#rosie rants

[rosepetalkitty]

damn wish my exbf and my exfwb had gotten that psa 🥲

someone should make one of those PSA style posts about "not adopting trendy pets that you can't commit to taking care of and eventually throwing them away" but about entering relationships with love-starved trans girls

[witch-oftheflowers]

Fall swept through the forest land. The hues of orange and yellow filled the trees. Leaves flowing through the wind and cascading down.

The Riley household was quiet.

Well besides the squeak of the bed springs.

The grunts leaving Ximena's lips as she wore an oversized hoodie. She was buried in it. Her half hazed eyes staring down to her husband as she rode him. Her painted nails scrapped his chest as she tried to find some grip

"It to much-"

" 'ous fine.... 'ake it all pretty girl..."Simon groaned out as his hips rutted up. Slamming Ximena deep as she flinched. Her thighs squeezing his sides as she heard the lewd noises her cunt was making.

"Simon~!" She called out as she felt him quicken his pace. His large hands gripping her thighs harsh, leaving hand prints on her skin. The hoodie covering her massive chest, but he noticed them bouncing underneath. Seeing the fabric moving as she did

"Good girl..." He praised her softly as he continued his relentless thrust.

[rosepetalkitty]

ngl hdg kinda amazes me in its ability to cater to my kinks pretty much perfectly while simultaneously triggering several of the worst parts of my trauma.

like how is it that it hits on everything i like on the surface, provides semi-decent worldbuilding to back it all up and enable the creation of stories, and even has consistent backstory and stuff, and yet the entire damn thing instills this looming sense of dread and fear that i can't shake enough to properly enjoy it...

below the break im gonna talk in like. moderate detail. about the parts that scare me. so uh yeah be aware that it'll get heavy that's just how it is.

ok, so the worst thing for me. wellness checks. the idea is cute and kinda hot on the surface. "make sure you're okay and if you're not you're getting domesticated" (which is supposed to be like. a happy thing. "now you get to just chill and be happy and get taken care of forever and in return you give me only your submission"). yeah, fuck it, im into that. hell that's not even an uncommon trope in the realm of cnc/mc writing.

except whenever i read an hdg wellness check story (in the sense of those long-ish tumblr posts that people write—i haven't even really considered reading the longer form content on ao3) there's something viscerally... off... about the tone. it stops feeling like kink and starts feeling like a nightmare when things happen to line up just so, and then it clicks, and reminds me that i knew people, real people, who had "wellness checks" happen in real life, except that instead of it being a kink thing that made them happy and was genuinely for their wellbeing, it was that their parents had hired people to kidnap them and drag them to a psych ward when they just needed a therapist. not all of those people that i knew have come home, as far as im aware. some have been gone for years.

and what about the whole idea of the non-consensual part being okay because "it's for your own good". in hdg-land it is. it's genuinely good for you and everyone seems to be happy with it, other than the occasional "bad guy who hates good things" trope (feralists, in hdg, afaik). but that's exactly what they told me when they cut contact between my boyfriend and i while he was in the hospital. "it's for your own good." guess what, it wasn't. his parents didn't like our relationship. they wanted me to forget him. they either didn't understand or didn't care that i couldn't. it was a year and a half before he came home and i had forgotten nothing.

our loss of communication was the tipping point in a series of events that, had i made one decision differently in the end, would have killed me. thankfully i fucked it up and am here today, no longer in that bad of a place may i add. im choosing not to share any of what happened to me directly right now because i don't want to turn this into a full on trauma dump, but suffice it to say there are recurring themes.

it's so interesting to me because in a lot of ways i have found comfort from those experiences in kink and writing. take flames of averon: mech pilots are neurochemically bonded to their handlers. how different is this from what the affini do to their florets? well, you have to sign up to be a pilot, and there's no authority in the world threatening you if you choose not to. even the coalition military wouldn't dare force you to become a pilot against your will, though they might never stop sending you promotional flyers if they find out you're able to tolerate the cyberware /lh

hell, im into cnc. im really into it. i chose to leave it as an opening between pilots and handlers in foa. the implication exists that if a handler tells their pilot to do something the poor thing will have a hell of a time saying no. that's intentional. it's hot to me, on either end. but the safety comes from other things.

yes, your handler has a lot of influence over you at a level that's hard to imagine, but you chose them and they chose you (most of the time), or at the very least neither of you had any complaints to raise with your supervisor when the paperwork came in for syncing your link chips (holly and astrid from seat of consciousness).

yes it's true, you can't be reassigned now that you're bonded, but that doesn't mean you have zero recourse if your handler is treating you badly. if you need to, you can always file paperwork with your commanding officer to request that something be done.

plus, handlers go through a lot of training, which includes screening to filter out people who would actually harm their pilots. yeah, some handlers are a little sadistic, but when it comes down to it they are on your side. if that wasn't the case they would never have passed pre-basic.

put another way, as a pilot in flames of averon, the closest thing ive ever written to a floret, there are a multitude of points at which you could have said no and didn't, and although that's obviously still noncon in the grand scheme of things, it's "signing away your freedom" cnc compared to the hdg flavor of "you 'consented' via it being the best thing for you whether you like it or not."

even if your handler just told you to "stay" for the first time and you're currently panicking and trying to figure out why your legs won't move, you still have some tiny amount of agency—an escape hatch, so to speak—and you'll just never end up having to use it.

and to me, the loss of that minute level of agency which will never be invoked is the difference between "this is hot as hell and feels perfectly safe" and "this is the abuse that was once leveraged against those i cared about, and to some degree myself, and it's simply been repackaged with a kink sticker slapped on."

none of this is to say i hate hdg, it's fans, those who write about it, or even the parts of it which scare me. i do think the idea is hot. hdg is pretty cool. hell, it was one of my inspirations in writing a lot of the pilot/handler dynamics in flames of averon. but it does scare me. and no matter what i tell myself i can't shake that fear.

it's frustrating, because oftentimes fear can be part of what makes something hot, but the particular flavor of fear which hdg instills in me is one which makes bitter all that it reaches. maybe someday i'll grow out of it. the traumatic memories from which that fear stems were only created in the past couple of years, to be fair. but something tells me a piece of that fear will never be fully dislodged from my mind.

so, all this to say, while i am into hdg, it's a complicated relationship.

(and on a sillier in character note to lighten the mood—please feel free to respond to this with roleplay or whatever you like!)

to any Affini out there who might be reading this, know that im not scared of you. im not scared of what you represent. im only scared by the fact that you mimic that which has left the scars you see on my soul today. im not against being taken in as a floret, and none of this is to say that i hold any level of disdain for you.

i only ask that you be gentle with me. what has been broken once can be broken again. please, do not let it come to that.

[confused-pie]

Well I'm glad she's okay, I'm just surprised that it's the first time this has happened for a lady...you'd think after three years, at least one lady would've tested positive and then negative at some point, but ok....

[rosiehunterwolf]

Please just tell me my internet is being slow and ao3 is not down AGAIN-

[bylergetonefree]

getting high, sending risky texts to my situationship, and writing gay fanfiction while blaring “casual” on repeat. just as chappell roan intended

[rosemusic]

This.

I went out yesterday to the mall and I overheard two-few conversations too many that made me feel sick to my stomach. Things like people talking about how members of the community are freaks and f******. About how "Our kids will end up getting groomed by them!"

Like it really drove home the point for me that just like how between Tumblr, Pinterest, Instagram and YouTube I've become so much more confident in the body I have, the stretchmarks I have, AND my bisexuality?

That's not the case irl.

In real life I am someone who is considered "chubby with some double chin and stomach rolls, with weird stretchmarks that I should be getting rid of" and "A freak, someone who's just confused, weirdo, f**, creep etc."

[gamerbot-22]

[lilanagirl]

Intro Post

Hi all, my name is Rosie. I’m 21 y/o and I’ve been hanging out with an ed for a long while now. My parents started to notice when I finish high school in 2020 and implemented healthy habits. I was 80kg/176lbs then, since I’ve put 20kg/44lbs on. I started seeing my GP in February for health reasons and we started working on sorting out my insulin resistance which was making losing weight an actual nightmare. I’ve since lost almost 8kg/17lbs.

I have never felt so fucking disgusting and disappointed in myself for being so fat. So I’m starting this blog to monitor my weight and y’all are welcome to come along for the ride. I also don’t want to infiltrate my main blog with ed posts.

My asks are open! Need some friends along the journey!

Also, I’ve seen some blogs out here with rewards for each goal met, send through some ideas for rewards!

Height: 5’5

SW: 80kg/176lbs

HW: 106kg/233lbs

CW: 98.8kg/217lbs

GW 1: 80kg/176lbs

GW 2: 70kg/154lbs

GW 3: 60kg/132lbs

UGW: 45kg/99lbs

[fatalrosecreations]

I wish more creators took bigger sim bodies into consideration. Pose and clothes creator alike. Sucks when I can't find clothes to fit bigger bodies because the punpun pops out or it crunches badly or clips horribly. Like obvs it's impossible to fit all body types right, there are probs 100s of body presets in all shapes and sizes.

However, is it too much to ask that they fit all of the base EA body sizes, big and small?

There are bigger rigs for posing. I know it's harder for group poses but it's super easy for singular poses.

And before we go there...I'm not hating skinny bodies, I use skinny sims all the time. I use various size sims. It's just personally, when I use my simself, she reflects my body type and sometimes dressing her low key just makes me sad. It's why I became a creator. Idk just some food for thought.

Goodnight babes <3

[lokiandbuckysdoll]

Strong urge to get married to a girl that lives across the world because she shows you more love and gives you the most nastiest, sweetest and sexiest compliment ever than any guy would ever give you😩😔 

Aka @imyourbratzdoll & @hannibals-favourite-meal

[rosie-rosem]

if you see that girl getting hit by that car on the highway, that's me, I'm going crazy.

someone save me I just saw a tiktok of a girl at send-off for enha and she said "heeseung can I give you a kiss?" he responded "huh, kiss?" and then she replied, "a heresy's kiss" and then held out the chocolate for him. BRO HIS SMILE AFTER SHE SAID THAT MADE ME FEEL THINGS then bro proceeded to say "ohh, sweetheart" as he giggled PLS I WOULDVE FOLDED

[witch-oftheflowers]

Price or ghost with a cat-girl??

Oh my God I can just see it!

Like Price would love a cat girl let's be real. I'm thinking hybrid too since you didn't specify. And like imagine this man coming home from a long mission. He's tired worn out and he ran out of cigars at some point-

And he sees his sweet girlfriend that was home. Keeping the usual empty apartment filled with life. Her ears twitching as she heard him shuffling in. And he'll be covered in kisses and love. Telling him to relax and just take a load off. She'll pamper him and he just adores the way her ears twitch with excitement he came home Aaaaah!

Now Ghost. Omg he would act annoyed I can feel it. He'll stare at her like how did I get in this mess? But honestly Simon would adore his gf. The idea of this once cold heartless man. Let's be real he isn't heartless he just acts it. Besides the point-

Coming back to the bleak apartment. She's probably bit sporadic as she was napping. Apartment cleaned and kept. Probably has some plants hanging around. It looks lived in. Little trinkets of hers as she likes pretty things. And she'll welcome him calmly. Ease him back in as she knows he needs it. And they'll eat snack and catch up. Her tail will sway as they rekindle a bit as she eased him from Ghost to Simon- honestly she'll be his anchor a bit. With a bit of spice to keep him on his feet. Like how she likes to bite-

Thank you!! This was fun💗

[rosepetalkitty]

seeing people post stories about all the cool triggers and posthypnotic suggestions they've given their subs and like. damn. first of all jealous as fuck, second of all how do i get to have that kind of relationship with someone where we trust each other enough and are together long enough for that, and third of all is that something ill ever be able to do? or am i never going to get to that point and be jealous of them for the rest of my life...

[confused-pie]

Not inspired by anything specific, but imagine the storytelling that could happen if you got two superheros who have insta-healing (let's say for random example, Deadpool or Wolverine), who are so used to the casual trauma of being brutally attacked and attacking without reservation that they lose track of what's normal on any level, and they wind up attacking someone who doesn't heal like that with that same unreserved feral energy, and once the knife is buried in their victim's stomach and their head is bashed in after two seconds of violence, they realize they went way too hard and this person is HELLA dead

Or just thinking about the mental trauma and instability that would come with your body receiving so many death blows, and the pain followed by instant recovery, so that they don't have the same barriers between life and death. After all this time they can't really remember what's an acceptable level of violence to do because they've been so thoroughly desensitized, that the idea of violence being a bad thing, or even an intense thing isn't inherent to them anymore. What kind of behaviors would follow that? Would they lash out at others or themselves at random stimulus, because those pathways have been overwritten so many times? Would they do casual self-harm when trying to think, because it feels the same to them as drumming our fingers does to us? What about the approach to hurting other people, do they care if someone else dies, or are they overly aware of how fragile other people's bodies are?

Anyways, much to shrimp about...

[cherubsaliaa]

i hate it when people who hurt me complain that i hurt them back.

if u hurt me first stfu. stop complaining that i did something that made u upset in response.

how could we avoid this? by simply not saying shit that could sting. ^^

ure not a victim lmao. stop acting like i destroyed ur life, it was already in shambles. i geniuenly have no respect for u