#saeoung choi

[saerran-choi]

Please.Not Her. Part 4

Plot: When the twins are rescued by V and Rika, they’re younger sister (Y/N) goes with them, and is taken with Saeran to Mint eye. There, they are then rescued by Vanderwood and Seven, to which, (Y/N) and Vanderwood begin a interesting friendship. Will it end in something more or will it all burn down?

This story contained spoilers for Another Story and the Secret Endings as well as Sevens Route. Please be wary.

CONTAINES TRIGGERS: suicidal thoughts, self harm, torturing, drugs, and mentions of rape. This is not a light story. Please read at your own risk. Not all parts will contain the triggers, but I’d like to mark them all. Please be wary.

REMEMBER: Luna is (Y/N)’s alternate personality who comes out when (Y/N) is in danger or scared. (Y/N) has very little control over her, but still has some.

“Listen here, you’re gonna tell us what we want to know. I don’t care if we have to drag you to hell and back to find these agents” the lead agent says. “So, Luna. Or whatever the hell your name is, what is it gonna take”

“Oh, wow. Flirting with me and I don’t even know your name” Luna/(Y/N) says, grinning. Her teeth were a bright pink, stained with blood from the earlier attacks. She seems to enjoy it just a bit, as she takes her tongue and licks the top row of teeth, maintaining eye contact with the leader. He cringes and seems to be disgusted.

“You want to know my name? Then you’re gonna have to tell me a few things first. I’ll trade you, information for information”

“You know what? If I was an idiot I’d take the deal, but I think I’ll just call you Jared.” She says chuckling. He flinched just a bit when she says the name. “Oh? Did I actually guess right? What a pathetic name”

“Shut the fuck up.”

“I guess I hit a nerve there. Did your parents hate you Jared? Naming you that must have really screwed up your childhood”

“I’ll make you suffer so terribly you’ll wish you’d never said that name” Jared spits, venom laced with every word.

“Good. I love a little bit of foreplay.” The cold air seem to rush out of the room, replaced with a scorching heat of rage as the two glared daggers at the other, silently daring the other to make a move. Jared stands up straighter and heads towards the door.

“No water for 3 days or food for a week. Up the dosage of the elixir. And take out a few more nails. We’ll get this bitch to talk. One way or another”. The sound of the door scraping are all the girl hears, before the second in command agent, the brunette, walks in, a pair of bloodied pliers and a shit eating grin. The blood had to have been hers, from the earlier 5 fingernails removed, and from digging it into her bullet wounded ankle.

“Let’s begin, shall we”

The bright red convertible raced down the streets, the color clashing with the black asphalt. Normally the roof would be down and the music would blast, but this time, deafening silence sits inside the car. The sound of the engine is the only thing heard, all three men lost inside their own heads. Artillery laid across the two remaining seats in the back, next to the mint eyed twin. The unspoken question rang in each of their heads. Would she even be alive if they found her? No. When they found her.

“Vanderwood?” Saeyoung, the driver, pipes up, breaking the tense silence with his question. Vanderwood looks over, making eye contact with the previous hacker. “When we get her back. I- no. Saeran and I give you permission to be with her”

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?”

“I know the way you look at (Y/N) and the way you to act. You guys are in love. Cherish it. And I swear if you hurt her-“

“That will never happen” Vanderwood interrupts, avoiding saying anything about the, love, part of the conversation, not wanting to face the facts. He had some feeling whenever he was around her. Butterflies as some people call it. The feeling of always wanting the best for her, wanting her safe. Always happy to be around her, and when she’s gone, he looks for the day he can see her again. He wants to hold her, be around her, and for her to be his. But not love. He isn’t capable for love, that isn’t love. That’s just what friends feel.

“Vanderwood!” The loud shout brings him back to reality, looking towards the twins shouting at him. The car had been stopped, and they were parked outside a compound, the grey concrete contrasted brightly against the bright sun.

"We all know the plan correct?” Everyone nods, and Saeyoung grabs a small handgun and holsters it to his chest, proceeding to grab another and set it in the holster by his hip.

“Good. Let’s go get my baby sister back.”

The cries of pain is the sound that echoes throughout the hallway. Each nail, individually ripped out, slowly. The nerves protected under the nails revealed, much more sensitive and painful to the touch. The wound in her ankle was  infected, the pulsing of it, and the constant pain, she doubts she’d be able to walk for a long time. The agents had left her alone to wallow in her pain, to sit in absolute silence and darkness. They had upped the dosage of the elixer given, and (Y/N) could barely keep control over Luna. Once Luna was fully out, no one would be safe. But her brothers were coming. She just had to held on.

Luna normally only came out when (Y/N) was given elixer, but with the previous experiences at Mint Eye and the recovery, she could control that alternate personality better. But with the change in dosage and the more she was given, the less of the control she held.

Gunshots. That’s the one sound that breaks the silence. At first it’s one, then two, then six. Something was happening. Something big. She pulls against the chains and cries out in pain from the shackle around her ankle tightening, pressing more into her ankle. Fresh tears pour down her face as she leans her head down, her bloodied covering her face. She can’t stop the flow of tears freely falling now, as she wails. Luna has officially gone away, the threat of torture seemed to be gone, and Luna was not needed.

The door slams open, and (Y/N) jumps, the chain instantly tightening from the movement as she cries out once again.

“Shit shit shit” a voice repeats. The pain is becoming searing hot, and the edge of her vision begins to blacken. “Hey. Hey, (Y/N). You gotta stay with me”

“Vandy?” The haze around her mind allowed her to recognize the voice.

“Yeah. It’s me sweetheart. I’m gonna get you out of here. You’re gonna be okay” the repetition of the statement is more of a reassurance for him than for her. She was alive. (Y/N)’s eyes begin to close, as the fatigue sets in.

“Hey hey. You gotta stay awake for me”

“So tired”

“Hey!” The door slams open again, and saeyoung and Saeran run in.

“Vanderwood. We gotta go.”

“I have to get the shackle off of her”

“Who are you” he looks at (Y/N), her eyes half lidded.

“Sae?”

“Answer” Saeran demands.

“It’s me sae. She’s gonna take over. You guys have to go”

“We’re not leaving you” all three men says, almost in unison.

“Then you gotta knock, knock” she seems to struggle for words. “Ugh. Little princess wants to keep me asleep” “Luna! Go away” the girl seems to have an argument with herself on the verge of passing out. Her eyes suddenly open wide, before she smiles.

“Little princess couldn’t win”

“Luna”. Saeran spits, looking towards the girl as Vanderwood works on the chains and Saeyoung guards the door.

“Ray? Oh sorry I forgot. Hello Saeran. It’s been a while”

“Bring her back”

“No can do captain. You know what brings us about. You’re stuck with me for a while.” She turns to look towards Vanderwood. “Oh oh oh. Who’s this hunk of meat? When you get me out of here I can greatly repay you” She says, licking her lips.

“Shut up. We’re getting you out of here for (Y/N)s sake, and we’ll get rid of you soon”

“I don’t think so. I’ve come out here to protect her.”

“From what?” Saeyoung speaks up, coming away from the door. “We’re here now. She’s safe. You can leave”

“You don’t know what’s going on in her mind. What happened in here. She’s terrified of her own skin.” As she finishes her sentence, a click is heard and the shackle falls off with a loud clank.

“Got it. I’ll grab her. Let’s go” Vanderwood scoops up (Y/N) /Luna and carries her bridal style to try and keep pressure off of her ankle. She wraps her arms around his neck and smiles.

“You’re so strong” she purrs, smiling.

“Shut it” is all he replies, heading out the door, and looking around, making sure they were in the clear. Bodies littered the floor, thanks to the twins.

“Oh come on, I’m pretty much her, I have all the same thoughts she does. I can tell you everything she thinks about you”

“I don’t care.”

“You will. The adoration she feels for you, the love she has. She wants you, but knows you wouldn’t want her back. But she doesn’t think you’ll accept her, especially because she’s been defiled”

“What the hell does that mean”

“The things they did in there to her. It was not pretty.” Luna says, before making a face contorted in pain. “Hey-what are you”

“(Y/N)?” The girl gasps and crises out in pain, regaining control, and feeling the effects of the wounds.

“Vandy” she sighs, seeing his face as they finally reach the outside. All three men bolt to the car, twins getting in the front and Vanderwood taking (Y/N) to the back with him. Before they can even buckle up, Saeyoung has his pedal all the way to the floor, and sped out of the area. It was a few miles before anyone said anything.

“(Y/N)?” Vanderwood asks, finally noticing the girl laying beside him, her head on his lap, had been silently crying. “Hey, hey you’re okay” he says. Both brothers had remained silent, knowing they couldn’t do anything.

“I’m sorry” the girl whispers, her voice cracking and faint. It was then that Vanderwood could finally take in her appearance. She was extremely pale, and extremely thin, about 20lbs lighter than she was before. Blood ran down her fingers and her legs, in her hair and all around her mouth. She had deep and light cuts and bruises littering her body, and very little clothing covering her body.

“Saeyoung”

“I’m on it” the golden eyed twin says, hits the pedal harder, the acceleration picking up, moving the car faster. Vanderwood turns his attention towards the small girl.

“What are you sorry for?”

“I couldn’t stop them.”

“It’s not your fault sweetheart. You’ll be okay, I promise, we’ll get you fixed up right away, and you’ll be good as new”. The girls eyes begin to flutter, and Vanderwood taps her cheek lightly. “Hey. You gotta stay awake”

“I’m sorry Vandy” she says, slightly slurring her words. “I’m sorry”

“For what?”

“I wanted you. I like you” she starts and he smiles.

“I like you too sweetheart”

“No. I like like you. I wanted to save myself. But they took it.”

“Took what?” But he knew the words she would say, and the put in his stomach grew even more.

“They took my innocence. They forced me, i didn’t want it. But they wouldnt stop. No matter what I said or did.”. After those words, her eyelids flutter shut, and her breathing begins to shallow, and the time in between breaths seems to grow.

[thirstyfortom]

I took “spider” and “trick or treating” out of these two requests and combined into one scenario.  I’m sorry if it isn’t exactly what you wanted, I just thought it would be easier like this. Hope you like this^^

HALLOWEEN SPECIAL

RFA + Saeran dealing with a spider on Trick or Treat

Zen

 His costume was making him completely unrecognizable, so you guys were able to wander around a lot of streets

He’s not much into candy. So all he got, he got it for you.

You guys stopped walking so he would pour the candy from his bag on yours

That’s when you saw it, a dark spider crawling over the candy

You jumped and dropped your bag on the floor, hugging him and screaming

He gladly took the hug, but what’s with the scream? “AHHHHH ZEN! GET RID OF IT! AHHHHH!”

Oh… it’s a spider… he chuckled and unwrapped one of the candy, using it to grab the spider and throw it on a bush. “There’s no need to get scared, babe… it’ just a tiny harmless spider, don’t worry.”

You guys picked the candy on the floor, you were trying to ignore him teasing you for being so cute when you’re scared.But as soon as you guys got up, he saw it… a cat jumping out of the bush.

Zen clung onto you for dear life. “AHHHHH BABE! GET RID OF IT! AHHHH!”

 Yoosung

You guys were already home and he was taking his costume off while you were pouring the candy in a bowl

 He was going to the bathroom to fix his hair and meet you in the living room so you guys would eat some of what you collected

But then he heard your scream and ran to you, you just point to the counter with a horrified expression

Oh… it’s a big one… he just saw one of these in his books

Okay, he’s having a few chills, but it’s nothing compared to you, so he’ll fight the spider if he has o, anything for you.

Nah, he won’t really fight. “I’m pretty sure it’ one of those species without venom, MC.”

He grabs a glass and traps the animal, feeling so cool at your thankful look. You’re looking at him like a hero.

“I don’t care, they are creepy to look at, Yoosung.” “Ah, yes… they really are, but don’t worry, it’s harmless.”

 “Oh yeah? So how did it get out of the glass?” he freezes with widen eyes, then slowly turns his head to see it… nope, it’s still there, you were just messing with him.

You laugh and pull him for a hug. He’s relieved you’re smiling again and guides you to the living room… before giving a quick glance towards the spider to make sure it’s still there.

 Jaehee

She saw when the spider crawled to your bag of candy

Internally panicking, she’s not really scared, but she thinks you will be terrified if you see it.

 “Hey, MC… your bag looks heavy, do you want me to hold it for you?” “Thanks, honey, I’m fine…”

 S H I T

“MC, please give me your bag…” “Wha…? Why? Hey… are you trying to steal my candy?” you ask her teasingly… jfc

“MC, this isn’t a joke, give me your bag!” she says seriously, and you freeze in surprise. Oh no… she didn’t mean to sound harsh…

“I’m… I’m sorry, I’m not…” HOLY FUCK, it’s climbing towards your hand!

Using her judo quick reflexes, she manages to shoo the spider away.

“Okay, maybe I was trying to steal your candy…” she giggles before coming closer, you blush and she ends up taking the bag from your hands.

She runs, but not that fast so you’ll manage to catch her, she just wanted to drag you away from where the spider fell.

 Jumin

You guys earned some candy at a fancy Halloween party

You were putting it on a bowl in the kitchen when you saw Elizabeth playing with something in the counter

“Hey, what you have there, young la… ? AHHHHHH!”

Jumin ran to the kitchen, only to face the two most precious creatures of his life with the tensest expression he’s ever seen.

“What is going on in here?” he asks, but not in a confusing tone.

He sounds… mad. No, he is mad as he is looking around to see who caused this distress over you and Elizabeth.

 “Oh, it’s just… there’s a spider in here… and Elizabeth was playing with it…”

He walks towards the counter with such a serious expression you almost fear for the spider’s life…

“Pack a few clothes, we’re going to a hotel. I’ll call someone to fumigate this house.” “Jesus, Jumin, it’s just a spider, calm down.”

 “So why were you so frightened?” he looks genuinely confused, and since you’re not able to answer, you just let it go. And that’s how the spider got to live another day.

 Saeyoung

You guys went to your place after trick or treating

He was seeing the profit of the night while you were showering

Then he saw it… and boy was relieved you weren’t there to see him yelping

Yep, this guys has faced the most dangerous criminals inside and outside Korea, no one of them was more intimidating then this eight legged fella here…

But he’s worried you’ll freak out even more than him, so he gathers all the courage he has and manages to grab the spider and throw it away through the window.

You get out of the shower and he walks towards you. “Don’t you think I deserve a kiss?”

“Why?” “Well, milady, I faced my fears tonight for you… I, Saeyoung Choi, saw a spider and handled it like the hero I am for you.”

“You… handled?” you ask. Oh… are you going to panic thinking the spider might come back? Quick! He needs to lie! “Y-yeah! I killed it, don’t worry, my princess!”

“Do you mean… you killed my dear Daisy?” Uh oh… he had no idea it was your pet… he widens his eyes and inhales sharply seeing your shocked expression. “MC, I…”

“Just kidding. Spiders freak me out. Thanks, honey.” You give him a quick peck, he doesn’t know if he’s melting more due to your kiss or due to your little prank.

 V

 He was putting the candy you guys collected in a jar

He heard you screaming in the bathroom and bolted to there, worried you fell or something

 “MC, what’s wrong?” you were petrified, just pointing to the spider descending from the ceiling.

“Oh… yes, amazing, isn’t it?” he smiles. What the fuck?

“What? N-no, it’s not! It’s terrifying! This thing could bite me!” you step back, covering yourself with the towel as if the spider is some kind of pervert

“This one? Ah yes, Argiope bruennichii can bite, but their venom is harmless to humans.”  You look at him in puzzlement.

“I… got the chance to learn a lot about all kinds of animals in my trips around the world… do you know that spiders are essential to maintain control of the insects’ population, MC?”

“That’s really interesting, Jihyun…” you sigh

You really love when he show his passion over the most trivial things, you really do.

 However… you are naked in the bathroom staring at a goddamn spider. “Please… just take it somewhere else so I can finish my shower.” You were kinda feeling like a third wheel between him and the spider, anyway…

 Saeran

You were getting ready to eat the candy you collected it. What’s taking you so long in the kitchen?

Then he finds you trembling and staring at the spider. And now you’re like that for… 6  minutes?

He’s going from annoyed to actually terrified, what was he supposed to do?

“Hey… calm down… it’s just a spider… it’s… more afraid of you than you are of it…”

“I doubt it! Ahhh, Saeran, it’s moving! It’s moving again!” you cling on him.

Okay, that does it!

He takes off his shoe and SLAMS it against the wall. Then he looks at you, and you’re staring at him in shock.

“You… you’ve killed it?” “Yep!” “Why… why did you kill it? Ahhhh the poor thing, Saeran!”  WHAT???

“What the hell? Weren’t you terrified of it a minute ago? I  took care of it for you!” “There are other ways of taking care of it! You didn’t have to kill it!” you glare at him and takes all the candy with you.

You mad at him? Meh, he can fix this later. Right now he just wants his candy back.

[yandereshit]

[11.06.2017] •Choi fic•

Happy birthday, Saeran. Happy birthday, Saeyoung. Hope you’re doing fine now. Be happy, guys. Not like the angsty shit below. I’m sorry, I’m angsting this fandom up. Sorry T_T

He reached the point of no return.

The room he spent every day in was dark, suffocating. The only sound was quick tapping on a keyboard, mechanic and blank. The air was muggy, air conditioner must have broken and his skin was covered in sweat. 

He didn’t care much though. He was too busy to care. Every single day had he spent on his work. He almost never left the room.

It wasn’t pleasant, not one bit. But they told him he had to do this so that one day it all turns into a paradise. So he had no choice now but to do everything they said.

Was it truth, though? Was there a paradise for him? Or was it only one of the lies he already listened so many times to…?

He closed his eyes, suddenly too distracted to work. A five-minutes-long break will help him clear his thoughts, he decided. Working when you feel too much pressure is never good, you have to have the strength to focus.

… That’s what he used to tell him. He used to study a lot. And he always knew when to take a break so that it doesn’t give him too much pressure. He was brave, assiduous. 

Unlike Saeran, who was only a burden. 

Was it his fault for being so weak…? Maybe he was right, after all… that there were no paradise for him. That he never deserved it from the beginning…

He gritted his teeth and punched the wall with all the strength he had. 

A loud “bang” echoed in the dark space.

He growled in helpless anger.

It was a miracle that he didn’t break his hand, but the skin was torn off from the impact.

It didn’t hurt though. For some reason, he didn’t feel any pain.

He grabbed a little box laying on the table and took out a few pills. 

He didn’t feel any pain.

- … Saeyoung?

- Aaahh, Saeran, don’t look yet!

- W-wait, where’s Saeyoung…?

- He will be there! Chill out! Don’t look yet! Don’t open your eyes!

- B-but…

- Listen to your friend~

He shifted uncomfortably, letting the girl lead him through the streets. A blindfold was wrapped loosely around his eyes, almost slipping off. He raised his free hand to fix it. 

- We’re almost there~

He heard the door creaking and almost tripped over the doorstep. A sweet smell reached his senses, along with soft, happy music and people’s voices. He could recognize some of those voices and he felt that he can’t wait anymore. He tugged the blindfold down.

- Happy birthday!

Saeoung looked at him. It was clear that they brought him here the same way, which was utterly confusing. But his lips quickly curled into a happy grin.

The whole RFA was here. MC, who leaded him to the ice cream parlor, Zen, Yoosung, Jumin, Jaehee and him. His brother. The most important person in his life, the only one that made him want to carry on living through all those years.

- Happy birthday, Saeran - Saeyoung beamed, reaching to ruffle his hair as he would do so often when they were kids.

He hesitated. And returned the smile.

- Happy birthday, Saeyoung.

There was a single tear streaming down his cheek.

A stupid idea wasn’t worth anything more. What was it? How could he even think of such a thing? Disgusting. His brother was disgusting. He left him. He lied.

Everyone lied.

What was that paradise? Would he really be happy there? 

Would he?

Would he really be happy if he was to go there alone…?

He never wanted to be alone.

But he’s already reached the point of no return. 

He felt himself sinking deeper and deeper into the world of shadows and lies. The world that was meant to be his “paradise”, but which caused him only more pain. 

And he couldn’t help but wondered if at east his brother could somehow spend it happily.

What he couldn’t see though, was Saeyoung’s tired silhoulette, as the boy sat in his chair, unable to concentrate on his work as the thoughts kept streaming through his mind.

Staring blankly at the ceiling, he a bit uncounsciouslly kept thinking… What if one day, they both got to enjoy their birthday together? And do all the things they never could when they were young… 

It was all pointless though.

Because Seyoung knew that he reached the point of no return.

[saerran-choi]

Unrequited Love

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM AND PUTTING ANOTHER DOWN. IF YOU DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE READING THIS, OR WILL BE TRIGGERED, PLEASE DO NOT READ!!!!! IF YOU EVER NEED ANYONE TO TALK TO, I AM ALWAYS AVAILABLE, OR PLEASE REACH OUT TO A PROFESSIONAL TO GET THE HELP YOU NEED, AND DESERVE.

Yoosung:

The college boy didn’t believe in love. After Rika, he didn’t believe he deserved to be loved, or to love. So he didn’t. He repressed ever feeling that he had for you. Telling himself that you’d be better off without him, that he is just a friend, that you’re better off with someone like Jumin, or even Zen. He learned not to love. So when you told him you loved him, he didn’t return those feelings. He thought everything would be okay, that you’d get over him, and move on and you would remain friends. What he didn’t expect, was the long  paragraph of a text he had gotten, stating that you loved him and none of this was his fault, that you were sorry. At first he didn’t understand, but then he knew. He saw the signs. He had the  proof he needed, yet, why couldn’t he move? Why couldn’t he go and see you, change your mind, show you he still cares, just not in the way you wanted. He could see the message, the time you sent it. Two hours ago. Two hours to late. He spent twenty minutes calling your cell phone, trying to make sure you were okay, trying to make sure you were alive. You never answered. What he didn’t know was your roommate had just found you after a night out. You were courteous not to  leave the bathtub water running over night, but the blood stains would never come out, nor would the memory of the phone call Yoosung got after she found the cold, lifeless, body that used to be so full of energy and warmth. How he would never get to make you smile again, or how you’d never learn how to play LOLOL. And Yoosung’s main thought? Why do I have to lose everyone I love? He would never get over it. It would be stuck with him for the rest of his life, because he only thinks this is my fault.

Zen:

He didn’t have the time to love. He was a rising star, soon to have the name everyone would know. You thought you would get in the way of his career, just be a nuisance. But you decided to tell him anyways. You loved him, but he didn’t love you. He loved his career more, and brushed you off, saying it wasn’t love, but admiration,and you’d get over it. You never were given the chance to. While he was performing, the show was cancelled in the middle of the performance. Once his manager explains,he understands. They didn’t want to worry him, or cause him to freakout, but there were police officers and ambulances at his house, and the reporters were already there, and he needed to go. Now. But when he got there,and saw the stretcher being carried out of his house, white sheet over the body, he freaks. Who was in his house? Only the RFA members had access to his house. One officer walks up to him and explains. Suicide. Pills and alcohol, taken together in ungodly amounts. A note written addressed to him. The only thing written on it: Please continue your career. You’re gonna go far Zen. Goodbye. - MC. After that, he quit acting, and starting drinking away  his sorrows, maybe attempting to join you, maybe just  trying to forget you.

Jumin:

The CEO was the emotionless type.He did not fall in love,for love would just distract him from his work, and his dear Elizabeth the third.  To show emotions to him, is to  show weakness, to show his bad side, so he swore it off. But you fell for him anyways. With the way he cared for everyone and for the intelligence,  but he didn’t love you back, and he made that very clear,  saying it publicly. How he knew, no one will know, but he did know, and he did not approve. He told you you would never have the status to marry him, or to even help run the company at a beginner job. You were worthless to him.  He said that so you wouldn’t love him anymore, but hate him, because in his eyes he was not worth it, and would rather you  hate him, the be in love with him when he didn’t deserve it. When he found out, he broke. It was all over the news. The RFA leader had hung herself in her apartment, and had left  a note addressed to Jumin  Han, and that was all. He didn’t want to open that letter, he knew what was going to be written. This was his fault. But in your eyes, it wasn’t. You had written him, telling him that this was not his fault, a=and that you were worthless, you couldn’t even hold off the idea of dying, that you couldn’t even die without that liquid courage running through your veins. This wasn’t his fault, it was yours, but he knew deep down, it was his.

Seven:

He didn’t love you, because if he did, you’d be as good as dead in the life he leads. He was too busy, too dangerous, to horrid. So when you told him you loved him,he blew up and grew angry. He stated lies. He hated you, you were horrible if you loved him, he prefered Rika over you. He thought it would keep you away from him, that it would keep you safe. It was when Saeran came to him, breaking down and sobbing, he finally gets the idea. You had taken his gu, the one he taught you to use in case of danger, and painted your bedroom wall blood, and carved countless lines into your wrists, that you took your own life because he wouldn’t give you his love. He didn’t talk for weeks, only threw himself into his work.Didn’t eat, didn’t sleep,  and threw himself into unnecessary danger,so one day, he could meet you again,and explain why, and apologize, because it was all his fault.

Saeran:

He was damaged, and needed to heal,  but you fell for the damaged boy anyways. He felt rushed, panicked, and told him he despised you when you said you loved him. He didn’t hate you, but he didn’t love you either. He values your friendship,  but destroyed it in the process. It was Seven that told him. You were still in Rika’s apartment. The cameras showed you had went into  the bathroom 4 hours ago,and never came out, and that  worried the choi  boys. Of course, Saeran  is the first to the apartment and  is the one that breaks down the locked bathroom door,  and the one who finds your cold, lifeless body. An open bottle of pills, a bloodied razor blade,and your lifeless body in the running water. He broke down, almost turned back into his old self. He did this. He caused you enough grief, that you decided to your own life. It was his fault, and he had to live with that guilt, whether he could handle that, or if he would join you.

V:

Rika. He was in love with Rika, and didn’t have room for you in his heart. He wanted her, insane or sane, she was the one. When you admitted you loved him, he told you he only loved Rika, and no one else,  that it would always be Rika. He didn’t expect that call. He didn’t expect the message received. He didn’t expect the letter.  He wanted you to pop up and say “surprise, this is all a joke” when he got the call. He was listed as an emergency contact due to RFA business, and the only one they could get a hold of. They had fished your body out of the river, where you had thrown yourself off of the bridge. The unsent text on her phone finally went through when fished out of the river. It’s  not your fault” is all it said. The letter in her home said the same thing. That it wasn’t his fault, that she wants him to be happy with Rika and forget about her. Thats when V became a Believer in her cult. The Elixir helped him forget you, so he wouldn't have to live with the guilt of telling the RFA members about an actual suicide that was his faut.

[saerran-choi]

The Youngest Choi Part 2

 TRIGGER WARNINGS: ABUSE AND MENTIONS OF RAPE. PROCEED WITH WARNING

Part 1

It was difficult for (Y/N) to keep hope in this world. She has not seen either of her brothers for years, and has not learned anything on them. Under the radar.  At least they were safe. They did not get turned in. The second the boys were gone, V, Saeran, Saeyoung, Rika turned. She gave the young girl to the worst person, her father. Rika said (Y/N) would be too much to handle, she would not obey. But (Y/N)’s father didn’t kill her, no. She looked too much like him, that he kept her as an assistant. If she disobeyed, she got hit, simple as that. She soon learned to obey. Business meetings, personal meetings, by his side all day everyday. Once she began to mature, she began to look more like her brothers, he forces her to dye her hair, to get eye surgery, to completely change herself. 

She would not become like them, like his criminal background. Once she reached 18, however, the real hell and torture began. When he needed money, he rented her out. From  other politicians to drunk men he would meet at the bar. Sometimes it would be one person, sometimes it would be so many at a time. She was forced into surgery, no matter how much she begged not to, so she could not have kids. After the surgery, the renting out became more often.

 She had attempted to end it all several times, everytime she was caught, and beat to the brink of death. It would give her father a bad image if she killed herself, since he could have done something to stop her. She had constant body guards, not to protect her from others, but from herself. Once her father had gotten rich and famous, she stopped being rented out as much. There were still those who would pay a high price, and her father would not be able to turn down. Or walking to her apartment from a convenience store and a drunken man from the past who would pull her into a dark alley where no one could hear her scream and cry. Shes been rented as an assistant for businessmen, just to be their playtoy. 

She hated her life. She was constantly working. She slept maybe two hours a day. Always was at meeting with her father, or scheduling a meeting for him, or filing papers, or going to meetings for him. She was exhausted. Always keeping hope her brothers would eventually find her. 

It was a TV interview that changed her life for the better. Her father decided to run for president. He wanted to find her brothers and kill them to get rid of his background. She did everything she could to distract him, even scheduling a TV interview. He took the bait, but still brought her with him, so she couldn't try anything.  The second she introduced herself as (Y/N), someone knew. 

V. He saw, and made sure her brothers did not. V immediately called his friend Jumin, and asks him to schedule a meeting with the assistant, and to trust him that everything was going to be okay, to make sure her boss was not there, and that V would be attending.