#security check six: ive never gotten this far people usually believe me by now or get tired of my shit and let it go | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

thirtheenprimes · 2 years ago

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How the fuck can I be both touch starved and uncomfortable being touched? I used to think my discomfort was because I assume everyone else is uncomfortable with something so I've got to be extra aware of how I handle myself, but I'm pretty sure that's just projection.

So why do I crave physical contact in theory but have to go through three security checks, a metal detector, and a five-page risk assessment report before I let it happen?

#security check one: they dont want to #security check two: theyre being polite but they dont want to #security check three: polite insistence requires two levels at least depending on the attitude they are choosing to project #security check four: now theyre just saving their own ego because being perceived as someone who ignores someone elses wants sucks #they still dont want to though #security check five: theyve decided pursuing this is entwrtaining enough and theyre bored but they still dont want to #security check six: ive never gotten this far people usually believe me by now or get tired of my shit and let it go #yes im drunk right now but new media obsessions always makes me learn more about myself #i dont want anyone to ever learn anything about me #but also im lonely #no touch only hold

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