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[jakrispy7161]

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UPDATE : I eventually accepted the job offer

I'm too broke and I mentally can't bear having to rely on my family to help me (unemployment insurance helps but does just the bare minimum and I can't stand living on the edge like that...). The good news is that it's a temporary position so I'm not committing to a job that's unsatisfying on several levels (I'll miss remote work...). I still have room to do the training later (and try to save up a bit)

The only perk of this job is that it's very close to home though (<20 min ride on bicycle), so I'll be able to manage some time for personal projects after work. But only and ONLY if I stick to a dedicated posting schedule. Fighting against the discouragement that drove me to stop all my activities ("nobody cares about what I can pull out.." "there are so many more talented people out there...") and STICK TO A PLAN is definitely my 2024 priority. My brand online activity fell off the moment I put out my articles online because I just didn't know how to handle cruising with content beside promo.

I know this might sound surprising, but creating content online asks to be genuine and comfortable with sharing. ..I'm quite of a very privy person who 1)dislike showing vulnerability 2)constantly having to put stuff out there (that's why I love Tumblr, bc you can have a blog whose 99% of its content are reblog lol). Both are very limiting weaknesses when you try to build up a branding online..

Whoever said that "do it alone " wasn't the real challenge but rather to "do it tired " was absolutely right lol That's why I'm committed fixing myself a steady daily routine to keep progressing on several of the projects I want to work this year (comic, podcast, rehaul of my brand, etc.)

Still on tbe fence for the podcast lol I feel the urge to have a space to vent my crazy conspiracy theories/tinfoil with a Christian femcel twist but again...my brain is like "who cares". I think everyone will agree that everyone and tbekr mama has a podcast these days, so...

I stopped uploading my brand socials since summer 2023... I'm currently working on my YouTube comeback, and a video is already ready but I refuse to upload it unless the another one isn't done as well (it's tackling my japanese learning app thanks to which I passed the jlpt 3 and it's taking me waaayyy more time than expected....). I initially aimed for a 2 updates/month schedule but considering the time it takes to edit them (I'm still a newbie) I'll stick to one.

I won't reload my socials unless my 2 YouTube update are ready and my Instagram feed queued until the next few months. I'm resuming work next month so I'll capitalize off the last few weeks when I'm 100% free to finalize it all and relaunch (during March then)

Thanks everyone for your support. I'm tryna keep up the crazy papi facade online but I been really going through stuff IRL so its nice having nice people to get surrounded with here :)

Going to sleep now, see ya 🩵

guys I'm so conflicted rn :/

For those who wouldn't know, I've been jobless for a while and money has been seriously lacking

I've been steadily looking for a job since january and passed a bunch of job interview. I just got a proposal for a temporary job but the pay is very low...

Lately I've been prepping up my comeback (YouTube + website) and I've been committed these last few weeks to rehaul my entire 'brand'.

Despite money lacking, I really appreciate having this free time to do things that really mattered to me and that may previous 9-6 job didn't allow me to. That's why I'm very wary of picking this job with a very low pay (so pretty hard to save money), no remote work, and a taking significant part of my time (at least my previous job paid quite well so it was worth it...). I feel like it's a lose-lose situation...

I also have a bunch of other interviews for better paying job (allowing remote work) I'm still waiting for their feedback but there's no guarantee I might get selected so it's a risk to dismiss the current proposition for potential jobs...

I asked the company who made the proposal to leave me room until Wednesday to give them my answer

relevant note : I'm not looking for a permanent job right now bc I plan to do a training to access a new profession that I could do entirely on remote (I did a benchmark of job offers lol). This training asks 💶 so I either 1)need a job to save 2)ask for a government financial aid (if I stay unemployed) which might take time and I'm not sure my application to be accepted