#save alec he didnt sign up for this

[shipping-all-ships]

Jace: Would you love me if I was a worm?

Chris: I would build you the nicest worm house.

Jace: :O :)

Jace: I would still be your parabatai if you were a worm.

Chris: :D

Jonathan: If you were a worm, I would chop you into pieces so I can have a lot of you.

Alec: ....

Jonathan: Would you-

Alec: Absolutely not.

I'm the only one who's going to find this funny because of the AU that's been cooking in my head but here's everyone's stance in my "heathers but they're all jonathan" AU about clone fucking

Jonathan Morgenstern: I'd fuck my clone because who would know better how to fuck ME than ME? Johnathon "Chris" Wayland: I'd totally do all sort of weird things to my clone I'd be embarrassed to ask someone else to do. Johnathan "Jace" Herondale: To be honest, fucking my clone has always been my fantasy. Alec: I'm gay, but I still don't want to fuck my clone, that's gross and weird. Izzy: I'd totally fuck my clone because I want to know if I'm good in bed. Clary: It's basically the same as masturbating, right? So no big deal. Magnus: Not only would I have sex with my clone, I'd probably make a bunch of clones and just get it on with all of them at once because that's how pro clone-fucking I am.

[normal-thoughts-official]

I'm ignoring my responsibilities in favor of watching the All Malec Moments video compilation so get ready for a livewatch no one asked for

Hodge is so incredibly wrong about everything he says about Magnus and it's kind of impressive because all he says is heavily supported by the Clave's files, which. Is proof of how great Magnus is at manipulating them and having them think exactly what he wants them to, tbh. Especially considering that as much as Magnus closes off emotionally, he was always very caring and kind to all other downworlders and warlocks, like, they all know they can trust him, he was named HWoB, he has a thousand kids, he took them all into hiding, etc. But the Clave and circle members are still 100% sure he's a super greedy lothario who's good for nothing but partying, and like. Obviously it's because they racist but they have an intelligence system and a file full of pictures and information and it all seems to support what Hodge is saying about him. So like Magnus was quite literally living a double life, with a whole personality he put up for shadowhunters and enemies, and another for his allies and friends, and even that one isnt 100% him because he was still trying to protect himself by closing himself off from relationships. and thats fucking impressive like my man is so smart i love him

Their first official talk is so funny magnus literally goes "I'm magnus" and Alec goes "Alec" and then he smiles and then he just goes. "Oh yeah right we should uh we should go to the hmm youhavebeautifuleyes what's it called hm" and its hilarious because they exchanged three (3) words and Alec is already all lost because Magnus is just That Beautiful. also all Magnus has to do is introduce himself and Alec smiles for the first time in 4 episodes like bro. bro. seriously. help him

he's SO frustrated when Alec doesn't get the "i love a dirty lair" flirt like he does that little eyebrow raise and hes just like "what the hell i thought that was GOOD" but Alec's head is legit playing wii music

Magnus pays izzy for "defending the warlocks" i had forgotten about that and it makes me so soft ;-;

Magnus and Izzy were just vibing with magnus asking her what presents Alec likes and clary immediately interrupts to ask about the memory demon like homophobic from day one i guess

Magnus is positively impressed by the way Clary goes "I'll do anything to save my mother" you can see how much he values loyalty right then have i mentioned that i love him

we talk about the "I'm talking to you" part a lot but we never mention how Magnus just throws that one and yeets off with clary not even waiting for a reaction he's just like that's RIGHT bitch you have beautiful hazel eyes too! do with that what you will i am now summoning a demon goodbye forever

the second him and Clary are away from the rest he tells her not to trust anyone and to be careful, like... ugh he cares so much it's unreal and again very deliberate, flirt a little, give izzy a necklace, throw in some innuendos, make it seem like it's all very innocuous so no one bothers to follow them or listen in when he goes away with Clary alone, and then immediately warn her about the clave when he gets away from the others. like he cares so much and he's so good at keeping that visible only for those he wants to it's astounding, my man is so talented and i hate that he had to learn to do that to survive but god i admire him and how committed he is to helping others too. like he could say "welp who cares it's dangerous imma go fuck off" like ragnor did but not only did he stay but he had a huge vulnerability with all his generosity and he never gave that up not for a second, even as he closed himself off from having any close friends or family or lovers, he never was anything if not generous and kind

the way he deliberately calls Jace shadowhunter in the most uninterested and even lowkey condescending way after the "pretty boy" incident idndjdndi we stan a king

the way Alec and magnus hold hands to summon the demon and even Magnus seems a bit shocked at the intensity of the sound and the bond that they make like. obviously they have their little staring contest and Alec is doing the Lightwood Intensity™ thing but like you can see Magnus frown just slightly and be a little confused because it was so strong right off the bat. even the sound of when they hold hands is louder than when the others do, like you can just feel their connection and the way magnus' magic flows so freely through Alec like god the soulmate energy tbh

Alec has a full body jerk when they hold hands too and he's the only one like damn we get it u 2 r vibin get a room

Izzy going "you ppl are pathetic" straight to the hets is so funny especially after Alec reacted to holding magnus' hand like he had gotten a 1000W electric shock or something. but i get the feel maybe she did that deliberately so they wouldnt pay as much attention to Alec's reaction too

the special effects were truly so bad like we all knew this but damn

Jace is such an asshole like Alec made it to kill the demon because it was you know about to seriously hurt them all and Magnus had just said that he couldn't contain the demon for longer (and like we know that Alec is the only one who ever cared if Magnus overexerted himself out of the shadowhunters but like bro this affects you) and Jace just???? shoved him??????? against the wall???? like a fucking piece of shit??? they should have let valak kill him tbh

the first time magnus calls him Alexander is when he calls Alec to see if he wants a drink and it's just like very clearly a thing that's supposed to be between them two? like he never did it when there were others nearby and i dig that

the fact that when asking Alec out he said "it was nice getting to know you, you seem sympathetic" like he could have gone with a lot of better more flirty adjectives but for a second the truth slipped out and he said what he thought - that while Alec was objectively you know tall and strong and all what really attracted him was the way Alec clearly gave a fuck whether or not Magnus was struggling with his magic to keep the damn demon at bay. and that was before the magic sharing shit too when Alec proved him right by cleaning up his things and saying that he had exerted himself enough for one day. like so many ppl see Magnus as the All Powerful Son Of Asmodeus Who's Also There To Service Shadowhunters and Alec just shows the faintest signs of caring about his wellbeing and he's immediately drawn to him like damn Im sad

also maybe this might be why he asked Alec to come so he could draw from his strength specifically, like he knew from the little hand holding thing that Alec was open and receptive to his magic (which probably adds to the "sympathetic" stuff like the fact that Alec had such an intense reaction to his magic and yet didnt try to push it back or draw away from it basically shows that he's open to Magnus if that makes sense? not only because magic is a part of warlocks but also because shadowhunters are all taught that magic is like, dirty and evil, so it would be instinctive for Alec to be resistant to demonic magic in his body, but he wasn't, he accepted it so readily and intensely it was a shock to the both of them) and also that he cared enough to support him. he kinda had Magnus' back from the beginning, first killing that circle member in the club before Magnus even saw him, then helping Magnus kill the other, then immediately making it to kill the demon when Magnus said he couldn't hold him back for long. like im aware I'm reading too much into this but s1 malec was very kept to the between-the-lines and its very interesting to me to think what Magnus was thinking, even if obviously on a subconscious level. Alec was showing himself to be open, reliable and caring, and magnus values that, and hes attracted to him and he hasnt had that in a while, because he wouldnt allow himself, but now he's healing and the pull he feels when he finally gets that while being emotionally available enough to accept these little gestures of caring is really strong. love that for him tbh

i go FERAL over everything about the magic sharing shit okay i always have. the way alec shows up and Magnus is kind of falling over, exhausted from trying to hold onto luke, and Alec immediately runs to support his weight and make sure hes okay? and magnus even as he was about to fall over never had his magic falter, my man couldn't keep his balance but still wouldnt come close to stumbling and risking luke's life further for even a second. so when Alec gets there he's just quite literally having his back, supporting his weight, when even Magnus didnt care about that (which like. unhealthy) and was focused on luke? and like Magnus can focus on luke because Alec is there to give him his support and make sure he's fine and how long's it been since he last had someone to do that?? and it's clearly alec's first instinct and like we know Jace or even Clary wouldnt fucking react like that. and then they have this ridiculous fucking staring contest again like we get it alec you're gay panicking at Magnus' beautiful eyes but like pls? and then we get to the most important part which is TAKE WHAT YOU NEED

like JDNDJSNSKDNDJDBSHSBSUSNSISNSIBSZJBZUZBSJSBSISNSSINSIS *SCREAMS INTO OBLIVION, SENDING SELF OUT OF EARTH'S GRAVITY ZONE*

his reaction is just SO intense and immediate he's just like "take what you need" he just offers himself fully to help Magnus just like that, no hesitation, and like Magnus is literally drawing from Alec's strength/life force, there should be some kind of resistance, even from a regular person or a friend, like its a very natural instinct. but Alec just grabs his hand and goes take what you need and he doesn't resist he just lets him do it and lets Magnus take his strength, because he genuinely worries about his wellbeing and safety just because he does, he believes in protecting others and being there for them, same as Magnus, and to Alec it's the most natural thing in the world but to Magnus it's shocking because he's always been self reliant, he has to be, he's been alone too many times and he's been used too many times and he's scared of what he'll let people take from him if he opens himself up because he always gives and gives, and he hasnt even let anyone be there for him to have his back and give him support when he needed in these last few centuries, not fully, not since Camille. but Alec shows up and just immediately cares for him in both small (like later when he refuses to let Magnus clean his couch magically because he knows he's tired and does it himself) and huge (like literally not hesitating before letting Magnus use a super intimate and presumably draining spell on him without putting any kind of limit, so Magnus can not overexert himself like he always does) ways and it means so much to him? and hes just so drawn and attracted to him and suddenly he realizes he's catching feelings that he had forgotten how to, because of course he had been healing and opening up, but he still kept people at some kind of length that didnt allow them to take care of him even if they wanted to, but Alec got that opening and he dived right in, and Magnus realizes how starved he's been for this kind of care and support that he's been denying himself and he decides to chase this, take it seriously, and i just aaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

and like again Alec doesn't even think twice about it, because he's always been the protector and the support anyway, and he doesn't want to let anyone struggle and also most of that is just him being a Decent Human Being, but just like he got that opening that no one else did before, he met Magnus at the right time and he was sympathetic and caring and that sparked so much in Magnus, made him realize just how much he's been craving affection and care and close contact with people, and being vulnerable emotionally, and all of that that he's been denying himself. obviously magnus is romantically attracted to him but right then Alec is unlocking honesty with himself inside of magnus, he's unlocking vulnerability and not using it against him but really making a good thing out of it, and magnus' forgotten it could feel like this, safe and nice instead of hurting and scary. and again it's such a simple gesture but fuck my boy's been starved!! for so long!!! okay! and he can't help but want to desperately clutch to that feeling because against all odds he trusts alec to see his vulnerability right then (and he deliberately lets him see it further when he gives Alec that drink, tells him he's been closed off, that alec's unlocked something in him. you can see all the sadness and hope and vulnerability in his eyes right then, pretty much for the first time in the show, hes just so open and vulnerable and that's deliberate! first time was a fluke but second time he's choosing to because he wants to see where this goes, and if the magic sharing scene is the spark, the drinking scene is the fire, because they're not in a life or death situation anymore, Magnus is choosing to give Alec a chance by showing him a glimpse of his insecurities and Alec answers in kind, letting Magnus see his own confusion and want, and also again shows his caring and doesn't betray or use magnus' vulnerability and fuck!!! Magnus falls in love right then because this boy stays with him all night and talks, and he sees Magnus look at him with shiny eyes and admit that he's been scared of relationships, and he tells magnus not to overexert himself, and they click and Alec is open to his magic and hes funny and hes compassionate and also passionate about what he believes in, and they have so much in common with the way they hide and care so deeply and protect others always and are so loyal and i just. udndjdndidjdjxnxjxnskxndk SOULMATES god)

I need to lie down actually this was a bad idea I'm not strong enough I'm too feral

Might continue this later who knows. I'll be tagging malec livewatch and also long post as always if you want to filter this nonsense out

[roccoroks]

Dag volume 4 ok its been a while now since i updated my dag post sooooooo.... its time its been a few weeks or so and i have had a meriade of dumb fucks roll through here but non was as big of a cluster fuck as this family! this guy was a grade a prostitues asshole cover in warts and his family were more needy than Alec Baldwin is a man child. it happened at the Grand Rod Run a few weeks back and it has taken me some time to sit down and type this up soo... 9/13/2013 3pmish its was another rod run, the parking lot was packed and i was maning the helm and sitting on 2 rooms left to rent for the night. i wanted them gone fast so i could flip the "no"sign on and sit down and continue vectoring a project i was working on. *dag walks in with a walk of arogance...no shit, just sunters in like he fucking owns the place or like he is the fucking president or some shit* me- good afternoon, welcome to the RSML (RiverSide Motor Lodge) dag- wheres johny me- (fucking dick, must be one of johnys friends) im sorry johny no longer works for us (because i fired his ass! mawahahahha) dag- cute, wheres he at, i need a room. me- -.- (hurrr we go) well like i said he is no longer with the company, we changed hands back in march and my aunt and myself are now the new owners of the property. we felt that he was holding the business back and loosing us money so i let him go. dag- look, i know the rutine, john told you to say he no longer works here so he can take the show off. but what i need you to do is call him so i can get my usual rate, i drove 9 hours to get here and im very tired and want a room. *dags family walks in, a fat wife with 2 small children with here. one stuck in a fat roll the other in perpetual orbit around her midsection like one of jupitur's moons* me- (wow, this guy might be retarted) sir as i already explained to you, johny no longer works, or is in any way a acting manager or affiated with RSML. i have his discharge papers in the back if you would like to see them, i am one of the new owners here and would be more than happy to help you. (there, see i can be a nice guy) dag- wtf do you mean he is no longer affiliated with you, hes the owner! (this is a very comon thing, johny told everyone he was the owner im guessing to get laid or some shit and now he has like 30 people who expect to stay for free now) me- -.- sir he was never the owner, he was our gm, if he told you other wise he was a lier and this was one of the reasons he was let go. he was costing us almost 100,000 a year due to bad management and pour business skills so we elected to not rehire him. dag- so johnys not the owner... me- (for reals bro? dafuq you not understand ingrish?) never was.....e.e >>>>~~~~~~ dag- well... i need a room, john always saved me one for the rod run. me- (tough shit, im putting you in one of the fuck huts where the bed is covered in semen and used rubbers) yes sir i have 2 rooms left, both of them 1 queen jacuzzi suites. dag: i have 2 kids and my wife with me, we all cant sleep in a 1 queen suite, i need a bigger room me- (first off, thats a marine creature, not a wife and those two parasitic lampray you call kids can sleepoutside for all i care) im sorry sir but those are the only rooms i have, now they do have a pull out couch you can use. next year you may want to make reservations with us to garuntie what room you get. dag- well it willhave to do. how much, remeber johny usually gives me a really good rate. me- (i dont give a good god damn if johny sucked your dick everynight before you went to bed!) the room is 165.00 plus tax dag- wtf johny only charges me 59.95 a night when i come up here!!! me- hince why we fired him dag- this is out ragous! (watch this dumb motherfucker will still pay it) me- (no your wife is out ragous! just look at that magestic beast!) im sorry but those are the rates. (buy this time the kids are teasing my parrot, we have a 27 year old parrot that has been in the business since we open. on his cage in 3 different places it says *danger, the bird bites!*. so naturaly the little shits are trying to poke him) me- you might wont to stop your kids from sticking there fingers in the cage, the bird bites. dag- for 165 we should beable to take the bird home! me-(what ever, chances are they will be just as retarted as you anyway, whats the lose of a few fingers) ok but if they get bit its on you *iring him up andhand him his keys to his sestpool* *on the way out the door, i hear a sharp, squeal from a small child. the one that was stuck in the manaties fat roll had worked her hand free and stuck it in the bird cage. peppy, our bird, took offence to this and bit the shit out of her finger. oh yes....there was blood.....* dag- your fucking bird just bit my kid! me- ( /).- not shit...the bird bit her.,....just like i said she would... WELL FUCK ME IM SHOCKED! I CANT BELIVE THAT HAPPENED AFTER I SAID IT WOULD! PRAISE BE TO JESUS! IF A FUCKING MIRICALE.... dumbass) sir if you will remeber and also read one of the many signs on the cage, i said the bird bites and you may want to restrain your kids from sticking there fingers in there. dag- you should have a bird that bites in your main lobby, its a liability. me- (so is having a walrus follow you around, i hear its mating season and they can get testy when horny) well most people dont stick there fingers in a cage with signs on it that say * danger, this bird bites* on it. dag- what about kids? what do you do about that? me- I TELL THERE PARENTS NOT TO LET THEM DO THAT JUST LIKE I DID WITH YOU (YOU DUMB FUCK) dag- *evil look* me- *eviler grin* (your move bitch....) *dag walks out with out further conflict* -2 HOURS LATER- *phone rings* me-.........no....were full.....im not answering *ring,ring,ring* me- i swear the fuck to god that i will set you on fire if you say "do you have any rooms left" *ring ring ring* me- i get it...for fuck sake......*ahem* rsml dag- hey me- yes sir dag- we aint got no sheets, for 165 a night i expect to have extra sheets. me- have you checked the drawers in the.... dag- yes we looked everywhere me- (how about your wifes fat ass? huh, didnt think so) ok no problem we have them down here in the office. dag- run me up a set *hangs up* me-.....dafuq? FUCK YOU! *goes back to reading "the fall of five" and eating m&m's* 30 MINS LATER *dag walks in* dag- hey, wheres my sheets? i thought i told you to run them up to me me- im sorry i must have forgot (FUCK YOU AND YOUR SHEETS) *dags family walks in, goes to the pool to swim* dag- you mean i have to actually come down to get the sheets i need? me-im sorry for the trouble but im the only one here right now and cant leave the desk dag- fine....ill get the sheets later then. *dag walks out to the pool* -later that day_ me- *looking at the security cams in the pool area* ....und her vee hove zee megestic hoomp back whale in ur natural habilitat. und watch as shee floots gracafully true ze wotur......*phone rings*....damn it! thats was a spot on Jacques Cousteau impression! *anwers phone* me- front desk guest- yes my daughter was just down there and she went to the ladies room and she said it was so dirty that she felt like she needed a shower me-(oh no...thats not good...no no no no no!) im sorry mam i will go and look into that right now guest- she said it was like a wild animal was in there me-.....O.O (the shebeast!) yes mam i wil....... guest- she says it was everywher me- mam guest- the nastiest me- maaaam guest- like a bomb went of me- MAM! guest- yes? me- ill take care of that. guest- ok thank you me- *click!* me-..... this can only mean one thing.....the shebeast....she took a duce! *gets up to check bathroom, upon entering venting area im hit with a fragrance of shit so foul that im sure that it could make satan himself say "GAWD DAYUM!"* me- holy fuckers! *opens womens room door* me-....O.O.....mother of god...... *im not sure who or what was in there but this is what i imagin happened* Poultrygeist Night of the Chicken Dead fat guy crapping - YouTube me- im sooooo not cleaning this up...... *locks doors and goes home*

[astudyinfic]

Clear Conscience || 3x03 ficlet

SHs3e3:  After talking with Maryse, there is an important phone call Alec has to make.

A/N:  Lots of bad parent feels and Alec unloading on Robert. If those are issues for you, probably best to skip this chapter.

Crossposted on AO3

Alec waited until everyone was gone before he made the phone call.  He didn’t think anyone would try to stop him but it was something he had to do on his own.  This was his issue to deal with, no one else's.

The person on the other line picked up after three rings.  “Los Angeles Institute, Robert speaking.”

The detached, professional tone almost had Alec coming unglued but he took a deep breath and replied.  “Dad. It’s Alec.”

“Alec, so you heard about my transfer.  It’s much warmer here in Los Angeles than in New York but  a change of scenery is always nice.” He sounded so pleased as if this were a promotion and not a punishment.  A punishment that was entirely unfair.

Letting out a slow breath, Alec steadied himself, knowing what was to come.  “Do you have any shame at all? Do you care what is happening to the rest of your family or are you just happy that it isn’t you?”

“Alexander, I don’t know what you are talking about.”

“Where would you like me to start?  Your daughter, the child you have always preferred over the rest of us, is recovering from a Yin Fen addiction and you couldn’t even be bothered to stop by and see if she was okay.  She asked about you, during the withdrawals. Asked if you were coming. I told her you were because it was crueler than the truth that you cared more about your mistress and your position than your child suffering.  She still hoped you would come see her until we found out about your transfer. Now she’s trying to move on, knowing just how cowardly her father really is.”

He heard the sharp intake of breath on the other line, the hissed, “Alec, you can’t speak to me like that.  I am your father.”

“No, you aren’t.  Because a father would be there for all of us.  A father would have been there to help defend Jace against the allegations the Clave threw at him when Aldertree took control of the Institute.  You would have been here to help him instead of leaving him to the dogs. You are the best father he has ever known, which isn’t saying much because the other one was Valentine.

“Or are you talking about how you are a father to Max?  The one whose rune ceremony you missed because you were too busy with whoever it was you fell in love with back in Idris.  Or is she in Los Angeles with you now? Actually, I don’t care. Don’t answer that because neither of you is worth my concern anymore.”

Alec’s heart raced, all the things he’d been bottling up over the past couple weeks coming out in a rush as he unloaded it all on Robert.  Not that he believed his father cared about anything but himself but Alec wanted to remind him just what he’d sacrificed to get where he is.

“I could ask you if you cared about me but we both know that answer.  No matter what I did, it was never good enough for you. You might have tried to be supportive when I came out but then you compared what I had with Magnus to your affair and I realized, you don’t understand and you aren’t trying to.  You are comparing something torrid and sleazy to the best thing that ever happened to me. Better than being promoted to Head of the Institute. Better than being asked to be on the Council. Magnus is making me a better man, supporting me and helping me grow.  All you ever did was tell me I would never be enough.”

“Alec, I...”

Interrupting him once more, Alec all but yelled, “No, I told you that you just have to listen!”  His father didn’t get to explain himself. He had twenty years to do so and never bothered, so why should Alec listen now?

“But that isn’t even what I needed to talk to you about.  You know you were an awful father. Deep down you know it.  But for a while, you and mom. I thought you were soul mates growing up.  I thought that it was you and mom against the world. You never gave any sign that there was trouble between you.  And I understand that some people must fall out of love, and I get that. But instead of doing the right thing, getting a divorce and moving on with your lives, you cheated on her instead.  You decided that your gratification was more important than your wife or your children’s feelings. You decided you were more important than us.  And I can’t forgive you for that.  I can’t forgive you for what you did to her and what you continue to do to her.

“Mom is being deruned, dad.  They are banishing her as a traitor.  And I understand that what she did was horrific and it will be awhile before I can come to terms with that, but you were right there with her.  I don’t care if she recruited you. You could have said no. Instead, you went along with everything, you killed innocent people, and you get away with it.  Mom, on the other hand, is losing everything. Her home, her job, possibly even her life. You know as well as I do that Shadowhunters who have been deruned don’t survive long.  This is the woman you loved and married. This is the woman who is the mother of your children. This is the woman who you have spent the better part of thirty years of your life with.  And you are turning the other way when they sign her death warrant because you are just relieved that it isn’t you.”

Alec knew there were tears in his eyes, that he should probably stop but Robert needed to hear this.  He needed to know just how horrible he was and he needed to hear it now because Alec had no intention of ever speaking to him again.

“Alec, you don’t understand.  The time in the Circle, it was...  There wasn’t anything I could do. I knew it was wrong but I couldn’t stop it.  I was just there to...”

“Save it, Dad.  I don’t want to hear your excuses.  The fact of the matter is, that you are a coward and you always have been.  And right now, you are sacrificing your wife and your children’s mother so you can live a happy life on the coast and never have to think about this again.”

With a deep breath, he continued, “I’m taking this to the Clave.  I am petitioning that all former members of the Circle be punished for their crimes.  If one gets deruned, you all do. It might not do any good but if I raise the issue, they will at least have to have a trial.  And when you get called up there to testify, to explain your crimes and beg for your life, I want you to know that I put you there.  I don’t want you to die, Robert. I don’t want you to be deruned because that isn’t justice, it’s revenge. But I want things to be fair, and right now they aren’t.  Nothing about this is fair. It’s just the Clave saving face and I am going to make them answer for this too.”

“They’ll strip you of your position.  Think about what you are saying.”

Alec growled, running his hand through his hair.  “I have thought about it, practically every minute since Mom told me.  I have you thought about this at all? Can you sleep at night? Is your conscience clear?”

“Alec, look, I’m sorry.  There’s nothing I can do.”

“Enjoy the rest of your life, Robert.  As long as I am in charge, you are banished from the New York Institute.  I have a very good warlock here that can make sure you never set foot inside this building again.”

His father’s voice was broken, pleading and while Alec wished he was begging for forgiveness, he knew it was that he didn’t want Alec to bring this issue up with the Clave.  “Son, this isn’t going to solve anything. It will bring the Clave down on the whole family.”

“And we won’t go down without a fight, but I can’t stand by and watch this travesty of justice.  I want a clear conscience. That is far more important to me than any position. I’ll see you at the trial.”

He disconnected and fell back into his seat.  Staring at the office around him, the one that once belonged to the man on the other line, Alec felt sick to his stomach.  He picked up his phone and dialed another number.

“Magnus?”  Even to his own ears, he sounded tired.  “I’m ready to come home. Can you make me a portal?”  A moment later, the vortex swirled open in front of him and Alec stepped through, into a place that held far happier memories than that office ever would.

[blessing-the-man]

#MotherHasHerReasons Chapter 1

Masego

"I have my reasons"   aaaghhhh

gosh that line erks me so much. She always says that to avoid talking about the things that matter to me, let alone give me a solid answer to anything I ask. Since I was old enough to talk and ask why, all I ever got was "I have my reasons". Its like its tattoed to her toungue. I know I am supposed to take her word for it and just simply accept what I'm told because parents are (a) Older and we MUST obey them and (b) they have more wisdom than us. All neaderthal reasons if you ask me, but I cannot say so loudly because tradition dictates I must not. We live in a golden age now, technology rules and fredom is the ideal we fight for us the future adults. In a time when I can google and find anything with 3 keystrokes of my mobile.

It is my sixteenth year under her guardianship, and truth be told I think the nurses swapped me in my crib and I got trapped with her. The warden of my misery, the NO lady, the woman who gave birth to me (or so I'm told, pending further investigation), my mother!. I look at her and I look at me, polar opposites, yin and yan, oil and water. Apart from a few physical features we share, the shoe size of course, if you met me and her you would think we are two strangers from two different hemisphers of this continent.

All I asked for was a birthday, a sweet sixteen, nothing wrong wth that yes? well not to dearst mother. She said instead of a proper party with my friends i can invite a FEW friends over and she is sticking around to monitor what we get up to. Ummm...yes she wants to babysit me and my friends when we are trying to party and live a little. I say no and all I get is the look. That vindictive look which says "excuse you" and you know better because behind it there is a walloping lying there. I agree and kindly ask why she has to be there, and all I get is the old stupid reason "I have my reasons"...

 Mariam

Teenagers! I cannot believe I was once that young and annoying. My sweet naive daughter wants to have a party for her sixteenth birthday. I know that means having her rowdy friends especially Neo, and if history and current events could speak they would tell you, where Neo goes comes a slew of hormone raged teen boys with throbbing loins full of lust. It is a miracle she is not pregnant yet. I really dont like her around Masego, she is a bad influence, and I cannot loose my only child to the likes of her.

My daughter comes to me all jolly (she is a teenage girl with hormones going haywire, since when is she happy to see me?). And she is a smart alec this daughter of mine. I arrive from work to find the yard swept (suspicion arises, she must have done something wrong) but I keep my thoughts to myself until I find whats wrong. She is happy to see me and greets me with a hug (so she didnt do anything wrong, she must want something). She tells me to go bath dinner will be ready soon. I ask what she is making and its her Macaroni and Mince meat dish with chopped vegetables (Thats her signature go to dish, yeah she is going to ask for something alright). I came from my bath, she tells me how she passed her monthly maths test and how she just loves it (Hold up, Masego Utlwang, my daughter who I carried for 9 months claims to love maths! the subject she endlessly complans about, this is gong to be an interesting dinner). I take a bite, its actually quite tasty, better than the terrible canned processed food they serve us at work. She asks how it tastes, I say its nice and thank her, she smiles. And midway she gives me the look of anxiety and excitement (Oh god this is going to be one of those asks like the time she wanted a ridiculously expensive cellphone for her standard 7 cause she got an A). I ask whats wrong, she says nothing...and then she let it

"Mom you know my 16th birthday is coming up right?"

"Yes I remember"

"Well instead of the family lunch we always do, I was thinking maybe a little get together with a few of my friends, and by little i mean a tiny party at that lodge, and before you say anything" she akes a breath, comes closer, now I know she is about to show me she did her homework on the subject.

"I already talked to Mr Mothusi, the owner of the lodge, and says the lodge is free that afternoon and evening, and me and my friends have saved up our pocket money so we can afford to rent out the place. We will start at two until 9pm, thats not too late. And before you say anything, its just 10 of my girlfriends, no boys, though we invted a few classmates to join us. All you have to do is sign a consent form from the Lodge and we will do the rest....please mom, pretty please"

"and what of music and foods to be eaten there"

"Thabang, the DJ guy who schools at Limko said he can provide us with music and Neo's aunt, the one who drives the GTI said she will get us drinks and food"

"I see you have everything sorted"

"Yes mom, you dont even have to lift a finger, all is sorted, you dont even have to spend a thebe, this would really be the best birthday ever"

"mmmmhh no"

"What?!" I give her the look for her comment

"Please mom, why dont you want me to have a great party?!"

"I have my reasons"

She is fuming and I see the anger hormone has been initiated now. She icks up her plate, half eaten and hurries to put it in the zinc, then storms to her bedroom. Im all alone now and well ateast the food is good and  dont have to clean-up.

I hope one day she realises the truth about all this, that Neo's aunt will bring alcohol, wouldnt be the first time, and that Thabang boy is under investigation for defilement, and Mr Mothusi is just an old HIV positive man who sleeps with these young girls in promise of fake riches. I hope my naive sweet daughter realises this once, that Im her mother and Im protecting her.