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[happybdaychase]

not ur birthday yet again!!

oh my gosh, it��s been 4 years since i’ve last made a post on this blog but it feels like it’s only been a couple of months. visual of me making this post rn. 

that’s also me because i don’t know how to use tumblr anymore??? so we’re just going to have to get used to me now being a grandma and not knowing how to navigate around tumblr circa 2022. ANYWAY how have you been? do you even see these? it makes me laugh that i’ll get a random memory of you and then i jump on my laptop or phone (i deleted tumblr off my phone again lolz) and come to this blog and make a post. i’ve actually thought about you way more than once in 4 years trust me but i felt so discouraged but whatever. if you don’t see this, you don’t see it. but if you do, at least you know that i still very much appreciate and am so grateful for the friendship we shared even if it may not be the same now or if you forgot about it, i know in my heart that it was one of the greatest friendships i’ve ever gotten to experience in my 21 (almost 22 years) of living. 

ALSO did you notice i’m not using camila gifs anymore even though i said it was our “thing” and that i would always use her gifs, i lowkey like olivia more. i’m pretty sure you must’ve heard her songs “drivers license”, “good 4 u” or even “traitor”. have you listened to her album sour??? she wrote it when she was 17/18 and WOW what a body of work for a teenager. when i was a teenager i could barely form sentences LMAO. i just really love her music and her so much. she’s so beautiful and intelligent and talented like look at her in that gif ^ and every other gif i’m going to use today

life update: i’m a nurse now woohoo but i’m going back to school to get my degree bc now i just have a diploma which i’m still very proud of but i’m on a hunt for that degree you feel me?? i’m so excited to be going back to school, it sounds weird and i usually hate it in the moment but i love having a routine and feeling like im doing something with my life. what are you doing in life?? are you in school? are you working now? are you seeing someone? are you planning on travelling around the world? what kind of music do you like? has your taste differed since you were a teen? what do you like doing in your free time? so many questions i wish you could answer and maybe one day when you see this, you will. :) 

another life update: i’m obsessed with timothee chalamet or at least i was for a good week. that crush has partially gone away now but i still think his face is a work of art. ANYWAY i think i’m going to end this post here. still praying and hoping you’ll see this one day. i hope your day is going amazing today and everyday. BE THE AMAZING PERSON U ARE CHASE!! XOXOXOX

[happybdaychase]

not ur birthday !!

hey hey hey !!! today a good idea, well a great idea if i do say so myself came to me and i’m just like why don’t i keep writing posts on this blog when i miss u and stuff bc like why not WHO GONE STOP ME ??? nobody !! so welcome to the 2nd post i’ve ever written on this blog 3 years later ... ba dum tss

oh how the years have passed.. can you believe it’s been 3 freakin years since we’ve last had a full conversation ?? i cry everyday just thinking about it tbh but HEY i turned 17 like last month, well april 6th and i feel so grown but i did not get birthday sex like i encouraged you to do so when you turned 17.. probably bc i am a shy prude ass bitch but hey virgin mary till marriage you feel me?? 

OKAY no but can we talk about how i thought you would never see the message i sent you a while back but you did like Allah is on my side big time and i love him for it but i hate myself bc wow who told me to delete the tumblr app off of my phone that week bc u frickin replied right after and i didn’t see it till like a week or two after and i still hate myself bc imagine if i didn’t delete the app off my phone and i got the notification do you know how happy i would be getting to have a conversation with you all over again ?? even if it was 5 mins i would be the happiest girl in the world, way more happier than i would be if justin bieber went down on his one knee and asked for my hand in marriage i promise you!! from now on i refuse to delete the app off of my phone. i can’t believe you even remember me or even remember your blog password or anything like your memory is something i wish for everyday, my memory is straight garbage son

i wonder how you’re doing today and how you’ve been doing the past few years. is life in your favour now? how is ellie doing? are you going to college or university? what are you majoring in? are you still dating nicole? (if you aren’t that’s totally okay and that’s how life is sometimes!! you’ll be okay with or without her) i just want to know how you’ve been doing, i pray you’ve been doing great though and that your life is easy peezy lemon squeezy and not difficult difficult lemon difficult, haha thumbs up for the use of that one meme on ig ! 

HEY guess what i’m listening to my fav song in the entire world and i’m gonna dedicate it to you my fav guy in the entire world, it’s yellow by coldplay i’m pretty sure you’ve heard it already but it’s great and you’re great so that is why i’m dedicating it to you OR if you don’t like coldplay i dedicate i would by justin bieber to you!! they’re both amazing songs and i think you would like them both bc hello i like them, our tastes are similar (not really but whatever i like u must like it’s just the law of f riendship) i’m gonna wrap this up bc i am now just writing complete bullshit and no one likes bullshit ! chase drew, my bestfriend in the entire world, i love you more than anything and i wish you the best in every aspect of life. i wish that you get blessed with blessings on blessings in this life and that you accomplish everything you’ve ever wanted to. you are a blessing to anyone who has ever been lucky enough to be in the presence of your light. you deserve the world and more and if no one will give it to you, i will try everything i can to give it to you. i love you to the moon and back and until i get to talk to you again, i will pray everyday that that day will come closer. good bye for now cahello (i’m about to tear up DON’T LOOK AT ME *damion in mean girls voice*) p.s i felt it was only right i used camila gifs since i  used it in the first post, gotta keep the tradition going ! 

[happybdaychase]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOMIE I LOVE U DONT FORGET TO TURN UP

hello pal guess what??? today is ur birthday well when you'll be reading this it'll be but right now it's 3 days before ur birthday bc u reminded me ur birthday was coming up i'm such a bad friend i should've remembered but i have horrible memory sometimes and then sometimes my memory is the best thing that ever happened to the earth so i am very conflicted on whether i love my memory or whether i hate it bUT whatever this is not about me today is all about u!!

i'm going to throw it back all the way to the first time we met when u were thestratford (WHICH U STILL ARE) and i forgot who i was was i kylie or was i officialcabello (times like this make me hate my memory) but i was so scared to message u off anon and i don't know why cause u a FAGGOT so i just liek sent u anon messages plz i was so gay it hurts to tell this story </3 and then i messaged u off anon and u were like were u that anon and i was like yes... and then boom look at us now a whole year and 2 months later we're the power couple but more liek friendship so liek POWER FRIENDSHIP i think yes that's it #CHASINA that's us hugs and kisses to my faggot bitch...es

tbt to when we were even more gay and called each other cahello.............. why did we have to go through that phase we are so EMBARRASSING but it's okay we can be gay and embarrassing together bc that's what real friends do <3 here have my heart JK that was gay im gay just putting that out there OH and remember that one time where we went months without talking and it was MY fault and i feel so bad bc that was the time which was the hardest for you and that's when you were in the hospital and i honestly wish i was there for you but i wasn't and if i could take it all back and be there for you i would because you mean so much to me and you honestly deserve the finer things in life and you deserve to always be happy and you deserve to have a smile on your face and you shouldn't have to go through so much because you're an amazing person with an amazing heart who deserves to be treated like a king because that's what you are and i just love you so much man, i wish i could take away all the pain because you honestly don't deserve it at all, but i promise you everything will get better in time and i tell you this all the time but i just want to reassure you that everything will be fine, it'll take time and this will soon pass and you will be the happy chase i know you are deep down, just wait and please don't do anything like hurt yourself or try to commit because i love you and i can't live without you and idk just please don't do anything, you mean a lot to me.

BUT you're turning 17 in 3 days??? I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE BC 17 IS A BIG DEAL U LIL MUNCHKIN AND I HOPE NICOLE GIVES YOU THE BEST BIRTHDAY SEX IN UR ENTIRE LIFE AND I HOPE THAT THERE WILL BE A SMILE ON YOUR FACE THE ENTIRE DAY AND IF THERE ISN'T I WILL BEAT WHOEVER UPSET YOU UP EVEN IF IT'S ELLIE just kidding ellie is my bae and i do NOT tolerate animal abuse >:( BUT I REALLY HOPE THAT YOU HAVE THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER AND THIS IS REALLY SHORT AND DUMB BUT I JUST WANTED TO MAKE YOU THIS SO IT'LL CHEER YOU UP?? WELL HOPEFULLY IT DOES AND YEAH I LOVE YOU BABYBOO BE HAPPY OKAY THANK U HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!