#seeing a rheumatologist at 24 was not on my bingo card unfortunately

[choolz]

yeah no im good I just came home from a 10 hour shift from the job that I hate with people I can’t stand where I got a call from the doctor I have an incurable lifelong autoimmune disease and my mother whom I can’t stand vented about my father that SHE cant stand and he texted me ‘idiot’ 3 times because I forgot to lie on his behalf (as always) so they’re fighting again and all my friends have left and sided w my abusive cheating ex because I didn’t share what happened in the belief that it was private (my bad for not oversharing) while he got everyone on his sob story and I get to come home to a shitty 1 room apartment where I’ll go to bed alone and if I died in here nobody would notice until the rot seeps through the floorboards and they have to scrape me off the floor to discard me. but its cool or whatever