#ricky jupe park drives me nuts

[transvampireboyfriend]

something something you repackaged your trauma as spectacle and now that it's far away it can't hurt you. now you can see yourself, the protagonist (obviously, you're the only one that got out of there unscathed) having purpose, surviving for a reason. And it's a good thing that the studio didn't succeed in making it go away because you get to see it rewritten, you get to make sense of it, you get to make up a reason. it was every time he heard about the jungle. it wasn't. it wasn't something you couldn't have seen coming. it's not like the people in charge, the dead people didn't know what they were doing. it's not like you weren't safe, it's not something you can look back on and still be scared about. of course not. you were meant. you were meant to live. it wasn't just chance. it wasn't just lucky. you were meant to survive. didn't they see the sketch? have they seen the pictures? do they know about it? because if they don't you will tell them. everyone wants to know. it was a spectacle, it was a moment in history. not a moment in your childhood.