#rqg gets all the hearts

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Thank you so much for sending this to me! I was so flattered, especially because your fics are some of my favorites in the entire fandom... 😭

5 Times Daniel Molloy Imagined Killing Marius de Romanus (+1 Time He Actually Did It)

(Armand/Daniel Molloy | Interview With The Vampire) Recency bias is at work here, maybe, but also this is the longest fic I've ever written and I'm happy I kept up the momentum and completed it. Normally my fics are MUCH shorter and laser-focused on a single scene or two and a specific emotion, this was definitely the most plot-heavy fic I've ever written.

Please Work With What Is Left

(Noah/Ronan; Ronan/Noah/Gansey/Blue/Adam | The Raven Cycle) I still have such a tender place in my heart for this fic, even though Life Events™ interrupted it like 4/5ths through and the ending is incomplete / cobbled together. Deeply personal to me in a way that's difficult to put into words.

The Emperor's Hands

(Csevet/Maia | The Goblin Emperor) This fic is short, cliche, and sappy - but I have affection for it, probably because The Goblin Emperor is still my favorite novel and I am in a constant state of just wanting nice things for Maia.

Marks

(Skraak/Hamid | Rusty Quill Gaming) This list wouldn't be complete without a little Skraak/Hamid on it even though I know there's like, 2 people who follow me on tumblr who have any idea who tf that is (shoutouts, you know who you are). I'm so unfazed by writing gore and violence but pretty shy about posting anything even vaguely sexy so I picked this out of my handful of RQG fics because it's probably the most erotically-focused fic I've published and that required pushing the boundaries of my comfort zone a bit but I'm happy I did!

[All the fics I've published anonymously, or orphaned]

(Various Fandoms) This might seem like cheating, but honestly it's not a gimmick: several fics that fit this description are very important to me! I truly love that AO3 has the option to orphan fics, and also to publish them anonymously. It's very freeing and wonderful. There are a handful of fics I never would've posted if I had to attach them to my name, either because they felt much too personal or I was shy about their contents in some other way. I know what fics they are, and no one else needs to. But that doesn't stop them from being important to me.

[thatoneaceinthecorner]

RQG Art Masterpost

Hey guys! So recently I've had a wave of notes on some of my old rqg art, and a few new followers. I got really nostalgic about rqg and decided I wanted an easier way to access my rqg-related art (other than the dumpster fire that is tumblr's tagging system), and I wanted other people who are just finding my art to have an easy way of looking at the rest, if they want to. So I dug through everything and made a masterpost! This post contains links to all the rqg art I've ever posted on tumblr, as well as a couple images that I couldn't find the original posts for, despite all the digging. It's loosely organized, emphasis on loosely, but I hope it should be fun to look through if anyone ever feels like it. Spoiler warning for the whole show, just in case anyone new isn’t done with their first listen. There's also stuff in here that's pretty old and that I don't necessarily love anymore, but seeing how my skills progressed over time is still pretty neat. This is a long post, so I've put all the links under the cut. Enjoy!

My top three pieces and why they're my favorites

General:

Shoin's sketch of London

RQG Inktober: Scars

Resurrection Ritual in the Ursan Village

Zolf Smith, cleric of what comes next (comic)

Alex's horrible Barret Monster with knife arms

Ada and Tesla in their lab with the Babbage brain

"Why didn't you do more" (it's all your fault comic)

Blue-veined arm in Other London

Zolf and Azu hear the hivemind

Sasha and Cicero leave Rome behind them

Apophis in human form

Party camping outside the Garden of Yerlik

Kantu!! Because I thought they were cute

Also these two drawings, the ones I couldn't find the original posts for. Azu giving Hamid a piggy-back, and a really old drawing of Azu in Carter's mind museum.

Sasha Racket:

Sasha hangs out with gargoyles (and sphinxes)

Sasha portrait

Goodbye, Brock

Goodbye, Grizzop

If Grizzop had lived and helped raised Sasha's kids

Sasha deserves bat wings, as a treat

"I so wish you could meet them"

My very first drawing of Sasha, post-Kafka fight

Wilde:

Wilde masterpost (yes he has his own)

"We're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars"

His brain might've popped

Wilde looking pretty (plus bonus shitpost sketch)

"Oh Wilde, you must have been so scared"

Wilde with blue veins

Wilde gets his magic back (first time I ever drew him)

Zoscar:

Wild and Zolf in the rain, epilogue

"We've got this" "Yeah, we've got this" aka Parallels

Breath of Life

Wilde's first death

Peace and comfort (for once)

Actually some more peace and comfort

And a little more

Aaand back to some angst

RQG Zine Art:

The End of the World As We Know It

How Little He Matters

Rome Is Where the Heart Is

Animatics/Animations/Videos:

Hamimatic - Immature

Zolf is the sand guardian, guardian of the sand

Wilde and Zolf in the rain but animated this time

Sasha protecting Wilde in Paris

Time lapse of some of the "Breath of Life" drawing

Ben Meredith quoting Jenna Marbles (starring Toothbrush Zolf)

Doodles, sketches, and requests:

Messy busts of the whole party (plus Wilde, obviously)

Azu and Grizzop outfit/deity swap

Never wake a sleeping Barnes (comic)

Toothbrush Zolf

Azu caring for undead Sasha

Ada mourning Babbage AU

Fun sketch page of various PCs

Domestic Zolf and Wilde

Canon-compliant under-dressed Zolf (look he's posing like the coppertone baby from that one brand of sunscreen, i thought it was funny)

Sasha and Wilde bonding time

If Sasha and Cel met each other

Sasha and Zolf, amputee buddies

Wilde in a flower crown (Everyone Liked That)

More domestic Zolf and Wilde

Sasha playing with Hamid's twin brothers

Sasha looking after Grizzop's kids

Zolf and Wilde hugging

Sasha and Skraak, dynamic duo

Barnes and Carter hugging

Kobold in the kitchen with Zolf

Ada holding down the fort

Happy Hamid

Cel and Grag

Wilde and Hamid high-five

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tagged by: @thirteenthesia and glad I clicked the readmore because it didn't tell me and now I feel special :3 (posting as new so as not to make people's dashes a million miles long)

Last Song: Spotify tells me Nancy Boy by Placebo but my current obsessions are The Emptiness Machine by Linkin Park and The Witches Road from Agatha All Along. (which FUCKS)

Favorite Color: It's either blue or purple but I couldn't tell you which. anything from pink through to teal via blue gets a shout out though.

Last Book: The Starless Sea by Erin Morgernstern. I love it so much. I hold it close to my heart.

Last Movie: You know I think it might've been Puella Magi Madoka Magica: Rebellion because I don't think I've watched a film since but that was aaages ago.

Last Show: It'll either be Taskmaster or Arcane - both excellent current seasons imo.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: It really is mood dependant. I don't think I could live without cheese or chocolate though. Probably sweet on balance. Question to fuck you up as a more interesting answer: if you could only ever have Bread OR Cheese again (taken in the spirit of the restriction no workarounds) which would you pick? Yes in both worlds this fucks pizza.

Relationship Status: Married for coming up on nine years, same relationship for nearly 15.

Last thing I Googled: I think how long it is from Wimbledon to Kingston? Because I do a normal amount of planning before events.

Current Obsession: Look honestly I'm always obsessed with RQG. I'm sorry but it's wormed its way into my brain and now it lives there. Arcane is also pretty high up rn because aaaaaaaaaa

Looking Forward To: CROW MEET AT THE WEEKEND

tagging: @wishflower4 @makesometime @snakewife @illusemywords @holoxam @vastsexual @hetamariar @flammenkobold @howshouldiknowboutlife

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Un-Follow Me Now, This Is Gonna Be The Only Thing I Talk About For The Next Day. I've Been Wanting This For Months Fuck. What The Fuck. /ref

@a-mag-a-day

So, uhm, MAG 136 everybody! As you can probably tell I've been looking forward to this episode, not as much as some others, (cough cough) cul-de-sac (cough cough), but a fair amount of excitement going into this. So, without further ado, let's get on with it! Mostly rambling, but I have great words a lot of the time.

For content warnings, mostly what's in the episode and some pretty frank discussions of suicide and depression. If I need to add or tag anything please let me know.

If I get another gambling ad, I'm going to break something :). Sorry, I keep getting this gambling advert and it's just. Nope, no, 0/10. I had hope it would only be on RQG.

ARCHIVIST (Compelling) If you don’t mind me asking, where are you off to? MELANIE Therapy. Wait … ARCHIVIST Oh, God, Melanie, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to … MELANIE It’s fine. I would probably have told you eventually anyway. ARCHIVIST Even so, I shouldn’t— MELANIE Just forget it

I'm glad that although Melanie's obviously -- and to be honest, rightfully, yeah Jon didn't mean to make her tell him that she's going to therapy, he still did and that would make me pretty angry -- upset, she's handling it in a good way, they're not getting in a fight, they're being... amicable. Not friends -- a long way from friends.

DAISY You’re not babysitting me, alright? I know that’s what the others think sometimes, but that’s not it. I just don’t like being on my own if I can help it. You know, flashbacks, panic attacks, the usual. Just trying to avoid it if I can. ARCHIVIST I know, Daisy. I do. It’s hard. DAISY Yeah, well. Don’t let me get in your way. ARCHIVIST Of course.

jon's just grappling with the concept of friendship in the corner like, sure, he was a last resort, but he's spending time with another human and they're not obviously wishing he was dead! yay for that i guess!

also uhm i like how yk, maybe i was just watching bad shows before -- probably -- but it isn't... glossed over. they go through things and they deal with said things, mostly in bad and self destructive ways, like yes the characters suffering and then they have to deal with the suffering and it's all portrayed in a -- in my opinion -- pretty true to life way. People get angry when they're traumatized and under stress, people get suicidal, people do stupid things, people don't trust people -- trust the wrong people -- the works.

*holds gently* p o d c a s t

I loved Neil. I might even have been in love with him; it’s hard to say. When there are so many emotions caught up in a single person, when they’re such a significant force in your life, it gets difficult to say what’s really there at the heart of it.

I'm aro, I thought i was in love with people, I probably wasn't. Love is complicated, discerning what type it is.

Even pyrotechnics, while impressive and visually spectacular, just didn’t give me the same sharp joy as making something that could move, that came alive, directed and controlled by my hand.

Ah, right, so here's the sentence that's like "and this is what fear it is." There's a lot of those, scattered around. What comes to mind are the following lines.

Well, that’s what’s really terrifying, isn’t it? Your mind is all you are. There’s no back-up, no reset if it goes. I’m not just talking about madness as it appears, but what it is from inside. The way people talk about it, it’s like you have to think you’re sane, that our mind is everything we perceive, everything we are. Well, that means you can never know when your grasp might be slipping. I’m not convinced that’s it though. Or maybe deep down, somewhere inside, you understand what’s happening to you and I, um… I don’t know which scares me more.

(MAG 65 - Binary)

This shows that it's The Spiral.

One thing that… eats at me, as it were, and does give me that sick tightness of fear deep in my gut. It is rot. I don’t know why it gets to me so; perhaps it’s precisely because I don’t think there is anything beyond the body, and even dead and unaware, seeing a person’s form begin to putrefy and fester – becoming just a home for the crawling, feasting things – is too much for me. Perhaps it’s just an unaccountable phobia. Regardless of the reason, the fact is that to see the corpses decaying, to see their flesh corrupted, it is… the one part of this job that I find uncomfortable. So much so that I would describe reconstruction and preservation as my favourite part of the process. Making sure the cadaver looks as peaceful and lifelike as possible. Make them the person they were, or as close as they can be while cold and senseless. Fighting off the rot. The insects. The disease.

(MAG 36 - Taken Ill)

And this shows it's The Corruption.

I like it, a little introduction, so you know what you're getting into.

“Besides,” he always told me, “I’m a puppeteer at heart.”

✨ Spooky! ✨

A frugal life, lucrative career and prickly personality had left him with lots of money, but no real support; while my life had left me in a position where I cared deeply about his wellbeing and was in desperate need of money. Everything just lined up so neatly.

this was planned wasn't it, "everything just lined up so neatly," yeah no way it's a coincidence.

I must have asked him about it, but at the time it just seemed like such a natural progression.

This reminds me of some of the stuff in MAG 59 - Recluse.

I’m sure they’d have said the same things about me and at the time nothing seemed amiss. I did what I did because it was what I was supposed to do, and it never struck me to question it. I’m not sure I really recognise who I became while living at that house.

With The Web's control and things seeming fine but then you look back and it's like "yep, definitely not."

He was hanging there, wrapped in his strings like a cocoon, twisting gently around and around and around.

THAT'S AN IMAGE. oh!! OH!! oh boy!!!

She told me to take the films, his original cuts.

The way "original cuts" is said sounds a lot like some of the other tones a few statement givers take -- even Jon sometimes, immediately I can think of in the season 5 trailer. I recognise that tone.

She told me to come here. She told me to give them to you. I resisted for some time, but I’m done now. She’s won. And I would very much like to go home.

I love the way this statement ends, a lot of statements have very cool endings, this one's snazzy, the statement giver sounds so defeated.

ARCHIVIST They were … Well, let’s just say it’s not a complete shock there was something unnatural to them. Didn’t know we had copies in the Institute, though, let alone original cuts. Records indicate they ended up in Artefact Storage. DAISY Probably best they stay there. ARCHIVIST Yeah… Yes, of course.

No! Not best they stay there! Daisy and Jon movie night watching spooky films together! I think that would be fun.

DAISY She’s Web. Spider’s sneaky like that. Like that lighter you’re always using – where’d you get that? ARCHIVIST Hm, good point. We should keep our eyes open. Anyway, how’s Basira doing?

Spooky bloody lighter, god damnit, god damn that spooky lighter.

AAAA. No guys, the lighter isn't messing with his memory, he just has adhd.

DAISY Yeah, well, what do you think? You think I’m weak just cos I’m not already chasing the next kill? You think I’m less me? ARCHIVIST I … I don’t feel like I’m exactly in the best place to judge the intersection between free will and humanity. Still trying to figure that out myself.

✨ t h e m e s ✨ [themes]

I, unsurprisingly, like this. I think, that I like. The exploration of it. I think it's snazzy. It's hard to articulate my thoughts, but I am holding this gently, I am holding the many many themes of this very cool podcast gently. I am directing you to tumblr user annabelle--cane because it's got great brain thoughts.

DAISY Jon … When you went in the coffin, was it you choosing to do that? Did you actually think you could save me or was something telling you to do it? ARCHIVIST It was me. I was drawn to it, I’ll admit, but it was my decision. It wasn’t entirely about you, though. DAISY What was it? ARCHIVIST My— My memories of the coma are not clear, but I know I made a choice. I made a choice to become … something else. Because I was afraid to die. But ever since then, I don’t know if I made the right decision. I’m stronger now, tougher, I can … If I do die, now, or get sealed away somewhere forever, I don’t know if that’s a bad thing. And I don’t want to lose anyone else, so if I can maybe stop that happening and the only danger is to me … I’ll do it in a heartbeat. Worst case scenario, the universe loses another monster. DAISY That’s messed up. ARCHIVIST (Laughs) Yeah. I suppose it is.

I've also heard it described as "if there was a truck coming towards me, I wouldn't move out the way." Maybe not actively seeking it, but definitely not... not seeking it.

Yeah, thinking you're an inherently worse person than everyone around you, is a pretty good way to get you know, suicidal.

Almost everyone you care about thinking -- and saying -- that your very existence is a wrong, that they'd rather you have died, that's going to mess you up. And I'm... I mean like, poor Jon or whatever, I love him, he's my blorbo, but like him living his worst life is compelling and written well.

I should say more, but idk, I think I've summed up Some Thoughts.

ARCHIVIST I guess I thought imprisonment wouldn’t … wouldn’t be as bad as it was. And it’s a lot easier to make that choice than it is to actually endure the result. You might have noticed, when I was in there with you, I had regrets.

fuck dude it sure is, i mean at least he's pretty bad at self-sacrifice, like he lived, didn't get stuck in a coffin forever, no bad outcomes apart from... like... the trauma. he didn't even have to have one awkward conversation. until now, but i feel like him and daisy are more on the "joking about melodramatic notes app notes written while having a breakdown" than "one person who wants to get out of the situation and another who is Concerned."

DAISY You need to stop moping. ARCHIVIST I what?

THIS IS A MOMENT WHERE THE UNNOFFICIAL TRANSCRIPTS ABSOLUTELY WIN. "picture of Edwardian offence" ahsdfsewadfssewa

I mean like yeah it's a little insensitive or whatever, but to be fair, sometimes it's just better to get out of your head, distract yourself, don't listen to sad music while you're down because otherwise you're just going to get more sad. Shout out to crying over a TMA meta while listening to Mitski and reading all my saved TMA metas. Not the exact situation, but let it be known i don't cry over fiction that much. This podcast has made me cry like... how many times at this point?

I'd share other, more specific details, but I'm not sure how much is oversharing, especially with these topics.

DAISY “Boo hoo, I’m so alone and a monster!” ARCHIVIST I am alone. Martin is—

*points* GAY

well, bi. yk.

DAISY Get over yourself. You’re always talking about choices. We all made ours. Now I’m making a choice to get some drinks in. Coming? ARCHIVIST I don’t … Yeah, ok.

ANOTHER PART WHERE THE UNNOFFICIAL TRANSCRIPTS STAY WINNING! "pause while he grapples with the concept of friendship." Like I'm using official because i noticed an error in MAG 119, but the unofficials are funny.

DAISY Melanie’s out, but I’ll go get Basira. ARCHIVIST Is she … Would she want to join us? DAISY If she doesn’t, I’ll rip her throat out. ARCHIVIST Uhhh… DAISY It’s a joke, John. ARCHIVIST (Dubious) Oh, aha. Yes. I’ll get my coat.

HIS STUPID LITTLE LAUGH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

he's just like me fr oh my goddd he's a dumbass he's i want to squish him like one of those toys whose eyes pop out i want to shake him out like a cat aaaaaa

Anyway, Jon fan[redacted]ing over, uhhh more thoughts on the whole bloody... thing he's got going on.

First of all, I mean... passive suicidality sucks. And I think that's what's going on, like he jumped into that coffin, with the knowledge that he might not live, but maybe he will, and does it matter either way. He lives, gets Daisy out, he's useful, he's good. He dies or gets stuck there... well, it's just another monster gone. And of course that's not what he thinks when he's down there, but... I can't back this up with studies, but anecdotally... yeah uh, I mean, sometimes you go "oh shit, maybe doing this nonspecific thing was a bad idea, actually, and you don't want to die."

That... sudden realization of what he's done, what he's condemned himself to, the continuing... you know, he's not exactly okay in season 5, or even later on in season 4 -- what with the dark sun -- and that rings true with me. I can actually back this up with a study, according to this website, (it's reliable, it's Harvard, just search up "attempters' longterm survival" on google, it should be the first result.) 90% of people who attempt suicide don't go on to die by suicide, however 40% of those who have died from suicide (in the US) have previously attempted suicide, and 5 to 11 percent of people hospitalized for a suicide attempt go on to die via suicide, but those who haven't are only 1 in 10,000. Besides, not he's gotten help, he's just realized he made a mistake in one situation, he's talked about it to a friend, sure, but he's still mostly alone, he still mostly thinks he's a monster.

Like... that's not a great situation to be in. Someone give him some actual friends (or a boyfriend) and take all the Panado (acetaminophen) out of his reach.

[sphor-art]

Do you still do rqg stuff?

not really anymore! all my past interests including rqg hold a special place in my heart always, and if i get super inspired to draw smth related to it i might!

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Thank you so much darling, this was such a joy to think about.

These are in no particular order.

1. Together - Pillars of Eternity

This was one of the first fics I wrote from a place of heartbreak, following canonical character choices in the second PoE game, a series that I had so adored. I loved how I harnessed the heavy emotions in this one, even though it's quite old now.

2. Hate me, break me, let me feel as hurt as you - Magnus Archives

This is probably the most abstract thing I've ever written and I'm still quite proud of how on theme it is for the Spiral entity in particular.

3. Not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again - Baldur's Gate 3

I had no idea what sort of audience there would be for this fic when I started writing it, but it was vital for my processing the end of the game and my Tav's story. It has been incredible popular, as has the series that followed, which means the world to me. I love getting to share my girl's story of love and loss with the world. (It was also the start of my writing proper angst which I have never really done before.)

4. Take heart, fair days will shine; take any heart, take mine - Rusty Quill Gaming

I always come back to this one as one of my favourites of the *counts* 218 RQG fics I've written. It fought me so hard when I was writing it, but it was the one I have been most satisfied to have completed. RQG Wilde, my beloved. I'm turning you around in my head every day. (Honourable mention goes to all of my collabs with my darlings. They have been a joy, completely.)

5. You are the reason I stay alive - Stranger Things

I'll end this on a little bit of a silly note - I wrote this one because I didn't like any of the Steddie vampire fics out there. And I'm really pleased with how well it did, because that feels like some sort of petty vindication.

[shy-magpie]

RQG 168

live blog under the cut

"stellar" "no Rusty Quill Gaming" Ah a Benterval for them redoing the intros sleepy

Bryn just asked us to cut Alex some slack, so I guess all that last episode was probably just him trying to (eta: sentence cuts off here not sure what I thought he was trying)

Poor Cel, even Sigguf dropped off on them. Oh honey they aren't dead.

Sigguf fell asleep as he tried to wake up Draal (one of the cohort); so he considered the cohort as equally worth waking.

Will Save for Zolf, 19. The ship is fighting him when he does those mis-steering power plays; but he can still over rule it.

Oh curse? Oh just wants to have more details on the magic the ship is under.

Detect Magic? Is this going to be like when Sasha got knocked out trying to appraise that thing or when Hamid got knocked out trying to get a look at the spell in Rome, or when... Yes apparently, Bryn tried to warn him. Stunned him, but confirmed its just Wild unschooled magic, not good or evil or necro or enchantment etc. Only stunned for a round.

The ship is now actively unsetting one control to get him away from another so it can keep them on its chosen course without directly ignoring his commands.

Cast remove curse on the ship, Ben doesn't seem to think it will work. The Borealis thickens around him. He has a nice clear connection to his god* but other than the Borealis pressing against him it didn't do anything. Which is good because for someone who is only theoretically a person/character I like the ship but Zolf losing his connection to Hope right now would break my heart.

The cargo is reorganizing itself in sight of the cage.

Cel is starting to feel the pressure to fall asleep increase. Lydia wants to channel vigor but can't find where it would help a Will Save. Oh Ben coming in with Pathfinder insight. Can be cast directly on Spirit for Will Save, rather than a body part persay.

They really are a good table: the way they are coming in with the extra reminders after Bryn said Alex was having trouble at the top of the ep but using clear "this isn't a 'you should know this already' this is a 'I have reason to have this knowledge handy' manners" goes very nicely with what I have commented on before about how Ben & Bryn esp are good at giving help with Pathfinder to Lydia & Helen without hitting gender baggage or geek rank stuff.

Cel now feels like they are being "dosing me with something" and casts the Channel Vigor on their spirit just in time for the will save.

Cel is still muttering to themselves.

They try slapping Hamid & Azu awake, no sign they even noticed. Switches Vigor to mind and does a Knowledge Arcana, +4 see what I mean about Ben's manner? Lydia put a question mark on the end of the sentence and he still used the "I have this info handy if it would help" tone not a "I am correcting you in front of people because I am better at Geeking than you" tone. Plus a little joke about shooting people at the end to diffuse any tension.

It doesn't fit intentional spells. Cel is debating going to Zolf but leaving the room would put them at risk and they are the only one left to watch over the sleepers.

Oh Cel! They are now checking that everyone is breathing, it didn't occur to me that would be a concern.

Alex is nicer than he gets credit for and accelerates past Cel anxiously watching over everyone before Lydia completely breaks my heart.

Cel feels a knock in the ship after about 90 minutes and it sets off the internal arguement. They decide to stick with the decision to stay.

"turn into a monster and hurt anyone" Cel backstory please, why was that in the list of possibilities?

The ship finishes organizing itself and a rag is now scrubbing at a stain.

Cel talks to the rag and calls it "little buddy" the rag stops when addressed and responds to Cel's questions. Cel is a delight.

Scrapping noise coming nearer, Cel is treating the rag as a separate entity rather than part of the ship.

A tankard of grog just offered itself to Cel. Cel just asked the tankard if the grog was sentient and it shrugged.

Huh are they separate beings Awakened by the storm? I assumed it was all the ship as one being.

The tankard is continuing to offer itself.

When Cel reaches out to pat the tankard they experience the stretching Zolf felt.

When Cel says they would prefer to continue this through the bars of the cage rather than leave its safety the tankard pulls away and sulks off to a corner.

Cel apologizes as the tankard leaves.

"how can I be alone and still messing this stuff up". The entire table speaks for me in how heart rending.

Something is coming back its bigger, its the tankard followed by a keg with a straw in it so Cel can drink through the bars. Cel takes a sip, it tastes like normal grog. Cel points out they need to stay sober now but offers to do this later, which perks up the tankard. Cel offers to polish its wood to return the favor and a can of polish offers itself. Cel asks the objects about themselves and apologizes if they just didn't notice they were sentient before now. Because Cel is the absolute best. Alex accelerates to avoid breaking Lydia.

Bryn asks after Zolf, and Alex starts to keep the camera on Cel but Lydia backs him by having Cel ask their ship friends to check on Zolf. We follow the Ship bits to Zolf.

"to anyone trying to keep a timeline, I'm sorry"

Zolf nearly lost his will save but used Liberties Blessing to boost himself. Then The Rag flops in.

Zolf asks if it is alright then asks if anyone can hear him and if they are being killed by a Rag. Cel tries to yell then passes a note for the ship to give to Zolf. I love Zolf.

The Aurora is thining.

Oh Zolf thinks the elementals may have fused with the ship.

Oh the ship is going back to normal. Cel says goodbye as Azu awakens.

"either the ship has gotten very big or you have very small"

Azu's voice sounds wrong... Because its coming from Meerk. Alex rules Helen should keep using Azu's voice. The players openly rebel and Alex concedes as long as they all do new voices or all keep normal voices. Fair be easier to keep track.

"I don't like being small" poor Azu

Azu's body is still asleep in Kiko's arms when Azu(Meerk) slaps it awake. Its Hamid, because they love us fans and want us to be happy. Keep in mind Hamid just got slapped by one of his cohort who is even smaller than usual.

I need this entire scene clipped. I want to type the whole thing.

Ew point Ben, if anyone is in Azu at least its Hamid and especially not Sigguf.

Oh Azu just asked to be picked up.

Reflex save, stats just got weird. Oh no, Hamid nearly squished Meerk because he isn't used to being big.

(sorry if there is a tone change I was interupted for a few hours)

Azu is quicker as Meerk and skitters to safety

Aw Hamid normally hugs everyone "as a tree trunk"

Azu reaches out to Aphrodite and its harder than usual; Hamid feels the necklace warm up and gives it to Azu

Who is in Hamid? Its Sigguf, who knows Meerk by name. Huh didn't know I was still worried about the cohort was being treated until the relief at the signs they are regard like anyone else. Bryn asks if his claws popped but Sigguf isn't panicked yet

Sigguf goes as full dragon as he can then passes out as he panics.

Zolf can hear the commotion. Specificly Hamid's voice in distress, there is a fic prompt.

Who is Wilde? No who is in Wilde's body? Hamid is taking charge reasonably well and tells him to look at his hands.

Cel made name tags for everyone

Wilde is still Wilde, and he is disappointed. Its gotta be the cuffs.

Can Hamid cast? Ok Detect Magic it works, so does comprehend languages which Cel tests by explaining about Rag and Tankard in Japanese. Hamid confirms he could understand but asks if that happened or was a children's story but they are interupted before they can follow that conversation line.

Wilde advises they separate people because a whole room full of people going through identity issues is a bad scene. Cel doesn't want to let people out of the box because it might be permanent if they leave.

"its not urgent" Cel ILU

"What kind of obstacles love can overcome"?! Alex, who is Kiko? Alex get back here! Who is Kiko and who is in Kiko? Alex?!

I can't believe they did a body swap episode in canon.

*hate to quibble directly against what Ben said but its Hope not himself. A Zolf who believed in himself that much would be very different. Although maybe he was just angling for recognition that Hope isn't an external Power/person.

[flammenkobold]

I posted 6,184 times in 2022

109 posts created (2%)

6,075 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@kd-heart

@robiinbuckley

@screechfoxes

@odins-sonofmischief

@targaryensource

I tagged 6,177 of my posts in 2022

#house of the dragon - 530 posts

#moon knight - 310 posts

#stranger things - 301 posts

#doctor who - 285 posts

#rqg - 273 posts

#rq gaming - 272 posts

#rusty quill gaming - 271 posts

#loki series - 259 posts

#the master - 215 posts

#the locked tomb - 198 posts

Longest Tag: 94 characters

#ep7 of hotd might as well have been an audiobook for all you could see happening half the time

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

not me thinking about "You're more important than a thing!" and then Grizzop protecting Sasha with his life because she was so important to him

98 notes - Posted June 21, 2022

#4

watching some due south and fraser/rayk videos on youtube and crying over how beautiful the show and this ship in particular was and just remembering some things in no particular order:

“Do you find me attractive?” "Very much so, yes.”

the underwater “breathing” thing

zero personal space

the smiles at the end of mountie on the bounty

I will beat you to death with this empty gun

zero personal space the extended edition with extra grabbing

betting on air

LoooOOOuuuu Scagnetti

being in synch

the entirety of Asylum

Love at First Sight discussion with Meaningful Camera Shot(TM)

punching each other

who left the empty butterdish in the fridge

THEY LITERALLY RIDE OFF INTO THE SUNSET TOGETHER

98 notes - Posted January 10, 2022

#3

Zolf “Archive of Our Own” Smith

137 notes - Posted January 13, 2022

#2

Me at everyone who loudly didn’t like the movie: It just wasn’t the movie you wanted and that’s okay, now sit down and drink some hot chocolate it’ll be fine. Me though? I am getting the champagne because this movie had everything I wanted: Keanu Reeves with a rubber ducky on his head, a character that has blue hair and pronouns, Neil Patrick Harris playing a total slime ball, a love story that literally changed the world, Carrie-Anne Moss looking hot, Trinity being badass and a cat.

213 notes - Posted January 8, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

things i have seen made for goncharov so far:

- several university papers - fake DVD cover - several movie posters - several gifsets - fake video reviews - so much fanart - so much fanfic that the ao3 tag has now more fic than the avatar blue people movie - a flash exchange i have to remember to sign up to - a google doc with people writing out the movie - there is a discord server were i’ve seen the link but have not joined bc i am a scaredy cat and new discords scary - pages long meta - shit posts - shit posts by famous people - posts warning people about the dangers of fandom past so that no one gets the idea to start a fundraiser to make this a real thing - almost forgot (thanks for reminding me in the tags): A soundtrack - several playlists - we managed to get a new york times article i think?

anyway i am so damn amazed at this fandom about a made up movie on tumblr. its so exciting and makes me so happy at all the creativity and shared chaos and people just having fun with a story

1,020 notes - Posted November 24, 2022

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[dedicatedfollower467]

bro. BRO. i have so many wips. buckle the FUCK up.

idk how many of these i would consider "active" wips but FUCK IT. YOU GET EM ALL.

some of these are nsfw and their titles are also nsfw because my wip titles are almost always descriptive.

soft tender vashwood smut

vash has no genitals

vashwood hanahaki

"oops we're in charge of a lost half-plant baby now"

I GUESS IM WRITING THE BABY FIC THEN, APPARENTLY

twins' bio mom

vashwood telepathic bonding

ww rescues livio

millions vash hivemind razlo pov fic

livio/razlo nonsense

void dream sibling choices everybody lives

that which we call a rose

more ogrim fic

cornifer and iselda adopt lost kin

lwj whump h/c rape fic

the untamed omegaverse idea

jzx is in the sword

jzx time travel fixit

i'm my own uncle au

lxc/jc "congratulations on killing a man you love"

trans jgy

roy/maes/gracia/riza polycule

fma omegaverse wingfic shut up

mustang on trial

fractured hearts

camp counselor papyrus

double baby blasters au

continuation of brother brother father sun

all this, and heaven too

rqg daemon au

rqg de-age au

rqg/sf crossover

18 month gap al tahan angst fic

egg preg au

guardian of the forest grizzop

grizzop first time fic

rqg omegaverse subvocalizations

david 7 has no genitalia and that's really fucking annoying

WOLF ARCHIVE WOLF ARCHIVE WOLF ARCHIVE

mom said it's my turn to write the time travel fixit au

this bad boy can fit so much found family trope in it

smells like belonging

can't find a reason

Sad Repressed Adult Dirk No Sburb AU

Big Brother Dave and Little Dirk run away from Bro

The Universal Truth of Karkats

hs guardian revive au but with like. bullet points and shit.

That Weird Human Sexuality Pity Party Thing

aa omegaverse draft 1

aa omegaverse draft 2

broken halos and tarnished wings

langworth one night stand

ace attorney soulmate au

That One Klapollo Fic With the Secret Boyfriend Shenanigans

Bilbo Baggins, Honorary Dwarf

thorin pov story

That Slow Burn Sakuryou Fic Because I Have No Self Control

GO ineffable husbands slowburn

STAR WARS ROBOT FEELS

why is six afraid of seven

doctor who: same song, different verse

yeah i don't think i even KNOW 61 fic authors. @starrygazingpie @consultingjedi @bluerayofsunshine and uh.... 58 other people who also wanna do this, go for it.

WIP ask game

tagged by @treshmind

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! Tag as many people as you have WIPs.

oh god i not only have too many wips, i also suck at naming things so theyre all very boring and generic.............

gonna just go over the ones that are totally unpublished:

a tenday

restoration

snow

company

bite

good behavior

in blood

i dont know if i can tag 7 people LMAO @sadakotetsuwan, @gingerbloof, @charmandabear, @rsxavior how about we make a deal where 3 people who read this that write pretend i tagged them 🥲🥲🥲 that'll teach me to have so many unfinished projects

[lucky-numberme]

[Image ID: All images are in a cutesy cartoon style and formatted as Valentine's Day cards. Artist's signature "lucky-numberme" is faintly visible on each. IMAGE 1: Annabelle Cane poses with one finger to her nose conspiratorially and a mischievous look on her face. She is a Black woman with short bleach blonde natural hair and a spiderweb covering half her skull. Behind her is a pink spiderweb gradient. She has six extra spider eyes on her face. Text reads "Like webs or glue, I'm stuck on you. Love, Annabelle". IMAGE 2: Jude Perry, a chubby and buff east Asian butch woman, turns to kiss her flexed bicep. Her other arm has a tattoo of a heart with the word "arson" across it. Behind her is a lesbian pride flag gradient. Her left arm is melting into long, waxy drips. Text reads "You're even hotter than me, Valentine. xoxo Jude". IMAGE 3: Nikola Orsinov poses with her arm outstretched. Her face is made of sickly green plastic with Joseph Grimaldi's makeup. She wears an ostentatious ringmaster costume with a matching tophat and wig. Behind her is a circus tent pattern. There is blood staining her mouth. Text reads "I want your heart silly, but I'll settle for your skin Xoxo Nikola". IMAGE 4: Two hands are clasped in front of a sunset gradient. Jon, a Desi British person with medium brown skin, holds Martin's hand— a light-skinned Filipino man— with blue painted nails. Jon's ace ring and scars are clearly visible. Text reads "You are my reason, Valentine". /end ID]

These were made for my pals on the SITA server because they bring me joy and also because— who doesn't love some monster girlfriends? And of course, JMart because they invented love <3

(RQG valentines here)

(HFTH valentines here)

[aw-bean-s]

gahhh I listened to the new rqg ep this morning and had to go somewhere almost immediately after, like I had to go BE A PERSON after THAT

[could-be-calliope]

If Lydia Nicholas didn't want me to project way too much onto her characters then why'd she make them all queer and awkward and touch averse and kinda not great at showing their friends how much they love them???? Hmmmm???? Checkmate atheists

[starlightthroughbrokenglass]

I had an idea for an RQG one-shot:

Oscar Wilde’s Big Vacation!

(a hack of Jason Statham’s Big Vacation)

Zolf has promised Wilde a holiday, so that’s what he shall have. The rest of the party tags along. It’s not quite what Zolf had in mind but they all deserve some time off after basically saving the world. The entire party tries to make sure that Wilde has a good time and actually gets to relax for once. But that’s easier said than done. Because Wilde is not only apparently incapable of staying alive for longer than ten minutes, he has also never learnt to relax and is on top of that deeply traumatised.

Their task: trying to keep Wilde from being sad, dead, or doing paperwork.

Their roles: Zolf is the “manager”/life partner who knows Wilde well enough to have all the “Wilde lore”. Azu is the bodyguard because she doesn’t only have the muscle to protect his body but also the heart to protect his emotional state. Hamid is the lawyer because, well, he’s the 🎵 single female lawyer 🎵. And Cel is the tour guide because they’re sure to find fun and distracting activities.

[prismatic-et-al]

was just talking with my friends about lighting and color palettes in movies, got me thinking about what kind of visuals would be cool for rqg! brainstorm under the cut.

- THE most important thing: pre time jump is warm-colored lighting, post is cool-colored lighting

- make sasha backlit as often as possible so she’s really just a silhouette; any other time, she should be just in the darkest area, and never the center focus of the shot even if she’s the main speaker in the scene

- the exception to these rules is during mr. ceiling, where she and everyone else should be completely visible in artificial blue/white - just waay too strong key lighting from the brain tubes, nowhere to hide

- azu of course is glowing pink. she makes everyone look lovely with just this nice soft lighting. particularly in the vaults when they’re headed to get the heart of aphrodite she should be like a beacon for everyone else

- grizzop actually also glows a very faint silver when he’s in combat! and when he’s taking damage to save his friends

- there should always be something red/brass/gold in hamid’s shot, even just in the background. as he gets more dragony, there can be a lot of reflections on scales that will draw the eye

- every scene with wilde, there should be at least one moment where the lighting cuts across his face as foreshadowing for the scar. maybe it starts as very subtle but by the scene in damascus where they’re figuring out they can trust fewer people it’s gotta be stark

- rome should be entirely hard lighting, borderline overexposure - think heat-haze. it should be super jarring shift between grizzop in damascus when he’s there

- when people are in quarantine I want an atla-esque playing around with angles of who is ‘behind’ the bars - wilde always behind them often for obvious reasons, with the rest of the party behind or not depending on what they’re talking about. zolf should never be angled to have him behind bars, but when he’s talking about his brother there should at least be a shadow of them across his face.

- cel should always have neon colors around them, whether on their person with potions and things or lighting, particularly in shoin’s with the oozes reflecting light against the walls

- the airship is the closest the lighting gets back to warm colors - would loove the aurora borealis to start out over-saturating things, but later in the background quietly shift the cooler palette along to something less natural than actual aurora greens and blues and towards more golds and purples and reds, culminating with a lot of really warm and jewel tones on the night of the bow bar

- the crash throws everything back into a cool palette. I KNOW the ship canonically turned all technicolor but with the right tone of light all that could look horrible and washed out against the snow. 

- all of the ‘waiting rooms’ should be washed out backgrounds, with the characters standing in exceedingly vibrant contrast 

- london stays in cool colors with deep shadows/not much fill lighting, up until the roof of the parliament when it reverts back to ambient lighting with those original warm tones with gold as the centerpiece, with guivres and the tower and blue as the shadow with the sky and the plants

[queercore-curriculum]

Love in a Time of Hardship: An Anthology of Zolf Smith/Oscar Wilde Fanfiction

Binding, cover design, and layout by me. Bound with hand-dyed variegated linen thread using a variation on a long stitch binding I designed myself. Here’s what’s inside:

At Your Convenience by @holoxam​​

A really lovely, intimate post-campaign fic in which Zolf and Wilde are in a QPR and don’t need to talk about it, thank you very much. I love this fic, it’s such a wonderful little slice of life and captures their dynamic so perfectly.

Would You Cast Me to the Wayside by lily_rainn

An incredibly thoughtful and humane depiction of Zolf and Wilde negotiating the beginning of their relationship. Neither of them have the vocabulary to fully understand what’s happening, but they’re trying so hard because they care so much about each other, and it’s just great.

The most dangerous thing is to love by @makesometime 

An ancient Greek gods AU that’s just unbelievably good. makesometime seamlessly weaves Greek mythology into the RQG world all while not just maintaining perfect characterization, but actually elevating these characters to match the beautiful world she created. 

Wake up by @makesometime​​

Zolf waiting for Wilde to wake up post-ep.177. This was the first RQG fic I ever read, and it’s very, very special to me. Zolf is so painfully tender and anxious, and it makes my heart ache every time.

Inevitable by Miri1984 / @icescrabblerjerky 

“Post 177 Zolf and Wilde have sex and feelings,” really the most succinct way of putting it. Such an intense distillation of all my feelings about Zoscar!

What We Worship by Miri1984 / @icescrabblerjerky​​

AU where Wilde dies in the airship crash and doesn’t get better. Really wonderful worldbuilding for the RQG-universe afterlife, and so beautifully written and poignant.  

The Right Questions by @newsbypostcard

Just two complicated and emotionally-repressed dudes negotiating their relationship after one of them rescues the other from death. Fuck, the characterization in this fic is so good. A prime example of why fic is so often better than canon. 

Small Intimacies by @newsbypostcard​​

Zolf and Wilde go to bed and have a conversation. That’s it, that’s the fic, and it’s the single greatest “mortifying ordeal of being known” fic I have ever read. It's the kind of story I dream about finding, one that teaches me more about characters I love and illustrates exactly why they mean so much to me. A perfect fic, easily one of my favorite fics of all time.

Until We Meet Again by @queercore-curriculum​

Zolf and Wilde cross paths after Zolf leaves Prague and while Wilde is still on the run from La Gourmand. Eh, I feel weird reccing my own fic, but I’m pretty proud of this one, actually.

Warm and Dry by @queercore-curriculum​

Caf​é AU where baker!Zolf teaches writer!Wilde how to bake bread. I had a lot of fun writing this, and if I can get my shit together I’ll finish writing the extended version, Coriander.

find your feet by @starstrung​

Zolf and Wilde hide their relationship from Earhart aboard the Vengeance. I. LOVE. THIS. FIC. starstrung writes one of my all-time favorite Wildes, and this is an absolute delight to read. Zolf and Wilde often live in dark, angsty places, but this is just so joyful and fun and hot while still staying so true to character. I promise this fic will make your day brighter.

love is a sacrament by @starstrung​

An 18-month time gap fic that’s just fucking perfect. Feat. an extra guarded Wilde (again, one of my all-time favorites) and an extra tender Zolf, and it’s so, so, so wonderful. 

Woven Up by tuesdaycoming

A deep dive into Zolf’s backstory and his layers upon layers of grief. This fic just blew me away, brilliant worldbuilding and an absolute masterclass in showing-not-telling. 

Absolutely Unlike Harrison Campbell by ZaliaChimera / @zalia​

Zolf is bored and propositions Wilde to pass the time. This fic is very hot, but I also found it incredibly moving. ZaliaChimera takes a really unflinching look at these two very emotionally-repressed dudes that don’t particularly like one another and shows a different kind of intimacy than we often see in fic, one that’s a little rough around the edges and brutally honest. 

Look, I may need to make a second Zoscar anthology, and another anthology of RQG mixed-bag ships--the RQG fandom is just so fucking talented. If you have any recs of your own, please send them my way!

More pics below the cut!

My Rusty Quill ficbinding shelf :D

[immortalcowboy]

rqg screencaps — shōin institute, hiroshima, airship two

(other) london, dover, paris

airship one, prague, cairo

damascus, rome, okinoshima

(click for better quality)

id under the 'keep reading'

[ID: Three digital drawings of several scenes from Rusty Quill Gaming made to look like screencaps of a TV show.

The first drawing is of Zolf and Azu underwater in the Shōin Institute. Zolf is a white dwarf with white hair tied up in a bun and a braided beard. He has an undercut. His beard is tied with a golden circlet with an emerald in the centre. He has several piercings in his ears — two lobe piercings and a tragus in both ears, a traditional industrial bar in his right, and two helix piercings in his left. All of his piercings are silver. He is wearing a black ring on his right middle finger and a silver ring with a spade symbol on his left middle finger. He has a scar on his temple. He is wearing a silver chest plate and a green shirt underneath that has several holes burned into it. He is smiling at Azu and is doing two thumbs up. Azu is a black orc with a shaved head. She has a heart-shaped helix piercing and bright pink gages with a heart in the centre that matches her bright pink armour which is glowing. Her back is to the viewer and she is looking at Zolf. In the background is a silver pipe and a navy-coloured wall. Both Azu and Zolf have bubbles coming from their noses. Underneath, the text is '[PRESSURE ALARM RISES IN PITCH]'.

The second drawing is of Earhart before getting on the Vengeance. Earhart is a white gnome with shoulder-length ginger hair. She has a burn up the side of her face and ear. The ear that has been burned has a chunk missing from it, like it has been blown off in an accident. Earhart is wearing a matching blue jacket and pilot's cap, but they have been repaired with blue fabric that is a slightly different hue. There is a peacock feather sticking out of her hat. She has goggles on her forehead. One lens is yellow and the other is orange. Her arms are crossed, and the fingers on one of her hand have the same burn scar that is on her face. She is missing her pinky finger. Earhart is scowling. In the background is the base of an airship with spikes along the side of it. Behind the ship are several boxes and a book lying on the floor. There is a lot of light coming in from the side that the airship is on. The text underneath is '- Earhart: It's called 'the Vengeance', get on board.'

The third drawing is of Azu and Cel on the Vengeance. Azu has a scar through her eyebrow and one of her tusks has been snapped off. She is wearing a pink coat with a fur hood and a pink scarf. She is wearing the same jewellery from the first drawing. She is standing stiffly and looks shocked. Next to Azu is Cel, a white half-elf with one green eye and one brown eye. Their hair is blond and is standing on end with the sides shaved. They have several piercings in their face and ear. They are wearing an unbuttoned brown coat with a fur hood, a red scarf and gloves, and a blue knitted jumper. They have goggles on their forehead with red lenses. They have their arms crossed and are leaning towards Azu, smiling. It is night. The text underneath is '- Azu: That's— That's twice! In half an hour!'

End ID.]