#sam tag 🌌

[tricky-pockets]

running into a trans girl while you're out and about makes the entire miserable errand worth it, whatever it was. like glancing upward at just the right time to see a shooting star. I spot a trans flag and it sincerely ceases to matter that the bus is crowded and it rained unexpectedly and my shoes are soaked through and my headphones are dead. I am happy to be on that specific bus on that specific day, because you're there too.

[tricky-pockets]

candy jar like my grandma's except filled with melatonin gummies

coupla journals and a pen

fancy little pill box with emergency meds in it

fancy plant mister with rose water in it because sometimes it's nice to fall asleep on pillows that smell a little flowery

pop-up Valentine's Day card from the bf, with little hummingbirds on it

regular pillbox (Thursday) (so I don't accidentally take my adderall twice in the same morning. again.)

large orange pharmacy pill bottle with 'good vibes' stickers on it, containing the panic attack meds

large mason jar of kool-aid with a shiny rainbow metal straw in it

a tiny copy of the Nicomachean Ethics (Aristotle) that I found in the local used/antique bookstore

assorted candies and vape junk

i think what’s on a person’s nightstand is very telling so reblog this and put in the tags the things you have on your nightstand

[tricky-pockets]

fucking adhd. I have to run a con on my own brain to get anything done.

[tricky-pockets]

I'm curious:

rb for sample size, you know the drill.

also, please tell me your local stock comments for small talk about the weather.

[tricky-pockets]

We all know the "if there was a magic button" exercise for questioning your gender, but I kinda wonder if it'd be helpful to turn the question inside out.

like "There's a magic button that gives you $50 but also permanently bars you from any kind of transition. If you push it, you will never be referred to with new pronouns or a new name, you can never take hormones or have surgery, and you can't do voice training. You will always and irrevocably be seen as the gender you were assigned."

if any of those conditions gave you a little twinge of sadness to think about, maybe keep asking questions. i love you 💖

[tricky-pockets]

*stares at my prized copy of the Iliad (in the bed) and assortment of edged weapons (beside the bed; includes a machete)* man, queer people just have not changed at all huh.

if you ever feel like you’re too obsessed with something, just remember that, according to plutarch, alexander the great slept with his prized copy of the iliad under his pillow alongside a dagger, presumably so that he could murder anyone who tried to take his copy of the iliad away from him

[tricky-pockets]

My boyfriend keeps looking at me like 😐... 🥚 when I tell a story that happened pre-transition and it gets funnier every time, so I present to you, in no particular order,

egg shit that SOMEHOW did not tip me off:

Played in numerous d&d campaigns in college; didn't play a lady character even once.

Invented a male persona so I could sub in when my boyfriend's frat was a man short for Beer Olympics.

Maintained that male persona and later pledged the frat.

Was regularly the only girl invited to Boys' Night because "you're a guy like at least 40% of the time anyway".

Planned elaborate costumes every halloween; never once went as a lady or anything lady-adjacent.

Actually won 'Sexiest costume (male)' at a theatre event.

Regularly auditioned for male roles in theatre productions. Landed a small part in an all-female production of As You Like It as Silvius and was never more psyched to be in a play.

Watched Ouran High School Host Club straight through by myself; felt weird and immediately chopped off all my hair about it.

Messed around with my college boyfriend while in boymode, using masc pronouns and an assumed name.

80% of my wardrobe in college was hand-me-downs from that same boyfriend.

Went as a wizard for halloween multiple times as a kid, with the beard and everything; never once considered being a witch.

Invented a male persona in middle/high school just for going to hockey games with my uncle.

Made out with more than one gay dude who said "I don't know what it is about you, I'm usually never attracted to women."

Ended up effectively living in my buddy Jake's dorm room every single year, no matter what my official living arrangements were.

Started wearing Old Spice in high school because a boy I liked wore it and I liked how he smelled. Pulled the same move in college with a particular brand of shampoo.

Wore the men's jeans+high-impact sports bra combo in an astounding number of photos.

And I didn't know! My oblivious ass sat there in my boyfriend's old pants with my titties tied down, calling myself Jack, playing a male illusionist for the 76th time in a d&d game with my frat brothers and making plans to go to Boys' Night afterwards for Streetfighter and beer, and I didn't figure it out.

[tricky-pockets]

yeah yeah the mortifying ordeal of being known, I know. look, sometimes it's not being known that's the problem, it's that generally you do have to be perceived first. which, of course, is a wet ham sandwich of an experience with little to recommend it.

it'd be much more pleasant to just arise in someone's mind like a. a whatsit. an epiphany. no faffing about with perception, skip directly to knowledge.

[tricky-pockets]

"transmascs vs transfems" online infighting is so fucking weird. my interactions with transfems irl are like... I went to your art showing and bought a print and we talked about art and tattoos. We had board game night with your dad. You were in a play with my boyfriend and then invited us to your birthday party. You helped me through a panic attack at Pride. You brought me to the trans/GNC support group thing when I was an egg. We watched each other's backs at protests. You came out a decade after college and I messaged you to say congrats, same hat, I'm trans too, and we caught up and it was nice. You spoke at a rally and I cried. We commiserated about not finding clothes that fit and I offered to tailor some things for you. We went to karaoke night and you sang Sinatra and killed it.

real normal/positive shit. I'm not trying to dismiss anyone's experiences, online or irl. just trying to maintain some perspective, I guess, because it's real easy to look at tumblr and get the impression that we're beefing all the time.

[tricky-pockets]

Any failure of the body is ultimately a moral failure of its keeper. Any unauthorized use of the body is also a moral failure of its keeper.

The body's ability to work, to not be accosted by the police, and to perform a gender- and age-appropriate role in a family unit must be maintained; this is called 'health'. The body's ability to not be in pain is irrelevant as long as its health (as defined above) is maintained.

The keeper's motivation to use the body correctly and refrain from using it incorrectly must also be maintained. This is called 'mental health' and its value is in preserving the health of the body. Failure to maintain mental health is a danger to society because it is contagious—a keeper's lack of correct motivation can spread and lead to the unhealth of many bodies.

Unhealth may not always be visible in the appearance of the body, but deviance in appearance always reflects unhealth.

I am by no means an expert but it seems to me “your body does not belong to you” is a major theme of right wing authoritarianism and, interestingly, modern USAmerican thinking. This underpins so much from abortion to forcing kids to hug their relatives. Your body belongs to the state, or God, or your husband, or your boss, or your doctor. Everything from trans and gay liberation to forcing autistic people to look in your eyes to making cashiers stand for no reason. Your body does not belong to you, but taking care of your body is your responsibility and your responsibility alone, and if you fail in some way, you deserve the consequences.

[tricky-pockets]

hey, do you guys know about ghostpipes? found out about these things recently and I gotta say, that shit is spooky as hell

that's a plant! I thought it was some kinda weird mushroom at first because it was growing in a ring around a tree, but nope. Plant. No chlorophyll. Plant.

these motherfuckers, okay. So, the tree and the fungus are doing fine; they're in a comfy mycorrhizal association. Tree root system all tangled up with the mycelium. Tree gets extra water and minerals, mushroom gets food that the tree made. Pretty good arrangement.

but the ghost pipes are parasitic. they hook their hairy little roots up to where the fungus is connected to the tree and steal the food. They can grow in the dark because they're not doing their own photosynthesis.

the ones I saw had a faint blueish tint that I thought was rather pretty, but apparently they're sometimes called 'corpse plant'. Very creepy. I love them.

[tricky-pockets]

A small act of goodness in an overwhelmingly grim circumstance is easy to dismiss, saying "well, what difference would it make?" This is backwards. Under those circumstances, the smallest kindness is a miracle. It's not a drop in the ocean. It's a candle in the darkness, and its light shines out all the brighter because it was kindled where it was most desperately needed.

[imthedr3amer]

📖 Fic share: SPN, Wincest, Explicit 🌌

Rating: Explicit

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: M/M

Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005)

Relationship: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester

Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, John Winchester

Additional Tags: Wincest - Freeform, Incest, Alcohol, Reminiscing, discuss Dean being with others, Pining, resolved angst, Sam tells a little lie, Underage Drinking, First Kiss Together, First Time Together, Hand Job, top!dean, Bottom!Sam, Dean Winchester uses his words [Extra tag by @imthedr3amer: Anal Sex]

Language: English

Collections: Wincest Reverse Bang

Stats: Published: 2022-06-26 Words: 5,701

A Love as Bright as the Stars

by ncdover1285

Summary: “You know, I think about that time at the lake a lot. It was weird because you never really acted your age. That was probably down to how we grew up too. It had always been us, you and me, and I couldn’t help but notice that things started changing after that day.” Dean had his door open and his leg resting on the ground. He turned so he was able to look out at the little fire pit he had made earlier.

“I think I’ve been in love with you since then. I just didn’t want to admit it. You were only sixteen and that still seems all kinds of wrong to me, but it wasn’t like that ya know. It wasn’t a sex thing back then, it was just about us being us. It was about not having to hide myself from you, even when I had to with everyone else.” Sam leaned towards his brother, who was now turned completely sideways, looking out the door.

[Don't forget to toss a kudos and a comment to the author, who is also here on Tumblr as @ncdover1285. 🫶]

[tricky-pockets]

I was bi the whole time, but gender was weirder. Cis girl → "probably nonbinary, idk" (variously expressed as:

- "dude, but only part-time"

- "half dude pretending to be a lady, half lady pretending to be a dude"

- "girl, but not emotionally attached to my gender"

- "everything feels like drag but that kinda works for me")

with occasional flashes of "IT'S JUST A WEIRD SEX THING DON'T READ INTO IT"

Then during the prime egg years, I cycled between agender ("idk what the fuck gender feels like, so I guess I just don't have one") and gender-agnostic ("I might have a gender but I have no definitive way to tell what it is").

And now I'm a trans man. I still vibes with nonbinary, but mostly in a political type of way (in that I don't think gender *is* binary, regardless of whether my specific gender identity fits into that framework).

Once in a while I wonder if I'm gay, but that lasts about 40 minutes or until someone reminds me of every time I've walked face-first into something because I saw a pretty lady.

LGBTQ+ folk what was your gender/sexuality pipeline?

[deedala]

🚑✨Weekly Tag Wednesday🪄💫

Hello Wednesday friends! I hope you don't mind but I decided to be CrEaTiVe and try something different today. I hope it's okay!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 🚑💨 Get in bitch, we're going on a mystical adventure through space, time, and reality. (in ian and mickey's ambulance of course) ✨ Name: Deanna🌱

Zodiac Sign: Scorpio♏

Personality type in enneagram, myers-briggs, or both: 2w1 and INFP 🌊

Before we hit the road, what snack are you gonna bring for our trip? popcorn!🍿

Navigator gets to pick the music so what song are you turning on? i believe in a thing called love by the darkness to get us PUMPED 🎶💥 What is a universe from a fantasy tv show you would like to visit? Pushing Daisies 🌼 it is so pretty and aesthetic i wanna eat some of ned's pie!!

And what about a fantasy movie? is it cheating to say the warcraft movie? (i ask myself in my own tag game) 😆 i wanna wander around stormwind and darnassus and ironforge and actually you know what im going on a whole gd tour of all three continents

Okay, how about a scifi tv show? ok since we're only visiting and not staying forever...The Expanse so i can ride in a space ship and explore the space stations🌌

And a scifi movie universe? i would like to go play around in the Valerian (2017) universe please that movie was so pretty 🚀

Any other tv show or movie universes you'd like to swing by before we move on? gosh...ok we gotta do a star trek. i think i wanna go to picard era star trek, good era, cool looking shit 🌠

Okay hold on to your butts we're switching gears to fanfic universes. Tell me which fanfic universe we're visiting first? i wanna visit cooperative gameplay by grayola universe so i can go watch all of mick milk and ians youtube videos 😆 📺

Cool, do you have one more you'd like to stop at before we head home? taking a hard left turn into dragon age land but the modern thedas in message sent by aicosu would be extremely cool to visit i think 🧝‍♀️🤳

Alright, on our way out of fanfic land you get to snag some tropes to bring home and apply to your own life, think fast! soulmates or enemies to lovers // coffee shop or flower shop // fake relationship or slow burn // amnesia or time loop // body swap or miscommunication // love triangle or arranged marriage // sharing a bed or drunken confession

Wow okay, hope those tropes work out for you!! Our adventure has finally come to an end, where in the world am I dropping you off? i dont live there anymore but please dump me in seattle thanks ���

and now to tag some nuggets to try out this game if you wanna @michellemisfit @too-schoolforcool @darlingian @heymrspatel @jrooc @mybrainismelted @suchagallabitch @sam-loves-seb @mmmichyyy @gardenerian @juliakayyy @sleepyfacetoughguy @gallawitchxx @lingy910y @sickness-health-all-that-shit @callivich @auds-and-evens @tsuga-of-mars @mickeysgaymom @crossmydna @tanktopgallavich @gofionaonthem @palepinkgoat @transmickey @rereadanon @sirrudo @creepkinginc @thepupperino @metalheadmickey @suzy-queued @grossmickey @ardent-fox @mikhailoisbaby @energievie @7x10mickey @vintagelacerosette @purplemagpie and you whoever wants to play here is you -> @💟

[heymrspatel]

✨j o y l i s t✨

i was tagged by cutie sweetums @howlinchickhowl to create a joy list! 🥰

following my little drill of always trying to reach 10! lessss gooo!

♡ turtle neck sweaters with the neck part wide enough that i can tuck my chin in to feel cozy (picture me sitting at work with my sweater up to my nose) 🥶

♡ pine scented candles 🌲

♡ seeing the snow fall while i'm tucked away safe & warm at home ❄️

♡ when i draw my eyeliner so straight, so even. and also when the mascara goes on so smoothly and fans out my lashes just right. you know? if i don't highlight and put the focus on my eyes i die. 👁️👁️

♡ when the sun hits the suncatchers on my window and casts rainbows over my apartment 🌈

♡ movie nights 🥰

♡ i've started painting my nails again! i used to love doing it and then covid hit and i just stopped. it's nice to do something that i used to enjoy again! right now they're a very very dark, almost black, sparkly blue 🌌

♡ the smell of clean laundry! and also laundry warm from the dryer!

♡ sleeping. going to bed without an alarm set for the next day. waking up feeling rested. doing that big stretch that momentarily makes you deaf and blind and gives you a seizure. big yawn. slow blinks. face nuzzle. i'm a little cat. good morning ☀️

♡ a lil bat that makes me laugh very much 💙🩵

i'll tag @whatthebodygraspsnot @whatwouldmickeydo @metalheadmickey @gallawitchxx @rereadanon @deedala @sleepyfacetoughguy @darlingian @crossmydna @thisdivorce @too-schoolforcool @transmickey @mybrainismelted @creepkinginc @mickeysgaymom @lupeloto @juliakayyy @lingy910y @tanktopgallavich @vintagelacerosette @jrooc @sam-loves-seb if you guys want to play. if not, this is just me placing a tiny star sticker on your cheek ⭐️