#sadeyes.

[whereslynx]

Dating Antonio “Sad Eyes” Guzman would be like..

pov: (sadeyes) golden retriever x black cat (you) trope !!

a/n: thank you for the request! :) sad eyes was actually one of my favourite characters — he just seemed so humble. p.s, in this oneshot, i’m kinda insinuating that you grew up with Spooky and Cesar, but it’s up to you if you choose to imagine yourself biologically related to them.

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In the midst of the Santos and their chaos of retaliation, there was Sad Eyes.

He was always the one to stand middle ground, but you lost count on how many altercations he deescalated between the Santos. His undying loyalty to the Santos allowed him to be the calm in the storm and the voice of reason in a world of wrath. He was dedicated to his compas, and carried his duties to back them up with intent.

But there was something else— No, someone else, that taught him to carry himself the way that he does.

You.

Before youse started dating, you had caught his eye long before you even formed an opinion on him as an individual.

But this man didn’t have to know you to fall in love with you.

He observed the way you weren’t afraid to speak your opinion in a room where it wasn’t favoured, and the way you weren’t afraid to stand alone and carry yourself through life.

It drove his urge to take care of you and lift you off your feet insane. So, when he finally asked you out and got accepted, he swore an oath to himself to give you the world.

But, having a boyfriend like Sad Eyes wasn’t always easy.

Growing up under the wings of Spooky, you learnt quickly and adapted easily to the cruelty that the world burdened you with whilst you thrived in independence. Spooky had taught you to not depend on anyone, ensuring that if he wasn’t there to aid you, then you’d be strong enough to be on your own.

It was funny, really; You had Spooky’s attitude and Cesar’s heart and confidence. Anyone from a mile away could spot the Diaz effect on you.

Many would think that your fiery and outspoken demeanour would rival Sad Eyes’ laid-back and calm one, but the way that man followed you around like a lost puppy was baffling. He shadowed your every move, making sure you had everything you wanted and needed.

“Are you sure you got it? I can carry it for you, guapa.” He’d say, following closely behind you with a big grin whilst you carried shopping bags into the Diaz household. “Ay, Dios, Antonio, I told you I got it!” You would exclaim with a sigh, waving him away as you shuffled into the house with your bags.

Moments like these would be followed by fellow Santos chuckling and shaking their heads, witnessing how attentive Sad Eyes was to your needs despite your insistence to stay true to your independence.

“Just let the chica do shit on her own, Sad Eye.” Joker would laugh, “She doesn’t need you to be her Superman.”

But Sad Eye would only shrug his comments off, “No, compa.” he’d shake his head, “She just isn’t used to it.” Sad Eye insisted, wandering off to plot on how he’s going to make you let him help you.

But on those days where life was getting a bit too heavy on your shoulders, and everything just seemed to turn against you no matter the reason, you found yourself leaning onto Sad Eye more than ever.

It’d be a rare occurrence that Sad Eye treasured each and every time.

He would be gentle, and he’d listen to every word you’d tell him. Whether it’d be things you needed to get off your chest, or simply just the things you’d ask of him.

“You’re too good for me,” you mumbled with your head laid on his chest. “No, mi vida. You’re just too hard on yourself.” Sad Eye would lowly chuckle, running his thumb across your skin. You only scoffed with a small smile, “Don’t bullshit me, tonto. I hardly do anything to please you. And yet, you give me so much.”

Sad Eye wrapped his arms around you with a childish grin,

“When will you understand that what I give you is a reflection of my love for you, and not an act to enforce debt onto you.”

[as-you-think]

Thought that I would've been better by now

Part of me's stuck and it's pullin' me down

I wanted to change but I didn't know how

[emoboysilike]

Days To Waste

[lustfulslxt]

Song suggestions?

jomie - brighter days, what a nice day to runaway

powfu - washing off the blood, the view from my bathroom window

rxseboy - dramatic, i don’t wanna be me anymore

sewerperson - ugly, this is a lullaby

guardin - dim, dark, depleting, creature

lil skele - i saw you by the water, burden

sadeyes - jaded, mess

these are mainly the only artists i listen to daily 🤷🏻‍♀️

[ktchelles-arts]

rescue pet

I made a little doodle of one of my childhood games/toys that I’m shocked to see no information about (and is lost media somehow?!) rescue pets. (also called my Epets) it’s a virtual pet game from the 2000s that I remember fondly, I actually still own the plush of the dog

[illsadboy]

Mi sento perso, i miei amici mi mancano ma sto cercando di rimettere insieme i pezzi, ma non so da dove iniziare, dicono che sono cambiato ma non capiscono che la vita è dura, sto cercando solo di restare in piedi… Ogni volta che ci penso, mi viene un nodo alla gola ciò che abbiamo perso sembra non tornerà più, siamo cresciuti troppo in fretta e adesso siamo qui con i ricordi che svaniscono ma il dolore è ancora vicino…

Sadeyes - Homies

[godlovesmemore]

=))=

[whereslynx]

POV: Cesar posting you on his story.

a/n: here’s some cesar content, but if you guys prefer spooky, let me know! p.s, i tried my best to keep the photos inclusive for all readers, apologies if it’s not 🥲

spooky version <—

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context: one thing bout y’all, is that you’ll always catch you and cesar on midnight walks together.

context: sad eyes is always looking after you when cesar can’t.

context: one of the many nights you and cesar spend together.

context: he always manages to piss you off somehow.

context: would you be surprised if i told you this wasn’t the only time you tied him up and stole his phone?

context: where you and cesar first met.

context: spooktober special. ;)

[jukhi]

A loneliness that crawls within.. thats contaminating my whole bieng... Suffocating my soul .. choking my breath .. killing all of my hopes ..

No no-one to cry upon .. alone with the ppl . Happinesses ranged so high as much as they turned to be the scarer, threw me frm those hieghts..

No not the words hold me right. Its the pain the emptiness that only tears may carry.. The smiles turned into smirks.. the reliefs turned into injuries.. Heart broke, heart wrecked, heart cried, heart pounded .. heart crashed, heart turned numb.

Tears roll down but dnt fill the empty space.. I try to walk away n I walk alone. I choose to die inside n look alive outside, the way the world loves to see a fallen Angel.

No highly emotional ppl look at the hurt n pain of another ailing. The world so nice nd kind that gives perfect only time to you.

No other tears are important than our own one's.

The facade of emotions be cleared up !

The rosy shades be thrown away !

Heavy breaths be taken away !

Y dd u break my heart y dd u fall in love !! Y did u walk away !!

No words exchanged.. feelings are strangulated.

[emoboysilike]

Days To Waste

[lustfulslxt]

AND YOU DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE

FOR LOVING PEOPLE THAT WERE NEVER THERE

AND YOU DON’T KNOW HOW BAD IT FEELS

YOUR WORDS CUT DEEP, GOODBYES DON’T HEAL

[duck-era-lexi]

from don’t cry by sadeyes

idk but the way sadeyes talks abt the girl is so cute omfg. like in jaded, when he says

like. i’m obsessed

[illsadboy]

Sai per cui morirei, piangerei lo sai che morirei per te sai per cui respirerei, sanguinerei lo sai che respirerei per te fammi vedere la mia aureola, anche se è dolorosa sono pronto a perdere sai per cui morirei, piangerei lo sai che morirei per te continuo a trattenere il respiro in attesa di un miracolo sperando che il buco nel mio cuore guarisse in qualche modo mi sento così dannatamente vicino al limite in questo momento… Lo sai che morirei per te perché sono morto dentro mille volte ma comunque mi ucciderei per te perché a dire il vero potresti tagliarmi il polso e scriverei il tuo nome in un cuore con l'emorragia mi ha portato così dannatamente vicino al limite in questo momento sai che sei tu quello che devo prendere a calci, farmi sentire di merda. Non voglio morire per te.