#room 93 & badlands bitch for life

[shea-like-the-butter]

Saturday, October 26th 2024

Wash me in the water

You can cut off all my hair

And I’ll be changing like the weather

But I’ll never be like him

[2beloved2feelanything]

Room 93 (era 2013-14) could be influenced by prior time as well

Ashley was heavily involved in drugs during this time, building on her reckless image. This could be one of the most manic episodes she had ever had. Homeless and alone, she turned to drugs and the love of her siblings to really get her through.  

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I'm a wandress I'm a one night stand Don't belong to no city Don't belong to no man

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Ashley is passionate in everything she does, and that also means most of her interactions are passionate. I picture this plot being a one night stand that really connected two people on a spiritual level, creative partners in their lives as well as friends.  The flirtation-ship still could linger, but in the end Ashley just really respects and cares for this person

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Let's cause a little trouble Oh, you make me feel so weak I bet you kiss your knuckles Right before they touch my cheek

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Ashley is known for getting herself in shit situations-this means that she was involved in a very toxic relationship while working on her EP. Since no one likes to play the bad guy, this plot is open for interpretation. If you want to play the toxic ex, please be my guest but I’m also looking for someone to play the role of someone she found solace in. A protector in this dark situation.

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Badlands 2016

During this time Ashley was caught up in a world wind of fame. Although friendly, she was dealing with her own personal struggles. Sexual assault, miscarriage and endometriosis. The people in her life during this time are her ride or dies. Her homes.

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I like the sad eyes, bad guys

Mouth full of white lies

Kiss me in the corridor

But quick to tell me goodbye.

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Every girl has fallen for a commitment phobe, I think that having an unrequited love is always fun. She would tragically love your character, and your character would be like “Sry cant.” We could make this plot as straight forward or sad as you want

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If you lied between my hips in the backseat And I imagine the tears in your eyes The very first night I'll sleep without you And when it happens I'll be miles away

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Ride or die? Yes. Bestfriends? Yes. Secret lovers? Probably?

This is that person that’s your person, and even though you share soft intimacy, best friends comes first.

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I'm crying, "They're coming for me" And I tried to hold these secrets inside me My mind's like a deadly disease

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Ride or die that knows all Ashley’s secrets, their absolute best friend. Someone she’s almost a little codependent on.

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Everybody wants to know If we fucked on the bathroom sink How your hands felt in my hair If we were high on amphetamines

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I honestly think this might be my favorite Halsey song so I had to include it-I would love this to be a raw love affair in the middle of her drug relapse

Hopeless Fountain Kingdom

This was a vulnerable time for Ashley, and she’s still going through it as she struggles to find not only her own sobriety but manage her BPD and endometritis.  

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Alone out in Saint-Tropez Lookin' as fine as a damn Monet Tryna hydrate on Perrier Everybody thirsty, drinks on me

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Give my bitch a sugar baby, she’s owning her bad bitch-ness and she wants some cuties to spoil

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I run away when things are good And never really understood The way you laid your eyes on me In ways that no one ever could And so it seems I broke your heart

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This would be Ashley’s “what if” someone she was madly in love with and pushed away, someone she always gravitates back too. Someone that Hopeless was also written about. Something about their situation always keeps them at arm’s length, but the genuinely love each other.

[25thjuly]

Questions Part 1 (26/01/2018)

angel; favorite album of all time?

Halsey’s Badlands & Room 93. Post Malone’s Stoney. Lil Soda Boi’s From Me, with Love. The 1975′s ILIWYS. Lana Del Rey’s Born To Die (paradise edition). 

honey; are you a very affectionate person?

God no, i hate people touching me. I can only hug other people and even then its awkward and uncomfortable. I only like hugs from one person when i’m sad because i know a bitch comforting me. Other than that, don’t touch me, don’t look at me either.

moonlight;  do you enjoy museums?

Yeah lol, the last time i went was when i was 16 though. I didn’t go to college because i was having a breakdown about Allison Argent’s Death. There was obviously other things in the mix but that was what hurt me, still does to be honest. We went to the one in town and they thought my brother was my dad. There was a name in the book that said Nigel with no explanation so we came up with a theory that it was a ghost. It was a fun day, but now i remember how sad i was, so im sad now. 

roses;  what does love feel like to you? describe it!

Love feels.. sad in a way. Not in a all the time way, because that’s not really love. But you’re sad to be away from them, you feel down at the thought of losing them, but you don’t believe they’ll hurt you. If you think they will, either go to therapy because that’s not healthy, or leave the relationship if its just that person. Whatever, i’m sidetracked, but basically it makes you feel warm. Like you know how the sun feels when you’re in your back garden and its summer, and the sun is setting. Its like that, but in your heart. It feels like how happy i am, when i see the moon. It feels safe, it feels good. You just know when it hits and you’re so happy and you just smile thinking about them you know!? I’m probably not making sense but i know what i mean.

shimmer; zodiac sign?

I’m a Leo but that will never really change. I feel like i’m lowkey cancer though if i could choose. Or at least i’m a Cancer-Leo cusp. Not that astrology is real but idk its fun to read sometimes. I did a buzzfeed quiz about which sign is your soulmate? and i got Capricorn. I feel like that is accurate though. I think i’m meant to end up with either a Capricorn, or an Aries.

princess; have you ever been to disneyland? if so, favorite ride?

I haven’t, no. I used to want to go once when i was a kid because i saw an advert for it. My family never really went on vacations, and if we did it would be in the country. We couldn’t really afford it. It makes me sad to say that because my family are wonderful, though i may not always get on with them, i do love them. When i say it makes me sad i mean that I wish we could’ve travelled but we were too poor. People talk about their family vacations with such pride and i never got to do that, and it felt like i missed out, and when i told them my family and I don’t go on vacations, they always looked at me in pity. It made me feel bad about myself, like why couldn’t i go, what did i do wrong? why was my family seen as less because we don’t have money? Being poor as a kid does shit to you. No-one ever really talks about it but its sad. My family didn’t have it bad or anything, we lived in a okay town, in a nice, but old, neighbourhood. We were lucky in the sense that we had a home and that we had each other. But growing up i was always scared of being homeless and starving. I see the way people treat the homeless and it breaks my heart. My dad would always treat me with food, and cheap clothes as i was growing up. I don’t know whether it’s a i want you to have what i never had growing up, or if it was a you’re my only daughter and i want to spoil you, or it was a you’re being bullied at school and if i buy you a bag of haribos, maybe it wont hurt you thing. (It did hurt me by the way).

cherry; have you ever been to a psychic?

I haven’t and i can’t say i ever will. I did write a script about this fake psychic when i was like 17, it was really political and was about cultural appropriation and systematic racism. My teacher was political also and we had the same-ish views, so i knew she’d read it and enjoy it.I was really political when i was 16-18. I got tired of constant debates. It’s draining after a while. I think i was really into politics because i was trying to figure out my sexuality, and it helped to know there was a whole community of lesbians/bisexual women who were passionate and caring so i merged myself in them. But back to psychics, i don’t really think their is psychics. I mean i remember this post i read on tumblr when i was like 12 or some shit and it was talking about how we’ve lived life before, but when we die, we meet god, and we live another life. Basically every human on earth, is the same soul, but obviously with different opinions/backstories. It blew my mind and i still think about it to this day. What i’m trying to say is you know when we get deja vu? it’s like that but we know the memory that were going through again, because we saw it as a different person in that situation. it probably is dumb and as far as incorrect as possible, but its a fun theory about life i guess.

magic; favorite film?

My favourite film would be Golden Compass. I saw it when i was like 8 and i was obsessed. The main girl, Lyra, was 12 and i was (looking back) in love with her. No doubt. Her and Pam the ferret i think it was, were who i wanted to be (and be with). i saw it with my parents and i got it on dvd. I had a little compass toy that i loved so much and i’m still sad that i got rid of it. We (me and my parents) did this test online, about what is your daemon, which is like this little animal that lives with you, and you’re soul connected i believe, and whatever pain each other feels, you both feel it. I remember getting a spider, and it ran across the screen and i wet myself (not literally) i was terrified i hate them so much. Never did that quiz again.

starlight;  have you ever written a love letter?

I have i guess? I used to write letters to my first girlfriend because she lived far away and idk it was cute to me. I love getting letters that people have wrote. I wont tell anyone that but i really do. I want someone i love to write me one deep down. However, i would say i have, i used to write her stories as well. they were about her being a princess, and it was quite cute, probably not good writing at all though.

velvet; do you enjoy horror films?

Yes! dear god yes! I was obsessed with them you have no idea. Right, so when i was 17 for my first project in my class i was writing a horror movie script, blah blah blah, i watched horror movies for research (that’s how kind my teacher was) and i couldn’t stop. I was watching one a day at least and it was so good. Even the bad ones were entertaining. I stopped after a while though because i was really paranoid someone was following me, and every time i walked around a corner/opened a door, i braced myself for there to be a murderer standing their, ready to kill me. That’s i think when i knew it wasn’t good for me. Can’t tell when anything else is though.