#ripping my hair out and eating my entire left arm rn

[haitanirindo]

i know they're literally the main characters but the season 3 ED is so aggressively takemai coded

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[laurfilijames]

Talk You Out Of It

Pairing: Fili x female reader

Words: 4708

Warnings: 18 + Rated E. Explicit content. Oral sex (M/F receiving), M/F intercourse, unprotected sex. Slight asphyxiation. Blindfold used during sex.

Summary: You and your irresistible husband Fili are meant to be getting ready to attend a royal feast, but manage to talk each other out of going. Basically p*rn with a smidge of plot.

A/N: I still flush every time I read this over. Please indulge in this delicious filth that I can’t seem to stop writing. I’m sorry it’s so long.

Editing/Beta courtesy of the wonderful @guardianofrivendell 💚

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You didn’t really want to go to the feast, but as the wife of the Heir to the Throne of Erebor there was a very high level of obligation.

The day had wearied you, full of duties and tasks that had left you uninterested and you just didn’t have the energy to endure the raucous of dwarves and make niceties with- well, anyone if you were honest.

It was a big event, an engagement announcement for one of the Princes from the Iron Hills, and you knew it would be loud and exhausting. You were typically always keen to attend a celebratory feast, being able to eat and drink to your heart's content, dancing and laughing with your closest friends, but tonight you didn’t feel up to it.

Letting out an exasperated sigh, you wished more than anything that you could stay locked away in the comforts of your chambers with your husband.

You greedily eyed Fili through the mirror attached to the vanity in front of you as he walked out of the bathing room, his skin and hair still wet from his bath.

Gods, was he ever a sight for sore eyes.

Your thighs instinctively squeezed together and you tucked your lower lip in your teeth in an attempt to compose yourself, but to no avail. Fili was naked and practically parading around your chambers, searching for items of clothing to don for the evening's festivities.

Focus, Y/N.

You looked back at your reflection as you continued to weave intricate braids throughout your hair, knowing your attendance was mandatory tonight so you needed to continue making yourself look presentable. There would be no getting out of this without repercussions, that much you were certain of.

Reaching for another bead to clasp around the section you had just finished intertwining, you smiled when you noticed it was your courting bead; the one-of-a-kind piece that Fili had engraved himself with his signet for you. But even thinking of the wonderful night Fili had presented it to you and commenced your courtship wasn’t enough to hold your concentration.

You couldn’t help but allow your eyes to drift over to where he stood beside the bed, hands on his hips, making a decision between two formal robes.

His gleaming eyes met yours in the mirror and you flushed all over at acquiring the attention of your half-naked husband.

He smirked at you and made his way over to where you sat, trousers now covering his legs but unlaced, revealing coarse, dark blond hair and barely containing his large member.

Oh. This was not helping your case.

Drops of water remained on his skin, not having dried yet, highlighting the hair on his chest and adding to his overall appeal.

“Do you think the blue or green one would go best with your gown, Amrâlimê?” Fili asked, now standing behind you.

He rested his hands on your shoulders, firm but gentle, and you closed your eyes as the contact instantly increased the tension growing in you.

“Y/N?” he prompted, and you opened your eyes to see him smiling at you in the mirror.

“The green one,” you finally answered in a low tone.

His dimples deepened as his smile widened, which didn’t help with your not wanting to go to the party.

You tried to convince yourself that it would turn into one of those situations where as much as you didn’t want to attend, you would end up having the best time. With Fili by your side, you were guaranteed to be happy regardless, but all you wanted was for him to tear this fussy dress off of you and become tangled up together in your bed.

“You seem distracted, my love,” he cooed beside your ear, causing your breath to hitch and you cursed him. He knew exactly what he was doing.

“You’re distracting me from getting ready, Fili,” you chided, needing him to create some space between you or you would never be able to finish getting ready in time.

He planted a whisper-soft kiss on the space between your neck and shoulder, looking at you in the mirror through hooded lids as he did.

You could not be held responsible for what happened next if he continued on like this.

But, as he usually did, Fili proceeded to place his lips on you, covering every available spot of your skin that was exposed to him. It seemed he could never get his fill of you, not that you minded.

“Fili, we’ll be late,” you pleaded, although a bit unconvincingly.

“Then we’ll be late,” he pressed his hot lips against the spot just behind your ear and you were done for.

Now his arms were around your waist, his hands trailing across the detailed embroidery stitched on the material and you longed for there to be nothing between your skin and his anymore. Again, your eyes closed and you allowed your head to fall back against his thick torso, getting lost in the sensation of his hands dancing over you. One moved up to palm over your breast, brushing your nipple through the fabric and extracting a breathy moan from you.

Fili needed to either stop what he was doing immediately, or call the night off altogether because there was no way you would be able to sit politely through dinner being as worked up as you were now.

Tempting as it was to blurt out your wishes of abandoning your plans, you would let him decide, allowing him to be the one responsible for causing any drama that would ensue from you and Fili missing the event. You knew Thorin would be livid and Fili would have to spend the next couple of days trying to make it up to his uncle, but you could sense it would all be worth it. The tension that hung in the air between you and Fili was so charged, hinting at what could be, and you couldn’t deny yourselves the right to find out all that was possible.

As anxious as you were for a verdict, you weren’t about to interrupt your husband who was planting kisses across your upper back where you hadn’t yet fastened the buttons of your gown.

“Are you going to do those up for me?” you asked, your voice heavy with lust.

Fili looked at you in the mirror with his lips still lingering on your skin and ever so slightly shook his head ‘no’.

A shiver coursed through your entire body and more desire flourished in your stomach.

Mahal, you were putty in his hands and so easy to submit to his touch.

You felt his absence immediately when he stepped away from you, straightening himself and rubbing his hand over his face, trying to make up his mind whether he was going to force you both to finish getting ready or abandon the idea of leaving your chambers completely.

Remaining seated, you proceeded to work at your hair, trying your best not to let your mind wander to the salacious thoughts that kept persisting for your attention.

But that was easier said than done.

Fili’s strong torso was perfectly in your eyesight and you couldn’t help but stare, taking in the creases on his stomach and especially the growing bulge in his trousers. You knew he wanted to give in to this temptation as much as you did and you couldn’t help but slightly influence his choice by draping your hair to one side and slowly trail your hand down your neck and chest.

Catching Fili looking, you stood from the bench and leaned forward, reaching for nothing in particular, giving him a view of your breasts down the top of your dress through the mirror.

Fili all but hissed, making you turn around to look at him, his chest heaving and expression hungry.

“What’s the matter, Fili?” you asked as innocently as possible.

He took a hold of your waist and moved you against the wall, your back colliding with the cold stone that caused your breath to leave you and a mischievous smile to cross your lips.

His lips crashed into yours, rough and demanding, the urgency matching that of his hands. They groped at your body, tugging and pulling at the dress that kept you hidden from him. The gown was new, but at this point you didn’t care if he ripped it to shreds.

Fili pulled your bottom lip in his teeth and stepped away from you again, only this time with a growl, still having an internal battle with himself of whether to stay in or not.

“We need to go to this dinner,” he said out loud, but more to himself.

You were left yearning against the wall as you watched him pace in front of you for a few steps, still weighing his options.

He had been dreading the evening as well, admitting to you earlier that he didn’t even like the couple who was to be married. It wasn’t as though you were shrugging off the actual wedding ceremony, this was simply an engagement party and there would be more important functions to attend in the future, so what was the harm in missing this one?

“Yes, we need to go or Thorin will have my head,” he continued, but still not entirely convinced. You remained quiet, thinking how you weren’t going to be the one to talk him out of it despite how much you wanted to.

It was almost as though the threat of aggravating Thorin humoured him and he looked at you with a naughty smirk, taking in your disheveled state. The neckline of your dress had fallen to rest just above your breasts and you stood there ready and waiting at your husband’s mercy.

Fili couldn’t resist you any longer. The sight of you like that alone was enough to sway his decision and he lunged at you, taking your mouth in his with a bruising kiss and grinding himself up against you.

“We’re not going,” he declared between kisses, making you smile against his lips.

Guilt filled you for a brief moment at breaking your commitments, but it was fleeting, the sensation of Fili’s teeth pulling at your earlobe replacing that remorse with wanton need.

In no time your dress was left discarded on the floor, nothing standing between you and Fili aside from his trousers that were only being held up by his erection.

One of your legs rested in the crook of his arm as you proceeded fondling each other, Fili grinding hard against your mound and your hands tangled in his unbraided hair.

His mouth traveled down your neck at a delightfully slow pace, savouring every bit of you until he landed on your breasts. His tongue flicked against your nipples, sucking and pulling them taut in his mouth as he alternated his attention between the two.

Fili was determined to provide you with every intense form of pleasure he was capable of, that much was clear already.

He continued to rub against you in a slow rhythm, his cock still straining painfully against his pants in an attempt to break through, while his hand trailed up your body and rested on your neck. Fili gave gentle squeezes to the sides of your throat with his thick fingers as his mouth returned to yours, swallowing your moans.

Within moments you felt consumed by ecstasy and knew you were about to give each other unbounded pleasure for the rest of the night.

You moved your hands from his wild hair down to his chest, carding your fingers through the abundance of curls that decorated him and it made you even happier that his body wasn’t currently being covered by stifling robes. Just as you began to venture lower, Fili took hold of your wrists and pinned them over your head, holding them firmly against the wall.

“Fili, I want to touch you,” you growled out of frustration.

“Patience, Amrâlimê, we have all night,” he told you in an unwavering tone.

A fresh wave of wetness pooled between your legs at his words and your body relaxed into the restraint he still had on your wrists. You supposed you could wait for a little while.

Fili’s exploration of your body continued, enjoying the taste of your skin with his tongue and feasting on you with gentle nips from his teeth.

Then he finally rewarded your patience by reaching between your legs, sliding his fingers against your slick folds. The contact made you shudder, and you knew Fili was appreciative of your desire for him by the way he huffed a grunting breath and dragged his teeth across your collarbone.

Two fingers slipped into your heat, pumping in and out of you at a careful pace before pressing onto your clit with his thumb.

You wrapped your leg tighter around his waist, pulling him closer to you as he continued to work you with his fingers, the angle allowing you to match his thrusts with your hips and ride against his hand. His other hand released the hold on your wrists to allow your arms to fall onto his shoulders, and you gripped them for support.

Though as good as this felt, you were eager for more. You desperately wanted to touch Fili, to put your hands and mouth on every inch of his body and make him feel as incredible as he was making you feel right now. Unwrapping your trembling leg from his body and standing on your own, you hooked your thumbs in the waist of his trousers and began to tug at them, anxious to gain access to what they were concealing.

Fili reluctantly removed his fingers from inside you, stopping only to assist you in freeing him from the binding laces that were failing at keeping his manhood contained. He impatiently yanked them down, his cock springing out and slapping his lower abdomen, bouncing up and down from the momentum of his hurried actions.

The sight made your mouth water and caused that familiar weighted ache to pull deep in your center.

You dropped to your knees and splayed your hands across his wide thighs, allowing your fingers to admire the defined muscles chiseled into his flesh. Your lips followed the path of your hands, landing in every notch and indentation that were formed from years of bravery on the battlefield and brute labour in the forges. Roaming your hands over to his backside, you squeezed his ample, yet firm cheeks while your lips remained on the sharply cut line that separated his leg from his groin. Each time your mouth threatened to make contact near his throbbing shaft it twitched in anticipation, causing the corners of your mouth to turn upwards in amusement.

Mahal certainly broke the mold when creating this dwarf and you couldn’t help but take your time in worshiping his body. You were going to go as slow as Fili would allow, but judging by his ragged breaths and grunts each time you made contact with his skin, it wouldn’t be for very long.

You grazed your lips along his length, the heat from his swollen flesh radiating onto them and making you eager to swallow him, but you proceeded to tease him, having your mouth land on him with peppering kisses but never taking him in.

Once you decided it was enough torment, you placed your lips on his smooth crown and flicked your tongue over the leaking hole, enjoying the saltiness of his precum.

Fili bucked into you harshly when you finally allowed him access to more of your mouth and you gladly took the full size of him, the tip of your nose now buried in the dense patch of coarse hair on his lower belly.

When you weren’t able to handle having him consistently press against the back of your throat, you recruited your hand to fist around his girthy base, pumping in time with your sucking. The combination had Fili moaning above you and his hands weakly combing through your hair, his hips slowly rolling with your movements and completely lost in a daze.

You could have done this all day, tasting him and inhaling his musky scent, but Fili soon interrupted you.

He tipped your chin up with his finger for you to look at him, watching your innocent eyes stare at him while your mouth hid and revealed his member as you bobbed back and forth, the sight quickly turning his relaxed manner into frantic lust. A look flashed in his eyes that you couldn’t quite place, something along the lines of playfulness and intrigue, and it made your stomach tighten in anticipation.

A strand of silk ribbon remained in your hair, having placed it there earlier to help hold the sections you hadn’t been braiding out of the way, and that was what Fili was regarding curiously. He took hold of the fabric and pulled, untying it with a wicked grin on his face. He ran the silky material through his fingers, and a darkness replaced the spirited look in his eyes that had been there moments before, causing you to falter slightly with your lips still wrapped around him.

Then everything was dark.

Fili tied the sash around your eyes, robbing you of sight temporarily.

More excitement flowed through you and you felt your abundant arousal drip down your leg as you remained kneeling on the floor, your tongue continuing to roll over his swollen tip.

A chuckle rumbled through Fili, having taken notice of your readied state, the sound even more clear to you than usual with one of your senses taken from you.

“Stand up, Amrâlimê,” he requested, helping guide you to your feet. Your legs felt shaky from how stimulated you were and you gripped his arms tightly, appreciating the strength in them and feeling the veins that weaved under the skin on his forearms.

You could still sense his presence near you, but it was difficult to tell exactly where he stood, having removed your hands from him and leaving you standing on your own. A shuddered breath left you when you suddenly felt his hand trace across your hip, slowly sliding up your waist.

“Shh, it’s okay Y/N, I’m right here,” he said against your ear, making goosebumps erupt across your skin.

Now his lips were on you, kissing over your shoulder, and even though they had been there earlier the addition of the blindfold made every touch from them feel all the more intense. The hair on his chest tickled your back and his cock brushed against your bum, feeling achingly hard from your previous attention.

“Fili…” you breathed out, appreciating every moment of heightened touch from your One. You felt his hands move lower, clutching both sides of your upper thighs as he knelt down to you, ready to give his own worship.

The sound of his breath seemed louder to you, coming in ragged pants, an indication at how excited he was to reciprocate the pleasure you had given him.

It was difficult to know what to do with yourself, standing slightly awkwardly and unable to reach any part of Fili with him on his knees behind you. But after a moment he gave you guidance, instructing you to bend forward slightly and press your hands against the wall in front of you.

His tone was rough when he gave his direction, and you shivered again, your body even more responsive to his voice with the absence of sight.

“I think you’re enjoying being blindfolded, Y/N,” he pointed out, and you could tell he was smiling.

You attempted a response but it came out as a cry when you felt Fili’s face meet with your core, his nose spreading your cheeks open to access your heat. His tongue slid between your folds and licked at you hungrily while he brought a hand around to your front to toy with your pulsing bud.

The uneven stone on the wall bit back at your fingertips as you clawed down it’s surface, desperate for something to ground you.

Agonizing pleasure ran through you as Fili probed his warm tongue into you, every pass of it feeling harsh but exquisite, and you no longer had control over the sounds spilling from your mouth or the convulsions of your body.

“Is this w-what you’re going to say we were doing when you explain to your uncle why we weren’t there tonight?” you panted out as Fili’s tongue drilled deeper into your heat.

He gave a muffled laugh that vibrated through you in response, but never paused in his mission. He dug his fingers into your flesh, giving a tight squeeze to your bum with the hand that wasn’t pressing circles on your clit, seeming to grow more ravenous the longer he dined on you.

Fili increased his pace knowing you were close to the edge, determined to make you come apart around his mouth. The sensation of his beard scratching over your most sensitive area combined with the smooth lapping of his tongue and the pressure of his nose on the taught area between your two holes had you shattering within seconds. Tremors vibrated through you and you pushed back harder into his face, riding out your accelerated high. Fili drank at your essence as it flowed from you, his moans of satisfaction drowned out by your unrestrained cries.

You opened your eyes when you landed from your peak, only to have your vision still compromised by the sash you had forgotten about in those moments of intensity. A dizzying sensation washed over you, feeling unable to get your bearings, but Fili was there to support you, standing and gripping your body in a reassuring way.

“Are you well, Y/N?” he asked huskily. You followed the sound of his voice as he moved to stand in front of you, it being the only thing to steady you, your body feeling weak and dazed from your orgasm and lack of sight.

You nodded as a reply, still working on catching your breath, knowing Fili would be watching for a response.

“Good,” he stated, attaching his lips to yours quickly and forcefully, catching you by surprise. “Because I’m not done with you yet,” he added when he parted from you momentarily.

Teeth and lips crashed together as your tongues sought to taste each other, your desperation building rapidly. You moaned into Fili’s mouth, relishing in the feel of his rigid shaft pressing against your tingling bud.

Fili growled, the sudden noise startling you slightly, but adding to your amusement. It was an act to restrain himself and you knew he couldn’t hold back anymore. You could feel his excitement radiating off of him, his skin almost vibrating as your hand grazed over his belly.

With a strength that would always amaze you, Fili lifted you and tossed your body onto the bed, the act making you laugh as you settled into the plush furs. Tucking your lip in your teeth and feeling your husband crawl over top of you, you imagined the level of ferocity that was about to be unleashed.

He settled himself between your spread legs, taking in the sight of you before him. The silk still covering your eyes, a bold smile breaking across your face, your chest rising and falling heavily with anticipation, and your wet core, primed and ready for him to plunge into.

No warning was given before he impaled you in one swift motion, his size filling and stretching you completely, your cries echoing through your chambers once more.

His need emanated through to you and your hips met his with hard thrusts, the sound of your bodies slapping against each other loud in your ears. Your hands clawed at his shoulders and back as you brought yourself closer to his body, not needing to see to know exactly where he was on you with his form engraved in your memory.

Desperate to taste him again, you found his lips with yours and he stole the breath straight from your lungs with every press to your mouth.

Fili had you so close to the edge again, your walls squeezing him tight with every push, a signal of your imminent release.

Fili gripped onto your hips and pulled out of you almost completely, looking down to see his member disappear again as he slammed back into you.

“Mahal, you should see how good you look taking me like this,” he grunted out, sounding feral.

He repeated the process multiple times, enjoying watching your folds slide over him, revealing and then encasing him again as he pumped in and out of you, fuelling your lust and a bit of frustration that you also weren’t able to enjoy the view.

Although your body was being jostled against the bed, the covering over your eyes remained securely in place, the elimination of sight allowing you to still feel every contact even more than usual.

A gasp left you as Fili pulled your hips up off the bed and further onto his lap, spreading you wider and reaching even further inside so his tip was now bombarding your deepest spot with every blow. Your fingers tore into his thighs that were supporting beneath your own, craving your next release. His mouth covered yours, wet and rough, the beads in his moustache tapping against your chin with his movements.

You could imagine what he looked like now, his face dripping with sweat, his brows furrowed and the most intense gaze from his blue eyes burning into you with his efforts. As much as you were enjoying the benefits of the blindfold, you couldn’t help but feel robbed of seeing your husband in all his glory of providing you flawless ecstasy.

Fili was ready to take his fall with you, the evidence clear in the loose moans coming from him and the sloppy kisses that landed across your chest. The sounds he made pushed you to your second climax, knowing he was fully indulging in everything you offered him and completely intoxicated by you. He drove into you with one last hard push, twitching against your walls as he filled you with his thick seed, the feeling of his hot spend and friction on your clit igniting another orgasm more intense than the first.

Fili collapsed over your torso, his skin sweaty against yours and body exhausted, trying to catch his breath as you both recovered from your peaks. Still remaining inside you, he carefully pulled the silk ribbon away from your eyes, revealing the soft illumination of your room to you again.

You blinked slowly as you adjusted to the glowing light, smiling as Fili came into focus above you, his blue eyes shining and dimples set deep in his cheeks. You reached your hands up to cup his face and kissed him lovingly, lost in the after-effects of your passionate endeavour.

Although you could never forget his face, you missed being able to see it even for that brief amount of time.

You continued to take him in, running the tips of your fingers over the lines on his face, stopping to press into the crease on his left cheek. It made him smile bigger at you and you automatically matched his grin.

“What are you thinking, Y/N?” he asked inquisitively.

“How this was far better than going to the feast,” you giggled.

Fili hummed in response as he rested his head on your chest and you wrapped your arms around him, stroking his hair and back languidly.

“Aren’t you glad I talked us out of going?” Fili asked, teasingly.

“I don’t think neither of us needed much convincing, my love,” you cooed to him, feeling his laugh rumble through you.

“Now to deal with the wrath of Thorin,” you added.

He sighed loudly against your chest, “Don’t remind me, Y/N.”

“I promise to make it all worth it.”

Fili turned his head to look at you and you flashed him a smile and a wink, letting him know you wouldn’t be having an early night despite staying home from the festivities.

[11thstreetgirl]

Summary: PWP. Sami’s horny when he gets off stage… (Sami Yaffa x reader)

AN: soooo this is what my wine-infused brain comes up with. It’s pure p*rn. Detailed, unashamed p*rn. Be warned. 50+ Sami on stage playing fast songs will be the death of me (yup it’s Monroes-era Sami in this case) one day. I’m sorry it’s not gender neutral :( Enjoy!

He was always the most beautiful right after he came off stage. Skin glistening with sweat, strands of hair glued to his face and neck, smiling ear to ear, a slightly drunken happy haze in his eyes and  his whole being buzzing. The nights I was there he usually came straight to me, hugged me tightly and smothered me with wet, furious kisses that tasted like wine and happiness. And he was horny. He'd never admit it but I think it was the bass trembling against his lower parts all night. Today was no exception. The guys were having a blast on stage, laughing and goofing around. I stood at the side of the stage admiring them at their work, and it was bloody marvelous to watch. Bobby the roadie was pouring out shots again, god knows how many they had already had. By the look Sami gave me when he scurried over to shoot the vodka down it was many.

Rich kicked his guitar into the next song. This was my favourite part on the setlist: Got Blood and Black Ties And Red Tape back-to-back. Two fast, filthy songs with heavy bass duty. They got Sami sweating and concentrating more on what he was doing. He stood with his legs wide apart in a low stance that accented his thighs just the way I liked. He leaned back to get better control over the instrument and hunched over a little. He looked animalistic and wild and so ridiculously hot my heart skipped a beat. The man didn’t need to do anything more to get me dripping wet. He was making rough love to his bass. Not that he ever was too gentle with his instrument, but tonight he was giving it even harder time than usually and the front row girls were definitely swooning over him. On nights like this it did wonders to his ego and got him to put his everything into what he was doing. His whole body was one with the rhythm, moving almost involuntarily with the sounds, like something that wasn’t a human anymore but rather made out of noise entirely. The way he was putting all of his weight into hitting the strings did things to me. I loved the way the muscles on his arms moved and how strong and skilled his fingers were. Whenever he wasn’t making faces and laughing at his bandmates he had his eyes closed in almost a pained expression. It came pretty close to being as hot as the way he looked when he was orgasming. He definitely was enjoying himself. It was rough and hard and I was probably expecting the same treatment later. The thought send shivers all over my body and made hot lust settle at the pit of my stomach. I badly wanted to sneak near his amp and run my fingers on it, feel the rumble physically, the low-end knock-out groove that he was pouring his heart and hunger into. Hell, I wanted to strap my whole body against it and cling onto it like it was a giant vibrator. I would've laughed at the thought if I wasn’t getting too hot and bothered to think straight. Thank God the band was just an encore away from getting off stage. Bobby poured another four shots. The guys waltzed over like the owners of the world, smiling like maniacs. Michael and Steve immediately threw their sweaty shirts off and dry ones on. The guitar feedback screeching onstage went quiet as roadies hurried to tune the instruments. The audience was going wild. Sami scooped me into a quick, sweaty hug. He grabbed my face and crashed his lips on mine into a hot, open-mouthed knee-dipping kiss. It lasted only for a few seconds but left me panting and desperate. Before I got my mind straight Sami was out of my reach and laughing with his bandmates. The black-haired blur of happy musicians shouted something incoherent, clinked their glasses together and shot down the alcohol. With Michael’s lead they ran back onstage.

I watched as they reveled around. Sweaty, hungry, they had given their everything to the audience tonight. Breathing heavy and smiling ear to ear they bowed, and bowed again, and kicked their mics and left their guitars lying on the stage, feedback screeching and filling the air with the applause and screams from the audience. It was a party as soon as the band got off stage. The laughter, all the wine, all the sweaty clothes. I knew this was how things were, it took them a while to calm down and to be able to pay attention to the real world around them. But Sami definitely was paying attention to me. They were still going through the gig together but he’d steal a look at me every now and then. When he was filling his glass he’d wink at me and give me grin that made me shudder. It was like in the beginning all over again, and it made me just to get more exited. I knew the others wouldn’t mind but still sharing such looks secretly made my heart pound faster. Sami’s half-closed eyes followed me wherever I sat and chatted with someone. I noticed him trying to cover his front discreetly.

It felt like eternity. Every now and then he’d walk past me and run his hands over mine or hug me, but always he’s go back to the conversation he was having with someone. I was getting impatient when he finally came to me.

-Let's get out of here, Sami murmured into my ear. Hell yes, finally. He put his hand at the small of my back and gently pushed me towards the door. We stepped outside into the chilly Helsinki night. Sami gave me quick kiss. I was starving for more. He scrambled through his pockets for his phone and called us a taxi. He was visibly drunk; not wasted but mischievous and he had a one-sided grin on his face. And my god he was horny. He tried to be discreet when he hugged me and grinded against me but no way in hell I’d miss it. I wanted to moan and take him right there in the middle of the street. Thank god it was a hometown show so we could just take a taxi and be back home in some twenty minutes.

Sami had a hard time keeping his hands to himself. Not that mine were in my own lap either. His hand was dangerously high on my thigh, fingers massaging the flesh underneath the fabric. He had his face buried in my hair and his breathing was ragged and hot in my ear. Occasionally he kissed my neck and my face. I didn’t ever dare to look at him because I feared we’d devour each other on the spot. Constant small shivers were running on my body. In my mind I was trying to will the driver to run a few red lights.

I felt like a teenager as we almost ran to our apartment. I fiddled with the key for what felt like an eternity as Sami had his arms around me in a tight hug and was breathing hard onto my neck. I could smell the alcohol and the desire and it was making my vision blurred. I fucking adored the man.

Finally the door opened and we stumbled in. Sami wasn’t all smiles anymore but so so horny he probably wasn’t thinking at all. Seeing him like that made me lose my mind. He ripped my jacket off and then his, dropping them on the floor. I kicked my shoes off and so did he, and as soon as all the extra clothes were out of the way he crashed his body against mine. In an instant his mouth was on mine and the kiss had nothing to do with being gentle or considerate. It was bruising and wet and made my brain numb. His hands were already under my shirt on my hips and he was pushing me towards the bedroom. There was so much going on it was a total sensory overload of pleasure. I gave into him. He could do just about anything to me tonight and I’d just follow his lead.

He usually wasn’t this raw but more soft and sensitive, making it slow and sensual. But especially after banger shows like tonight he got a lot more rough. He just couldn’t stand the pressure anymore. And every time it made me putty in his hands. The way he looked at me like he wanted to eat me alive and the way he pushed all of his weight onto me got me crazy.

I was whimpering and moaning into his mouth and he eagerly swallowed all our noise. He was moaning low and i more felt than heard it. We finally reached the bed and before pushing me down Sami tugged my shirt off. He stood there for a second, panting, my lipstick all over his face and hair tangled. I lied on the bed perched on my elbows. I wanted to sit back up and undo his belt and pants but I knew he’d got the job done faster. So I just stared at him as he hurried his clothes off. His shirt and the vest he had on it seemed to have an infinite number of buttons and his hands were shaking a little. All the while he was staring at me with his eyes half closed. Finally the shirt was off and his torso bare. I licked every inch of it with my gaze. As he moved his hands to his belt I got out of my trance just enough to shimmy out of my pants. With them I threw my socks and panties on the floor.  Sami got his belt off and a second later was standing there in all of his naked glory. He didn’t waste time in savoring the moment but dived right in. He pushed my legs apart and buried his face between them. He gave me a long, slow lick before taking my clit between his lips and sucking. Air escaped my lungs in a strained moan and I could feel Sami smiling against me. He pulled off just for a second to suck on his finger before pushing it in, not that he really needed any lubricant as I was probably dripping on his fingers by now. The movement of his hand and his tongue were quickly making me a writhing mess under him. I was surprised he even had the patience for this right now. I sure as hell didn’t. On any other night I would’ve enjoyed his worship until the world ended, but tonight I was way too eager to get him inside me.

- Sami please… I got out of my mouth in between the moans. - Just fuck me already!

He moaned against me, the sound a physical tremble making me buck my hips. He gave one last lick to my clit, then got up.

- Turn around.

His voice was hoarse and his hands guided my movements. I got on all fours as he got on his knees on the bed. I pushed my ass up for him to get a better look and turned just enough to see his face as his eyes fluttered almost closed and a appreciative groan escaped him. He gave my ass a playful slap before reaching his hands around me and pulling me up against his body. He rubbed his cock on my ass and moaned. One of his hands was caressing my boob and the other slipped between my legs. I was glad he was holding me upright, I was still sensitive from all the licking. His touch was surprisingly soft as he rubbed my clit for a moment. I moaned impatiently, I was just as desperate as he was. He gave a quick kiss to my neck before murmuring:

- Mind if I get a little rough and carried away?

All I could muster was a shaky no as his finger was drawing circles on my clit. Sami groaned and removed his fingers. An involuntary sound of disapproval escaped me but was overrun with a loud moan as Sami pushed inside me with one long movement. He let out a breathy moan that sounded like he’d been holding it in all nigh. He dint give me even a second to adjust as he pulled back and pushed right back in. He set a slow but intense rhythm that left me breathless. He held his hand on my lower stomach and I angled myself so that he probably could feel himself moving inside me as I pushed my ass into his lap. He was panting and groaning and all the sounds were driving me crazy. He was holding back but I wasn’t having it. I was so far gone I just wanted him to fuck me as hard and rough as he had played his bass earlier, so I wiggled my ass on his lap every time he was deep inside me, trying my very best to make him snap. Not that I wasn’t enjoying his deep, long thrusts that I could almost feel in my throat. He was melting my brain with each movement and my little teasing wasn’t only driving him mad but me too. 

And it payed off. Sami groaned, a frustrated animalistic sound, and pushed me forward so that I was back on all fours. Yes yes yes yes. He took a bruising grip on my hips and started pounding into me with such force I knew I'd be walking funny for days. Just like I wanted it. I tried to push back to meet him with every thrust but it was getting too much too fast and I was overrun with the feeling of him so deep inside me. It made my vision blurred and hands weak.

I turned to look at him over my shoulder and the sight of him almost made me cum right away. He had the same pained expression on his face as earlier, sweat making his skin glisten, hands leaving marks on my hips. The sound of our bodies slamming together filled the room with his moaning and grunting, and I doubted he was even aware he was making so much noise. It just drove me closer to the edge. He was close too without a doubt. My mind was a blank, all there was left in the world was him slamming into me, filling me again and again, sending tsunamis of pleasure all over my body. As much as I wanted this to last forever I was desperate to cum. I reached between my legs and rubbed my clit feverishly. Sami knew I was about to come and somehow picked up his pace. It was all it took and I came, violently shaking and moaning his name. My hands gave away and I collapsed on the bed. Sami lost his rhythm and pulled my hips to his, swearing under his breath as his hips bucked and he filled me. I could feel his warm cum inside me as he fell next to me.

We lied there gasping for air. Sami was dizzy and sweaty and oh-so-beautiful so I cuddled closer, ignoring the fact that we were still pretty much steaming and probably on the verge of a heatstroke. Our bedroom smelled like sex and love and my man was a mess. He could barely hold his eyes open.

- I know you know how to make me cum so hard I see stars but this was something else, I murmured against his skin. He chuckled, a tired, strained sound.

- Thank you for letting me blow off some steam. I wasn’t too rough was I? His voice was hoarse and he was still panting.

- Anytime babe, if you blowing off steam is this good. I don’t mind rough.

- Well we do have a couple of gigs next weekend….

AN: no taglist this time because ...well p*rn lol

[harryandhishook]

Wings are made to Fly Chapter 1

Pairing: Not fully sure yet, just gonna see how it goes (Maybe Evie? Don’t know yet)

Setting: The Isle of the Lost, Auradon

Warning: Swearing, Graphic stuff, sad Harry, hurting Harry, blood

Summary: Everyone knows what type of person they are, Fairy, Goblin, Dragon or just a simple person and Harry thinks he’s just a simple guy but the more he comes into contact with Auradon and magic, the more the people around him notice something off and maybe Auradon is the only place with answers

Words: 3064

Requested: Nope, me and my Fiance were roleplaying this and I thought it would be awesome to make it into a Fanfic

Side note: Just so people who read this are aware, I made Chapter 1 and 2 several months ago and I’m only just getting back to it so it may take some time to finish however I am making it my mission to finish it ... hopefully, open to suggestions as to what should happen in the fanfic also, HMU and suggest, University is killing me RN

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The Isle of the lost; a place with no magic, no fun and no good. Everyone knew about the types of creatures you got there: dark mermaids, dark fairies, goblins, witches, monsters and even a couple of evil animals, it wasn’t hard to tell who was who or who came from where but sometimes, very rarely, some people always took the Island by surprise with who they really were. Unfortunately, it wasn’t possible to actually use the abilities like it was in Auradon.

Most of the time, the children of the Isle would gain the traits from the parents once they were born but there have been a few people who have shown what they were later on in years and one person who never showed anything, a person who everyone thought would never be anything but a young strapping boy, someone by the name of Harry Hook.

The young Hook boy had always suffered from severe back pain, It always seemed like nothing, just normal pains. His shoulder blades were the main problem- no one knew except his family and Uma, his Father thought it was just from him constantly going off to fight on that ship of his, and never actually tried to help him. His sisters, even if they would never admit it, would always drag him to their rooms, demanding him to take off his shirt so they could try and give him some sort of relief, usually with quite rough massages… but at least they tried. Then there was Uma. She was the sweetest one of them all; she was always the one to keep a close eye on him. Whenever he would feel a twinge, she was by his side, her hand on his shoulder blade, slowly rubbing her thumb against the muscles there. It wouldn’t always be the most helpful thing but nevertheless, it was always accepted, and today was no different.

The wind was blowing quite violently on the ship, making the air around them chillier than normal but it didn’t stop the pirates from training, they knew if they were to leave, they would need to know every little bit of knowledge to guide them through the harsh oceans. The water below rocked the boat as it crashed into the wooden structure; the noise it created was almost deafening as the crew threw blows at each other. Harry cautiously walked around, keeping the recruits in line, not taking any bullshit from anyone- this was his job and he would keep up all the little reputations he had made on this ship; nothing would change that.

The cold air crept up the young pirates back, he felt the slow growing pain rise from the little dimples, all the way up to his blades. This was something he felt on a regular basis and something he could easily hide. With a deep breath Harry continued, his bandana wrapped tightly around his dark brown locks as the wind pushed through it. He knew it wouldn’t take long before Uma noticed but for now, the commotion around him was enough to distract the growing pain he felt.

The captain stood above everyone, her normally free flowing hair now wrapped in a tight bun underneath her hat as she watched everything with a sharp eye. The faint sound of clinking swords broke through the noise of the rushing wind around her. She didn’t stop her gaze until the hint of red caught her eye. She turned to watch her first hand walk through the mess of the crew, her face stayed strong but on the inside she couldn’t help but feel the high amount of worry for the pirate below; the wind was too strong and the cold was enough to sting the tips of her fingers. She felt her heart ache as she worried for her friend but she knew he was strong; she knew he wouldn’t want her to worry but deep down, she would.

Without any warning, the wind picked up quickly, the sudden breeze knocking a few people over as the ship rocked harshly in the docks. It didn’t take long before everyone knew they needed to leave the ship and get to the shop for safety. Harry didn’t waste a minute as he ran closer to where Uma stood, gripping onto the frame of ship so she didn’t fly off the side and into the murky water below. He knew he needed to get everyone off the ship before disaster happened.

“UMA! WE NEED TO GET EVERYONE OUT OF HERE NO-AH” Harry shouted before he felt the searing pain in his back take over his entire body, making him fall to his knees as he wrapped his arms tightly around himself. He yelled out as the pain grew worse; this was different than before, it was never as bad as how it felt now but he couldn’t place it, he couldn’t think of any explanation. He tried to think but everything went blurry, his head creating more pain as the pirate tried to get up- but there was no energy in his body anymore. Harry’s leg slipped from under him, causing him to fall against the deck, his body slamming against the wet wooden floor, the pain overwhelming him now. His body shook as he tried to move, unable to hear anything despite everyone shouting his name; all he could hear was a sharp piercing noise, it was all that was ringing in his head, and the last thing he saw was a blur of blue getting larger before his vision went black and he was out.

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Distant whispers, that’s all that could be heard… at least, it sounded distant, or maybe they were just being quiet … no, the voices were getting louder and louder, not whispers anymore. Eventually, the voices weren’t so quiet anymore as Harry groaned and slowly opened his eyes as much as physically possible for him, the light too much for him to take in as he winced, turning his head as much as he could away from it.

It took the Pirate a while before he finally regained enough consciousness to try and move, his eyes could partially open and he could move his head but it was taking him a lot longer to move different parts of his body. He could hear a soft voice calling his name, it sounded so far away but so close at the same time. A hand slowly pressed against his head, running their soft digits through his now uncovered hair, giving him the reassurance that he wasn’t alone.

Finally, Harry pried open his eyes, everything still blurry, just a group of colours surrounding him. His head felt like someone was hitting it repeatedly with a hammer, the sudden feeling of nausea hitting him as he focused. Everything became ever so slowly clearer to him, he knew he was in a room but … it wasn’t Uma’s or his.

Harry groaned a little louder as he tried to take in his surroundings, his Captain’s face fuzzy in front of him, her eyes filled with worry as she stroked his hair softly. The boy smiled weakly, knowing Uma was with him, to look after him…but that still didn’t explain where he was.

Eventually, Harry turned his head to the other side, looking out into the open space of the room only to spot a tall pirate stood on the other side. It was hard to see who they were until they spoke, obviously not to him since their back was completely turned away,

“I’ve never seen him like this before, he’s always been able to handle it, there must be something wrong” the voice said, it was a female voice, slightly higher pitched than most but whose? “Have you seen anything that’s happened apart from the wind?” the owner of the voice turned, her features becoming clearer. Then it hit him: they were with Harriet, the only other person who actually cared about him enough to help,

“The only thing I can think is the weather, nothing else happened, it could have been anything … although … no, it wouldn’t have been that, couldn’t be, magic can’t get through.” This time it was Uma’s voice. Harry tried his hardest to keep his concentration on anything but himself. The pain started again causing him to whimper, gripping the ripped up bed sheet beneath him. This only made the two girls grow more concerned as they rushed to try and calm him, Harriet placing a damp cloth against his head as she directed her question once again to Uma,

“Whatever it is, it might help us figure this out. Please Uma, tell me what’s going on, did anything happen like this before?” she asked, worry laced in her voice as she subtly pleaded for Uma to help her. Uma sighed as she watched Harry try his hardest to keep calm,

“It wasn’t this bad but … a while ago … a few times, I’ve had to force him to take the day off, get some rest, sleep, eat, take a relaxing bath, anything” she took a small pause before finally finding her voice to speak, “The first time it happened was when Carlos blew a hole in the dome. It wasn’t too bad, just some bad twinges, then when Mal and her crew left and when another hole was blown into the barrier, after that, nothing for almost six months until Mal came back, it started again., I lost count how many times it happened but it just kept going, throughout the few days they were all back … you don’t think it has anything to do with magic leaking in … do you?” Uma asked, confused, the pieces fitting together a little as she watched Harry take deep breathes, his eyebrows knitting together, obviously trying his hardest to fight the pain,

“It could but there isn’t anyway to check, we can’t just walk over to Auradon and ask … unless … you guys go to Auradon prep, it sounds stupid since it’s all snobs and good guys but maybe you can find out what’s wrong, maybe, just maybe, it could make Harry better” Harriet admitted, as much as she hated it, maybe Auradon was a good thing for once.

After a while of the girls talking, Harry finally conjured up enough energy to slowly sit up, groaning as he did. Everything seemed back to normal, well, except for the pain at least. The red clad pirate glanced towards the teal haired girl, giving her a small smile as he sat there for a moment, breathing softly, keeping himself calm before he finally spoke. His voice was a little hoarse but still audible,

“Normally I wouldn’t admit this myself … but Harriet has a point. They have magic, they can help, whatever this pain is, it feels like something inside wants out and I can’t live with it anymore, it’s too much,” he said, moving slowly to dangle his legs off the side of the bed. He had nothing left here, what’s the harm in trying.

As if on cue, three men wearing almost blindingly bright uniforms opened the door, marching into the room and standing smartly in front of them, causing all three villain kids to stare in confusion and disgust; too much colour, too much … good. Finally, the man in front stepped forward, speaking as if he was addressing someone higher than him,

“Mr. Harry Hook, we represent His Majesty, King Ben of Auradon, we are here to invite you on personal demand by the King to attend Auradon, you, the Daughter of Ursula and the Son of Gaston” the man reached out his arm, handing the pirate a scroll wrapped in ribbon and held together with the royal seal. Slowly, the dark haired boy took it in his own hands, snapping the seal as he went to read it, only to be interrupted by his sister,

“I swear, these people are spying on us, how the hell did they know we were all in here?” she asked, making Harry almost drop the scroll, his hand covering his mouth as he tried to suppress the laugh that was coming. The young pirate playfully glared at his sister as he slowly opened the letter, reading it aloud,

“Harry, Uma and Gil … or whoever read this first, I want to invite all three of you to Auradon prep, blah blah blah, boring stuff … I believe that all three of you could make a difference and well, it’s getting a little boring over here, but don’t tell anyone I said th…. I probably shouldn’t have said that bit out loud” Harry finished, looking up at the men who were still in front of him, waiting for an answer. The Pirate boy looked to Uma, maybe going wasn’t a good idea, they probably wouldn’t be able to help and he knew Uma always knew what to do but when all Uma did was give him a small push to answer yes, he realized there was no way out of it.

Harry sighed as he turned his gaze to the ground, contemplating with himself what was actually best for him. His Captain and his sister both agreed, it was the best for him right now; he couldn’t believe he was going to do this. The young pirate raised his head, sitting up as straight as he possibly could to give off his normal demeanour when he answered,

“Alright, we’ll go. But don’t expect us to be the goody two shoes you want us to be though.” He smirked, trying to joke like his old self, slowly pushing himself from the bed to stand in front of them. He was ready to take their instruction but his body still had different plans. Once his legs were firmly on the ground, a shooting pain ran through his body, causing him to scream out in agony and fall, everyone in the room jumping to catch him. One of the men had managed to grab him in their arms before he hit the hard ground and was now sat himself, his arms wrapped around Harry as the boy leaned against him, panting and groaning in pain. Uma jumped to action and grabbed her hat.

“I’ll be back soon, we’re leaving immediately, I’ll gather as many things as we need.” And with that, she was gone out of the door. Harry laid there shaking, sweat rolling down his forehead as he gripped onto the guards’ arm.

“What’s wrong with him?” One of the men asked, concern easily recognizable in his voice as they all watched the scene before them. The young pirate was about to answer for himself but a loud hiss of pain broke through his teeth instead, causing Harriet to come to the rescue.

“Please, help him, we don’t know what’s happened! It’s been getting worse and worse and it has something to do with magic, I know it, help him and make him better … please, I can’t lose my brother.” She pleaded as she took one of Harrys hands in hers, trying her best not to break down in front of everyone. She decided to tell everyone everything she knew, hoping they would understand. She relayed everything Harry and Uma had told her, everything she had seen growing up, no detail left out as the men listened.

It didn’t take long before Uma came back with bags filled with clothing and Gil, all the while Harry had once again sat up on his own, his breathing still a little ragged but he was stable enough to leave. Two of the men helped Uma take the bags and load them into the awaiting car while the third Guard and Harriet carefully picked Harry up from the floor, making sure to keep any and/or all weight off his feet. A few moments later, they finally had the car sat up and Harry carefully sat in the back with Gil, Uma and the Guard who had caught him. Harry had learnt his name was Maximus, or Max for short, but the young pirate made it clear that he didn’t care, even though he would easily admit that it calmed him down learning it.

With one last look outside the window, giving Harriet a small wave, the car set off forward, on request of Max, slow and steady. The world passed by, their old home was trailing away behind them as they drew closer and closer to the bridge. Max reassured them that it would all be okay. Only, it wasn’t; it was about to get much worse.

The car crossed the beginning of the bridge.

The button was pressed.

The Barrier opened.

An ear-piercing scream of agony filled the back of the car as Harry lurched forward to the floor, curling into a ball as he clawed at the carpet, everyone’s eyes widening as they watched the Son of Hook’s eyes glisten with tears and loud sobs escape his throat. Max slipped to the floor and pulled Harry onto him, gripping him as close as he could to try and calm him but nothing was working as the pirate clawed at his uniform.

“Help me take his coat off now.” Max ordered as he grabbed hold of one of the sleeves, trying his hardest to pull it off of Harry. Uma jumped into action immediately and held Harry’s arm as steady as she possibly could.

The coat finally came off, with difficulty, but it was off and in Uma’s hands; but it wasn’t the only thing there. The young Sea Witch stared in shock at her now blood covered hands, his coat was dripping with it. All eyes moved up to stare at the white shirt covering Harry that was now stained pure red, blood trailing down to the floor as if something was ripping him open. Uma watched as her friend took one last look at her, speaking in soft, scared whimpers,

“H-Help me…” it was barely audible but they just caught it as they watched Harry’s eyes roll back into his head, his body going limp in Max’s arms and his breathing stopped. The hand that was gripping onto Max fell down, hitting the blood stained floor below them.

Maybe going to Auradon was a bad idea.

[psi-psina]

05/09 Niigata LOTS

SE 詩踏み 咀嚼

蜷局 腐海 理由

New song (zankoku ?) New song (omae) 輪郭 THE BLOSSOMING BEELZEBUB

Ranunculus 人間を被る Punk song (GO MAD) Ash Revelation of mankind

EN 鼓動 The inferno THE IIID EMPIRE Beautiful Dirt 羅刹国

Same as yesterday, I wrote this last night before passing out after eating 3 fish taco’s and 3 glasses of red wine so this may have effected my memory a bit but I hope it is somewhat readable :)

Today was absolute FIRE. The setlist yesterday was better (my fave) but the guys were WAY more into it today, especially Kyo. I am so shit at outfits and I am really sorry. Today I only remember Kyo and Die's because I was closer to kamite in front of Shinya today. (it was so nice!!!) Die wore the outfit from the album promo photoshoot, Kaoru was definitely not wearing his (full) photoshoot outfit and I don't think? Toshiya was either but I can't remember anything else, I am sorry. Kyo's outfit was fantastic, he wore a white sleeveless blouse and his black skinny jeans with the ripped knees and over that his giant alice auaa...suspenders? It’s a big rectangular skirt that he can put his arms through as well, they are fucking awesome and he made WAY better use of them than he did when he wore them in Osaka *__* He wore his rosette badge again, on the front of the suspenders. And he wore his headgear from mode of DSS, with a black hair extension down the right side of his face and his white contacts. He was also wearing his new mac lipstick & gloss combo. I'm not sure if he had his grill in but I think he did? Damn it looked so good! I'm not usually a big fan of headgear on Kyo because I really prefer to be able to see his expressions more freely but even though this gear covers most of his face it actually enhanced his expressions. It just really....suits him? He wears it really well, I love it.

The whole front section of the set was very atmospheric. Niigata's response to Soshaku wasn't quite as lusty as Osaka's was, but ahh people were moving so much during Toguro and just feeling it SO MUCH. BLISS. Fukai was a stand out tonight, I caught Die's eye near the start of it and we looked at each other briefly, I smiled at him and he smiled back <3 he's so lovely. Die got my attention during Fukai today, I'm sorry Kaoru (ILU). The Fukai mosh was also Bliss. Kyo got us to sing a LOT, he called on us in the first chorus and other parts of the song, he screamed for more and ripped his monitor out so he could hear us better and we GAVE IT TO HIM. ❤️ Riyuu got lots of movement as well today, and went down even better than yesterday. Then I think it was during this interlude that everyone was pretty quiet, and then Kaoru sidled up in front of shimote with that cocky swagger of his and there was this sudden ROAR for Kaoru from shimote which got everyone in the middle shouting for him as well 😂 Then Kyo came back to the front and tilted his head back in that demented snarl-grin he's doing lately and everyone roared at him. Then it was time for the new songs again and it was much the same as yesterday, I can't remember much because I was going crazy. >.< They are just too good.

Kyo made the fox 🤘 at the end of Rinkaku when he was calling the demon. Beelzebub was FANTASTIC today! The flatness of Kyo's mood yesterday had a big effect in Beelzebub, but today was completely different. He was a lot more intense. After he bundled up his cord-intestines and dropped them, he was looking down at them sullenly and kind of waved at them. He deeply growled 'kyou wa kono mama nemuri ni tsukitai' in this transfixing pose...it was fucking Amazing (it's really stuck in my memory) and again after 'ugoku kometsubu ni...' he was trying to stomp on some phantom creepy-crawlies again. He went to town on his mouth towards the end, he did not drool everywhere today but rather uh, deeply fingered his mouth and played with his tongue. He was brazenly eyeballing people up on his crate while doing this, he looked right at me and it was UNCOMFORTABLE.

The interlude between Beelzebub and Ranunculus was really...intense? Idk, legit, no one even moved, the place was so enchanted and thick with anticipation it was just...magic. Ranunculus was also more emotional today than it was yesterday, there was a fair bit of movement from the fans and Die was very passionate during the chorus. Then Ningen was up, oh man...Those moments of stillness as Ranunculus closes out and you are absolutely SODDEN with 5 million emotions and could literally just die and then those deep melancholy chords open up Ningen and Kyo steps forward and raises his hand and calls out and everyone calls back and you can FEEL THE INTAKE OF BREATH as the riff comes crashing in and then !!!!! AAAHHH!!!! IT IS BURNED INTO MY MEMORY!! I know a lot of people did not like Ningen but fuck it is so good live, it is SO emotional and the dynamics just COME ALIVE. I really like the sound of the studio ver but it is flawed, and in some ways hampers the song a bit.

The punk song came next and fans were GETTING DOWN, there was DANCING and so much jumping. God it was so much fun and I could see how satisfied Kyo and Toshiya were with the response. <3 Ash was MESSY. Kyo got us to sing excessively and spent a lot of time at the edge of the stage monitor-less which just makes everyone go crazy. The ending thrash was epic, someone behind me grabbed my shoulders and was going so hard they were shaking me (NO COMPLAINTS JUST GIVES ME MORE MOMENTUM). When the song ended they were kind enough to disentangle from my hair without pulling it 😂 Then Revelation oh my god. Revelation is a song I didn't enjoy at all right through 2015 but amazingly it has grown on me and I now enjoy it even though it is still too chaotic and dissonant and exhausting. It's so brutal as a set closer I kind of wish they would just open with it laskdjf. I best remember Kyo shrieking "NIIGATAAAAAA" and at some point someone getting their arm in my mouth asflkjs idk what happened but I definitely got like the sweat of 5 people in my mouth then. Gross. And lol at Kyo making us sing "michinaki michi o" like lkajnfl yes Kyo, stretch us to the very limits of your ridiculous vocal range. The ending thrash was, again, absolute filth and when I emerged all I could see was Kyo towering up there on his crate with this MALEVOLENT look on his face. He turned and left the stage and the other guys followed promptly.

The encore was BEYOND. Kaoru, Toshiya and Die all came out wearing the white goat tee with the sleeves cut, And Kyo changed into a plain black blouse and removed his headgear. I could see at the end he had red and black eye makeup on. Shinya was wearing the white tee with the patches all over it I think. Then Kodou just completely set everyone on fire. skjdnffa. Kyo pointed right at me during Kodou, what even. I clapped eyes with him and Die a few times tonight (it's just where I was) but he really took me by surprise ;_; at the first chorus of Kodou as he was walking around his crate to stand at the edge of the stage Kyo put a hand over his heart and lunged forward pointing right fuckin at me looking me in the god damn eyes as we sang 'KOE KOROSHITE ME O FUSAIDE' together. It was like being ATTACKED. Dazzling. Unbelievable. 😭 He stood right at the edge and ripped out his monitor and sang his heart out going mic-less here and there and looking at people HARD and screaming more more more. Kodou owns my entire soul.

I lost my damn mind again during The inferno, someone had grabbed hold of the back of my shirt and was using my back for support and fuckin growling and I was straight up just snarling and shaking my fist at Kyo every time I surfaced from thrashing. Kyo was having some trouble with his mic tonight (the sound was dropping out a fair bit) but during The inferno it completely died. He turned back to the sound guys gesturing at the dead mic then threw it down and turned back to the crowd and snarled at us without it, gesturing wildly and smacking himself and going down in a crouch and fans went NUTS. And a moment later one of the guys had restored his mic and after a tentative moment (he was shy of the mic for a moment as he tested to see if it was working....it was...Cute  lakjsnflgkadf) he was back in full force. All happened VERY quickly and by the end he looked WELL pleased.

My part of the crowd almost collapsed during IIID it was heaving and bouncing so much and the guys started going EVERYWHEREE. Idk if it was during IIID or Beautiful but Kaoru came over to stand right in front of us and the crazed snarls of "KAAAOOORRRUUUUU!!!!" and wordless howling actually made me LAUGH because he totally DEADPANNED us like "Ehh? Is that it??" Then he smirked and went further over to kamite. BITCH. (Eta, pretty sure it was Beautiful actually) Is2g i am lucky my shirt didn't get ripped during IIID because it was insane and Kyo kept shouting for more more more more until he got drowned out by the screaming. I got a bit of nausea/stomach pain briefly towards the end like whelp going a bit TOO hard rn. My throat and the right side of my ribcage/right shoulder blade feel bruised as hell idek what happened. Feels like I pulled the muscles.

Then straight into Beautiful Dirt which was just as fuckin relentless alkjsnf Kyo swooped over to shimote during the second verse and showered them with some attention because Kaoru was over in kamite quite a lot and Toshiya and Die had come to the centre. Even with Kyo right over on Kaoru's side everyone kept screaming "SAIKOU NO BARAADO O OKUROU" with no encouragement every time alskjnf. Had a great moment with Die, he was right in front of us at the very edge and he was looking at everyone with such affection. Such a warm expression and I couldn't help it I just went 'DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE' and flailed at him and was surely smiling like a fool and everyone around me was calling out to him as well and his face just GLOWED lALKJSNFA he smiled at us again and bowed and flipped his hair the way he does and then moved away ;3; Kaoru and Toshiya joined forces at some point, Kaoru lounged on the edge of the crate briefly. I don't know what Kyo was doing after he came back from shimote, it was the roughest part of the song and I was thrashing. I totally get why Kyo gets us to sing "saikou...." every damn time because it's BEYOND EXHAUSTING. He LOVES making us struggle ksdjgnklf.

Kyo's MC at the end was a lot more enthusiastic tonight, he called twice to the men and women, shouted without the mic and did the usual riles and pounded on his chest. He got shirtless for Rasetsukoku tonight and...yeah, it was crazy. I'm struggling to remember anything it was just solid thrashing and roaring from all involved and giving my all took every ounce of energy I had I HAD NOTHING LEFT FOR OBSerVATION. I can't actually remember how it ended or what Kyo or any of the guys were doing until the post concert gift-giving. I did see Kyo's new tattoo very clearly tonight though, it looks good! Kyo stayed back, which was nice. He showered fans with a couple of bottles of water and wiped off all his makeup onto a towel and threw that in. He then got the bucket of water and DUMPED the whole thing onto one guy on the rail in front of him and tossed the bucket in too. He crouched down and slapped hands with the fans on the rail as well <3 I heard him sing out 'bye bye!!' as he straightened up again and i love the way his face scrunches up with emotion as everyone sings bye bye and waves back to him. He left with a couple of fox kisses. <3

Kaoru and Die threw a lot more picks today and I FELT Die's pick in my fingers but it escaped me 😭 A girl behind me just kept screaming thank you thank you thank you all of them. ;__; Shinya and Kaoru were fucking adorable, Shinya came to the front after he threw all his drumsticks with the uchiwa and fanned us! It was! Adorable! Then he threw the uchiwa to the Kyo pit. Kaoru was eyeing him as he strutted around and after Shinya left he took his own uchiwa and fanned shimote with it and BLEW ON THE FANS lksdhfnl he is such! a dork! I love him oh my god. As Die finished up his gift-giving he stood just in front of us and just looked at us, his eyes looked really glassy at the end? I was like, did you cry?? And man he looked tired, and really emotional. But he was just looking at us and clapping and smiling and we started a chant for him and he just looked so....overwhelmed and thankful oh my god. Sweetheart. 😭Kaoru was the last to leave again and he kept stopping and lingering to get that last little bit out of us....GAH. Then we all wobbled out.

To cap this experience as I was going to cloak I stood near a little girl while fumbling for my ticket, who saw me and turned to me, absolutely THRIVING, and said ‘KONNICHIWA’ with the most beautiful smile on her face and I was just like alksjnfliaj OVERCOME and said “konnichiwa sweetheart!!” to her and she like...squealed and just stared at me and her mum was laughing. Her mum said hello to me as well ;3; Fans with kids are the absolute best. The little girl wasn’t wearing a tour shirt but she was proudly sporting the hanged-man muffler towel and was just LOVING LIFE skldjfn. I love her ;___;

Niigata...thank you for these memories. I will always treasure these nights. ❤️

[wlwhyuck]

💫🌟85 questions tag🌟🌙

i was tagged by @najaeminclub to do this, and even though ive already done this it was awhile ago and i thought i’d do it again for fun lol 

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last:

1. drink: water from my lovely hydroflask

2. phone call: my best friend last night i Love her

3. text message: “sippy sip bitch” to my fav cousin lol 

4. song you listened to: japan by famous dex

5. time you cried: uh last night nyoom

ever:

6. dated someone twice: nope

7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope

8. been cheated on: no

9. lost someone special: uh yeah

10. been depressed: yes 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no bc i can Control myself and plus im never just drunk so ive never gotten to the point of throwing up....and i have a like. fear of vomit/vomitting 

favorite colours:

12. black

13. red

14. blue

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends: yes omg

16. fallen out of love: out of lust ? mayhaps. love? no

17. laughed until you cried: every time my dumb ass laughs at dumb shit i cry

18. found out someone was talking about you: i love hearing abt ppl talking abt me and this isnt even sarcasm 

19. met someone who changed you: yes and im grateful

20. found out who your friends are: this first year of college/university/whatever has shown me a lot and im grateful

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: i havent been on fb in like 5 yrs

general:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: i never added ppl i didnt know irl

23. do you have any pets: no but i wish /:

24. do you want to change your name: used to want to change it from korin to korinne lol 

25. what did you do for your last birthday: dank ass korean food with my stupid friends that i love to death, threw a soft serve cone out a sun roof while on the freeway(not my proudest moment i dont usually litter ksjdfskljdf), and boba 

26. what time did you wake up today: like 8-thirty something

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching greys anatomy lol i got like 12 seasons to go before i catch up

28. what is something you can’t wait for: 88rising’s head in the clouds and honne in the same week! also im going to this super bougie kbbq place for my cousins bday w our friends soon we havent been in forever

29. what are you listening to right now: incidentally, head in the clouds by joji

30. when was the last time you saw your mom: like this morning before she left for work

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i have actually known zero toms my entire life

32. something that gets on your nerves: i work retail im sure you can imagine what gets on my nerves (customers)

33. most visited website: youtube and tumblr and ssense (bc i love torturing myself)

34. hair colour: black brown

35. long or short hair: its short rn !! but i miss my long hair too

36. do you have a crush on someone: @doysauce hey i have a crush on u 

37. what do you like about yourself: my knowledge of fashion and ive been told im a good listener and give good advice

38. want any piercings: i dont want any more tbh! i used to want industrials in both ears

39. blood type: i have. no idea

40. nicknames: korn flakes, cup o noodle, k, krin

41. relationship status: tengo una novia hehe

42. zodiac: capricorn

43. pronouns: she/her, they/them doesnt matter.. im agender/non-binary but its more a me thing than anything tbh !

44. fave tv shows: greys anatomy

45. tattoos: one on the outside of my wrist!

46. right handed or left handed: right

47. ever had surgery: no

48. piercings: just my ears!

49. sport: i dont Move.mp3

50. vacation: id love to go to japan, germany, russia, paris, korea

51. trainers: i have a pair of white a1s i wear almost everyday

more general:

52. eating: i’m eating canned peaches and i added ice bc. i hate warm fruit

53. drinking: water rn but i love oolong milk tea or matcha thai tea

54. i’m about to watch: greys anatomy S2E21

55. waiting for: my best friend to pick me up so we can go to the movies n eat n do dumb shit

56. want: fuckin air conditioning its so hot in my room bye

57. get married: perhaps one day but idk. my parents arent even married theyve just been together all these yrs

58. career: bithc a job in the fashion industry. in the digital editorial department of one of the following: ssense, dsm, grailed, dazed, nylon

which is better:

59. hugs or kisses: both uwu

60. lips or eyes: both

61. shorter or taller: taller 

62. older or younger: uh idk no one younger by like a yr or two lol

63. nice arms or stomach: i mean if its a Boy i love. arm girls i dont care bc theyre Perfect

64. hookup or relationship: relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant: 85% troublemaker 15% hesitant hehe

have you ever:

66. kissed a stranger: nah

67. drank hard liquor: strawberry sky yummmmm

68. lost glasses: yes every goddamn morning

69. turned someone down: uh yeah rip lol

70. sex on first date: if ur both down n consent then why not

71. broken someone’s heart: i don’t think so ?

72. had your heart broken: yes 

73. been arrested: no

74. cried when someone died: yes

75. fallen for a friend: big Yeah

do you believe in:

76. yourself: mostly

77. miracles: sometimes

78. love at first sight: no 

79. santa claus: no

80. kiss on first date: if you’re both down then why not tbh 

81. angels: her name is zyla

other:

82. best friend’s name: tirza 

83. eye colour: brown

84. fave movie: interstellar, dunkirk, ready player one, arrival

85. fave actor: i dont have a favorite actor rip

i am not tagging 20 ppl sjdskjd but i Am tagging newer mutuals! @officialrenjuns @1aphrodite @donghyonce @sitgma @4-am @huangfilms @yuckhi @1yangs @saphore @littleprincejeno @1eehyuck @nctchenle

[bound-forthestars]

tag game bc I’m a loser!!1!

tagged by: annnnn 💜

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

tagging: shit i know a whole two people on this site ((that’s what I get for being inactive and not acc putting effort into my blog rip)) but here we go: @0andthatsthat0 @thebroketraveller

last:

1. drink: water

2. phone call: my parents called me from upstairs bc they were to lazy to come to the basement to talk to me ((which is a Mood))

3. text message: annnnnn

4. song I listened to: sunset by kim donghan

5. time i cried: i nearly cried finishing dai does that count

6. dated someone twice: god I wish someone would date me at all man

7. kissed someone and regretted it: it was kindergarten. we were in daycare. I kissed him on the cheek.

8. been cheated on: can’t get cheated on if you don’t date anyone amiright

9. lost someone special: prob last year I guess

10. been depressed: bitch I literally am depressed

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: i gagged on champagne at New Years does that count

favorite colors:

12. pinkkk

13. orange I guess but like peachy pastel orange

14. yellow

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends: hell Yeah so many

16. fallen out of love: haven’t been in love so

17. laughed while you cried: multiple times

18. found out someone was talking abt you: yeeet definitely

19. met someone who changed you: not rly

20. found out who your friends are: oh def I nearly got surgery and was in the hospital and texted a group of my friends like “hey guess who’s in the hospital and missing term exams” and more than half of them left me on read rip and the rest of the year was downhill from there on

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends: no,,,

general:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know irl: no Facebook

23. do you have any pets: a dog

24. do you want to change your name: nope

25. what did you do for your last birthday: fuck I don’t even remember uhh idk

26. what time did you wake up today: ~11:30

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: writing

28. what is smth you can’t wait for: idk futures seeming pretty bleak rn

29. what are you listening to rn: night call by kim donghan

30. when was the last time you saw your mom: midnight

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i mean maybe one requested go follow my insta once

32. something that gets on your nerves: the fact that da4 doesn’t even have a release date yet smh

33. most visited website: on my phone it’s probably gamepress for fire emblem heroes tbh

34. hair colour: dark brown

35. long or short hair: longish

36. do you have a crush on someone: i have so many crushes but I would sooner die than talk abt them

37. what do you like abt yourself: my work ethic i guess

38. want any piercing: !!! I wanna get doubles and a helix this summer

39. blood type: idk

40. nicknames: jord i guess??

41. relationship status: super single

42. zodiac: Aries

43. pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv shows: b99 ofc and i rly like new girl and queer eye rn

45. tattoos: nah

46. right or left handed: rivht

47. ever had surgery: getting my wisdoms teeth out tomorrow :-)

48. piercings: used to have my ears pierced but they grew over

49. sport: MY ENTIRE LIFE IS LITERALLY BASKETBALL ((I play volleyball, badminton and some others too)

50. vacation: i hit up Jasper for a training camp awhile ago

51. trainers: ????

more general:

52. eating: ????

53. drinking: ???????

54. I’m about to watch: more queer eye probably

55. waiting for: someone to like me back it’s been 87 years

56. want: validation and attention

57. get married: one day hopefully

58. career: astrophysicist, astronaut, or maybe even a professional basketball player (unlikely but hey maybe I’ll take it to college or uni)

which is better

59. hugs or kisses: never been kissed but either is good thanks

60. lips or eyes: eyessss

61. shorter or taller: im assuming this is for an s.o so if it’s a dude definitely taller

62. older or younger: if this is dating too I guess slightly older but not weirdly older yknow

63. nice arms or stomach: don’t,,, make me choose ((arms tho))

64. hookup or relationship: relationship I guess??

65. troublemaker or hesitant: ???? what kinda choice is this

have you ever:

66. kissed a stranger: nope

67. drank hard liquor: small amounts ((it was nasty don’t recommend)

68. lost glasses: I don’t have them but if I did i would lose them

69. turned someone down: i rejected a marriage proposal in kindergarten

70. sex on a first date: never had either

71. broken someone’s heart: idk maybe that dude from kindergarten’s

72. had your heart broken: by myself

73. been arrested: nope

74. cried when someone died: who hasn’t???

75. fallen for a friend: not yet

do you believe in:

76. yourself: that dumb bitch?? lmaooo

77. miracles: i mean my little brothers alive so yeet

78. love at first sight: attraction?? definitely. love??? not likely.

79. santa clause: used to

80. kiss on first date: hell yeah 81. angels: who knows

other:

82. best friends name: annnnnn and tasha

83. eye colour: brown

84. fave movie: stand by me

85. fave actor: nic cage (“hey guys who’s my favorite actor??”)

[bergaruh]

Tagged by @wheezboys​ thank u so much??!!?

Rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last:

1. Drink - coffee 

2. Phone call - mac or my grandmother i dont know which 

3. Text message - my friend jesse!

4. Song you listened to - should have known better, sufjan stevens

5. Time you cried - i crushed my finger under the cream machine at work today and tears rose to my eyes unbidden 

Ever:

6. Dated someone twice? - ive never dated :(

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - ive kissed two people and hated both of them in the end 

8. Been cheated on - not technically 

9. Lost someone special - we all have at some point i think

10. Been depressed - i mean.....yeah

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - i will never throw up. i won't let myself im not even kidding

Fave colours:

12. red

13. purple

14. olive green

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends - no the last friend i made was tessa and that was over a year ago now!!!

16. Fallen out of love - platonically, yeah

17. Laughed until you cried - yeah there was this one post and i fukcnig died last night ask me for it im dying to laugh again jhfklghfdljkghd

18. Found out someone was talking about you - yesterday! 

19. Met someone who changed you - yeah, not great

20. Found out who your friends are - i dont have irl friends anymore so i guess thats a yes?

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list - no i blocked ****** and j*sse doesn't have social media

General:

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl - all but two that i met on tungle

23. Do you have any pets -technically no but my parents have a gorgeous boy named stinky (ask for pics and ye shall receive) 

24. Do you want to change your name - Most Desperately 

25. What did you do for your last birthday - i was at my friend jess’ and her mother found out ive never gotten a birthday cake and made me a cinnamon roll with a candle and i almost cried

26. What time did you wake up today - 06:15

27. What were you doing at midnight last night - trying to sleep

28. What is something you can’t wait for - friday i get trained for my executive position at my school!

30. What are you listening to right now - eugene, sufjan stevens (BEST SUFJAN SONG) 

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom - yeah!! we wrote music together! i wanted to uhhhhhhhhhhhh.... d*te him 

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves - all my impending deadlines :)

33. Most visited website - JSTOR

34. Hair colour - blonde but brown in some places

35. Long or short hair - long and thicc 

36. Do you have a crush on someone - kind of??? but i dont Know because th*mas really fuvked me up

37. What do you like about yourself - nothing much to like! 

38. Want any piercings? - i have Several and i think i want my next one to be on my nose somewhere

39. Blood type -  o negative

40. Nicknames - zak is technically a nickname since its short for zacharian but zak attack (tessa), sweet gee (myself but also tessa), geesus (mac)

41. Relationship status - single and gay

42. Zodiac - scorpio 

43. Pronouns - he/they 

44. Fave tv shows - x files, dirk gently, t**n w*lf (sorry god sorry mam), hannibal, the good place

45. Tattoos -two on my leg. a mourning band and karma police

46. Right or left handed - left but i can write faster with my right hand because my mother legit forced me to as a kid

47. Ever had surgery - again, Several, 

48. Piercings - i had my lip pierced but it got ripped out in a fight. my ears are pierced thrice on both sides and an industrial on the right

49. Sport - i was in a car accident that crushed the left side of my body so not anymore but i used to play soccer, rugby, and i figure skated 

50. Vacation - road trip around north america w my friends!

51. Trainers - as in shoes? i have some. 

More general:

52. Eating - im scared to eat rn because theres a stomach bug going around and my roommate had it yesterday and if i dont eat i won't be able to throw up so 

53. Drinking - i drink whiskey every day of my life. also coffee. and when im feeling healthy, tea. 

54. I’m about to watch - nothing im writing a research paper on commodus and nero

55. Waiting for - the day i finally best god in hand to hand combat

56. Want - to finish this essay

57. Get married - for sure! id love to be like “thats my husband!” and knock someone tf OUT

Which is better:

59. Hugs or kisses - not great w physical contact tbh

60. Lips or eyes - eyes

61. Shorter or taller - uuuuuuuh im 4′11″ so im gonna say....taller......

62. Older or younger - older im 20 so right now anyone younger is kinda weird for me

63. Nice arms or stomach - ARMS justin_bieber_i_love_arm.jpg

64. Hookup or relationship - relationship

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker i cause shit all the time 

Have you ever:

66. Kissed a stranger - not physically

67. Drank hard liquor - yeah moonshine is my bitch

68. Lost glasses - no i only had one pair throughout my entire life and then i switched to contacts and wore them way longer than ur supposed to because it was cheaper and now i Just Dont See

69. Turned someone down - yeah and it was awkward

70. Sex on first date - never dated so No

71. Broken someones heart - i think so but u know

72. Had your heart broken - oh yeah losing vogal felt like losing family

73. Been arrested - :)

74. Cried when someone died - mark

75. Fallen for a friend - jesse i guess but not really

Do you believe in:

76. Yourself - absolutely not im a bozo 

77. Miracles - no 

78. Love at first sight - no but i believe u were meant for some people?? like at first sight is a little soon but some people u meet and u Know i guess

79. Santa Claus - yeah!! its so uplifting to think he's real, christmas feels that much better if u do

80. Kiss on a first date - i wouldn't but you do you! if ur comfortable and u ask u can and should! 

81. Angels - i want to

Other:

82. Best friend’s name - tessa! stormy! begrudgingly mac... 

83. Eye colour - one is blue and one is green but if u weren't looking u wouldn't notice

84. Fave movie: rn pacrim is my Interest so we’ll say pacific rim

85. Fave actor- HUGH DANCY

Tagging: @unsolvedbfs @spoookystardust @ghoulign (even tho u already did it) and uuuuh anyone who wants to! the ppl i usually tag on main aren't in this fandom and i dont know many ppl 

[nylenol]

tagged by @dxlighted​, thank u!!

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 other blogs to answer as well. @youriko-is-my-jam @jhaskii @bearsketches @bingobanjo @radonodera @friskbitz @boy-o @nekekur @nyaalien @tsuru-yo @originalbookwormninja @scytherion @minichen123 @o-h-k-a-y @honking-honokas-honkers @teabeanssss @catonatrain @prxttypeach @featherpaws

1. Last drink: arizona tea

2. Last phone call: my mom xd

3. Last text message: “we need all the clubs to reply before i can make the flyer” (to my club president, we’re coordinating a multi-club event for school)

4. Last song you listened to: closer by tegan and sara, that song slaps

5. Time you cried: last friday over my grades lmao

6. Dated someone twice?: not even once r u kidding me

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? kiss whom!!! i dont have anyone 2 kiss and its a crime against humanity

8. Been cheated on? nope and i hope never

9. Lost someone special? ya

10. Been depressed? always B)

11. gotten drunk and thrown up? nobe

favorite colors

12. turquoise

13. pastel pink

14. neon colors in general

in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends? yes!!

16. Fallen out of love? lol

17. Laughed until you cried? yes multiple times

18. Found out someone was talking about you? yeah

19. Met someone who changed you? yeah? everyone i meet changes me a bit i think

20. Found out who your friends are?: i been knew i think

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: nah

general

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl? like 80% lol

23. Do you have any pets? nope :(

24. Do you want to change your name? no, it has a lot of significance 2 me

25. What did you do for your last birthday? School, got boba w/ friends, nothing much

26. What time did you wake up today? like 8 AM but i didnt drag myself outta bed till 10:30

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleebo uwu

28. What is something you cant wait for? April in general! have a school trip, district convention for one of my clubs, seeing a friend :)

30. What are you listening to right now? closer by tegan and sara again lol

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom? Ya

32. Something thats getting on your nerves? MYSELF im dumb af and have the work ethic of a rock and i need 2 change it within the next few weeks

33. Most visited website: Tumblr/Facebook r tied

34. Hair color: dirty blonde ? its brown in some places and blonde in others

35. Long or short hair: looooooooong its almost at my knees rn, probably gna cut it in summer

36. Do you have a crush on someone: as if i can read my own feelings! ha! you fool!

37. What do you like about yourself: im pretty weird but its not bad weird (so im told); it’s easy for me to talk to ppl and i stand out a lot

38. Want any piercings? yeah but im scared of them ripping xd happened to me once as a kid so now Never Again

39. Blood type: dunno

40. Nicknames: Sanders/Bernie, Sandro, Sondre, etc., any of my handles on social media 

41. Relationship status: emotionally unavailable lmao

42. Zodiac: emo pisces

43. Pronouns: She/her

44. fave tv shows: Love Live!, PMMM, Aoi Hana, etc., love live is my main hoe tho

45. Tattoos: not rn, but i wanna get something small on my ankle or something one day

46. Right or left handed: Right handed

47. Ever had surgery: pls no

48. Piercings: used to in my ears (asian baby earring piercings), one closed up tho

49. Sport: water polo/swim

50. Vacation: every few years to VN

51. Trainers: pokemon? yes

more general

52. Eating: just polished off an entire tray of blueberries in 10 mins

54. Im about to watch: new citrus ep

55. Waiting for: me to finish this so i can work on the 190274147236 things i gotta do (a welcome distraction tho)

56. Want: a gf! hit me w that gay shit financial stability

57. Get married: ya eventually

58. career: i wanna do concept art for gamez xd

which is better?

59. Hugs or kisses: both? but hugs preferred

60. Lips or eyes: eyes but also both

61. Shorter or taller: either is fine, same height is optimal

62. Older or younger: same age

63. Nice arms or stomach: nice bonus but neither required (i want 2 be ripped tho)

64. Hookup or relationship: relationship

65. Hesitant or troublemaker: im a huge troublemaker tbh

66. Kissed a stranger: no

67. Drank hard liquor: no

68. Lost glasses: no but i WILL once i get them made

69. Turned someone down: yeah

70. Sex on first date: nono

71. Broken someones heart: yeah

72. Had your heart broken: xd

73.Been arrested: no but the one time I thought i was gonna be i had a stroke almost

74. Cried when someone died: no

75. Fallen for a friend: :) ya

76. Yourself: very much so

77. Miracles: yes!

78. Love at first sight: i think it’s possible, in a sense

79. Santa claus: never really believed in him but that man did exist at some point

80. Kiss on a first date: depends on who?

81. Angels: pretty thought but no

other

82. Best friend’s name: benjamin he a thot

83. Eye colour: dark brown

84. Fave movies: the handmaiden is an all time fave

85. Fave actor: all the ll seiyuu! literal rays of sunshine

[grayson-dolans-dangly-earring]

It Started With A Treehouse (G.D.)

I havent written any Grayson smut in forever soooooo here take this garbage lmao

@scuteedolans @dangly-feather-earring-dolan @pinksnapbackbullshit

              Ethan, Grayson, and I had been inseparable for our entire lives. We grew up as neighbors, the twins ran into my backyard and climbed into my tree house scaring the hell out of me when we were five years old and the rest is pretty much history. Our parents became friends, we went on vacations together, we were babysat together, and we got along great so we basically grew up in each other’s pockets. As we got older the twins grew like weeds and bulked up quite a bit. There was no denying that they were handsome young men, I just wasn’t attracted to either of them. Or so I thought.

                As time went on, I realized a little part of me always loved Grayson a little bit more than Ethan. I always gave in to him, whether it be where we went to eat or what game we played. All he had to do was look up at me through the thick fringe of his eyelashes with those big hazel puppy dog eyes and my resolve would crumble in an instant. His face would split into a beautiful grin, flashing his brilliant white teeth, and I’d melt. Of course, to his face I would scoff and pretend to be irritated but I was never really upset. I don’t think I ever could be.

               It was late on Saturday night, and my phone rang with a text message.

*Group Chat*

G: hey sluts, movie night?

E: first off, rude. second, no.

Me: why not E? hot date tonight?! Lmaooooo

G: yeah right, Y/N. maybe with his left hand.

Me: EW

E: HEY LISTEN I COULD GET A DATE IF I WANTED ONE

G: suuuuuure ya could buddy.

E: I don’t see you on many dates dear brother so….

Me: OH SICK BURN BABY

G: you two are the worst

E: aww ya sad now?

Me: yeah gray, ya gonna cry?

G: fuck offfffff. Is anyone coming to watch this fucking movie with me or what????

E: I already said no, dingus. I’m sleeping at Aaron’s house tonight

G: so you DO have a hot date!

Me: don’t let things get too sexy tonight E!

E: you are both monsters.

Me: gray I’m in for a movie if you want. As long as its nothing that sucks.

G: do my choices ever suck?????

Me: um remember the 4th of july with the twizzlers and half a bottle of fireball???

G: I MEANT MY MOVIE CHOICES NOT MY LIFE CHOICES Y/N.

Me: mhmmmmmm

G: I came out to have a good time and im honestly feeling so attacked right now.

E: gray that was lame

Me: you are LITERALLY a living meme

G: yeah but you love me baby!

E: I don’t!

Me: yeah yeah whatever I’ll be over in 5

G: YAY!

               I put my phone in my pocket before I slipped my shoes on. I called out to my mother to let her know where I was going on my way out the door. I walked across the driveway and into the Dolan’s front yard. I didn’t bother knocking and I just walked inside. I knew everyone else was gone because the only car in the driveway was Grayson’s. That’s when reality hit. I was alone with him in this big house. Why the fuck was it so hard to breathe all of a sudden? I needed to relax and act normal. I could not let my minor crush come bubbling to the surface right this very second.

               “GRAYSON BAILEY DOLAN WHERE YOU AT?!” I shouted from the front hallway. “I’M IN HERE!” I heard him yell in response from the living room. I grinned and started running. When I hit the living room I dove over the arm of the couch and tackled Grayson onto the cushions. “Y/N what the hell girl?! Are you tryin to kill me?” He said while laughing. His laughter shook my body as I was still on top of him. “You know I like to make an entrance.” I said while climbing off of him. I flopped onto the couch next to him with my feet in his lap. “Go ahead G, fire it up!” He chuckled while pressing play on the remote.

               About an hour into the movie, I started to get tired and uncomfortable because of the way I was sitting. Grayson’s large hand wrapped around my ankle. Still staring at the screen, he said “Stop squirming.” My heartbeat quickened just a little and I let out a fake irritated sigh. He patted his thigh and said “Come on.” I smiled a little and rearranged myself so my head was resting in his lap. Grayson knew this was my favorite way to lay but he also knew I always fell asleep like this too. Sure enough he started stroking my hair and in a matter of minutes I was asleep.

               About an hour later I started to wake up but Grayson was still stroking my hair so I didn’t open my eyes. Call me selfish but it was soothing and I didn’t want him to stop. I cracked one eye open and his phone was close enough to my face that I could read his texts. Now I didn’t want to spy but teasing Gray was kinda my favorite thing and if there was something funny in his texts I could use against him, you can bet your ass I would. He was texting Ethan and the hand that wasn’t stroking my hair, was flying over his keyboard.  It took all of my strength not to shiver while reading his conversation.

G: e I need help

E: whats up bro?

G: im freaking out. Y/N’s head is in my lap

E: dude this isn’t new. she does that all the time

G: e you KNOW this is different. You know how I feel about her!

E: yeah and that’s why I went to Aarons! Man up!

G: I don’t know what to do! God damn it I want to touch her so bad

E: okay well don’t be weird about it. Just like touch her arm or something idk man!

G: ethan you have no idea what she does to me I cant fucking breathe rn

E: well im going to leave you to it FIGURE IT OUT BUD!

G: ETHAN NO

G: ETHAN I SWEAR TO GOD

G: FUCK

               He clicked the power button on his phone and threw it onto the other side of the couch, and his head dropped back, a sigh escaping his lips. Now that I knew he wanted me just as bad as I wanted him, I pulled the courage from inside of me and decided that I was going to make the move to go further. I pretended to still be asleep and I rolled over so my face was inches from his toned stomach. I could hear him gasp above me and I bit back a grin. I stretched out like a cat as his hand ran down my spine. I slowly dragged my hand over the growing bulge in Grayson’s jeans. A groan spilled from his lips and I could feel his body tense up. I slowly blinked my eyes open and grinned up at him. “Are you sure sweetheart? Because if we do this, you gotta be sure.” He asked quietly. I could see the hope shining in his eyes and a shy grin appeared on his face as I nodded.

               As soon as he had confirmation that I was okay with this, a fire ignited in his eyes and his hand traveled down between my thighs. He began rubbing small tight circles over my clit through my leggings. All reasonable thought flew out of my head at the feeling of his fingers on my most sensitive area. My hips bucked against his hand and moans spilled from my lips. “These need to come off.” Grayson said, pulling at my pants. I stood up and removed my leggings, feeling exposed. “C’mere baby.” He said, grabbing my hips and pulling me into his lap.

               Grayson tucked his head into my neck and nipped at the sensitive skin. My hips began to grind down onto his thick thigh and I couldn’t control my sighs as my clit rubbed against the denim of his jeans. At this point I was so turned on I couldn’t see straight. “Fuck baby. You like riding my thigh? Does that feel good?” Grayson growled, his hands guiding my hips back and forth on his leg. “Yes! Hngg-oh my god Grayson!” I whined out. One of his hands left my hip and snaked down to rub me through my panties. He pushed them to the side and sank 2 thick fingers into me. I gasped at the intrusion and he grinned me, knowing exactly what he was doing to me. I tipped my head down and sealed my lips with his. He pumped his fingers in and out of my dripping center and my mouth fell open. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and I could feel that heat coiling in my belly.

               Grayson withdrew his fingers from my pussy and brought them up to my mouth. I sucked his index finger into my mouth, wrapping my tongue around the thick digits. I looked into his eyes as I continued sucking and he let out a low hiss.

               “That’s it. Enough fucking around.” He growled as he flipped me onto my back. Grayson stood up and unbuckled his pants, yanking them down along with his boxers. He pushed my knees apart and settled between my thighs. “Please Grayson. I need you.” I whined, on the brink of tears. “Shh don’t cry baby. Daddy knows what you need.” He whispered, lining his length up with my entrance. He pushed into me slowly, giving me time to adjust to his size.

               Grayson pulled out almost all the way and slammed back in, an animalistic sound ripping out of my throat. He began thrusting into me at a near punishing pace and I couldn’t contain the sounds spilling from my lips. “Please Daddy! God you feel so good! I can’t hold on!” I screamed. “Yeah that’s right baby. Tell me how good you feel. Tell me how much you need my cock.” Grayson grunted into my ear, his warm breathe fanning over my heated skin. “Ugh-Gray you feel so good inside me. Your cock is the best I’ve ever had! I’m gonna come!” I whimpered in response.

               His hand gently tightened around my throat, beginning to cut off my air supply. He kept thrusting quickly, his face twisting and contorting as he chased his release. His hand kept tightening around my throat and the air was getting thinner and thinner. The lack of oxygen made my blood feel like it was boiling and my clit was throbbing. Just as my vision started to darken Grayson removed his hand and used it to rub my clit in tight circles as I sucked in a huge breath. The sudden intake of oxygen mixed with his touches threw me right over the edge as I exploded around him. “FUCK!” Grayson shouted into the empty room as my pussy continued to flutter around him. After another half dozen powerful thrusts he stilled inside me as his orgasm washed over him. After he spilled his seed inside me, he collapsed on top of me, his head on my chest.

               “Wow. Y/N do you know how I’ve wanted this? How long I’ve wanted you?” He whispered into my damp skin. I ran my fingers through his messy hair and whispered back “I’m guessing, as long as I’ve wanted you?” He was quiet before responding. “Y/N please don’t tell me this was a one time thing? I want you to be mine. Like, forever ya know?” Grayson said, lifting his head to look me in the eyes. I cradled his face in my hand. “I’ve been yours since you and your idiot brother stormed my treehouse when we were five years old Grayson Bailey Dolan. I’m not going anywhere.”

[voightsgirl]

tag game!

tagged by @chloeswans thank you my love 💛💛

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people (sorry i don’t have that many friends rip)

I tag: @writteninthestarsandthesky @chillmydude @riverdaleangels @sophiaxjesse @halsteadpd @e11evenseggos @caffeinatedkafreen @erinllindsays and yo anyone else if you see this and wanna join in i tag you

last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - my friend we were working on an english presentation

3. text message - i texted my friend to arrange to meet her for lunch earlier today

4. song you listened to - currently listening to waterloo by abba because i am cOoL

5. time you cried - had a total meltdown on thursday rip it’s been a really tough week

6. dated someone twice - lOl i’ve barely dated someone once

7. kissed someone & regretted it - nope

8. been cheated on - i mean,,,,,,,..,,,,,,,,,.........not exactly

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk & thrown up - nope

fave colours

12. red

13. yellow

14. black

the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes and i am so grateful for them 💛

16. fallen out of love - with a friend aye

17. laughed until you cried - oh my days too many times (usually in english class, which freaks out my teacher)

18. found out someone was talking about you - lol remember that time i overheard people proper biTCHING about me and i was like...........?? (it was lowkey funny tho because i am a NICE person and people know that and they came and apologised lul)

19. met someone who changed you - yes, actually in the last year i’ve met a few people who have had such a massive impact on me it’s unreal

20. found out who your friends are - omg too much

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - hA no

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in irl - all of them

23. do you have any pets - two cats sparky and olive and a doggo called lizzie

24. do you want to change your name - no although i am slowly implementing the nickname meg as opposed to megan bc it’s shorter and i like it

25. what did you do for your last birthday - uh idk i don’t remember,,,,,,,,,? it was easter sunday i’m p sure (or maybe that was the year before) idk i probably went to a movie or soemthing? maybe? i literally have no recollection of my last birthday is that bad

26. what time did you wake up today - 9:30

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - lying in bed trying to sleep (rip i actually need to sort my shit out i’ve been running on about 3-4 hours of sleep every day and i can’t deal)

28. what is something you can’t wait for - i’m going to austria tomorrow to ski and i am SO EXCITED even though i have to leave home at 5am

29. what are you listening to right now - there she goes by the las because bOP

30. have you ever talked to a person named tom - my history teacher is called tom does that count??? oh wait no yes i know loads of toms

31. something that’s getting on your nerves - the fact that i have to write an entire fuckin 5000 word dissertation by next week but i am so crazy busy and i am never ever gonna get it done

32. most visited website - no joke either thesaurus.com or wordreference (a level english and french be like)

33. hair colour - brown

34. long or short hair - shoulder length

35. do you have a crush on someone - literally so many people tho

36. what do you like about yourself - i was gonna say that i always put 100% into everything but then i realised that i literally hate that about myself because it means i am exhausted all of the damn time so i’m gonna say i’m good at giving people emotional support. like i’m not great at giving people solutions to problems but if they want a shoulder i’m good at just being there

37. want any pericings? - i really want a nose stud but i have a tiny ass nose and idk if i could pull it off rip

38. blood type - no clue 

39. nicknames - meg

40. relationship status - single pringle

41. zodiac - aries

42. pronouns - she/her

43. fave tv shows - chicago fire/pd/med, castle, one tree hill, gilmore girls, brooklyn 99, line of duty, absentia, how to get away with murder, probably more that i can’t think of rn

44. tattoos - i want a cross on my inner wrist and also a bible verse (either philippians 4:13 or romans 8:1 i’m not sure yet). also maybe some flowers i love flowers

45. right or left handed - right

46. ever had surgery - nope

47. piercings - just ear lobes

48. sport - i go to the gym a lot i like doing push ups and trx and spin and that kind of thing but i suck at team games

49. vacation - where i’ve been? gah idk lets see.....france, spain, italy, switzerland, germany, portugal, netherlands, all the countries in the uk, sweden, denmark, hong kong, usa, australia, turks & caicos islands.....going to austria tomorrow and hungary in the summer (and hk again to visit family!!) and i would love love love to go to india and lebanon and canada and iceland and norway

50. trainers - what ones i have?? currently mine are chewed up messes by my pup soooo none??

more general

51. eating - i just had a weird leftover meal of rice and couscous and curry sauce and beef stew rip to clear the cupboards before tomorrow

52. drinking - fizzy water

53. I’m about to watch - nothin i need to get to bed its 10pm but i need sleep

54. waiting for - myself to get my shit together and sort out my head

55. want - to get my shit together

56. get married - yeah one day 

57. career - i want to be an english teacher yeet

which is better

58. hugs or kisses - hugs

59. lips or eyes - eyes

60. shorter or taller - i mean if anyone is shorter than me they’re quite substantially below average so imma go taller

61. older or younger - don’t care aha

62. nice arms or stomach - arms

63. hookup or relationship - uh at the moment? i don’t even think about that kind of thing because dude i don’t even have time to breathe or think about myself soooo imma pass on this question cause i honestly don’t know

64. troublemaker or hesitant - both

have you ever

65. kissed a stranger - no

66. drank hard liquor - of course

67. lost glasses - sunglasses yes but i guard my prescriptions with my life

68. turned someone down - yes

69. sex on the first date - nope

70. broken someones’s heart - i’m not sure??? i mean i broke up with someone but like,,,,,,,they deserved it?

71. had your heart broken - i don’t know i mean i’m a fuckin mess but not because of boys

72. been arrested - no thank the lord

73. cried when someone died - see imma sound like a dick when i say no but honestly i’ve lost quite a few people who were close to me and i couldn’t cry for a good few months, even years, later (i am an expert at denial and repression apparently) so yes but not in the way you’d think

74. fallen for a friend - yes

do you believe in

75. yourself - hA

76. miracles - yeah

77. love at first sight - no

78. santa claus - haha no

79. kiss on a first date - yes

80. angles - oh yes i believe in those good old obtuse and acute angles (i assume this meant angels which, yes, i believe in)

other

81. best friend’s name - jenna

82. eye colour - blue

83. fave movie - ooOooOooOh idk probably dead poets society because that’s a masterpiece but i honestly am not a very movies person

84. fave actor - sophia bush 💛

[bfknj]

92 tag

sav aka @love-ndletter tagged me for this (hopefully not too long ago I tend to lag SORRY)! tysm friend! I love doing these heheh ALSO GIRL I LOVE UNTOLD STORIES OF THE ER TOO YOURE LIKE THE FIRST PERSON TO EVER KNOW IT SLJHFBAG YES

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people. (I’m tagging a bunch of mutuals but if I don’t tg you and you wanna try please do!! I love reading people’s answers, also don’t feel like you have to do it!!)

tagging: @jpghope, @taehyunguh, @taenkful, @cyphrs, @hixtae, @guktwt, @minkibread, @softjimns, @ultjmin, @yoongity, @wydkook, @ctrbl, @fwjsn, @taecheol, @5ygi, @agustdoll, @illicitblue, @sehunlo, @yoonung, @loserjongup

THE LAST:

1. Drink: green tea  2. Phone call: my neurologist to make an appointment for an MRI lmao #adulting amirite ladiesss 3. Text message: helping my roommate with immunization requirements 4. Song you listened to: The Night We Met - Lord Huron 5. Time you cried: like three days ago??? I’ve been struggling with health (thus the neurologist appt.) and I broke down the other day :(

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: yes rip 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. Been cheated on: yes it was the guy I dated twice for a total over three years my first love Im not bitter at AL L 9. Lost someone special: yes :( 10. Been depressed: yes :( 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no!!! I don’t drink because alcoholism runs in my family so nothing but bad connotations for me heheh

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: blue, baby pink, mustard yellow

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes!! 16. Fallen out of love: yes :/ 17. Laughed until you cried: girl everyday w my mom LOVE THAT CHICK 18. Found out someone was talking about you: probably  19. Met someone who changed you: yes!! (for the better) 20. Found out who your friends are: yes :(: 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I’d say 80%?? I’ve added a bunch of people from college that I haven’t met yet so it brought it down 23. Do you have any pets: yes!! two cats and two dogs (also pet sitting two kitties rn)  24. Do you want to change your name: I used to wanna change it to Jane bc I loved Tarzan LOL not anymore though, I like holly!! but shoot I’ll change my last name hmu namjoon 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: nothing :--) never celebrated it lmao 26. What time did you wake up: 7:50?? one of the cats woke me up bc he wanted to be pet but I usually get up at 8:15-8:30 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: youtube 28. Name something you can’t wait for: MOVING OUT !!! I love my roomies they're angels 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: this morning when I woke up 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I guess I wish I was more tan?? I’m pretty content with everything rn :) 31. What are you listening right now: Kiwi - Harry Styles (but real talk this entire album is so good guys don't @ me I love it) 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I call my period Tom does that count (Time Of the Month) 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my damn health issues :-----) 34. Most visited Website: youtube

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: EVERYWHERE MAN IM COVERED I used to be really insecure abt it when I was younger so my dad would tell me that they were called “beauty marks” so people would tell me I have moles and I would be like “ummm aCTUALL YYY I only have beauty marks so” ndsfjnks 36. Mark/s: I have a few scars on my knees, a small burn scar on the back of my hand, a dog bite on the side of my face and a huge burn mark on the inside of my left thigh bc I dropped a curling wand on it (gr9 job @ myself ik) 37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a princess then a fashion designer then a architect ??? 38. Haircolor: blonde 39. Long or short hair: long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: kim namjoon my manS 41. What do you like about yourself: my hair and eyes :--) 42. Piercings: basic lobes and belly button 43. Bloodtype: no idea??? I think B-???? 44. Nickname: holls, holyjoons, fonz & lafonzo 45. Relationship status: single  46. Zodiac: aquarius 47. Pronouns: she/her/hers 48. Favorite TV Show: *sweats nervously* uHH???? friends, office, goblin, scarlet hearts ryeo, parks and rec 49. Tattoos: none yet but I’m getting one in a few weeks!!! IM PUMPED  50. Right or left hand: left for playing guitar/ukulele and right for everything else 51. Surgery: stomach when I was three or four?? and wisdom teeth when I was sixteen 52. Hair dyed in different color: nope 53. Sport: GIRL I’VE PLAYED SO MANY idk if dance counts but I’m putting it in bc a WORKOUT ok in order - ballet, tap, cheerleading, gymnastics, karate, soccer, volleyball, jazz, water polo, swim, dive, hip hop (I also did/do beach and pool lifeguarding but idk if that counts???) 55. Vacation: idk if this is for all vacations or what so - hawaii, nevada, arizona, georgia, florida, colorado, norcal??? 56. Pair of trainers: nike airmax theas

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: nothing atm 58. Drinking: nothing atm 59. I’m about to: idk man 61. Waiting for: my mom to get home 62. Want: to travel!! 63. Get married: idk about marriage but I definitely wanna find someone that I would be able to spend my life with 64. Career: something that allows me to live abroad bc thats been my dream for as long as I can remember

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: depends on the person giving them!! hugs I guess tho 66. Lips or eyes: usually I would say eyes but I’m a sucker for some good lips 67. Shorter or taller: taller :---) 68. Older or younger: older  70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach?? idk never thought abt it 71. Sensitive or loud: loud bc emotions make me uncomfortable Im a middle school boy ok                                                   72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: idk?? never thought abt it

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: nope 75. Drank hard liquor: nope 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nope 77. Turned someone down: yeah HAH 78. Sex on the first date: nope 79. Broken someone’s heart: yeah :( 80. Had your heart broken: yeah :( 81. Been arrested: nope 82. Cried when someone died: yeah :((((( 83. Fallen for a friend: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: sometimes 85. Miracles: yes 86. Love at first sight: no :/ lust at first sight yes 87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss in the first date: I don't see why not 89. Angels: yes!

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: devon/doots my gIR L 91. Eye color: honey?? I know I sound extra FJBLSKDG BUT I don't wanna say hazel bc too brown  92. Favorite movie: idk??? I watched Love, Rosie recently though and it was cute

[tokyoknj]

a load of tags! ✨🌟☀️

lmao i was busy doing uni stuff but now i finally got round to these so Enjoy !

obviously u don’t have to do all of them just do whatever u feel u kno? anyway

i’m tagging u all up here lmao so i’m tagging @namsieur @wingscomeback @sugaegyc @sugasideup @sheloveskook @cryptidhobi @gaycypher @namjooniewifey @iluwonho @jiminsarroz @stigmz @dreamjimn @mochiminii let me know if u don’t want to be tagged in stuff like this !! 

get to know me tag

answer the 20 questions and tag 20 followers that you would like to know better.

i was tagged by @monnyoongi​ thank u zuza!

name: alice

nickname: i don’t really like any of my nicknames? lmao

zodiac sign: cancer

height: 5′8″

orientation: A Whole Bi

nationality: british

favourite fruit: mangos! 

favourite season: either summer or autumn

favourite flower: either roses or tulips

favourite scent: like just a fresh summer evening lmao

favourite colour: pink, red + orange

favourite animal: sharks !

average hours of sleep: i think 9?

favourite fictional character: clarice bean

number of blankets you sleep with: always just the one

dream trip: either dubrovnik, mykonos or the amalfi coast

blog created: last april

get to know me again

rules: answer 30 questions & tag 20 blogs you would like to know better

tagged by @yoongicrew​ thank u rena !!

1. nicknames: still none lol

2. gender: female

3. star sign: cancer

4. height: 5′8″

5. time: 4:24 pm

6. birthdate: july 21st

7. fave band(s): bts, blackpink, red velvet, lany

8. fave solo artist: gallant, Queen CRJ, kehlani

9. song currently stuck in my head: saw you in a dream - the japanese house

10. last movie watched: spiderman homecoming and i Loved it

11. last show watched: first dates

12. when I created this blog: last april

13. what I post: 95% kpop, 5% aesthetic

14. last thing I googled: “that flute song” still don’t know what the song is. its not mask off tho

15. any other blogs?: my aesthetic blog dadcrisis that i’ve had since like 2012... christ

16. do you get asks?: not very often but its all good

17. why I chose my url: i love mister rap monster

18. following: 919

19. followers: 809

20. fave colours: pink, red, orange

21. average hours of sleep: 9

22. lucky number: 8

23. play any instruments?: drums

24. currently wearing: my pyjamas xoxo

25. how many blankets I sleep with: just one

26. dream job: oh idk. charming radio host probably

27. dream trip: just v scenic places across europe

28. fave food: any cured ham... Hell Yes

29. nationality: british

30. fave song currently: you better know - red velvet

kpop q’s

tagged by @teambusan​ thank u sabes xoxo

1. who was your first female bias?

i think it was jennie i was very late to girl groups lmao

2. who was your first male bias?

namjoon.... what a guy

3. who are your current biases? other than the above:

johnny, jinjin, rosé, jiwoo, wonpil, dahyun, luna, jooheon, shownu + dean

4. in the entire kpop industry, who is the closest to your ideal type?

probably shownu... like he’s a sweet n humble dad who is just also fine as hell... thats what i’m about ! also jennie like she’s just Gorgeous™ like i would lay down my life for her in a heartbeat tbh

5. have you ever attended any kpop concert / fanmeeting / fan sign?

How Dare You

6. if yes, which group / artist? how was the experience?

i cannot believe this disrespect

7. which group /artist would you like to see live?

bts, blackpink, monsta x. day6 !

8. how did you get into kpop?

my friend showed me fantastic baby (lmao) when we were like 15 and then i dropped it for a bit but then i saw a dance practice for no more dream like last year so now i am Here

9. who are your otps?

whom????

10. when did you start to ship them?

🤔🤔🤔

11. what is your favorite fanfic genre?

honestly i’ll read whatever turns up on my dash as long as it’s not involving furries or anything Truly Nasty

12. what is your favorite music genre?

pop has and always will be my fave but i like other stuff too ofc xoxo

five things tag

Rules: you’ll have to tag 15 people at the end of this challenge

tagged by @cypherpart420​ thank u linsey ily!

five things you’ll find in my bag: purse hand sanitiser keys vaseline water

five things you’ll find in my bedroom: Trash Mountain nik naks fan approx. seven 1d posters radio

five things i’ve always wanted to do: go to glasto ! go on a trip just to look at palaces across europe lmao see bts ! adopt 2 dogs and live my best life go somewhere with a really clear view of the stars and just Cry

five things that make me happy: family dogs my pals xoxo listening to music baking

five things i’m currently into: fake nails crafting my Brand lmao big brother hydration arrested development

five things on my to do list: embark on my Fitness Journey get my professional blog going plan what i’m doing for my bday get a skincare routine get money

once again, get to know me

i was tagged by @parkmochibean​ thanks natasha!

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST: 1. drink: water 2. phone call: my sister 3. text message: my friend explaining exo sub-units to me lmao 4. song you listened to: young & free - xiumin and mark 5. time you cried: probably looking through val from bake off’s insta she’s just the cutest 6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yep ! 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: only my whole uni career 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: only twice i know my limits now lmao

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12-14. pink, red and orange

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: ofc! 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes lmao 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20 found out who your friends are: yes  21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. do you have any pets: no :’( 24. do you want to change your name: no i enjoy her 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went for afternoon tea w my family 26. what time did you wake up: 11am its summer now i do what i want 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: idk chilling i guess 28. name something you can’t wait for: my birthday !! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like an hour ago 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: idk if i’d been confident Forever i think that would be pretty good? 31. what are you listening to right now: faking it - kehlani, lil yachty, calvin harris 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: my older sister she’s just so Loud 34. most visited website: this or youtube 35-37. lost questions?? 38. hair colour: brown 39. long or short hair: i want long but i’ve got medium rn lmao 40. do you have a crush on someone: no 41. what do you like about yourself: i’m good 2 my family and i think i’m quite nice? tbh? 42. piercings: ears + nose 43. bloodtype: idk yikes 44. nickname: none lmao 45. relationship status: Single™ 46. zodiac: cancer  47. pronous: she/her 48. favourite tv show: bojack horseman, rpdr 49. tattoos: just one (1) 50. right or left handed: right 51. surgery: on my hand and i was awake for it but they played me some 1d so it was chill 52. piercing: ok i literally just answered this 53. sport: thats cute 55. vacation: just various fancy places across europe before brexit ruins that free movement 56. pair of trainers: i only wear my adidas but they’re on the verge of death now rip

MORE GENERAL 57. eating: werthers originals i’m a nan 58. drinking: water 59. i’m about to: go tf to sleep 61. waiting for: my birthday lmao 62. want: money and ideally a job that looks promising 63. get married: Who Can Never Be Sure? 64. career: either radio or social media 

WHICH IS BETTER 65. hugs or kisses: hugs 66. lips or eyes: eyes 67. shorter or taller: don’t really mind 68. older or younger: older 70. nice arms or nice stomach: also don’t mind lmao 71. sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. hook up or relationship: relationship 73. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: yes 75. drank hard liquor: yes 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: my first pair of glasses... rip 77. turned someone down: yes 78. sex on the first date: no 79. broken someone’s heart: probs not? i hope not 80. had your heart broken: no 81. been arrested: no  82. cried when someone died: yes 83. fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: Always ! 85. miracles: sure why not 86. love at first sight: no 87. santa claus: he’s doing his best 88. kiss on the first date: sure 89. angels: idk?

OTHER: 90. current best friend’s name: robin 91. eye colour: green/blue 92. favourite movie: i’m basic it’s love actually

shuffle tag

tagged by @kpopeyton thank you !

rules: you can tell a lot about a person based on the type of music they listen to. put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. no skipping!

wake up alone / amy winehouse

first love / bts

pyramids / frank ocean

i didn’t just come here to dance / carly rae jepsen

girl girl girl / triple h

21st century girl / bts

you better know / red velvet

wolves / one direction

coffee / miguel

view / shinee

[horrorgods]

thanks to @severe-queer​ for tagging me!!

i tag @vitariesocks​ @threatlevelmidmorning​ @alywayieroxoxo​ @alohamoraz​ @confusedwayward​ @-run-to-you-​ @sun-moon-andthestars​ @yenidenmi​ @phantittytastic​ @sweet-herondale​ and any other followers of mine that’d like to do it!!

my answers are below (it’s very long so);

last:

1. drink - water 

2. phone call - probably one of my parents

3. text message - "that made lucy mad at me smh” (lucy is my dog lmaooo)

4. song you listened to - “un homme debout” by claudio capéo

5. time you cried - a week or two i think?? i honestly don’t remember

6. dated someone twice - never

7. kissed someone and regretted it - uhh the middle of this summer sort of. i don’t entirely regret it, but i feel like it made things kinda awkward between us for a little bit and we used to be pretty close so... that wasn’t good.

8. been cheated on - never

9. lost someone special - if this means lost like died, about five years ago. if it means lost in any way, this summer.

10. been depressed - depressed as in like Depression, july

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - never

favourite colours:

12. royal blue

13. maroon

14. grey

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends - yesss!!

16. fallen out of love - kinda

17. laughed until you cried - yESS LIKE A WEEK AGO

18. found out someone was talking about you - unfortunately lol

19. met someone who changed you - not reallyyy

20. found out who your friends are - kinda sorta

21. kissed someone on your facebook list - don’t have facebook so

general:

22. how many of your fb friends do you know in real life - again, don’t have facebook lmaoo

23. any pets - two miniature dachshunds named charlie and lucy!!

24. do you want to change your name - i mean yeah i did so

25. what did you do for your last birthday - laser tag and dinner with friends!!

26. what time did you wake up - nine because i had to do something at school even though it’s saturday,,,, ick

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - sleeping, surprisingly enough. i was soo exhausted yesterday. i fell asleep at like 11, which is fuckin legendary.

28. something you can’t wait for - finishing all of the history hw i have to do today ew

29. when was the last time you saw your mum - ew idk recently

30. what are you listening to right now - my dogs barking at literally nothing,,,, typical XD

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - yeah

32. something that is getting on your nerves - my history teacher wasn’t in class to teach us the last part of our unit on friday and we still have a test in two days?? and she apparently she’s not gonna delay it?? i’m????

33. most visited website - you’re looking at it

34. hair colour - brownnn

35. long or short hair - long

36. do you have a crush on someone - kinda sorta maybe

37. what do you like about yourself - i’m passionate and loyal and try to help as many people as i can!! which is cool!!

38. piercings - nonee

39. blood type - good question,,, beats me

40. nickname - from my name, so far i’ve gotten “chandy candy” and “cha cha slide” and i don’t think anyone is gonna beat those so. those. other unrelated nicknames though (all from other places on the internet whoops) are dashy, dox, and nova :).

41. relationship status - rlly rlly single

42. zodiac - leo

43. pronouns - they/them

44. favourite tv show - the middle

45. tattoos - none but definitely gonna get some

46. right or left handed - right!!

47. surgery - got my adenoids removed when i was like 7 or somethin

48. broken a bone - fractured my elbow which is like?? p much a break but 

49. sport - LMAO DOING YOGA RN TO GET ONE SCHOOL PE CREDIT AND THEN DO BACKSTAGE FOR SCHOOL MUSICAL TO GET THE OTHER OOOO BOY NO SPORTS HERE!! i played competitive soccer for a v v long time but uh,,, no longer and never again

50. vacation- not sure what this is asking so. last vacation was to the beach, but favorite vacation was probably either to amsterdam or munich. or universal because harry potter world is The Best.

51. pair of trainers - favorites are hightop converse and vans :)

more general:

52. eating - last thing i ate was pizza

53. drinking - last thing i drank was water lmaoo!! hydration!!

54. im about to - do more homework ew ew eww

55. waiting for - someone to send somethin on discord so i have an excuse to do something besides homework rip me

56. want - to ask my crush to hoco :(( but like we all know it’s not gonna happen ahaha 

57. get married - pls pls pls yes

58. career - honestly i have no idea?? i think i’ll probably end up getting involved in some kinda startup thing because i gotta be mentally-engaged 24/7 or i check the fuck out and that kinda scene seems like it’d be good for me in that sense.... but idk. i wish i could do something with writing but,,, unlikely. we’ll see i guess!! ahaha.

59. hugs or kisses - um kisses

60. lips or eyes - i mean bothhh but i notice eyes first so,, probably eyes if i had to pick

61. shorter or taller - assuming this means for a gf,, taller probably?? both are good though so like idc.

62. older or younger - as of right now i’d only be comfortable dating someone within a year either way of my age... so either but as long as it’s v v little difference.

63. nice arms or nice stomach - aRMS 

64. hook up or relationship - relationship pls aah

65. troublemaker or hesitant - tbh depends what it is but definitely come off as hesitant 

66. kissed a stranger - nah

67. drank hard liquor - noo

68. lost glasses or contact lenses - surprisingly no

69. turned someone down - yeahh

70 - sex on the first date - no

71 - broken someones heart - not that i know of 

72. had your heart broken - i mean sorta but mostly indirect so like?? whatever  

73. been arrested - nooooo

74. cried when someone died - yep

75. fallen for a friend - ahaha yeah welcome to my life

do you believe in:

76. yourself - hell yeah!!

77. miracles - absolutely 

78. love at first sight - nah

79. santa claus - i mean no

80. kiss on the first date - no

81. angels - kinda sorta??

other:

82. current best friend’s name - abby!!

83. eye colour - green :D

84. favourite movie - harry potter and the chamber of secrets, revenge of the sith, the sixth sense, get out, the lion king, literally anything i love movies it’s 

[sirenestudies-blog]

92 Questions Tag

i was tagged by @ronanstudies, thank you sm! like you, i’m putting this under a read more bc it’s 92 questions which is a whole lot! so, here are the questions: 

LAST:

1. Drink: water  2. Phone call: my mom  3. Text message: “it’s np!”  4. Song you listened to: kokobop by exo (truly a bop)  5. Time you cried: literally like an hour ago lmao 

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: never been on a date so  7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never been kissed so  8. Been cheated on: nope 9. Lost someone special: not really  10. Been depressed: yeah  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope 

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: light-grey blue, “millennial pink”, white

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: fallen out of liking i guess  17. Laughed until you cried: yeah 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah 19. Met someone who changed you: i think so  20. Found out who your friends are: for the most part  21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope 

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. Do you have any pets: a puppy named picasso! he’s a golden doodle and he’s the most good boy ever!  24. Do you want to change your name: not really, but i have a go-to starbucks name which i wouldn’t mind  25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i had my sweet 16 at a restaurant with a few of my close friends so it was nice! but on my actual birthday i did nothing lmao bc it was a tuesday and i had a test  26. What time did you wake up: 8:00 ish 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: texting my friend  28. Name something you can’t wait for: to graduate high school (2 more years rip)

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 2 mins ago  30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i could change my freshman year of hs, and my over-all self confidence and motivation lol  31. What are you listening to right now: at the moment, nothing  32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i don't think so?  33. Something that is getting on your nerves: when people speak over me bc i have a quiet voice and i’m quiet in general so it’s like :// u know i’m not going to call u out for it let me live man  34. Most visited websites: youtube and google classroom (im so cool) 

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: yes 36. Mark/s: yeah 37. Childhood dream: my first childhood dream was to be a fashion designer haha, but then it became “be an author” for like, 7 years straight 38. Hair color: black  39. Long or short hair: long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: no 41. What do you like about yourself: i think i’m a good listener and kind, and i have a good eye for aesthetics  42. Piercings: just my ears   43. Blood type: A  44. Nickname: i don’t have a nickname which is rlly tragic bc i really want a nickname  45. Relationship status: single, like i have been my entire life... if you can’t tell i’m too much of a hopeless romantic  46. Zodiac: scorpio

47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: parks and rec, brooklyn 99, shadowhunters 49. Tattoos: none 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: never 52. Hair dyed in different color: i never have but i want to try it once  55. Vacation: NYC since we live so close, but i’ve been to quebec and england too many times  56. Pair of trainers: i have 3 pairs of sneakers but one of them aren’t really meant for sports 

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: i just ate 5 tomatoes bc i love tomatoes  58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: work on an essay (procrastinate working on an essay)  61. Waiting for: to be happy with myself and my effort and enjoy life without being stressed  62. Want: skincare and beauty products and this one type of muji notebook!  63. Get married: when i’m older, i want to get married but rn i’m... im just 16 man  64. Career: not sure honestly

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice stomach 71. Sensitive or loud: both? sensitive enough for me bc im super sensitive but i’m so quiet i need someone loud otherwise we’d never talk no joke  72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: no 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no 77. Turned someone down: no 78. Sex on the first date: no 79. Broken someone’s heart: i don't think so  80. Had your heart broken: as much as a 15 year old’s heart can break when they find out their crush has a girlfriend lol  81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: no one close to me has ever died, thankfully, but i’ve cried from watching the news sometimes s 83. Fallen for a friend: yes 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: sometimes idk man 

85. Miracles: yes

86. Love at first sight: i believe in attraction at first sight but not love  87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss on the first date: it depends 

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: i have a few  91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: wonder woman or the new spiderman movie! 

that was so long omg, ok, so i’ll tag @studyoblivion, @ali-studyblr, @starcrossedstudying, @studytopic, and @studyingnehrd !

[liamau]

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag! Thank you @louisdelicatepaws for tagging me ily!!!! 

LAST [1] drink: water actually lol [2] phone call: my roommate!! [3] text message: the hologc ,, i would di  e for you guys  [4] song you listened to: come clean - hilary duff (lol im gay i knOw) [5] time you cried: a couple months ago bc i was stressed about school [6] dated someone twice: i hooked up with an ex fwb if that counts [7] been cheated on: nope [8] kissed someone and regretted it: oh yeah [9] lost someone special: yes  [10] been depressed: i live, breathe, speak depression [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: a couple times (i was a mesS)

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] forest green [13] blue (fuckin larrie ass hoe) [14] purple IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes! (refer back to the hologc) [16] fallen out of love: never been in love [17] laughed until you cried: idk??? [18] found out someone was talking about you: my mom lmao [19] met someone who changed you: maybe idk [20] found out who your true friends are: eh  [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: i havent kissed anyone in so long rip [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all but one [23] do you have any pets: a hamster named hashbrown, a betta fish named conchobar, a goldfish named go fiddy cent, and a goldendoodle (she doesnt live with me sadly) named roxy! [24] do you want to change your name: im trans so of course  [25] what did you do for your last birthday: i went to wacky’s and had my first legal drink! [26] what time did you wake up: fuckin 3 in the afternoon  [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: watching netflix i think [28] name something you cannot wait for: JULY 21sT [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: she actually came to town like a week ago   [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: maybe my family. my income.  [31] what are you listening to right now: nothing  [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah actually he was british  [33] something that is getting on your nerves: my mother (wow shes mentioned Too Often) also my step brother  [34] most visited website: tumblr and ao3 (probs netflix too) [35] elementary: i was quiet and smart 

[36] high school: shitty as fuck. idk why i went back. i went into high school overweight, fucked myself over in 10th grade, tired to reinvent myself in 11th and failed, 12th was better but still shitty and i stopped going for a couple months like 10th grade, and i went for a 13th and hated being around teenagers so yeah. not good. 

[37] college: about to go in and not too fond of school generally  [38] hair colour: brown [39] long or short hair: short [40] do you have a crush on someone: no. never have, really  [41] what do you like about yourself?: is this a trick quesiton [42] piercings: ears are stretched and my nose is pierced (dont rly wear it anymore)  [43] blood type: ??? who knows  [44] nickname: jay, jakey [45] relationship status: single ofc [46] zodiac sign: pisces!  [47] pronouns: he/him [48] fav tv show(s): im rewatching weeds rn! i loved dexter, the100 ruiend my life, OA was good, cant think of anything else atm [49] tattoos: i have an astronaut and some triangles! (hoping to get more soon!!!) [50] right or left handed: left  FIRST… [51] surgery: wisdom teeth in 2016  [52] piercing: my ears i was 14  [53] best friend: umm his name was b**d**y lol figure it out [54] sport: hockey of course [56] pair of trainers: like ,, runners? [57] eating: um i have no idea and i doubt my parents remember  [58] drinking: i think it was my moms red wine  [59] i’m about to: do nothing 

[60] listening: nothing [61] waiting for: money? lol  [62] want: money? skjdhflakd kil l me [63] get married: doubt thats in my future  [64] career: gOd i have no ide a YOUR TYPE… [65] hugs or kisses: kisses  [66] lips or eyes: lips usually  [67] shorter or taller: shorter lol [68] older or younger:  older?  [69] romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous im not big on romance  [70] nice arms or nice stomach: stomach for sure  [71] sensitive or loud: neither? both? idk for this one [72] hook up or relationship: hook up  [73] troublemaker or hesitant: troublemakers can be fun but also,,, not lmao HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger?: yes of course  [75] drank hard liquor?: yup [76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: every single day im so blind i cant see them to find them  [77] turned someone down?: yeah [78] sex on first date?: kind of?   [79] broken someone’s heart?: yeah :/ [80] had your own heart broken?: nah  [81] been arrested? : no thank god  [82] cried when someone died? : yeah of course  [83] fallen for a friend: maybe. kind of. not in a romantic way but,, was def attracted to her  

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself?: fuck no [85] miracles?: no [86] love at first sight?: never  [87] santa claus? : lol no [88] kiss on the first date?: yeah  [89] angels?: no  [90] current best friend’s name: can i tag the entire hologc in this too lol  [91] eye colour: hazel [92] favourite movies: its kind of a funny story, split (ik the issues dont come at me), get out, the conjuring, the dark night, again i could list more but i cant think of any more atm

i tag @daisieslouis @yourgaymajesty @shipandlighthouse @iamlouis @louisfestival and evryone in the hologc !! (dont do it if you dont want to)