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Adventure of a Lifetime: Chapter Four

You can find the first three chapters of Adventure of a Lifetime HERE. Sorry about the cliffhanger in the last chapter, I’m evil. I know.

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Fuck. How do I answer this? It's the dreaded moment I've faced doing this whole thing alone since we moved here. It's why I hated the Mommy groups. It's why I got awkward and abandoned the playdates. I didn't know where to even begin when answering this. I could lie, say that he was in LA and he saw the kids when he could. No one here would know. I could tell the truth but then I'd have to deal with all of them making that sad face everyone has been making at me for the last year.

"Umm..."

"You don't have to answer that. I get it. Single parenthood is awkward and people think that they can just ask every inappropriate and awkward question. I was out of line."

"You weren't. It's just a hard question to answer and something that honestly I haven't discussed with a single person since I moved here. We moved here in a really quick manner. And I haven't even felt okay opening up to anyone about it. But it's okay. I need to. It's been 342 days. It's time to feel okay talking about it. The kids had a wonderful Dad. One of the greatest people I've ever met. He was kind and funny and he loved them endlessly." I took a deep breath. "And their Mom. She was my soulmate. We did everything together. She was probably the most incredible human that ever existed. She knew just how to make you feel settled and safe in any situation, which was great because I'm anxious all the time. She loved being a Mom more than anything and she was the happiest I'd ever seen her." I remembered watching them walk out the door of my condo after dropping off the kids with me. They were so in love and ready to go celebrate their anniversary. The image of them kissing as the elevator across from my door closed is burned into my mind. I felt a tear slip down my cheek and quickly tried to brush it away. As he did every morning Axel reached his hands out and put them on my cheeks. "The kids aren't biologically mine. I was Ellie's godmother and just crazy Auntie Charlie with her cats. Until July 1st last year at 2:08 in the morning. My best friend and her husband died. They had been out celebrating their anniversary and surviving the first three weeks of parenting both of these babies. They got home and walked in on a home invasion in progress. The police told me that they died instantly so I at least feel okay that they weren't in pain for long. And honestly, that night was the happiest I'd seen them since their wedding night."

"Holy shit. I'm sorry. That is terrible. You really didn't have to tell me that if you didn't want to."

"It's okay. It's actually a bit of a relief. I haven't talked about Sam with anyone other than my family, our third musketeer Alex, or Sam's parents. They live in Reno, it's why I moved here. I wanted the kids to grow up close to some of their biological family. Sam and her husband Michael were both only children and his parents had both passed away."

"So from no desire to have kids to raising your best friends' two kids in an instant."

"Yup. I was babysitting the kids that night. We didn't want them to go back to the house and I couldn't have them in my one-bedroom condo for long. Alex and I sat down with Sam's Mom and Dad to go through the will and both of the kids came to me. I'd agreed to it offhand at one point when Sam was pregnant with Ellie and was serious about it but never imagined it would actually happen. You don't actually think something will happen to them both at the same time. Like maybe one of them but the other one would still be around. But I lost them both in one night and gained the kids."

"You are an incredible friend. For them to have selected you to be the guardian for the kids is a big deal."

"Yeah, I am constantly afraid I'm failing and that ghost Sam is going to pop up and yell at me for something like not giving her kid enough cake, she had a sweet-tooth. She also would totally haunt my ass if that was a thing. She was my writing partner. We knew the way the other person's brain worked."

"Writing partner?"

"Yeah, we met at USC at orientation. Turns out we had the same major. We went through undergrad and grad school at USC together. We write film scores. Or I guess I write film scores. Or I used to. In the last year, I've done the score for two short films but I'm in the process of doing my first full score without Sam which is weird."

"So how did you get from LA to here?"

"Like I mentioned Sam's Mom and Dad live in Reno. Our house was she and Michael's vacation home. The house we live in was theirs. Their will left a trust for me to take care of the kids, pay for their schooling, and cover our living expenses. With Sam having grown up in Reno they wanted to get a vacation home near her parents. They bought the place here shortly after they got married. The intention was to eventually make it their permanent home. With both of their work, they'd just to go LA whenever they needed to or Michael would be off wherever his current project was. The apartment above the garage was meant for me. Michael was convinced from the moment he met me that I was Peter Pan." I laughed remembering the first time he told me this. He was so serious about it and didn't break until the very end when he threw glitter on me like it was pixie dust and screamed at me to FLY! "I was never growing up and he wanted to make sure I always had a roof over my head if I needed it and a space for Sam and me to work together when we needed it. The house is way too big for the four of us living there right now. Having my little brother here for a while will help the house feel more alive."

"I'm sorry you've had to go through all of this but from what I've observed of Ellie and just today watching you with both of them, you've taken to motherhood well."

"Thank you. It was an awkward start. Never expecting to have kids and suddenly having an infant and a kid getting ready to start school was the biggest life change I could've imagined. Doing it not only alone but without my best friend made it even harder."

"Did they ever find who did it?"

"They did. His trial actually starts this summer. I'm trying to decide if I'm going back for the whole trial or if it's healthier for me to stay here. I've been working with the prosecutor back in LA. They want me there for a victim impact statement to speak on behalf of the kids. They've given me the option of doing it through a pre-recorded video or through a letter. I just worry about taking the kids back to LA because we don't really have anywhere to stay. I still have my place but I don't have anywhere to take them that will fit all of us comfortably."

"Did you sell their house?" I nodded.

"I did. Well, as soon as the LAPD was done with it. The trust they left would've only covered one of the properties. I couldn't imagine living in LA in that house. It was hard enough going in there to get the kids things. I needed to be able to take care of them so I had to go when it was still a crime scene. Honestly, it's an image I'm never going to be able to get out of my head. It was one of the most horrific things I've ever seen. They both worked in the film industry so we are fairly certain it wasn't a random home invasion but that they were targeted. I knew in my heart that Sam and Michael would've wanted the kids to be here and close to Sam's parents."

"That makes complete sense. I don't know that I could imagine living in a house with that kind of history. Especially with the kids. You have to do your best to take care of them. Do you get back to LA often?"

"I've been back to LA on my own when they take the kids for a long weekend or something. We all went to Stanford a couple of weeks ago to see Tony graduate from college. But I haven't taken the kids back to LA. I mean Ellie knows that Mommy and Daddy are gone and never coming back. We told her that a very bad man took them from us but they are safe now. I'll tell her the whole story at some point but at 5 she didn't need that. Axel won't have a single memory of his parents. I'm the only Mom this kid will ever remember." I hugged him tightly to my chest. "Someday I'll take them back there. Show them the places that mean the most. The place where their father proposed to their mother. The studio she and I practically lived in. Where they got married. But for now, this is home. Sam's parents opted to have them cremated so there's not a grave there to go visit which makes it a bit easier. We are having a memorial for them here at the end of the month to spread their ashes. Alex and her family are coming out along with my sister and her family. We are going to do exactly what Sam would want which is celebrate them. The memorial service when they died, she would've fuckin' hated it. I was too much of a mess to do anything for it really and so was Alex. Sam's parents weren't in LA when we needed to start planning it so my mother took over. I love my Mom but she's a mess, she's rarely even in LA anymore so it was weird. She planned something so opposite of Sam that honestly if she'd attended her own funeral she would've laughed her ass off at it. I did manage to get the ability to play a song the two of us wrote together for their wedding. I hadn't sung it since that day. I barely made it through but I did it. Sorry, I'm rambling. Outside of family and Alex, I haven't talked about Sam in a year. You opened the flood gates evidently."

"It's okay. Grief does weird things to us. You're doing a great job. If you want to keep talking about Sam you can."

"No, she'd yell at me for crying about her. Especially when I'm supposed to be making a new friend and playing with the kids. So tell me about you. What do you do for fun? I mean your life can't all be acting."

"It's not, that's for sure. When I bought this place it meant I had some projects to do, I spend time without Eva doing that. I'm also a musician."

"I noticed the baby grand. Living in LA I walked into a LOT of homes where that was purely for show but I figured that wasn't the case here."

"No, it's not. I am actually getting ready to go finish filming the last of stuff for the next Avengers movie before too long and I'm working on a film soundtrack actually."

"A film soundtrack, huh?"

"Yeah, I've voiced a character in an animated film and they are letting me do the music for it," he said. "Finally something all the kids in my life can see."

"That's freaking awesome. I'm just going to tell you, working on music for a film is one of the greatest feelings. I mean I write other music. But crafting the sound and then sitting in a theater and watching how my music gets integrated into a film is just an incredibly special feeling. You're going to have this almost otherworldly experience when you see the finished product with an audience. It's the greatest feeling in the world."

"I'm excited to understand that better." He smiled at me. "Looks like the Axe Man was tired." I looked down to see my little guy asleep with his head on my chest.

"Yeah. Thankfully this kid finally figured out how to sleep for more than a few hours at a time. I occasionally get a full night of sleep these days."

"As much as I want more kids I don't miss the middle of the night feedings, the sleep regression, the teething."

"Fuck it's a nightmare I never prepared for adequately."

"Mom! Are you getting the in the pool with us?" Ellie called.

"I will in a minute Ellie Bellie. I gotta get the Axe Man somewhere that he can sleep."

"I set up the pack and play that's still hanging around here in the bedroom down here. I also grabbed the old baby monitor I had so we can take it outside with us." Jeremy stood up and came over to take Axel from my arms where he was laying on my chest while I laid on a lounger. Once I stood up he led me through the house as I grabbed the bag of stuff for Axel. Jeremy gently laid Axel into the pack and play while I found the things I knew soothed him back to sleep if he woke up mid-nap. I kissed my fingers and pressed them against his forehead. "Ellie calls you Mom."

"She does. That was her choice. We talked about it for a while. I'd always been Auntie Charlie. When she started school she got anxious about the whole 'living with her Aunt thing'. I am their legal guardian and she knows she can still call me Charlie, she does sometimes. But the Mom thing is becoming more common, I think she wants to feel like the girls in school with her. It makes me happy and sad all at once."

"I'd imagine." He turned on the baby monitor and we left the room so Axel could sleep. "Alright, girls are the parents allowed in the pool now?"

"Yes, Daddy," Ava replied. I took my dress off and went to climb in the water. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught Jeremy pull his shirt off. I felt the breath catch in my lungs. I needed to remind myself that I was here for Ellie and not to drool over Ava's Dad all day. I headed to the stairs and entered most of the way before going completely under and swimming up right under Ellie picking her up on my shoulders. She squealed with delight. Her hands grabbed onto my head as she bent over to look into my eyes.

"I am having so much fun," she said quietly to me.

"I'm so glad Ellie Bellie. You deserve to have fun." I watched as Jeremy ran and jumped over Ava and into the pool. He splashed all of us and what followed was the sweetest sound in the world. Loud, roaring laughter from the girls. I held my breath and sunk down into the water letting Ellie get off of my shoulders. Jeremy came up underneath Ava lifting her up and throwing her a bit further into the water. Her laughter climbed louder and turned to a scream.

"Ava Berlin Renner, I'm coming to get you," Jeremy declared as he started to swim towards his daughter who was still giggle-screaming and trying to swim away from her dad. It was far too cute to watch. They shared so much joy between them and it was so visible. Even in the brief time I'd spent with them today, I could tell that they loved each other more than anything and that love was the easiest thing they'd ever done. That joy, laughter, and happiness were the tone of this house and their lives. Life wasn't always filled with joy and laughter for us. Most of the time it was filled with laughter that came from tears or lead to tears. I was watching these two beautiful humans that were now mine grow and knowing that the two most important people in their lives were missing out on the first steps, the first day of school, and would miss every other first and major life moment. I felt guilty every day for loving this role I was given because the circumstances were shitty and honestly, I'd never wanted this roll. It felt horrible to enjoy motherhood when it wasn't really mine. It was stolen from my best friend whose entire goal in life had been to be a mother and mine had been to make music that inspired people, set the scene for the greatest shot of a director or actors lifetime and changed the way people looked at female composers. I took a deep breath before hugging Ellery close to me.

"I love you, Ellie Bellie." I kissed her temple.

"I love you too, Mom." The tears that were burning the back of my eyes had clearly become visible. "Please don't cry. Today is going to be the best day ever."

"I know baby girl. I just don't want you to feel like today you have to say, Mom. Ava's Daddy knows."

"You are my Mom." God I hated how grown up this little girl had been forced to be. I kissed her again before looking her deep in the eyes.

"Do you remember that backflip we practiced last summer?" She nodded excitedly. "Want to try it?"

"Yes!!" I grabbed her two little feet in my hands as she put her hands on my shoulders. She bent forward, pressing her forehead against mine.

"Are you ready?" She nodded. "On the count of three. One...two...three." She plugged her nose as I pushed her feet out of the water sending her up into the air and watched as she started to tilt, tucking her knees to her chest and doing a backflip.

"Whoa!" Ava yelled as Ellie came out of the water. "That was so cool. Where did you learn that?"

"My Mom and I practiced last summer at my old house. We don't have a pool here so we haven't tried in a while."

"You did so great!" I said as I high-fived her.

"That was so cool, Ellie," Jeremy said as he also high-fived her. She was pretty proud of herself. The girls started to goof around with Jeremy as I floated on my back for a little while. Their laughter slightly being drowned out by the water. I felt relaxed, weightless, and like if I tried hard enough I could fall asleep like this until I felt my watch buzz on my wrist. I held it up in the air as the little green text bubble appeared with my brother's name below it.

I'm losing my mind. I'm packing my car and leaving today. Is that ok?

"Crap," I said out loud. I flipped over and swam to the edge climbing out of the pool and walking over to my cell phone. I knew texting him back would be useless so I called.

"Hey sis," he answered.

"What's going on, Tony?"

"I just can't take it. They don't understand the pressure they are putting on me. I'm going to crack if I don't leave. I got up this morning to Mom on the patio with one of her 'old friends.' It was that crazy bitch whose husband is on the Board of Trustees at Harvard. I was ambushed with talk of law school and my future and I just can't take it. I haven't really bothered unpacking since I got back from school so I'm just loading everything into my car and coming out. That's okay right?"

"It's fine but are you sure this is what you want? My life isn't what it used to be like, T."

"I know. You have the kids. You're doing the music stuff on your own. You and Savannah could honestly use my help."

"You can stay at my condo if that is a better plan for you."

"It's not," he replied. "I stayed there last weekend. She showed up Sunday morning at 7:30 to pick me up for church. Since when does my mother go to church?"

"I don't know. Probably since I became a mother. Her technically being a grandmother of five terrifies her. I also bet it was just so she could see if you were living in my drug den because you know your mother thinks I'm a drug addict or something."

"You're one of the most responsible people I know. But honestly, I can't do it. I can't be in the same city as her. Especially when Dad is as busy as he is right now. She's everywhere. I need out."

"Just drive careful. It's not a horrible drive but it's long to do alone. I've done it enough to know that. Also, there are a few good places to stop on the road and some to avoid. I'll send you the cheat sheet I have saved on my phone. Oh, and what do you want for dinner?"

"Well, I want Grandma's meatballs but I know you can't make that today."

"I can make it tomorrow. How does pizza sound tonight? Your niece and nephew are counting on pizza."

"Sounds perfect."

"Send me updates, be safe, and I'll see you tonight."

"See you tonight, sis. Love you."

"Love you too, T." I hung up the phone and slumped down onto the lounger I'd been sitting on earlier.

"Everything okay?" Jeremy called from the pool.

"Yeah, just not sure we'll be able to stay as long as we planned."

"What's up?" he asked as I walked back towards the pool and sat down on the side so I could text my brother the list I told him I'd send.

"So I was evidently right and my brother had tried staying at my place. His Mom appeared in my condo at 7:30 Sunday morning to take him to church, no one in our family is overtly religious. Then this morning at their house she ambushed him with a friend of hers whose husband is on the Board of Trustees at Harvard about law school and his future. So he's currently throwing everything in his car and leaving LA to come here now. He wasn't supposed to come until next week. The studio apartment above the garage is so not ready for my brother to move in."

"Well how about we stay and have fun for a while longer here and then Ava and I can go to your place with you and I can help. Savannah can watch all of the kids and we can get your brother moved in safely and feed the munchkins pizza for dinner at your place."

"You're serious?" He nodded. "You're amazing. Thank you. I'm not sure what all he's bringing or that he wants the apartment but I feel like the studio apartment above the garage is the best plan. I mean honestly, it's my favorite part of the house." I laughed a little bit.

"It was supposed to be your Peter Pan dream home so I get it. How long do you think it will take?"

"Not long. I just need to essentially clean it a bit as it's probably covered in dust and wash the sheets. I don't even remember the last time someone stayed in it. It was probably me. It was also maybe my sister. Frankie got freaked out when I moved, she thought I should sell both houses and move near her so me moving 8ish hours away didn't go over well. I also now win the war of who has the coolest house and that annoys her to no end."

"That's actually kind of funny. Where does she live?"

"Venice, on a canal. The cutest house ever really. But she is like a 3-minute kayak ride from where our mother lives when she's actually back in town so it would not have worked for me. Living near them both would've made me crazy. My Dad and Step-Mom are in Santa Monica. So my family is all on the beach which is really nice for trips home."

"Sounds like it. I totally had your stepmom pegged for Malibu though." I started to laugh really loudly.

"Funny story, when they sold the house in Beverly Hills that I grew up in my stepmom BEGGED my Dad to move to Malibu. He was not willing to make that commute every day so she got to pick from Santa Monica, Venice or Marina Del Rey if she wanted water. He tried to downsize into a condo in downtown LA but that wasn't gonna happen. So they are right on the beach, have a pool and all of that fun stuff. It's a great house. It truly is and even though it's way too big for the people in our family that live there Mandi has clearly figured out how to make Tony batshit crazy." I pulled up the text message that Tony had just sent me. He'd clearly packed his car in record time to get out of there before he went completely bonkers. I couldn't blame him but I also hoped he didn't get here and in a week hate it because I wasn't going to wait on him hand and foot while making sure he was constantly entertained. I nannied for him a few summers when he was a kid so it's not surprising that he thinks I'm just there to have fun but truly I need to be an adult on occasion and my brother was horrible at encouraging that behavior.

ON THE ROAD!

Be careful. We will see you in a few hours!

"You guys are gonna be okay. If your brother starts to go stir crazy just send him over here. I can put him to work on some of my projects."

"I don't think Tony understands the concept of manual labor. He's never had to have a job. He worked in school at a bar because he could pick up girls that way." I laughed as I rolled my eyes. "His Mom still doesn't know that. He's a genius. By far the smartest one of all of us. Law School has always been what everyone expected from him but I think he'd rather do something completely different. He's an incredible musician, a great writer. When he was in high school he was a giant science nerd and I fully expected him to become a doctor or some shit. I think he wants to work in journalism or politics based on what he studied in school but our Dad definitely thinks he double majored in Communications and Public Policy to go into First Amendment Law. I mean Dad would be proud if someday he ended up in politics but the Law School things would be a requirement first, or at least the smart decision. It's all ridiculous. I mean my sister runs a non-profit and I'm a musician. While we both make a really great living we were allowed to choose our own path. Tony has the pressure of carrying on the family name and legacy."

"Law is the family legacy?" Jeremy asked. He was resting his arms on the side of the pool next to me. I hadn't had this kind of conversation with anyone in a long time.

"It is. Our great-grandfather founded Dad's law firm and Tony would be the fourth generation there. There had been some pressure on Frankie and me for a while. She met her husband in college and thankfully he was headed to law school so Dad got his fix by having his son-in-law as part of the firm. My senior year in high school I thought I'd just buckle under the pressure and follow in his footsteps. But when I had my senior recital for piano my Dad told me he wasn't going to allow me to do anything but follow my heart. I think that the fact that I'd written the score for a short film a few friends did help too. I wasn't going to follow my dreams in the back of a van on tour but follow them through film made him happy. I caught the bug for it young. We had a theater room in the house and I'd spend every weekend watching movies and trying to figure out how to play the music on my piano. Eventually, he had to set rules that I had to spend a certain amount of time outside so I didn't just sit in that theater for days on end, especially during school breaks. I was way too young to be watching most of them but it was the thing that made me happiest."

"That's really cool. I had no idea what I wanted to do, even in college. I loved music and was in a band in high school but I never saw that as an actual future, it was just something fun to do. I was studying computer science and criminology when I took my first drama class and caught the bug. I'm almost jealous that you knew so young what you wanted to do. "

"It's nice but I also never did anything else. I loved swimming. I should've done things like join the swim team but that would've taken me away from music. Being a hyper-focused kid was nice because there was no question of what my future would be but I missed out on so much. I want to make sure that doesn't happen to the babies. I need to start getting my shit together. I'm a year into this now, there are no excuses for this anymore. Like Ellie should've been in dance during the school year but by the time I found a place that didn't seem sketchy I was too late to sign her up. I've been teaching her piano for like 8 months now but she has so much more personality than I have ever had. She's way cooler than me."

"You're pretty cool," Jeremy said through a bit of laughter.

"Her Mom was seriously the coolest though. God, one of my favorite things about Sam was that we had this pretty big premiere for a film we'd done the score for. I sent her the photo of the dress I'd decided to wear. The night of the premiere arrived, the car was picking she and Michael up first and then coming to get me. I had done an entire afternoon with a fucking glam squad, totally out of my element. Get down to the car, there she is, with her head sticking out the sunroof in my dress. She bought the black and gold version of the black and silver dress I had. We walked the red carpet in a matching dress." I pulled up the photo on my phone and turned it to show Jeremy.

"That's amazing." He took the phone from my hand to look at both of the pictures that I'd pulled up for him. "She's very beautiful, I can see her in Ellie."

"Spitting image. It's almost creepy but it's wonderful."

"Well, you both look absolutely beautiful in those photos. You both look so happy. Maybe I'll have to creep your IMDB and watch a few of the films you've done the score for." I laughed.

"Ask first, some of them aren't great and some of them are literally impossible to find...unless you're in my basement theater. I don't have a career that's as accessible as yours."

"Well then maybe we will need to have a movie night. I'd love to be able to see your work."

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Developing the story of how Charlie became a mother was something that was hard for me. I debated back and forth about all of it. Trying to decide the traumatic event that led to the loss she's experienced and the new role in life she has. I had a few ideas that I tossed around but the reality was, for Charlie to become the guardian of both of Sam's children it couldn't be just Sam that was gone. There were so many possibilities, I settled with this version because while it is traumatic it didn't involve any domestic abuse, which was something I wasn't comfortable telling the story of in this setting.

Losing Sam was one of the hardest experiences of Charlie's life for a multitude of reasons. She lost her creative partner, her business partner, her best friend, and became a Mom all in the blink of an eye. She'd never prepared to be a parent and was an insta-mom to a 4-year-old that wanted to know where her Mommy and Daddy were and a baby that wasn't even a month old. Add in that she opted to move the children out of Los Angeles for their own privacy and security even though it wasn't the best option for her personally. She immediately knew to put those babies first.

For Jeremy to allow her to open up about this trauma and let her talk through it shows how kind and good he is. Grief is a different process for everyone who experiences it. For Charlie she still deals with the trauma every day and needed to find someone to talk to about it. Finding that in Jeremy is something she feels so lucky for.

I also can't wait for everyone to meet Tony! I love the idea of him being around the house to help his sister, be part of the kids' lives, and try to find his way in the world all at once. Developing Tony is so fun because he's still fairly bright and shiny, he's not dark and twisty like Charlie.

I hope you are enjoying reading this as much as I am enjoying writing it.

xx. AM

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arrthurpendragon · 6 years ago

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(If Elle was canon AU) We sat down with Elle Winchester herself for a few words about the 300th episode.

Interviewer: 300 episodes, what’s that feel like?

Lyndsy: Crazy. A lifetime and yet hardly like anytime has passed at all at the same time. We’ve watched each other grow up, get married, have kids. We’ve honestly become a family. There’s no better way to describe it. We’re a family on and off set.

I: How has Elle changed over 300 episodes?

L: While Elle has always been family-oriented, her family dynamic has changed. She still has her two knucklehead brothers. But she now has a relationship with her mom, something she didn’t have when the show started because she had never met Mary. Elle also has a family of her own with Cas and their kids. She is also much more of a badass. It’s been fun to see her evolve over the years.

I: What is Elle’s reaction to John being back?

L: Again, right? (laughs) Elle has been privileged to see John more than her brothers since his death. Elle got to see Dad again after Jack was born in a deal that Cas made to protect Jack. So, it’s only been a couple of seasons for Elle. Not over a decade like Sam and Dean. But now that Elle is a parent, she understands John a lot more and has much more empathy for the situation he was in with her. She gets that there is no such thing as a perfect parent because God knows she’s forked-up a time or two with her kids. That being said, she’s always loved John, whether she wanted to admit it or not. But she is genuinely happy that he is back this time...and is sad to see him go once again.

I: What was that family dinner scene like?

L: Perfect. It was the scene already in many-a-fanfiction, but I think that it was the perfect way for the Winchesters to spend their time together. It was something I think all three of them [Sam, Dean, and Elle] have wanted at some point or another. Not to mention quite a few fans. So yeah, perfect.

I: Any pranks we should know about while filming?

L: Of course, but a lady doesn’t prank and tell. (laughs) I’ll just say the teams were a little uneven with Jeffrey teaming up with Jared, Jensen, and I. Poor Misha and Alex. Some of that dinner laughter was more us than our characters.

I: What sticks out to you after 300 episodes?

L: We wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for our fans. Hands down, we have the best fans.

I: Do you have a favorite episode?

L: That is seriously like asking me to pick a favorite child. I love them all and am proud of them all, but sometimes they can rub me the wrong way. haha. I always loved the Pilot. It’s what started this. Babe I’m Gonna Leave You, where Elle ends up in rural Wisconsin with John was always a favorite of mine...mostly because it meant I didn’t have to deal with Bugs. (laughs) I could probably go on to list my top 100, but I’ll stop there. (laughs)

I: Is there anything you want to say to your fans?

L: Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. All of this is because of you and for you. And I know I can speak for the others when I say thank you and we love you.

READ US AGAINST THE WORLD AT: FANFICTION.NET // WATTPAD // AO3

#ocappreciation #elle winchester #us against the world #supernatural #au #manip #oc fanfic #lyndsy fonseca #oc fanfiction #oc fic #supernatural oc

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requicmsfare · 4 years ago

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( alex fitzalan, 21, he/him ) welcome to san francisco, SPENCER LOUGHTY. rumor has it they are a REAPER, from SUPERNATURAL, but only they could tell you the truth! they reside in the ECHO district. when i close my eyes, i think of them and imagine DANCING IN EMPTY STREETS, SCUFFED DOC MARTENS & THE SMELL OF CIGARETTE SMOKE.

NAME: spencer loughty.

NICKNAMES: spenc, lou.

GENDER: cismale.

ROMANTIC & SEXUAL ORIENTATION: panromantic/pansexual with poly tendencies.

AGE: 21.

BIRTHDAY: 17th of april ( aries ).

HEIGHT: 6′ 0″.

OCCUPATION/STATUS: college student/collector of souls.

ETHNICITY: caucasian.

HAIR COLOUR/LENGTH: brown, mid-short and wavy.

EYE COLOUR: brown.

PHYSICAL BUILD: lanky with some muscle but nothing significant.

SPECIES: reaper.

POSITIVE TRAITS: open-minded, honest, loyal & intelligent.

NEGATIVE TRAITS: clumsy, passive, introverted & candid.

FEARS: wasps & snakes.

WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

so we’d all love a nice wholesome story: mom meets mom, dad etc. they have spencer and all is good in the world ( insert mr blue sky playing to some soft sunny montage ). except it was more like, mom walks into a bar meets a guy ( sam winchester ) in one nightstand, she ends up pregnant and nine months later there’s spencer.

mr. blue sky still plays, 2010 in a small town in the south. mother and son happy or at least appear to be; his mother is overworked and probably didn’t need a screaming baby to come home to or to have to pay the neighbors to watch him while she was gone and the irony is she loves him and he loves her…

then he’s 15, he waits for his mom to come home and she doesn’t; he’s unsurprised, as all by myself plays in the background he recalls every argument they’d had and his mother merely just wanted peace.

she moves in with her boyfriend, some questionable dude that looks like he listens to folk songs and prays too often ( at least it��s nice to see people having a little faith – insert faith by george michael ). and spencer moves in with the neighbors, not a real family, and hardly equipped to take care of him but they try and they try well.

spencer is smart, tests well, and weirdly get away with not looking like some nerdy teen who watches star trek on repeat. he dates whoever, sometimes finds that he forgets gender exists and seems to love people too much ( or at least care too much ).

by the time he graduates high school, he exceeds expectations. heads off to princeton in some effort to free himself of ties to his hometown though he calls the family that helped him out every day and asks how his mom is ( regardless of how little she seemed to care ) and all goes well.

three years in and he’s happy or as happy as he can be, in a relationship with a couple of people, he’d say college was for experimenting but he just enjoyed the love and being able to give it out. and then it all goes to shit…

his bag gets caught on something and he tugs at it, probably too invested in saving the bag he has from complete ruin, that the road behind him isn’t a concern. he pulls and it’s free but he’s falling and he breaks his left leg weirdly the agony of that seemed easier than what was coming; before he knows it he’s hit by a car. they don’t stop and he doesn’t die straight away; his lungs fill with blood until he suffocates to death.

but at least he’s off to heaven right and as forever young plays, he finds out just how wrong he is. shout out to the literal being death saying not today bitch and there he becomes a reaper. finds himself in sf and the rest is history.

in the early days, he’d go visit back home and watch his mom or the family that took care of him but it got too painful after a while…so did watching his own funeral.

PERSONALITY

let’s see he’s soft and quirky, he is nerdier than he appears and he has a tendency to want to sit in the same space for hours and talk or run around the streets singing and dancing to terrible music that he only got into because his mom left it behind when she yeeted. he’s a loving person, an honest one, and empathetic to a degree. once he’s known a person for anywhere from a day to a week, he’s happy to be affectionate aka. divebomb hugs and all that jazz. he also tries to be funny and isn’t so that’s all fun and games.

#rpv:intro #;intro

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littlepiecesofwords · 5 years ago

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My A+

I’m Samantha, and I’ve known Alex whom I like to call A since we were little. We came from same School since we were little. He doesn’t pay much attention to me as I was a year older than him.

A, is smart, athletic, funny and perfect boy next door even when we were little. I’ve seen him grow as I grew as well.

Summer before senior year, I saw A, in Circles Lake, where his family rented a house for a week vacation. I was with my parents in our vacation house. I was on my bedroom staring at the window, as my parents are fighting about something I don’t understand. I can hear, them laughing and from my window. I stood up, went to see who are those happy people outside my window.

I saw A, playing with his 2 younger sister while carrying a baby boy, running around and laughing so hard. I loved seeing them having fun. I don’t have any siblings, sad to say, I am the only child of these two lonely career oriented people. As I watched them, I can’t help but be jealous.

One day, I was walking by the Lake side, I saw A running, I think he was doing his daily jog again. He’s always that disciplined guy. I kept walking and acting I didn’t saw him, suddenly he came towards the Lake shore. Stood there, staring towards the water, looking deep, and gave this smirk suddenly. I can’t help but watch him. Then he turned towards my direction, I acted that I’m not watching him. He said:

Alex: The water looks good, right?

Sam: Whaat?

Alex: The water.. it looks good

Sam: Yeah! the water...

Alex walking towards me.

Alex: I’m Alex, my family is here for vacation...

Sam: I’m Sam, we’re here for vacation too... well? more like just me...

Alex: Ok, well, nice meeting you Sam. I got to go, see ya around!

And then he start jogging. I knew from that day, I like A! there’s something about A that draws me to him and more curious about him.

Friday Night. I asked my parents if I can invite some friends over to have a party because they’ll be leaving me for the weekend there. It’s better to have some accompany, I guess... It was easy to get a yes from them.

Friday Night Party, my C friends came, we had loud music on and partying like wild. I saw A again, by the lake shore alone. With the encouragement of my friends, I approached him.

Sam: Hey!

Alex: Hey!

Sam: Do you want to join us? we’re just hanging out..

Alex: Thank you, but I can’t.. I just took some time to walk and clear my head.

Sam: I see, ok... (odd but I see there’s a lot on his head right now - I start walking back to our house, and he started walking his way back.)

The next day, I saw them packing there stuff, and putting it all in their mini van. I saw Alex carrying his younger brother and handing it over to his Mom. He went back to their cottage, and grabbed bags and stuff. I can’t see the beam he used to have, it seems like he’s been thinking a lot since last night.

Why do I feel worried about this kid? I asked myself. he doesn’t even remember me. Uuuuhhhhhgggggg... this is frustrating! I thought to myself. I knew this is not normal. I called my Aunt Amy, and asked her if she can pick me up from our vacation house and take me home. Still feeling worried for Alex, I got home and spent the rest of my day in my bedroom.

I grabbed my journal and wrote:

Journal Entry 1: Sam meets Alex

I feel odd, I feel strange, why am I worried about this boy, when he can’t even remember me. We went to same school together and never talked to me. He’s not even part of the cool guys club in our school and yet I’m curious about him. Well? I have to let it go! In few days, I will be back being the queen of the C Team! No more boy thinking!

Few weeks after, I’m on my senior year. This is it! A year more and I’ll be heading to college. NYU is where my parents wants me to be as both had their degrees there. I really don’t have any preference as for where to go, all I want to is to study children psychology, in which my parents doesn’t have any opposition about it. Now, I have to make sure I get my ACADs up and ready for college.

First Week of Class:

I saw Alex with this Alex Girl, the new girl which is a year younger than him. Walking towards school, can’t help to wonder if they’re together.. It’s non of my business, but I can’t stop looking at them. Then Al, gave A a kiss on the cheek before he heads towards his class. A kiss! soooo, they’re something!

Blake: Sam? Sam? Earth to Sam?

Sam: Yah! yeah, sorry...

Blake: You’re staring at those two like crazy, do you know them?

Sam: hmmmm.. nothing

Blake: Do you?

Sam: What? sorry, I wasn’t listening...

Blake: Samantha! are you liking that boy Alexander?

Sam: What? No no! I just had a few minutes with him during summer, what are you saying?

Blake: Sam, I know you.. so? are you curious if they’re a couple? the AandA tribe?

Sam: Who care?

Blake: you! I’ll ask around and see if they are, but if not what are you planning?

Sam: Nothing, I don’t care.. I have to get my focus straight, C Team, ACAD and college, no time to fool around.

Blake: Ok, but will still try..

Sam: Whatever!

English Class:

Blake: Sam, I heard they’re just best friends.. the AandA tribe..

Sam: What? whooo?

Blake: Your boy crush.. they’re just bestfriends...

Sam: Blake! I can’t believe you.. I said it was non of my business...

Ms. Lydsell: Excuse me girls? do you want to share to the class what your topic is?

Blake and Sam: No Ms. Lydsell, sorry..

Ms. Lydsell: For next week assignment, you will need to write a paper about literature history, make this paper with excellence as this will also help you on your college application. PUT AN EFFORT in writing, okay?

Ms. Lydsell: Sam, i’d like to talk to you...

Sam: Yes Ms.?

Ms. Lydsell: I spoke to my friend in NYU who’s the head in General Psychology, about you. And I want you to work with Alexander Stockholm, he’s one of my best students right now. He can help you with your paper, and this paper will be submitted to NYU as an entry and you might get some points if this paper wins. If you know what I mean.

Sam: For real? yes Ms. Lydsell, I will.. who’s it again? Alexander Stockhol?

Ms. Lydsell: Stockholm.. yes Alex is my best student right now and he’s a good kid, he’ll surely help you.

I stepped out of the room, and walked towards the hallway, the I saw Alex, standing in front of his locker. Hesitant to approach but I have to, this is for my future. I stepped closer and closer, I need to put my cool girl act, the C BLOOD ON!

Sam: Hey!

Alex: (looking at me - I guess, he’s wondering who I am) Hey

Sam: Sam. You’re Alex right?

Alex: Hey Sam, what’s up?

Sam: I need help with my English Paper, and Ms. Lydsell said you’ll help me...

Alex: Oh, I see.. yeah sure. let’s meet ones a week. Is that okay? I have practice and other stuff going on...

Sam: yeah fine! I’ll call you (Turned my back and walked away)

What was that? I just totally blew it, I looked back and saw Alexis came to him and they’re having this serious conversation. Are you kidding me? they are couple! huuuuuhhh..

Blake: How was it?

Sam: IF they’re not couple, then they are SOMETHING...

Blake: I was asking about the paper...

Sam: Come on! I don’t want to talk about it....

Running out of time, I was scribbling. I finished a 3 page paper. Now, I need to make sure this is a worth it paper. I will need to see Alex.

Wednesday.

I saw Alex walking towards the gym, and there’s little Ms. Alexis again. How can I approach him with this girl always around him?

Blake: why don’t you call him? didn’t Ms. Lydsell gave you his number?

Sam: Huh?

Blake: Call Alex and ask him to meet you, so you’re done with your paper...

Sam: Oh, yeah.. I’ll do it after his practice...

Few hours later, we can hear the coach, practice time is over. Go now boys!

Blake: Call him! Call him!

Sam: Wait, what will I say?

Here, dialing his number and the phone began to ring.. Blake putting the phone to my ears and trying to listen on the other side.

Alex: Hello?

Sam: Hey Alex! (shaking) it’s Sam. I’m just wondering....

Blake: Go ask him! now! (whispering)

Alex: Hey Sam! yes bout what?

Sam: Will you be free after practice and look over my English paper? I just finished writing and I need to submit it tomorrow, my brain is heaing up and I’m not sure if I’m making sense on this paper?

Blake: Girl you are a lame person (whispering to me)

Alex: Oh,I see, I’ll meet you in the library in 15 minutes.

Blake: (grabbed the phone) Library? Are you serious? (mimicking Sam’s voice)

Alex: Yes? is there a problem?

Blake: Meet me at Milky’s. Bye!

Sam: Blake! (grabbing the phone back)

Blake: What? I just set you up for an intellectual date darling!

Milky’s Place Time

Sitting on the corner table waiting for Alex to show up, I hope he didn’t change his mind after such a demanding phone end with Blake.

(phone starts ringing)

Sam: Hello? Dad?

Dad: Hey sweetie, I heard from your teacher you’re working on a paper entry for NYU. Did you work on it? make sure you give your ALL in this Samantha, this will help you get to NYU. Ok? understand that you have to be focus on building your own career and don’t just waste all we are working for for nothing. Do you understand?

Sam: Yes Dad

Dad: Okay, I’ll see you on weekend. Love you sweetie!

The moment I hangup the phone, I saw Alex stepped in the place, he sat a crossed of me then he start talking.. My mind was still in my conversation with my Dad..

Alex: Are you ok? you look tense.

Sam: Yes, I’m okay, Sorry for calling you and asking to meet me here.

Alex: I agreed to help you.... (and I lost him. I lost my trail of thoughts, thinking about my paper and NYU. He winked at me)

Sam: Oh! (surprised and tense) Thank you.

Alex: What’s the paper about? can I go over it?

Sam: Yes (handing him my paper. I’m shaking and nervous)

The next thing I know, he sat beside me. Looking at me, straight at me. Like I’ve never been looked before. He looks at me as if he knows everything about me. My struggles, fears and pains. What is he doing?

Alex: .. I am worried about you, you look tense and stressed.

Then there, I started feeling comfort like I never felt before. No one ever said those words to me, no one was worried about me or cared about what I feel or going through. All these years, I’ve been taking care of myself putting walls and pretending to be happy with all the things I have, but this now, I feel a big whole inside my heart is being touched.

He wrapped his arms around me, it feels comfort and not like other guys. He brings so much comfort and peace. His arms are steady, warm and strong. I never felt like this better... After crying and just feeling vulnerable in front of him, we end up talking and being friends.

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fictionalwonder · 6 years ago

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True Blood Season 4 Review

Ok It's done. The guessing and spoiling is over for another 9 months leaving us with only a serious fangover and an unprecedented post season body count. True Blood Season 4 was bat shit crazy even more than Season 3, the timeline of such memorables as jar of Talbot and spine ripping TV. So now post Season 4 finale whether you were calling for a Scream award or thought the whole thing blew chances are you're about to embark on 9 months of TB withdrawal. Yup even the haters feel its absence. So let's savor the moment in a post finale look at the best and worst of True Blood Season 4

THE BIGGEST THANK GOD MOMENT: Wee Marcus and gang finally putting Tommy and us out of the misery that was Tommy Mickens sorry ass life. As soon as he went skinwalker you knew his days were numbered. Sam Tramwell was brilliant doing Tommy doing him and who didn't cheer when said Tommy/Sam fired Sookie! She is the worst waitress ever! Talk about sick leave; is she ever at work for more than half a shift!?! The fall out from his death will certainly carry us through season 5, where we can only hope Sam has some modicum of hope at returning to just running the bar and attending anger management sessions.

Close second was Sookie decisively shooting Debbie Pelt in the head, even though she begged her not to. Yup, we had to wait till the very end of the season for evil, laughing while pouring Talbot down the drain Sookie, to return.

BEST OMG MOMENT: Ginger riding the coffin - nuff said.

SCARIEST/SEXIEST MOMENT:

Scary and sexy are often one and the same on True Blood, and this year Eric Northman ripping out, here to be known as, Juice Box Roy's heart will be stamped on my brain as a shining TB moment. Countless screamed everywhere, I had know idea THAT could be sexy! Give Skarsgård a raise!

BTW the T-shirts were on sale a mere 3 hours post show.

BIGGEST WTF MOMENT: Sookie and Eric snow shower then frak in Narnia. I've never read the books but the post Spellbound roar over The Vampire, The Witch and The Shower Stall, chocked up the blog commentary for days. I suspect because nothing could ever live up to this sacred cow of the sookiverse sexcapdes, Ball and company for better or worse decided not to go there; thus sparing us from more Skinmax test reels by getting out of the shower faster than they got in

MOST IMPROVED: King Bill - sure

he's damaged goods nailing his great great great great granddaughter and watching his ex screw his brain-damaged frenemy but sans Sookie round his neck, Bill was standing a bit taller this year. He even had a sense of humor, and Bill with balls is actually kind of hot. The developing bromance between him and Eric turned out to be one of the best parts of the season close.

MOST POTENTIAL: Laurel and Hardy move over. With Sookie out of the way Bill and Eric make an an awesome tag team, dissing each other on the pyre then cooperatively staking and decapitating Nan and troopers. Here's to more of Bill and Eric's excellent adventure in Season 5.

MOST IN NEED OF IMPROVEMENT: Sookie got enough of her spunk back to blow Debbie Pelt's head off, sure, but seriously she spent most of the season literally on her back, well sometimes on top. She was once a gifted mind-reader; we saw that maybe twice this season. Instead we learned more about her castrating powers when it comes to boyfriends. She mommied Eric into a hoody wearing puppy dog, did the dirty with him in every room of grandma's house and then kicked him, alongside Bill, to the curb come finale. In four seasons she truly did go from virgin to love em and leave em fangbanger. The classless moves have got to stop if the Stackhouse angle is to survive. We need an even slightly relate-able protagonist. I'm hoping another eligible lady moves to town, though god forbid she get a job at Merlotts - the most dangerous workplace in America.

SOOKIE'S ONE REDEEMING FEATURE SEASON 4: Sookie had unbelievably great hair this season. I swear to god I saw the camera man reflected in her locks in Eric's cubby.

MOST IN NEED OF A HUG: From defending herself against zombie slurs to losing an ear, Pam had endured what must go down as the worst week in her hundred plus years. She lost her maker to back country fairy vagina and her face rotted off. And things weren't exactly looking up when we left her, blood tears running down her cheek, hugging Ginger.

Why did they do that to Pam!!! Well for one reason she gave TB viewers some of the best gore the show has ever delivered. Still, writers, you better fix her. At the end of the day we really just want to look at Kristin Bauer being gorgeous and acting snarky.

Coming in second is Hoyt who despite the bitterness of his bad boyfriend rejection could really use a little lov'in right now, if not some of Summer's biscuits.

BEST RECAPS and REVIEWS:

VLOGS

#1 Bloodworks takes the stakes as a no contest winner. Besides being just the cutest couple in the world, Brian and Any's post show cocktails and theatrics amount to sometimes slurry worded and always hilariously astute recaps. I swear by mid season you look forward to Andy and Brian's upload as much as the episode itself. With its "staking points" and "do bad things" they were the best thing that could happen to a mediocre TB episode. Brian Juergen and Andy Swist @campbloodbuzz @andyswist http://campblood.org/Newblog/

#2 Think Heroes True Blood Review is tried and true. Roth Cornet has hosted solo for two seasons, and this season Jenna Busch was on board. Roth's reviews are first-rate often delving deeper than the show deserves. Busch does a good job of keeping things in the watercooler-moment mood of the short vlog format. The two combined offer a sometimes giggle ridden but always insightful True Blood take. Jennings Roth Cornet @JRothC | http://www.jenningsrothcornet.com/ JennaBusch @JennaBusch | http://girlmeetslightsaber.blogspot.com

#3 BloodBites is family friendly fair with this sister and brother team showcasing familial bonds and blood-dipped funny bones. Reenacting then reviewing a given episode's wtf moments, Blood Bites has cross-gen appeal. It's quality YouTube content you could show your grandmother and your eight year-old niece, who you know are both watching True Blood too.

Honorable Mention My Future Lover's Reason to Ship Sookie and Eric Spawn of You Tube strictly for Team Eric members, My Future Lover's play by play captions to the best and worst Sookie Eric moments capture at least half the audience's joy, tears and tv punching moments.

BEST PODCAST

True Blood in Dallas Straight up fan founded talkshow and review of both book, show and TB culture with revolving guest reviewers each week. A steady dose of all the criticism only a Stackhouse booklover can bring, Talk Blood is laced with plenty of Charlaine Harris loving that fellow fans can appreciate.

Listen to internet radio with True Blood in Dallas on Blog Talk Radio

BLOGS AND WEB SITES

Best Recaps

Pros and Cons True Blood by Meredith Woerner nails it everytime. for a no holds barred, tell it like is play by play pro con style. This is one of the funniest and most astute TB recaps out there. Meredith Woerner @MdellW | http://io9.com/people/MeredithDW/posts/

After Eltons WTF recap by Steven Frank is an imaginative post morteum with major plot points reviewed then rated in Grace Jones Vamp limps.

Jef With One F's music and episode recap for the Houston's Press is a creative spin that lets the show's lead track set the tone for review and analysis. Jef With One F @HPRocksOff

Best Blogs

Talk True Blood Digging deep and ranting in the best way, Talk True Blood goes so far as to offer scene by scene body language analysis of major characters.

Buddhism and True Blood Dedicated to Alan Ball and the wheel of life, Buddhism and True blood reminds us that life is suffering especially in Bon Temps

True Blood Underground Do you really know what's going on in Bon Temps? Conspiracy theories abound as TB Underground calls out Alan Ball on his addictive mind control experiment.

FINAL WORD Four seasons later there is still a bit of blood left in the series, and while fairy-finger-cop-outs and super silly, supernatural assumptions do show signs of laziness in the writers room, True Blood still does deliver some amazing TV. Godforbid we get bogged down by process oriented stuff like how amnesia Eric lost his shirt post-spell or ends up on a bonfire tied to Bill between episode 11 and 12. Things like how come no one reports a death in Bon Temp anymore or WHO IS running Merlottes only get in the way of a good story or at least a good "oh no they didn't" jaw drop.

I suspect, forty eight episodes later, TB writers actually relish every shark jumping moment as much as fangbanging spectacle. They know they can get away with it because they know how dedicated, creative and forgiving their fan base is. Plus narrative logic be damned, camp and drama are fine edges to play on, and they deserve applause for taking even tasteless risks.

For every bit of hocus pocus cgi True Blood throws at us, such as the anime forcefield surrounding Moon Goddess or the ridiculously bad fx exorcism of Mavis, there was a Pam getting a skin peel or Eric ripping the heart out of juice box Roy to make up for it. For each ridiculous Scooby Doo and the gang moment, there was a Vampire A-team or death by pencil. For each and every minute we tolerated Andy, we had a shot of Ginger riding a coffin or Eric drinking the whole fairy. True Blood IS very uneven but it IS very fun.

So that caps summertime Sundays and True blood still remains my ultimate guilty pleasure. The culture and coverage this year has been as much fun as the show itself and made Sundays feel like a party. I think Alex Skarsgård sums it all up in this quote,

“At 7 in the morning, I’m hanging from the ceiling in a Nazi uniform with fangs in[my mouth]. I look over and I see [Allan] there in his Nazi uniform hanging like a puppet. We’re about to descend down to kill this wolf, you know? And that was the moment where we just looked at each other like, This is what we’re doing for a living?‘”

Yup, IT IS! And even more surprising I CAN"T believe I'm watching you do it and not only that but loving every minute!

#True Blood #tv series #horror series #HBO #vampires #reviews

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