#self care isn't always massage and mudbaths

[bacchicly]

I am suffering from self-diagnosed burnout. E.g. constant fatigue, short temper, a constant track in my head complaining that I never get time alone and can never do or be enough and a play by play off my should do list, diminished cognitive function and memory, and not keeping up with basic things like washing myself, eating, and resting.

I am taking today and Monday off to see if I can kickstart a better cycle of self-care so that I don't.have to take literally weeks or months off.

But as always I have a list longer than my arm of things I could/should/want to/must do. Relaxing isn't even something I am relaxed about - so the following list is going to include only the must do's - then I will pen a may do list - and then maybe a will not do list. These are not in order but a * suggests it would be a good thing to do today instead

Must do's to feel happy:

Log into my work computer and put on my out of office*

Bring down the wooden chest and plap.all my clothing in it (take the pink thing somewhere)

Have a look for my chromebook

Have a bath

Watch Cutting Edge 4

Read the romance novel I bought

Tapping meditation every day

10 squats every day

10 wall pushups every day

Take my med every day

Go outside once a day

Pat the cats and sing them happy little songs

Go to bed on time

Make a plan for going to work this week (basics - just hash out the hours)

Call my doctor for an appointment in the fall (tomorrow) to discuss (make a list and choose the top 2 goals)

Make our bed with fresh linen

Spend 1 hour cleaning beside my bed

May do:

Float therapy

Correspondence

Wash the heavy blanket

Tidy work from home area

Empty my cabinet so it can be used as pantry

Play lemmings

Write fan fiction (I am playing with a concept for a standalone story called "Bookends".)

Draw or doodle

Play the silly fruit merge game on my phone

Put brush into big paper bags

Clean the car interior (it is gross and there is no room for my kid to have a friend ride along 😕 - so I am doing this sometime this week...but maybe not today or tomorrow)

Watch a documentary about sex or something sex adjacent (e.g. indulge my special interest freely and without judgement)

Go for a walk in the woods

Do some finance stuff