#rika breakdown: the fic

[elmaxlys]

Post High-Rise AU

for @normalsnails (i swear it gets Juoka at some point)

After they come back, the people the closest to God retain some of their powers (heightened senses, speed and strength, mostly, and accelerated regeneration. they tend to give strong static shocks, too). Since it's only a few of them concerned, it is something unknown from the large public. The clones stayed in the high-rise world with Tenma as Admin so the worlds don't merge.

When they came back it was chaos: some people had lost their homes, some people's partners have moved on, accepting them as dead, some were waiting with hope only to find that out of all the people who disappeared, only, like 15% came back. There are riots. They interview the adults who were taken and came back: they all let Yayoi talk, and she's not saying much. The only thing the public knows for sure is every single survivor is highly traumatized.

Yuri's cheery behavior falls as soon as she's not the face of the survivors. She falls into her parents arms and cries and cries and cries. She is left with extreme chronic fatigue, stomach problems and brain fog. She can't go back to school.

Rika does. He's older than his peers since he got taken mid school year. And everyone already knew him from before because it's people Yuri's age he's having class with so they all know him as Yuri's cool brother. But they also know he's come back from the other dimension and he's got that weird tension and intensity that make many people feel uncomfortable in his presence. He doesn't take up kendo again: he's afraid he'll accidentally kill someone. Of course he was fired from his part time job: who tf takes months off without notice? He doesn't look for a job for the time being. He wants to be more stable. Wants the news to die down, not to be immediately identified as one of the survivors.

Yuuka went back to South Africa (? i don't remember if it was said explicitly in the special so if it's not take is as a hc) to remove himself as much as possible as everything that happened. He starts working on his thesis again, drowning himself in his studies and tobacco to forget. But he can't. He still feels like he can hear Kuon's spirit talking to him - but she's not there. She couldn't make the trip. Wouldn't. He resents her for that. He clings to that resentment not to see what's underneath: loneliness. Fear. Grief. He doesn't call Rika. Doesn't pick up when he does.

So Rika gets more and more isolated. He still dreams of Yuuka and Yuri dying. He dreams of killing himself, too. Of getting killed. Of Takeda dying in front of him. Of all the people he's crushed with his hammer. He keeps himself awake at night so he doesn't have to see that. He somehow maintains his grades. He clings to his dream of getting in law school but he feels no real drive anymore.

There are support groups made for survivors. Most of the people who join were somewhat passive survivors. None of the higher powers feel legitimate to go. Yuri can't move, anyway. Nise is too busy trying to survive. Ein too, she doesn't remember her past. She doesn't know if she should start looking: she identifies by the sword, now. And Rika... Rika needs to take care of someone so he goes.

His presence is reassuring for the people. He was always the steadfast one. The one who protected them, cooked for them, took care of the building they had all converged to. And Rika needs to feel depended on or he'll break, just like when Yuuka left and he recreated himself as a big brother for Yuri instead. So he goes. He brings pastries. He listens but doesn't talk much. He knows people feel better by the simple fact he's sitting there with them. He feels guilty about that.

He needs to talk, though. And to let out the stress. He considers smoking - but he doesn't. He calls Yuuka - but Yuuka doesn't answer. He talks to Yuri - but she falls asleep mid-conversation. He wants to talk to his parents - but they look so tired and afraid. He wants to ram his head against the wall and open his scar up - but the one time he did, the wall broke.

So he calls Juo.

When they had come back, Juo had left almost immediately. He had kept himself on the line after Yuri had saved him but didn't do any effort either. The only people who interacted with him were Rika and Haruka, much to the dismay of her father, still traumatized by the brainwashing. Azuma was pretty isolated too, tho, due to his betrayal, so he couldn't say much to Haruka about Juo.

Juo hadn't cared about the eyes on him, surveilling his every movement. He could deflect bullets and everyone knew that. He could break sword blades with his bare hands and everyone knew that as well. He could brainwash you. He could steal your powers. He could do so much. So no one bothered him either: if you attack him, he'll retaliate - and who knows if he won't change his mind about not killing if you so much as bother breathing too loud next to him? Juo doesn't give a crap but they don't know that.

Since the beginning, Juo only cared about Rika. And once the Administrator was taken care of, that crossed that vengeance off. So truly, he only had eyes for Rika. Haruka was fun to have around too - she liked to nap on his lap for some reason. When they had found the other world where Taisei had fled to, Juo had stayed behind to look over the bodies of the ones who were sent as clouds: most of their top fighters were gone after all. Rika had still dispatched his angels to keep an eye on him - and their bodies.

The worlds had merged, they found another, stuff happened, an agreement was reached with Tenma and after yet another merging, Yuri left the Administrator role to her clone - and they were all returned to Earth.

He went back to his previous life. His bike was stolen, of course - and his room was rented to someone else. All he had left was the little money he had on his account, his body - minus one eye - and his connections. He went to see people. Got hired as a fighter in illegal scenes. Got a decent reputation. Rented a room above a brothel run by a woman he had met when he had ran from home the first time. She hired him as security, but he still fights on the side: he needs the high of fighting.

One day he gets a call from an unknown number. He always picks up, so he does this time as well. It's Rika.

That night, Rika meets with him at the arena. Juo doesn't fight that day but it's noisy, it's dark, they can talk, they can get violent if needed. It's perfect apart from the fact it's not a neutral ground and clearly Juo's turf.

Rika doesn't ask how it's going. Juo can clearly see it on Rika's face. Rika is tense, but when is he not? Juo is just as relaxed as he's always been. Rika says he needs to let off steam. Juo smiles. Rika says one punch from him can still kill someone. Juo holds back during his fights, but some opponents still died. Rika looks at him straight in the eye and says "I want to fight you." Juo doesn't turn him down.

They find a secluded area and they go all out. Rika gets out with a broken fist and a bleeding face but for the first time in a long while he feels like he can breathe. They sit in the rubble for a long time, breathing hard as the sun starts to rise.

"Sometimes I feel like it would have been easier if we stayed back there."

It escapes him. He doesn't really think it - he knows it's much safer here. He knows it was horrible and made him do horrible things. But he can't shake the feeling that Earth is the place that is wrong, now. He's made for somewhere else, what with the freakish strength he exploded the pavement with this night again.

Juo says nothing. Rika isn't looking at him so he doesn't even know if he's listening. He buries his head in his hands. He can't do this anymore. He has no aggression left in his body (for now) but the tension is back. He says it. "I can't do this anymore."

"Then don't," comes the response.

Rika turns to Juo, caught by surprise.

"Do whatever the hell you want. No one can stop you, anyway." He smirks. "Except me."

Rika can't help the smile he feels appearing on his lips. "I don't even know what I want - I'm not sure I want anything anymore."

"Well today you wanted to fight: so you fought. Tomorrow you go through the same process. And the day after." He shrugs. "That's the only way worth living."

So the next day Rika calls him again. And they fight bloody again. And the day after that Rika calls him again. And they get drunk and Rika spills it all about his nightmares. And the next day Rika doesn't call but he's waiting for Juo at the end of his shift. He watches him fight. They kiss after Juo's victory. It tastes like iron and alcohol. Their mouths are bloody.

Rika isn't okay. Everyone can see it. He still shows up to the support group, but with busted lips, or a black eye, or wearing a brace. His grades are still up but he sleeps in class. He accidentally breaks PE equipment. He barely eats. Still cooks, tho. He brings Yuri her plate and he sits next to her. His words seem to have stopped. So Yuri tries to fill the void. She's texting Nise, these days. She's doing fine, apparently. She found a job.

They start playing video games again. They can play one round or two before Yuri can't anymore. She falls asleep in front of their favorite animes and Rika carries her to bed. His knuckles are bruised but he's careful not to put blood on her. He finishes his homework.

The people at school now openly avoid Rika. He meets bad people. Gets up to shady business. Sometimes a biker comes to pick him up. Leather, tattoos, long hair, cigarettes... Not the kind of guy you want to get involved with. Yet Rika - former model student Rika - meets him with a smile.

One day someone sees them kissing: in a week, everybody knows. Rika doesn't care anymore. But someone tells Yuri. And Yuri doesn't know if she should talk to Rika about it. He has said nothing about meeting with someone, but the only times he stays out he comes back all beaten and bruised. She's worried.

Rika graduates. Gets into the school he wanted. He has stopped trying to contact Yuuka. The hat he used to cherish so much is full of dust in his closet. He wonders if he should move out. He doesn't want to leave Yuri but he needs to get away from their parents.

One day, an acquaintance of Juo, and he has really few good acquaintances, picks a fight with him. Rika is too used to fighting with Juo with no restrictions. He doesn't pull his punch.

He spends the next week throwing up. Takeda's image superimposes with the one of the guy he killed that night. He needs to get away. He can't. He has Yuri, classes in a few days, the support group meeting every Wednesday. He runs cold, then unbearably hot. His fingers are numb.

Juo calls first. Rika's hands are trembling as he picks up.

A few hours later, someone rings at their door. The parents are at work. Rika doesn't leave the bathroom. Yuri opens the door. It's Juo. She hasn't seen him in a year but he looks like he's doing fine. "Where's Rika?" he asks. And she understands many things, suddenly.

She leads him to the bathroom. They can both hear him cry. Yuri knocks at the door. "Rika?" He's throwing up again. She tries opening the door and thankfully he didn't lock it. The place where he's holding the toilet has caved under his hands. They're bleeding, cut by the shards.

They patch him up. They sit him on his bed. Juo stands back to the door, arms crossed. Yuri is kneeling in front of Rika as he tells her what happened. How he feels every life he's taken on his fingers, weighing on his hands.

He leaves with Juo. He brings the minimum: it's not like Juo's room has a lot of space anyway.

He sleeps for two days straight. He constantly feels cold. Or too hot. No in-between. He doesn't fight with Juo anymore, he just asks him to fuck him into oblivion. He doesn't get out of the room. He does answer Yuri's calls, tho.

"I want to die," he whispers one day, and he hears Yuri cry on the other end.

Yuuka calls. Rika doesn't pick up. "I got my doctorate :)" is the text that comes soon after.

And that reminds Rika of that old promise they made. He fights the urge to type "you win" and just says congrats instead.

He starts fighting Juo again. Everything he was feeling up until now shifts to become rage against himself. He screams his lungs out. He's bleeding again. And it hurts, but in a good, controlled way. And when he kisses Juo, both their mouths bloody, for the first time in a while, he's smiling.

He'd killed before. He'd kill again. He'd seen death from way too close and he had her on speed dial. But he had a tether anchoring him down. You could see the bone of his bruised knuckles, fingers tangled in thick black hair, leaving trails of blood all over his lover who did the same right back at him.

[shoplifting]

Laois's party would see post-Shibuya Incident Tokyo as another dungeon. Tokyo Jujutsu Tech students would see the island's dungeon as a vacation.

[lilias300yearhusband]

Mega spoilers for Mystic Messenger secret ending 1, episode 6 & 7! This is based on what happens in those episodes so don’t read if you haven’t played them yet. I take no credit for the story since I just added a character and changed the ending a bit. It also has a couple references to Vs route.

Also spoilers for Sevens real name and identity of Unknown and Mint Eye. This is a fic between V and a gender neutral reader. Kind of.

TW: gun, bl0od, death, cults, lots of yelling, mention of su1cide in the first paragraph (sorry I probably did this wrong), bad writing, V might be ooc too tired to care, horrible ending writing wise, not really proofread

Word count: 1.2k

Your brain couldn’t comprehend what was going on. So many questions and so little answers. Like how the hell is Rika alive when she killed herself a year and a half ago.

You can barely believe V had anything to do with this. Kim Jihyun has such a kind heart that it’s almost impossible in your mind, but here Rika was. The woman who created the RFA to raise money for charity had created a damn cult so apparently anything was possible!

You were angry, hurt, and god you just wished this was all a dream and prayed to wake up. But if anything, this was a nightmare. Saeyoung was hurt. Him, MC, and that brown haired guy were hostages. Saeran, Saeyoungs twin brother, was having a mental breakdown over Saeyoung being cleansed, whatever that meant. Rika’s a cult leader and V had been lying to the RFA for god knows how long.

Kim Jihyun. You were head over heals in love with him. To you everything about him is beautiful both inside and out, or that’s what you had originally thought. Zen was 100% right when he said that Vs beauty was comparable to his own. You yearned to play with his gorgeous turquoise hair. Staring into his beautiful eyes while cuddling together, whispering how much you loved him.

Before a few days ago you also believed his heart was filled with nothing but kindness. You loved him so much that it like you heart would burst and shower him in the love he deserves. You wanted to give him the world and spend the rest of your lives together.

That’s what you thought anyways. But there he was. Standing with Rika, dull eyes staring in Saerans general direction.

“He won’t be able to use his arm anymore. He’s useless. Just get rid of him. Paradise will only come once he’s gone…!”

Saerans shrill voice snapped you out of your daydreaming. His face was covered in tears and he was gripping his hair out of frustration. Rika was just glaring at him annoyed. “Take Saeran away. He needs to be brainwashed again.”

One of her cult followers agreed but before they can get to him Saeyoung steps in. “No… Don’t take my brother… stop all this.. if you touch my brother… I’m going to… I’m going to destroy you all…!” His voice shook, from both pain from his wound and watching his brothers breakdown. Saeran said nothing, just staring at Saeyoungs back in shock.

After the initial shock had passed Saeran went from surprised to distress once again. “You dare block me!? You dare?!! I’m going to kill you!!!” Despite Saerans threat Saeyoung just asks him to come home, before fainting from blood loss.

“Take away the one who just fainted! And lock up the other one!” Rika ordered her followers. They started to approach Saeran until he pulls out a gun!?

“Get away from me!! All of you!! Don’t come near me… if you do I’m going to shoot you!!” Saeran yells so loud his voice strains at the end. His hands were shaking so much it was a shock that he could even grip the gun. His eyes were going wild, he couldn’t look at something for barely a second before moving to something else. “My head… it hurts…”

“What’s going on? Rika.” Vs voice made your heart hurt. It had been so long since you had last heard his voice. You never thought that this would be where you would see each other in person again.

“My head… I feel like my head’s going to explode!!” Saeran cried in pain. Barely being able to stand up straight. Rika yelled at her followers to stay calm. She said something about a test but you had stopped listening to her, focused on Saeran as he threatened to shoot.

“Saviour, there’s no way you’d do this to me… you’re the one who saved me. You’re the first one to truly love me…! You never betray me! No way you’d to this to me… but you’ve changed… ever since that man came…!”

Saeran pointed his gun at V and you eyes widened. Vs face contorted into one of confusion, not realizing he was the target. “This is all because of you… it’s all because of you… that this happened to me!!!”

You scrambled to your feet, running to V. Jumping infront of him before Saeran could shoot him. Pain filled your senses as the bullet hit you in the chest and they let out a cry.

V called out to you in shock and you could barely reply, blood filling your mouth. “Ji…hyun”. Then you collapsed.

V put it together quickly. The loud noise, the smell of blood, your voice breaking as you struggled to say his name, and then the sound of you falling. He dropped to his knees on the ground and searched for you with panic, cursing himself for not being able to see you.

His hand landed in a pool of your blood. His eyes filled with tears as he felt your body. Your shivers made him let out a quiet sob, calling your name again.

Using their your minimal strength you tried to reach your hand up to Vs face, barely making it before he grabbed it after feeling it on his cheek. “Please…… don’t cry”. Your words just made him more upset. Your breathing was shallow and V choked on another sob. “I-I love you…… Jihyun”

Your hand went limp in his and V felt like his heart had stopped. He let out a cry of agony and begged you to speak, move, breath, literally do anything. He hugged you close to his body while crying.

“No! No no no!!! Please don’t leave me…!!! Wake up please! Oh god please!!”

V felt so selfish. He wasn’t deserving of your love and he knew this. He’d just taint you with his love like he did Rika, but he loved you too, so much that he could barely breath when he thought of you. He never said anything though, never had a plan to express his overwhelming love. It was just another secret he planned to take to his grave. Another one that had been exposed since MC joined.

“I’m so sorry! My love does nothing but hurt everyone around me…!”

V didn’t even notice when Jumins security came in. Only when he was pried off of your body did he realize and he fought back, trying to reach out to you again. He begged the security to let him hold onto you again.

He knew he didn’t deserve your love. He didn’t deserve the love of anyone. He was the worst and he’d have to live with that forever. Live with that even with his lies and him being an accomplice to Rika in the end, you still loved him.

The worst part was that he will love you until the day he dies. He’ll make himself love you forever so he’ll suffer everyday. Knowing he is the reason for your death. He deserved to suffer, to live in pain and torment.

“I’ll love you until the end of time. It’s the best I can give you after taking your precious life away.”

[tripleorderoftopperstix]

Yuletide letter 2023

Things I really like: third-person limited (one POV character), canon-divergent AUs/fics that are set in the canon world*, soulmate tropes

Hello author! This is my second Yuletide and first one where I realized I should write a letter. Feel free to poke around here (my main blog) or my AO3 (gandmvsm or tripleorderstix, I don't really know how pseuds work lmao) if you want to know anything more about me or what I like!

Actual letter content below the readmore!

Things I usually don't like: most other AUs, permanent major character death, first- or second-person, more violence than canon-typical, POV character pregnancy, on-screen rape/sexual assault

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Strict DNWs: adult/child romantic or sexual relationships, pregnancy, detailed body horror (implied/offscreen is ok), omegaverse

Requests:

*To give an example, I wouldn't be interested in a standard coffee shop AU for Supernatural, but I would be interested in a Supernatural coffee shop AU where demons and monsters still exist on-screen, but Sam and Dean's main gig just happens to be working in a coffee shop instead of being hunters. (...This explanation may have made things less clear, sorry!)

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Higurashi - Rika, Satoko

I love the original VN, anime, and Gou, I just didn't love how Sotsu was an exact retread of Gou instead of its own arcs. I'd love to see any expansion of that world, though! Is there a loop we didn’t see? Something post-Sotsu? A sidebar from a loop we did see, but with a different focus? I also know and love Umineko also if you want to work in any details from that canon. (I don't know anything about Ciconia, so feel free to include but any references will go over my head.)

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I'm very into Satoko and Rika's unhealthy relationship, in any form - romantic, platonic, somewhere in between. I'm very much /not/ into romantic Mion/Shion, Satoko/Satoshi, or adult/child romantic relationships. Any other characters and/or relationships you want to include are welcome!

AI: The Somnium Files - Bibi, Ryuki

Spoiler warning for AI:NI, although if you matched on this fandom you already know what's up

I'm so so fond of all the members of ABIS, and I think we should have gotten more interactions between Ryuki and Bibi. I'd love to see how they interact when Ryuki isn't in the middle of a literal mental breakdown. Or maybe when he is, if that's something that inspires you! Besides the requested characters, I also love Date, Mizuki, and Boss, and of course Tama and Aiba.

You can include any other characters or relationships you're interested in!

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Zero Escape - Akane, Junpei

Akane is my problematic girlboss fave and whatever other buzzword you want to apply to her. I'm in love with her and want any story that features her front and center. I love how she can be so cold about what needs to be done, but she does still care about people, at least to their face. Her relationship with Junpei in particular is just so juicy - sure we got two and a half games or so of it, but I want more!

Of the three games, 999 is my favorite game, so something set before/during/between it and ZTD would be fantastic. Snake, Clover, and Santa are my other favorites from that game if you're inspired to include them!

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Taskmaster - Alex, Greg

And now for something completely different after a string of visual novels. Taskmaster on its own would already interest me because I love funny people doing stupid things, but then whatever the fuck Alex and Greg have going on fascinates me. I also have a huge celebrity crush on Alex.

Greg/Alex is the popular ship for a reason and I'd love to see something about them, but if you want to go into any other ships or platonic relationships instead or in addition, please do! I'd prefer any family or real-life relationships be ignored, or treated as if they never existed. E.g. Alex and Rachel just never met in the world of your fic.

Unlike my other requests, some of my favorite fics for this fandom have been AUs! As long as there's still Greg and Alex's BDSM thing going ON, I'm happy with any setting. If you aim more towards "canon," I'm a huge fan of the studio banter.

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Powerwash Simulator - worldbuilding

This game has the weirdest lore. Imagine future humans (or possibly aliens? Still not sure!) showing up in your society and saying hey, you need to worship a power washer so that this volcano in definitely-not-England doesn't erupt and kill everyone. What does that even look like?

Or, you work at the mayor's office and he's definitely not sacrificing the entire town's cats to said volcano. Of course not! How do you deal with that??

These are just two ideas off the top of my head. Don't feel limited by those prompts, I want to see anything that goes beyond the handful of text messages you receive in-game!

[chiarrara]

So I think it turns out I've been writing the prequel? to the chat fic? the silly chat fic I haven't written yet. some highlights from my notes:

Trying to figure out the world building:

lmao what if it's more like mob psycho 100?

so how many of these reforms were in place before and how many are because of what happened to geto? what did happen to geto?

WHAT WOULD CHANGE FOR JUNPEI?????????????

also, they're wrong about the race science and bloodline shit. you can learn techniques and the idea that you can't is a big fucking lie. I mean, Yuuta did it. "that's his technique" oh yeah, where'd he learn that, huh??

who is doing research? there are a couple universities with jujutsu studies departments, but it's treated in larger society as a science that isn't fully understood or accepted yet. i can't think of an equivalent ... general public doesn't really know about it, doesn't understand it, or doesn't believe in it. Like queer studies, then, maybe??? something like that*

(*oops I kinda turned all of Jujutsu society into a queer allegory??? my baaaadd)

Trying to figure out what happened to Geto:

the star plasma incident happened. geto had his lil breakdown (did a bunch of murders????)

gojo uses yuuta as bait maybe? lmao jfc he would though.

why did gojo even kill geto? because they wanted to stop him and so gojo had to kill him....??? why the fuck would he do that????

is shoko going to basically do treason?

geto is imprisoned - his family is not gonna take well to that...

torture dungeon mind games?

(shoko is the key!)

geto is like fucking kill me idc

*lots of eye contact fuckery

the moment in the manga where geto says yuuta hadn't learned to USE rika and he turned and sacrificed himself to her is VERY IMPORTANT! it's the look on geto's face

GOJO HAS NOT TAKEN HIS EYES OFF GETO

geto is Not Doing Well. very much weak and wheezing 

monkeys brainrot

Shoko goes on a RANT and tears into these two fuckers:

"both of you are being self centered. you only think about saving him, and you only think about saving yourself."

"all this power and what would you do with it? kill everyone you could? you haven't done it in ten years, and you were plenty strong before."

"you left and you pushed him away. and me, by the way."

"you don't actually like to be alone, do you? or else why surround yourself with people you clearly think are below you?"

"get over your high school angst and join the rest of us in reality"

And this entire SatoSugu conversation (with subtext!):

St: when you left St: why did you push me away? St: did you think i would follow you? Sg: *nods* St: i probably wouldn't have massacred all non-sorcerers like you wanted Sg: i know ... St: why did you leave (why did you leave me) Sg:i couldn't be who i was anymore (i didn't think you could love me when you saw who i truly was (I didn't want you to reject me (i believed i was inherently someone you would reject))) Sg: why did you bring me back (why aren't you rejecting me (you should)) St: I'll always bring you back (i would never reject you) Sg: but you would never come with me, would you (you believe you can fix me but I'm too damaged (and much too far gone)) St: you would never ask me to (you're not too far gone because you still love me (and i love you)) ... St: anyway, shoko's right. i am selfish. ...and so are you. Sg: i can't live in a world like this, satoru St: well that's too bad St: because I'm selfish St: Suguru

ok but why did i start planning a chat fic last night and accidentally invented an entire parallel canon universe with stsg fix it elements???? I haven't even read far enough in canon to know this much about jujutsu society yet here i am. reforming it.

[suzuki-violin-school]

rating my old wattpad drafts/stories

This is just gonna be one long self callout post but I do think it's gonna be funny

"Persona 5 oneshots" (published) - actually pretty decent for what it is but there's only three published parts. fortunately the published ones are actually better than the three unpublished drafts oof- 7/10

"🥺ruv" (draft) - I don't want to talk about this and also I put way too much effort into attempting Russian dialogue 1/10

"The Queen {Ben Hardy as Roger Taylor x Reader}" (published) - out of every fic I've ever written and across every fanfiction platform I've used, this is the most successful fic. I've held the number one spot in several tags and still hold high spots 1000/10

"ni no kuni ii revenant kingdom oneshots" (published) - 10/10 only because I could not for the life of me find any nnk2 fanfiction out there so I wrote my own (it's not good though, although I am using it as a fandomswap AU with bnha)

"The Contract" (draft) - it had potential when it was just a concept but execution was terrible. It took a turn for the worse and now has the same vibes as being sold to one direction. the plot was sign this contract and you marry loki and teach him earth etiquette so he doesn't go on an alien murder rampage again 0/10

"Loki x reader bumbles" (draft) - what the fuck is a bumble? it ended up splitting into three different fics all at once and they were all bad. One was overworked maid reader is assigned as loki's personal caretaker, one was Tony stark's little sister babysits loki on the regular while the avengers are out Doing Thingsᵀᴹ (that one was titled trash gremlin), and the other was Loki finds out his lover lied to him about her past and gets mad at her and she breaks down and goes into a coma for hundreds of years and when she reawakens Asgard is destroyed and Loki's dead 2/10

"multifandom oneshots requests only" (unpublished) - it ruined my life -1000/10

"a foreign trickster" (draft) - 9/10 on potential I might come back to this one and try to fix it. it's a post-game persona 5 fic about a half-Japanese girl moving to Japan from America except she was a part of a group similar to the phantom thieves and the metaverse reappears when she arrives maybe 4/10 overall

"My Best Friend" (published) - glorious although maybe not the best quality. It's a Brian May x childhood friend reader fic and for most of the beginning every other chapter is a childhood memory 9/10

"You digifucked up" (draft) - I don't wanna talk about it 0/10

"hfjavnbchvxgyjgmbnas" (draft) - I have no idea what this was supposed to be but it ended up as a three paragraph disgrace of a roy mustang fic 0/10

"Is orochimaru babie" (draft) - one point for each chapter none of them were good and the only actual substance was a breakdown fic 2/10

"Naruto x reader oneshots" (published) - pretty okay, has a decent amount of reads and comments 5/10

"Me, having watched five episodes: hnnngh fanfic" (draft) - 10/10 for nostalgia, first bnha fic I ever wrote. Is actually a great idea and is in the works to be reworked and posted here on tumblr as a cyo multichap like a 6/10 overall

"Peter Parker x Avenger Reader" (draft) - no <3 it was about Peter and his girlfriend both mutually breaking up with each other because they're both tony's underlings and they slowly fall for each other's superhero alter egos 0/10

"Yoosungi~" (draft) - I started writing a yoosung fic where reader was his best friend at school and was mad that he was obsessing over mc being 'just like rika uwu' and then it slowly turned into reader unfriending him and moving in with seven and then dating seven I don't know what happened there 0/10

"Land" (unpublished) - first noncon fic I ever wrote but I don't wanna get into it. Also the title was originally a keysmash but it autocorrected to land and I kept it 1/10

"Nigihayami Kohakunushi x reader" (draft) - wow conceited much? -10/10

"Howl & Sophie but not bc fight" (draft) - I was jealous of an anime girl and needed a fix-it fic 0/10

"Akiba's Beat" (draft) - ongoing pet project of mine. one of those fics that is for me and me only. gets a good rating because I love it. nearing 700 chapters and it's like seventeen different stories going on at once but I am in love with basically everyone in that game (bar mippity mop and saki) 10000000/10

"Toxin" (draft) - the only oc insert fic I've ever written and it was partially for a friend but also it's like four paragraphs of my oc waking up in orochimaru's lab with amnesia and meeting my friend's oc 0/10

"Queen Texts" (published) - gets fairly good interaction for some reason. I only wrote it to jump on the "group chat text fic" bandwagon I don't understand the hype also none of the jokes were funny ?? 6/10

"BNHA oneshots" (draft) - by 'oneshots' I guess I meant half a kaminari fic and a decent start to a decent shigaraki fic, might circle back to that one actually idk 0/10

"double-edged sword" (draft) - good concept? the first crossover fic I ever attempted. I got impatient after writing the first chapter though so the second chapter is a massive time skip to the juicer parts of the story thank god no one else has ever seen this 5/10

"more persona 5 bullshit" (draft) - the concept was ok and the execution was okay but it was also kinda ??? reader was Akira's sister and hooked up with Yusuke and Akira got mad and then reader 'woke a persona' except not she was just a floating jester who had some power pertaining to confidants' tarot cards or something 3/10

"No Secrets Spilled" (draft) - another persona 5 fic I had an obsession I'm aware. I have no idea what the fuck was happening it was about a reader who's super good at keeping secrets, one of those secrets being she's the sidekick to a cyber criminal being hunted by the phantom thieves 2/10

"Coaster Crazy" (draft) - a Joe mazzello fic about aspiring actress reader getting cast as his love interest in a film called coaster crazy. I liked it but I gave up on it because it was too much effort trying to come up with a 'script' for a 'film' 5/10

"Queenies: Rated M for Mature" (unpublished) - was a collaboration with some friends who turned out to be a bunch backstabbing motherfuckers -10/10 bad memories

"sky rim one shots?" (meant to be read in the same tone as bill wurtz saying majapahit) (draft) - it is simply one draft that was barely even a start to a fic. an elf banished from the silver crescents comes to Delvin to join the guild. she was banished because she kept wasting her earnings trying to find her best friend (lover) Nir for years and years and years. Turns out Nir changed his name to Niruin when his father disowned him 4/10

"the rfa is one big party" (draft) - gives off vibes like a fic from 2011. it's equal parts zen x jaehee, seven x yoosung, reader x jumin, except it's like a gazillion chapters of buildup (all through 'texts') that slowly leads to everyone living together and that's literally as far as I got 1/10

"BoRhap Cast/Queen Trioshots" (unpublished) - trioshots are not a real thing I don't think I'm pretty sure I made that up but they should be (only just now realizing they are a thing but they're called trilogies) they should be more common in fanfiction I think anyway they were pretty bad it would be 5/10 but I'm subtracting points for a particularly sad trioshot about roger's girlfriend reader being cheated on and then realizing her best friend John is the perfect man for her so 1/10

"akiba's beat x persona 5 crossover fic" (draft) - been there done that and didn't even try to give it a better title. this one was about reader being a hacker and doing basically the same thing Futaba did to try and lure the phantom thieves to violet eden because she was suspicious about the metaverse and delusions being similar 0/10

"Candy Shop fanfiction" (draft) - gonna be straight up with this one: this was fanfiction of a porn game series about a dude named Andy fucking girls made of different types of candy (and one time also fucking his coworker who is the daughter of satan) -10/10 not a good thought

"...even more persona 5 bullshit" (draft) - I really gave up with titles, huh. In which reader is a quiet reserved girl in Akira's class who occasionally skips a day of school and comes back the next day having pulled a stunt like keying a teacher's car or tp-ing the school. anyway ryuji found a secret admirer note (from reader obviously) and found out it was her and tried to ask her out but Ann reminded him they were going to do "charity work" after school but then Y/n followed them into Kamoshida's castle and ended up waking a persona not even for herself, she was just mad Kamoshida hurt Ryuji lmao 0/10

"[redacted] x me" (draft) - not me fantasizing about my hot teacher oop- 0/10 he'd think it's creepy and so do I

"Jareth is a babie" (draft) - the reader was Sarah's niece and she gave her the book for her birthday and then reader wandered into the underground and met jareth and that's where it ended 1/10

"LOLOL" (draft) - back in the days of good ol' RinMaru Games, I used all the necromancer makers and warrior makers and thief makers and based all their designs on MC and then tried to write a yoosung fic that took place almost entirely in the world of lolol 2/10 I miss rinmaru so much

"oh okay" (draft) - literally I just wrote the lead up and the part where you go to the dawnstar sanctuary and see arnbjorn and then go inside to find Cicero except I made the reader character yell responses to everything Cicero said 0/10

"I'm a dangerous man, MC" (draft) - written before I completed Seven's route, and I have never played other story, so I have no idea what I was thinking. Based solely on the fact that seven doesn't shut up about being dangerous, I decided to write some bullshit fic about Saeran hacking the reader's phone to stop contact with her bff seven oh seven and slowly manipulate her into thinking "oh wait is he serious? is he dangerous?" and eventually coercing her into letting him "kidnap" her and they basically run away together and seven is after them the whole time to rescue the reader and idk it was weird 1/10 just because I spent too much time on it

"it's just more jareth" (draft) - three chapters of my venting about the backstabbing motherfuckers from "queenies: rated m for mature" (see above). it was supposed to be a comfort fic where I dump my "friends" and wish for jareth to take me away and then he does and we fall in love but I didn't get very far 1/10

"Cheydinhal" (draft) - another ongoing pet project, slowly growing into a longer and longer sob story. It starts far in the past, when Cicero first moves into the cheydinhal sanctuary after his home in bruma is destroyed. he makes friends with a fellow member of the Black Hand and then one day she disappears (it's called a prison sentence, cicero, she was tried for murder) and then they're separated for years but meet again decades later on the roads of Skyrim. reunited, they fall in love. nazir is confused 1000000/10 my favorite wip

"no thanks" (draft) - ??? like three sentences??? I think it was an OHSHC fic??? 0/10

"Cicero not even oneshots anymore" (draft) - Serana's sister reader falls in love with the jester basically 0/10 not good at all

"Sims 4 boyfriend imagines" (draft) - I lost a bet. the only thing there is vampire au imagines. I wanna hate this but I think about soft Vlad too often 5/10

"My Name Is Me" (draft) - literally what the fuck. this was an original thing and not fanfiction but ??? It's about a kid named Me You what the fuck. Anyway his secret spy uncle dies and it's up to Me and his friends to finish his uncle's last mission idk 0/10

"fanfiction mistakes that piss me off" (draft) - would've been popular in 2008 I think. the entire first chapter is just the word orbs a bunch of times. I also called my general audience "thottie ass hoes" but only specifically if they "don't read a/n 's (author's note)" 0/10

"The Princess {Joe Mazzello x Reader}" (draft) - it was supposed to be a sequel to "The Queen" (mentioned up there somewhere^^) but there's literally nothing there it's a blank document you guys wtf 0/10

"this*has*no*plot" (draft) - another original thing. I didn't get far with it but it's about a beautiful princess with lots of suitors but no will to get married so she sneaks out of her window one night and goes on an adventure except she keeps meeting interesting people who are the main character of their own stories whereas she is a temporary side character in all of their stories. It's meant to seem as if there no movement in the story, just her being a stepping stone in other stories that we do not follow 0/10

"pleas" (draft) - another original thing but I'll be damned if I can tell you what it's about. Time travel? Super powers? A bunch of different characters who all knew this "max" guy at different time periods and he leads them all to a wine cellar hidden in a forest at a certain point in time and then there's like five of "max" but all different ages?? Idk bruv 3/10 for being kinda interesting I guess

here are some notable moments from things that will never see the light of day:

[kirishwima]

soulmate au 30 for Jumin x mc and yoosung x mc? pretty please?

30. Every so often you will get flashes of what your soulmate is seeing at the time, however your soulmate does not know when it happens. ok listen, i get how cute and/or heartbreaking this can be but like,,,,imagine the funny potential djdjksaljd

JUMIN:

* His first flash came unexpectedly-he was at school, another boring class dragging on and on, the view of Jihyun’s messy mint hair more interesting than whatever historical fact the teacher was rambling on about, when his eyes blinked, and suddenly the scenery changed, odd and unfamiliar, his heart stammering in his chest at the sight

* He was still seated, still a desk in front of him-but gone was the pricey mahogany of his private school’s classroom, instead a different, white-painted desk beneath his hands-his black pencilcase replaced with a white one, a cat-face key-chain dangling from its zipper, fingers-were they his own? No, they were far too different, but they were fumbling with the cat ears, flicking one between their thumb and index finger-

* He heard a voice calling out, an unfamiliar voice, an even more unfamiliar name-but before he could even begin to comprehend what was happening the scenery was gone, replaced with the view of his very furstrated teacher standing over his own, normal desk, Jihyun’s worried gaze turned to him with furrowed brows.

* Without bothering to give anyone an explanation, Jumin simply excused himself, leaving class early. 

* He didn’t speak of it to anyone until it happened again and again-as he caught more and more glimpses of this persons’ life, how he’d see their hands, fumbling with their phone in bed, looking up one thing after another online, or he’d see them in an alleway, see their knees as they bent down to coo at a nearby stray cat.

* The only person he eventually confided in was Jihyun-he told him his genuine concern, how he was afraid he was going mad, how else could he explain it all?

* Jihyun merely shook his head, a small smile on his lips-Jumin couldn’t be sure, but something about that smile didn’t feel right, as if it didn’t belong on his friend’s face. 

* “You’re one of the lucky ones Jumin. That’s your soulmate.”

* Jumin...didn’t know what to do with that information. So he very simply didn’t do anything. What use were these glimpses into a strangers life to him? And what use was it to them, to see glimpses of his own life?

* He became more self conscious, worried everytime he’d be caught doing something wrong, something inapprorpiate-he’d keep his interaction with his father and the random women that came home with him to a minimum, worried his soulmate would see-but why was he worried? Why should he care if they saw or not?

* Yet he carried on this way for years-he’d smile everytime he saw anything cat-related, remembering the flashes of his soulmate’s life, their love for cats; they’d recently adopted a black cat, a curious little thing that spent most of its time on their lap, their hands scratching behind its ears, or perched atop their shoulder like a parrot, as they’d turn their head to face it, the cat happily chirping at them in return.

* That’s the very first thought he had when Rika had presented him Elizabeth the 3d. Had his soulmate seen her? Had they gotten the same rush of excitement he did as she blinked up at him, as she used his lap as a pillow?

* He wondered what it’d be like if their two cats met, a black and white mess in a shared home, tails intertwined as they sat together, hand in hand, watching them-

* Shaking his head, he tried to put that thought out of his mind. After all, he had no plans to meet them. How could he? 

* ...how could he accept he’d been falling in love with someone he’d never even met?

YOOSUNG:

* His first glimpse into their life was....rather embarassing.

* He’d just come home from school, exhausted as exam season was right around the corner, college applications haunting his every waking moment-the only thing he wanted was to hop into the shower come out as a full-time employee of a high-paying firm.

* And he did-almost that, letting the water wash the stress of the day away, happily humming a song as he lathered shampoo into his hair, shutting his eyes to avoid any stray soap reaching them-

* -only to find an unfamiliar scene greet him as soon as he opened them again?! 

* He’d been in his shower, at his home-that much he was sure of so how-how was he outside right now?! How was he sitting in a park, a sandwich in his hands, and-there were people around him?! But he’s naked!

* He tried to cover up his body but his hands just wouldn’t follow, but as he looked closer-those hands were...manicured? Wait, he’s pretty sure he doesn’t have pastel pink coloured nails, unless his sister pranked him again...

* Oh! Oh, this is his soulmate!

* His initial shriek of fear became an excited scream, his eyes trying to soak up everything they could about his soulmate, ignoring his current predicament as he took in the faces of their friends, the colour of their jeans, even the contents of their sandwich, what they liked and disliked, anything and everything about this scene-

* Only to remember his position as soon as the glimpse into their life faded, his own body greeting him once again, the water stinging his eyes as he looked around manically.

* “Wait” he mumbled, eyes wide, “if I saw into their life....and they can see into mine...”

* His poor mom couldn’t ever understand what the context behind her son yelling ‘DID THEY SEE MY D*CK?!” could be as his voice echoed through the entire house.

* Throughout the years he tried to find out as much info as he could about his soulmate-he found out they loved coffee, that they didn’t really like sweet things, since he saw them refusing sugary treats from their friends more than once, unless they were on a diet-which he’d be sure to tell them they didn’t need to unless they absoloutely wanted to! He doesn’t want his soulmate to think they’re not beautiful, he huffed, all the little things that made up their personality, little quirks and habits that made him fall more and more in love.

* He hoped they could see him too, could see things about him they liked-but as he looked around at his bleak life, the only light illuminating his room being the computer screen...he highly doubted it.

* Rika’s death tore him apart, and he knew his soulmate must’ve caught more than a small glimpse of his breakdown, the countless nights he spend crying, how he’d nod off in school because he spent his nights staring at the ceeling, a million thoughts racing through his mind.

* Yet somehow he knew-he knew his soulmate wasn’t the type of person to judge him for it.

* The fated day came when, during his orientation day at university, another flash came to him-a glimpse into his soulmate’s world...

* Only...they were looking at the same view as him? It was the same university, the exact same area-they must be in the orientation tour too!

* And-he saw himself, a blonde bob of hair a few meters ahead of them, could see his own shoulders tense in excitement, how his feet stopped his fast-paced walk-as did theirs, their gaze solely focused on him.

* He turned in a flash, scanning the faces of his fellow colleagues-until he found them. 

* He didn’t have to know what they looked like to know this was his soulmate. The way their eyes widened as they saw him, how their lips turned into a soft smile, their hands coming up to their reddened cheeks-he knew.

* Before his confidence could waver, he walked to them, gait shaky, extending a hand to them.

* “It’s...it’s nice to finally meet you.” he said.

* They looked up to him, their eyes clear, holding so much emotion-Yoosung couldn’t wait to begin to untangle this Ariadne’s tangle in their gaze.

* “I-you too” they stumbled over their words, “It’s funny I-I didn’t expect we’d meet like this-I don’t know you yet I feel like-like I’ve known you for a lifetime.”

* Yoosung laughed, clenching their hand tight as they shook his, remaining quiet-what was there even to say?

* His soulmate had nailed it right on the head.

* “Yeah” he said, “yeah, me too-but I can’t wait to spend another lifetime getting to know you”

listen Yoosung is a sappy romantic and once he becomes bold enough he’ll be the sappiest boo ever no u cant change my mind-

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[mysticmelove]

Hi! I really love your writing! Can you write a fic where MC has been nothing but supportive of Jumin while he was dealing with the consequences of V and Rika actions, but one day Jumin finds her crying in the arms of a character of your choice. She was crying because she is mad at V and Rika for treating him like that, causing him so much pain but she feels she can't show her pain to him and complicate things more for him (is basically how I feel lol) make it pretty please? Thanks!!

*Follow the event of the Secret ending, with the change of MC ending up with Jumin rather than Seven.

Hidden grief

(Jumin x MC) [slight angst]

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The days, though to the outside world were nothing out of the usual, only seemed to be rolling over slower and slower with each passing day. The events had rattled the whole group without a doubt: Yoosung was absolutely distraught about everything he had come to know, Seven couldn’t even find the words to describe how betrayed he felt, Jaehee was struggling to keep things in line as she felt she had to, Zen didn’t know how to react, and Jumin… Jumin tried so very hard to ignore the situation and get on with life as normal. That was the default answer to every problem at its core. Continue as normal and there’d be minor consequences to the actions which had been unforeseen; his work wouldn’t suffer and neither would he. Yet, MC knew otherwise. 

They hadn’t been together long but he had felt more comfortable in her presence than he had in anyone else’s. He hadn’t been afraid to express himself and his feeling around her; she was his haven, his sanctuary, and the light he so dearly loved. But Jumin was mourning- grieving the death of the closest friend he had and questioning the friendship he so dearly relied on in his youth and up until now. He may have appeared as level headed and stoic to everyone else but MC could see so clearly past that, he was aching and hurting but was so adamant it was the opposite. 

His mind, bless him, was a mess. The threads within his head tangled relentlessly, forming kinks and knots to a scale he’d never experience before. MC could clear his head within an instant but this was just too big to simply be tackled by her angelic words or actions. Still, he had to keep that demeanour she knew in tact the best he could; his threads and issues would no longer just effect him, he had his love at his side, and his fiancée mattered to him more than anything else. The memories of his, now seemingly irrelevant, youth played repetitively in his mind with every passing second, but life had to continue and he had to keep things as normal a physically possible- for the business, himself, and MC.

“Jumin, darling… Are you coming to bed?” His fiancée’s voice filled the small space of his home office from where she stood in the doorway. Her voice was quiet, caring, and as gentle as ever and she clutched as the fabric of her nightgown over her chest. 

Jumin tapped his pen on his desk, his eyes now struggling to stay focused on the sheets of paperwork before him. “I have an important meeting tomorrow.”

Quiet as a mouse, MC’s footsteps were barely audible as she stepped closer to his desk. “It’s so late, Jumin…” her voice was calming as her hands moved to hold herself reassuringly. 

“I know,” he looked to her figure, she was barely shaking- cold- and tired, he pitied her for the situation he had inevitably put her in, “I just need to get this finished.”

“You’re overworking yourself… You need time to rest after what’s happened.” Jumin’s eyes subtly met her’s; they were so full of pain and anger but he wouldn’t say as much.

He was quick to ignore her comments: “Go to bed, MC. It’s not good for your health to stay awake until these hours.”

“And your health?” She questioned, her tone more adamant now. “I need you to be okay as well. Please, just come to bed.” Her pleas were heartfelt and genuine as the fabric in her knuckles creased into a mess of wrinkles. 

He swallowed thickly, “I need to get this done.”

“Fine.” MC sighed heavily as she released the material she had been holding captive in her frail hands. “Well, I’m going back to bed,” she turned reluctantly to leave the room, here eyes pinned on the oak flooring. 

Jumin watched her, full of so much regret when he realised that she had only wanted what was truly best for him in the situation. “MC,” he called for her weakly as she crossed the fresh hold of the doorway. She hummed in response, back still facing him. “…I love you…”

MC’s eyes scrunched together at his words; he hadn’t said that in a couple weeks and she had to stop her tears from spilling. Nodding to herself, she took a deep breath: “I know…”

Defeated, MC made the silent walk of shame back to their bedroom to fall asleep alone in that king sized bed once again. Then again, that had just become the routine, hadn’t it? She’d beg him each night to rest, to just lay down with her and let his mind be at ease for the first time in a long time, but he’d become distant. Distant to her at least. His job was at the forefront of everything and she knew he meant no harm by putting space between them while he healed the best he could, but it was painful nonetheless. She didn’t cry that night, she hadn’t been reduced to tears from the emotional strain everything was causing, yet it was an extremely restless night. 

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Maybe it had been another week- MC had completely lost track of the days between keeping herself in check and trying to be the emotional support her fiance needed. It was draining to try and get through to him: so many nights were spent telling him to just rest and forget the job for one second, mornings were spent telling him he couldn’t possibly go into work when he hadn’t slept more than an hour at a time, visits to the office were fruitless, and then there were the joyous nights where he’d breakdown completely.  

It would only ever be when he thought she was asleep; he’d let all those pent up feelings go and just cry for hours on end, occasionally he’d even vent his feelings out loud- his words venomous and disgusting, so unlike Jumin. Sometimes she’d let him cry, just give him time to be by himself, but most of the time she’d creep out of the bedroom and just sit beside him. MC told him everything was okay and that it was okay to feel that way, her words often fell upon deaf ears but she was there for him. She was there every second of every day to pick up the pieces V and his psychotic fiancée had so abruptly dropped.

MC had tried in the beginning to keep a level head and ignore her feeling in the situation, of course they were inferior to how her husband was feeling. However, after all the time she spent watching the effects of their actions play out she’d only grown to feel complete and utter anger towards what they had let happen. It vexed her beyond belief but as long as they once were one of the most important aspects in Jumin’s life she couldn’t dare tell him how she felt about everything.

After multiple hints of her agitation and how exhausted she was, Zen insisted they spend the day doing something fun while Jumin was at work to take her mind off of things. MC didn’t agree at first but it didn’t take much convincing to get her to leave the penthouse. It was, without a doubt, one of the most relaxing days she’d had in a long time. They had brunch together, went to a spa, got facials, you name it and Zen had suggested it. He knew just how to clear her mind of all those intrusive thoughts and was glad to listen when she just wanted to talk. 

The ‘talking’, as such, came in the evening after she’d offered for him to stay and eat dinner with her after getting the expected news that Jumin would be working late. They’d both had minor amounts of alcohol when he asked the simple question of ‘Are you dealing with everything okay?’ MC hesitated at his words for a moment before she nodded uneasily: “I’m fine…” she took a deep breath as she looked to the glass beside her, “Jumin is more hurt than he’s letting on though.”

“I assumed as much.” The woman was shocked to hear such a response: Zen wasn’t too fond of her fiancé and everyone was well aware. He continued: “I mean, there’s no way anyone can continue as normal in that situation.”

MC sighed heavily, “I think… I think he’s trying to stay strong for everyone else… But I don’t want him to be strong for me.” 

“He’s protecting you.”

Reclining, she choked on her words: “I know, but I don’t want him to protect me. He needs- He needs to look after himself.” Zen watched her silently with concern spread across his face as she watched tears threaten to leave her eyes. “He’s still grieving. Alone and upset in his own secluded head space where I can’t help him… And I fucking hate them for doing that to him!” Those final words came off of her tongue with an amount of spite and hatred she had not even expected to come out of her, all the while tears were now streaming freely down her flushed cheeks.

“Don’t cry…” he barely spoke above a whisper as he crossed the space to sit beside her, wrapping a gentle arm around her shoulders and caressing her hand. 

“I’m sorry,” she sobbed, “I just- I don’t want him to have to feel that way.”

Zen hushed her: “You don’t need to apologise, MC. You’re hurting as much as anyone else and of course it’s hard to see him suffering in silence.”

She nodded trying to calm herself and stop the out pour of sudden emotion, wiping the back of her hand across her face. Zen just let her breathe, rubbing her back in assurance to show he was just there for her. 

Like clockwork, the sound of the door opening was heard throughout the penthouse, followed by an agitated exhale of none other than her fiancé. MC gasped, making a quick attempt to hide the fact she’d been crying. However, Zen didn’t hesitate to stop her, grabbing her hand and giving her a look which told her everything would be okay. 

Jumin’s voice erupted, as deadpanned as it had been for quite some time, “MC, I’m sorry I missed—” He stopped in his paces when he saw her crying in the other man’s arms. “MC… What… What’s wrong?” He took a few steps closer, hesitant and cautious like some worried animal. 

“I’ll leave you two,” Zen stood from the chair, rubbing a circle on her back once more. “I’ll see myself out. MC, if you need anything just call me, okay?” MC nodded to him, her breath still held captive in the back of her throat. 

Jumin almost didn’t acknowledge the other man as he passed him, his eyes too focused on his love crying before him. A pang of guilt hit him as he saw her weep; he felt it to be one of the only true emotions he’d felt in awhile. “God… I’m so sorry, MC. I hadn’t even stopped to think of what I was doing to you,” Jumin was down on his knees before her before she would interrupt him.

“You- you didn’t cause this, Jumin,” she croaked through broken sobs. He looked up at her in confusion, his eyes full of more colour than those dull ones she’d been looking into desperately for weeks. “I’m just upset about all you’ve been put through.”

“…What?”

“Jumin, they’ve caused you so much pain.” MC explained bluntly, her hands clutched in her lap. “I know you want to be strong but I know how much you’re really hurting.”

He paused, his mind filtering through both the good and bad memories of his ‘closest’ friends. “No… No. They meant me no harm.”

“I know,” she cooed, her hand cupping his cheek and she watched his face grimace and grow with confusion. “They probably didn’t… But you are hurting, Jumin, and that’s okay. This isn’t a normal situation and you need to express how you really feel or things aren’t going to get better.”

“But I’m fine,” he pleaded.

“I haven’t seen you smile in so long,” she sniffled and smiled pitifully. “We both know that’s not true.” He fell completely silent, his eyes focused on something she could not see. “…It’ll get better… You’ll heal and we can deal with this together, okay?” MC smiled again, rubbing a finger over his cheek, growing slowly wetter as he let himself breathe a sigh of relief. 

His eyes met her’s, looking truly into those eye’s he’d fell so deeply in love with, “…I love you…”

“I love you too.”

[fanfictionconnectionwordpress]

okay..i have a request that i think would be funny + i love your writing. can you do a hc with the RFA + Minor Trio with an MC who is pretty ditzy & clumsy? Like she's not duMB...but she's really slow & doesn't always understand things. it's cute though.. oblivious and innocent i guess. xD

***T_T ditzy MC’s make my brain hurt a little lol, let’s see how the characters do…hmm  Imma see what I can do with this mega clutz ~Let’s Connect! FFC***

Characterbreakdown: Good ending canon characters, Secret ending 02 Saeran, V from theoriginal routes with an operation to restore most of his sight, my version ofVanderwood as seen in my VanderwoodBackstory Fanfiction

V:

You’re knocking into things and hurting yourself so often that he actually worries that Rika hurt your eyes too

V can’t see anymore, so he doesn’t actually know you’re just a mega clutz, and you’re always so confused when he says things like ‘it’s alright, MC, you don’t have to tell me, but I hope one day you’ll trust me with the story’ What is he blabbering about?

Eventually, V decides to go through with eye surgery, because he just can’t get around very well with all the things you knock onto the ground tripping him all the time

Well….once he recovers he’ll know you’re just a giant clutz at least???

-

Saeran:

It seems like every time he asks you to complete a task, you manage to completely destroy whatever room you were in while doing it

Saeran isn’t the neatest person around, but he finds it incredibly irritating that you take so long to complete simple things just because you’re tripping and falling all over the place

He finds your clumsiness supremely annoying, no matter how…cutesy and giggly you are about it, so he just takes to assigning you to sit somewhere whenever something needs to be done.

Does he have to do everything around here?

-

Vanderwood:

You couldn’t possibly be this ditzy and clumsy for real, right?

In his time as an agent, he’d met plenty of people who would pretend to be dumber or less skilled than they were in order to force people to underestimate them, and for his sanity he had to believe that that’s what you were doing.

The time you tripped over a coffee table and just laid there afterwards with a shocked look on your face before looking his way with a smile and then giving a light little giggle and an ‘oops~’ just made him all the more hopeful thst it was all an act.

and why is he always the one cleaning up after your clumsy mistakes, do you enjoy torturing him, you sadist???

-

Jumin:

Taking you to galas and other events is so difficult.

You’re always tripping over your dresses, nearly faceplanting or almost spilling things on other people.

It’s somewhat endearing, even if it’s impractical.

The magazines seem to think it’s adorable, and Jumin isn’t going to go against that popular opinion, particularly since he assumes all commoners must just be a little clumsy.

Zen did break his ankle, after all, so that must just be the case.

He safeguards the house by studying online about gentle furniture, ending up hiring an American babyproofing company.

Now you will be safe, at least at home.

-

Jaehee:

She didn’t know how clumsy you were when she asked you to be a partner with her in the cafe, oh dear goodness.

As much as you’re adorable, it’s really hard to keep the customers hapoy when you’re constantly spilling their drinks on them!!!

At least you’ve only spilled iced coffees on people so far, because Jaehee does not want to get sued so soon after opening.

You are moved to a register only position for the safety of everyone involved, and for the sake of the customers’ happiness.

-

Zen:

He is impressed by how adorable you can look while falling, but he starts to be really concerned by your constantly scraped knees and bruises on your body, even worried that tabloids might start thinking he’s abusive.

In hopes of teaching you to be a bit more graceful…Zen attempts to teach you to dance.

At first, it’s going really well, other than that you keep stepping on him, but then you accidentally trip him and the both of you end up on the ground, with him nearly knocking his face into a chair.

Okay so…maybe he can’t teach you to dance…He’ll just have to let the paparazzi get plenty of pictures of you tripping when the two of you are out and about, which is fine since he doesn’t have to do anything other than walk with you outside for that to happen…you’re really that clumsy

-

Yoosung:

Constantly worried, constantly neurotic, and constantly putting bandaids all over you.

He’s so worried about you falling when the two of you are out on a date, that he now calls ahead to where you’re going to ask about first aid kits.

Yoosung is certain that he once saw you walk into a closed door at the university because it was a glass door and you couldn’t tell it was closed.

He now opens doors for you at all times, both to be chivalrous and protective.

-

Seven:

At first, he thought it was cute, now he thinks it’s cute and hilarious

Seven develops a scoring system for your falls and mistakes, giving you a number out of ten based on three categories: fall style, expression, and recovery.

He even takes to coaching you on how to improve your performance.

Your clumsiness has essentially become an Olympic sport.

-

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Thoughts on the V Route! (Spoilers)

Full on disclaimer: This is purely my opinion on the route, and in no way am I trying to force my opinions onto anyone, or am I expecting people to agree fully. We all have different opinions and that's okay! Please don't harass me over any opinion stated in this, as I'm just sharing this for people who are interested and my intention is that and that only. Thanks! 💕

So, starting off, I cannot say I didn’t have a fun time with this route. I mean throughout the whole game, I was so excited for every chat, even if it dealt with characters I didn’t enjoy at all (Which was mainly just Rika, to be honest.)

I’m not going to lie though, while I like V, there were some things I was kind of disappointed in, but since V isn’t one of my super favorites, I don’t think it’s appropriate to say that the route is terrible because of some of the things I didn’t personally like.

But...I wanna open this up with more than just complaints!

I do wanna talk about what I enjoyed!

So seeing all of the characters before the canon main story was very fun! It was neat seeing how different they were two-ish years back. Jumin seemed to remain the same out of all of them (Still confused about the world outside of what he’s experienced, still a lovable dork in my opinion, still pretty level-headed and trying his best to joke).

Jaehee, through the whole route, seemed a lot more blunt than usual, and after I was secured on V’s route (aka getting to day 5 with no problem), I was very happy that I could throw a lot of hearts to her without an issue, haha! I missed being able to be sweet to her, and the cute (and tired) selfie we got was great!

Yoosung was very….Salty. Very much so, and there were times where, at first, it was a little annoying. Right off the bat he starts trying to convince you V is shady, and I can’t really blame him due to it being set just six months after Rika’s ‘death’, and how he was there with the interview with V and the police- That would make me a little suspicious as well….But, like usual, he kinda...blew up about it at first, but I got used to it, especially later on once he learns about what Rika had been doing and starts freaking out (along with all of the other members). I really Can’t blame him for that orz poor sweetie ;;; I think that would be such a huge shock knowing a close family member did such things. I’m glad he was able to get help, but also as the route went on, I felt so bad that he apparently never got therapy when he first learned about Rika’s ‘death’. :( And it was also sad when Jaehee seemed to recommend it from possible personal experience. I mean I’m glad she was able to get help, but hhhhh my babies ;;;; The fact that he apparently turned to drinking a lot when Rika ‘died’, and later on in the route, h u r t s orz

And contrary to popular belief, while Zen isn’t my favorite, I did have a fun time with him in this route except for when he was an asshole in situations that it wasn’t necessary. V getting hurt and needing a doctor is an example, and I thought it was uncalled for when Zen chose that time, of all times, to nag at Jumin for wanting to bring in his personal doctor. Another time is calling Yoosung a ten year old when Yoosung started to text MC during a big mental breakdown moment of his- Finding out this stuff with Rika. But...Besides that? He was pretty fucking funny. The whole thing about his computer was great, and I really did appreciate him helping Yoosung out, and showing more what their friendship is like. My only other issue was that, at first, there weren’t many options with him that I could choose that weren’t either A- Relentless flirting, or B- being a complete ass to him. Later on this got better though! I really like it when he’s not trying to flirt with you a lot.

Seven……..Was fucking great LOL. Lately I’ve been liking him more as a character! At first I was just kinda ‘meh’ with him, or had days where I just didn’t want to think about how he was kinda rude on his own route, but just seeing him in the chatroom was always great. At first he seemed a little...Hesitant? But later on it was just great seeing him interacting with everyone. The car-ride with Jaehee was great, and according to a friend, I apparently missed a very prime opportunity to call and hear him impersonate Jaehee LOL. I felt extremely bad for him later on, but...I’ll get to that later >>. Regardless,  I enjoyed his goofiness and interactions! I especially loved when him and Vanderwood were able to interact. I honestly didn’t think Vanderwood would be in this, but it was great seeing him! (And realizing he wants to go by ‘Stark’ instead LMFAO). When Vanderwood took Seven’s phone and chatted with you- I can say I think that was one of my favorite chatrooms in the game. I laughed so much and just had a fun time talking to him!

For V...

While I highly enjoyed each chat, a lot of phone calls, and some of the scenarios we were presented with, I have to say overall that this route sorta lowered my opinion of V ;;; There were many moments I enjoyed, don’t get me wrong! I loved finally getting to talk to him on the phone, how kind he was with the player, and just seeing how V really acts. In the main route, we never got to see him much...So every chatroom with him and Jumin were great, and I loved being able to learn more about his past (and good god I love his mom a lot? I wasn’t expecting that ajfbsdbhf). I Also loved the chat with V and Zen, talking about when Zen got into that motorcycle accident? It was nice hearing that Zen didn’t really seem super bothered (??) about the fact that V was...stalking him. It was weird, but I suppose it’s because it led to Zen still being alive to this day ajkbfsh

There were a lot of moments in the game that I loved, and so I was really hyped for what his route was going to bring! I was hoping my worries were going to be answered, but it started going downhill quickly for me when he straight up lied to Seven about Saeran being the hacker. Like, I was all “Okay, well… Maybe it’s because adding even more stress into a stressful situation isn’t ideal right now…?” But...It just rubbed me the wrong way, and as the plot progressed and Saeran killed himself- It’s never shown with V telling Seven about who the hacker really was?? He got away with never giving Saeran a chance to be saved from that horrible situation, which could have been solved if he just told Seven. Hell ;;; I wouldn’t even have minded if V told Seven, and the outcome was still the same. It would mean he was at least trying to help Saeran.

Because of that, and because of how much I love Saeran, that...Really made me not like V as much anymore. I could handle him wanting to hide things from the RFA members- He’s a victim of abuse, he wouldn’t want to hurt them especially when it came into terms of how horrible Rika had turned out to be. But he had several chances to tell Seven about Saeran, even if it was just “The hacker is Saeran-” Because Seven would have damned well tried to rush into Mint Eye a lot sooner than Saeran had a chance to kill himself. I...Can’t really think of any ways to forgive him for that. That’s a huge mistake to make, and where it led just makes it harder to say I like V after this.

I think I still prefer a V that is outside of this route, and based off of stories and fics I read before this route ;;;

Since we’re on the topic of Saeran, I cannot express enough how much I love him waaaah ;;; The whole Ray/Saeran bit gets me confused. I can’t tell if ‘Ray’ is how he really acts (which doesn’t make a lot of sense), if he has BPD (Which I guess is plausible but I don’t know anything about the disorder to be okay with saying he has that), or if the possible multiple personality is a side effect of the elixir? I honestly cannot tell. I know that probably makes me look insanely stupid, but BPD is something I’ve never looked into, and the few times I’ve seen it portrayed in various media, there’s always been a huge fuss over how its portrayed wrongly (like a lot of other mental health issues are).

Besides that, I loved every interaction with Saeran/Ray ;;;; I loved the calls, the messages, and it was always so difficult trying to purposely be mean to him. Orz Saeran is a heavy bias for me, so I loved all the content we got with him in this route. Him liking plants, researching flower meanings, the small details about everything he went through as a child (besides it being vague), the fuckcing emojis… I l ov ed. When day 10 happened, I died so much inside. I’m almost tempted to try writing a few fics (that are not….smut) dealing with Saeran and those moments. My fucking heart hurts too much ;;;;

I could gush about him for a while, so I’m going to take a hard lean to move onto trying to talk about my thoughts with the plot now, and then try to wrap this up! I’ve been trying to write this out for the past few days and failing miserably due to work.

I fully went into this game expecting this to be an AU (I mean...it is, right?), that a lot of the new details we learn about the characters are still canon, but it’s an AU because this wasn’t how they originally wanted the game to play out. (Does this make sense?) So, Zen having an old computer and being a doof when it comes to technology, Yoosung never getting therapy and drinking to deal with his feelings of Rika’s death, Jumin…………….being the same showing more interest in the supernatural, Jaehee being fully trusted as being the head of an intelligence unit- etc etc, all of that can be taken as canon!….Right?

(T_T I’ve never tried explaining it, but I’m sure you guys understand what I mean by that!)

Anyway, keeping that in mind and how this is nearly two years before we meet the gang in a more mature-er state (cough Yoosung cough), it was fun finding out more details about the characters that I didn’t expect, or having personal/friend HC’s confirmed!

Besides learning about the characters, we did get to learn more about Mint Eye, which I was thankful for. It was nice seeing how it worked, that they DID have a cleansing process (but apparently only needed to use it twice within the first six months?), what sort of ranking Saeran had, and how Rika was regarded. It seemed pretty big at six months, and I think Rika herself says that it’s been since months since they’ve moved into the building, so it does sort of raise questions again, such as was she getting people into her cult for a while before her ‘death’, the funds she got for it (I’m guessing possibly V’s money? Her parents, adopted or not, didn’t seem to care much about her at all), and so on. Also, since it seemed like there were so many members after the first few months, it’s scary thinking about how big it got after two years. 

And god, did we learn so much about Rika. On one hand, it’s nice seeing more of her backstory, her (delusional) reasoning for making a cult and brainwashing a child and many other adults. I really wanted answers, even if it was through some unpleasantness with Rika herself, and I got some of mine answered. I was thankful we could say no to her, as a lot of her actions and some of her excuses for her behavior reminded me of two very horrible people in my life, and it tremendously hurt seeing how much she had Saeran wrapped around her finger. I’ve heard some rumors about what the bad ends are (please don’t tell me!) and if they are true, it means there’s a chance a few sad hcs I had aren’t too far from the reality of the game. Which...Doesn’t make me a happy camper orz But regardless, their relationship worried me a lot, even if we knew he was really ready to do anything for her. Just seeing it just- shudder.

I also actually enjoyed the game showing that mindless devotion towards a partner doesn’t really solve...Everything. I don’t see that often! It was nice, especially since it was showing how they both messed up in the relationship (very much one messed up a shitton more than the other, with stabbing and dropping treatment, b ut it was nice seeing it nonetheless). 

With the plot, even if it could be seen as cheesy or generic, the only time I really felt it was strange was in V’s endings. The Normal ending was didn’t wrap up a lot of things, which you would expect from just a small ending (it was cute, though!!), but the Good ending didn’t really answer my more pressing questions that I had, and the one thing I was annoyingly upset about didn’t get resolved at all, so that kind of bummed me out. I think if you’re a huge fan of V, though, the ending would be good for you! Just the way the wrapped up the route was weird, but since the afterend isn’t out, there’s still a chance of some of my questions being answered in that department!

I’m trying to think of some things that really struck a negative cord in me, but besides what I’ve said, I’ve still really enjoyed this route. I’m upset about Saeran, of course, since he was a bigger fave than V for me, but... It’s not unusual for cults to have members commit suicide. I was moreso expecting a mass suicide, instead of Saeran having to blow up the building and just letting himself die in there rather than escaping like the plan seemed to have been, but...Saeran didn’t have anyone. He didn’t have us, Rika had left and was obsessing more obviously over V, and Mint Eye was in shambles and he was told to blow it up to get rid of the evidence surrounding it. I just really wish V told Seven. c h r i s t.

Regardless, I did enjoy this route. I can’t wait to worm my way through the bad ends, replay it for things I possibly missed before, and to hopefully crank out a few fics for it! Haha, I already have one in my drafts! I wish I could think of some more things to say, but off the top of my head these are just my general thoughts on the route!

Please keep in mind:  This is purely my opinion on the route, and in no way am I trying to force my opinions onto anyone, or am I expecting people to agree fully. We all have different opinions and that's okay! Please don't harass me over any opinion stated in this, as I'm just sharing this for people who are interested and my intention is that and that only. Thanks! 💕

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RFA+V+Unknown+Vanderwood MC that has a baby at home or at the apartment

Okay idk if the title makes sense, but it’s where MC has a kiddo and she’s basically trapped in the apartment, so she’s like um im a mom I gotta go man or like umm... i have my kid with me what do i do???. Something like that. the babies are random, some will be a 1 year old girl or and infant boy. who knows~

Yoosung

Lucky for you, you got a babysitter.

While in the apartment you called and got someone to watch your kiddo

So as days went on and on you were missing your baby

And then Yoosung being the worried lil cinnamon roll that he is asked

“MC? you seem upset...what’s wrong?”

Ugh bless his pure heart

“I just miss my daughter”

hold the fucken phone

Daughter???

“You’re a mom????”

you explain that you were a teen mom and that you haven’t been away from your child this long

He teared up a bit at your story

He was calling up Seven to fix this

“Shes a mama in need, help a brotha out fam”

So things got arranged were your little girl brought to you.

You and her stayed in the apartment and you felt much better

To thank him you would send him pictures of your daughter

“Aw she looks just like you!” You haven't seen my face

So when the party came around you brought her and he just fell in love.

He treated her as his own. it gave him more of a reason to finish college so he could support you and her

Zen

Honestly you didn’t completely trust anyone to tell them you have a little 11 month old girl with you at the apartment

And you were worried about what they would think

then when Zen got hurt you just wanted to go and help him and you got the chance to go with Jumin’s help

But your little Girl...Do you think he would like you once he found out about her?

“Zen...is there anything that would make you stop liking me?”

*que dramatic zen gasping*

“Never! I know we’ve only known each other for a little bit but there isn’t a thing you could do that would make my feelings for you go away.”

Okay you were more confident, you got ready to head out to meet him at his home, baby in tow

You didn’t get a chance to say you were a mom because he left the chatroom to clean his home for you

You stand in front of his home really nervous but knock anyways

He opened the door and looked at you

“MC is that yo-...a baby?”

He was very confused

“hehe Hi Zen”

He invited you in before slamming the door in Driver Kim’s face 

You quickly explained that this is indeed your baby and you apologized for hiding it

“I didn’t want you to hate me...”

oh boy

He feels so bad

Immediate hug

“You and your baby are always welcome”

With that cleared up things went along pretty well

You ended up telling the rest you had a baby with you the whole time.

Yoosung’s reaction

was

funny as hell

Your little girl took a liking to Zen 

After Zen saw how beautiful your baby is and how well of a mother you are

He knew you two were perfect for him and he just

“Can i adopt her?”

que blushies

Boom Lil baby MC and you were stuck with him forever

Jaehee

She figured it out. Baehee smart

She noticed in the chat how you acted with the others

“Yoosung! you need to go to bed!”

“Zen honey you should be more careful”

“Seven you are just too cute! i wanna pinch your wittle cheeks!” might or might not be talkin bout his ass  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Then she just asked

“MC are you a mom?”

“Hmmm? ya I’m a mama”

Called it~

She was curious about everything

were you older then you let on? or were you a young mother? where is your child?

you just told her you have a two year old

and your son was with your mom

She understood how hard it must be for you to be away from him

So she would check on you constantly asking about him

Pretty much worried about you two like a mother hen she is

Soon enough she cared about your son as much as you do

You were able to bring him to the party

She was in LOVE He was EVERYTHING

Just how you described him

She just could imagine him running around the shop helping

She was excited to be apart of his life

Jumin

had no idea

The man was so worried about his bb Elizabeth to be worried about yours

But then when he became closer to you he wanted to know more about you

When Jaehee asked if you would go visit Jumin you were like

uhhhhhh...Does he like kids?

But she was desperate and you felt bad for her

so you didn’t say anything

Well when you showed up at the apartment

He was surprised to see you...and a baby...

“hehe...surprise?”

It was a literal baby only 5 months old

exe.Jumin has stopped

Well dafuk does he do now?

But surprisingly this wasn’t so bad

Seeing you be a good mom made him want you more

“You’ll be a great mother to our children” Hold up bucko give me my ring first

And don’t tell me he didn’t buy everything for the kid Jumin he’s only 5 months he can’t have that

At the party he was practically labeling himself as the father

But you didn’t mind all that much gonna get some Gucci diapers

Seven

Welp we’re in a pickle

once he saw you in the apartment holding a 1 year old he knew you shouldn’t be here

He called up V and’s like

“Master your slave has some news”

V was worried too but you wanted to do this So they’re like

“Ight you can stay”

I strongly believe Vanderwood would be royally pissed because Seven would spend more time watching you two then he would before

So remember that bomb? haha seven din’t think of it at first and then he’s like

“Oh shit”

and then the whole unknown thing happened

“We have Gucci diapers in paradise~”

“Keep talking”

Enter seven and the whole drama that happened

You had your hands full with your baby to care that seven was trying to give you the silent treatment

Seven actually got wrapped up in the whole kid thing

He fell more in love with you playing with your baby

it was one moment when your baby plopped down beside him and passed out

error 707 died of cuteness

He was sold, him and your lil boy were tight I think Your son liked seven more then you

He got no work done he was too busy playing dad

you too might as well get married you two acted like it

“Saeyoung! {insert baby name here} can’t eat those!”

“But MC!”

“NO!”

Baby took the Honey budda chips while you two argued

won’t be long till lil baby has a sibling~

V

Um...should had checked if she had a baby girl before inviting her into the club

the damage was done

He would go into the chats more frequently to check on you

you expressed how much you missed your 3 year old

hmmmm...

“Seven Could you do something for me please?”

“Slave is always willing to help master”

“Uh thanks?”

V personally brought your baby to you because he felt bad

From when he picked your baby to dropping her off he bonded with the kid okay?

He had a hard time giving her back to you

He stayed for a bit and helped you with her Rika can wait

He found it harder to leave but he did Fuck we almost had him

But he would still message asking how you and her were

When it came to the party he was there and he made a bee line to you and your baby

and your 3 year old little girl just

“Jihyun”

We got him, you taught your little girl to say his name

Hook line and sinker He couldn’t leave you

Although he did think about Rika he was reminded about you every time Your little girl called him name

and how much you wanna bet later in life V taught your little girl to say

“Marry me?”

Unknown

He didn’t care

yeah okay you have a kid big whoop

honestly i think he would hate you a little for being a mom 

She deserves whatever happens, the kid is gonna be all fucked up because moms just corrupt you

And then

He watched you for awhile how you interacted with your baby

what? is this how moms are?

You were all bright and shiny, your little boy was all bubbly and happy

She’s a good mom? what?

He’s truly confused

he had a slew of emotions

He’s angry at you for reminding him of his mom

Confused that he’s seen what a good mother you are

and...jealous of your baby  

“Why did he get a good mom and i didn’t?”

you saw him, the boy didn’t have a good cover at this point

he was having a mental breakdown in the street

“are you okay?”

He jumped 

He was supposed to be watching you not the other way around

You put your hand on his forehead with a concerned face

you’re in my bubble lady 

all blushy and confused

He run away from you with his heart pounding

What.just.happened???

What ended up happening is he only chose you so he could keep an eye on you

he didn’t understand how you were able to be carved into his heart so suddenly

after meeting him again in the apartment You would go with seven to find him

and with your motherly instincts and heart I think you’ll be able to heal him. 

He would come to really like you baby

He would have to if he plans to have kids with you like he wants to

Vanderwood

it got too long so I’m just going to make it a short fan fic okay? the idea’s are flowing guys okay? I’ll put a link or something when i upload it, but wow you and Vanderwood falling in love?!?! oh this should be fun

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General Masterlist - Part 4

META/ROUTE PREDICTIONS

saeran, jumin and bdsm part 1

saeran, jumin and bdsm part 2

codename v

thoughts on the unknown route

potential v route things

thoughts on reset theory

more thoughts on saeran’s route

asexual jumin han

zen totally used to be chubby

V the protagonist

Rika meta 1

Rika meta 2

mysme fairy tale theory

rika did not cheat on v stop saying she did i will fight you

yoosung closure pls

Smut fic trends 2016 (TRIGGER WARNING)

606+707=Yin and Yang

jumin’s pen!

That one really silly 707 theory part 1

That one really silly 707 theory part 2

Christmas DLC overanalysing

V and Saeran route overanalysing

V and his spoon collection

Zen and his GENUINE AFFECTION for MC B) B)

More thoughts about V

My uh-pinions on all of the characters

Jumin as a sexual abuse survivor

Zen in love?

Chronically ill Jaehee

Some polyamory thoughts

Some extra thoughts about V and Rika

Saeran as a sexual abuse survivor

V and Seven as father/son

Zen’s creepy childhood

Thoughts on Zen’s family

Rewriting Yoosung’s route

Zen’s bad ending

Jumin and MC and a BDSM relationship

Rika is not the most important woman in Yoosung’s life

Jumin’s good end reductive?

How can I make the secret ends even more sad

Ramblings about Valentine’s DLC and Jumin’s characterisation

About Vanderwood

Jumin is a virgin?

Jumin’s godawful driving

Character calculus - Jumin

Jumin, V and MC body types

Roleplay advice - Jumin

Jumin keeping secrets from the rest of the RFA re: Rika

Fandom and misinformation

Valentines Day Twittergate Part 1

Valentines Day Twittergate Part 2

Some more thoughts about route 707

Thoughts on Zen x Jumin

Jumin using kitten as a pet name

V route things

V route thoughts p2

More thoughts on V route! / Part 2

Video breakdown

About the wizards

Full V route breakdown

V and Rika’s relationship: a breakdown

More V route thoughts

Advice for Ray route

8 Things I want from Ray Route

Full breakdown of Ray route

RFA cheating on MC?

Character similarities - Jumin dating someone like him

The truth about daffodils

Rika discourse aka 2018 twittergate

Mysme fandom cannot have their cake and eat it

[sae-you-sae-me]

Hihihi. Are requests open? If not then just ignore this. If yes, then I have a request. What if MC leaves the RFA because Rika was back and everyone was focusing on her more. Mc decides that she's not needed or wanted anymore so she just disappears with the help of Saeran (since he still hates Rika for the whole brainwashing thing). It can be a mini-fic or a scenario or whatever. 😊😊 Love love love your work btw 😍 best author ever

Anon said: Your headcanons are really awesome! I always love reading them. This is a bit sad but I have this HC that there were probably a lot of people who supported Rika being the first and original party coordinator of the foundation, so when MC took her place they think she’s not good enough and compares her to Rika, send her emails wanting her to leave. These start to get to MC so how does the RFA help her?

This one was interesting to do! Spoilers for the secret ends ahead. Also, in everyone’s except Seven’s, MC didn’t end up with anyone after the first 11 days. 

General Scenario:

After the first party, you thought everything would go great

But everything seemed to go downhill

The lists get longer, and there’s more guests who knew Rika more than you

You’ve even gotten a few emails from guests requesting your resignation, because they believed only Rika was good enough for a job like this

After awhile, it started wearing down on you

To make things worse, a few parties later and Rika returns fully recovered

She works with you instead of replacing you

You find it really nice, but it only emphasizes your insecurities

Even most of the RFA seem to be falling back into giving her all of the glory

You just can’t take it anymore and you have a breakdown after one of the meetings

Saeran finds you and you accidentally end up spilling everything

You voiced that you just wanted to disappear

After a few minutes of silence, he agrees to help you

With his skills, you manage to run away without anyone knowing

Zen:

He’s really worried when you don’t log into the messenger after a whole day

He noticed you’d been down lately, but you always claimed to be fine

He drops by the apartment to check on you, and he finds it completely empty with your phone and computer buzzing with missed notifications

He tries to call you or find you in your usual spots, but to no avail

He informs the RFA and implores Seven to find you

He visits the hacker’s house to help where he can

Somehow, he had a gut feeling when he saw Saeran looking a bit guilty

Forcefully gets the information out of the younger twin

When he gets the address to your location, he goes to you right away

As soon as you open the door, he’s begging for forgiveness if he made you feel insecure like that

He’s voicing his worries and begging you to come back and somehow his confession slips up

This really moves you, but you’re still not ready to come back

For a long while, you only allow Zen to see you and he respects your wishes and keeps your whereabouts a secret

After several really long talks, he coaxes you back into the group

He’s so much more protective when it comes to guests’ comments though

Yoosung:

He had been very caught up with Rika back, so he kind of got absorbed in helping her whenever he could

He thinks you’ve been in the chatroom, but realizes you’re not when he compliments you on something and you don’t respond

He checks old chats and finds out it’s been quite awhile since you’ve joined one

It makes him feel worse when it seemed that the rest of the RFA had noticed a while ago

He feels horrible and guilty

He goes to Seven’s house to ask where you are, but Seven doesn’t even know

Saeran makes some vague comment with a bitter undertone, and it tips Yoosung off

They get into an argument while Yoosung is demanding to know where you are

Finally, he tells Yoosung how you felt

Yoosung is in shock and he gets super depressed for awhile

He knows you won’t answer, but he starts texting you every day saying how much you’re missed and loved

He does this for a month so it becomes habit

You actually are reading them though, and finally you decide to reply

He’s in such shock and apologizing so much through text

You refuse to take his calls or talk to him in person for a long time, so text is mainly how you communicate

Still, this starts to rebuild your relationship until you’re finally willing to meet him face to face again He takes the opportunity to show you how much he’s changed and to show how much he cares for you

It still takes time for you to fully trust him again, but he’s so steady and patient

He really does show you how wonderful and capable of a person you are

Jaehee:

She wasn’t close with Rika, but her coming back meant bigger parties

Jaehee got dragged into doing more work in the process

So, she really hadn’t been talking to you much

She noticed your absence when she texted for your opinion on something and you didn’t reply after nearly two days

She tried calling and emailing…but just came to the conclusion you were busy or ill or something

But the rest of the RFA notice the same and finally announce you ran away

Jaehee is really worried because she knows you wouldn’t run unless you had a good reason

She doesn’t tell the others and pours herself into researching your whereabouts

While Saeran was careful in hiding you, Jaehee knew your patterns and soon found a local cafe you frequented

She asks if you could talk, and you don’t have the heart to refuse

You tell her everything that happened, and she’s mad and crying because you didn’t tell her and you’re crying because she’s crying

You have this whole touching moment in the corner of this cafe

She doesn’t tell the others, and she won’t

She knows where you’re coming from and doesn’t force you to return if you don’t want to

She’is kind of angry with those guests who made you feel that way

She helps you rebuild a life in the town you choose

As long as she keeps in touch with you, she respects your wishes and keeps you away from the RFA

Jumin:

With Rika’s return, old wounds and scars from V started popping up within Jumin

He started distancing himself from the RFA, logging in less and working more

Finally, he just needs a full break and goes on month long business trip

While there, he sorts things out and figures it’s not fair to you because you worked just as hard and seem to care about him

So he comes back only to find you had run away awhile ago and no one can find you

His worry pushes him into action

He’s hiring people left and right to find you

Knowing he has the resources to actually find you, Saeran steps in and stops Jumin, explaining that you don’t want to be found

He has to eventually come clean about helping you run

Jumin was already a bit bitter when it came to Saeran because of V, but he was tempted to feel even more so now

But then Saeran disclosed your location

The younger twin had been watching you though, and he knows you haven’t been doing well

Jumin thinks he’s fine, until he finally faces you

His vision blurs with tears and he can’t help but hold you tight in his arms, pleading for you to never leave him again

You’ve missed him as well, so you’re willing to sit down with him and just talk

While he listens to your concerns, he reasons with you to go back

After all, he went through the same recently and he doesn’t want you cutting ties like that

He’s patient as you slowly make your way back into the group and heal

Seven:

He feels very uncomfortable with Rika there, especially after all that happened

He’s still talking with the RFA, but rarely, and he avoids Rika altogether

He’d also noticed you hadn’t been yourself

But because you thought he was having a hard time you acted like everything was fine

Before running off, you had made Saeran promise not to tell Seven anything, thinking he would be better off without someone incompetent like you

Seven noticed your absence almost immediately, since you practically dropped off the face of the earth

He starts thinking his old agency is out for revenge

Now he’s terrified for you life and works day and night trying to find any trace of you

Saeran watches as his brother loses sleep and peace of mind and he just can’t stand it anymore

He casually leaves a big clue open on his laptop

Of course, Seven finds it and looks for you immediately

When he finds you, there’s a mix of yelling and crying from him

He makes you tell him everything…from your feelings to your plan to the guest emails

He wanted to know every detail and try to help you recover

He understands you don’t want to go back with Rika there…and he doesn’t feel comfortable with it either

None of you could recover with something so symbolic of past trauma constantly there

But he doesn’t think it healthy to cut ties with the rest of the RFA either, since they were like second family

So, he starts searching and finds a quiet house in a place that’s very…very far from the others

Once he buys it, he asks you to marry him…and soon

Of course you agree, and a few weeks later you, him, and Saeran move away

You all still keep in touch with the RFA through the chat and occasionally parties, but the distance allows you all to concentrate on healing and building up your own family 

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[saeranlover]

Here you go! A short, sad fic to do with Saeran...

He hated it. He hated it all. The attachment, the worrying, the pain.

Why did Saeyoung have to get involved in his life once more? Why did he choose her to lure the RFA into Magenta?

If neither of those two were in his life, then maybe he wouldn’t have felt so angry or scared.

At least he was allowed to lock himself up in his room without the two of them coming in… He could hurt them in here, and he couldn’t be blamed – they would have been the ones invading his privacy, after all.

There were only a few belongings in the room, mainly because of the fear which Saeyoung had of him harming himself. His bed took up about a quarter of the space, and it had upon it some very soft blankets, a big pillow, and a mattress (without springs, of course). He was far too used to the somewhat old, rough feeling bed of Mint Eye. On top of that, there were a few somewhat large bags holding his clothes which still bore their price tags. The clothes were all of Saeyoung’s choosing, and he was quickly running out of his older clothes to wear without daring to give them to her every time that she offered to wash them. He was going to have to actually wear those new ones soon…

Besides that, there was a bare desk with only his nail scratches and his wrist-wraps resting upon them. Saeyoung had sneakily hidden his choker away somewhere quite literally because of the name. He didn’t want him to try and choke himself with it by putting it on too tight.

The only thing that he liked about the room was the window which seemed to have been newly introduced to the room. Of course, it was locked with a key held only by Saeyoung, and the glass was made so that it couldn’t be smashed (he had tried time and time again.)

“I don’t want to be here anymore…” Saeran had woke up one morning feeling more down than usual, following a horrible dream which he had about the abuse his mother had put him through following Saeyoung’s disappearance. Being trapped in this building unless Saeyoung went with him reminded him of those days. He knew that his brother had good intentions, but… He didn’t want to remain trapped for any more of his life.

A knock on his door made him tense up.

“Saeran… I’ve got some food for you to eat… Can you let me in?” Her voice annoyed him, and reminded him of a false hope which he once held... Why couldn’t she just LEAVE HIM ALONE?! “Please, Saeyoung isn’t here… I made sure that he was out of the house, so you can come out of your room, you know…”

He clenched his fists, and slammed them down onto the bed. “I’m not leaving!” He hoped that his shouts had been enough to scare her away.

“Then… Could I come in? I’ll stay at the opposite side of the room whilst you eat, if you want…”

He ran his hands through his hair for a moment, tears pricking the corners of his eyes. He couldn’t even look her in the eye after what had happened. Her kindness reminded him of Rika, but she also reminded him of how Rika turned bitter and cruel with her actions. He didn’t want to let anyone be kind to him, because it would just happen over and over…

Yet he still stood up, and threw the door open. She flinched, yet still offered a bowl of whatever… that was. It looked like a thick, gloopy… liquid. And it was an odd orangey-red colour too…

“What the fuck is that?!”

“It’s a creamy tomato soup… I always ate it as a child when I was feeling down or unwell, because it has a bit of a light sweetness to it… And I thought that maybe you would want to try it…” He continued to stare at the bowl for a moment, before snatching it out of her hand, making quite a bit of it splash onto the floor and onto her bare feet and legs. She hissed, and he could see her trying to hold back from crying because of the burning feeling. He then realised that the bowl was horribly hot too.

Once he had hastily threw the bowl of soup onto his desk to relieve his hands from the heat, he turned back to face her. He then realised that she was now shaking as she did her best to use her hands to wipe the burning hot soup off her legs. Her face was pale and tears were staining her cheeks. Fuck. “S- Saeran, I- I-… I’m just going to c- clean myself up… A- And get a bit of ice…” He noticed the bright red burns across her skin then, and he felt his breath catch until the moment she had left his line of sight.

Pain from the past was starting to resurface at the sight of that… And the memories were vivid as they replayed before him. His mother’s angry face… The kettle filled with boiling water in her hand… The ropes chafing against his ankle… “N- No… I- I don’t know where he is… I don’t know where Saeyoung is!” He found himself copying what he had said back then... Then the yelling, the sobbing… the burns covering his torso and legs making his skin tighten and giving him no choice but to cry out in pain… “I- I don’t know!”

Saeran ended up falling into the desk trying to control his breathing, and he noticed even more of the soup spilling all around. Some splashed onto his arm, and his breathing turned into wheezing. He didn’t want this, he didn’t want this, he didn’t want this!

After that, Saeran staggered over to the adjoining bathroom, and went straight over to the sink to run some cold water. His arm went straight into it, and though he was able to get some temporary relief, the pain was quick to return. His skin was now crawling where he was previously burned, so he practically ripped his shirt off so that he could look at the white scars from where the water had burned him in the past in order to scratch at them to get them to stop.

His breathing was still horrible and unsteady when he returned to his room, but his crying was enough to give him a headache which made him feel dizzy. He fell into his bed, and his screaming over the memories and the pain began to turn louder and more laced with pain. At least the softness of the bed was a temporary comfort…

“Stop it… Stop it… Stop it!” He screeched, his throat now feeling sore and dry. The scratches at the scars had been enough to pierce his skin, and small beads of blood were forming on his skin. He ended up moving to the floor, so that he had something hard to slam his fists against. “It hurts! I- I don’t know!”

He still kept having visions of his mother pouring that steaming water over him, and was still reacting towards it.

By that point, she had returned to the room and was stood in the doorway as Saeran was having a breakdown. Her eyes went to the red mark on his arm, before they then shot over to the bowl which was almost bare of soup due to its contents now surrounding it on the desk.

“Saeran-?!”

“I don’t know! I- I don’t know, p- please don’t p- pour it on me-!” She realised by the partially glazed over look in his eyes that he was obviously having a panic attack based on an experience from the past.

Then the nearby door opened, and she breathed a sigh of relief as Saeyoung entered the building. Quickly, she explained the situation to Saeyoung, before he ran over to the doorway to witness Saeran sobbing wildly as his hands raked through his hair.

“I s- said that I don’t know! I don’t, I don’t!” He let off a wrecked cry then, shaking his head frantically. “M- Mommy, I d- don’t know where Saeyoung is! D- Don’t burn me!”

Saeyoung stared at her with wide eyes, before running into the room and kneeling down beside his twin, and gently placing his arms around him in a calming embrace.

“Saeran… It’s Saeyoung. I’m right here… Our mother isn’t, but I am… Don’t worry about her, she isn’t going to hurt you…” He whispered, burying his face into Saeran’s hair as his crying calmed down slightly. “I’m here… I’m here… You know where I am now… I’m here, Saeran. I promise you, I’m here, and I’m not leaving again…” Saeyoung felt relieved seeing his twin’s breathing slow down, and hearing the sobs quieten.

“S- Saeyoung… I- I need you… I- I don’t want to leave, and- and I don’t want you to leave me…”

Saeyoung didn’t know if Saeran’s mind was still trapped in the past or now returned to the present, but still replied to him. “You don’t need to leave… And I won’t leave again. I promise…”

[lonesandkorn]

SPOILER!!! READ AT OWN RISK!

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Got the good ending with 21 email guests. Seven ist still missing but alive and Saeran works hard on becoming the tender-hearted Saeran from his childhood to be ready to meet his twin.

He works together with the intelligence unit and it is revealed that Saeran is not only way smarter than his brother, but also that his personality is a lot like Jumin's which is why they instantly click.

The minister (the father of Saeran and Saeyoung - which omg you actually get to see!) gets what he deserves and yes, V is back with Rika but only temporarily to help her get help. He somewhat learned that his love was a possession and tries to do things right with here, but without sacrificing himself and everything else for it.. (She shows him where her "devil" started to take over and why) V is also a lot more open with everyone at the end, but he still doesn't tell them that Rika is alive. (He plans to do so when he's ready for it - so there is a huge emotional improvement)

There will be an after ending, just like with Seven, in which you will probably search for Saeyoung. Everyone is sure that he will do well on his own with his kidnapper's (I honestly think that he got free on his own and is staying away/off the grid on purpose to not endanger the RFA any further)

I just LOVE this route and cannot ever applaud enough for cheritz's work and achievement. The characters are so well designed, it actually hurts to let them go after the end. It's the little things, like they carefully designed Saerans speech pattern to resemble Seven's. There is a phone call (first with seven and later on with Saeran) where they say exactly the same things and idk this gave me feels. like HARD. Something like "let me talk to you even if you don't have time. I'll talk 16 times as fast if you don't have time" don't quote me on that, though - but it was similar to that.

I just can't emphasize enough just how well they portrayed Saeran. (Btw he is a lot like I imagined him in my fics) the mental breakdown and the aggression, not understanding that he wants you to love him and is so very afraid of you vanishing from his eyes. (that night where he screams at you to treat him like Ray and kiss him again... Sent shivers down my spine) with "Saeran" being the protector persona (the aggressive Saeran is actually a fabrication that was born to protect the frail, "real" Saeran. Ray however was born out of the angst and the insecurities that were left over from Saeran's creation) and his twisted sense of "harming others so they don't harm me".... The Saeran at the end is still not completely the real one. Both his personalities roam inside of him, but they found a common ground and are slowly dissolving into a well balanced, tender hearted young man: the real Saeran.

It's definitely worth to purchase the callcard for him. I mean it, go buy it ASAP. You do not want to miss out on the calls with him. Not a single one (they are just too good and damn.. that emotional rollercoaster)

I'll stop here, but honestly... Thank you @cheritzteam

I have suffered from depression for a long time (and other illnesses, but that's another story) and mystic messenger gave me something to live for again. It may sound weird to some, but because of this game, and because of the stories of those characters, I found it in my heart to really fight back against my illness. Thank you thank you thank you. I am happy that I purchased all the hourglasses and the call cards. You deserve every form of success for creating something like this game.

Lol I said I'd stopped but kept going. Anyways, have fun with the route and let's celebrate the fact that Cheritz is too good for the world.

Bye~

Finished the Normal Ending

Under the cut because of spoilers:

Weiterlesen

[fanfictionconnectionwordpress]

How would the rfa and minor trio react to mc that looks exactly like rika? (Not the same personality of course)

***OOoooh my goodness. This is actually a super interesting ask but also, it’ll be a bit rough on some of our babies. And then there’s Vanderwood, lol. ~Let’s Connect! FFC***

Characterbreakdown: Good ending canon characters, Secret ending 02 Saeran, V from theoriginal routes with an operation to restore most of his sight, default Vanderwood

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Yoosung:

He becomes incredibly obsessive, and any time you act not the way Rika would he says, ‘Thats not what Rika would say.’

It gets to the point where you’re pretty much just fulfilling her role in his life and he can’t function on his own.

If you try to break it off, he has a complete and utter panic attack, reverting back to his LOLOL days as soon as you manage to leave him.

Unless someone steps in, he will completely cut the both of you off from the real world. You talking to anyone else leads to yandere behavior.

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Seven:

He’s surprised and a little wary of you at first, starts researching your relations and trying to figure out whether you’re related to Rika or not.

This is why he chooses not to share your picture with the rest of the group.

At least he didn’t know Rika very well, so it’s not as much of an issue for him, but he does try to break the news of your similar appearance to at least his best friend Yoosung very calmly and gently.

He tries to delay telling everyone as long as possible, but he can’t wait too long so as to make sure they don’t run into you in public. Serious Seven arrives.

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V:

He almost instantly becomes attached to you when he finds out you’re someone who is willing to care for him and look like his former pet-project fianceé

If you have problems, he will approach them in the same way he has in the past, simply slipping into habit because it’s too easy with you looking so much like her.

He will accidentally call Rika’s name in bed and proceed to apologize profusely before charming you back into bed for some apology snuggles.

You will forever live in Rika’s shadow.

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Jumin:

He has virtually no issue with this and doesn’t understand why the others are so uncomfortable around you since he is practical and different people are simply different people.

Although he is slightly uncomfortable around his childhood friend, V, he trusts him and you implicitly.

It will only seem all the more appropriate to him that he finishes reading the book he was gifted by Rika to you.

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Jaehee:

At first she is just completely floored and keeps double checking the list and then your face and then the party list and then your face.

She’ll get over it, but she keeps accidentally calling you by the wrong name until she works on a few clever flashcard techniques to get it right.

Jaehee will be even more confused about her sexuality since she wasn’t interested in Rika that way, but she ends up deciding that maybe it is just you that has her feeling all fluttery and weird.

She will probably not attempt a relationship, as she sees how V looks at you, and she would feel like she was hurting him if she tried. But then again, you always have to instigate with Jaehee.

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Saeran:

Seeing as he’s the one who placed you with the RFA, he already knew what you looked like, but seeing you after his recovery, he almost had a panic attack again.

It takes him a long time to be comfortable around you, knowing that you’re not going to drug him or refuse him water or anything like that.

Don’t expect a relationship with him though, he’s going to mostly avoid you.

If he has a psychotic break he’ll convince himself that you’re actually Rika and this was some bizarre infiltration plot, so you’ll have to be careful there.

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Zen:

He’s shocked but not really made uncomfortable by it.

He does try to help Yoosung ease into it, knowing it’ll be hard on the guy, and sometimes he’ll accidentally call you Rika in the beginning, like when he’s asking you to hand him something from the cupboards, but other than that he is good.

Zen knew Rika as his friend and fan, but wasn’t as close to her as he was to V, so his main worry will be having a man to man talk with V and getting his blessing to continue a relationship with you, knowing that V understands the difference between you and Rika too.

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Vanderwood:

He has absolutely no knowledge of Rika, so it doesn’t bother him in the slightest. In fact. He doesn’t even know it should bother him.

It’s not until he takes you to see Seven and the guy just about falls out of his computer chair that he’s ever introduced to the idea of Rika other than as ‘that member who died.’

Good news, only Seven has to encounter you in real life, so it’s not really an issue for anyone else either unless you run into them on the street in which case Vanderwood is very clear on who you really are.

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