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mr. brawn and ms. brain
sum: you hate athletes. eunseok is an athlete. eunseok is in love with you. it doesn't take a genius to see that there's an issue with this equation. after a one-sided love for the past three years, eunseok is saved when the two of you are partnered to work on an english project together. which means that eunseok's first step of getting you to fall in love with him is done. next step: get you to give him the time of day... word count: 9.6k a/n: hehe i've been working on this for so long i can't believe it's finally out lol i hope that you all enjoy reading this as much as i loved writing this! <3 someone teach me how to make visually pleasing banners. quick note: feedback, comments, etc. GREATLY encourage writers! if you felt any sort of way (in a good or bad way!) about this fic, pls leave feedback warnings: mentions of reader's insecurities, sungchan being a horrible/amazing friend, simp eunseok, uhh love :D
EUNSEOK SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT TRYING TO WRAP HIS MIND AROUND YOUR SHEER GENIUS WAS A BAD IDEA. you were just so much smarter than him; he didn't know why he thought that he could even comprehend the meaning behind your actions anymore.
at least, this is what song eunseok gathers from your animated gestures and anger stained tone as you continue to motion at eunseok semi-offensively.
he's only half-listening (he's perfected the art of the blank stare) and you know that he's not listening too. but eunseok figures that if yelling at him to your heart's content is what would make you feel better, then he was glad to be your not-really listening ear.
"...and you know that i can't do it all on my own!" you yell finally, your distress coming to a climax. eunseok winces when your voice reaches a decibel he didn't know to be humanly possible. your chest is heaving and eunseok, from this, is now well aware that you're upset the fact you had to work on the partner project by yourself last night.
but he didn't know how else to explain to you that he had a soccer match last night that he couldn't just skip out to work on the project - even if it was a project that would more or less determine his grade in the class.
your arms are crossed against your torso, eyebrows furrowed as you wait for eunseok to say something. he's sat in front of you, looking akin to a statue, while you're standing up, glaring down at him and from this angle, eunseok is once again reminded of just why he lets you get away with saying pretty much anything to him.
eunseok is so incredibly in love with you that it takes every fiber of his being from telling you that any time the two of you were together. which was less often than he wanted but more often than you had had in the past so he was willing to take the wins he could get at this point.
"so you want me to the work on the project, that's it, right?" he says slowly and you damn near want to strangle him in that moment. you knew that eunseok wasn't dumb and that he had only sat through your entire lecture because you weren't going to let him hear the end of it anyway but would it kill him to at least pretend like he was remorseful?
"yes," you say finally, with an exasperated sigh. "i just want you to work on the project with me."
the corner of eunseok's lips twitch imperceptibly upwards in a soft smile before it disappears, bringing him back to his much more familiar bored expression. i just want you to work on the project with me.
that had to mean something, right? you wouldn't add the 'with me' without any particular reason, right? you actually meant to indicate something with that 'with me', right?
in all honesty, you're hadn't thought of what you were saying all that hard and had just said everything that came to mind in an attempt to rid yourself of your anger and eunseok knows that as well.
he's been in love with you for long enough to know that you didn't actually mean anything when he formed these delusions on his own but he couldn't help himself.
eunseok has loved you since the moment he saw you sitting inside the classroom, earbuds in your ears as you flipped through your notebook filled with notes while he was outside on the soccer field, squinting up at you against the relentless sun, three years ago.
he wasn't sure what it was. at first, he was sure that it was just the chase. the classic 'unattainable' trope where he was only attracted to you because of the challenge that you presented to him.
but it was strange.
eunseok wasn't a really big fan of cheesy clichés or overplayed poetry about something that he was sure didn't exist anymore but everything had changed when he saw you.
your looks, face, beauty - none of that seemed to be what clicked within him. the moment that you turned your head to peer out the window, your eyes landing on his, it was like his entire soul was breathing a sigh of relief.
if eunseok was any less of a realist, he would've genuinely believed that the two of you were soul tied lovers from previous lives.
the only issue was that eunseok was pretty sure his soulmate would give him the time of day. which you pretty much refused to do. it was like you were allergic to his type or something.
you kept to yourself in general, and didn't really have many friends but at the very least, you were friendly enough to those around you. no one really had anything bad to say about you bar the fact that you never allowed anyone to overtake you on your throne seated comfortably as number one in the whole school.
except for eunseok's friends. they all knew about eunseok's hopeless love for you and for the life of them could not understand why. you barely glanced in his direction in general, and seemed to always glare at any round object that could be used for a sport - and those who carried said offending objects.
which naturally meant that eunseok and the rest of his friends (all of whom unfortunately played some sport or another) were blacklisted by you.
he'd been curious at first why you had so much prejudice against sports and then one time, had seen you be forced to run laps around the field. needless to say, after he saw you nearly trip and fall on your face at least four times in one lap, he was vaguely aware of what prompted you to stay as far away from such activities as possible.
in fact, eunseok was relatively sure that he was going to have to graduate high school without ever actually having a proper conversation. until the fateful day that your english professor had assigned you and eunseok to work on the same project together for a final grade.
it was a simple research paper, but both of you had to submit outlines and drafts that showed how much you each contributed to the project, as well as how much of the project was done with each other - all of which contributed to your grade.
eunseok had thought that this was it! this would be his in!
he was wrong. to be honest, eunseok could count on one hand the number of conversations he'd had with you after starting work on the project together. and could count without any fingers the number of those conversations that were about anything other than project division.
which is why, when you're standing here, arms crossed against your heaving chest and looking at him with those eyes, eunseok has nothing running in his mind other than just how much he wants you to know what he feels.
"eunseok! are you even listening to me anymore?" you ask, waving a hand in his face. eunseok blinks before clearing his throat. he reaches out a long arm to pull out a chair in the desk next to his and indicates for you to sit down on it.
you eye the chair warily before sitting down, folding your skirt underneath your thighs as you sit gingerly, as if you were expecting it to explode.
the sight would normally make eunseok just roll his eyes for anyone else but with you, it makes him smile.
"okay, i'm sorry. with the game last night, i forgot to my part for the draft due friday. but i promise, i'm still going to make it up to you and finish all of the stuff i needed to do as soon as possible," eunseok says. you watch him for a moment before nodding and moving to get up out of the chair as eunseok rushes to come up with some reasoning to get you to stay with him a little longer.
"although, are you sure you're going to be able to finish the section by yourself? i had some issues with the first half of pride and prejudice because of the characterization and the time period," you say, although the last half of your thought seems to be much more reluctant than the first half, as if you didn't want to admit that you had any academic weaknesses to eunseok.
but eunseok barely pays it any mind, jumping on the opportunity as soon as he recognizes it. "oh...yeah, honestly i don't know if i can do it by myself. since we both have access to the late night study room anyway, do you wanna finish it together tonight?"
eunseok watches as the gears turn in your head, bottom lip caught between your teeth as you debate the possibilities in your mind. and even as you do, he tries to control the erratic beating of his heart at the chance of spending so much time with you.
if he could explain his feelings to anyone, which eunseok was not gifted with the vocabulary of attempting to do so, he was sure that they would ask if he was ripped straight from the novel the two of you were assigned to work on.
to be honest, eunseok thinks as he rests his temple against the heel of his palm, watching as you pull out a timetable and consult it with utmost seriousness, even he found it kinda silly.
well, not silly as in his crush on you was dumb per se (although, there were times where he realized just how unfounded his feelings truly were). more silly like i didn't even know these kinds of feelings could still exist in people.
silly like how a child discovering the world for the first time might be - awkward in their gait but curiosity shining brightly in their eyes, learning how to be human for the first time.
he knows that his whole 'true love' or 'soulmate' semantics were not for the weak of heart - and most definitely not for those who were too embroiled in the 'love' of today's day and age. but he couldn't bring himself to care.
it made him want to be a better person for you. to be the man that you would glance at in more than just passing. to be worthy of your love.
"alright. i'm scheduled for an english tutoring session but i'll ask them to meet me tomorrow instead. maybe i can use some of the stuff that we learn during our project," you say with a sigh, crossing out some of the timings written in your schedule and rearranging them.
eunseok's eyebrows furrow. "you take tutoring lessons? oh, like a private tutor?"
you eye eunseok strangely, as if you weren't sure if he was making a joke or not.
"no...i teach people. i tutor for english, mathematics, and some other subjects as well. it's how i'm adding to my resumé." the chair makes an awful noise when you push it back to stand up.
"oh," eunseok says. resumé? for what? college admissions? god, he really needed to start getting ready for that. his csat score was not high enough for him to even dream about getting into a good enough school for you to recognize him.
or, you know, secure brighter future in such a competitive job market. but that was mostly secondary.
"yeah. so..." you trail off awkwardly, toeing the ground with your arms behind your back. the sight of you being awkward or unsure of yourself was foreign to eunseok but nonetheless endearing.
"yeah. so i'll see you tonight then? after classes end?" eunseok prompts you and you seem to snap out of whatever reverie your mind was in.
"mhm." it's absent-minded and almost an afterthought, as you make your way out of the classroom, pausing at the door to look at him before leaving.
+++
classes end a couple of hours later, and eunseok is left waiting anxiously in the study rooms.
you'd agreed to meet after classes but eunseok realizes that he'd never asked for a specific time or your number to communicate with you, meaning that he'd been stuck in the study rooms for the past hour, unsure if and when you were going to show up.
eunseok had been productive with his time, of course. he'd tucked away the soccer ball he'd brought to school into one of the lockers in the back and popped a breath mint. not for any particular reason, but he didn't want you to think of him in the stereotypical 'jock who doesn't partake in hygiene'.
he'd even tried to make progress on the pride and prejudice chapters he'd been assigned (by you) to write about, only to give up three sentences in.
the one thing that eunseok had done incorrectly, however, was drinking too much water. see, eunseok had a strange habit of chugging water every time he got nervous. needless to say, about an hour of sheer anxiety of when you were going to show up made him down the whole waterbottle.
which was not good because now, eunseok had to relieve himself and you were still nowhere to be seen. and he couldn't just go use the restroom and come back because he was pretty sure you'd just leave and assume that he bailed on you if he left his post in the study rooms.
eunseok paces around the room, hoping that time would move faster if he moved faster (time-space was in same dimension after all, so technically...). he's taken about twenty-three laps around the study room when he finally hears the door click open and you enter the study room somewhat cautiously, looking worse for wear.
"I'LL BE RIGHT BACK!" eunseok manages to holler before sprinting out of the study room, not wanting to look back and see your undoubtedly bewildered face as he makes a mad dash for the men's restrooms.
it's not until eunseok finally relieves himself, washing his hands in the sink that was lower than his hips that he realizes what he'd just done.
eunseok berates himself more than once or twice in the bathroom, pacing back and forth once more when he realizes just how much of an idiot he must've looked like as he sprinted out of the room like a crazy man.
"it's ok. it's ok! having to use the restroom is natural! everyone needs to! it's not like y/n doesn't, right? don't worry, you look fine. you're so hot, she'll forget it happened."
you didn't forget. when eunseok slinked back into the study room, you can barely keep the silly smile off your face, trying your best to look understanding and apologetic instead.
"i'm - i'm so sorry for coming late eunseok. i heard there was soccer practice today so i figured you'd be late and decided to help mrs. kim with creating the study set for the upcoming math test," you explain, unable to keep the lighthearted giggle out of your voice.
eunseok offers an embarrassed half-grin as he waves you off.
"don't worry, i wasn't waiting long. i just got here too. uh, i asked coach to cancel practice since both captains wouldn't be able to make it," eunseok says, looking busily through his backpack in an effort to prevent you from looking at his red face.
"you asked the coach to cancel practice?" you ask incredulously and eunseok tries his best to act nonchalant.
"yeah. i mean, you're right after all. academics are more important than sports - it's not like i plan on going pro or anything so i figured that i should sit down and make some headway on this project," eunseok says with a shrug, and it brings him a strange sense of satisfaction when you glance at him as though you were suddenly looking at him for the first time.
"you don't plan on playing in college? i mean i've heard that you're good enough for it," you say, and you sound genuinely curious, rearranging the books in front of you.
"i mean i plan on playing in college but i can't exactly get into college just on sports. i'm not that good. i still need to have good grades and scores to get in," eunseok says and you frown, deep in thought, but eunseok can tell that it's not in a bad or malicious way.
"i'd never thought you would care that much about school," you say softly and eunseok can't help but shoot you a lopsided grin.
"we're not all just dumb jocks, y/n," he responds, his voice just as soft and he realizes just how much he likes the taste of your name on his tongue.
"yeah. i guess so," you say finally, offering him a small smile.
eunseok thinks he can die happy when he sees it.
+++
the two of you don't become best friends over the next couple weeks. in fact, you still don't have too many conversations with him other than about the project, but it's more than eunseok has been awarded with before.
you talk to him in between classes now, when you see him in the hallways, and ask him about soccer practice. eunseok always blushes, casting his eyes towards the windows so that he had something to look at other than your intelligent and probing eyes.
he even sees you wave at him during soccer practice, when you're headed out early for tutoring and eunseok nearly dies of heart attack, tripping over himself as he rushes to wave back.
wonbin didn't let him live that down for a full week after the incident occurred, laughing and waving in exaggerated motions every time he saw eunseok.
he even went as far as going up to you and asking you to come to one of the upcoming soccer matches, all in the name of good fun.
eunseok had had to literally tackle wonbin to the floor in order to keep him from spilling any vital information ("please come to the soccer match because our captain has been crushing on you since his first year and we can't see him like this anymore.") but it was clear that the message came through incorrectly.
"you don't want me to come to your match that much? i thought we were better friends than that, eunseok," you said with a frown, and eunseok had to scramble to his feet, kicking wonbin with his foot.
"no - no! it's not that. i do really want you to come to our soccer match. but i kinda wanted to be the one to ask you. you know, because you're so busy all the time and i thought you might say yes if i asked rather than this idiot," eunseok had explained, tripping over his words in an attempt to make sure that he didn't hurt your emotions.
you'd stared up at him, your face unreadable. that was the one thing that eunseok didn't like about you - he could never truly predict exactly what you were thinking unless you said it out loud. you were infamous for your poker face and it made eunseok incredibly nervous.
little did he know that that was the exact reason that eunseok made you nervous.
"i'll come if i have time," you had said simply, turning on your heel to flounce away.
"you're an idiot but goddamnit, i love you wonbin," eunseok had said, descending onto the right wing to tackle him to the floor once more with a hug.
"alright! i get it! get off of me, cap!" wonbin said, pawing at eunseok's arms to relieve himself from the bearhug he was trapped in. he'd just laughed, wrapping his arms around wonbin even tighter.
which brought eunseok to his current predicament.
not only had you come to the match, but you'd brought some of your friends with you. eunseok doesn't really recognize any of them but by the way that you're laughing as you're talking to them, eunseok figures that that you must be pretty close.
"if you could stop staring at the love of your life and finish warm-up drills, that would be great, cap," wonbin says and eunseok shivers, startled by the right wing's sudden presence.
"yeah. uh, team! keep up the drills for just two more minutes before debriefing," eunseok yells, finally forcing his head away from your direction to face his team.
"i invited her because i wanted to give you a chance to impress yourself in front of her. don't make this rare opportunity into a mess," wonbin suggests with a smirk, saluting to eunseok as he ran to sungchan to finish the last few drills with him.
"that brat. and he still wants to be captain next year," eunseok grumbles under his breath, begrudgingly joining the rest of the team. as much as he hated to admit it, wonbin was right.
getting you to come to this match was already more than eunseok had ever had in the past; there was no way that he was going to let himself fuck this up. that would be so incredibly embarrassing.
"alright!" eunseok shouts, clapping his hands and waiting for the team to huddle around him. "i don't need to remind anyone that just because our team has been doing well, we still need to play at our best, right? you all know how to play soccer so just do what you've been doing and don't let it get to your head. good and bad plays both."
he extends his hand out to the center of their huddle, and the rest of the team also extends their hands, chanting their school's soccer cheer before dispersing to discard any extra gear or possessions.
eunseok looks one last time to where you were sitting, just as a quick 'good luck glance' and he's startled to see you already staring back at him. you cock your head and smile slightly, offering him a thumbs up and eunseok feels as though he'd already won the match.
"seok, i've got an idea," sungchan, eunseok's fellow captain and one of his closest friend says, slinging an arm around his shoulders.
"what bullshit are you stirring up now?" eunseok says, his voice flat and unimpressed. sungchan grabs his chest where his heart was, as though he'd been shot, dramatically stumbling backwards.
"here i am, offering to relieve you of your pining and you say i'm stirring up bullshit," sungchan gasps. eunseok rolls his eyes, grabbing sungchan's jersey to pull him forward.
"what? match is starting soon," eunseok says, unable to keep the smile out of his voice.
"i'll make a bet with you," sungchan says. "if i score more goals than you do, you have to ask out y/n. but if you score more goals than i do, then you don't have to."
"this feels like a stupid bet. i'm not doing it," eunseok says, but he can already feel himself being swayed. he'd liked you for so long - at this point, he was just looking for the slightest push in the right direction to ask you out.
"alright fine. you don't have to. y/n's pretty cute, honestly, and she's hella smart too. so i'll make you a different deal. if i score more goals, i ask her out. if you score more goals, i won't ask her out," sungchan says, a devilish smile on his face.
eunseok's eyes look as though they'd burn sungchan to smithereens if they could but sungchan barely shivers, offering him a shit-eating grin and turning to blow a kiss to you.
"what the fuck? i should've known that you were up to something stupid," eunseok growls. "why the hell would you ask her out?"
"it's only an issue if i score more goals than you, right?" sungchan says, jogging backwards to join the team again, never breaking eye contact with eunseok.
eunseok knew that sungchan was a loyal friend and there was no way in hell that he was going to ask you out - even as a joke or as a push to get eunseok to confess his feelings - but eunseok was pissed. the idea of someone else confessing to you before he ever did made him see red.
the team barely sees eunseok the whole match. which is strange, because he's in for the entire match, but they barely even see him, his red uniform appearing as streaks up and down the field. he scores goal after goal, running towards the goalpost at speeds they'd never see the usually laidback captain move at.
and sungchan was no better than him. although his heart wasn't in it nearly as much, sungchan was hot on eunseok's heels, the two of them on opposite ends of the field and being the two people that the team relied on the most the entire match, carrying the entire team to victory.
which is why when the scoreboard reads 5 - 0, the team is shocked, but sungchan just has that stupid grin on his face. not only had eunseok scored one more goal than sungchan, he'd also gone mad, ensuring that the opposing team didn't score a single goal.
"what the hell did you do to cap?" wonbin asks sungchan, and the older boy just nods in your general direction.
"gave him the push he's been needing," he says, smirking with satisfaction when he sees eunseok jogging over to where you were sitting, after shaking hands with the opposing team and thanking the referees.
"thanks for coming, y/n," eunseok says, out of breath and sweaty when he reaches to where you were sitting. "i honestly didn't think you were coming - since sports aren't really your thing."
"i promised i would come, didn't i?" you quip, and a shy smile overtakes your face, making eunseok having to use every single ounce of his willpower to keep from squealing at how cute he found you. your friends slowly start to file out to leave the two of you standing there - you in the bleachers and him on the field.
"hm, yeah, you did." eunseok's face turns contemplative and for some reason, you rush to fill the silence, in a way that you'd never felt compelled to do with anyone else before.
"i have to admit...i had more fun than i thought," you say, choking on the words as you get them out. eunseok's eyebrows ascend into his hairline - which would be hilarious if you weren't the reason that they were doing so.
"you had fun? y/n l/n? having fun? that too, at a soccer match?" eunseok says incredulously, throwing his hands on his chest dramatically. "well, i'll be!"
you roll your eyes, but you can't help the silly smile you can feel start to form on your lips.
"i can have fun, you know. i'm not always studying and boring everyone. even at soccer games where all i see is a ball go up and down and i have no clue what's happening. i think you did well, though, since everyone was chattering a lot about your performance," you say, adding the last part to appease eunseok for inviting you.
"i don't care about what people say," eunseok says easily, waving his hand in the air as if to physically rid himself of the thought of other people disturbing his mental wellbeing.
"y/n! you have to get going; your tutoring starts soon and mrs. im is always super mad when anyone's the slightest second late!" one of your friends calls out, coming closer to physically drag you away from eunseok if need be.
even his ugliest stare doesn't work on discouraging them from approaching the two of you and eunseok figures that he should work on a mean glare instead of a blank stare; the latter wasn't helping as much anymore now that everyone just assumed that's what his natural face looked like.
"alright, alright. i'm coming," you say, stepping down the stairs of the bleachers carefully, tripping on the last step. eunseok's arm shoots out before he can even think of what he's doing, catching you as you fall.
"thank you," you say breathlessly, and suddenly, eunseok worries that you can hear the erratic beating of his heart from just how close you were to each other, your chests quite nearly touching.
"you wanna hang out some time? maybe prove that the academic queen, school topper, ms. brain knows how to have some fun?" eunseok asks, and he can feel the blood rushing throughout his body as his adrenaline is at an all-time high.
he doesn't think that he was nearly this nervous or that his heart was even pumping this hard during this match. but now, as he's looking down at the most beautiful woman he's ever seen in eighteen years of life, he can't help but feel weak in the knees and just a little too stupidly hopeful.
"i'm sorry eunseok. i'm pretty busy nowadays. especially with new people that i've been tutoring. i don't even have too much time to study myself; i don't think i can afford to take too many breaks now," you explain, somewhat sorry and somewhat sullen.
eunseok tries to keep the heartbreak from showing on his face and he nods, almost too excitedly.
"oh yeah, i get it! no worries! i mean, you are the number one student in the school! you've gotta keep those grades up!" his voice sounds fake even to his own ears and your friend winces apologetically but you don't even seem phased, flashing him a sweet smile.
"we'll 'hang out' when we work on the project next monday though right?" you ask, and eunseok nods, a plastic smile on his face.
"yeah, of course," he says, and for some reason, he can't help but wonder if you knew just how great you were at letting people down. eunseok knew that you were beautiful but no one had ever dared to ask you out, for fear of the fact that they would come second to your academics.
it's hard to ask someone out when you know what the answer is.
"well, i'll get going now then. mrs. im seems like a real tiger mom and i have my first tutoring session with her son today," you say, wrapping your sweater a little bit tighter around your body as you wave goodbye, retreating into the foggy afternoon.
"how did it go, cap?" wonbin asks, a knowing grin on his face, ready to tease/congratulate his captain on his definite success in asking you out.
eunseok doesn't even turn away from watching your figure until he's just staring at empty space and fog before saying, "tell the team we're running laps."
wonbin balks, looking in your direction to see if you'd come to save them. "but we won, cap!"
"no, sungchan and i won. the team is running laps," eunseok grinds out and wonbin immediately retreats backwards, understanding the situation a bit too clearly.
he sets off into a sprint and the team is quick to follow when they see the confusing expression on their captain's face. there was a mix of shame, heartbreak, confusion, guilt, and even some anger on his face and the team was just going to have to take the brunt of his emotions for now. he had a valid point, after all.
you were none the wiser about the soccer team's struggles until your friend, kim minjeong, looks back to see her friend, park wonbin, running in repeated circles before the fog starts to cover the soccer field. she shoves her hands into the pockets of her sweater before shaking her head.
"you know that eunseok was asking you out, right?" she asks and you scoff, pushing her slightly.
"you're insane minjeong. i think that jekyll and hyde is finally getting to you," you jest slightly, referencing her english project. "why the hell would eunseok ask me out?"
"because he wants to spend time with you? because you're a fun person when people get to know you? because he likes you, i don't know!" minjeong exclaims, stopping dead in her tracks and throwing her hands up.
"no, that can't be true," you say, but when you turn to look at what minjeong was looking at, you find that your eyes search the field until they lock with eunseok's eyes, which are trained on you and he cocks his head, causing you to shiver and face forward.
"are you sure?" minjeong asks, looking back and forth between you and eunseok as you march forward determinedly.
"i'm sure. there's no way that eunseok likes me."
+++
you were sure that eunseok didn't like you. that was what you had told minjeong and ning yizhuo, another one of your good friends, when the two of them had confronted you again later. that's the truth, as far as you're aware.
that's what made the most sense too; why the hell would the ace soccer captain be any level of interested in a person who spent all of their time studying and tutoring? someone who was known to be a reserved and kind enough person but a complete hardass when it came to their academics?
yizhuo's words echo in your mind as you sit on your bed, having completed your nightly routine of taking your vitamins and doing your skincare.
he'd never ask you if he wasn't interested.
you hated when she was right. especially when it meant that you were wrong about something. most especially because it meant that you were being emotionally unaware of something.
you stare at your phone, as if staring at it long enough would produce the answers you're searching for - the same thing you'd been doing for the past half hour. you know that you should go to sleep soon; you didn't have any tutoring tomorrow but you were planning on using the time to study, not having had much time over the weekdays to study.
but almost against your own reason and will, your arm reaches for your phone and types out a message recklessly, pressing send before your brain has the time to catch up to the antics of your foolish heart.
you: you wanna go to the arcade with me tomorrow?
you gasp at your own message, scandalized by your sudden initiative and something so out of character for you. you couldn't remember the last time you'd spent more than a couple minutes doing something fun.
actually, that was a lie. you'd just gone to eunseok's game. and you'd had fun. it was something about him that made you want to set down your pens and embrace life. or something else cheesy like that.
your heart jumps when eunseok's response comes, not even a minute after you'd sent the initial message.
song eunseok: i'd lvoe to. song eunseok: **love song eunseok: no tutoring tomorrow?
you type out a response, looking up to check the time on the desktop computer, catching a glimpse of your reflection. why the hell were you smiling?
you: not tomorrow. they canceled since they're going to busan for the weekend. song eunseok: ohhh i see. song eunseok: then let's do it! 1pm? you: sounds good. you: :)
you cast your phone aside on your nightstand, not bothering to read whatever messages eunseok had sent afterwards, instead drifting off into a somewhat peaceful and somewhat anticipatory sleep as you dreamt of the next day.
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you're uncharacteristically nervous, knee bouncing as you check your watch for the time for the third time in the past thirty seconds. much to your dismay, it was still very much 12:45 PM.
never had you been this nervous on the day of an important exam or a recital for violin. mostly because those were things that came somewhat easily to you - practice, practice, practice and you would succeed in any task given to you.
but friends? specifically friends who asked you on dates (according to yizhuo and minjeong, that's what this was)? you were somewhere between absolutely lost and crazy scared.
it's just eunseok, you have to breathe and remind yourself. just song eunseok. the stoic soccer team captain. your english project partner. the one that you've been getting a little too influenced by lately.
you consider turning around and heading home to safer territories (textbooks) and bailing on eunseok but before you can put your escape plan into action, the bane of your existence and cause for your issues appears in your vision, jogging over to you with the classic blank face that you've grown used to.
the shit-eating grin on his face that grows when he sees you already sitting on the bench outside the arcade is something that you're not used to, however, and it makes you blush at the implication.
"i'm a very punctual person," you say as soon as eunseok is in earshot, your ego smarting.
"i never said anything," eunseok retorts and you just harrumph, crossing your arms over your chest. "besides, i thought i'd definitely get here before you. you know, to practice."
your eyebrows knit together as you try to decipher the meaning behind his words. "to practice? practice what?"
eunseok's smile grows a little more bashful and sincere as he turns to face the arcade, unable to face you. "practice showing you that i'm worth wasting your saturday afternoon on instead of studying."
you fumble for words, leaping to your feet and marching into the arcade. "i'm not wasting my saturday afternoon on you! i'm - i'm showing you that i can be fun!"
eunseok just watches you enter the arcade, a dopey expression on his face and he jogs to follow you inside, slinging an arm around you in a casual motion that neither him nor you were expecting.
"you're plenty of fun, y/n. you have nothing to prove." eunseok's voice is soft and sweet above your head, and a little too sincere for you to pass over his words nonchalantly. you step just the slightest bit closer into his embrace, an action that doesn't go unnoticed by him and his grip, previously loose and lax so that you could push him off whenever, grows just the tightest bit stronger.
"that sounds like someone who's scared of getting their ass kicked in dance dance revolution."
"oh hell no. you're on, miss school topper."
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as much as you hate to admit it, you have an incredible time with eunseok at the arcade. although you don't live up to your own expectations of your performance at arcade games (you chalk it up to lack of practice), eunseok exceeds your expectations.
even games that he says that he's never attempted before come to him easily, and he beats you at every single one of them, even with handicaps such as shooting with one hand for the basketball game or closing his eyes and playing whack a mole.
it's somewhat damaging to your street cred (not that you were banking on any street cred, to be honest) but eunseok manages soothe your ego by winning you three plushies at the claw machine (which he was also good at; you were starting to think that he was ai). two of them were matching so you hand him one of them, saying that it could be a good way to remember this afternoon together.
"i don't think i forget this afternoon," eunseok says when you hand him the plushie.
"hm?" you ask, somewhat distracted by the cute plushies in your arms.
"nothing," he says, rubbing the back of his neck. "what do you say we go get some coffee? there's a really nice café nearby here."
"oh yeah, lets go. i love memories café; i study there all the time," you say, hugging the plushies to your chest.
"really? one of my friends works there! you should've told me before; i would've gotten you free coffee this whole time," eunseok exclaims, waving goodbye to the arcade employee that he'd become rather familiar with after all his visits to their establishment. the employee points to you subtly and gives him a thumbs up to indicate her approval of eunseok's type, and he just fake bows in agreement, walking out the arcade with a silly smile.
"which one? the tall one? i forget his name but he's pretty popular on campus, isn't he?" you say, your voice growing unsure as you try to place him in your memory.
"sungchan?" eunseok asks darkly, a troubled expression on his face. "yeah, he's pretty popular. for being pretty. and popular. and good at a lot of stuff."
"yeah, sungchan! he's the one who works there, isn't he? yizhuo always drags me to go when he's working because she thinks he's cute," you say before turning to eunseok with a gasp. "don't tell anyone i told you that! god, i can't believe i let that slip!"
eunseok chokes out a laugh, shaking his head. "i won't tell anyone, trust me. but, uh, do you think that he's cute? i mean you come to café pretty often right? is it because...because you think he's cute?"
you frown, trying to conjure his face in your mind before shrugging. "nah. i mean i see why people think he's cute but he's not really my type."
eunseok's heart leaps for joy before stopping at the end of your sentence. "uh, you have a type?"
he opens the door to the café for you when you reach it. you enter it, mumbling a quick thanks as you brush past him.
"sure. which teenage girl doesn't?" you quip, not even bothering to read the menu, already sure of what you were going to get.
eunseok scans the café, before groaning internally as his eyes land on his co-captain, flashing sweet smiles to every person that steps up to the register, never failing to make them swoon.
"care to share?" eunseok asks, shielding you from sungchan, wanting to prevent the clash for as long as possible.
"only if you do," you retort, and eunseok's stuck between figuring out how to keep you from seeing sungchan (or realistically, sungchan from seeing you) and how to tell you that you were his type, without actually saying your name.
he's saved and damned at the same time when sungchan calls out his name, and you peek around eunseok's body to see sungchan standing there in all of his tall, beautiful glory.
"sungchan, hey," eunseok says with a grumble, and you look up at him worriedly. he rushes to fix his tone, not wanting you to think that he was a salty or shitty friend.
"i see you've brought a friend," sungchan says smugly, and he extends his hand over the counter for you to shake. "hi! i'm sungchan, eunseok's co-captain."
you accept his hand, shaking it politely. "nice to meet you. eunseok's talked you up a lot. i'm y/n, by the way."
sungchan's eyes dart to eunseok at the mention of his praise, who's still brooding slightly, with a slight smile on his face. "trust me, there's no person at our school who doesn't know our resident number one academic. you haven't given up the throne since the day you stepped in our school."
you blush, trying to shrug casually. "i'm just really lucky to have the opportunities i do."
"intelligent, humble, and beautiful? how'd you get a girl like this to give you the time of day, seok-ie?" sungchan says, and it's like rubbing salt in the wound. sungchan is joking, and eunseok logically knows that he is just teasing him for finally working up the courage to ask you out three years after he developed feelings for you. but for some reason, the sweet smile on your face directed at sungchan instead of him made him upset.
"trust me, i have no clue either. she's pretty much perfect, isn't she?" eunseok says finally, and the sheer sincerity in his voice is enough for you to rip your gaze away from sungchan and to eunseok, who's looking at you with honey dripping from his eyes.
the sweetness in his eyes makes your heart race for some reason and you clear your throat, unable to turn away from eunseok for a good couple seconds before looking at the menu behind sungchan's head.
"well, uh, could i get a vanilla latte please? hot, not iced," you say, hating the quirk in your voice. eunseok's gaze is heavy on your face and he can barely find it in himself to turn away, ordering the same thing as you.
sungchan smirks, entering the order as his eyes dart between you and eunseok, both standing less than a foot apart but unable to look at each other.
"alright. i'll bring it over to your table, then. pro tip, the second floor has the best spot to watch the sunset in thirty minutes," sungchan says. eunseok nods in thanks, pulling out his wallet to offer sungchan a ten thousand won bill to cover your coffee and his own but sungchan just waves him away.
"today's coffee is on me. for the momentous occasion of song eunseok going on a date for the first time in his life," sungchan says and your head whips to see eunseok's reaction.
this was his first date? you think. but he's so popular! and so handsome...how has no one asked him out before?
almost as though sungchan can read your mind, he responds for eunseok. "he's been asked out so many times but he insisted that he was waiting for the one."
sungchan's words barely register in your mind, and your thoughts are still racing when eunseok guides you upstairs and to the table that sungchan had suggested.
"you've been waiting for the one?" you ask with an incredulous tone and eunseok tries his best to play it off casually.
"sungchan just says whatever. it's mostly because i didn't have the time," eunseok explains. and because none of the people who asked me out were you, he thinks, but doesn't voice aloud.
"hm. honestly, before you asked me out, i kinda thought i was going to die single," you admit after a couple moments of silence.
"why would you think that? we're only eighteen! and besides, you're smart, talented at violin, beautiful, and a bunch of other things i can't think of right now. anyone would be lucky to date you," eunseok says indignantly and you smile, but it doesn't quite reach your eyes.
"if i'm being honest with you, it's all just to cover up my own insecurities. in middle school, i wasn't that smart and i didn't really care about my grades. i had a crush on this kid - i think his name was shotaro? - but he didn't really notice me. i wasn't the smartest kid in the grade, or the prettiest one, or even rich enough to dress up nicely and wear the things i wanted to.
"i don't think he actually cared about any of that stuff but my own insecurities sabotaged me enough to convince myself that he wanted nothing to do with me because i wasn't good enough. so i threw myself into everything i could. violin, academics, working out - everything. i started getting quieter and quieter because i thought that no one would want to listen to what i had to say.
"and the more i did things like that, the more i got used to being like that. i got used to being alone and focusing on my academics and stuff. even minjeong and yizhuo have always been closer to each other than they have been to me. they do fun things without me and that's mostly my fault because i never truly let them in but i don't know. it's hard to remind myself that people want to be my friend.
"especially because everyone thinks that all i think about is stuff like my studies and violin. it's hard to have fun and make memories when there's no one to make memories with. i just wish that i could have days like this, where i go out and have fun and do the things i want to with someone who wants to make memories with me."
you sigh, brushing away the tears that had welled up in your eyes as you had spoke. eunseok is silent the whole time and you finally come to your senses, rushing to lean forward in your chair and explain your sudden outburst of emotions.
"i'm so sorry for talking your ear off! i have no clue what my problem is; i promise i'm not usually so full of myself. i don't know why i'm talking about myself so much - "
eunseok doesn't let you finish. before your brain can even process, eunseok's lips are on your cheek, and your entire body just freezes.
and before you can understand what's happening, eunseok's back in his chair, looking at you as if you were the one who had kissed him, rather than vice versa.
"sorry! i just - i didn't mean to kiss you without your consent. i'm sorry. i just really don't want you to continue berating yourself," eunseok says. "i really like you and it really sucks to know that the one person that you like the most - the person that you wish nothing but the best for - doesn't like themself nearly as much as you do."
he leans forward in his chair, turning his head so that his cheek was facing you.
"you should slap me. i can take it! i deserve it, anyway," eunseok says, squeezing his eyes shut when he feels a breeze descend on his cheek. but instead of the stinging of a slap, it feels as though a soft pillow has touched his cheek.
eunseok opens his eyes to see you leaning over the table to press your lips to his cheek and in his shock, he turns his head and suddenly his lips are on yours and you're kissing in this café.
it's like fireworks explode in eunseok's body, especially when you raise your hand to touch his cheek gently before pulling away, eunseok resting his forehead against yours.
"this is cute and all but do you mind doing this at home? i'm gonna lose my job and maybe my lunch if i have to watch this any longer," says sungchan's smug voice from behind eunseok, and the two of you leap backwards into your respective chairs.
"sorry man," eunseok manages to choke out, and you just hide your face in your hands, too embarrassed to look up.
"don't mind me," sungchan quips, setting down the two cups of coffee and retreating down the stairs, shoulders shaking from trying to hide his laughs.
"this is going to be all over school, isn't it?" you groan, your head letting a resounding thunk when you collapse against the table. eunseok gets up to hunt down and sungchan and swear (read: threaten) him to secrecy but you reach out, catching eunseok's sleeve.
you let go when eunseok stops to look at you, a hot flush on your cheeks. "i don't mind it, honestly. i mean, i was never expecting my first relationship to be such a public one but there's no sense in hiding things right?"
"wait, wait, wait. we're in a relationship? that you're okay with being public with?" eunseok says, and he can see you visibly debate back-peddling and taking back your statement or going forward with conviction.
it seems that you've chosen full throttle when you cross your arms over your chest, leaning on the table. "isn't that what you want too? a relationship? i'm assuming that you wouldn't kiss me if you didn't want me to be something more than a friend to you and i wouldn't kiss you if i wasn't open to exploring being that something more."
eunseok feels as though he's on cloud nine, slinking back into his chair with the satisfaction of a cat with a bowl of cream.
"trust me, there's nothing that i want more than that."
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as the two of you had expected, the school is quick to catch onto the budding relationship between you and eunseok and quite frankly, it feels refreshing for you to be associated with something other than excelling your academics.
eunseok breathes fresh air into your life just by his mere presence. he coerces you into coming to his soccer matches, never failing to run into the bleachers to scoop you up in his arms and kiss you like you're the only two people in the world.
the news of the resident ms. brain and mr. brawn dating had spread like wildfire, and an instagram post with eunseok spinning you and kissing you after winning the seoul championships garners over four hundred thousand views, your romance going viral. so viral, in fact, that someone had created an instagram account just to document your relationship - the account had over three thousand followers, as of the last time you checked.
you'd initially thought that the attention that your relationship spun up would cause issues between the two of you but more than anything, it caused you to work through any issues that came up with communication and healthy relationship counseling (sungchan flirting with you until eunseok finally got off his ass and apologized after fucking up - only whenever fights were about stupid things that either of you were too proud to give in about).
and just like that, months passed by within the blink of an eye. the instagram account (you're somewhat sure that park wonbin and kim minjeong were running the account from sheer amount of footage from close up the instagram page featured) posted a video of eunseok playing insanely well at a match after one of the times that sungchan had been called in reinforcements.
eunseok's dream college had extended a soccer scholarship, and he'd committed within twenty fours of receiving the offer and soon after, you committed to the same college.
when various people, eunseok included, asked you why you'd chosen to go to the same school as eunseok, rather than a bigger or more prestigious school (although this school was still top six in the nation), you'd just smiled and leaned into eunseok's embrace.
"i can study and do well anywhere. i can't make memories to cherish and share for the rest of my life if i go anywhere else." is all you say to everyone who asked and eunseok thanks his lucky stars that he'd kissed you that day in the café to be able to hold you and talk about a future with the two of you like this.
and just as fast the last couple months had passed by, a full ten years pass by. the ten years are filled with moments of happiness and sadness, laughs and tears, but filled with life that you wouldn't trade for the world.
and when you and eunseok walk together to the high school reunion held at someone's restaurant, hand in hand, looking the same as you had as stupidly in love teenagers ten years ago, next to no one is suprised.
"look who it is! it's mrs. brawn and mr. brain now," someone calls out, causing all of your classmates to erupt into laughter. the both of you just look at each other and smile, flagging down where sungchan and minjeong are sitting and taking your own seats next to them.
"by the way, eunseok, how'd you get our resident genius to go out with you anyway? or even fall in love hard enough to go to the same college as you?" someone you don't really recognize asks from the other side of the restaurant and the entire restaurant buzzes with excitement, waiting for eunseok's answer.
eunseok smiles and exchanges a look with sungchan, a teasing glint in his eyes. "let's just say that sungchan isn't allowed within ten feet of my wife."
and with that, the restaurant breaks out into cheers and laughter, everyone returning to their conversation, the attention turning to the most eligible bachelor of their grade, jung sungchan.
minjeong leans over to whisper in your ear. "it's a good thing you had a private wedding; i bet half of these people don't know that sungchan was eunseok's best man."
you shrug, laughing freely with everyone else. "half of these people also don't know that you and sungchan have been dating for the past three years."
eunseok's wedding band flashes under the light as he raises his glass to toast to the 'inside joke' that the four of you shared, clinking his beer with the three of you.
"to the bambi boy and the winter girl!"
"to mr. brawn and mrs. brain!"
"i can't believe i graduated from ms. brain to mrs. brain."
"and i can't believe that you and eunseok have been together for eleven years instead of fourteen because eunseok was too much of a pussy to ask you out when he started liking you."
"JUNG SUNGCHAN, I'M GOING TO FLAY YOU!"
"don't skin my fiancé please. you can do whatever you want after the wedding."
"i can't believe my fiancé hates me this much."
"i can't believe these people are our friends."
"i can't believe i finally scored mrs. brain."
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➠SYNOPSIS !  : in which you have your fair share of embarrassing moments. one of it being punching a guy's nose for a plushie (which you did not get at the end). but what will you do when he ended up going to the same class as you. wait, oh no! he recognised you. now you're in for one hell of a ride.
(read my a/n to find out what i've been up to lately!)
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author notes đ°àŸàœČ HIIIIIIII ^__^ so here's a lengthy a/n to fill u in about what i've been up to throughout my long hiatus!
i developed a crush and its a SERIOUS one. hes sooooo dreamy and perfect and is ngl the main reason why i've been offline lol. he is the top student and is also the student president of our school so hes GOOD good. not to mention that hes really kind a respectful towards women too đ„č
oh andddd he helps me with add maths bcs i'm unfortunately not as smart as him đ we are also in the same afterschool club where he's the president of the club whereas i am the vice president! cant wait for our upcoming interactions ngl đ€
2. i've been studying a lot! this one is also related to my crush bcs as i mentioned, hes a top student and he also teaches me sometimes which leads to me wanting to study hard bcs for some reason whenever i think of him, i feel like studying (đ)
3. i've been trying to be more offline! i'm still active on my socials but i only use them for communications. for the rest, ive been trying to be as offline as possible. i even deleted my games and all. but worry not! i'm trying to make a comeback here bcs i love my silly little readers sm đ«¶
lastly i just wanna say that there will be bonus chapters for this so pls stay tuned!
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summary : you had hated jake since you were kids but, you weren't kids anymore were you?
genre : angst, slight fluff, jake x afab!reader, enemies to lovers, highschool!au, childhood-friends!au, non-idol!au, hurt-comfort tws : language, lowkey mean y/n (for a reason), use of the word hate a lot, alluded parental issues/trauma, lowkey depression author notes : wrote this for mimi & lina cuz y'all need to collect ur man from out of my brain please i beg word count : 2.3k
he was annoying. he annoyed you. he pushed your buttons so well it took everything within you to fight off an outburst. you hated him. no, you loathed him. he was the arch nemesis in your fantasy novel. the pebble in your shoe. the sand on wet feet. the warm side of your pillow. he was everything you knew you didnât want in your life.
but, he wouldnât leave you alone.
it had started years ago, back when you were just a little kid in elementary school and this shaggy haired boy was paired with you in hopscotch. you didnât protest at the time, but oh should you have, because you werenât aware of the can of worms it would open in your life â the container of sparkles you were still finding in undesirable places; by the name of jake sim.
it was bordering an obsession.
but, in reality, all he was obsessed with was your reaction; the way your face would flush when you heard his annoying voice; the way your body would tense under his annoying gaze; the way your blood boiled when his annoying laugh rang through the air; the way your fingers dug crescents into your palms when his stupidly-white teeth would show themselves for another classmate; the way your stomach would turn when he'd brush his stupidly-styled hair from his face. or bite his annoying lips. or crack his stupid knuckles. or stretch and reveal his stupid abs.
he made you so sick. so fucking nauseous that you couldnât stand being around him for more than a few minutes at a time.
he was so egotistical. so cocky. so adored and admired by just about anything that breathed.
so whyâd he choose to follow you around like a lost puppy? even after you had screamed and cried at him to leave you alone â all those years ago now â to go about his perfect fucking life and leave you to yours.
whyâd he, of all people, have to bother you?
you tried so hard to ignore the everlasting presence behind you, and if you and jake didnât happen to be neighbors you wouldâve started sprinting. but, it was july and nobody really wants to run in the scorching heat. especially not you, and jake played soccer so it would've been no use trying anyways.
you had exited your house, preparing to walk to the gas station instead of deal with your parents outbursts about god knows what, when perched on the front lawn in front of you was none other than someone you really didnât want to see either. and, for a moment you thought he was going to give up his annoying-you act as he didnât trail you for a good couple of strides. but, that was short lived as you saw the man take off from his porch, causing you to grumble and cross your arms.
you kept your chin high, not acknowledging jake in hopes that it would steer him away; because he liked to get a rise from you. and, if you took that away, he wouldnât have a reason to bother you. the plan was fool-proof in reality⊠well, at least it shouldâve been.
jake kept following you, all the way into the drink isle of the gas station. he even went as far as grabbing your favorite and shoving it in the back pocket of your jeans â but you werenât in the mood, and frankly you were far past angry; at ur parents, at the heat, at yourself.
but, not at jake and, for that you didnât know why.
he was everything that annoyed you, but he was also the only thing that stayed consistent â and that was oddly comforting â because you knew that if only you looked around jake would be there in some form or not.
like the stars in the sky, the wind through air, the smell of sea water, and over exaggerated accents; jake was there, within them all. and, somewhere along the way it all stopped being the vain of your existence.
you weren't kids anymore, and the petty competition between you two had ceased some time ago, which only left room for something else to bloom; something far from those two kids on the hot asphalt.
you rolled your eyes at him, "why won't you just leave me alone?" he shrugged in response, going off to the isle with snacks, but you weren't hungry. sick, actually. so, so sick to your stomach at the very thought of actually thinking fondly of the one thing you're supposed to hate with all your will. you were convinced you were going to be buried with a rotting heart, but even the slightest twinge from his stupidly-pretty lips melted your ice-cold feelings.
you paid for the drink, no longer seeing the boy. a sigh (of relief?) left your lips when you exited the station. you scouted the place, only the scorchingly bright sun reflecting off peoples cars as they filled up. no sight of the man who trailed you hereâ
wait, why were you looking for him?
you told yourself it was to make sure you got away before he came out â you wanted a peaceful walk back with your drink, and thoughts, not a puppy-like man. but, you knew deep down you also craved the comfort he seemed to bring whenever he was around. and, maybe it was especially needed now but, you began to walk anyways, prepared to ignore him some more if need be.
it was better that way, thatâs what you had to tell yourself. thatâs what youâve always told yourself.
it was better you stay away from everyone. you were content with yourself, weren't you?
that's what you were always programmed to believe, anyways.
"miss me that much, y/n?" it should've been dangerous how fast you spun on your heels. he smirked, "that's why you were looking, isn't it?"
you scoffed to his face, cracking open the drink in your hand and taking a long swig. "absolutely not." you leveled your head again, humphing and turning back around to begin walking.
you were always two peas in a pod, and petty respected petty.
it was like a game you two played without rules, no start, and definitely no end. it was the unspoken regular, no peace when you were in each others presence. if you weren't at each others throats then hell had to have frozen over, one of you died, or anything of the sort.
you wanted to tell him to stop following you but, whether you did or not, he still lived across the street. he had just as much a right to walk this street as you did. but, you were still annoyed.
and, on your shared (desired or not) walk, you couldn't help the emotions welling up within you. everything was just getting a little too much for you to keep bottled inside. first it was the migraine you woke up to after staying up half the night studying for a future you weren't even sure you wanted to have. then, it was the yelling between and by your parents; about what? you still weren't even sure. but one thing you were sure about was the tears that began to prick your eyes. you tried so hard to swallow them down with the drink, but even with your head tilted back, they fell. and, just like your game, they showed no sign of stopping.
you needed something, however you never knew what it was, just always slightly out of reach. you felt incomplete, hallow, empty. but, what made you worthy of being sad; you had everything.
it angered you. however, you were just like your parents, weren't you? never knowing how to express yourself healthily. they told you what was expected and you followed like it was a goddamn marionette show. your whole life was planned before you even spoke your first word; be top student. be well liked. be nice. be pretty. be in clubs. don't make friends. don't talk back. and, don't fucking cry.
you felt a gentle hand pull you back, and out of your thoughts. you blinked a couple of times, trying to de-blur the splotched scene.
you must've not realized how loudly you were crying, "are you okay?" jake asked. you'd never seen concern on him before â it was something you weren't sure you'd actually ever seen â and, you were supposed to hate it?
you weren't sure of that anymore either.
your brain wasn't working as his eyes met your tear-filled ones, but everything still boiled over like you were sat on the back burner.
"stop it!" you shouted at him, throwing your wrist from his hand, "stop fucking following me!" and suddenly you were back in middle school â the only other time he had seen you cry â screaming the same thing at him in the middle of the playground. "stop trying to be around me! i hate you! stop playing this stupid game! you're annoying, okay! i hate your stupid laugh, and stupid smile, and stupid hair, and stupid everything! stop liking me! you make me so fucking sick, jake! i can't stand you, okay? you win, for gods sake!"
his eyebrows creased, but he didn't back down from your words. actually, he got closer, and you swear your breath hitched. but, before he got a chance to reply to anything another wall went up, and you practically whispered, "...let's j-just stop, jake." through a broken voice; utterly defeated, "i'm tired."
tired of feeling like you had lost all control over yourself. tired of hating everything you're supposed to be grateful for. tired of being so goddamn tired and confused. tired of being angry and frustrated. tired of romanticizing the late night mock-exams and good grades. tired of being friendless. tired of being fake. tired of being molded into an emotionless vessel. tired of being the class president and always-too-busy girl. tired of being you. tired of being alone.
and, so tired of pretending to hate the one person who never let you get too far away from him.
"i-i'm okay, okay?" you sighed, wiping your cheeks with your forearm and hand, "i'm fine!" you mocked a smile, "just go home, jake."
maybe it was because, ever since the moment he was paired with you, you were never able to convince him of your perfect lifestyle. your plastic covered couches and white piquet fences. and, when he moved across the street it's like he could see through all your lies even better.
"are you really okay?" he asked, knowing you were only telling him an otherwise well-sold tale (to everyone else, at least).
you huffed angrily, "yes! so, just leave me alone now, okay? go back to your school friends, and soccer team, and loving parents, and brother. get out of my life, please â i hate you! i hate you so much â how many times do i have to tell you this?"
his voice was soft yet well-defined, "until you mean it."
his words echoed so painfully loud inside your head, taking you aback. he'd never spoken to you like that. he'd never said something other then teasing comments and pushes to get you to roll your eyes at him. he had never been more than the thorn in your back; the one side of your stuffed-up nose; the one question of a test you had to guess on; he was never more than someone who liked to pull pranks on you to get a rise. never more than jake sim: your relentless enemy.
so, why was your heart thumping with something more than anger and frustration?
you knew the answer deep down through your rising stomach bile. your nausea. you knew it was because he was everything you needed, and that's why he made you so sick.
you hated that he could see through you like a goddamn window. you hated how he wouldn't run away. you hated how he could watch you cry. you hated how he'd look at you. you hated how you didn't even want him to actually leave. you hated how you looked for him in the simplest things. you hated how he was consistency in an ever-evolving world. you hated how he was supposed to be the one thing you hated. you hated how you craved a stupid-smile from him. you hated how attractive his stupid-hair looked. you hated how you desired to hear his stupidly-tuneful laugher. you hated him and his extensive knowledge on you. you hated that you didn't even hate him â no, you actually loathed him so fucking much that somewhere along the way, you loved him.
you loved him so much, and that's why you hated him.
you hated that you couldn't have him. you hated that he was always the something that was just slightly out of reach. you hated that he knew you didn't hate him. you hated that he didn't even hate you for it. you wanted him to, and that's why you hated him first.
maybe, in reality you knew it wouldn't have hurt less either way, but it was the path you chose â had chosen for you â and turning back now wasn't something in your sights. you only had one option.
"i hate you."
his hands found your cheeks, forcing you to look into his stupidly-pretty eyes. you didn't even protest, knowing not-so-far past surface level that you wanted to give in. "well, i love you."
you wanted him to hold you. you wanted him to kiss your tears away. you wanted him to be the man you could run across the street to when things got tough. you wanted his comfort. you wanted him to tell you it would all be okay. you wanted to be his comrade, not his enemy. you wanted him to fix your broken heart and mind â stick you back together with glitter-glue. you, truthfully, wanted him as much as he wanted you.
and, that's what you hated the most; jake â the only silver lining in your life â sim. the man you're supposed hate, but love.
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IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS!!
FEELS LIKE A THRILLER! áŻáĄŁđ©
18. all's well that ends well word count | 3k
YOUâVE BEEN FRIENDS WITH ANTON LEE SINCE YOU CAN EVEN REMEMBER. You met each other as kids, forced to hang out with each other at a house party his parentâs had invited your family to. Given that you two were around the same age in comparison to the other kids who were still oblivious babies or whiny toddlers, it was only natural for you and Anton to gravitate towards each other: wherever he went you would follow, your fondest memories with him being when you both constantly abused your âbig sisterâ and âbig brotherâ privileges to boss the other kids around.Â
But in comparison to you who always got a little too mean towards the little kids, Anton was much more lenient; it was why they often favored him over you, which you didnât really mind. That meant theyâd bother you less during parties. But it was still you who hung out with Anton the most and it was you who stuck to his side even if the younger kids didnât really want you around. Then middle school came, and you two gradually drifted apart until you had your own set of friend groups in high schoolâyou were off with Minji and Sunoo and Taesan and Jaehyun and Danielle, and he was constantly surrounded by other guys you didnât really care about (all except for a certain someone, of course, but thatâs later on into the future). The house parties happened less and less, the little kids grew up and eventually left the two of you alone, and it was only until he found out about your little crush on Seunghan did you and Anton finally start bringing back the friendship that was slowly becoming forgotten.Â
Anton is⊠a good kid, which is why everyone is always drawn to him. Heâs always had a heart as big as his head, so perhaps the reason why youâre this nervous about meeting with him after what seemed like days since your fight is because you donât want to lose him again. Drifting apart is natural, friends fightâyou know all that, but at the very least you did not want to end it on bad terms. You donât want your last memories of your childhood best friend being bitter, which is why you must absolutely not mess this one chance up.Â
ââŠDid you ever, like, have a crush on him?â Seunghan inquires slowly, tapping his pen against his chin languidly as he sits on the floor beside your bed.Â
You give him a small, questioning glare. âWhy do you ask?â you start, suspicious. âBecause you think girls and boys simply canât be friends?âÂ
Seunghan shrugs. âYeah?âÂ
âWait, really? You really think that?â your shoulders slumped.
âI mean,â Seunghan says, leaning back on your bed. âAntonâs pretty handsome, surely youâve had a crush on him when you were younger, right?âÂ
You consider it. âHmm⊠well, I guess I did.âÂ
âReally?â Seunghan seems more shocked rather than appalled. You hoped that was a good thing.
âIn seventh grade, I think,â you clarify, âthat was when he started gettingâŠcute, I guess, and he was also getting more involved in swimming. Everyone started finding him attractive too, so it wasnât just me. It was like being attracted to him was the new trend, or something.âÂ
âWhat happened after that?âÂ
âWell, he got a girlfriend around that time, so I quickly lost all the interest I had in him. I think I was super in-denial about it, too, so itâs not like anything would have happened between us because I didnât want it happening at all,â you blandly respond. âAnyway, whenever I think about dating Anton, I just keep remembering about how heâd always cling and cry to his mom for hours when something didn't go his way back when we were little. So, major turn-off.âÂ
Seunghan laughs loudly, and you watch him fondly as he tries to regain his senses. âSeriously?â he asks, tilting his head to the side.Â
âSeriously.âÂ
Seunghan looks at you thoughtfully. âSo you lost interest in him because he got a girlfriend, but why wasnât it the same when it came to me?âÂ
You pause, blinking slowly at him as shock invades your expression. Seunghan merely stares right back at you, an easygoing smile on his face while he waits for your response.Â
âIâŠâ your words lose you, and you desperately try to grab at them. But Seunghan is patient, he waits for you to gather them, leaning his cheek against the cap of his knee while he sits beside you on the floor of your room. âI donât⊠know?âÂ
His smile widens. âYou donât know?âÂ
You feel your face flush. âWell, I mean,â you start off bashfully, looking away from his prying gaze. âThis and that are different⊠I knew Anton way before I started crushing on him, but I barely knew you. Plus, I realized I just saw him as a brother, but you⊠we werenât even friends in the first placeâŠâÂ
Your face is probably as hot as a whistling kettle after you finished talking, and Seunghanâs amused smile isnât helping your situation in the slightest.Â
âDonât start teasing me,â you grumble, and Seunghan just laughs again, moving closer to pinch your cheek.Â
âBut youâre so cute,â Seunghan coos, inching closer while you attempt to push his invasive hands away from your face. âYouâre my cute girl, the cutest ever, I just wannaââÂ
A loud knock interrupts him, and you jump at the sound.Â
âAnton,â you gasp, staring back at Seunghan with wide eyes.Â
His silence enables you to aggressively push him away from you, and he gently stumbles back into the opposite way as you scramble to get onto your feet. He gives you an offended look, and you look back at him with an apologetic expression only to be met with a playful roll of his eyes. You hype yourself up as you make your way to the door, before opening it without further ado.Â
Anton blinks down at you. âOh, hey,â he casually says.Â
âHey!â you respond, suspiciously a little out of breath.Â
Anton glances at Seunghan whoâs keeping himself busy with his laptop by the back, looks at your flushed face, before making a disgusted expression. âEw, donât tell me you two were making out just nowâŠâÂ
Seunghan freezes, the tips of his ears turning red while your jaw almost hits the floor.Â
You instinctively hit Antonâs arm. âNo, we werenât, idiot!âÂ
He yelps, nursing his arm. âOw! You didnât have to hit me, jeez⊠I came here in peace, and this is how you treat me?âÂ
You cringe. âSorryâŠâ
Anton quickly digresses. He meets your hesitant gaze, quietly asking, âCan we talk outside?âÂ
âOh, uh, sure,â you blinked. There it wasâthe Anton you knew when you were kids, always so shy despite being in the company of his friends. But the situation is a little more than just that, so you understand where he was coming from. âIn the hallway?âÂ
âYeah, it wonât be quick,â Anton confirms as you step out of the room, taking one last longing look at Seunghan, who merely sends you back a reassuring smile as if he was saying âgoodluck!â to the both of you. (You refrained from eating your fist at how cute he looked.)
Out in the hall, the air turns into suffocating awkwardness you never thought youâd have with Anton Lee. You donât remember being this⊠tense around his presence, as if youâre walking around eggshells around him no matter how nonchalant the two of you tried to act. You try to recall the last time you felt this awkward around him, but you can only come up with the brief moment in middle school when you harbored a crush on him that hadnât even lasted a week. You had felt awkward around him because viewing Anton in a romantic light never really seemed that appealing, but that feeling had immediately washed away when you realized all you ever wanted out of him was his friendship and nothing else.Â
Of course, you canât say the same about Anton. Itâs not as if you can read his mind despite knowing him for so long now, but now you wonder if heâs experienced the same feelings you once did. And, in some part of you, you wonder if he harbors any romantic feelings for you right nowâeven if the rest of your friends tried to hide it, you werenât oblivious to Jaehyunâs knowing glances whenever you and Anton were in the same room.Â
You just didnât want to acknowledge such things ever again, not when your friendship with him has been sailing pretty well these past few years already.Â
Well, until now, that is.
âSoâŠâ you trail off, looking at his shoulder instead of his face.Â
âIâm sorry,â Anton immediately says, voice quieter than ever.Â
Oh.Â
âI shouldnât have acted so weird after promising Iâd set you up with Seunghan,â he continues, scratching his nape. âI never meant to insinuate that your feelings for him were shallow. I know how much you like him, but I ended up projecting my doubts into you and ruining our friendship in the process anyway. I honestly really, really wanted you guys to get together because I know thatâs what makes you happy, and itâs also what makes Seunghan happy, soââÂ
âI forgive you, Anton,â you interrupt, before looking down at the floor. âAnd Iâm also sorry; I shouldnât have cornered you like that in the groupchat. I just⊠I just hated the thought of you disapproving of my relationship with him, even though you were only worried about us. And I donât blame you for being suspicious of me, too, because I was honestly starting to falter during the first stages of becoming close with Seunghan, but I ended up really liking him anyway. And Iâm glad you helped us get closer, really; I just wish we went about our concerns differently and honestly.â
âYeah,â Anton agrees, smiling lightly, âbut itâs okay now. You got your man, and I did my job. Weâre all good. Right?âÂ
âYeah,â you repeat. âLife is good.â
âEh, well, not⊠really? I have a composition assignment due in forty-eight hours and I havenât gotten a single note in,â Anton says dryly. âI need to lock in right now.âÂ
You push him, and he looks back at you in offense. You smiled, saying, âLock in with us, then. We were just doing homework, for your information.âÂ
Anton grumbles. âYeah, right⊠Iâd still third-wheel anyway.âÂ
âDonât be a big baby, âton,â you roll your eyes. âWeâre not gonna kiss in front of you.âÂ
âPlease donât put that image in my mind. Iâll vomit right in this hall.âÂ
âAnd Iâll make you clean it up, then Iâm gonna tell your mommy how good of a job you did.âÂ
âKay why ess.âÂ
You pause, looking at him thoughtfully. Anton slowly looks back at you, and you send him a small smile.Â
â...Thanks for looking out for us,â you say, quietly, âyouâre aâ...youâre a good best friend.â
âNaturally,â Anton snorts, and you give him a blank look. He quickly feigns a cough, saying, âYouâre my best friend, too. Of course Iâll look out for you.âÂ
It feels like a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders.Â
â...Can you believe that I had a crush on you during seventh grade?â you joke, intending to lighten the mood.Â
âYeah?â Anton raises a brow at you, surprisingly unfazed.Â
You blink.Â
âWait, seriously?âÂ
âYeah, I knew you liked me at that time,â Anton casually replies. âBut then you started liking Intak from choir. By the way, he also knew you liked himâhe told me at our last concert.âÂ
âWhat?! How?!âÂ
â...Youâre not that slick, you do know that, right? The only reason Seunghan never knew was because you barely talked to him.â Anton explained dryly, sending you a disapproving look. âYou were tooâadmirer-like. It gets sad to look at sometimes. Those four years couldâve been shortened to, likeâI donât know, three months? If you just freakinâ talked to him or something.â
Your eyes narrow. Anton raises his arms up in defense.Â
âBut allâs well that ends well, right?â he quickly says, voice laced with a tinge of panic. âLetâs not drag this scene out nowâŠâÂ
You sigh in response, but oblige nonetheless. âYouâre right. Allâs well that ends well.âÂ
You smile at Anton again, feeling content. You hope he shares the sentiment.Â
Just in time, Seunghan pops his head out from your door, looking both ways before finding the two of you crowding to the right. The creaking sound the door made as it opened forces yours and Antonâs attention towards the interruption, only to find a sheepish Seunghan stare right back at you.Â
âYou guys have been out here for a whileâjust checking,â he says, ruffling his already messy black hair. âMy bad.âÂ
Although he tries to play it off with an air of nonchalance, you think you sense a hint of worry in his tone regardless. The thought makes you both uneasy and excited at the same time, which shouldn't even make sense but it just does.
Because Seunghanâs your boyfriend. And sometimes boyfriends get jealous when their girlfriendâs are alone with another guy. God, you shouldnât be liking that sentence as much as you actually do.Â
âItâs all good, man,â Anton assures, waving a hand placatingly. Awkward again, but thatâs none of your concern anymoreâthatâs just how Anton is anyway. He bites the inside of his cheek, flickering his gaze between the two of you. âUm, so⊠I think Iâll go now. See you guys later.â
âWhat?â Seunghan exclaims, a little too dejected. âSo soon? You should stay and study with us. I know you still have that composition assignment to work on, and if you go back to your dorm now I know Sungchanâs just going to distract you.âÂ
Anton winces. âErm⊠I think Iâd rather have that than third wheââÂ
You interrupt him. âHeâs right! Weâre better company than Sungchan anyway. Stay. Letâs get some food or something. And pull an all-nighter or whatever.âÂ
Seunghan nods excitedly. Anton looks at the both of you incredulously.Â
âWhat the heck? You guys havenât even been dating for a month, yet youâre already so in-sync of being annoying,â he says. âYouâre quite literally making me pick between two evils right now.âÂ
âSo youâre staying?â Seunghan asks, grinning widely. You share the same, hopeful expression. âThe lesser evil is definitely us, right?â
â...Iâm not so sure about that.â
âPleaaaaase, Anton, we promise weâll be good, supportive study-buddies!â Seunghan needlessly insists. And you should be a little irked that your boyfriendâs begging another man to hang out with you two, but you surprisingly arenât. One more company didnât hurt, after all.Â
So Anton canât even believe what heâs about to say next:
âFine, but Y/Nâs paying for food!âÂ
You and Seunghan immediately cheer.Â
âWait, what?â you ask dumbly.Â
But you eventually relent as the other two start making their way down the hall, an echo of a nonsensical conversation picking up. At least it didnât take that much of a resistance from Anton to agree to yours and Seunghanâs invitation, and sure, it wouldâve been nicer to just hang out with your boyfriend, but you also didnât mind having your best friend tagging along as well. He was, after all, most of the reason why the two of you got together in the first place, so you more or less owed it to him. Plus, a hang out will slowly dissolve that suffocating awkwardness that has been circling between the two of you these past few weeks despite having already made up just minutes ago anyway, so reallyâallâs well that ends well.Â
When you finally catch up to them, Seunghan is the first one to speak up.Â
âSo, Anton, was there ever a time you liked Y/N?âÂ
The two of you practically choke on air.Â
âExcuse me,â you say.Â
Antonâs response is quieter. âYou heard usâŠ?âÂ
Seunghan laughs. âSorry, I got curiousâŠâ he says although he doesnât sound all that remorseful. âDid you, though?âÂ
âHow can you just ask that?â Anton squeaks out.Â
âNo, wait, Iâm curious too!â you exclaim. âI canât just be the one who had feelings for you at some pointâyou know how embarrassing that is?!âÂ
Seunghan nods along. âYeah! So embarrassing!âÂ
âYou guys are crazy, youâre literally her boyfriend!â Anton cries out, before slowly turning away. â...And yes, I did like her back at some point.âÂ
You almost trip on nothing. âWhat?â
Anton awkwardly avoids your gaze.Â
Seunghan hollers, and you send him a pointed look. He quiets down.
You look concerningly horrified when you ask Anton. âWait⊠youâre for real? When? Why? How?â
âIn seventh grade,â he replies meekly. âIt just happened, I guess.âÂ
You and Seunghan almost go into shock.Â
âHoly shit,â he whispers, staring at Anton with wide eyes. âYou guys couldâve beenâoh, my God. Wow.âÂ
âWait, so if you knew I liked you, then why didnât youâŠ?â you trail off, confused.Â
Anton rolls his eyes indignantly. âBy the time I did have feelings for you, you were already over it. What was I supposed to do?â
âI donât knowâfight for her?â Seunghan suggests. âSuch a wasted opportunityâŠâ
âDude,â Anton says dryly. âIf I did that, you guys wouldnât be dating right now!â
âOh, right.âÂ
You snort. âI guess it just means we arenât meant for each other, huh?â you joke.
Seunghan almost looks sad. âWell, when you put it like that⊠I guess it really was a âright person, wrong timeâ kind of situation, huh?âÂ
âYeah,â Anton says. âI like this outcome better, though. I like you guys together.âÂ
You look at him pitifully. âAnton, you donât have to be sadâŠâÂ
âIâm not sad.âÂ
âWeâll find you a partner soon⊠for all the help youâve given us⊠I mean, they probably wonât be as cool and awesome as me, but at least you wonât be lonely anymoreâŠâÂ
âNo thanks. Can we just go get food now?âÂ
âNo, really, Seunghan and I are always here for you. You helped us, so now itâs our turn to help youâwhat do you think of Wonyoung? Sheâs pre-med.âÂ
âOh! I know someone whoâs friends with her, what do you think? I think you guys would be a good match.âÂ
âGo to hell, the two of you.â
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SUMMARY. pining after hong seunghan has always felt like an unachievable reality; however, just a few months into your first year of college, it seems that the gods have finally listened to your prayers when news breaks out that your long-time crush is single once again.
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IM SO SO SOOO GRATEFUL THAT I GOT TO BE A BETA READER FOR THIS HSHSHSH I LOVED THIS SO MUCH MENDA!! đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶
moving to busan (kim leehan)
where you move to a new city and fall in love with a boy on the beachÂ
surfer!leehan x gn!reader (non-idol au)
this work is my contribution to @onedoornet 's summer event! ^_^ check it out here!!! âĄ
word count: 5.5k
genre + warnings: fluff!!! maybe a tad of angst o_O, written in all lowercase!, mentions of depression + feelings of unbelonging (??), leehan is referred to by his real name (donghyun), ft. side characters taesan and woonhak
a/n: me when i had to watch surfing videos to write this LMAO sorry if its inaccurateâŠâŠ.. i can't even swim! LOLLLL. i def channeled some of my own feelings into this, so it was rlly fun to write. i'd even go as far to say this is my Most Favorite piece yet :,)
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you didnât know what home felt like. which felt odd to say, given that you were extremely fortunate to grow up the way that you didâ a roof above your head, food on the dinner table, and a family to share it with. the older you got, the more it felt like you needed to leave. there wasnât anything inherently wrong with your life; sure, you had your fair share of rough patches here and there, but it was never anything too severe. despite that, you felt suffocated. it was hard to wake up in the same bed youâve used for lord knows how long, going outside to walk the same paths youâve walked on thousands of times, all to see the same faces everyday. this was all you knew.
moving to busan was something you never expected yourself to do. the decision was made more on a whim than anything else; immediately upon graduating, you decided to pack your bags and move to a new city, feeling like a stranger wandering alone in the foreign streets. there wasnât much to pack, anyways. you were committed to truly leaving everything behind and starting fresh, bringing only one suitcase and a backpack for your essentials.Â
you grew up in a smaller town, about five hours away from where you were now. there, you were used to the quaint homes belonging to the families you'd grown up with. the kind crossing guard by the middle school you used to attend still worked there years after you graduated, now bearing wrinkles by her eyes, but still possessing the same sweet smile she would always give you while helping you cross the street. everything you needed was a quick bike ride away. the area was quiet, comfortable, familiar. and yet, you left.Â
youâd gotten to a point where you grew sick of the familiarity. to live life in one place forever scared you. it was best described as a fear of being stuckâ like a stagnant body of water, peacefully undisturbed but painfully boring, to say the least. a fear of missing out on all the things you could be doing if you just lived somewhere else. anywhere more exciting than the town you knew like the back of your hand. you yearned for something else, something different.Â
moving to busan meant doing things you never got the chance to do back at home. growing up, you quickly realized that being in a small town meant that you couldnât do the same things that kids in bigger cities could do. all you had were necessitiesâ a supermarket, doctorâs office, run-of-the-mill shops lining a dirt road in the core of the area. it was enough, sure, but you were hungry for more. on the other hand, busan was full of unique experiences waiting for you. some being as simple as trying new cuisines at restaurants youâd only dreamt of seeing in your hometown, or attending various local festivals held in the area for tourists and residents alike.Â
it was crazy to think that life could be so different, even a few hours away from your childhood home. to most, giving up everything you once knew is a terrifying thought. to you, it was a wish you made to yourself when you blew out the candles on your birthday cake. you marveled at the way itâs been nearly two months since you first settled in and thereâs still an endless list of things youâve yet to try! it felt more like a dream, than anything. life has never been so brightâ especially after years of feeling dull in a town you now dreaded returning to. Â
moving to busan meant finally meeting new people. it was a breath of fresh air, really. the apartment complex you lived in was on the corner of a busy area, giving you access to a wide range of personalities each time you stepped out the building. you were lucky enough to get a part-time job at a newly opened cafe a couple blocks away, where you quickly became friends with your coworkers: taesan (who didnât like coffee in the first place) and woonhak (who spent more time talking to the customers than actually making drinks).
you wouldâve been content if those were the only two people you managed to befriend in the big city. they were full of lifeâ a never ending source of laughter and stories from their respective hometowns, making your shifts go by significantly faster when you were scheduled together, much to your disappointment.
this is exactly what you had in mind the first time you thought about leaving. it was exhilarating. being someone completely new to the area meant that you could be whatever you wanted to be. there were no expectations from those around you; nobody knew who you were prior to moving. it was a freedom you feared you would never experience if you stayed back homeâ the smallest changes in your appearance would be the talk of the town, especially with the way history ran deep between the residents. in busan, it was a relief to be a stranger.Â
moving to busan meant being by the water every chance you could get. youâre glad you moved right around the time spring started. the weather was perfect; just warm enough, not too hot. in your free time, you find yourself walking along the shore. it was only a short distance from your apartment, being only a fifteen-minute walk away from the sea. as a kid, youâd only visited it once. to you, the water was so terrifyingly beautiful. one would think they know what it has to offer on its surface, but the truths lie deeper than one could ever imagine. the very bottom of the sea could hold the most precious treasure in the world or the most dangerous creatures unbeknownst to manâ the possibilities were endless. itâs a shame that you didnât get to indulge in your interest more when you were younger, but you werenât complaining now that the beach was practically in your backyard.Â
sometimes you find yourself alone, sitting in the sand on an old blanket of yours. itâs normally right around dinner time, where most people have left the beach and the sun begins to fall from the sky. you could sit there for hours, listening to nothing but the waves crashing against the sand while you wait for the mix of colors from the sunset to paint the sky. you try to find a new place to relax every time you come to the water. much like how you felt about your hometown, it didnât feel right to return to the same spot each time.Â
on one of your routine visits to the beach, you met a boy, whose story felt oddly familiar to you. much like your own upbringing, heâs been in the same place his whole life. this is where your timelines falterâ itâs clear he has zero intentions of leaving the city he grew up in. to him, this is the only definition of home he could imagine. you were almost jealous. you yearned to know what it meant to truly enjoy being in the same place for so long. maybe it was commitment issues, or maybe it was just a never-ending desire to know moreâ to experience everything life had to offer. for donghyun, he seemed just fine being here forever.Â
the first time you saw him was by chance. today, you decided to go see the water after work. it was rare you worked the mid-shift, which coincidentally ended around the time you would normally find yourself sitting in the sand. âare you doing anything after work today, Y/N?â taesan asks, watching you take off your apron and fold it neatly before placing it into your bag.Â
âi think i'll go to the beach today.â you smile at the thought, having quickly found comfort in the location.
âwow, i'm jealous,â woonhak pouts at you from behind the register. âcanât believe youâre leaving taesan and i to close all by ourselves today!âÂ
you playfully roll your eyes at the boy. âyou should blame our boss, not me. if weâre all off one day, i promise weâll all go together!â your coworkers wave goodbye to you as you walk out of the front entrance, happy to see that it was still somewhat bright outside. you normally left long after the sun had set, when most of the neighboring stores were closing as well.Â
the walk there was always pleasant. you liked exploring different routes, seeking out all possible ways to get to the same destination. itâs hard to keep the excitement bubbling within you contained when the vast expanse of sand first comes into view. there were still groups of people scattered across the area, but because it wasnât exactly âbeach seasonâ yet, it wasnât too populated. you hadnât brought your usual blanket with you; coming here was a spontaneous decision. instead, you decided to lay out your apron close enough to the water to smell the salty air but just out of reach of the waves rippling against the shoreline.Â
you plant yourself onto your makeshift beach towel, the sand feeling soft below you, still warm from the sunâs touch. looking into the distance, youâre entranced by the movements of the sea. it was healing, the rhythmic push-and-pull of the waves leaving a white foam in its path, bubbling and full of life. the calls of seagulls from above you, soaring around peacefully.
you wish you knew what it could feel like to fly like that, to feel the air beneath your wings. complete freedom. a small figure comes into your view, pulling your gaze away from the birds. someoneâs surfing? itâs a little cold to be doing that right now. even so, the boy didnât seem to mind. standing on the surfboard, his face was filled with pure joy as he rode the water beneath him. the closer he got, you were able to hear his fun-filled cheers more clearly. complete freedom.Â
he was awfully good at what he was doing, unphased even if the tide seemed to pick up a bit more than expected. right now, the stranger looked completely in tune with the water; as if they were one and the same. his movements were graceful, despite how difficult it must be to keep balance.Â
the wave soon dies down, crashing against the sand as it always does. your eyes observe the way he laughs to no one but himself as he walks through the shallow parts of the water. drops of water fall from his hair as he shakes his head, board held securely beneath his arm. the wetsuit is tight against his skin; his figure is lean and toned, presumably from all the surfing he does.Â
heâs not too far away from you now, catching his breath as he sits in the sand parallel to you. the surfboard sits idly against the sand as he looks out into the horizon, seeking his next adventure. itâs not long before he gets up and approaches the water once more, sensing a big one coming up. you didnât know much about how this worked, having only seen it in movies or tv shows, never in-person like this.Â
the man lays stomach-down onto his board, determined as he paddles deeper into the unknown. heâs dismissive of the smaller ripples against him, not nearly powerful enough to get a good ride. itâs impressive how he seems to control the water, rather than the other way around. itâs clear that he loves what heâs doing. you decide you love it too, completely mesmerized by the way he maneuvers through the tide. he disappears briefly as a larger wave washes over him, but heâs quick to rise above it, emerging on the other side and pushing further into the sea. you watch as the water begins to crest close to him. this is the one.Â
if you werenât paying enough attention, you wouldâve missed the way the stranger effortlessly springs to his feet, knees bent slightly when he first mounts the board. he shuffles slightly, adjusting his stance for better balance. almost in tune with the water, he skillfully navigates the wave, letting the water bring him back to the shore once more.
the sun was behind him now, a beautiful arrangement of pinks and oranges flooding the sky, making the picture perfect. you almost couldnât believe you had the pleasure of seeing it in real time, the whole scene looking like a frame out of a movie. there it was again, an expression of bliss as he enjoys the ride, arms stretched out in the air by his sides as the board is pushed back to the shore once more. even when he falls off the board as the momentum slows down, the grin on his face never dies.Â
despite your attentiveness, you donât comprehend the way the handsome man was heading your way, being led by the tide. much like before, heâs chuckling to himself as the high from the ride slowly dies down. his hand runs through his damp locks after wiping the salty water from his face. now, heâs walking directly towards you, eyes shaped like crescents with the way he was cheesing so hard. your heartbeat speeds up. you turn around, finding that there was no one else around. his smile is reserved for you.Â
the board is held close to his body as he leaves the water, his footsteps leaving indents in the damp sand behind him as he settles a couple feet away from you. thereâs a soft plop as he drops the surfboard on the ground, taking a seat next to it.Â
âdo you want to try?â his eyes flick over towards the water before theyâre back on you.Â
âhuh?â youâre baffled at the way you were observing him from afar only a couple minutes prior, and now heâs striking up a conversation.Â
âyouâve been watching me for a while, no?â he tilts his head, lips curling into a small smile. his accent is thick, more obvious than some of the others youâve heard in your short time there. he must be from around here.Â
âwas i that obvious?â you joke, playing with a handful of sand by your feet.Â
the stranger laughs in response. âthereâs barely anyone else here right now, at least around this time of year. you think i wouldnât feel a set of pretty eyes on me while i surfed?â your cheeks heat up at the comment, feeling a bit flustered at the sudden praise. heâs properly facing you now, hand outstretched in your direction. ânice to meet you, not-so-secret admirer. my name is kim donghyun.âÂ
his hand is still wet, drops of water touching your own as you reach out to shake it. âiâm L/N Y/N. itâs nice to meet you too, donghyun.âÂ
âis that an apron youâre sitting on?â he points out, moving to fiddle with one of its strings resting in the sand.Â
âpfft, yeah. forgot to bring my blanket today.â you explain, laughing at your forgetfulness. âi just got off work.âÂ
âyou come here often, then?â his hair was completely soaked still, droplets falling from it and landing beside him.Â
âi guess you could say that. i only moved here a couple weeks ago.â
âyou picked the perfect city. i love it here.â the sun was almost completely out of view now, having slowly disappeared into the horizon. it was beautiful out. you breathe in the salty air as you watch the stray clouds floating by.Â
âyeah, i think so too. busan has been treating me well.âÂ
âgod, iâm starving,â he gets up abruptly, brushing his hands together to remove the sand clinging to them. you expect him to pick up his board and walk off, turning him into nothing more than an oddly-sweet beach interaction. âi know a good gukbap place nearby. coming with?â he extends a hand out to you again, waiting for you to accept his invitation. why not?Â
â ËïœĄâàšà§Ëâïžâ±ïžđ
moving to busan meant enjoying summer for the first time in years. as a kid, you used to dread this time of year. most of your friends looked forward to school finally ending, but to you, this just meant you truly had nothing to do with your spare time. your days were spent walking down the worn down paths listening to music, or sitting in your backyard reading one of the many books in your collection. this was the closest thing you had to âescapingâ from your reality.Â
now, you had an entire city to explore. you were eager, but you wanted to take your time doing so. the last thing you would want is to get tired of busan, even if you arrived just a couple months ago. you didnât see your excitement wearing down any time soon.Â
âthereâs my favorite barista!â donghyunâs smiling at you in front of the register, where youâd been standing for the past couple hours. once you told him you were working at one of the local cafes, he quickly became a regular (only when you were on schedule, of course).Â
âyouâre not getting anything today?â he shakes his head no, making you chuckle. he actually never bought anything when he was there, rather showing up just to talk to you in your free time. you tap a few buttons on the screen, starting your thirty minute break and walking out to the main floor of the shop, the surfer following closely behind. Â
âdo you want to go to the beach with me later?â donghyun rests his head against his hand as he looks at you from across the table. âiâm going surfing again.â itâs sweet the way his eyes sparkle when he talks about his beloved hobby.Â
âwow, i wouldâve never guessed!â you respond sarcastically, earning a giggle from him as he shrugs. âiâm closing today though. guess you wonât have an audience today.âÂ
he pouts back at you, sniffling as he wipes away non-existent tears. âwho else am i going to show off to then?â ever since the day you met, you found yourself seeing donghyun more often than you initially expected. you thought that heâd just be a friend youâd find in the waters every so often. not that it was an issue, noâ rather, you found yourself perking up every time he walked through the doors. itâs something woonhak quickly picked up on when working with you, often nudging you with his elbow suggestively every time donghyun showed up.Â
âiâm off tomorrow, though.â youâre looking at your shifts on your phone. âif youâre free, maybe we can-â
âyes.â he answers immediately, catching you off guard.
âyouâre not going to let me finish my sentences now?â you canât hold back the grin on your face at how forward he was. âwhat if i asked you to go fishing in the middle of the night or something?â
â...iâd still say yes. that sounds fun, actually. we could totally do that if you want to!â every word that came out his mouth was so incredibly endearing, even if he wasnât trying.Â
âŠand thatâs how you found yourself next to him at midnight, only a couple hours after you got off work, sitting in two fold-up beach chairs on the dock. âiâd question why you have all this fishing gear, but i shouldâve expected as much from you, donghyun.âÂ
âhey, isnât this nice though? thereâs no one else here at this time.â he looks proud as he rests the fishing rod on the wooden guard rail, line casted in the water. âisnât it kind of romantic?âÂ
your cheeks heat up at his implications. if it werenât for the warm lantern placed between you two, he wouldâve missed the blush on your face. âi was joking when i said we should do this, you know.âÂ
âoh, was it? i was serious, though.â you can tell heâs telling the truth with the way he looks at you with a serious gaze.Â
âyeah, i know that now.â you didnât mind being dragged around to his odd antics. weird, yeah, but you canât deny the fact that you enjoyed every second of his company. he enjoyed yours as well. âi find it funny to think you find this to be romantic.â
âwhy wouldnât i? youâre here with me, after all.â with that, you realize that you see donghyun as more than just a boy you met on the beach.Â
â ËïœĄâàšà§ËđđđÂ
moving to busan meant having someone to walk with once the autumn leaves started coming in. it was always nice to see the trees begin to change color, but you always wondered what it would be like to see the transition on a bigger scaleâ and busan gave you the perfect chance to do just that. now that you finally got to experience the fall wonder somewhere new, you werenât sure if you could ever go back to the life you once lived.
days like this were common, where youâd walk through the streets that donghyun grew up in. usually it was just you two, but today, he suggested you come with him as he walked his dog. naturally, you accept; it was hard to deny a cute boy with an equally cute dog in his arms. you hold onto the leash, smiling at the way koni would stop every couple minutes to sniff something on the ground.Â
as you walk a bit further, you stumble across a large crowd of people surrounding various street vendors, curiosity piqued within you. âah, is it already time for the jagalchi festival? how could i forget!â donghyun marvels at his poor memory, he hadnât realized itâs already been seven months since you entered his life. time seemed to go by quicker with you by his side.Â
âfestival? this happens every year?â your steps slow down, koni gently tugging on the leash to keep walking towards the bustling area.Â
âyeah, itâs basically like a huge fish market that runs for a couple days. tons of people come from around the country to see it, actually. the local fishermen show off all the catches from the season, so you know itâs the freshest you can get⊠and thereâs performances too! you have to see it now that youâre a busan resident!âÂ
donghyun takes your hand in his, leading you towards the festival. banners were put up all over the area, welcoming in visitors from near and far into the heart of busan. colorful lanterns adorned the sides of each vendorâs stall, enveloping the area in a comfortable glow. there were people of all ages in attendance, smiling and laughing amongst each other as they explored everything the market had to offerâ this was something you wouldâve never experienced back at home.Â
the two of you come to a stop at one of the less crowded sellers. its owner, a kind looking old man, was standing proud at the buckets of fish laid out on the ground in front of him. âshould we raise a fish together?â
âdonghyun, these fish are dead.âÂ
he rolls his eyes at you playfully. âduh, i know that. i mean like, going to the store and getting a new friend for my tank at home.âÂ
âwouldnât that just mean youâre raising it on your own? i donât have any space for a fish tank at my place.â you think back to your apartment, which now felt like a space you could truly call your own. you were proud to think that you finally felt like you were where you belonged, even if youâve only been here for a short time.Â
âthatâs fine! what matters to me is that we bought it together! obviously iâd give you visiting rights to our child.â how could you reject him when his eyes light up at the mention of getting a pet with you?Â
âwoah, our child? we must be serious now.â your comment is nothing more than a joke, but heâs silent as he thinks about what he wants to say. he gives the hand heâs holding a slight squeeze.Â
âcan i be your boyfriend, Y/N?âÂ
â ËïœĄâàšà§Ëâïžâđ§Ł
moving to busan meant finding a new type of warmth amidst the cold winter. back at home, winters felt especially difficult. you were prone to the adverse effects of seasonal depression when this time of year came around. the days werenât as long, sun setting much earlier than it did in the summer, leaving you with nothing but darkness. just getting out of bed felt like a hassleâ there was nothing to look forward to in such a boring town. everything was just⊠so bland. you were in a constant state of irritation, the smallest things ticking you off and leaving you frustration for no specific reason.Â
this winter, you found it hard to believe those old feelings havenât come back yet. not when you had someone like donghyun at your side. if you found it hard to get out of bed, heâd be there to drag you out with him, humming to himself as you made breakfast together in your tiny kitchen. if you felt like crying, heâd be waiting next to you, box of tissues in hand as he wiped away your tears.
winter usually felt like being dragged deeper into the ocean, unable to swimâ but now, donghyun was there to bring you back to the surface, safe and sound. each day spent with him felt like healing; as if nothing bad could ever happen to you knowing that there was someone who looked at you with nothing but love in his eyes.
âdo you ever miss your hometown, Y/N?â you were laying in your boyfriendâs arms in his childhood bedroom. his prized fish tank sat on his dresser, where the fish you bought together swam happily amongst its friends. there were photos of him as a kid framed on his wallsâ him at his middle school graduation smiling proudly between his parents, him holding koni as a puppy, him crying beside his older sister on the playgroundâ each one giving you a glimpse of the life he lived before he met you. âi canât imagine throwing everything away and leaving like you did.â
âwell, it sounds bad when you say it like that. i donât think i was happy there, though.â donghyun knew he wanted nothing more than to give you a home you felt comfortable going back to. a place where you could feel true happiness in. heâs mindlessly running his hands through your hair from behind you as he listens. âi canât say i miss it just yet. maybe iâll visit sometime soon, just not now.âÂ
âdoes that mean youâre happy here? in busan, i mean.â
âyeah, iâm happy,â you take a moment to reflect on the way your life completely changed upon leaving the town you once knew; how a stranger on the beach brought color into your colorless world. sunsets spent eating ice cream on a hot day at the beach, meals shared at his favorite local restaurants, and nights much like this one, being embraced by the man you love, as you talk until the sun rises. âi knew things would be better somewhere else, but iâd never imagine meeting someone like you so soon. you make me feel like i should look at things a little differently at home.âÂ
âif you ever decide to go back there, can i come with you?â he rests his head on your shoulder, cheek touching yours.Â
âhm? i mean, if you want to. thereâs not much to see there. i donât think youâd have as much fun there as you do here.â you offer, thinking about how disappointed heâd be upon seeing that there truly was nothing to do there compared to busan.Â
âi want to see it. i donât care if you think itâs boring,â heâs sincere with his words, you can tell he means everything heâs saying when it comes to you. âwe can rewrite all your bad memories together. it makes me sad to think you look back at the town you grew up in without fondness.âÂ
âitâs going to be at least a year until i want to see that place again,â you grab his hand, large fingers enveloping yours. âbut iâd like that a lot, donghyun.âÂ
â ËïœĄâàšà§Ëđđđž
and by the time spring rolls around once more, and itâs finally been one year since you moved to busan, you think you finally understand what it means to feel at home. you never got the chance to visit the temples last year, just barely missing cherry blossom season when you first unloaded your boxes in your empty apartment. from then, you promised yourself youâd save it for the best time of year, when the blossoms were in full bloom, baby pink petals on display and falling along with the occasional breeze.Â
youâve never known what it felt like to be loved wholeheartedly, but youâre certain this is it, as you walk hand in hand with donghyun through a path of cherry blossom trees. with him, you found that every day felt like a scene out of a drama. exiting through the templeâs entrance, you return back to the streets you were now familiar with. thereâs a small creamery hidden between a restaurant and convenience store, and you find yourself sitting at a table outside, ice cream slowly melting in their cups in front of you.Â
âi wish i was cooler when i asked to be your boyfriend. i think about that a lot,â donghyun plays with your fingers across the table before intertwining them with his own. âin all honesty, i was thinking about it for a long time before that day.â
âreally?â this was news to you. you knew you had more than platonic feelings for donghyun that night at the dock, but you were surprised to hear he felt the same way as early as you did. it warmed your heart to think he fell in love as quickly as he did.Â
âyeah. i wanted to do something cool, like surprising you at work with a big bouquet of flowers, or making you your favorite food and hiding a note in it. just anything more interesting than popping the question at a damn fish stall.â
you burst out laughing at the thought of finding a piece of paper in your meal. âit was perfect to me, though. iâm more shocked at the fact you saw me like that for so long, donghyun.â you feel shy suddenly, reminiscing on the way your heart would speed up everytime he walked into the cafe, or when he would walk you back to your apartment after spending the day in the water together.
âi knew youâd be someone important to me the day i noticed you watching me on the beach. i donât know why, though. maybe itâs just because people donât really bat an eye when they see me surfing.âÂ
âit was hard not to. iâve never seen anyone so carefree. i guess i was just jealous of the fact that someone could look like that.â you canât believe itâs already been a year since you first saw him on the beach. it was almost as if the sea brought the two of you together when the wave he was riding pushed him straight to you.Â
âi think you look like that when youâre with me,â donghyunâs smiling at his realization. âwhen iâm with you, it feels like iâm riding a wave that never dies. iâd give up surfing if it meant i could have you by my side forever.â the confession shocks you, knowing how much he loved spending hours at the beach every day, chasing the high he got when he was on his surfboard. you wanted to cry; to think that someone would let go of something that meant the world to them just for you. donghyun thinks he could cry tooâ to think that he had found you, a person who changed his world in a matter of months, by a stroke of fate.Â
to donghyun, you moving to busan meant making you a part of his definition of âhomeâ.Â
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THIS IS SO CUTE HUHUHU
ⶠPILLOWTALK WITH RIIZE !
genre. fluff , fluff , fluff ! warnings. none ! wc. 868 ( around 100 words per member ) note. this is kind of short, but i really enjoyed writing it. feedback + reblogs are highly appreciated !
OSAKI SHOTARO
pillowtalk with shotaro is the highlight of your day, something you eagerly anticipate no matter where you are. his soft smile as he listens to you rant about your day lingers in your mind, a comforting presence even when heâs not there. he always asks if something is bothering you, providing thoughtful solutions to your problems, all with that gentle smile on his face. as you drift off to sleep, you watch him, his smile reflecting in your dreams, a soothing balm to your worries.
SONG EUNSEOK
eunseok isnât much of a talker, preferring to simply listen as you rant about your day, his gentle hums filling the pauses. he loves holding you close, with your head resting on his chestâor on the days he's particularly tired, his head on yoursâwhile his fingers softly caress your hair until you drift off to sleep. once he thinks youâre asleep, he leans in and whispers sweet nothings, confessing how much he loves you and how he always wants you by his side. often, you pretend to be asleep just to hear his tender words, never confronting him about it because you want to listen to that voice forever.
JUNG SUNGCHAN
sungchan, rather than helping you wind down for the night, has a knack for hyping you up until you both burst into a playful pillow fight. his energy is infectious, making you laugh and forget about any stress from the day. when he finally does settle down to tell you about his day, it often turns into a comical rant about his coworkers. he grumbles and exaggerates their quirks, and if you dare to disagree or offer a different perspective, he immediately starts to sulk, his pout unmistakable. his sulking continues until you pepper his face with a thousand kisses, your affection breaking through his mock annoyance. only then, with a satisfied smile, does he agree to cuddle up with you, holding you close as he finally quiets down and drifts off to sleep, leaving you both with hearts full of love and laughter.
PARK WONBIN
wonbin, when he's tired, simply comes up to you and hugs you tightly without saying a word, letting himself drift off to sleep in your embrace. on days when he has more energy, he loves to tell you about his day or share something funny that happened, giggling as he recounts the story with his eyes closed. he takes your hand and places it in his hair, asking you to play with it. you like to trace his features with your fingers, and he hums in satisfaction at your touch, occasionally kissing your palm. when he's feeling sad or down, all he wants is for you to hold him close as he drifts off to sleep, and if you're the one feeling down, he does the same for you. he's really just a big baby who craves the comfort of being held by you.
HONG SEUNGHAN
seunghan is another sweet guy who's always curious about your day and excited to share his. when he's had a good day, he goes on and on, yapping happily until he notices your eyes starting to close and your responses slowing down. that's when he decides to save the rest of his story for tomorrow, pulling you close and placing a soft kiss on your eyelids. "let's go to sleep now, baby. we don't want to be late for work tomorrow," he whispers, holding you until you fall asleep. if it takes him longer to drift off, he tries to match his breathing with yours, only to start coughing because he held his breath for too long. he quietly curses himself, worried he might have woken you up. ( please heâs such a sweetheart. sm please bring him back its been like 230 days i miss him idk if i can do this anymore )
LEE SOHEE
sohee asks about your day, but its clear he doesn't really care about the details. no matter how his own day went, all he wants at the end of it is to be close to you. as bedtime approaches, he becomes surprisingly soft and affectionate. if you're reading a book or scrolling on your phone, he tries to get your attention by playing with your fingers or fidgeting with the hem of your t-shirt. and when he finally manages to catch your attention, he lights up with happiness, almost resembling a puppy as he snuggles closer to you. he's sulky and pouts if you move even a millimeter away from him while he's still awake, but you don't mind because you love the skinship.
LEE CHANYOUNG
pillowtalk with anton is just so... ugh. being in bed in his arms and listening to his voice which is laced in warmth is all you think about all day. he loves to entwine your legs together, his arm draped over your waist, its weight offering a sense of security and comfort. his hand sneaks under your t-shirt, gently tracing circles on your lower back, sending shivers down your spine. you both talk for hours about god-knows-what until you're both struggling to keep your eyes open. and thatâs how you fall asleep, feeling utterly content in each otherâs presence.
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spotify pfp jumpscare my goodness
WE CANT BE FRIENDS | 22. SOMETHING LIKE A DAYDREAM
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this is so cute omg đ
boynextdoor with a fashionable s/o âčàčàŁâ
members: bnd legal line x gender neutral reader
genre & tags:Â fluff, established relationship
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a/n: as someone who adores dressing up, i just thought this was something i eventually had to write! i've slowly been building my closet these past few months, looking for thrifted clothes and jewelry i can add to my rotation! it's been fulfilling and i get a lot of energy from the outfits i wear (â©ËoËâ©)âĄ
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i personally think sungho is attracted to people who wear more feminine styles of clothing. he just enjoys how pretty and delicate everything looks! he also likes someone with a cozy styleâbasically anything soft and huggable. the closest style i can think of would be coquette! think oversized cardigans, knit sweaters, pleated or tiered skirts, ribbons, mary janes, and cute hats (*áŽÍËŹáŽÍ)âđâËâčâĄ
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sungho would definitely be an enthusiastic partner if you asked him to accompany you to shop. he looks at each item with an careful eye, assessing the itemâs quality in comparison to the price point. i also believe sungho has your wardrobe memorized, so if you show him something similar to what you already have, heâll point that out so you can look for something else. plus heâll be a big help calculating costs when youâre shopping on a budget! heâs definitely your voice of reason if you feel indecisive, listing down the pros and cons of each piece. and heâd definitely hold you back if you wanted to buy items out of your budget ( ˶°ă
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sungho would def be shy about couple items that are too obvious, so heâd settle for matching necklaces/bracelets with subtle, delicate designs. sungho also tries to match your energy for the dayâif youâre going for something lowkey, heâll do the same, and when you put more effort into your outfit for the day heâll dress up more! but he'll make sure to never outshine you... he wants everyone to see how pretty you are and focus their attention on you.
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riwoo would most likely be attracted to someone who has a quirky and interesting style. the closest style i can think of would be that of 90s harajuku streetwear (think fruits magazine!). heâd like someone who has a strong sense of personal style and someone whoâs knowledgeable about clothing materials. plus someone who knows how to layer and experiments/is willing to take risks! i can imagine him thinking someone with colored hair, bright makeup, and who accessorizes is cool (â©ËoËâ©)âĄÂ
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as the most fashionable member in bnd, riwoo would definitely possess a more critical eye when it comes to shopping with you. youâd have dates where you spend all day browsing clothing shops, especially thrift or vintage stores! riwoo makes sure to point out unique pieces or items with good silhouettes. he also thinks about layering and helps you pick items that go well together with your existing closet. he definitely considers durability as a priorityâif the piece looks too flimsy, itâs not going home with you.
and if thereâs something you really, really want but is out of your budget, heâd most likely buy it for you behind your back, then quietly gifts it to you before the day ends. (âžâžá”áŽá”âžâž) he would buy items youâre both interested in, mostly accessories and outerwear, so you can share them!
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rather than owning couple items, riwoo and you would borrow from each other's closets! you share accessories like scarves, necklaces, rings, hats, brooches, belts, and even glasses, as well as jackets or layering pieces like vests or button downs. at the rate you nab items from each other, you practically have a shared closet. as for coordinating outfits, riwoo thinks itâs a fun challenge to match your outfits based on materials and patterns! your outfits wonât look similar, but theyâll look like they come from the same collection. i'm sure you and riwoo have a highly popular, shared instagram where you post your looksâyou'd definitely be considered a "power couple"!
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i feel like jaehyun wouldnât have any specific preference as to style, but i think heâd still like a well-dressed s/o! jaehyun would be fine with anything casual and comfortableâclothing that come to mind include cropped tees or button downs, baggy jeans, oversized varsity jackets, and chunky sneakers! but if youâd prefer something more feminine or dressy, heâll be your #1 hype man àŽŠà”àŽŠàŽż(á”áá”) he thinks you look pretty in anything you wear because youâre you!
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jaehyun definitely likes to wander around, but he tries his best to stay Focused when youâre out shopping with him! heâs honest about whether something looks good on you or not. sometimes it results to petty arguments when youâre very insistent about buying a certain item he doesnât like⊠but heâll cave in when you give him your absolutely convincing puppy eyes à«ź â ï» â á. itâll be very obvious if he likes somethingâwhen you come out from the dressing room in a great outfit, heâll look like heâs just seen his spouse in wedding attire for the first time, jaw drop and all á°á©à«ź áŽï»áŽá. heâll be so full of praise for you it gets a bit embarrassing when there are others in the fitting room area!
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i strongly believe jaehyun is a sucker for obvious couple outfits or itemsâhe wants everyone to know you belong to each other!!! à«ź ă»ï»ă»ááŻáĄŁđ© heâd definitely love matching jackets or hoodies, something thatâll be comfortable for the both of you! but heâll also want to have matching necklaces for sure, something to remind you both of each other when youâre apart âËâč⥠similarly, jaehyun loves coordinating your outfits for special dates! like sungho, heâll match your vibe for the dayâif youâre going for a comfy look, heâll follow suit; if you want to spend your day in baggy streetwear, heâll do the same.
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taesanÂ
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taesan would prefer someone with an opposite style from him, so heâd find a feminine style appealing and interesting! your style could be goth, alt, coquette, or even none of thoseâhonestly, it doesnât really matter to him. he thinks skirts are very pretty though, whether they be mini skirts with stockings, patterned midi skirts, or flowy maxi skirts.
taesan also likes how your nails are so perfect and meticulously done and considers getting his own nails painted. plus, heâs amazed at how youâre a master at your makeup routine and the amount of effort you put into it, so he watches makeup tutorials in his own time to surprise you by replicating your makeup routine on you (â©ËoËâ©)⥠he would also love taking fit pictures with you with a digicam, and heâd love snapping pictures of you as you pose along the street.
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taesan loves shopping with his s/o. itâs a time for him to observe his s/oâs preferences and what makes your face light up. when you see an item that makes you gasp in delight, he tries hard to hide a smile at your enthused reaction and silently takes note. he's pretty fashionable, so heâll be reliable when you ask him for fashion advice! when you shop together, taesan will be honest about what suits you and what doesnât. when you hold up an item that doesnât look that nice, heâll have that pensive look on his face if heâs not into it. heâll help you look for alternatives when an item you want isnât in stock. taesan also offers you tips on how to layer jewelry!
taesan is also the type to see an item he thinks would suit you and buy it for you. he ends up accumulating so much that it fills an entire boxâwhen you ask him what heâs bought you so many clothes for, he turns red and shyly tells you how they reminded him of you⊠which makes you flustered and sooo happy (˶ á” Ì« ᔠ˶) âĄ
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taesan would secretly adore matching items. you bring it up in passing but are too nervous to directly initiate anything⊠(ă„>/////<)⥠he's initially shy at the thought of it, but when he does his own research, he grows attached to the idea of having matching items with you, someone he dearly cares for. so one day, he gifts you with matching earrings while shyly mentioning heâd love to wear them together! from then on, you'd have fun looking for matching jewelry together.
like riwoo, heâd love to coordinate outfits based on materials and patterns. in particular, heâd love to coordinate a mix of knit, denim, leather, or plaid, typically in neutral/dark colors like off-white, gray, black, or dark red. still, the outfits wouldnât look exactly the same and would leave room for you to experiment with your individual styles!Â
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leehanÂ
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i think leehan has no particular preference when it comes to fashion, anything goes really! heâs very supportive and content to see how happy you are with the clothes you wear. he wouldnât mind anyone with a different style from him. at the very least, heâd want you to be comfortable and warm in your outfit. he brings bandaids, safety pins, and a little sewing kit around with him in case any accidents happenâheâd definitely trade his sneakers for yours if your feet start hurting in your shoes à«ź - ï» âą á Â leehan saves every fit pic you send him and uses them as his wallpaper, and he'd take candid pics of you too and swoon at how cute and pretty and cool you are in your outfit.
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while heâs not particular about his s/oâs fashion, heâd want to be there while his s/o shops or chooses what outfit to wear for the day. leehan loves quality time with his s/o! but donât rely on him for fashion advice or expect it to be a productive time; he thinks you look pretty in everything and will let you know. heâs so sincere about it too that you canât even get mad at him.
but one thing leehan will be insistent about is you wearing fish or marine-themed clothing. đ đ đ he makes you fit the most atrocious fish-patterned polo that looks like something your granddad would wear and thinks you look hot. he sees this cap that goes âfish love me, women fear meâ and full-on begs you to buy it. and you know what? you doâbecause how can you refuse the pleading of a pretty boy like leehan? (ă
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leehan would definitely buy you matching alien plush keychains to attach to your bags or belt loops đœâïœĄÂ°â© heâd feel giddy looking at your matching charms and how cute they look on you⊠itâs like you bring a part of him everywhere you go đž and i stand by thisâleehan would definitely have custom shirts printed for the both of you that say âi love fish and my s/oâ. deep inside youâre embarrassed at how the design looks like itâs been shoddily done on microsoft powerpoint, but when leehan proudly admits he made it himself, you just shut up and wear it⊠anything for him i guess (àč>ŰâąÌàč)
something iâve also observed is how in the bnd content online, leehan wears long sleeves almost all the time! so rather than have coordinating outfits, leehan would lend you his outerwear. heâs a man with a planâbut is veeeery sneaky about it. he accidentally âforgetsâ his sweaters at your place. he also lends you his jacket with the excuse of âadding layersâ to your outfit (something he learned from you!!!). and somehow, his clothes make their way into your closetâyouâre highly puzzled, but youâre not complaining (ââ Ö ââ)âĄ
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mini me.
girl dad! taesan au <3
based on this taesan scenario i posted. u and taesan's daughter is a menace (just like her dad), her name is vivienne bcs i've always wanted to name a daughter vivienne, vivi for short!! HEHEHEH reader is taesan's wife n mother of the kid btw <3 vivi calls her parents mommy n daddy TT no warnings tbh i think there's just one cuss word in the opening, fluffy cuteness, taesan is soooooo girl dad ugh. lowercase intended, pls excuse any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors!! MWAHHH ENJOYYYY
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"oh for fuck's sake!"
han taesan laughs as his wife's loud voice echoes through the walls of their shared home, smiling softly when the little girl sat on his lap tilts her head in confusion at her mother's sudden exclamation coming from the other room. "what's up with mommy?" han vivienne wonders innocently, her tiny eyebrows furrowed as she looks up at her dad who was just as confused as she was. "i don't know but it looks like we are about to find out!" he whispers in response, the sound of footsteps emerging from the opening that lead into the living room where they sat.
a furious looking yn walks through the door. she's all dressed up in a matching all-black skirt and blazer set, her hair neatly tucked behind her ear, all ready to head to work. pretty, taesan thought, but he just couldn't ignore the fact that his wife looked like she was about to burn the building down. "what's wrong, darling?" the man's voice is soft and he begins to get up from his spot on the couch, telling his daughter to go play with her new toys while he talked to her mom. "everything! my meeting got pushed back further and now the new shipment for the store is delayed. and then my social media manager decided she can't come into work today because of some family issue and then on top of that, vivi's babysitter just quit! just like that! when she was supposed to come in and look after vivi today! it's just so...ugh!" the woman whines, slumping down on the couch as her hands made their way to cover her face in absolute stress. taesan's face softens at the sight, sitting himself down right beside her and rubbing little circles against the small of her back.
"hey, hey...don't stress too much okay? look at me..." he says sweetly, grabbing either side of her face to look at him. taesan shoots her an assuring smile, that same smile that never failed to send a swarm of butterflies to crowd inside of her tummy. "look, you just get to work and make the most out of it...i'll take vivi out today, okay? i don't have any work today so, i can take care of her, alright? don't worry, darling! you worry too much" he said, giggling when she leans into his chest and wrapping his long arms around her to pull her closer. "yeah mommy, you worry too much!" the squeaky voice of their one and only child interrupts their loving moment. the couple separated, watching as vivi climbs into her dad's lap once again before she turns to face her mother. "you know your hair will turn grey like a grandma if you worry so much!" her cheerful tone combined with her innocent grin makes her harsh words somewhat more bearable, a dramatic sigh escaping the woman's lips as she leans forward to attack the little girl in a ticklish set of kisses. "ah! mommy stop! daddy, save me!" vivi squeals in between giggles, crawling away from the woman's grasp to hide behind her father. the adult pair share a laugh and then a kiss before yn gets up to finally head out for the day.
"okay, mommy has to get to work and try to sort everything out in the office now. vivi..." yn drags out, her eyes narrowing as she looks down at her cheeky daughter who was the spitting image of the mischievous man she had married. "mhm...?" the girl replies, mimicking the way her mom prolonged her words. "you go bond with daddy for the day, okay? behave yourself, please?" instead of sounding like a command, the woman's words came out sort of like a plead. "hm..." vivienne begins, a tiny hand placed against her chin as she looks up in the air to think. "no promises! bye mommy! go now or you'll be late" she didn't even give her mom enough time to process the words before beginning to push at her legs to get her out the door. "bye darling! be safe, love you!" taesan calls out in between laughs, finding the mini version of himself's antics to be just...amusing.
"so...it's just me and you today, huh?" the man inquires, scooping the little girl up into his arms and pressing a happy peck onto her forehead. she squeals, playfully pushing his face away. she lets out a high-pitched giggle, the sound giving him slight cuteness aggression and it took every muscle in his body to not just stuff his daughter into his pockets at that very moment. "so what should we do today, hm? what do you want to do, love?" he asks, one of his large hands beginning to tuck a loose strand of her hair behind her tiny little ears. "i know! i know!" vivi exclaims, her head that was leant against his chest shifting so that they were face to face.
"let's go to the mall!" she has this huge smile on her face, teeth showing and all, it was the kind of grin that you just could never say no to. not that han taesan would ever say no to his only child, his daughter, his little girl, the light of his life, his forever baby, his own clone, he would never! even if it meant spending all of his money on her every single time they stepped foot in the nearby mall...or any place that had things for sale for that matter...
a prayer for taesan's wallet, please.
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"okay, so i watched a video on youtube...shouldn't be that hard, right?"
oh, but the ambitious dad was far too confident in his craft. as it turns out, doing a little girl's fishtail braid was far more complex than any kind of thing he's done before. he doubts himself for a second, she must've caught the way his eyes shook with worry from the mirror because in a second she had turned around to look up at the man, lifting her fists up in the air as she began to speak. "you can do this, daddy! i believe in you!" except the three year old could barely speak without stumbling over her words, her Ls turning into W sounds and the S in 'this' coming out with a lisp- but it's the thought that counts. taesan could almost feel the way his heart melted into a billion pieces, he began to wonder how on earth he got lucky enough to call this little menace his own child. then, with one deep breath and a newly found confidence, he separates a handful of his daughter's hair into four sections, saying a silent prayer before beginning to plait it just like the young woman in the tutorial did.
"is it done yet? i'm getting bored!" vivi whines, hands fiddling with the hem of her pink sweater. it's been nearly an hour since her father started working on her hair and it's safe to say that it was going nowhere! "um...hold on a minute...uh..." the man inhales all too loudly, staring at the entanglement of hair in front of him. "is it done? does it look cool?" the girl's eyes widen in excitement, staring into his own through their reflection. "well..." he trails off, biting his lip to stifle the laugh that was about to escape from it. "daddy, i wanna see!" her little arms were crossed over her chest in frustration and impatience. "i think...i think we should just leave your hair down today, love" her reaction to his suggestion was priceless, the excitement she previously displayed long gone and the most deadpan and uninterested look took it's place. taesan chuckles, "sorry, love. i'll try again next time, yeah?" he reasons, watching the way she nods in defeat and sighs as he began to unbraid (if you could even call that catastrophe a braid) his daughter's hair.
"can we go to the mall now? want ice cream!" vivienne says, tugging at her dad's vintage jeans. "mhm, go put on your shoes and we'll go" he watches as she runs over to the shoe rack towards the entrance of their home, an amused look plastered onto his face as his daughter struggles to put on her own shoes. if his wife were home right now, she would yell at him for standing still and not helping, but since she wasn't there at the moment the man took his time to laugh a little. "daddy...help me, please" vivi frowns, beginning to get annoyed by the footwear. taesan nods once, still giggling slightly as he bent down to sit on the floor with her. "watch closely i'll teach you to tie your laces now" he says, each end of the white laces in either one of his hands as he starts to demonstrate. "and then you loop this one over-" he was cut off by a baby-like scoff and a sassy eye roll from his kid. "daddy, can't you hurry up now?" he sighs, obliging and wondering where she had inherited the impatience from (ahem him ahem).
the car ride to the mall was peaceful for the most part. vivi insisted on sitting in the passenger seat, not wanting to be away from her dad for a second. taesan focused on driving, opening a bag of crackers for her to munch on so she wouldn't start whining about the rumbling in her tummy. "daddy what ice cream are you gonna get?" she asks, crumbs falling out of her mouth and her voice muffled by the half-chewed crackers. "me? hm..." he thought deeply about the answer, the car going dark as they entered the tunnel that lead to the basement parking area. "i don't know yet. what are you getting, love?" his hands graze the steering wheel, waiting for a response from the girl. "guess!" she exclaimed, hands in the air and a huge smile on her face. "maybe...mint chocolate?" taesan has a smirk on his face, knowing full well that was the wrong answer. "ew! no way daddy...that's gross! yuck!" he chuckled, parking the car as it came to a halt.
"c'mon" the man said, bending down to unlatch her seatbelt and lifting her out of the car before shutting the door and locking it. vivi grabbed onto his hand, tumbling slightly as she walked beside him in a zig-zag pattern. "ice cream time!" the girl squeals, the cool air-conditioning of the mall sending small goosebumps to appear on her tiny legs beneath her denim skort. taesan shook his head, "we gotta have some lunch before ice cream, love. or else your mommy would be very angry" he looked down for a moment just in time to catch her dramatic frown, chuckling at her sudden change in demeanor. "but i want ice cream" the man sighs, patting a hand against her head when she moves to hug his leg. "i know, love. and i will get you your ice cream after lunch, okay?" the tiny han girl nods in understanding, "now let go of daddy's leg so i can walk, please?" this time she shook her head, a playful and menacing smirk on her lips as she hugged him tighter. taesan clicks his tongue, beginning to waddle down the mall like an idiot.
"han vivienne...you will be the death of me"
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"ice cream time!" vivienne repeats for the second time that day, shooting her dad a smile which he returned happily. "ice cream time!" he says as well, eyes widening slightly when she tugs him forward, walking so fast and pulling his arm with her. "okay, what flavour do you want, love?" taesan asks, his hands on his hips as he looked over all the options. "i can't see..." the girl mumbles, silently asking for her father to carry her up to his level. "oh, right, my bad" he panics, hastily bending down to lift her up. "um...i want...stawbelly!" her tiny voice breaks his heart into pieces, "you want strawberry? yeah? alright, one strawberry and one salted caramel, please" he's about to put her down but she refuses to let go of him (clingy baby TT). taesan laughs softly, "i gotta put you down so i can pay, love" he whispers, carefully bending down so that she could stand on her own.
"thank you, daddy" vivi says, smiling as she takes one large bite out of her strawberry ice cream. "you're welcome, love. is it yummy?" he asks, scooping up a spoonful of from his own cup. she nods joyfully, "mhm! it's delichuz!" the man furrows his eyebrows, "you mean, delicious?" he asks, trying to understand his daughter's baby talk. "yeah duh! that's what i said, silly" taesan laughs once again at his child's loud personality, grabbing a tissue to wipe away her dessert-stained cheeks as she messily slurped up the last of her sweet treat. "look here, i'm gonna send mommy a picture" he says, smiling when she strikes a silly pose. "mommy is gonna be so jelly!" she states and he nods, stacking up their empty cups to toss in the bin later.
"so...where to next, love?"
there's only one correct answer to that question. only one place in the whole mall, apart from the ice cream parlor, that feeds purpose to sweaty three year olds like han vivienne. a brightly lit store, rows and rows of all kinds of objects displayed clearly on shelves. every kid's dream, a place they would live in if they could, a place where all their parents end up spending the last of their monthly salaries in...
the toy store.
i'm not sure if you've noticed, but han vivienne was no ordinary child. she was a menace, a spoiled brat, and had absolutely no shame. especially if it meant her loving father had to pay for it. and whatever happens at the toy store was no exception.
vivi squeals as she lets go of her father's hand to run into the store, the tall man following closely behind her. "hello there, what can i help you with?" one of the young ladies near the door asks, bending down to the kid's level to chat with her. "where are all the barbies?" she asks back sweetly, batting her eyelashes innocently as she spoke. "ah, right this way!" the lady energetically says, guiding the little menace over to where all the dolls were. "yay!" she cheers, her dad still walking behind her in a much slower pace. "ack!" she shouts, struggling to reach the beach-themed set that stood in a higher shelf, signaling for the employee to help her out a little. "oh, i got it, i'll help you hold it" the lady offers, earning a squeaky thank you in response. a few minutes go by and what was the one barbie doll in the worker's hand, had become a stack of five more similar toys.
"are you sure you want all of these?" the lady asks, her eyes widening when little vivienne hands her one final doll set. "mhm! don't worry, lady...daddy will pay for it! right, daddy?" the girl turns to grin widely at taesan. taesan who's cheeks were bright red from slight embarrassment, and eyebrows were tilted slightly so as to apologize to the poor employee his daughter had been dragging around. "okay, that's enough toys, vivi...now help the kind lady bring them to the register, please" his daughter nods, grabbing two out of the seven toys she had picked out and beginning to trot over to the counter to check out.
"yay!! thank you, daddy! i wuv you!" the little girl cheers, wrapping her tiny arms tightly around her father's leg. taesan chuckles, patting her head softly, "of course, love" the lady at the cash register smiles as she begins to pack away the toys into a paper bag. "her mom must be jealous..." she says, causing the man to furrow his eyebrows in confusion. "what do you mean?" he asks, putting his wallet back into the pocket of his jeans. "i mean, your daughter looks exactly like you...makes me wonder what her mother looks like, sorry if it came off rude or anything...that's not my intention" taesan shakes his head, "no, you're alright..." he trails off, "you're right though. my wife tells me everyday how similar vivi is to me..." he continues, turning to look at the miniature version of himself who seemed to have found a mirror to stare into. "she's a daddy's girl, huh?" the lady asks, making him laugh. "i guess so..."
the conversation ends there. "here you go!" the cashier says, handing the man the big bag of toys he had just paid for. "thank you so much. hey vivi, you wanna come hold your things?" taesan watches as vivienne twirls around and waddles over to him. "hm...that's okay daddy, you can hold it!" the cashier bursts into laughter at the conversation exchanged between the father and daughter. "that sass...that's all from her mother" he tells the lady, shaking his head in defeat as the little menace grabbed a hold of his large hand, the bag of toys in the other one. "come again soon!" the employee says, waving goodbye at the little girl and her parent. vivienne grins one last time,
"don't worry, lady. we will!"
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the father and daughter duo are back home now. the rest of the evening was spent happily bonding within the comfort of their home. he had listened to her endless yapping about all the new toys she got today, smiling sheepishly at the little chatterbox he contributed in creating as they sat together on the floor by the television in their living room. then he put on her favourite show on the tv, letting her sit in silence with her stuffed animals as he waltzed over to the kitchen to prepare their meal for dinner. it began to rain outside so he had his doubts on ordering in, not wanting to burden the poor delivery man who would have to travel in this kind of weather. so instead, taesan opted for some instant noodles for the night- with no objections from his mini me either, of course.
"daddy lookie! i can slurp the noodles like uncle woonhak!" vivi says, tapping at her dad's shoulders to grab his attention. "oh yeah?" the older one asks, watching closely as the girl practically inhaled a forkful of noodles, causing her to choke up a bit from the broth. "ahem" she coughed and taesan panicked for a second, getting up to fill her disney princess cup with some water for her to drink. once they had finished up their dinner, the man carried his daughter back over to the couch, turning the show back on to occupy her while he put away the dishes and cleaned up in the kitchen. he quickly took out the trash as well, knowing his wife was coming home late tonight and deciding to do all the housework so she didn't have to worry about it the way she tended to.
"vivi, my love" he called out, walking over to where she was playing with her dolls on the couch. "come on, let's take a shower and get ready for bed" he said, beginning to put away some of the toys that remained scattered on the carpeted floor. "but we can still wait for mommy later, right?" the kid mumbles, her voice quieting down from the tiredness that finally began to seep through her little body. he smiled, nodding as he stretched his arms out to carry her into his arms. the dad's heart melted and his face softened as his baby nuzzles deep into his chest. he leans down to press a soft kiss against the very top of her head, holding her tight as they made their way over to the master bathroom to run a bath.
the warm bath paired with the combinations of lavender scented baby oils were enough to get the sleepy kid into a state ready for slumber. however, the purple pajama-wearing child remained stubborn, insisting that she could stay awake long enough to greet her mother when she got home. all taesan could do was laugh, knowing her words were far from the truth. but he nods along anyways, following her into the master bedroom and laying down under the comfortable covers. "i want Tayo!" vivienne requests, watching happily as the man puts on the show on his tv. she sings along to the intro song silently, encouraging for her dad to do the same too. soon, the kid who swore she wasn't tired yet began to drift off to sleep. her head resting against his chest, his fingers softly stroking through her freshly washed hair.
taesan didn't care to change the channel on the television. honestly, he was beginning to like the show about the little bus far more than he'd admit. the soft snoring coming from his daughter sent a feeling of warmth to engulf his own body. the man's gaze moved from the tv screen over to his precious child, he pressed a loving peck on her forehead, smiling to himself as she shifted in her sleep. "i love you, my mini me" he whispers, just a decibel louder than his heartbeat. a minute more went by and the creak of the front door causes his ears to perk up.
"taesan? vivi? i'm home!" yn's familiar voice echoes through the walls, a smile unconsciously sneaking onto his lips. "we're in the bedroom!" the man yelled out as quietly as he could so he wouldn't wake the one snuggled against his chest. "hey, darling" he says when his wife finally enters the room, she looked exhausted, must've been a long day at work. "she asleep already?" the mother asks, leaning down to pat her daughter's slumberous head. her husband nods, sitting up carefully to catch her lips in his own. yn smiled into the kiss, as did he when they began to separate again. "so..." the woman begins, taking off her work clothes as she prepares herself for a shower. "what did you two do all day?" her question lingers in the air as she disappears into the bathroom, leaving taesan alone with the images of today replaying in his head.
"well, for starters..." he began, moving so that vivienne was fully laying on the bed. "we went to the mall today.." taesan gets up, following his wife into their shared bathroom. yn looked at him through the mirror, giggling when he wrapped his arms around her from behind and pressed sweet kisses against her neck. "mhm...and then?" she asks, telling him to continue as she began to remove her makeup. "oh, and then that daughter of ours...she totally ran my wallet dry at the toy store..."
there was a pause for dramatic effect.
"again?!"
the end.
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HEHEH girl dad! taesan âčïžđ i love him i love him i love him!!!!!! also han vivienne is such a cutesy name for a girl aw <3 anyways this fic made me kind of softy soft soft i might cryyyy đ hope u enjoyed, reblogs n feedbacks r so appreciated!! tysm for reading! love, kona.
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JSJSHJDFJH DOHOONS. OPPOSITES ATTRACT. JUST KILL ME ATP!!! this si so mwdnxwjcndwjmdjkw
TWS AS LOVE TROPES
genre. fluff. warnings. jealousy in shinyu's. implied extrovert reader in dohoon's. academic slay and competitive reader in youngjae's. extremely introverted/socially awkward reader in hanjin's lol. brief mention of makeup in jihoon's. not proofread. pairing. tws x fem!reader. wc. 2k. (around 300 per member but hanjin's and kyungmin's are a bit longer cause i was rambling sry). request. requested by anon. a/n. skdjsk this was so fun to write like maybe my fav tws request to write... like SO FUN UGH I LOVE THEM I LOVE TWS SO MUCH!!! i hope these are accurate as well!
SHIN JUNGHWAN ïŸ MUTUAL PINING
mutual pining screams junghwan to me. you arenât friends, but you both have some mutual friends and you always end up being around one another. and you both develop the most massive crushes on the other. literally whenever you see junghwan your heart races itâs that bad. and junghwan is trying to act like he can focus on anyone but you when youâre in the room, but itâs impossible. he doesnât even know more than your name and where you went to school, heâs pretty sure heâs lost his mind. it hurts even more watching you be in a relationship with someone else.
maybe heâs reading too into it, but he swears you look so much happier when youâre without your boyfriend. junghwan canât help but imagine how it would look if he was in the other guyâs place. he should be the one hugging you, kissing you, taking you out on dates. except if it was him, it would be so much better. he tries his hardest to forget about his feelings for you but he just canât. this continues, and eventually, after you break up with your ex, you realize that no one makes you feel the same way that junghwan does. youâre pretty sure he likes you as well, but thereâs always a lingering fear that maybe your brain is just being dumb and convincing you that he likes you. it could turn into a friends to lovers situation too, but the friends part would always be teetering on something more. lingering touches that last much longer than they should. always going to the other for comfort or advice, the other always being on your mind. the only way that you actually get together would be when all the built up feelings and emotions finally explode into a very unplanned confession.
KIM DOHOON ïŸ OPPOSITES ATTRACT
dohoon has always been intrigued by someone who was the complete opposite of him. he loves exploring new things and getting outside of his comfort zone, but he needs someone else to convince him to do it. if heâs just by himself, heâll stay at home where heâs comfortable. enter you. the complete opposite of him. at first heâs just interested in becoming your friend. he doesnât expect any feelings to grow from it. he knew you would get along but he didnât expect how well you did. you never got tired of talking to him. your conversations would go on for hours because you were both curious about the other. dohoon fell in love with your voice before anything else. he was in love with the way you explained stuff, the way you never left out a single detail. he wanted to know everything about youâ he wanted you to tell him everything. he wanted to discover new things about you that no one else knew about. you brought out new sides of him that he didnât know he had, and unknowingly, he was doing the same to you. and thatâs where romantic feelings started to creep in. he started to get affected by not just your voice, but physical touch or even your outfits. you were good friends by now, and one time when he saw you in his hoodie, his entire brain stopped working. he knows at that point that youâre much more than a friend to him. youâre all he can think about during the day. you keep him up at night. he even dreams of you. so, he works up the courage to confess. if youâve taught him anything while youâve been friends, itâs that you only live once and regret lasts much longer than disappointment.Â
CHOI YOUNGJAE ïŸ RIVALS TO LOVERS
youngjae is competitive and heâs also smart. the only problem is you are also competitive and possibly smarter than youngjae is. he doesnât want to lose to you, heâs barely lost to anyone⊠hence the rivalry starts. he really doesnât see anything special about you at first. you are just the first person to ever match him in terms of intellect and popularity. thereâs nothing heâs interested in about you besides seeing you always a rank below him. but from how focused he becomes on beating you, that means youâre always on his mind. sooner or later heâs thinking about you not from a competitive aspect. after months of always being around you, trying to study you to see what your weaknesses were, how he could get the upper hand, he picked up on your habits and mannerisms. he knew faster than anyone when something was wrong, and for some reason, it bothered him. when he saw you not performing your best, it shouldnât have irked him. he shouldâve been happy, if anything. it meant he was finally on top. but it didnât bring him the satisfaction he had wanted from the beginning. thatâs when he realized that after months of rivalry he had grown fond of you. the switch in his behaviour quite puzzled you at first, but you couldnât lie that you had always liked youngjae. you liked a challenge, and he was the first guy to ever give you that. youngjae did as much as he could to help you back to where you had been, just so that the competition could continue. when you were finally back to beating his scores and returning his snarky remarks, he simply couldnât help himself. he stopped you from talking with his lips on yours, knowing you would reciprocate his feelings.Â
HAN ZHEN ïŸ POPULAR X LOSER
just from hanjinâs predebut photos alone, i bet he was so popular in school. heâs always been so gorgeous and i feel like even though heâs introverted, he wouldâve caught the attention of a lot of girls. so it simply made no sense why he would ever pay attention to you. you always stayed at the back of the class, barely talking to anyone and just focusing quietly on the work you were given. but the fact that you werenât social was exactly what intrigued hanjin. though he enjoyed the attention and praise to some extent, it was also exhausting. he couldnât imagine romantically pursuing any of the girls who drooled over him, which is exactly why he wanted to get closer to you instead. you were pretty, smart, and werenât an attention snob. so, he makes the first move to talk to you. you had your assumptions about hanjin before just watching him as the unbelievably pretty popular boy. the fact that he was actually trying to talk to you was insane⊠and also not good for your heart which you could feel racing in your chest. hanjin thinks youâre so cute the more he talks to you. he likes being able to make you flusteredâ it feels like you actually care about him and what he has to say and arenât just trying to be friends with him for his looks. pretty soon, everyone in the school catches on. hanjin only wants to hang out with you, the loser girl who nobody has seen talk to another student except for group projects in 3 years of being at the school. the news spreads like wildfire and pretty soon the question of when heâll ask you to be his girlfriend arises. you think itâs preposterous. you donât want to get your hopes up just because the entire school is convinced of it. obviously⊠you would say yes immediately. without even a second of doubt. hanjin is the first person to ever try to get to know you, and he means more to you than anyone else. you canât imagine how nice it would be to be able to call yourself his girlfriend. but, luckily, you donât have to wait very long to find out. despite your loser status in the school, the student body is surprisingly fond of the match between you and hanjin.
HAN JIHOON ïŸ LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT
jihoon first saw you at a convenience store at like 11 pm in the night slurping down ramen. and it definitely wasnât the most flattering sight, but apparently that doesnât matter at all to him. cause heâs not even looking at the sauce on the side of your lips, your messy hair, the hoodie that's pulled over your head, or your smeared makeup. heâs looking at your eyes and how they keep seeming to draw him in. you also notice jihoon as heâs checking out at the counter. his cute hair falling over his forehead and his lips that curve into a smile as soon as he looks your way. before you know it, heâs sitting next to you and introducing himself to you. it was like destiny, you both share so many interests and have so much to talk about. thankfully, the convenience store was a 24 hour one, otherwise you definitely wouldâve been kicked out by the employee. you talk and talk⊠and talk. and eat; jihoon pays for your ice cream and extra snacks. numbers are exchanged and before you know it heâs asking to hang out again. you can barely keep track of how fast you catch feelings for him. heâs the cutest boy youâve ever seen with the most adorable personality in the world. youâd never fallen in love at first sight before, and you certainly didnât expect an encounter like that to land you a boyfriend. but everything progresses so naturally. youâre talking and then heâs asking you out on dates and then youâre kissing him outside of your apartment and not wanting it to end because youâre so obsessed with him. and, like you were made for one another, he shares your exact feelings. soon enough, youâre in an official relationship and more in love than ever with the boy you met at the convenience store.
LEE KYUNGMIN ïŸ CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS
kyungmin and you were inseparable as children. you were attached at the hip, always in the same classes, sitting next to you, playing together at recess, having play dates at each otherâs houses. your parents were good friends with his, so it was easy to keep the friendship strong all throughout your childhood. thereâs barely a moment in your life that you can remember that doesnât have kyungmin involved. by the time youâre 16, youâve probably spent more time with him than your own parents. everything always feels so comfortable and safe with him. he knows you inside and out after years of being friends. you share all the same interests and have more inside jokes than you can even count. itâs during a sunny afternoon in your bedroom, clutching your stomach from laughing so hard with kyungmin, that it really clicks in your head. you like spending time with him so much. more than just best friends. you canât imagine your life without him. years from now when youâre well into adulthood, you want him to be right beside you then as well. dating was always a thought on your mind, being at the age where all your other girl friends were getting into relationships. and as you thought a bit harder about itâ dating, love, relationships⊠only one person comes to your mind: kyungmin. your best friend who was sprawled on the bed right next to you, giggling along with you about some inside joke that had lived on too long to even remember how it started. youâve always been able to tell kyungmin anything without feeling nervous or embarrassed, so you just go for it. at first heâs a bit wide-eyed and shocked. of course he likes youâ youâre the only girl heâs ever liked since he was little. he had always planned to tell you how he felt after high school, when the thought of university came around and the fear that you wouldnât be attending the same school arose. but confessing to each other in the comfort of your childhood bedroom, where hundreds of memories had been made together since before you were even in school; it felt perfect.
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this was sooo sososososo cute vienna đ„čđ«¶
â1 ) safe, good. ââ Ëâ Ëłâ ° myung jaehyun.
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to know . . . mjh x gn!reader , hurt/comfort , 0.622k words , warning for depictions of a panic attack | in which a night of terror is shunned away by the safe and good myung jaehyun.
when the clock inevitably strikes three am, your body shuts down with the need to hold onto the safest hand it knows. jaehyun strokes your head, gently like he knows he has every power in the world to hurt you and is trying his damnedest not to. because he is your safest handâ your only hand to hold and despite his promises and actions, you still fear that one day even he will let go of you to fall into your demise. you can't help but fear. myung jaehyun is good.
jaehyun is good. that's the mantra replaying over and over in your mind in between the awful thoughts speeding through your head. jaehyun is safe. he is jaehyun and i am safe with him. when you slip and fall in the darkest hours of the night yet again, it's him who catches youâ hands locked, eyes locked.
you can't feel your face and the buzz stemming from your fingers all the way to the back of your head is all you can take notice of. the world feels like it's tilted on an axis (or is it you tilting to the side, unable to find your balance) and maybe you're drowning or maybe you're falling falling falling. the ground beneath your feet doesn't feel solid as you trudge your way onto the couch in the living room where he settles you down, his brows connected in concern.
the material of the plush cushion you're sitting on has a foreign texture despite having spent years spending time on it, curled up into jaehyun's side. myung jaehyun is good. you repeat it once again, haphazardly tugging on his shirt to bring him to your height. he complies, pulling you as close to him as possible in an embrace you don't think could get any tighter, just as you want it to be.
as tight as it was, being wrapped in his arms set the chains on your lungs free, slowly coming to a relatively calm pattern. the few hiccups in between are quietly soothed by his sweet nothings in your ear. myung jaehyun is safe.
you could forget your name, but you could never forget the way he smells like everything you've ever dreamt of. the crook of his neck is the roof of your imaginary home and his arms your walls. you're my home, you tell jaehyun when you wake up that morning to the blazing sunlight coming through the open curtains. of course now, you're just waiting for the world to stop spinning.
jaehyun is good, so (or is it because?) he places soft kisses on your temple, purely cherishing your existence. when you lean back to observe his features, silently taking in the reality of this moment (of him) like a person seeing the sun for the first time fleeing a cave. then you notice his eyesâ oh, the way he looks into yours makes you question everything you know about love. because this can't be love, can it? not just love. this has to be beyond it, time and time he has proven that love isn't enough of a word to describe what you feel for him.
"you're looking at me like that again."
"like what?" jaehyun counters, tenderly grazing his thumb over the valley of your cheekbone.
"like you wouldn't let even death do us apart."
oh, myung jaehyun's heart thumps firmly beneath your palm over his clothed chest, the cotton of his white t-shirt feels worn and loved. i live solely for you, jaehyun wants to whisper in your ear. i want to live for you, his throat burns with the desire to scream it from the top of a mountain.
myung jaehyun is good. myung jaehyun is safe.
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THIS WAS SO !!! why would you do that
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summary : would the tides push you closer, or pull you farther away?
genre : angst, taesan x afab!reader tws : language, angst author notes : i thought about making this a happy ending, i really did, i promise word count : 1.6k
âdonât say this, y/n.âÂ
you stared at the man in front of you blankly, like you had to stay strong. was this was for the better?
he didnât deserve to carry you through the whirling hurricane, like he promised all those months agoâwhen you could still say you loved him with hearts in your eyes. it was what you knew you had to do; something you may regret someday, but nonetheless the lesser of two evils. hurt him now instead of when it would really matter is what you convinced yourself a couple nights ago. he could get over youâyou weren't anything specialânothing more than borrowed time and stolen moments: the stars during a sunrise, the flowers during fall, the snow in spring. nothing more than roses bound to wilt. nothing more, and nothing better.Â
you took in a shaky breath, feeling like your heart could (and would) fall out of your chest at any given moment. âiâm sorry.âÂ
âwhat if i canât live without you, y/n?âÂ
he said your name so effortlesslyâlike he knew youâand, that made you violently nauseous. âfind a way, taesan.â you spewed out with a venomous tongue, shaking hands masked by your arms being crossed. maybe it was to protect yourself, but you thought that if he could make you the enemy it would hurt him less. anger has always been stronger than sadness, and happiness.Â
the tears welled in his eyes as he scoffed off to the side. âhow could you?â you knew you had his heart in your hands, but were you really prepared to drop it and watch it scatter like the wind? âi need you.â
âi donât love you⊠i never have.â
well it didnât matter if you were ready, because now it went way past just being hurt. now it was death by a million cuts. a wound you opened and knew could never be stitched closed. you knew it was selfish to hope he could eventually get better just because thatâs what you wanted for him. you also knew heâd never forgive you, and it would be stupid to believe anything butâyou knew him as well as he knew you, and could you even forgive yourself?Â
you knew the answer to that too. the bitter truth that lingered on your tongue.Â
and, now itâs been half a year; six months since you said those words. twenty-four weeks since you broke his heart. 186 days since you began no contact. over 262,000 minutes since youâd made the worst mistake of your life. and, all it would take was five seconds for you to make another.Â
would closure, even now, still be beneficial? anything for you to realize that taesan hated you. anything to get you to leave it in the past instead of as an open book. anything to get you to move on instead of reread the stupid messages that send you hurdling to the bathroom, retching over the toilet. anything that stops you from googling the symptoms of heartbreak. anything to get you to stop replaying the memories against your eyelids when you're supposed to be sleeping. anything to get you to stop staring at his contact, finger hovering over the call button. maybe if he didnât pick up that would be enough to deter you. maybe if it said his number was unavailable, that would be enough. maybeâ
âfuck.â you panicked. âoh my god.â you repeated it a couple more times as you smashed the red circle at the bottom of your screen. you didnât even give it enough time to either, let the call go through, or let you know that you could no longer contact him⊠even if you someday mustered up enough courage to.Â
the sky was pouring down with your mood. he was the best, worst mistake you've ever let into your life.
you felt guilty. guilty you swung the door open. guilty you got so far away just to turn the car around. guilty because you had no explanationâyou werenât even drunk. but, guilty for feeling guilty. guilty for wondering if heâd see your contact and remember the cruel words he knew in the back of his mind werenât true, and you knew that hurt him the most. you knew you were cruel for not giving him a reason to end something that otherwise couldâve been great. cruel to pretend like you wouldnât wait for him at the bottom in any given life. but, cruel was what you had to be, right?
you couldnât make him happy, like he made you. you couldnât make him comfortable in public spaces, like he made you. couldnât bring him peace of mind, like he could you. couldnât be the person he could imagine his life with in a two-story house, or apartment with a view. couldnât be the person he painted in his head, the girl he wanted so badlyâyou were only so flexible.
you couldnât ever be enough for someone who so desperately gave you the world.Â
it was your fault you let it get so far in the first place. you made him the currentâit was your fault you couldnât let go. itâs not like he kept contacting you, or even tried to see you after the breakup. you were the desperate ex. you were the person who thought it was a mistake but...Â
you were the one who ended things. you were the one who lied all those months ago. you were the one who broke his heart, and your own as collateral. and now, you couldnât convince yourself it was a win-win situation at all.Â
you loved him. no, you love him.Â
still, he had a tight hold on your heart. even through radio-silence and tormented nights, he had you. and, you never hated it as much as you did nowâbecause you didn't have him in return. you had no clue if he was laying with another girl when your finger hit the call button. was she better? prettier? nicer? did the conversations flow? you had no idea if he had moved on easily like you'd been wishing, underlined by the opposite. you had no idea, and that was the worst part. you could say it was his fault you felt like this, but in reality, it was yours, and you knew that too.Â
so, closureâin whatever fucked up formâwould never be stronger than the tides pulling you back to him.Â
now, you were here, staring at the crashâthe wreckâback where it all went haywire. back where you ripped your heart out and threw it into the crashing waves against the shore. was it stupid to believe it wasn't somewhere far out now?Â
you heard the risk of jumping into the deep end was drowning, but you held your breath, taking a leap of faith and awaiting the cold water to bring you back from a fantasy that isn't written to come true. he wasn't the wave to your wind, dependent on the ever-changing weather inside you. he wasn't the picnic blankets, fruit baskets and smiling faces. he was the thin line where the sky met the sea. he was the wet sand that people drew poetic lines in. he was the umbrella that got picked up and closed after a good day, ruined by a downpour. the chilled feeling during a heatwave. he was something you knew was too good to be true. something marked with an X you'd spend your whole life searching forâdedicated to a whisper.Â
you were swallowed whole, in the belly of a title that you no longer could even call you, spinning with the whirlpool. everything you'd suppressed had come back, crashing against your ankles and shins hard enough to make you lose footing and fall flat on your back.Â
it would knock the wind from your lungs, but it wouldn't feel any different than standing completely still.Â
"oh," no, he didn't feel any different than standing complexly still. "i guess i should've known better."
"yeah," you replied into a thin breath. "i should've⊠i really shouldâve."Â
it was all hanging over your head, the sharp end of the sword readying itself to come down on you. would it hurt any more than seeing taesan back at the spot where you two broke up?Â
you couldn't will your head to turn, but the presence was ever-felt. a presence that used to make your heart turn and stomach beat; or maybe it was the other way around?
you were ever confused on how you got a lucky star out of the millions of ordinary ones. you never understood why he, of all people, chose you. you never understood but nonetheless thanked the heavens; the oceans; the gods; the myths; the planets; the creatures; for bringing him to you.Â
because you got to love him... once.Â
and, now that the humidity had subsided, you could see through the fog⊠he wasn't there. he wasn't the sunshine that warmed your skin. he wasn't the rain that slicked your hair down. he wasn't the breeze that would turn the pages of your romance book unwillingly. he wasn't the playful screeches of couples tossing each other into the cold depths. he wasn't the cliffs people dared to jump off of. he wasn't the sunset proposals, and i do's. he wasn't a first date spot, or pretty photo-op.Â
but, he'd always be the tide that pulled you back to him; he'd always be the tide you wish you could've overturned. the current you'd swim against for a lifetime. and, youâd wait until the oceans dried out to discover the 80% you never got to know.
he was nothing more to you and, definitely, nothing less.Â
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âUhm so is the alarm gonna go off forever?â Jaehyun asked wary. âno it just might call the police on usâ sungho said going through ynâs fridge, jaehyun twisted his neck to look over at sungho âWHAT.â. âdamn this girl has nothing good in her fridgeâŠâ sungho closed the fridge and started looking around âSUNGHO WE HAVE TO GET OUT. I DONT WANNA GET ARRESTEDâ jaehyun yelled panicking before sungho grabbed him by the wrist âliterally what do you have to lose if you go to jail.â jaehyun thought about the question (more of a statement) for a second before sungho rolled his eyes and lead jaehyun to ynâs room. as they got to the door sungho spoke up âlisten. i know you miss yn and i know she misses you too. i promise i have something to show you thatâll prove it.â
as sungho twisted the door knob him and jaehyun walked in carefully ignoring the blaring alarm noise.
âWHAT THE FUCK.â they both said in unison jumping into each others arms. they paused for a moment and side eyed each other âahem,â sungho let go of jaehyun and walked towards the figure. âi knew she was crazy but not this crazyâ. just then they both hear the front door open signaling you were home.
âlisten sungho i really appreciate this and it was nice that you spent time with me and tried this butâŠâ jaehyun sighed looking at the ground âi think yn was right. maybe her and i just arent meant to beâ jaehyun turned around and walked out the bedroom door walking past you. âwhat was that about?â you asked sitting next to sungho sitting on the floor with his knees against his chest.
âI FAILED JAEYNâ he cried rocking back and forth
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im giglling so baf oh my ALSO READER GETTING MAD CAUSE THE TOILET SEAT WAS LEFT UP AJJAJSJS THATS SO FUNNY đ dude taesans sjjsjs MY MANN!! i loved this so much jsjsj JULS !!
ITS STUPID | BND
pairing : bnd x reader
genre : fluff
WHAT ! - bnd when your sulky based of this lovely anon ^_^
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SUNGHO :
- i feel like he would be so confused if he didnt know why you were sulky
- i also feel like he would ask some light questions but wouldnt push you to answer. but if he didnt get a answer he would be so confused
- he would spend the rest of the day reflecting on what he did only to get no answer
- it isnt until night time when you both are laying by each other and arent cuddling that he speaks up because he cant sleep without your cuddles :-|
sungho got home and saw you in the kitchen doing the dishes, normally youd wait for him to come home for dinner to eat together but maybe you werent feeling it. he tried starting a conversation only to get short responses, he then asked if you were okay only to get a hum he noticed the slight pout on your face as you gave these responses. after he got freshened up he went to eat dinner alone with only his thoughts. he replayed his whole day, actually no week, maybe month. but he couldnt seem to put his finger on what you were mad at him for. as he made it to your guys room, he noticed how dark the room was letting him know that you were asleep. he sighed and laid down, and for about 30 minutes he keeps his composure before speaking up âbaby..baby!â he shook you gently, you hummed tiredly wondering why your boyfriend was waking you up. âwhat did i do? just tell me and iâll apologize but i really cant think of a reason hunâ he said propping himself up to look at you. âyou left the toilet seat upâ you said as you yawned seeming to not care anymore, he groaned and pulled the covers over to his side ânow im mad at youâ
âmade me worry for no reasonâ he mumbled
RIWOO :
- riwoo is a worried man
- heâll do everything in his power to try and calm you down so by the time you two cuddle he can get you to spill out why you were sulking
- he hates seeing anything on your face but a smile and would do anything. ANYTHING to get it off if it isnt a smile
- but hes a master manipulator like heâll plan all this out for the perfect timing
as riwoo left the room after noticing you were not joining him in a few minutes like you said, he saw you sitting at your desk typing away on your keyboard. aside from your beautiful face he noticed the big fat pout on your lip making him furrow his eyebrows. riwoo sat on the couch behind you as you did your assignment watching the pout on your lips sit there making him form a pout on his lips as well. he didnt like seeing you bothered or upset by something, so he decided since he knew you wanted to finish this assignment that instead of stopping you heâd take some of the burden off your shoulders. he massaged your shoulders, gave your favorite snacks, and gave you a peck here and there. he could see the way your shoulders relaxed and how slowly but surely the pout on your lips disappeared. and when it finally disappeared fully he left a fat kiss on them as a celebration on his end, afterwards when you finally finish he takes you to your guys room and massages your head letting the stress rest as he listened to you complain about your day. his lips curved up when you mention how you appreciated him helping you. in response he kissed your forehead
âanytimeâ
JAEHYUN :
- wee woo wee woo someone call the dramatic police !!
- HE WILL NOT SHUT THE FUCK UP!! literally blows your head off with questions before he can leave you alone
- he cannot stand you being mad at him for more than 1.36 seconds and make it 1.17 seconds if your sulky
- so as soon as he notices something off hes begging for forgiveness even if he doesnt know what he did
jaehyun couldnt LIVE with the fact tjat he made the love of his life mad like no, kill him. and he dont even get him started if he didnt know why. he has a pre generated apology in his mind ready to be said with tears and everything. he continued to follow you around the house naming all the reasons you could be mad at him even the most ridiculous. âis it cause i ate the last ice cream bar?â âor did i snore too loudâ âohhh its cause i sent too many of those emoji reactions huh?â he continued talking before you turned around âno, no and no!â âthan what is itttâ he groaned stretching the âtâ. you sighed and laid down on the couch to relax, only to feel a man ontop of you (GET OFF ME!!!!) âJAEHYUNâ you shouted âtell meâ he repeated and he laid ontop of you. âremember when i said i didnt like liz?â you said giving up this whole cold persona. feeling him nod you continue âyou said âshe isnt that bad!â but your suppose to agree with anything i say and dislike anything i dislike!â it goes silent for a bit then you hear him go âOHHHHH, notedâ
now hes a certified hater with you â€ïž
TAESAN :
- like sungho doesnt pester you too much about it
- but unlike sungho he doesnt ask questions but observes your moves, and once he sees the pout he knows hes OUT (laugh.)
- anyways literally spend the whole day spacing out wondering what the fuck did he do, he starts reading old conversations you both had. he makes his brain a computer system tracing back each step (while keeping a straight face)
- he folds when you two are having dinner and its silent. he canr take it anymore and ask you if he did anything wrong in the most nonchalant way he can (hes about to start tweaking)
he spent his whole shower standing there backtracking all his steps, from when he woke up to when he got home. after he got out he proceeded to stay in the bathroom and sit there for 25 minutes and 19 seconds scrolling through your messages to see if he had said something wrong trying to find a mood change for him to have to come home to a pouty partner. after finding nothing he sighed coming out of the bathroom and joins you for dinner. the dinner is silent, your peacefully eating but he pokes at his food not being able to get your sulky face out of his mind. he puts his fork down before looking at you âplease tell me what i didâ he said plainly trying to mask the fact that hes going to explode. you look at him and tilt your head confused, he picks up on your body language and speaks up again âi dont like seeing you pout, especially if it was something i did, did someone do something did i do something?â. he sees your face change when you realize what he was talking about âyou never would believe what my mom did to me todayâŠâ you continued
he sighed out of relief realizing he didnt do anything and listened with a smile on his face enjoying his dinner.
LEEHAN :
- he would find it entertainingâŠ(sawry)
- but definitely would take you seriously after having a little analysis in his fish brain he ask you why you were mad
- if itâs something silly hes stares at you for a bit processing it again (fish brain) and lets out a laugh making you more mad
- he composes himself and puts on serious mode. proceeds to indulge in whatever you were mad about, as long as ur happy đ„
leehan didnt expect for the first thing that he would come home to was a sulky s/o. he had walked home to a quiet house wondering where you were, since you didnt greet him at the door like you normally did. walking into the shared bedroom he saw you wrapped in the blanket without your face visible, walking over to your side he saw you scrolling on your phone with a slight pout on your face. he chuckled a bit catching your attention. when you see him laughing it only makes you more angrier, so you flip to the direction facing away from leehan. your reaction suprised him, he stood there for a moment wondering what he did. he sighed a bit before sitting down on the bed behind you as he rubbed your back, âwhats my baby sulky for?â he asked softly. âit wasnt very nice of you to call the fish i sent you ugly.â you said huffing. he then remembered that you two wanted to adopt a fish together and were actively looking for one, and it wasnt until this morning that you sent him a link and he cringed at the photo of the fish. it wasnt the most pleasant to look that in his opinionâŠafter finding out the reason your upset with him, he cant help but let out a laugh. after seeing your face to him not taking you seriously heâd panic a little before drowning you in kisses âwe can get the fish, even if its a little strangeâŠâ
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WE CANT BE FRIENDS | 23. BUT I FEEL SO SEEN IN THE NIGHT
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"so are you guys like friends now?" woonhak asked as he recorded the 3 of you guys walking to the park together for a shoot.
"yep, we're best friends!" jaehyun said as he wrapped an arm around your shoulder. "don't push it myung" you glared at jaehyun making him turn to you and sulk, "you said we were friends though" he mumbled.
when you guys finally got to the park woonhak ran away hiding somewhere trying to find a good place to record you both without being caught. as he found a space, he zoomed into you and jaehyun walking. it was quiet for a bit before jaehyun spoke up "I'm sorry...i don't know why I'm so awkward alone with you..." he laughed slightly. you turned over to him and grinned at his loserness, "you're fine, we just worked things out like...yesterday. i wouldn't expect you to be all buddy-buddy with me you know?" he nodded and it went back to silence.
...
"how was your date with jaehyun?"
"i didnt go on a date with you...do you mean the fish one?"
"nono, JEONG jaehyun"
making an 'o' shape with your mouth you nodding understanding him now
"it was okay...i mean you should know, you were there." you smiled "i mean, it seemed like he was more on a date with me than you, he just ignored you and talked to me the whole time." "wow, way to rub it in myung..."
"no! i didn't mean it like that, i just wanted to know if you liked him or anything...just curious..." he peeked at you to see your head turned to him as you guys kept walking "well i didn't get to know him that much to like him you know? maybe if me and him actually TALKED, i could've but he wanted to go to a shooting range..."
jaehyun busted out laughing to which you playfully hit his arm "i took you on a better first date right?" he turned to look at you. and maybe it was the first time he fully looked at you since you two had met again but it seemed to him that you had gotten more beautiful than before, which he didn't even know was possible but it felt like he fell in love again for the first time. "you took me to a trampoline park on our first date..." "which was fun right?" "yeah, it was fun...really fun actually, then you took me to the laundromat because i told you my washing machine broke and you needed to do laundry" "hey we had hours to talk, a vending machine to which i paid for anything you wanted, as well as fresh laundry to come home to" "i never told you how much i enjoyed that, or when we went to the lame comedy club and wrote down our rankings on a piece of paper" you both stared laughing as you remembered the moment "i remember silly soosan, all we could write on her ranking was 'boo tomato tomato'" laughing you slightly lean towards him. "remembering these moments reminds me that our relationship wasn't so bad" you said looking at your feet, jaehyun nudged you a bit "ouch, but fair enough...
do you ever wonder how our relationship could've been if i didn't mess it up? like what would we be doing right now?"
"probably at another laundromat, ive been too lazy to do laundry."
"oh i get it, you would want me to do your laundry for you"
"and you would do it"
"i would..." he said under his breath
"what'd you say?"
"nothing."
"you would do my laundry?" you repeated
"oh i hate people like you, you guys pretend not to hear something then say exactly what i just said
but im serious." he stopped walking and held your hand making you stop to look at him
"what would we be doing if we stayed together"
"do we fix our issues?" you asked
"i mean we would have to sooner or later" jaehyun tilted his head slightly grinning
"do you choose music over me?"
"well, since we fixed our issue, no. no i wouldn't choose music over you"
"then we'd be-" you were cut off by your name being called.
"YN! YN!"
turning your head you see jeong jaehyun running towards you. when he caught up to you and jaehyun, jeong jaehyun caught his breath "hey..." he looked at you before turning to myung jaehyun. "whats uo Brodie" jeong said as he dabbed up myung.
"yn..." jeong jaehyun started "i wanna make it up to you and take you on a date to fix the first one"
jaehyun 1 felt like jaehyun 2 shouldve just slapped him at that point.
suddenly woonhak and leehan jumped ontop of jeong jaehyun
"WHAT THE FUCK- YN ILL PICK YOU UP AT 7 TOMORROW"
"KEEP WALKING
KEEP WALKING"
"NO-"
"JUST KEEP TALKING ILL TAKE CARE OF THIS"
"YN-"
the mix of leehan and woonhak fighting jeong jaehyun made you and the original jaehyun run.
#wcbf đđââË#sakirecsđ#saki yaps!#WHEN THEY WERE REMINISCING THEIR OLD DATES JSJSJS SOMEONE SHOOT ME#âčïžâčïžâčïž#this is so cute im gonna die#PROGRESS IS HAPPENING THOUGH#EVERYONE CHEERED#I LOVE U JULS
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