#seasonal depression is in fullforce bb

[junosartsthetic]

yall im so sorry i am a mess rn

i cant seem to get my shit together and i apologize for that

you all expect to see fics

not whatever bullshit this is

but i cant seem to do anything rn that isnt wallow in self pity

i have requests and shit that need done but my brain is empty and i feel like shit for not putting out anything new lately but it’s taking all i have just to wake up in the morning and not stay in bed all day oml. i feel so guilty but because i feel guilty nothing is getting done which makes me feel more guilty and im just in a state of perpetual frozen-ness not doing anything but staring like a deer in the headlights waiting for the truck to finally hit me. and oml do i want it to hit me. but it doesnt come. and the anxiety remains. but anyway lets see if i can produce a shread of content tonight that isnt self-loathing bullshit. fingers crossed i suppose.