#rosepinkspecks.txt

[rosepinkspecks]

she said: 'honey, he's shorter than you. think about it, you would never wear heels.'

and all i could do was shrug, because such things could never distract me from liking Him.

although i wish they would.

although i wish all i cared about was His height.

but all i care about is His heart.

so i just shrugged.

- i know you were trying to comfort me, but it's not just a silly crush, Mum

01.05.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

how come we both have brown eyes but i found it so much easier to fall in love with Yours?

[rosepinkspecks]

 i dreamt i let you break my heart once again. 

i dreamt you were good for me this time. you let some sunshine into my day, made me smile warmly and say kind things about you. in my dream i had no idea you would always let me down.

thank god i woke up.

- you were the worst choice in my life, and i make a lot of bad choices

12.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

from all of human feelings, i think Hope is my favourite. She's the only one that sees me and You together. leaving any other feelings behind, it's almost like We are real.

- if only Your Hope would see it the way mine does

11.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

all this time You’ve seemed like a dream. my memoirs are fuzzy, blurry and full of stardust. are You real? i can bet, the moment i would hold Your hand, You’d be gone forever.

- You’re my little shining star and i can’t catch You

10.05.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

since my sweet childhood days came to an end, never have i been able to imagine running to somebody with open arms and a smiling face. now, not only do i run to You with my arms open, but my heart is open for You, too.

- You are my little shining star

12.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

all of the softest and purest words I have ever written were about You.

[rosepinkspecks]

i wish You could stay with me. You are my safe space and i wish i didn't have to leave it.

- but i have to and it hurts

11.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

i adore many humans; some of them mean a lot, some mean something, some a bit less. 

i love and like only You; and You mean everything to me.

- and nights like this I feel it stronger

29.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

i wish i could see You just this one more last time. just one more, i promise, and then i'll vanish. but the worst thing is, i always long for this ‘one last time’ and in the end it’s never enough. sooner or later i always end up wishing for one more ‘last time’ 

- today i wish for another last time

10.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

everything about You feels soft.

i want to touch Your hair, Your skin;

Your Soul

-  i wish for just one, meaningful touch

29.04.2019

[rosepinkspecks]

i made this awkward myself and can blame only myself - when i was supposed to say ‘hello’ when i saw You, i just kept my head down, hoping You won’t see me blushing.