#seeing the girls cry like this 💔 they put so much love & effort into this for us

[lilidawnonthemoon]

[idle-compy]

*JWCT SPOILERS BELOW*

extremely messy live reaction

watched ep 1 from the roblox thing and didn't live react so

ep 2:

BEN GET UR EYES ON THE ROAD

ben eating out of a boot what is wrong with him

this whole van scene is fucking hilarious

BEN BROOKLYNN MEMORIES?? ON A ROOFTOP???

gonna make me cry on ep 2 I see how it is

darius just being overall disgusted with bens lifestyle I'm drying

"benjamin if you don't pull over I'm jumping out of your moving van is that what you want"

"is your friend ok?" "no 🙂"

USING THEY THEM PRONOUNS AS A DEFAULT HELL YEAH

ben has brown eyes at 17 mins

the roadtrip vibes are immaculate once u get past all the conspiracy stuff

why are these 2 licorice fanatics I hate them sm (affectionate)

ep 3:

"that is not at all what Hay smells like. have you never been around Hay before?" I'm obsessed with the dialogue

SAMMY HAVING AN ESTRANGED RELATIONSHIP WITH HER PARWNTS HUH????

"why are we running? we do not have a good track record with running!"

BUMPY CHASIMG BUTTERFLIES MY BABYGITL

she still picks him up 😭😭

mantah corp island investigation hmmm..

"that destructive carnivore" DONT SPEAK ABOUT MY DAIGHTER LIKE THAT

ANOTHER BROOKLYNN MEMORY KILL ME NOW

is that the fuckimg pink jakcet

sammy holding thr box with no effort anf bens big ass almost dropping it

why is so much happening in Sammy's life I wanna give her a hug

"he's getting more than a mud pie! he's getting a knuckle sandwich!" "You kiss your mother with that mouth?"

OH SHIT CARLS DEAD

now sammy has blue eyes wtf

damn that atrocitaptor really hates pies

SAMMY RUN GIRL

bumpy basically telling ben to leave omfg 💔

do his eyes ever stay on thr road

the hug 😭😭

THE BROOKLYNN CONSPIRACY BEGINS

MYSTERY WHISTLE PERSPN

Ep 4:

this eps called "brothers" time to cry

darius mocking ben I love him

"she's fine 😌" "I'm not fine!"

ben calling bumpy a "strokg independent woman" " strange thing to say but ok"

TWO BENJAMIMS??

BEN HAS A GIRLFRIEND NOOPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

fuxk this

"she lives in.. europe?" he met her on that fucking conspiracy site didn't he

THE ALLOSAURUS

ben u eat food out of a boot u cannot talk ab kenjis place like that

"were not exactly on speaking terms" WHEN ARE YOU EVER

did kenji fucking shrink why does he seem so small

HE SHUT THE DOOR ON DAROUS STOP

THE STICKERS 😭😭

"this is. really something kenj!"

THE FANILY PHOTO IM GONNA SOBBBB

oh good lord the tension

"that's where my dad lives" OH FUCK

"I think we should split up" "you and yaz?!" TJE DISTRESS IN HIS FACE

his hand on his heart for the rest of the conversation he would've been more hurt by a breakup then they wouldve omfg

sammy tickle attacking ben THE FACT THAT SHE KNEW IT WOUD WORK

kenji masterfully climbing while darius is fighting for his life trying to put the gear on

WHY ARE THEY FIGHTIJG ON A MOUTNAIN SIDE

KENJI DUMPED BROOKLYNN?? OMG??

ANOTHER MEMORY

"I can't be with you anymore if you're not going to be with me" 😭😭😭

OH HES CRYING

ope kenj I saw that smile

KENJI AGREED TO SEE HIS DAD THE ANGSSTSTTSTSTST

NOOO THEY GOT BUMPY

ep 5:

WHY IS SO KUCH HAPPENING AROUMD THIS SANDWICH

WHY IS IT EVEN IN THE ROAD LIKE THAT

"that bush looks like ben" what does that even mean darius

KENJI CALLIMG DARIUS' MOM EVERY WEEK HE LOVES HER SM

I love this relationship ben and sammy have they're acting sm like siblings

ANOTHER BENJAMIN

HE STILL EATS CAROB

ben and sammy being dino activists ik that's rihht

mr king dino they could beat ur ass

FUCK YOU DANIEL STOP LOOKIMG HAPPY

THIS MAN TRYING TO LOOK GUILTY STFU

"did you have brooklynn killed?" straight to the point ok

"worried what?? that I'd double cross ya??" WHAT WAS ON THAT STICKY NOTE

BEN PUTTING SAMMY AS A SUSPECT?? ID BE PISSED TOO

he can't say the right thing to save his life

DANIEL TEYING TO KEEP SECRETS I VATE HIM

"just never had a father around to practice with" YEAH YOU GET HIM KENJI

NAH WHATS HE GOT PLANNED

"yeah ok I'll get my violin" kenji ily

NAH DANIELS STILL A SNAKE DONT TRUST HIM KENJI

sammy and ben causing mass destruction without meaning too hold habits die hard ig

YEAH SAMMY BEAT THAT MAN

bens list of loyal and amazing friends:

1) bumpy

2) corndogs

3) his van

DINO KING IS SUSPICIOUS?????

4) sammy

"he's just so!" "graah?" "yes! yes! exactly"

THE BROTHERS ARE COMMUNICSTIJG YEAAAHH

oh God I hope kenji has a backstabbing plan with this agreement

"I won't let you control me anymore" YEAH KENJI WALK AWAY

NUH UH YOU DO NOT GET TO LOOK SAD DANIEL YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF

"there was something about her that was different. almost dangerous" I am taking everything be says with a grain of salt but things are getting so suspicious??

OH SHIT ANOTHER DEAD GUY

LET 👏 HIM 👏 DIE 👏

THE WHISTLE AGAIN

what in the goddamn green earth is that woman

daniel u may have saved kenji but I still don't like u

THEY KILLED DANIEL WE ALL CHEERED

she seems so robotic I'm terrified

now who is this

not him speaking Japanese 😭 he needs a hug so bad

ep 6:

YAZ I MISSED YOU

her ptsd is hurting her so much omfg

ANOTHER BROOKLYNN MEMORY

moment of respect for the outfit changes in the memories

brooklynn got yaz into dino immersion therapy 😭

these memories are killing me man am I allowed to stop cryjng

SAMMYS CONTACT PHOTO 🫶🫶

BEN LIKES ROCK MUSIC CALLED IT

WHATS HE DOIN THE BG

"we haven't really talked much lately" does ANYONR have a good relationship in this show

"It'll be good for you two to reconnect"

"yeah.. I hope so" IT WILL BE SAMMY IT HAS TO BE

the gfs are still healthy all it good all it well in the world

"no dinosaurs?" "judging by the look of that thing I'd say we have one now"

oh sammy really is treating her like a fragile flower

I already watched this scene in the released clip but bens scream is somehow even more funny

ben still callimg her fadoula I love their relationship

THE GIRLF ARE FIGHTIJG NO

"girlfriend?" "why does everyone act so surprised when insay that" bc u are gay

I feel so bad for all these people like imagine dinos get into the place ur promised they won't be

OH THAT AINT DPW OH SHIT OH FUCK

IVE BEEN WANTING TO SEE THE AFTERMATH OF THE VAN GOING OFF THE BRIDGE YEAH

off topic but I am obsessed with the end credit cards

ep 7

the ep is called "that night" I am in fear

oh that's the moment sammy saw how much yaz has grown calling it now

I feel so bad for kenji rn hes in so much pain :((

he's probably so conflicted rn. daniel only ever hurt him but he's all kenji knows as his dad

THE HUG THE HUG THE HUGGGGG

"I'd be dead if it wasn't for her!" what do you know mateo WHAT DO YOU KNOW

"it was there on purpose" AAAAAAHHHH I mean we knew but AAAAAAHHHHHHHH

HEY DONT DO THE HOPELESS MHSIC WHILE THEYRE TRAPPEDBIN THE VAN I DONT LIKE WHAT IT INDICATES

"I can't have the last thing I see be bens soggy van!"

YEE HAW THEY GOT OUT

MATEOS STORY WOO HOO TIME TO GET SOME GAPS FILLED IN AND SOME ANDWERS QUESTIONED

oh shoot did he accidentally help the bad guys

now why would he get out ofbthe truck in such suspicious circumstances

WE HAD TO SEE HER DIE FROM A DIFFERENT ANGLE ARE YOU KIDDING ME ?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?

OH HE TOOK THE PHONE

THEY SWITCHED SCENES BEFORE WE COULD SEEBWHAT WAS ON THE PHONE AVAAAHAHAH

oh wow the wet hair animation is so much better omg

GIRLCEIEND MOMENT GIRLFRIEND MOMENT

"I guess we need each other huh" *makes out*

them having their moment while bens grieving his baby

"ciao cara mia" I hate him

BROOK HAD A SECRET HOUSE

kenjis night just keeps getting worse

bros been DYING to throw those phones

"oh I am so gonna haunt them from beyond the grave" never change yaz

where on earth are they gonna hide on that truck

mateo seemed like a decent guy hope all goes well for him

her apartment was cute asf ok brooklynn

DID YALL SEE THE MOTORCYCLE HELMETS ?????????????? YEAH BROOK U WERE THAT GIRL

kenji stop reminiscing ur gonna make me cry

THE BROS ARE BONDING THEYRE GETTING ALOMG

KENJI WHAT DO U SEE

darius putting all the pieces together is so rad bc I sure am not

A SUSPICIOUS BAG OF MONEY???? IN HER CLOSET??? BFOOK GIRL WHAT WERE U A PART OF

SHE WAS WPRKING WITH DANUEL SHE WAS WHAT WHAJAJDHSLAJHFJSLAJD

I hope she was doing it for an investigative purpose SHE BETTER HAVE BEEN

but why didn't Daniel bring it up HMmmmmm...

"or what else she was hiding from us" OH HES HURT HURT

darius driving the motorcycle instead of kenji I'm cackling

ep 8:

THEY HID WITH THE SEDATWD DINO ARE THEY INSANE

not the dino smacking rhe lips it doesn't have

now why is she gonna stand on the dino instead of getting bens giant self to look out the gap

the drop is gonna be how they reunite isn't it

kenji screaming bc of a spider he's so real

THEYRE BEINF BROTJERS YEAH WERE SO BACK BABY

oh so they're working for extra cash too hmm

oh this place actually looks nice

VIDEO MEMORIES IM GONNA SOB

I am sufficiently uncomfortable thanks for asking darius

the boys are fighting again JUST VET ALOMG PLEASE

darius misses her so much seeing a bird made him think of her 😭😭

lookimg at the dates on the voicemails it's been at least 3 months since she died

DARIUS IN BATHTUB I laughed this is supposed to be sad and I laughed

I sense something big coming I gotta walk around for a bit

"I was in love with brooklynn" OH FUCK OH SHITNOH AJAHDKLAQKHFLAKHFKLAL

now I REALLY have to walk around for bc WHAT

WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WJAT WJATBQKHRLAJFLAHSLALKFHAL AAAAHAAHAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

rewatched the scene and I am no more sane ab it

BEN THIEVING ABILITIES MAKING A COMEBACN HELL YEAH

NAH WHATD THEY DOBTO BUMPY THEY BETTER NOT HURT MY GIRL

"boo." Yaz ily

THE VIDEO THE VUDEO AAAAAAAAAAAA

"were brothers righr?" HE SAID IT HE SAID IT WE WIN

every single moment with these 2 is so painful how am I supposed to exist in these conditons

WHAT DID THEY DO TO BUMPY WHAT DID THEY DO TO HER

THE GFS SAY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ❤️❤️❤️❤️

THE DINOS JUST CHILLING INSTEAD OF STAMPEDING

YES QUEEN DINO U KILL THE MAN THAT TORTURED YOU

love the steggos just watching everything

yaz was smart with the lights u go girl

my heart is genuinely pounding for bumpy I am too attached to this fictional dinosaur

avocado costume?????? girls be fr

KENJI AND DARIUS ARE HERE TOO??

DARIUS IS GONNA FREE THAT BABY I KNOW HE IS

I hope the sino causes chaos later

"with me by your side, you kon climb anything too"

YEAH THE SINOS CAUSING CHAOS WOO HOO

"bumpy.. are you dying?" NUH UH BEN DONT SAY THAT NOPE

ALL THE CRYING SCENES THEY GOTTA STOP

kenji doing everything with graceful agility vs darius and his childlike experience

sammy kicking kenji TWICE now

TWO HUGS?? IN A ROW?? IM FED

the hugs are so much more natural in this series the animation improvement is insane

"creepy micro bangs'" that is a fantastic description kenji

THE ALLOSAURUS AGAIN

sammy being bumpys other parent 🫶

istg I'm already cryjng

if they kill bumpy idk what'll happen

bumpy is genuinely a part of their family they are completely falling apart rn

"move her tail!" IS SHE ABOUT TO LAY AN EHG

BUMPYS A MOM????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!???@?!?!?!?!?!?!??

them passing the egg around like a baby in a hospital such a proud family

"wait what?" "don't think about it bud"

"ben! you're gonna be a grandpa!" glad they also see her as his daughter

NAH THE GUY I FORG9T THE NAME OFNIS EVIL

ep 10:

LAST EPUSOXE ALREADY??????

cabrera thats his name

YEAH SAMMY BEAT HIS ASS U GO GIRL

NAH FREAKY BOB LADYS BACK

she is genuinely somebhorror movie shitnor something

that scene was genuinely so intense I completely froze

EHOS DRIVING THE TRUCK

MATEO MY MAN I KNEW YOUNWERE GOOD

THE DINOSBARE GOING FREE BEAUTIFUL GEORGOUS THROWUNG BOUQUETS

obsessed with the shot of the t Rex in front ofbthe explosion hell yeag

"leave my girl alone!" SCREAM IT YAZ

DARIUS FREEING THE ALLOSAURUS I SMELL CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT

WAS THAT BUMPYS EGG IN THAT CASE

about time this man died

creepy lady is actually super pretty I hate that she's evil and kinda insane

darius finally stopped blaming himself 😭

"my guy. you're still here?" "unfortunately yeah. you all get real vulnerable with each other. it's weird" I'm dying

FUCK DUXK A AKHDLAKWYAPAHHFLAHWLAK

BROOKLYNNNANNAMANANNN

OH MY GODBOHNMYNGOD SHES SYDNEY GUYS SHE FUCKIMG SYDNEY ITS FUCKIKG BROOKLYNN AKSHALAKQLLQKDJALJFL

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAJKALAFJAJ

[slytherinshua]

omg zanna!!!

firstly omg babe congrats on 1.5k!!!! youre growing so fast :( secondly the fics you rec-d had me dying (ftom cuteness ofc) amd just omg :( ty and thirdly youre really adorable!!! ofc i look up to you have you seen your blog???? babe your writing has me crying into my pillow at (exactly) 4:02 am. But genuinely the way you write is just so <3!!!! Its really really comforting. Im really envious because anything i write sounds like a first grader write it (in a happy im proud of you way!!) and ofc dw abt it that was def my fault shouldve thought that through but yeah ofc you can call me sprout!!! Also again omg zanna 1.5k!!!! and for the event how many groups do you like (this includes casually stanning too) and omg tws!!!! ( My children :( ](so idk but whenever i stan a new group automatically four positions form in my head: (idk im weird) of theres the two basic, bias and bias wrecker/s and then theres emotionally closest to and special place in my heart so ig my question is for like all or any of your fav kpop groups whod you put where?) Happy valentines day!! Happy carat day!!

-🌱!!!

SPROUT!! i get so happy when i see you in my inbox eskdjks

omg i'm glad you enjoyed them 🥹 i wish i could've gotten some more but my tumblr is always dry except for moot fics and i don't read much nowadays 💔 except for real books damn...

WHAT NO WAY MY WRITING MADE YOU CRY??? 🤨🤨🤨🤨 but thank you :(

i'm sure its much better than you think sprout :( and believe it or not, everyone starts out writing like a first grader, but the more you practice the better you become!!! and you can also put in effort to try to learn techniques and stuff but i'm too lazy for that tho i do def want to improve my writing style so we'll see :D

aww it's okay tho we're on good terms now!!! so don't worry abt that <33

okay how many groups do i like?

okay so txt, verivery, onf, victon, seventeen, astro, skz, the rose, enhypen, mcnd, newjeans, lucy, billlie, sf9, &team, red velvet, ive, bts, the boyz, viviz, n.flying, xdinary heroes, xg, boynextdoor, le sserafim, mamamoo, p1harmony, riize, wei are kinda the groups i can say i stan

got7, ateez, shinee, pentagon, nct (all units), are groups i casually enjoy and know the first 3 esp pretty well for members as well!!

im enjoy a lot of soloists and i would love to get into some other groups that i listen to occasionally as well (cix, oneus, cravity, ace, e'last etc)

i'm also familiar w gidle, itzy, twice, oh my girl, akmu, blackpink, monsta x, aespa, nmixx, exo, zerobaseone, and some more but don't consider them to be on my stanlist yet

so i think i stan 29 groups, 15(ish) soloists, and know 16ish other groups rly well !!

who would you put in the positions bias, bias wrecker, emotionally closest to, and special place in your heart?

ooo that's a rly interesting question!! i'm gonna do it just for my ult groups i think... and maybe svt too skdjks since they were ults

so for txt

bias - taehyun bias wrecker - hueningkai emotionally closest to - soobin or taehyun special place - taehyun... KSJDKS

for onf

bias - yuto, minkyun bias wrecker - seungjun emotionally closest to - minkyun (he rly likes cats what can i say) special place - etion :( i love him so much

for verivery

bias - gyehyeon bias wrecker - yongseung emotionally closest to - hoyoung maybe? special place - minchan

and for svt bonus yayayay

bias - joshua, dk bias wrecker - wonwoo emotionally closest to - woozi special place - jun

happy valentines and carat day to you as well <33 sry i didn't get to answering this yesterday cause i was BUSY WITHOUT DEVICES RIP BUT WE'RE HERE NOW <33

[kashimos-hajime]

ABT TO CRY I GET SO SWAMPED UP WITH MY FINALS I FORGET MY COMFORT GETO FIC EXISTS 💔

FIRST OF ALL??? HELP I MISSED SM. GETO ASKS YN OUT, THEY CONFESS TO EACH OTHER AND ARE NOW DATING??? OBVIOUSLY JUST THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG BUT PULLING MY HAIR OUT OVER HERE HOLY CRAP.

okay okay can i just say that out of all the updates you have uploaded by far, the written chapter a few days is just my absolute favourite ever??? it is so amazingly written and paced so well and it left me wanting to tear my hair out (in a good way ofc). the tension, the ‘baby’ (not new) and ‘flower’ (very new and rly rly cute), the way u write yn watching geto dance, aND JUST EVERYTHI NG HELLO???? DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE WALTZ(?) THE KISS THE CONFESSION ASVDHSV MY HEART. and then my ‘things are going too well 🤨’ instinct kicked in and then:

‘He already knows what he’s decided: he can’t tell you. He can’t tell you the truth. Not after this.’

THIS IS GONNA KICK THEM IN THE ASS SO BAD I ALREADY FEEL BAD FOR YN 😭 i rly hope we get to see either (or both) maki and shoko beat satosugu’s asses coz ngl its kinda deserved. also BOOO SUKUNA JAILTIME IDK IF HE DID IT FOR A REASON YN MY BABYGIRL MY LITTLE MEOW MEOW MY BELOVED DESERVED BETTER

and gosh its so nice to see them together now but i can’t even relax because i’m so prepared for geto’s poorly hidden secret to get revealed girl plz go easy on us readers my heart can only take so much :,)

also username kashimos-hajime u write so beautifully i swear once school gives me a break im binging every single thing u’ve ever written i admire whatever time, skill and effort it took to complete such a masterpiece and i would like and reblog every single update a million times if i could.

this is so long i’m so sorry i wanna say more but it doesn’t seem right 😭 thank you for three amazing updates and i hope u are having ur favourite meal rn <333

ur literally the cutest human omg. first off! i hope your finals went well!!! glad you enjoyed getting caught up :)

i really loved writing the written chapter too bc i was like FINALLY they're together 😭😭😭 i wanted them to get it together and the timing just worked out and yeah!! i think because they are so emotionally... immature (is the best way i can put it) neither of them would have the guts to be like "we are going on a date at a restaurant and getting to know each other" LOOOL

(everything every character does in this fic has a reason that isn't just they're a dickhead and mean, including sukuna ;) so we'll see)

and yeah :((( i feel like every day suguru just digs himself into a deeper hole because he finally has someone who understands him really well because yn has a better understanding what the loss of one's own self can do to someone. yn is understanding and fundamentally kind, but she also has a hubris of self-preservation, so the instant getou's truth is revealed, it won't be pretty.

thank you so much for this wonderful ask!! as always, your reviews really brighten up my day and your enthusiasm is really inspiring. thank you!!

[early20sfailingplenty]

Hey sugar,

Vincent and Jonesy are startin’ to miss you a whole lot. I’d be a damn fool if I said I wasn’t feelin’ the same too. Just want ya to know we’re thinkin’ ‘bout you. Sounds like it’s been a rough few days for ya’, so I thought that I’d send a little something to cheer ya up.

Shit, even Les misses ya! Last time he came ‘round he was askin’ ‘bout you. Vincent’s been sulkin’ all over without ya. Barely comes up from the basement. Though he is poutin’ that he’s missin’ a sweater. I won’t tell him you took it, yet…

Anyways, we miss ya and hope you come ‘round real soon. I’ve been havin’ a hard time sleepin’ without ya next to me, and it sure would be nice to wake up next to that pretty face. Vin wants me to tell ya’ that he loves you, and that Jonsey does too.

Love ya sweetpea. See ya soon.

-Your Beauregard (+ Vinny and Jonesy)

(WHO DID THIS?????🥺🥺🥺🥺😍😍😍😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰🫂🫂🫂💖💖💖 I'VE READ THIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN OMG I KEEP DROPPING MY UWUS HHHHHHHHHHH THANK YOU NONNIE THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUUUUUUUU ~ 🥺😍😭🥰🫂💖 I'm sooooo ~ jumping on this chance to 'talk' to Bo...👀)

Beautiful Bo (Bo-tiful?🥰😂)

This is so sweet of you; typical, you try and cheer me up and your efforts only make me cry (in a good way, though! Not all tears are sad ones, but they're always a release)! Thank you for staying with me through all of this; ever since we met, life has been a wild ride and every time I think I have a handle on things, something changes or crops up and the cycle begins anew. But I get to come home to you and your brothers and the bestest girl Jonesy, so how bad are things, really?

I miss all of you a lot. Ambrose isn't so far away, not really, all I have to do is close my eyes and concentrate and I can find you easily, and yet I never seem to find the time to come home.It won't be long before Lester is rocking up to my door threatening to drag me back.😂 Making time for you means making time for me, too, and I need to be better about that. Many a person has told me so, and with you telling me too, I really should start listening.

Ohhh, Vincent🥺🥺🥺🥺 I'm gonna have to come over just so I can drag him outta the basement! Bet he hasn't changed the sheets on that bed since the last time I was there... not that I can say anything; I haven't done mine for a while but I will once I've sent this text. PLEASE don't tell him I took one of his sweaters; he'll want it back and if I don't have something which is HIS, it'll make me sad💔he shouldn't have put it in the dirty wash basket if he didn't want me to swipe it.😂

I'm on my way, Bo. For you, for Lester, for Vincent and for Jonesy!! You better have been giving her lots of kissies in my absence! Can't wait to come home, Bo. I'll be there soon, sit tight. I love you all very much! There are forehead kissies for each of you and big biiiiig hugs!!!

I love YOU Bo. Very much.

- Your Erika💖

[ricciardo-dan]

✨✨✨My experience in the Mexico gp.✨✨✨

in case you want to read it...

Formula one is like a drug, once you try it you just want more.

After 15 months of waiting with my ticket, the day finally arrived.

Carry an Australian flag and try as much as possible to make it visible. And I hope Daniel saw it because in fp1 the stands were still a bit empty.

I swear for sweet lord that after the first f1 had passed, I started crying because of how excited I was, I couldn't believe they were real and I was watching them, after years of watching them on television I was finally seeing it live. 😭😭😭

Although my heart broke to see that dan no longer came out in fp2. 😔

But I swear that it excited me every time I saw one go by. The atmosphere in the Foro sol was great.

After fp2 the McLaren crew approached the stands of the Foro sol and they totally ignored me, although I almost put my Australian flag in their faces. I felt that they were only flirting with the fans 😒 and they threw autographed caps, I saw one of Daniel's very closely but it was not mine 💔

And I knew a girl and him cousin who were supporting Lando.

Then on Saturday in qualy I was on the stairs of the stands and I saw when Lance Stroll's accident happened, it was a relief to see him come out unscathed.

The speed of the f1 is impressive.

And at the end of qualifying, Daniel waved at the stands where I was. 😍 my mind exploded.

On Sunday I was excited about the drivers parade and prayed for Daniel to notice my support for him.

Fun fact: I moved from my spot in the stands for the parade.

I apparence on the Spanish tv broadcast, well my flag came out because I can't see myself. 😂 and also in the broadcast of the parade.

I'm pretty sure Daniel did see my flag 😭 he waved to the stands where I was, they were seconds but he’ll they were incredible. 😭😍

In fact the video I recorded of the parade turned out so bad, I moved my arm too much. 🙁

The atmosphere in the Foro Sol is definitely something else, not even in the concerts that I have gone there do I remember such a madness.

When the race started and I saw the start of Daniel I got too excited but when the touch with Bottas passed and I saw him go by with the broken car it broke my heart 💔 but that did not diminish my support for him.

But hell it was definitely amazing and unique to be able to see F1 cars. I'm still in awe.

During the race I continued to support Daniel and also Lewis, although around me they only supported Perez.

Sometimes I forgot that I was in public and shouted things that I only say in private 😅🤭🙈

One thing I totally hate is that some stupid people booed Lewis, I really hate that.

Fun fact: I am super tanned from the face, I bring the mark of the mask. 😅

In conclusion I can say that I definitely love f1 and it is a great show. I admire each of the drivers because of the effort and dedication they give in each race.

I already want it to be the Mexico GP 2022. 🤞🏻🙂❤️

[twofortheshow]

Today I was too emotional to relive these moments because 10 minutes into the album I had already cried 3 times. By the end I cried like 20 more and these are the reasons why:

- omg I’m actually listening to RED Taylor’s version I waited for so long

- I love Taylor Swift so much

- Taylor is so smart she found a way to own her music while making us enjoy it with her

- Taylor really and actually loves us

- I missed listening to RED

- omg her voice is so different now, so mature

- she said “asking you to stay” instead of “asking him to stay”!!!

- she’s so great, she’s putting so much effort into this, she’s not just re recording, she’s analyzing, improving these songs, their melodies because she cares to share with us only whatever she thinks is absolutely worth it and she NAILS it every single time

- how will I survive tracks from the vault if I’m already a wreck?

- “I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here”… but I always cry for All too well so I’m not sure it counts… but again, how am I supposed to recover from the ATW 10 minutes version if I’m crying already at the short version?

- I’m a little jealous of swifties who’ll turn 22 from now on cause they have the Taylor’s version of the song to jam to

- every time she doesn’t she almost does 🥺

- a guy found his peace of mind with an indie record that’s supposedly much cooler than Taylor’s album, but now millions of people found their peace of mind with another indie record but form Taylor herself… folklore saved 2020

- Gary Lighbody you guys!!

- omg this is the first time I’m experiencing the release of red as a swiftie, this is making me emotional

- “good girls hopeful they’ll be and long they will wait”

- Taylor gave up a normal life for her dream and now her fans, wondering if she’d make it out alive… knowing now from Miss Americana what she went through “the lucky one” hits different

- I love Taylor’s friendship with Ed so much

- this woman pays so much attention to every detail it’s insane

- Taylor spent 8 months of her life thinking that all love ever does is brake and burn and end 🥺 but look at her now

- crying on your birthday is one of the saddest experiences I’ve ever felt and it breaks my heart knowing that Taylor went through it as well

- “if I had known what I know now, I never would’ve played it so nonchalant” cause who wouldn’t?

- Taylor really cares about us, about the wishes we have that are related to her music, she listens to us and does literally everything in her power to makes us happy

- Ronan 💔

- “What if I really thought some miracle would see us through? What if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?” 💔

- omg I really wanted to hear better man and babe with Taylor’s voice for YEARS… did I actually manifest it? Do I really have these songs now on my phone just a few clicks away?

- this whole song: nothing new. How horrible is it that the industry made her feel like she’s just a shiny new toy and nothing more? That they’d forget about her? I have so much to say about this but I’m not ready to expose all of my thoughts about this

- she really didn’t deserve someone who rolled his eyes at her jokes and laughed at her dreams, this is so fucked up

- again, I love love love Taylor and Ed together

- ALL TOO WELL (10 MINUTES VERSION)

- the whole

- freaking

- song

- “AND you were tossing me the car keys”!!

- not only she said “fuck” but she said “fuck the patriarchy”!!!!!

- “if we had been closers in age maybe it would have been fine AND THAT MADE ME WANT TO DIE” 💔

- it’s supposed to be fun turning 21

This was the train of thoughts that led me through Red (Taylor’s version) this morning. In order to write this I listened again the album and tried to go through the same mental path cause my first listening is just me and the music, no phone, no writing

[jupitergwin]

I get that suho is a happy go lucky child. But I think he's a little oblivious, something that's just him but i felt so fucking sad when he didn't try too hard with bumseok. He took everything about bumseok at face value, again, I think that's just him, he likes his stuff upfront and candid, but see bumseok is the polar opposite. Insecure in everything, blowing things out of proportion overthinking, expecting ulterior motives from all around him because he grew up in such a toxic environment. T^T

Suho didn't like bumseok's let's keep things under the rag personality. He isnt transparent like gray, who goes batshit when he's messed with and won't bother others as long as they don't bother him. It's hard for suho to read him. Suho just, just gives up his love for bumseok, just like that.

Bumseok stole his father's watch for the money, didn't wanna leave suho alone with the gangsters so went after them himself, and even before that, he was the one who dragged suho to help sieun. And he got the fuck beaten out of him for his efforts which he kept quiet about after! I'm not saying I condone any of bumseok's actions. But do I feel for him? Heck yes. Like op says, this kid is desperate for love, and his immense fear of rejection drives him to put every little action of those he wants to love under the microscope. Because he doesn't know what it's like to be loved by a person who grew up loved, a person like suho. Suho isn't about double standards, he says what he thinks, does what he wants. There's no layers and layers to him. Hes genuine as they come. So maybe for bomseok that was a little too much good. A little too good to be true. So ofcourse he would go nuts when the slightest doubt creeps in. In his head, everyone is out to get him, and he's ready to hurt before he gets hurt. So when the girl arrives, who is also a little too oblivious and inconsiderate herself, its overthink o' clock and shit starts spiralling down for bumseok and suho's blunt reactions are only read wrong again and again by him, which ultimately leads to the friction between them. Bumseok was quiet to begin with, and now he wants suho to understand him, to save him, whist not willing to communicate. While suho, who wants things directly communicated to him, hates that he can't understand bumseok's actions, and that bumseok won't be direct with him. It was one misunderstanding after another between them 💔

And siuen had been too friendless for too long himself that even if he did understand both of his friends more than they understood each other, it was hard for him to take action because this whole friendship experience was new to him too. But I think he tried the best with what he had, they all did, but bumseok was too closed off with them, and already broken bad enough. It feels like it was doomed from the start.

And I'm not sorry for the rant, I need to go cry in a corner about the three of them

this drama won’t leave my mind fuckkk 😭 thinking about how bumseok saw suho as higher and above him, as the leader of their trio whereas suho just saw him as an equal friend, not higher not lower, and that’s where their misunderstandings started ;-; suho’s friendly gesture of putting his arm around his loved ones to bumseok was a gesture of control and superiority, the weight of his arm was too much for bumseok who grew up under the pressure of so many authoritative figures ;-: this also explains why bumseok was always trying to copy suho (like at the restaurant when they were making ssam ) etc etc, he idolised him and that admiration turned into an inferiority complex, meanwhile suho just never realised that bumseok regarded him so highly ;-; this showcases the difference between someone who grew up in a loving environment and was never desperate to be loved and belong (no anxiety about being accepted) and someone who grew up in an unstable and conditional environment (anxiety about all their relationships) it’s so SAD .

[silentbeauty1997]

WHY DID HE STOP TRYING? ….💔❤️‍🩹

It’s 1 am and I can’t sleep because the same thing plays in my head over and over . I’m stuck between i love you and i hate you. The one question I always come back to is how did it become so complicated? This is very painful to write and admit but I need to get it out . I know you’ll never see it.

I still remember the first time we talked you made my sunny world at the time even brighter than i thought possible. I’ve have loved you for so long I don’t remember a time when I didn’t love you more than I love myself. For 5 years I put you before me and lost myself along the way. I’ve cried over you and about you several times . I probably will 100 times more. I wish you didn’t leave so many emotional bruises. I guess I like the pain…

It hurts to love you sometimes. I wish I could talk to you the way I used too. Not like you would listen anyways . I wish you still cared just a little bit more like you did before. As I write this tears come to my eyes and roll down my cheek. Trying to silently cry so I don’t wake up my friend ….i know you don’t mean to hurt me sometimes ? I wish you still took me on dates . Our last actual date was almost 3 years ago .Sometimes I feel like I need to be a computer to be noticed by you. Im always fighting for your attention in some way.i guess somethings never change . I wish you still looked at me the way you used but you don’t anymore. Writing this has made me realize I make all the effort . I fight for us but you don’t . Why don’t you fight for us?

They say nothing lasts forever . I lost who I was . I’m slowing getting there . I don’t know who I am. I wish more than anything you would understand. You stopped trying to understand me. You break my heart more than you know . Yes I maybe sensitive. Every fight , blow out or “heated conversations” I saw your love for me start to fade each time. Fight by fight we were slowly starting resenting each other.

When you do fight it’s the bare minimum of what was ask so I stay . So I don’t leave . Then when you notice I’m happy with the changes you go right back to doing the same cold hearted unsympathetic demeanor/ self.

It broke my heart that I had a better day because you were barely around . It kills me that I feel like I’m losing you but i know you think everything is fine and going really well. I could just be paranoid and insecure. How much more can we bend before we break? Why don’t you love me like you used too? Is my mental health really that bad? Why do I always have to put in the effort?

I refuse to lose myself loving you again. I’m starting to love myself more . I pray thing change. I can’t keep feeling like my heart is going to be ripped out of my chest . Is there such thing as loving someone too much?

They stick and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt you, but your words stab me like a knife . “No one will ever be able put up with you the way I do” “ if we ever break up you’re gonna live a lonely life “ “you make me a monster “ “you ruin a lot of things for me “ . “ good luck trying to find someone who can deal with you” When I would say something back it will become all out war of words sometimes worse. Getting in each other’s faces . Your words hurt more than I ever thought anyones could. You were my everything. I worshiped you . I would have said or done anything to make sure you stayed. I realize now how wrong that is. Im not the same girl you met at 16 . Im not the same girl you started dating when I was 18. Im not the same person I was 6 years ago and you still hold on to who that girl is . You were so connected to who I used to be.

I pray that things change . The balls in your court now . You’ve dried , wiped or dabbed the same tears away caused by you but you would never know . How long do I hang on before I fall? How much longer are you gonna keep breaking my heart? You were supposed to be my safe place to land the you stopped . I thankfully found a friend who is a safe place to land, you don’t like that. You asked me what about my friend was so great . Why i talk to him instead of you sometimes ? Simple my friend listens , helps me , let’s me feel sad but also show me the world isn’t that bad, it’s just a bad day but at same time you really just don’t care.you would rather just play computer than try to fix it. You say the only thing wrong with us “are my emotional and black out attacks” I wish you cared but sadly you just dont. 6 years and I’m wondering why am I staying ? You’re supposed to love me at my worst but you only seem to love me at my best.

I’m broken , dented , drained , extremely sad and broken hearted . Why did you stop trying? I imagined us getting married , having kids , spending the rest of our lives together but day by day , fight by fight , argument after argument that dream slowly dwindles away and at times so does my love for you. I hate myself for believing you because I truly believe no one but you could ever love me . We used to have all the colors of the rainbow but everyday feels like a never ending storm .

You tell me all the time we’re the perfect definition of bent but not broken. We’re more than just bent. Eventually the bend will break.

I’m broken, lost and alone trying to navigate my feelings and control them . Navigate through this mess I’m feeling . I’m losing control again . You’re like a drug to me toxic and addictive . You loved that in my eyes no one could replace you but the older I get and the more sense of self I get the more I understand….I hate saying that. I really do. I do love you but I’m starting to love me more.

I hope and pray things change and get better and if they don’t . I promised myself I deserve better and I will leave if nothing changes .

I love you but I love me more…..💔❤️‍🩹

-silent beauty 1997 💔❤️‍🩹

[swcetnight]

Fae you really said I will keep my readers in the dark for as long as I possibly can😂

I suspected nothing else but chapter 3 was exquisite again. I loved it despite wanting to shake oc for not talking to tae. Girl don't make this harder for you.

The airport scene is clearly one of my favorites. It was so beautiful and bittersweet at the same time. It felt like a goodbye (forever) but still they loved so deeply😭💔 I'm so soft

I was also so happy about oc's addition invitation after so many closed doors, she finally found an open one. And our girl will rock this for sure. But Namjoon has something to do with it mhm🤔 Tae, you are sus again. What did you do?

And the video is quite sus. Where do you got it tae? I want to know it now🔪

And in the soop as a comfort show with seven best friends please, this is so cute🥺

Once again thank you for all the effort you put into this series. I am so excited for every chapter💗

I hope you have a great week. Take care of yourself. I am sending you so much love💖 Love you Fae

🌸 Bloom

And another bloom song, you are a whole cutie💖

BLOOM ANON!! 🌸🤍

hello hello!! i was so excited to see that you had sent in an ask-- but i wanted to make sure that i was fully awake so i could write out a decent response!!

thank you so much for the love regarding chapter 3!!! 🥺🤍 oc is definitely.... struggling to talk to Taehyung... but don't worry... you might see some actual conversation in the next chapter!!

the airport scene was literally SO much fun to write!! 😭 it was a nice change from writing about them only being friends, so I was able to play with their relationship a little bit!! i really enjoyed myself, so im glad that the readers were able to enjoy that bit too!! can we just talk about IDY boyfriend!taehyung… brb gonna go cry.

you know who else is happy about that audition notice??? OC. as you could tell from her squealing 😂 what did tae do? .... taehyung TOTALLY DIDNT do ANYTHING to make sure that oc got her time in the spotlight.... he TOTALLY didnt....

your asks are something that i look forward to every single time i post a chapter, and in general-- if i see you in my inbox, i get very excited to hear what you have to say!! so thank you for sending such wonderful asks and being such a supporter of IDY!! it truly means the world to me!! 🥺🤍🤍🤍

I love you more bloom anon!!! 🌸 sending you all the love and happiness that this world has to offer!

read “It’s Definitely You” here!!