling your eyes at his tone. He says it like its a fact!
It is, actually.
You glare up at him, making him smile softly, before he continues once more. "Let's watch them get jealous alllll over again, when my last name becomes yours. Yeah?"
".. Why are you like this?" You question, looking up at him before letting out a giggle. "Are you really actually planning on marrying me?" A genuine question, Izumi's gaze so clearly softening from it. Why would you even ask that?
"Why wouldn't I? I date to marry, baby." He tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, cupping your face with one hand. "Also.. You look like you're gonna pass out on me from exhaustion. Go to sleep, gorgeous. It's late, anyway."
"Still early.." You mumble, closing your eyes for a just a bit. Izumi rolls his eyes when he hears you say it's "Still early". He can hear how tired your voice is. He gently ruffles your hair with his other hand, a mixture of frustration and concern in his voice as he responds to you.
"Early for someone who hasnât napped all day..?" He teases, making a groan escape out of your lips. "If I nap in the afternoon, I can't go to sleep at night." You try to reason.
He feels a scoff of disbelief leave his lips as he hears your excuse. Are you trying to justify your tiredness..? "And if you don't, you're gonna pass out from exhaustion." He repeats once more.
"I'll go to sleep.. In an hour."
"Now."
"FINE!"
a/n â short but i think its neat!!
#jianâs works!#enstars x reader#ensemble stars x reader#ensemble stars#enstars#izumi sena x reader#izumi sena#enstars x you#enstars x y/n
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im having the biggest brainrot over this idea so yay req time
au where knights (seperatly) are royalty and their s/o is their own personal knight,,, and Shenanigans happen with each of them,, God i hope this makes sense im not very good with words đ
Royal!Knights & their Knight!S/O
Synopsis : Being the personal knight tasked with protecting and directly serving your kingdomâs ruler often leads to eventful, and memorable, moments. Especially when said ruler is also your lover.
Era : N / A
Warning/s : "Beauty" is used once as a gender-neutral descriptor
Mentioned Character/s : G/N!Reader / Tsukasa / Leo / Izumi / Arashi / Ritsu
A/N : Anon⌠YOUR BRAIN IS SO MASSIVE FOR THIS !! Omg now Iâm brainrotting over this idea too cuz Iâm such a sucker for royal AUs đ But for the sake of the fluff, just imagine that their kingdom is open to the idea of royals being in a relationship with anybody, regardless of their status LMAO
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Tsukasa Suou :
Tsukasa deeply respects your opinion because he knows that you want the best for him and his people. During meetings, he would often seek out your advice. From military tactics to what colour the banners should be for the upcoming festival, Tsukasa trusts you with all his heart and will accept your guidance with open arms. If he's busy with important matters, other castle personnel would seek you out instead as they know that your insight will be the closest to what their king would desire.
He always invites you to tea time !! Tsukasa says it's a reward for working so diligently but you know the truth~ This is the only time he can drop his royal facade and be himself. He wants to share these intimate moments with the one he loves the most !! Mmm~ The taste of this brioche is marvelous !! Here, take a bite. You'll love it~
Tsukasa deeply admires your skills as a knight and secretly desires to train alongside you. One day, you noticed this and decided to personally train your lover in sword-fighting. Now, sword training became a part of his weekly schedule and, even though it gets tiring at times, Tsukasa still holds these moments with you close to his heart~ After all, he's doing something he's passionate about with you !! What more could he ask for?
In the late hours of the night, when the castle is quiet and everyone's asleep, Tsukasa would sometimes sneak out of his bedroom and into the kitchen to try and teach himself how to bake. He does this because he wants to give you a [ F/F ] cake one day !! It's quite difficult to be quiet AND to teach himself at the same time but he's trying his best !!
During royal balls, he's such a gentleman when it comes to entertaining the guests, but if you catch him at the right moments, you'll be able to see how his eyes often glance towards you. How his gaze lingers on you for a while as a soft smile grace his lips. Once the ball is over, he'll gently take your hand and guide you to the castle gardens, where he would ask if he could have this dance. Eyes full of love and his smile never faltering, he'll take your hand in his and hum a familiar tune as you both dance under the moonlight.
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Leo Tsukinaga :
Youâre the only one in the entire kingdom who can somehow find your king every time he gets lost when heâs out composing. Initially, your fellow knights were panicking as they ran around the entire castle trying to track down the king. After all, he couldnât possibly have gone far !! R-rightâŚ? Well⌠As the royal guards were checking every nook and cranny to ever exist, your instincts casually guided you to where your lover was. Without hesitation, you found Leo instantly. To this day, nobody can truly comprehend just how impressive your Leo-radar is, and it amazes them every time.
Leo straight up wouldnât let you call him âyour highnessâ, âyour majestyâ, âmy lordâ or any honorific similar to those. This is because he loves the way his actual name rolls off your tongue as he finds his royal titles to be too suffocating. Hearing âLeoâ come from you, his lover, makes him feel like Leo, a person, rather than Leo, the king. He would get pouty if you use honorifics in royal meetings or gatherings but understands why you used them [ no matter how much he dislikes them ]Â but, if you use those same honorifics when you're both alone, he would either pretend that he canât hear you or say things like, âAaahhh~!! Who are you talking to? I donât know who this âyour highnessâ person is~â
The amount of songs Leo composed that's inspired by you is astounding !! You donât realize just how much inspiration Leo gains from you as his muse. Your eyes could tentatively scan through the crowd for any dangers and Leo already came up with a whole symphony !! You glanced at him from across the room and gave him a soft smile during a meeting? Well⌠Now the meeting turned into several advisors holding their king back from composing on the royal map !! No matter what you do, whether itâs a conscious or unconscious choice, a melody immediately fills Leoâs mind and he canât help but write !! He hopes to one day create a symphony that, in his eyes, can truly capture your beauty entirely.
During royal balls, Leo would flat out refuse to dance with anybody except you. It doesnât matter if theyâre the heir to the richest kingdom in the country or if theyâre the most sought out ruler for marriage; Without hesitation, he'd immediately turn them down. For Leo, waltzing is something intimate as he views it as a way where partners become one as they synchronize with one another through music. He doesnât want to share something as sacred as this with anyone else except you.
Even when you're not on duty, Leo would still find a way to be with you. Oh? You're going to town? What a coincidence !! Leo needed to check the progress on the upcoming festival, why not accompany him there? You're relaxing in your room? Knock, knock~ The king is free for tea time and is wondering if you could please grace him with your presence~ Whether you're on duty or not, being by each other's side gives you both a sense of comfort that no one else can give.
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Izumi Sena :
Izumi deeply cares about you but shows it through more subtle means. Actions speak louder than words, after all !! He tries to keep up his image of royalty but, if you squint hard enough, you can easily see that facade crumbling if he notices something off from you any way, shape or form. So here, take a seat !! You've been standing all day long, right? Huh?! What do you mean "You're okâ?! Are you disobeying the direct orders from your king? Mhmm~ Thatâs what he thought~
If youâre not on duty, Izumi's seemingly more grumpier than usual. This sometimes causes the entire castle to practically walk on eggshells because they donât want to inconvenience their king even more than he apparently is. Though, his mood would instantly shift the moment his eyes land on you. Heâll definitely request for the two of you to walk around the castle gardens just to compensate for the lost time you were not with him~
Izumi hates seeing you fall into unhealthy habits even if you canât help it sometimes. As the knight that directly serves him, itâs your duty to protect your lover but, even then, he still wouldn't have any of it !! Heâll make you swear to go to bed after escorting him to his bedroom, never skip meals even if you have training right after and take adequate amounts of breaks. This is to help you stay competent in emergency situations and itâs totally not because heâs worried for your personal well-being or anything like that !!
Izumi will personally style your uniform when it comes to important gatherings such as balls, festivals, meetings, etc. He would often add small trinkets from his own accessory collection as a subtle way to connect the two of you together. Izumi would never say anything, but when your gaze alternates between the shining brooch on his tie and the similar one heâs putting on you right now, you can't help but softly smile. If you're quick enough, you might even catch just how much his eyes shine with love and admiration for you, and you alone.
Although Izumi puts up the âstrong kingâ facade for his people, during the rare, quiet moments between the two of you, filled with comfort and relief, heâll shed away that persona and become a man whoâs completely head-over-heels for the amazing knight thatâs been by his side this entire time. Embracing you protectively in his arms, heâll hum a soft tune that lulls you to sleep as the rhythmic beating of his heart accompanies the sweet lullaby thatâll only be heard by you.
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Arashi Narukami :
Arashi definitely has an entire section of the castle gardens dedicated to flowers that reminded her of you. Ranging from roses, to honeysuckles, to sunflowers, peonies, hydrangeas and more. This section of her garden is honestly the most stunning and guests are often left in 'awe' by its sheer beauty every time they visit the castle. Arashi personally maintains the flowers herself as a way to further dedicate herself to you.
She dresses up in pretty gowns and outfits in order to impress you. She would sometimes sneak in subtle questions or comments to figure out what your favourite colours, aesthetic, and overall style is before she would ask the royal tailor to incorporate those elements in her next outfit. Her heart never fails to skip a beat when you look at her with wide eyes and lips slightly agape when you see her wear the outfit for the first time. Donât worry though~ Sheâs always one-step ahead as she requested the tailor to create a matching outfit for you. So now youâre both matching !!
She openly dotes on you and doesnât care if others are watching. Youâre actually the one that tries to stay professional but that plan immediately fails the moment your beloved queen cups your cheeks in her hands and plants a ton of kisses on your face. It doesnât matter if you just finished training or if you were tasked with guarding the dining room door, Arashi wants to show the world how much she loves you~
During the more stressful days, you would help sneak Arashi out of the castle and take her to a secluded area of the town thatâs filled with stray cats. You would feed them, play with them and take care of them together as a way to help her unwind and de-stress. Arashi even named every single cat and they love her so much that they would often sneak into the castle grounds just to visit Arashi for some caresses !! From then on, during tea time, there would be a ton of cats surrounding both you and Arashi as the two of you would caress them while enjoying each other's presence.
If Arashi ever needs a partner or an escort, she will always choose you without any hesitation !! It doesnât matter that youâre literally her personal knight [ which puts you on automatic escort duty ], sheâll still say your name first without any second thoughts. A free pass to hold your hand and have you protectively stay by her side outside her kingdom? Sign her up !!
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Ritsu Sakuma :
Being Ritsuâs personal knight automatically makes you his pillow !! He gets lulled to sleep so easily when heâs touching you, whether he's laying on your lap, feeling you gently stroke his hair, hugging you, or just feeling your uniform in between his fingers. They all give him a sense of comfort that relieves him from the stresses of being a royal. Oftentimes, if youâre not by his side, Ritsu would reach out to try to find you and, when he finally does, heâll pull you close and snuggle into you. Good luck trying to escape his grasp~
His most common mode of transportation during the day is you carrying him bridal style. The kingdom is nocturnal in order to accommodate for the royal family but, there are times where he needs to stay awake during the day for meetings or other important gatherings. During days like these, castle personnel can catch you carrying him in your arms. Ritsu would be snuggled close to your chest as you try to wake him up with a soft smile and gentle voice.
Ritsu loves to tease you as he enjoys seeing your reactions !! Most of his teasing would happen when youâre being serious or stoic because he wants to see how much you can handle before your persona breaks and you become a blushing, stuttering mess. To others, itâs quite the sight seeing their majesty get [ playfully ] scolded by his personal knight, but Ritsu would always laugh it off and tease you even further. This results in you losing your cool completely as you try to hide your blushing face with your hands. Heâll give you a ton of kisses to make up for it though, so donât worry~
Heâs very perceptive when it comes to your emotions and would often bring you to a quiet area of the castle [ under "your majesty's ordersâ ] if he ever notices you getting overwhelmed or stressed. No matter how many times you insist that youâre fine and nothingâs wrong, Ritsu knows better and will ignore your comments as he gently pushes your head onto his lap. Now this time, youâre the one whoâs now laying on his lap as he gently strokes your hair. Ritsu will even sing you a soft lullaby, helping you relax as you eventually fall asleep; The comforting melody from his voice filling your ears.
Youâre both protective over each other but Ritsu can be quite clingy~ He tends to stick to your side rather than the other way around. Usually, youâre ordered to provide the royal family with enough space, where youâre far enough for them to interact with others comfortably, but close enough to protect him from any sort of danger. Though, if you're too far from him, heâll just pull you back close and ask why youâre trying to âescapeâ [ he knows youâre not, heâs just teasing you~ ] So now, Ritsu's draped over your shoulders as you support his weight, trying to explain for the 100th time that you're "just outside the door" and that you'll "be back once lunch is over."
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Izumi Sena x F!reader
! Minors DNI
Genre: smut
Tags: dom!Izumi, reverse yandere (?), unrequited love (?), beach, rough, semi-public
Note: This is part 2 of my first Izumi smut fic link here
Plot: Trickstar and Knights invite you to the beach after you cleared the misunderstanding between you and Izumi. However, both of you don't know how to interact anymore. Maybe "having fun" at the beach together will fix your relationship?
Words: 4,084
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Your friends are playing board games in the shades of the beach umbrellas. And some others are playing beach volleyball, and then there's Ritsu. Sleeping. Makoto is playing the team sport, too. Apparently, his team just won the game. Izumi is witnessing a few of Makoto's teammates hugging him after winning. Yet somehow, Izumi doesn't feel jealous. Sure, he'd like to be part of the moment, but it feels platonic. He'd rather support him from the sides while wearing Trickstar merch or so. As for Leo, he's still true to himself, laughing out loud, teasing Tsukasa while they're playing Uno. But Izumi isn't looking at Leo right now. His eyes are drawn to someone else: you.
You seem busy playing with the other boys. Your smile looks radiant, even from afar. 'Who is it you are talking to?', he wonders. You only greeted him after you arrived, and now it seems you won't even look at him. What is it that he is feeling? Is it anger? Frustration, maybe? He needs to figure it out.
"What do you think you're doing?" Izumi asks you out of the blue. "Why are you..." he sighs. "You know what, just come and follow me."
You oblige. He brings you further apart from the rest of the group. Makoto and Leo exchange a silly "we did it" eye contact when seeing the two of you walk away on the sand, unaware of what happened last time.
It seems Izumi wants to talk to you on a one-to-one, even willing to walk a bit far away from the others to get some privacy. Thank goodness he finally takes action to have a chat with you. It has gotten really awkward between you two after last time. And a few weeks already passed without contacting each other.
You two get behind a rock on the beach. Izumi doesn't fail to make you feel intimidated as he corners you behind it, making your back's skin get in contact with the harsh material. Izumi even asserts himself even more by placing his arm right on top of you. It looks like there is no way out of this conversation...
"So you're just gonna pretend... Whatever. You are not fooling anyone, and you're definitely not fooling me," he says aggressively.
"What do you mean?" you ask timidly.
"You haven't even looked at me the entire day yet you said you like me?" he responds. "You kept smiling for the others, though. That's not what I call love."
"That's because..." you mutter.
"Because what? I can't hear you," he asks while getting his face closer to yours.
"Because I know you don't even like me back..." you reply. "So I don't know how to react around you."
"Hmm... Sounds like a lie to me," he doesn't back down. "I know how it feels to go through an unrequited love, yet you don't---"
"Do you really, though?" you cut him.
"What?" he replies while strongly staring at you.
"Do you really love someone romantically? For Makoto, or for Leo, it looks more like friendship, if anything."
Izumi looks down on you with a cold gaze.
"Really? Then, Miss I-know-better-than-you, go ahead and enlighten me," he sarcastically says, mad about the fact that you doubt his feelings.
You take a few seconds to think about your answer. Some waves hit the rock. Its sound is relaxing. The sun is not too bright, and the sky seems bluer than earlier. And the others can't see you thanks to the location. The setting looks perfect for this moment. You take your chance.
"When you love someone, you want to be with them all the time," you say.
"I know. That's why I even kidnapped Makoto once, even though I'm not really proud of it..."
"You want to make them smile," you say.
"Been there, done that. Why do you think I've been helping Leo after a certain event?"
"You want them to be only yours..."
"I agree. Is that why you're pissed off right now? Because the person I'm into is not you?"
"You feel flustered when they're too close to you..." you say while avoiding looking into his eyes.
"I kno-" Izumi stops himself. After hearing what you said, he takes a good look at you. He finally realizes that you are blushing right now and can't keep eye contact with him. And it is all his fault, as he put himself this close to you in order to intimidate you. It is no wonder you are all red. After all, you love him. And he knows that. Nonetheless, with your feelings being so obvious now, the man is wondering why he put himself in a situation like this. He's so close to the woman that likes him, plus it had to be in this position. How can he not be flustered? Of course, he is. He is a man, after all. He's no exception. He seems to be slightly blushing. He thinks you look stupid to be all awkward around him. But, he also thinks you look somewhat cute, and your swimsuit is definitely something that man likes to see. He takes a longer look at your outfit and body from up close.
Even before your last interaction in the hotel, Izumi realizes you weren't distant with him like he thought, but rather shy. And even more shy when it was just the two of you. Yet you were always so sweet to him.
Well. It looks like he is curious, -or just simply put- interested in you. But Izumi, being Izumi, he won't admit it to himself. He would rather lie to himself and to others about his true feelings because of his ego. Now, he is afraid the next thing you'll say will make him realize something. You better not say one more word.
You don't even notice the switch in the nature of Izumi's gaze as you stopped directly looking into his eyes. So, you continue to prove yourself to him.
"When you love them, you--" Izumi stops you from continuing your sentence as he suddenly kisses you.
He goes all the way in, with his tongue intertwining with yours. You let out a small noise from the surprise. Izumi continues passionately kissing you. He grabs you by the waist while keeping his pace as steady as possible. His grip on your body gets stronger, and his lips don't seem to want to leave yours. His knee finds its way between your thighs, grinding into your sensitive area. That's it. He has desires.
Izumi backs up, panting, looking at you with redness all over his cheeks. You are the same, sweating and looking at him with doe eyes. He just wanted to make you shut up. Surely, there could have been another way. But now, he... No. He doesn't want to review his opinion. The man assumes changing his mind would make him look dumb and indecisive, even though it would be the opposite. He would rather continue with his lie.
"That's only a fraction of the love you'll never get," he lies while unable to look at you in the eyes anymore. "That's how I would kiss a person I love. Is that enough proof for you now?"
You feel discouraged by his words right after he just did this to you out of the blue. 'That was how much he loves someone', you think, wishing that were you.
On the other hand, Izumi looks at you in disbelief, unaware of the nature of what he is feeling right now. Surely, he felt the same with whom he "loves", right? He just didn't notice it, right? Izumi starts doubting his feelings. But that's when his own body gives him a hint. Outside of the blushing, another compelling piece of evidence can be found: he's rock-hard at this very moment. And the object of his desires is right here, in front of him, expecting to be told to go to hell or so.
"Turn around," he says.
"Why?" you ask.
"Just do it."
You do as he says.
"Now put your hands in front of you."
You place your hands against the rock.
"You're really doing anything I ask you to, huh?" he says while pressing himself onto you from behind.
Now, you can definitely feel something poking against your back. You slightly turn your head around to face him.
"Hm... Don't get any wrong ideas," he whispers in your right ear. "But I'm like 'this' because of you. I can't go back to everyone in this state. You should take care of it since it's all your fault."
Everything is telling you that he got hard thinking of someone else while kissing you, but you don't even care right now, you just want Izumi.
"...Sure," you reply, knowing what will happen next.
Izumi doesn't wait for a second and lowers down the bottom part of your swimsuit, gets his cock out of his own, and places his tip at your entrance.
"I'm going to ravage your insides from behind. I'm guessing that's okay with you since you really are a..." he stops mid-way. "Since I already did it last time, right?"
"Yes...," you answer, somehow surprised that he only subtly insulted you compared to last time.
With his hands placed on both of your hips, Izumi slides himself inside you. It definitely hurts since just a minute ago, you weren't expecting him to take you from behind. But it feels good. It's so nice to be connected again. Your two bodies were longing for each other. Simply having him in you gets you aroused.
"Hm? Did you just get wet only from me penetrating you?" Izumi rhetorically asks. "I can't say I'm not flattered, though, but now I..." He doesn't finish his sentence but his dick speaks on his behalf, hardening inside you. "Then, I hope you're ready for what's coming."
Izumi begins ramming into your folds from behind while holding onto your hips. Every thrust is as hard as last time. You get fully wet in no time. His length presses against your sensitive spots every time he moves. You can't help but moan.
"Shhh, you don't want someone to hear us," Izumi tells you while fastening the pace.
Although you need to keep your voice down, feeling Izumi's hands on your skin, as well as his cock sketching your walls with his every thrust makes you let out some more high-pitched sounds.
"Izumi...!" you quietly moan.
To your surprise, Izumi doesn't tell you to stop and he even whimpers from pleasure as well. Small "ahhn"s or "mmnh"s keep leaving his mouth more and more frequently. You never knew faint sounds like these could sound so hot and provocative. His voice sounds so deep yet relaxing. His timbre, his pitch, everything about his voice makes you fall more deeply in love with him. His moans became your new favorite melody for sure.
Now, the sea is not the only wet noise you can hear: Izumi is making a mess out of you right now. What first started quite dry quickly became a mix of bodily fluids thanks to your shared lust. Both of you really seem into it. Every time he thrusts in and out of you, you feel yourself losing it. You want to leave everything to him. You want him to go even rougher.
"Ahh... mmh," Izumi moans. "I'm close... mnh... Y/N," he says as you can feel his precum coming out, making your cunt even more slippery. "Yea just like that..." he groans.
The fact that he finally pronounced your name while moaning with pleasure was such a welcomed sound to your ears that it made your body tighten around his cock. Izumi keeps fucking you from behind, with his thighs aggressively bumping against your cheeks. The man keeps hitting your cervix with his dick as if he were trying to claim more of you. You feel your mind losing it, approaching your climax as well.
"Izumi... ah Izumi... Izumi..." you moan gradually louder. "You can... do it inside... Today is a safe day."
"hahh... Really? Then, I won't pass on this offer," he tells you while groaning and thrusting quicker.
You arch your back from the pleasure, making him bend over you as a result. From this angle, you can definitely see his hips thrusting in and out of you rapidly.
"mhhn. I'm going to... cum..." Izumi says while giving his last thrusts.
"ha hahn~ Izumi!" you moan out loud while cumming.
With his dick pressed against your end, Izumi strengthens his grip on your hips, moves your body even closer to his, and has an orgasm inside your walls. His semen feels you up from the inside. The sensation is so exquisite that your mind goes numb for a minute, only able to concentrate on his cum.
Once he is done with his orgasm, your heat keeps his member warm, still feeling very aroused. After he finally pulls out, your legs get so weak from the intercourse that you fall on all fours on the floor without Izumi's support.
"Don't tell me that you thought I would be done with you in only one round," he says while grinning and going on his knees behind you. "You want to be taken doggy style, huh? Typical of you, if I may. But that side of you is also making me..."
You assume he wanted to say "mad" or "disgusted," but he meant something else, something that has to do with how much he wants you right now, already rutting against you.
Izumi quickly sinks into your heat again, not able to wait.
"I'm gonna put my hands over your mouth if you can't be quiet. I don't want you to moan my name out loud again like you did earlier," he says. "Not that I mind, but..." he whispers as he puts his hand over your mouth. "I don't want other people to hear us."
"Mhh," you can only reply as your ability to speak just got restricted.
While the lower part of his body is busy messing up with your folds and making a mess out of you, Izumi uses his hands to play with your body. With his other hand that is not over your mouth, your loved one uses his fingers to brush over your back all the way down, making you feel all tingly. His hand caressing your skin makes you feel so good. You two were already 'one' after Izumi put his length inside of you, but somehow, having his skin against your own makes this moment feel even more intimate.
Then, Izumi pauses and gets his mouth close to your ear.
"Prepare yourself," he whispers in a deep timbre.
The man bends his back over you, trapping you below him as he resumes his thrusts, way more aggressively, with a hand on your hips. Now, the loudest sound is neither the sea, nor the radio music from the beach or your voice, but the wet noises coming out of you both.
"Mhhn," you mumble under his hand as he's pounding you from behind.
"Don't come now," he tells you as he moves his hand over your thighs, reaching for your clit.
Once he gets there, the male begins rubbing it along with his rapid thrusts, making you unable to resist long. You can't help but moan even though Izumi's hand remains firmly against your mouth.
"Just a bit longer..." he says while enjoying your faint noises.
While you struggle not to come immediately even though your body longs for it, Izumi doesn't go soft on you and continues going harder and harder against your sensitive spots.
"oh yea..." Izumi moans against his breaths. "Just like that..."
All your brain can focus on is Izumi, you want him to let it all out right now. His close embrace is also making your body temperature reach high grounds. Tears are forming in your eyes from the pleasure.
"Nhg. I'm... gonna... cum," Izumi says as his shaft is hitting against your cervix as if it were a punching ball.
Your moans are vibrating against the palm of his hand.
"Hahh, Y/N...!"
Following his moans, Izumi cums deep inside you, releasing all of his semen in your womb. More than just filling you up again, the feeling is even better. And you are not the only one moaning, Izumi definitely is, too. 'ah's and its variations keep leaving his mouth.
"Good..." he whispers.
You can feel his cock twitching, letting even more sperm enter you. You thought you couldn't get any hotter after Izumi shared his body heat with yours in a late summer afternoon, but his liquid is definitely on the hotter side, warming you even more. Maybe you feel a bit too hot now.
As soon as Izumi pulls out, the two of you lay on the sand, panting. That was quite the experience for sure. He was not kidding when he said he'd ravage your insides.
Izumi unconsciously looks at you with a devoted gaze, to which you return the same love stare. But Izumi only realizes now that you two have been silently staring at each other for a solid minute.
"I-" he doesn't know where to start, "Let's go back to the others. We've been out for a while now. They may be wondering where we are."
"Yea, but give me a second to..." you say while panting, "rest a bit..."
Izumi recognizes that you are tired. Specifically, because of him. He finally lets a bit of his pride go, 'just for now,' he tells himself. But you know how Izumi is with those he loves, right? His affection shows no limit. And it's the same for you now.
Izumi stands up and holds out his hand to you. He sighs.
"Come on, let's cool off in the water. I'll help you," he tells you nonchalantly.
He's taken aback by the fact that he wants to take care of you, as if it was a natural thing. But by now, he thinks he has an idea of what he feels for you.
You take his hand, and the two of you walk toward the sea. Izumi helps you get in the water, slowly. Your body and your legs specifically are so tired that you trip over.
Luckily for you, Izumi was looking out for you and caught you before you fell head-first into the water. Looks like you are now in his embrace, with his arms clasping you, pressing your head against his chest.
The sea is so refreshing. His tight hug feels safe. This moment is so soothing. But you know it will not last long. After all, he told you he doesn't like you and did all this to prove a point. If anything, it hurts to love him. You want to enjoy each and every moment you share with him, even if it is bittersweet at the end.
"Izumi..." you initiate the dialogue.
"Hm?" he replies gently for once.
"Can we stay like this just a bit longer?" you ask as you cling to him, not wanting to overthink about how he doesn't reciprocate your feelings.
It doesn't take him long to decide. Of course he wants to be close to you right now. Because on his side, he realized the true nature of his inquisitiveness toward you.
"I can do that for you, Y/N," he replies gently while obviously sounding enthusiastic about the idea, holding you tighter.
The two of you stay like this for a moment, enjoying each other's presence and feeling your fling growing stronger.
The sun is about to set now. Maybe a quarter of an hour passed?
"... ...Y/N", you vaguely hear.
"...YN.."
"Mh?" you reply a bit groggy after resting against Izumi for a while.
"Maybe we should go back now. The others must be wondering where we went."
"Okay..." you reply while you two get out of the water. "Ah, it's so cold!" you say as you leave the warm water only to be met with a cold wind.
You shiver from the temperature difference and put your arms around you. One look was enough for Izumi.
"You wait in the water, I'll quickly get you a towel back there," he kindly orders as he goes back to where Trickstar and the rest of Knights are.
While waiting in the water flow, you see a few men approaching you. They look a bit too enthusiastic, probably drunk.
"Guys, this girl over there, she's pretty cute right? She's mine," you can hear in the distance.
"Not if I seduce her before you" another one replies. "I can do that without even trying. And you got no rizz anyway."
"Then, let's see which one of us pulls her first."
"Hi there," one of them reaches out to you as they get closer, "are you alone? Wanna join us?"
"... Sorry but--"
"That's not how you approach a lady, dumbass. Let me show you how to do it," one says to his friends while cutting you off. "So, miss, do you have a boyfriend?"
"I... I don't," you reply, after remembering that although you seem closer to Izumi after your discussion, he definitely made sure to let you know that you don't own his heart.
"Then, how about I keep you company? You and I, let's have a nice time together at the beach," he asks.
"I don't know about that, I came with my friends," you reply while getting anxious as you are a bit away from the group.
"Hmm. I don't see anyone around here right now... So come with us. We want to have fun with you," another one suggests.
He even goes as far as grabbing your arm to get you out of the water.
"Come on, quit being so tense and follow us," he says as he gets you on the sand.
"... What are you doing to my girlfriend? Do you want to die?" Izumi says as he pulls the guy away from you and places himself between you and the other men. "She's already with me. Back. Off. Now," he shoos them away with a death stare.
After they leave, he turns around to face you.
"Geez, I leave you alone for two minutes, and you already need my help?" he complains while wrapping you in a towel. "I don't want you to get a cold," he says affectionately.
You look at him in awe. There is no way you would accept someone taking him from you when he acts so considerate towards you right now.
"Izumi?" you initiate.
"Mh?"
"I love you," you confess again. "I will try to win your heart, even if it is taken right now. "
"Y/N, I think I--"
"So this is where you were!" a voice says in the distance.
"We went looking for you two after you left for so long," Makoto appears before you.
"Yuu-kun!" Izumi calls out to him.
"Wait. Izumi-san and Y/N-chan," he smirks. "Seeing you two like this, do you happen to... To be a thing?" your friend asks, hopeful, as he tries to help you get closer to Izumi.
"Me and Y/N...?" Izumi replies. "We..."
Before he gets to reply, some of the other guys join you.
"N-never mind, I was just joking," he brushes it off, not wanting to put you or Izumi on a spot in front of everyone.
"Then~ Now that we've found them, let's go back to our hotel! â" Leo suggests.
"Who is gonna carry Ritsu-senpai to the HOTEL, though?" Tsukasa asks.
"Don't tell me that guy is still sleeping?" Izumi replies, annoyed.
"Yea... Even though the sun is about to set, Ritsu still feels a bit tired after being exposed to the sun for so long. I guess I'll have to carry him on my back," Mao sighs.
"Waa, Sari, you're such a good friend! â" Subaru adds.
"Then, let's go back to Sakuma and the others," Hokuto concludes.
Your little group begins leaving the area. The others walk in front of you. You and Izumi are behind them.
"What about you, Y/N? Don't you feel tired?" Izumi asks, sweetly. "Here, take my hand," the one you love says as he hands out his hand to you again.
You gladly accept his offer. You two walk hand in hand as the sunset colors the sea in orange hues.
Next chapter preview: "Eh..? What are you doing here Y/N? This isn't your room."
"I know."
"And why are you still dressed like this?"
(Could change)
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HEADCANONS! Ritsu, Rei and Izumi & GN!Sibling!Reader with seperation anxiety.
A/N : This was a request. I did not know how to write separation anxiety but I tried my best. (Platonic) (Originally posted Sep 21st)
Ritsu
Ritsu and you are never seen apart
If you arenât seen together then something is terribly wrong
He understands that itâs not easy for you when he has to go somewhere (i.e. on tour) considering how attached you are to himÂ
So when he leaves for a long time, he gives you a plushie you gave him as a birthday presents years back that he kept all this time
Itâs a teddy bear thatâs hugging itself, and usually youâll find a hand-written note written by Ritsu that he leaves in between itsâ arms
Usually itâll be a dumb note with an inside joke of yours or something along those lines
Itâs simple but itâs effectiveÂ
And whenever he gets back heâll treat you both to some sort of junk food and movie night while you both relax!Â
Rei
Rei teases you about this. A lot.Â
He means no harm but he finds it funny how youâre nearly always clinging to him
Considering how he and Ritsu arenât close at all, heâs grateful you want to be around him
Without realising it he becomes antsy when you arenât around him either, heâs so used to your presence
Heâll never admit it, though
Rei appreciates that you seek him out, it makes him feel wantedÂ
When he leaves for a really long time heâll text you about random stuff going on with his life - most of the time itâs about another argument between Kaoru and Koga
Heâll also call you a lot! Sometimes heâll facetime you while heâs walking around wherever he is (and inevitably bumps into someone)Â
He tries his best to stick around you though, as busy as he is.Â
Izumi
Izumi doesnât understand your separation anxiety at first
He just thinks youâre overreactingÂ
Until you have a nervous breakdown when he went on a trip with Knights
Then he, in his own way, starts to look out for you more
If someone makes fun of you for your anxiety, heâll set them straight right away. How dare anyone make fun of his sibling!Â
You both have matching bracelets with both of your favourite colours on it, he even made them himself (with the help of Arashi)!
He becomes very protective of you, and whenever you have a bad day when he isnât around, he promises heâll make up for it
Which is mostly you two going shopping lmao
#sugarwrites#ritsu sakuma x reader#rei sakuma x reader#izumi sena x reader#enstars x you#enstars x reader#ensemble stars x you#ensemble stars x reader#ritsu sakuma#ensemble stars#izumi sena#rei sakuma#enstars
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