#sashimimi

[captain-space-kin]

@sashimimi-777 Funny haha’s for you

will wood and his evil twin won't wouldn't and their neutral triplet might could

[yutadori]

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[zenims]

friedsashimi > zenims !

[captain-space-kin]

@sashimimi-777

is this anything?

[yutadori]

the loneliness of being an adult is so scary there’s the reality of your friends taking on jobs that take up almost half of their day and getting eaten up by exhaustion and stress and loneliness but them also pretending that it’s not getting to them and then there’s also the reality that some friends might move away temporarily or permanently and it sucks because you can’t really say much about it because it’s their life their success their happiness and there’s the possibility that you will become a ghost in their memories as their responsibilities and priorities build and build and it’s not like you can ask to be one because . well . people don’t have Time for friendships because apparently they don’t matter more than work or relationships or school or etc etc. and then you can’t really say much about them leaving because you donttttt want to feel pathetic in begging your loved ones to not leave and you don’t want to feel selfish in stopping their lives from continuing or to stop their dreams from taking life. but it sucks because it sort of feels like it’s inevitable / like there’s a scarily high chance of the connection between you and them dwindling to the point that they possibly forget about you . most likely . or maybe you’ll keep reaching out until the weight of your own responsibilities leave you so tired that you forget what time it is or what day it is

and there’s also the unfair belief of like . how romantic relationships >>>>>>>>>>>> friendships. for some reason friendships drop significantly in importance once someone finds a person to enter a romantic relationship with and that will always be so frustrating to me that’s so unfair. you can know someone for years and years longer, but there’s a high chance that a significant other will be more significant than you. people can go weeks without contacting you but as you lie alone in your bed at night you know that they contact their significant other daily. suddenly you dont mean anything anymore . im tired i hate being an adult and the inevitability of loneliness that accompanies it 

[yutadori]

my interview.... is tomorrow ... aaa

[yutadori]

before the sptfy wrpped came out i saw people talking about their music taste being embarrassing and ive been thinking... why is what music you listen to embarrassing?? how is music embarrassing and what makes it embarrassing . its so weird and sad how it seems like ... so many things are labelled as embarrassing now. ive seen people call their interests, clothing styles, music taste, and favorite games embarrassing... why is that?? there isnt a 'superior' genre of music there isn't a type of music that you listen to that makes you embarrassing its just music!! and if it makes you happy or relaxed or if you feel understood by the lyrics of a certain song, then thats fine, thats not embarrassing at all

[yutadori]

🌸

[yutadori]

ALSOOOOOO I RECEIVED A CALL BACK AND I GOT THE BAKERY POSITION❗❓❗❓

[yutadori]

also... i want to sort of air this out once before (hopefully) not dwelling on it again 0: one of the main things at work that has been affecting me a lot is that... it doesn't feel like most of my coworkers like me u__u it ties in with my skills, which are . bad . im slow and clumsy and forgetful, which has affected my work a lot and i feel super bad T__T i try to do my best but sometimes that doesnt even feel like enough which . sucks. i think ive also been putting a lot of pressure on myself to improve as fast as possible, but i think thats just been adding to my anxiety. idk... it feels kinda sad ? to think about how my coworkers are probably fed up with me u__u

it also sucks because it's really different to my prev work place... i got along with a majority of my coworkers and i actually enjoyed being at work because of how fun our conversations were. i know that not every place is going to be the same, so i think i just have to make peace with that... and hopefully ill do better at work in 2022 and i wont get fired LOL

[yutadori]

feeling emo over being an adult again and i just... really dislike the idea that you’re supposed to be independent and that if you ask for help you’re weak like . that’s so awful we shouldn’t be expected to do everything by ourselves like that’s legiterally impossible... and expecting people to do that is so unfair like i hate that doing everything on your own has been so glamorized... like during the middle of june i had to call my insurance + other medical places to schedule and ask for info about medical procedures i had to do and like... it was So Much and when i’ve asked my family for help with insurance info in the past, they either answer with ‘i don’t know’, ‘figure it out yourself’, or ‘youre an adult you’re supposed to know this...?’ like i’m literally only 23.... and it’s ridiculous that you’re expected to know how to do things on your own just because you’re an adult, when you’ve hardly been provided any guidance....? 

yeah so that was a really stressful time having to learn all these terms i barely understood and the costs and feeling frustrated that i was dealing with these health issues in the first place and it was just so overwhelming so i called my friend afterwards because i was just So Stressed about it and i was telling her how i’ve been dealing with insurance info and medical shid on my own for the past five years or so and that im tired !! of not having any guidance because honestly it’s soooo overwhelming and confusing and scary because then if i fuck up my family gets mad at me which Barely makes sense because . well . this is going to happen because i dont know anything about this . im literally like . barely an adult . and it was a really upsetting conversation because she proceeded to tell me that one of her friends has to schedule their own appointments too and learn things on their own and that ‘this is what being an adult is like’ and i just . it was the Last thing i needed to hear in that moment . it’s unfair why does being an adult mean being left to do things on your ownnnnn why is it that people judge you or give you a Look if you dont know how to do something wtfff

[yutadori]

gege giving utahime a ribbon in her hair is one of the best decisions they've ever made thank you so much

[yutadori]

im finally watching cherry maho hehe :3

[yutadori]

i feel like im in middle school again with all the shoujo im watching / reading gfdsg first it was tonari no kaibatsu kun, then kono oto tomare, and now kimi ni todoke ^__^

[yutadori]

thinking about trans megumi and im feeling emo