#sad panda studio

[scribbly-artist]

In Love with All of You

Author’s Notes: Oops, writing for a very niche game. For the love of everything PLEASE give ‘Hush Hush: Only Your Love Can Save Them’ a go. I love all of Sad Panda Studio’s games and I like how you can play them pretty much SFW and having NSFW being entirely optional. I got into their games from playing Blush Blush. Came for the otome idle clicker, stayed for the characters. Eli is no exception, especially in Hush Hush. He was very fun to write for!

This fic gets a bit serious before it gets tooth-rottingly sweet. Warnings for talk about deep thoughts with gender and identity. Also I mention the word dick. Dick. PENIS! If you’re laughing at the word, consider going back to school for sex education and laugh about it there.

Gender neutral pronouns for the reader as the game does this, and he/him pronouns for Eli as the game and himself refer to him as male.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I did writing it. :]

Words: ~2,000

A beautiful, sunny day in Subrosa can only be spent outside on the beach. Which is exactly what you’re doing - on Subrosa’s famous beach. Doing anything else would be a crime. But you’re not alone: you have a date!

You’ve hit third base with your date, Eli Kawase, funnily enough on your third date. You’ve had such a fun time on your dates with him. He had a bit of reluctance to continue dating you after he’s tried really hard to set you up with his sister, but you told him you’re still one hundred percent fine with going out with him. So you’re both trucking along and having fun.

However, after your serious talk on your first date (which is strange for Eli, because of how he acts), you also have just a tiny bit of reluctance. But not because of Eli himself; you’re totally fine with Eli being genderfluid and pansexual. You’re more so wondering if you’re right for him, being the way you are. Does he actually like you like you, or are you both just playing along to have fun? You needed to know.

As the sun started to set and turned the sky a beautiful caramel, you both sat under your beach parasol and fluffy pair of towels, admiring the gentle waves in the distance.

“Well, I had a lot of fun today, thank you cutie.” Eli was the first to break the silence, letting out a content sigh, fiddling with the hem of his sundress. “This is probably the most fun I’ve had in a while. And that’s saying a lot, since I’ve messed around pretty much with everyone in Subrosa! You’re definitely one in a million.”

“I had such a great time too, Eli. Thank you for making this vacation so fun.” You smiled, the soft breeze blowing your hair. Your heart was overflowing with warmth as you looked into his eyes. “We can still have some more fun, even if the sun is setting - how about we continue this at mine?” You suggested, turning to Eli.

“Oh, I would be delighted! Even if we just relax. Or if we get freaky, I don’t mind!” He gave you a wink and a smirk. “Let me just head home real quick and get cleaned up. I don’t wanna trail sand through your house, and it always seems to get trapped in the most awkward places! We don’t want that!” He giggled as he got up, adjusting his dress.

“Do you need a lift?” You asked, picking up the towels and collapsing the parasol.

“Nah, I’m good. My house isn’t far from here anyways. Just text me your address, and I’ll be there in a jiffy! I’ll change into something a bit more comfortable.”

+++

You drove back to the Airbnb, cleaned yourself up and changed into some cleaner clothes that weren’t absolutely covered in sand. Your ‘cat’ didn’t seem to be around this time, so she must be asleep and hiding somewhere, which might be a good thing since you’ll be having a guest.

Just as that thought crossed your mind, the doorbell rang. “I’m coming!” You called as you paced over to the door, unlocking and opening it. Eli was there, now dressed in a white button up and brown pants. Quite different to the long yellow dress, sandals and sun hat he was wearing earlier today. Though, you were used to Eli switching it up at this point. He smelt faintly of cologne, you savoured the scent as he drew himself close for a hug.

“Aww, I missed you too. Even if we were only apart for half an hour,” He leaned in and kissed both of your cheeks, making you giggle. You invited him inside, both of you settling down on the couch. “Ooh, nice place you got here. You must’ve had this place booked in advance, aye! It’s perfect for an unforgettable summer vaycay!”

“Yeah, it’s a nice little house. The neighbours are old, so it’s quiet at night time. I’ve got no complaints.” You replied, sinking into the couch to make yourself comfortable. “So, how about we watch a movie first? Have some snacks?”

“That’s such a wonderful idea, I was about to suggest the same thing!” Eli beamed, reaching for the TV remote as you got up to whip up some food.

+++

It was just a generic romcom you found on Netflix. It was at least a little bit funny, though neither of you were really paying attention with both of your talking and laughing. Background noise, really. Although, the main characters in the movie started to get hot and heavy, showcasing a wonderful display of them kissing, and…

“Heeeey, wanna do the thing? I mean, they’re doing it, right? Isn’t this what you’re meant to do when you watch romcoms with something you’re romantically and maybe a little bit sexually interested in?” Eli gave a smirk with a glint in his eyes, leaning towards you. You nodded in agreement, diving in for a kiss. But as things started to advance in your make out session, Eli fiddling with the buttons on your shirt, your hands reached up to his wrists in hesitation.

“Wait,” you whispered, your cheeks blushing.

“What, getting all embarrassed now?” He chuckled with a cheeky grin, but waited for you to continue.

“No, it’s not that, just…” you voice trailed off, Eli frowned as your tone changed.

“Is it me? I thought we established early on that I’ve got a dick—“

“No, no! It’s not you! It’s never been you!” You quickly interjected, shaking your head frantically. “I’m totally fine with you - all of you! It’s me that’s the issue.”

Eli didn’t respond, but raised his eyebrow, urging you to continue.

“Are you sure you want… me? I mean, I’m not that exciting, or great. And I’m only here for the rest of the month. I just don’t want us to get super serious, and then you decide I’m not what you were expecting, and—“ Eli gently placed a finger on your lip before you babbled on anymore.

“Darling, I love everything about you. I know at first we were only talking because I was trying to set you up with my sister, but that ship crashed and burned, so I wanted to give us a chance, too.” He responded, smiling, though he was serious. “I’m absolutely crazy about you, that’s why I told you everything about me having a dick and all on our first date! I wouldn’t have told you if I wasn’t serious about this. I’ve got so much love to give, regardless of my gender, someone else’s, or what’s in someone’s pants. I’ll love you, for you.”

“You… you mean it?” You asked, your eyes just stinging a bit with tears during this emotional moment.

“I do. If you’re not ready yet, we can just slow down, whatever makes you comfortable. I’m happy to wait,” he placed his hand on your cheek, stroking it with his thumb.

“Thank you, Eli. And… I’m sorry for getting all emotional.” You let out a watery sigh, but composed yourself with a sniffle, reaching up to wipe your eyes before they get too wet.

“No, I’m glad you brought it up,” he helped you wipe the tears away, reaching up with his other hand. He puffed out his chest before he spoke, grinning. “But before we continue, you’ve just gotta turn that frown upside down! Otherwise you’ll make me all sad too!”

“I’ll try… just for you.”

“No, not just try - do! Or, y’know, I could help…” his smile turned devious, you had a feeling you knew what was brewing in his mind. “Don’t think I forgot that little tickle fight we had at the boutique on our first date - the Tickle Monster’s gonna tickle you so much you completely forget being upset!”

“No— wait, Eli!” You pleaded, quickly shooting up from your seat. You booked it for the bedroom, leaving Eli a bit stunned.

“Ooh, you’ve made it so much more worse for yourself, hun!”

The chase was on - though it didn’t last for long. You needed somewhere to hide, so you hid yourself in the closet and shut the door. Eli entered the bedroom, his voice sounding mischievous.

“I think you’ve forgotten, my dear. I am an older sibling,” His voice boomed with dramatics. He approached the closet door, standing just outside of it. You held your breath, not wanting to be discovered, but it was futile. “I’ve done this song and dance more times than you can count, so I know all the tricks in the book!” He twisted the knob, the door flying open. You squeaked as he dived into the dark, grabbing you as you protested and weakly smacked him as he carried you out, bouncing you down onto the bed. He straddled your waist as you tried to wriggle away.

“Eli, don’t! You know I’m ticklish!!” You let out a whine, but you were enjoying this more than you were letting on, and he knew it.

He cracked his knuckles for dramatic effect as he wiggled his fingers at you, your cheeks burning red. “Too late, pumpkin. Your fate is sealed. Besides, I know you’ve been waitin’ for this!” He dove right in, going straight for your tummy. You let out a shriek as you squirmed around in his hold, throwing your head into the pillows as you laughed yourself silly.

“There’s that beautiful smile! That suits you SO much better than a frown, doesn’t it?” He commented as he glided his fingers over your stomach through your shirt, not offering you much protection. “Your adorable tummy is as soft as a marshmallow! I wonder if it tastes the same, too?” He pondered aloud as you shook your head.

“DON’T Y— HAHAHA!! DON’T YOU DARE, ELI!” But it was far too late. As he scribbled his fingers on his left hand, he was already unbuttoning the bottom of your shirt with his right. Before you knew it, his hands switched to scratching at your ribs as his head dived straight into your belly.

You positively cackled. You tried pushing his head filled with rainbow locks away, but he wasn’t budging. He gave your soft belly peppered kisses, and to be even more evil than he already was, blew some raspberries as well. You gripped onto his hair as your skin vibrated, being overwhelmed with the ticklish sensations. No skin on your stomach was ignored as you cried out in hysterics. Tears even welled up in the corners of your eyes, though they were very much the opposite of the upset tears you had earlier.

He continued his tickling onslaught, so you could forget ever doubting your sense of worth ever again by turning your brain into soup. As your laughter grew silent, he got the hint that you were hitting a limit. He gradually grew to a stop, giving your tummy a pat as a sign that he was done as he sat upright.

“Whew, that was a workout for you, huh?” He chuckled quietly, reaching over to wipe some of the tears streaming down your face with his thumb. “Sorry if I went a little overboard - I had to get a little revenge from our tickle fight from last time. I hope that’s okay.” He reached down to your shirt as he intended on doing your buttons back up, until you reached out and grabbed his hand with yours. He looked to your face questionably, raising his eyebrow. But you smiled at him as you reached for his collar.

You grabbed him and dragged him down with you, snuggling up to him for a cuddle. He definitely wouldn’t refuse.

“Thank you for accepting me for who I am,” you whispered, breathing in his scent.

“No; thank YOU for accepting me. And making me feel so comfortable.”

You leaned in for a kiss, and he gladly accepted. His fingers tangled into your hair as you deepened the kiss.

Time for another make out session, and maybe a little fun afterwards!

[ren-054]

アタシの事　好きにさせるわ

You can do whatever you want with me

ほら、こんなにも愛しているから…

because I love you so much.. see?

Inspired from a piece made by reddit user iverelle_ and cover art from Tonari No Seki no Hen Na Senpai

Lyrics from Rotten Girl, Grotesque Romance

And a close-up because I’m really proud of his face! Heheh, my beautiful weirdo 💕💕

[h20milk]

i can make you feel alive. / i know. / but do i need you to survive?

[heyacris]

Bad Blush Blush memes I made at 2 AM because I was bored part 7:

[mirily-chan]

a draw i made out of a dialoge of fuyu, also- happy new year xDD

[blushblushbear]

hihi!! can you write poe, cashew, and Cole general relationship hcs? ty!!!

*scurries away*

Poe:

he's very chill but committed

he's not the type to have your pic as his phone background

but he IS the type to have it be an artisty black and white photo of a handwritten poem that he wrote about you and also maybe there's a rose

his energy is very lax but don't let that fool you

he's INSANELY committed

will probably try and talk you into a cemetery date (it's just so Mary Shelley losing her virginity on her mother's grave ya know??)

will try and work some element that reminds him of you into his jewelry

would never ask this but he thinks it would be wicked romantic if you painted his nails for him

very interested in going new places and seeing new things with you

he wants to experience interesting places in this world but mostly he wants to see said places with you

the amount of poems he shows you are only the tip of the ice berg as far as what he actually writes

though he still is the most open about his writing with you

low key thinks about you a lot and regularly checks his phone for you texts and is constantly wondering if he should text first or if that would be too clingy...

Cashew:

IS the type to have you as his phone background lol

Poe is very smitten but subtle about it (until you get him talking which is it's own challenge sometimes cause he likes to keep to himself)

Cash is the exact opposite

the whole world will know seconds of him walking into a room that he's dating someone

has tons of pictures of you around everywhere

uses one as a bookmark

thinks of you all the time when reading romantic subplots

or plots

actually thinks about you a lot when reading

and all the time

loves to have a nightly call with you and talk about your days and what's going down in his most recent read (YOU WILL NEVER /GUESS/ WHO TURNED OUT TO BE EVIL)

tries really hard to do all the boyfriend cliches and does them all in earnest

sends you flowers quite a bit actually

he is just a little nerd who wants to be your Casanova so bad

also wants to see places and experience the world with you but unlike Poe it's like.... normal things (like Cash wants to go to the Eiffel Tower, Poe wants to go solo exploring through the catacombs of Paris/the court of miracles {ya know-- the place with all the dead people lining the walls! romantic! :D})

is always looking for anything fun or cute to do on a date with you

tries to write you poetry

it's--- sweet! :)

bless him

would never larp on his own but if invited to larp he would

also wants to go to a rein faire so bad

Cole:

oh boy this guy lol XD

seems like a very nice normal extremely devoted boyfriend

and he is

but he's also watching you sleep at night from your bedroom window and stole some of the hair out of your brush

"for personal use"

also tracks everything about you to the best of his abilities

keeps a list of everyone you regularly interact with 'just in case'

but also likes to randomly show up and do something sweet

he's the king of OH I was just in the neighborhood and thought I'd say hi, I brought doughnuts!

everything he does is very sweet and attentive and thoughtful

well.... maybe not THOUGHTFUL

more like thought out

meticulously

also likes to hog your time as best he can but he tries to be subtle about it

will claim you loudly whenever being introduced to someone knew

'oh, yes hello, I'm Cole, their BOYFRIEND. It's nice to meet you."

is the listener in the conversations

he just loves taking you in

watching you constantly, hanging off your every word, keeping notes about the things that make you happy

I think you also take him aback every so often in ways he wasn't expecting

anytime you get very genuine with him or very loving or affectionate

he has this like--- it's like a weird sensation

like a weird euphoric rush

is it cause he likes seeing you at your most sincere and vulnerable??

or is this what being loved feels like????

is this what BEING in love feels like??????

it's pretty great! very addicting...

in his darkest moments he tries to think of you

you bring him a comfort he can't explain but has never really felt before

every now and then he just comes to you in a daze and clings to you

In one way or another, Cole's had a bad day

He gets a little scared how much he finds himself absorbed by you

and that fear hits him at the weirdest times sometimes

like you too were just having breakfast and this sudden feeling of inescapable dread came crashing in

but then you asked him what's up with that sweet little smile of yours and he's feeling okay again

lots of gifts that are little too personal

[astriiea]

WAIT WHOS THIS

[ricobutaddn]

just guys being dudes

[justsomeblushblushstuff]

Hey guys I uh......yea I don't have an excuse for this...

Ok ok hold on tho I do kinda ok his dialougue is constantly talking about tying you up or him being tied up SO I AM COMPLETELY JUSTIFIED! (I put down my pen as the clock strikes 3am and start contemplating life choices)

I mean.....if yall like it I can make more- WHO SAID THAT!?

[spoiled-milk]

blush blush bed head cannons [ft nimh, volks, kelby, ichiban, scale, logan, cashew, aki, haru, fuyu]

a/n: i am alive i promise!!! um i definetly didn't disappear off the face of the earth did not happen at all y'all. i have so much brainrot ideas but i've hit writers block so hard. spent who knows how long reformatting this blog.

content warning: none i think? slight mentions of the guys being all touchy touchy but that’s it. also not proofread

word count: ~1.8k

nimh

➤very very very VERY SHY

➤will not physically touch you not because he’s scared of you but because he’s scared of violating some sort of boundary

➤will put a wall of blankets between y’all

➤probably has at least one stuffed animal on his bed

➤if he’s feeling ballsy, maybe nimh will hold your hand but unless you initiate it he’s probably not gonna make any moves (platonic or romantic)

➤his back faces away from you when you sleep, but when he knows you’re asleep, he will turn over and stare at your cute nose and pretty eyelashes and the rising and falling of your chest to help him sleep

➤he would probably wake up before you so, unfortunately, you don’t get to catch him sleeping :(

volks

➤awkward but not in a creepy way he’s just so awkward promise guys

➤he would also be one to sleep facing away from you

➤he sleeps early and has a strict sleeping schedule (8 hours a night no exceptions according to his manager)

➤if you’re over at his house it doesn’t matter if you need to do some hw or other work you are going to bed with him at 10pm

➤he claims he’s not a cuddler, but deep down in my heart i believe that he will snuggle you in your sleep when he's confident that you're asleep

➤it would start where you two sleep on opposite sides but then when you wake up in the middle of the night for the bathroom, he’s got his hands on your upper back and another one on your lower waist

➤at this point you don’t have to the heart to wake him up, so you drift off to sleep again

➤volks wakes up in the morning horrified that he was all up in your personal space but a part of him wants to go back to sleep because you’re so warm and snuggly

kelby

➤early to bed early to rise type person because duh he’s an athlete

➤sleeps at 9pm so that he can be up at 5am for his morning jog lol

➤big on physical affection so will probably snuggle you on your sleep

➤if y’all are sharing a bed, he probably has a twin bed that he’s too tall and too attached to so you will have to sleep on top of him (not that he’s complaining though lol)

➤lives to spoon you. he loves the feeling of cradling you like a heated up stuffed animal

➤honestly, i think he would fw being small spoon too but he knows because of how tall he is, it would be difficult on his partner. but if you went out of your way to cradle him and run your fingers through his hair he would probably melt

➤kelby has no problems sharing beds with you as long as you don't have problems sharing with him

ichiban

➤definitely more on the shy side without a doubt you can't convince me otherwise

➤ichiban for sure has an abhorrent sleep schedule. sometimes he'll be in bed and out by 10pm and wake up at like 8am but other times he'll stay up until 4am and sleep in until 12pm

➤would want nothing more than to hug you tight in his sleep but the thought of you being so close to his body tells him otherwise. so if y'all are in bed together, you're probably gonna have to initiate snuggles if you want them

➤he probably rolls around in his sleep lmao but he has a king sized bed probably, it wasn't so pleasant when he had a smaller bed like a twin sized bed

➤ichiban will sleep with his back against the wall. he also sleeps in just boxers / pajama pants

scale

➤another person with a terrible sleeping schedule probably

➤he has tried to fix it desperately, but with training and his assassination thing, it's difficult

➤i would like to imagine that he has a futon to sleep on to help with his posture or something idk

➤if y'all share a sleeping space, he will put two or three pillows between you and him

➤that only applies if he sleeps at all around you, yk someone has to be awake to watch over (you’ll have to remind him you’re not in immediate danger)

➤he definitely would put like a bunch of things in front of the doors or windows that make a lot of noise if dropped or moved so that he wakes up if someone were to break into his home while asleep

➤you’ll need to teach him how to relax a little bit when he sleeps scale is a very stiff guy

logan

➤another guy with a troubled sleeping schedule, BUT ITS NOT HIS FAULT

➤because he’s a firefighter he has regular normal people shifts and then he has those overnight shifts. after those overnight shifts he will take a shower immediately when he gets home and if you’re at his home he will drag your ass into bed with him

➤not that you mind ig??? poor guy looks tired after those overnight shifts so you kinda just let him as long as he lets you grab a book or something to read while he’s out

➤another snuggler for the books. he’s so warm, logan runs so warm so it’s great in the winter but not so much in the summer months

➤he has no problems with engaging in physical affection with you. he’ll hold your hands in those hot months when y’all sleep and wrap you up in his arms in the winter

➤another person who also sleeps in his boxers, since he’s super hot (temperature wise ya dingus) clothes when he sleeps are never an option

cashew

➤ok i think in one of his voice lines he says he stays up late reading books so uh yeah another boy with ABHORRENT SLEEP SCHEDULE

➤if y’all sleep together, he will always fall asleep later than you. cashew will stay up with a book in hand and lamp light on

➤if you have trouble sleeping at night he will read you whatever he’s reading at the moment and with his soothing voice it will put you right back to sleep

➤if you wake up from a nightmare and cashew for some reason is up (ugh go to sleep you bookworm), he is so good at comfort. he’ll reassure you (yk telling you “it’s okay I’m here”) and rub his hands on your back

➤he’s also another physically affectionate man. he feels so giddy when he gets to hold your hand while you sleep or when he gets to hold you close to him as he finally gets some shut eye

➤when he wakes up, he finds that you’re now the big spoon. you’re holding him with your hands in his hair and he thinks that he’s in heaven for real

➤he can feel his ears turning red at this point

aki

➤he would not own a bed frame lets be honest look at him and tell me that he owns a bed frame

➤he’s also physically affectionate with you in bed like snuggles and whatnot

➤aki LOVES being the big spoon. loves the feeling being the big guy (regardless of his height) and any chance he gets to protect you or portray any masculine traits

➤if he had to pick a bed frame he would pick that lightning mcqueen bed frame that kids pick because he thinks it looks cool

➤regardless of how hot or cold it is outside will cuddle with you. he cannot go one night without his hands on you (but he would respect your boundaries should you express being uncomfortable)

➤aki likes to be touchy in his sleep so sometimes when you wake up before him you find his hands up the front of your shirt or under your shirt on your waist

➤one time as a prank he tried to keep you awake as long as possible to push the human limits, but when he saw how miserable you were trying to go about your day he immediately feels bad. so he takes you back to your home and tucks you into bed with an apology for taking it too far

haru

➤he is a HUGE fan of physical affection, if you share a bed with him he will be handsy with you

➤probably owns a regular bed like im talking king sized bed with comforters and a bed frame with a headboard with silk pillowcases

➤haru also sleeps with a silk eye mask on probably helps him go mimimimi

➤another man who only sleeps in his boxers but instead of comfort it’s because he knows he’s hot and he wants to see if you act up

➤i think he only wants to be big spoon because that’s what all his past flings wanted but after you hold him in your arms one night his life is changed

➤usually haru will be big spoon but there are some occasions that he’ll want to be held by you and when you do pls run his fingers through his hair and play with it he likes it trust me

➤another man who loves the stick his hands up your shirt if given the opportunity to. he loves the feel of your skin on his

fuyu

➤now, he would sleep on a futon because yk, he’s an old kitsune man. i bet he believes that the newer younger kitsune who have mattress beds should return to using futons

➤i mean, think about it. you save on space since you can put the futon away without any issue, it’s better for your back, and some of them come with heaters (great for winter)

➤but then he stays over at your house one time. you unfortunately have a regular mattress, he won’t admit to you that he’s changed his mind but his actions unfortunately give him away

➤fuyu likes how soft your mattress is. how much your blankets smell like you, as if you lived in those sheets for eons. how warm you get in those sheets make fuyu fall asleep really early easily

➤he usually is big spoon because let’s be real, that man is 6’8 there’s a very small chance that you would be able to spoon him comfortably if you’re significantly smaller than him (which unfortunately i am)

➤same thing applies with his clothes, he will usually sleep in boxers only because pajama pants are not made for people his size

➤he will ask to be physically affectionate with you. he sleeps with plenty of space between y’all. he will only hold your hand in your sleep

➤fuyu likes to put his hands around your waist and hold you that way if you let him. he would put his face in the crook of your neck (his new favorite spot). the way his snuggles with you screams “old gentlemanly man”

[loonyrose]

doodle dump

[ren-054]

Mornings together 💕💕🥰 (he broke in)

[h20milk]

an uncontrollable urge, i want you only to myself. you, my love, you belong to me.

[heyacris]

Poe every day before college:

[mirily-chan]

tha baking queen just love a ton her mc. who i am to dennied that?

so- i moved of city- still moving boxes, but hey i found my tablet! heh-

[emotionalsupportgoblin420]

The reference photo

I just imagine Haru laughing his ass off while taking this picture 🤣