#ren being a masochist lmao

[stubbedt0e]

Ren x Vampire! Angel

The following contains violence, mention of blood, self-destructive behaviour and some sexual themes. If any of these bother you please scroll away.

!! Minors DNI !!

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel is a pacifist vampire who doesn’t want to prey on humans because they see them as fragile beings. After their family was hunted down and killed by the angry mob, they had to live the majority of their life in a secluded area deep in the forest.

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel finally moves back to Corland Bay after half a century and is working as a librarian from 4 pm to 6pm at the Corland Bay library just so they can live a peaceful life just like a working class human. Their fascination with human beings and their rather short life has made them take this risk. But deep down they know, if the people of the city ever find out who they truly are, their fate won't be any different than those vampires from 50 years ago...burnt to ashes in front of the townsfolk for their enjoyment.

"Is there truly an evil? Or are we all just victims of our own situation? Driven to sin?"

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel meets this curious young man. Someone they have seen come to the library on a daily basis. With the "help'' of their co-worker, Elanor, they finally manage to talk to the man. After a little chat, they find out his name is Ren.

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel has a lot of self restraint. Yet they feel a little dizzy and tipsy whenever Ren is close to them. His scent is driving them crazy. They want to ravage him but...they can't forget their vow...This man has them infatuated but they can't lose control...

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel is trying their best to restrain themselves. They usually just get blood from a blood bank in two or three months, which is enough to keep them alive but it's the bare minimum. So, they are starving. On top of that, that man's scent...it's too hard to control their primal urges...

"No...no..I can't lose control now...I can't harm a human...I need to stop these urges...I have to.."

Vampire! Angel au, where Ren takes Angel out on a date the next day. A bright and beautiful day, perfect for a date. But they are getting vivid hallucinations and cant see humans as humans anymore, the only thing that calms their urges..human faces are now a black void without any human features...But they are brought back to their senses by a gentle tap on their shoulder by Ren.

Vampire! Angel au, where after the date Angel invites Ren to their apartment. Soon they start to lose their sense of control..They quickly get in their bathroom. Now laying down in the bathtub, they bite on their own arm to control their urges around Ren. The blood tastes...stale but at least they are coming down...right? Before they can analyze the situation any further, the world around them turns black..

...

"I cannot become a monster..."

Vampire! Angel au, where Ren finds out Angel, passed out in the bathtub, bite marks covering their arms. He picks them up and takes them to their bedroom.

He realized your true nature...

Vampire! Angel au, where Ren tends for Angel till they wake up. With visible distress in his eyes, he holds your hand and places it on his chest.

"You could have just asked me...I would do anything for you...anything"

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel drinks from Ren for the very first time after a lot of convincing. Ren has a way with his words, he must admit. With Angel sitting on his lap, their fangs inches away from the tender skin of his neck. He smiles and whispers in their ear.

"Go on...we have come this far already..don't stop now.."

Vampire! Angel au, where the taste of Ren's blood has driven Angel to pure lust for blood. They lose their sense of humanity, letting the vampiric urges take control of their body. But they gain back their control with a pale Ren, looking down at them. A smirk on his lips as they felt a tent on his pants. Blushing, they hide their face. Ren cups their cheeks with both of his hands and places a chaste kiss on their forehead.

"Don't worry..I enjoyed it..as much as you did.."

Vampire! Angel au, where both Ren and Angel goes to sleep together. The next morning as they wake up, a realization hits Angel. They quickly go through their drawers and take a metal box with a silver knife in it. They hand it to Ren.

"Listen...don't ever come near me again, okay? I'm doing this for your safety...I am dangerous for you...here, take this. If I ever attack you, intentionally or unintentionally, don't hesitate to use this on me."

Vampire! Angel au, where Angel tells Ren to go away, with the silver knife still on his hand. He looks at it, with a blank stare for a while.

"Sorry, my angel...as much as I would like to cherish something you have gifted me, this thing will distance us...and anything that distances us is not something I will cherish.."

[14dayswithyou]

ok so like I've been curious..

what if angel is a masochist? and has like kinks?(theyre into that bdsm shit) how would Ren/[REDACTED] react and feel abt this?plus what would they do with this info??? lmao just curious

ANSWERED: NSFW under the cut!

Angel being into BDSM has already been answered here and briefly mentioned in passing here. Ren would most likely be hesitant to harm Angel in any way, but will ultimately go through with it for their sake (and pleasure). Though he'd much rather be on the receiving end of anything painful.

[arcsin27]

Alright I got this, though I… have technically never played the game. I beat the third palace, watched let’s plays, watched my brother play it…

Hmm idk… I did really like Rens death. Idk about least favorite

Akechi is the best fictional character ever. Uh I never finished her social link but Kawakami bugs me in multiple ways

Absolutely 😳

Idk, probably not but I would

Oh lord. Ren maybe?

Well… I was bullying her while watching my brother play yesterday, and it got worse when he explained her backstory (I missed that part), but I realized they needed someone to be an experiment for Maruki didn’t they? So they created Sumire for this im guessing. Not to say that’s all she did, just that id understand why she’s here if im right

I am constantly going feral over shuake, that’s the good shit. My otp across all fandoms deadass. Least favorite ship…? I don’t concern myself with that really, maybe others with akechi because I’m weird like that? Or Ren and Kawakami? No clue, I just don’t care ig

Black mask akechi is so fuckign ugly I spent a good two minutes roasting him to my brother yesterday. The others are all pretty good! Violet, Joker, Panther, Noir, Prince Crow… Do Sophie and Wolf count? Eh, I’ll just pick Joker for this, he’s really hot lol

Absolutely. She seems so fun and interesting. Thank god she got so much screentime in the sequel

…even if I had finished the game, I’m bad at social links and would’ve missed half of them. Cant answer this

Mishima best boy ong. I’ve already said I don’t like Kawakami but at this point I just sound like a hater, she just annoyed me a bit from what I saw that’s all! Hmm… I’ve heard no one likes Ohya let’s go with her lmfao

Oh god, idk. Vanilla was probably a bit more cohesive, but it didn’t have the Akechi dates… and yet it did have that hilariously amazing Rank 8 Justice… dude idfk, I’m leaning towards vanilla out of nostalgia i think. Also it played last surprise at appropriate times heyo

I will die on the Ren personality hill idfc. I have talked about it before. He’s a jokester. He’s sarcastic. He’s a masochist. He’s caring. He loves crossdressing. He doesn’t take anyones shit. Etc

Idk, didn’t play… maybe the fanservicey stuff

Well “honey I’m home” is legendary, as well as “case closed this is how your justice ends” but idk if they’re my favorite. I also don’t know my least favorite, never played

Ren Amamiya! It’s the most common one in media, and I’m pretty sure it was confirmed canon when it was ported recently? If you change the language his name is set to the default, Ren. Also it sounds nicer, and it was used in the tv show that I actually liked and saw before I ever read the one (1) comic that calls him Akira (which I’ve actually never read lol)

Okumuras gets dunked on a lot. I’ll join the bandwagon even if I didn’t get that far lmao. Best, I’ll go with Sae. Didn’t get there either but casino go brr

Does strikers count? Loving wonderland 👌. Idk any others

Yes. Oh my god. Even my shumako-shipping brother calls his social link events dates. He obsessively inserts himself into Rens life and invites him privately to tons of cute little places and activities lmao. And bro. Rens wish. Oh my god.

Yeah I could see it. Not a big ship of mine but I’d totally believe it, and I’ve reblogged some cute art of it!

He seems cool and has an interesting motive but I haven’t played or watched this part before

…shit. My brother thinks it was cruel, but I see Rens point. It’s fake, and they’re being manipulated. And yet they’re happy… goddamn idk dude

Well… I know in the bad ending we see him being friends with the PTs and playing chess with Ren, but it’s hard to know if that’s because that’s what he wanted or because that’s what Ren wanted (especially since I can’t remember the context of his personality change in that scenario). If that’s not right, probably just a scenario where his dad wasn’t awful and he has a few close friends that don’t need him to be perfect to love him

Lmfao! Maybe Ren mentioned a friend that wanted to fit in better and Maruki connected the dots? Idk to reiterate I never saw the third semester

I was kinda thinking that she did recently… in the first palace she was strong, vindictive, cold, yet also kind and loving. But when I saw a bit of third semester yesterday, she seemed like the usual dumb blonde joke? Idk, I do like when she was smart and powerful in her own ways back in the beginning

Reply to this post/message me your answers to any of the following:

Favorite and least favorite moment/scene/line from the game

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If you think Xander Mobus gave Joker a hot voice or not

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Who you think is the gayest member of the Phantom Thieves

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If you think Haru had too little screen time and if she deserved more

Favorite and least favorite Social link

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If you prefer Royal or Vanilla

If you think Joker was given a personality or not

Most useless scene/aspect of the game

Worst and best line

Which canon name you prefer for Joker

Best and worst Palace

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[kyu-bri]

Magia Rapport pt 2

@magiarapport​

August 24th prompt: What was your favorite event, and why? Is it because of gameplay or the story?

It’s hard to choose so I’m gonna just, gush a bit.

As you can probably tell I’m very biased toward the OG girls, I started Magia Record primarily because PMMM had become my new obsession and I wanted some sort of constant flow of content out of decade old anime lmao.

But another thing I think I hooked onto was Inu Curry’s writing. They really know Madoka Magica and aren’t afraid to really play with them- something the writers for a spin-off gacha game (as with most spin-off stories honestly) can be scared to do. Inu Curry made references, revealed secrets and built upon the story we already know- which lets be honest is what we always truly want from a spin-off series. Magia Record proper does this well by putting more magical girls into the world and letting us see things work out better for them than for the original cast, but what I really appreciated with this story was getting to see that old original cast get to get in on that, and these events managed to do that without watering them down any.

Under the cut is me going on for 3000 words about why I love these three events I’m so sorry. TL;DR at the very end-

I’ll go in release order,

A La Carte Valentine was one of the first if not THE first event I got in on. I was eager to bc 1 Gay Magical Girl Shit Guaranteed. And ofc 2 OG Cast participation.

I want to preface by saying I actually loved all the girls’ stories in this. I was very much still in a state of getting used to Iroha’s gang let alone trying to care about the secondary girls. I knew Tsukasa had this angsty Twins Separated At Birth Deal and liked seeing her home life (also I immediantly stanned Take. Regular well-meaning dude who has no idea whats going on just trying his best and hating his boss). I knew nothing about Ami except Cowgirl Meguca and getting the bulk of her personality in one short even I think really kept me from being absolutely sick of her, she’s just a cute silly teenage girl who could be in literally anything and I was able to just endearingly giggle at that. Hinano managed to do the heterosexual unrequited crush cliché without me groaning or missing any of her regular personality. Also was there a Ren part? I don’t remember because everything Ren does feels like a Soft Yuri Valentines Special. Also I love Momoko. Ok moving on to what I Really wanna talk about.

Madoka is genuinely my Least Cared About of the Holy Sextet. I don’t think she’s bad or even boring- Madoka has a depth to her character, like, really deep- but that’s not something ever really touched upon by the fandom. Even when people like her and make her the Heroine she’s Supposed to be, it’s usually in the context of “Girl who feels nothing but kindness and happy thoughts would cut off her right hand to feed to a hungry dog. Isn’t she so Good????”. And honestly, while I understand the point it was going to make, I wasn’t crazy about her sacrifice in the end of the series. (Team Homura “Rebellion Is Good Actually” ftw) All because I think that I’m an Adult Woman watching this like “You are 14yrs old and need to be home playing Sims and not sacrificing yourself for the greater good you stupid silly little baby girl”

So my point is here near all fan content I encounter tends to emphasize whats sort of my least favorite facet of Madoka. I don’t think she made the ‘wrong’ decision in the context she and the story were given, but it’s still a sad thing to show a depressed(!!!) insecure girl resolving to give away her very existence so that every other girl on earth has a chance to just Dream. Oh and they still usually die young. But that’s ok because then she takes them and lets them sleep peacefully forever in her Heaven Basement (Yes I am bitter stan Homura I would yank this savior complex infant girl out the sky too)

MY POINT BEING (The servers closing let me BLEED OUT ALL MY FEELINGS) This event did not do that!!! It made Madoka…….. EVERYTHING SHE SHOULD BE??? ALWAYS??? Showed her HOW WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO VIEW HER??? (Read: Happy and Alive and Confident at no foreboding or sacrifice of anyone else!!!!)

She is Sassy and Surrounded By Friends and Really Funny??? And we get this Ridiculous Oh My God On Crack metaphor about her being this all-powerful apocalypse bringing being which is representing her love for the universe through her Witch form of Wanting Everyone To Be Happy And Safe With Her??? And she still risks herself to save everyone as is her Thing to do but we get to have her do it without erasing her existence as a human being at the end and if that is not some GOOD SHIT????

Ok next:

NGL Sayaka’s (fav character, inarguable best girl, can u not tell) parts in MagiReco til like the last arc have always left me a bit disappointed. She was the only late comer of the OG girls from what I understand and it kind of gives her the air of what a lot of the second(/thirdary?) girls suffer from. You can tell the writers can’t even figure out a trope to apply her to to make her easy and two dimensional to write about so they just don’t know what to do. They definitely try to make up for it (especially in the anime which Praise Be but that’s probably Inu Currys doing) but she’s still lacking like, any of the depth of her personality. Which, I guess I could anticipate. Because most of the fandom tends to as well. (again)

Gonna stop complaining and get on with- That didn’t feel as much the case in her Valentine event. Sure it was still the same formula of “The Issue Is Kyosuke” but that didn’t play out as grueling as her personal story did with “Nine Episodes Of “The Issue Is Kyosuke””

There was one big glaring heart-aching detail of “Mami isn’t really there because SHES IN A FUCKING CULT RIGHT NOW” which kind of jarred the event out of the ho-hum silly valentines sidestory these events usually keep up.

Sayaka has this crisis about Doing Anything Meaningful With Kyosuke which we all know what That’s calling back to, but in this environment we get to have Kyoko come right up and be in a position with her to earnestly and affectionately Push Her To Do It. The lonely little tsundere bitch girl pushes her Not Friend to Give The Bastard The Gotdamn Chocolate Already and for a moment you can only think about What If’s and If Only’s. Sayaka’s is still the weakest of the threes stories in this event but it worked harder to show us different sides of the characters then 6 chapters of Another Story managed to do.

And then there’s fucking Homura.

I will be, eternally grateful for Kuro. As a character that becomes metaphorical for the 2D ways we initially viewed the feathers and just NPCs in games in general, and also like, giving Homura a friend she actually cares about that isn’t the tangled dark web of Bullshit she’s gotten tied up with Madoka in. Please ask me about all my AU’s where Kuro is Homuras first girlfriend.

Seeing Moemura in Magia Record has always been a bit surreal, we never really understand just what stage of Trauma this Homura is in because Multiverses Are Hell, but this event gives us a good chunk of a Homura who still has hope and faith both in the world and Madoka. Theres this wonder to her that while still bogged down by terrible experiences still has the energy to be Trying. And she sees a girl who used to be like her- which when you think about it is probably what Madoka saw in her- and she wants to help. Because Madoka helped her. And Madoka is the best thing in the universe and maybe Homura can be just a little bit closer to that.

Kuro is too far gone though, as is the reality frequently in this series, things don’t work out just because of circumstance. Kuro was a bullied, insecure little girl who realistically shouldn’t have had to become a rampaging monster because of it. We’re reminded of this being the reality of the Madoka universe. Homura, is reminded of this reality. Homura loses this one chance to bring hope into the world like Madoka brought hope into hers.

And then her story ties into the ending of Madoka’s. Madoka saves her life yet again, even as Homura continues to feel miserable and empty. But at least Madoka is with her. The girls then share a quiet, intimate Valentines together. And you sort of understand how Homura fell so far into the darkness that the only thing she was able to still care about and fight for was Madoka’s safety.

That shit slaps. It slaps you right in the heart and causes fucking bruising but then u want it to do it again because you’re masochistic and Meguca Is Suffering.

Anyway I hope Kuroe slaps our hearts more in season2

MOVING ON!!!!

~Nagisa’s Wish~

Ok, I don’t remember what got me so simp over Nagisa, I think it was the heart-aching irony that Mami adopts the witch that fucking ate her. But that is my baby now and I’d die for her. Fandom Charlotte whose pink and silly and loves her mom and is Mami’s cancer-riddled girlfriend is cool and all but she isn’t a tiny Halloweeny baby whose fucking bitter angry and manically obsessed with cheese due to PTSD.

I had saw a summary of Nagisa’s Wish reposted just to quickly explain Nagisa’s backstory, and as such immediately had to search out if that crazy ride was true- so I actually watched this whole event probably before I downloaded the game. It was surreal on its own but replaying it when it came to NA didn’t lessen it any- I got to process more of what I was witnessing and as result stanned Yu pretty hard.

I guess to explain my Emotions here, saving Yu for later- calls for me to just, describe who Nagisa is as a human being and my headcanons surrounding it all with what this event gave us. Whether you consider it canon or not it’s one version of events that we were given and that I am all for accepting.

Nagisa’s Mom was a celebrity, she could have been an actress though I also like the idea of her being an Idol. She met Nagisa’s Dad oh-so romantically and got knocked up- they very well could have been married but it doesn’t seem clear enough. He seems to have left too suddenly for legal matters like that. Nagisa is approximately 11, and while she seems to remember her Father, she doesn’t in the sense of having had a relationship with him or any feelings. Her Mother has to “explain” why he left, so Nagisa was probably still young even if not a baby. What I’m getting at here is the timeline for when Nagisa’s Mom Got Like That. Nagisa can remember her from before she was, and then says that she got sick after her Dad left. So what I’m wondering is did Daddy Momoe ruin this young rich girls life, give her syphilis and then leave her with a baby she was unfit to care for in poverty? I know half of this is running on anime logic but Holy Shit all the possible ways reasons and ideas for why things could’ve gotten This Bad.

Is it ridiculously dark and edgy that the original story we were given was “Girl wishes her dying mother could have her favorite cake but then realizes OOPSIE-DAISY I could have wished for her to Not Die instead!!!!” got turned into “11yr old hates her abusive mother so much she wants to make her suffer in the most symbolic way she can and then goes mental when she isn’t able to do it”??? Yes. But if I had the mental capacity to I have to admit I was in a position to be just as bitter at that age too. I can’t call it unrealistic. I may infact be projecting hard with how much I support and enjoy this backstory.

Anyway Nagisa was in such a state of trauma and distress at a horrifically young age when she died that it broke her mental faculties so severely that even when she came back as a literal Angel of God she had blocked it out so deeply and thoroughly she seemingly regressed to an even younger capacity and hyperfixated on the trait that she has before used to try to bond with her Mother who she had died hating.

And that also slaps u right in the heart.

A N D T H E N !

~Beachside Bonds~

Just the simple structure of this story was so enjoyable and nicely done. We finally get to see the OG girls in a context we wouldn’t be able to in literally any other scenario. They’re going on a summer vacation together and Homura is sentimentally journaling every single second of it. Is this mayhaps because she’s never gotten to be this happy and blissful with these girls she loves so much??? Of course this is are you not paying attention what the fuck. Homura is so optimistic and healed and hopeful she’s acting like what she might actually be doing as a normal teenage girl. (A heartrending contrast to the end of her Valentines Special)

We get nothing short of pure fluffy Slice Of Life shenanigans on the beach which even includes a bunch of the Kamihama girls that the OG crew knows! And they talk about it! And introduce eachother! And their friends commentate on it! Ren gets to see Kyoko Not Being A Bitch and then Sayaka teases her about having made friends and oh my god my heart is turning into cottoncandy as we speak Mom holy FUCK

Sayaka’s existence fucking matters in this story! It’s her families Hotel they’re staying at and she has relationships and memories with the creepy twins that live there and she talks like a fucking person??? And gives opinions??? That aren’t just copypasted “Justice is Good and Bad things are BAD!!!!”

Mami is fresh out of her fucking Cult Drama and she’s still trying to be cool Senpai but then she DECKS Homura in the face and gets scared by the ghost stories and then turns into pudding and waxes nostalgia at Kyoko out of nowhere IT’S ALMOST LIKE SHE’S A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL????????

G H O S T S ? ? ? ?

Y U ! ? ! ? ! ? !

(IS G A Y ! ! ! !)

This whole fucking backstory and truly horrifying Romeo and Juliet on Acid love and death story between Yu and her girlfriend and like if I wasn’t fascinated enough by Yu just being the creepy organ harvester before but apparently thats what she became after she literally made some sort of wish that erased all of her memories besides the nickname her sweetheart used for her and coincidentally also added to her the task of killing all Bad People?????

Yu made a wish to be able to get rid of All Bad People preserving the innocent version of herself who grew up with this girl and it was right after a failed double suicide attempt on fucking Doomed Lovers Cliff fucking Lifetime Will You Ever.

It then pairs with Homura whose PTSD gets to shine through a bit in being unable to believe any bad sort of Madoka which how could you try to force her to at this point while Also pairing Homura with Ren in the “Gay Love Saved Our Lives: Traumatized vers & Vanilla vers”

I don’t remember if there was a symbolic finale and tbh I have forgotten a lot of the details with Yu and her girlfriend Whatsherface because that shit was just so shocking and bizarre to read and much too painful to reread in a timely fashion just.

That shit hurted but it was full of so much love and hope both doomed and stolen but still was wrapped up in the comforting concept that This Is The Universe Where Homura Gets To Be Okay This Time.

She’s still scarred beyond comprehension and this ghost drama accentuated it all but at the end of the day this is still the Safe Universe where all of them are alive and the Holy Quintet are friends and they’re all going to be okay (Godoka & Aniplex willing) and so many of us love Madoka Magica because it shows girls fighting through the same pain we’ve been through and keeping their hope alive and here we get to see them actually find peace in a clunkily written fanservicey spin-off mobile gacha game and hey, that made me happy while I got to experience it. Thanks for the ideas and memories and tragic backstories and funny thirdary characters MagiReco I’m gonna take em all and Run.

Akjsladbfalkjfsbslk If you read this all without getting a migraine or blocking me ily thanks for listening!!!!!!

TL;DR

Me likey A La Carte Valentine bc it’s silly and gay and I simp Kuro

Me likey Nagisa’s Wish bc sawft baby is good and so are Tragic Edgy Backstories

Me likey Beachside Bonds bc Gay Ghosts and Our Girls Finally Get To Be Happy Peaceful(ish) Teenage Girls and that’s all I want for them ;w;

Reeses In Pieces ya’ll

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[aladdins-attic]

Are you a sadist? Do you like watch character's suffering? You want to see angst? Ok, I'll give you it.Just imagine your favorite character that kills his/her s/o !Accidentally! ( how? I don't know, it'll be your homework). How much pain it can cause, when you destroy your life with your own hands!!!😍 How he/she can live father, if they've taken life of their beloved.They will suffer, torment, expire themselves..oh, l want to see how they'll plunge into the abyss of despair☺️. It's not trivial?

love I’m not a sadist I’m a goddamn MASOCHIST ripping my heart out by reading or writing horrible things is an a+ pastime of mine ;^D ((note: I was stuck between Lo’lo, Hakuren, and Kouha and went with Hakuren because he doesn’t get enough love lmao ;; lightly based on an idea I had for an oc btw)

Hakuren Ren

He wished he hadn’t argued so much.Why had he thought that bringing them along his and his brother’s war campaigns was a good idea? Why had his father agreed to it in the first place? What were they even doing there?Had he been thinking logically, Hakuren would have remembered that it was because having his lover waiting for him back at the palace made him less focused and more distracted, thus more likely to make mistakes on the battlefield, than when they were with him, safe in his tent, ready to take care of him when he got back. He would have remembered that it was because their relationship had been kept hidden from this father, only Gyokuen and Hakuyuu being fully aware of his love for his partner; Hakuyuu by choice, Gyokuen because “a mother always knows, dear,” and he would have remembered that he was there because he had a job to do as the second Imperial Prince of Kou.How foolish of him.If he hadn’t argued and bargained with his father to get him to allow his lover to join him and his brother, none of this would have happened.He wouldn’t have ended up covered in their blood, their limp body in his lap and his sword through their chest.

“We aren’t meant to have relationships like the one you had,” Hakuyuu spoke that night, looking down at his younger brother who sat on the floor, brushing hairs away from his love’s face. “For people like us, in our positions, they never end well.”Hakuren remained silent, continuing to gaze down at the pale face that had once held so much life. The second prince had refused to be separated from his s/o, carrying them off of the battlefield scattered with corpses and to his tent, where he washed the dried blood off of them and slid their lifeless body into clothes that weren’t torn up and stained red. Hakuyuu knew that his actions weren’t healthy, but he also knew that his brother was grieving and if this made him feel slightly better, than he was damn well going to let his brother carry around a body for a while.“Ours would have ended well,” Hakuren mumbled, dragging the tip of his right index finger lightly against their cheek. “I would have married them and we would have had children and lived in an annex away from the palace where we could raise those children peacefully, away from politics and war.” Rubbing small circles into their skin with his thumb, Hakuren smiled down at them. “I would have loved them forever and ever until the day I died.”Hakuyuu had no response to this, watching his brother with a saddened expression. He’d loved his brother’s partner like a sibling, feeling that they were a part of the family just as much as he was. He would grieve them too, in his own way.“What were they even doing out there?” Hakuren mumbled under his breath, twisting a strand of their hair around one finger. “Why then? Why did they have to have their back to me?”There was nothing in his voice to indicate that he was upset; It was hollow, and slightly melancholic.“…I suppose that’s just the way things had to happen, little brother.” Hakuyuu answered despite knowing Hakuren wasn’t looking for an actual answer.Hakuren continued with his ministration, looking down at the body resting in his lap with hooded eyes.“I wonder if they forgive me,” His words were barely louder than a whisper.“I would think so,” Hakuyuu replied. “They know you would never cause them any harm on purpose.” At his brother’s silence, Hakuyuu let out a tired, sad sigh. “It was a mistake. You were in the middle of a battle, anyone not wearing the traditional army uniform was an enemy. You couldn’t have known.”“…They looked so scared,” Hakuren breathed out, his voice beginning to tremble. “When I realized it was them and caught them, when we went to the ground, they looked so confused a- and scared,” He whimpered, moving an arm to support their neck. “I know they heard me, I know they saw me, they knew it was me and- and they just… Smiled…” Clutching their body to his chest, Hakuren lowered his face to the space between their neck and chest, his shoulders beginning to shake violently. “I said sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry,” He was crying now, crying into their corpse and trying to hold them like they were still alive. Trying to ignore the stab wound he had caused.Hakuyuu watched, his expression grim. There was nothing he could do at that moment except wait for his brother to calm down.“I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry, I love you, I love you so so much, please don’t leave me,” Whimpered words escaped past his lips, broken up by heavy sobs.Had anyone with the gift to see the Rukh been present at that time, they would have noticed the golden shapes in the air hovering around the prince as he cried, almost cloaking him like a blanket, almost like they were trying to comfort him.

“I love you,” Hakuren choked out.“I love you, too,” Was the nonexistent response.