#remedy writing in mirroring-self-consuming

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Alan Wake (whose face and voice we find on Thomas Zane and Casper Darling, respectively) ends up in an antagonistic relationship with Alex Casey (whose face and voice we find on Sam Lake and Zachariah Trench, respectively).

Casper Darling and Zachariah Trench? By the end, their relationship was antagonistic.

The Casey-Trench voice was once a guide-friend for Wake-Darling.

And then, they were fighting.

One was suspicious of the other, thinking he was lying, hiding something.

While the other was unaware of the darkness that was growing and consuming the former's mind, his ignorance letting it fester. Feeding it, even.

The original faces, Thomas Zane and Sam Lake? In this latest iteration they've spoken with their own voices while in the Dark Place, only in the presence of a camera.

Alan Wake and Zachariah Trench? In the end, while in a nightmare dimension, both get shot by a woman who both of these men meddled in their lives, threatening the well being of their loved one.

At least one had a hand in his fate, willing it, accepting it. The other? He was fully gone, his will overtaken by the nightmare.

A version of Alex Casey did say it after all. He and writer, they were the same.

And finally, the real Sam Lake? By happenstance he offered his face for a collaborative project, and became a symbol. Even if he tried to fight it, tried to replace it, he had to concede. The story demanded it, as if writing it wasn't enough, the narrative claimed his visage.

There's no need to make overt mentions or put the image of the Ouroboros in posters. The serpent is interwoven in the fabric of the narrative itself.

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hi el! absolutely love the new desktop theme, maybe perhaps slightly more because i am on the list of bangin blogs 😊 also would love some music recs!!

hi hi celie! thank you very much, the layout of my actual twitter is a hot mess (along with twitter as a whole) so this is a fitting remedy. plus it was super customizable, which i liked. and i got to have a little list of all my rad mutuals!! it’s a win win situation!!

okay so!! i feel like i have a pretty good grasp on your music taste so i do feel a little bit cocky writing this, but i checked out orla gartland a little bit ago and really enjoyed some of her stuff (heavy was my favorite i think) so these first few have those kind of vibes i suppose? so first up i got adam melchor, who i discovered through his performance at the sos fest, and that’s a really great jumping off point for his sound. but i think you might enjoy real estate and summer camp!

this one isn’t all that out there, i’m sure you’ve heard of phoebe bridgers before (especially if you follow me lol), but she wins a spot on this list because <3. coincidentally enough, her sos fest performance is also worth checking out (plus!! better oblivion community center makes an appearance!! phoebe’s band with conor oberst!!) as well as her infamous snl performance. but outside of her live stuff, i think you might like stranger in the alps (motion sickness and you missed my heart in particular) as well as some stuff on punisher (garden song, halloween, and icu maybe?) i also feel like you might like boygenius, which is a band phoebe’s in with lucy dacus and julien baker!!

(very quick little boygenius related sub tangent, but little oblivions by julien baker and no burden by lucy dacus should also make this list. also the entirety of the boygenius ep)

next up i got none other than angel olsen herself,, her stuff is like this kinda synthy, really cool folkish electropop? i really like all mirrors (all mirrors and new love cassette in particular) but MY WOMAN deserves the hype it gets as well!! there is some overlap between the two albums, some songs off of MY WOMAN were redone on all mirrors so for a few songs you can pick between the synth in all mirrors or the stripped down acoustics in MY WOMAN which i think is a super fun way to consume her stuff. there’s also a little of this on her 2020 album whole new mess, which i haven’t properly listened to, but liked what i heard of!

now this one may seem like it comes from a place of bias (because it totally does) but i feel like you might like some of hayley william’s solo stuff? i don’t really know how to describe it, but off of petals for armor i’d recommend disc 2 if you don’t want to just take it from the top. the album was dropped one ep at a time before the whole thing was released on may 8th (we r birthday twins) so i don’t feel THAT bad recommending a part of it in particular but!! the whole thing is really really good and i think you might like it!! there’s also the self-serenades, which are just some nice acoustic versions of a few songs if that floats your boat. her tiny desk concert is also a nice little introduction :)

i recall you liking tfb, so now i’m kind of moving into that little genre of music? but slaughter beach, dog is what jake ewald got into after modern baseball broke up and MAN. it’s similar lyrical content to mobo but make it songs that are good to make breakfast to on a sunday morning. i can’t describe it any other way. birdie is a good place to start, if u dig it then i’d highly recommend checking out at the moonbase too,, or if you want to hear a good example of a slaughter beach, dog song to find out if you like the sound i’d recommend acolyte!!

one offs:

october by broken bells

science vs. romance by rilo kiley

as the world caves in by matt maltese

you are what you love by jenny lewis

hannah hunt by vampire weekend

o valencia! by the decemberists

celebration guns by stars

get me away from here, i’m dying by belle and sebastian

waitress by hop along

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How Can I Care Less About My Image Like Effy? Less About Impressing Others And More About Just Doing What I Like Without Letting Them Influence Me?

Anonymous said:

So I have some problems with my confidence. I can be confident at times but it lasts for a very short time and I begin analysing every part of myself and find new insecurities. Sometimes it makes me feel really disgusting so any advice?? Thank you for this blog btw

Anonymous said:

Even though there are people who like me I feel like I'm not a likeable person because I'm insecure and this gets in the way of me socialising, having fun and having good relationships with people. How do I stop feeling this way?

Anonymous said:

last night i had the worst breakdown i’ve had in foreve about how ugly i was, every single detail about myself was so prominent and i’ve fallen so deep down this hole where i couldn’t hate myself more. i’m so unattractive andthat’s the only thing that people give a fuck about , relatives, friends, family, employers, it’s consumed my life. sometimes i’ll look in the mirror and like what i see &for that fleeting moment i’m so fucking happy you can’t imagine but then i go back to seeing the truth

Anonymous said:

I hate myself. How do I mask my insecurities and make people think I'm confident and make it look like don't care about what they think?

Anonymous said:

how can i appear more confident?

Anonymous said:

how do i deal with fear of being judged? I'm always so scared that people I've known for a long time will remember embarrassing things I've done and still laugh at me for it

Anonymous said:

I'm so insecure because I care so much what people think, its so bad that I don't even want to leave my house. When I go out with all my friends, almost all of them get complimented somehow and I never do, it might sound selfish or something but it really brings down my self esteem, I start feeling like I'm invisible or that people only hang out with me because they feel bad for me, and it makes me want to stop being social/getting out of the house, etc.

Anonymous said:

I sometimes hate my face so much and I feel so insecure and it's the worst feeling :( I hope I like the way I look one day but it seems so hard.

Anonymous said:

I can’t be confident with myself, I’m a huge ppl pleaser bc it feels like is the only way to keep them around, and I guess that’s ok but what frustrastes me the most is the fact that ppl don’t see me or my personality, it’s like I’m just there to help them out, to be their side kick... whenever I try to be confident I cringe at myself... How can I feel more secure with myself?

More than any other question, the thing I get asked most is how to build self-confidence, overcome insecurities, and deal with the fear of being judged.  In this post, I’m going to put every tip and trick I know about becoming confident, no matter who you are and the situation you’re in.

The first thing to remember about confidence is that people aren’t drawn to people because they’re beautiful, or smart, or kind, or fun, or interesting.  People are drawn to people who are confident.  If you’re confident and weird, you’re not weird, you’re a visionary.  If you’re confident and ugly, you’re not ugly, you’re “unconventionally beautiful” or a trendsetter.  If you’re confident and overly serious, you’re not boring, you’re a leader.  A lot of people think it’s the other way around- that only beautiful, smart, charming people who are well-liked can be confident- but it’s not true.  To use a Skins example, Tony’s not a good person.  He’s manipulative and cruel.  But people like him (at least in the beginning) and go along with what he says because he’s confident.  The same goes for Katie.  You can argue about whether she’s objectively the most attractive girl in the group, but she acts confident in herself and in her appearance, and it works. Lots of guys are attracted to her.  So that’s the first thing- don’t focus on changing yourself (physically or emotionally) in the hopes that you’ll be more confident.  Instead, focus on changing your mindset to that of a confident person.  It will make a huge difference. 

Of course, that’s all easier said than done, and the process of building self confidence can take a while.  In the meantime, while you’re on the journey of actually becoming confident, one thing that can help is “faking it until you make it”.  When you’re going about your day, ask yourself, “how would a confident person who’s never experienced insecurity or anxiety handle this situation”?  Then do what a confident person would do.  If you have a really confident friend, it can help to imagine what they would do in a given situation and then do that.  Pretend everyone you meet already loves you and thinks you’re great.  Pretend like you think you’re great.  It will feel uncomfortable at first, but you’ll start getting used to it and the “confident” responses to things will start feeling normal.  One thing that can make this a little bit easier is to talk to yourself in the second person.  By saying things like “you’ve got this”, your brain will (sort of) feel like you’re receiving advice from somebody else, which is more motivating than getting advice from ourselves.

There are also some exercises you can use to build your self confidence on your own. Some of you have heard this one before, so bare with me, but the first thing I suggest is:  every morning, look at yourself in the mirror and say some things you like about yourself.  I know you probably feel like you can’t find any, but try.  Focus on those things that you like and try to only focus on those things.  Write them down, either physically (on a sticky note on your mirror, maybe) or in your phone.  Each day, try to add a new thing to the list.  When you’re out and about, remember those things that you like about yourself, focus on them, and try to draw attention to them.  When other people compliment you, add those to your list as well.  I think eventually by recognizing all of the things that you like about yourself, you’ll be able to feel like there are things about you that you can be confident in, and you won’t focus so much on the things that you feel are negative.  These don’t have to just be things that are physical.  You should include things you like about your personality as well.

I mentioned this trick the other day, but I want to put it here as well.  A lot of people who are insecure use deprecating humor to cope and as a bid to get other people to like them.  But I think that can be really emotionally damaging.  Like Hannah Gadsby said in Nanette, “I have built a career out of self-deprecating humor, and I don’t want to do that anymore..do you understand what self-deprecation means when it comes from somebody who already exists in the margins? It’s not humility. It’s humiliation. I put myself down in order to speak, in order to seek permission to speak, and I simply will not do that anymore, not to myself or anybody who identifies with me.”  Self-deprecation impacts our self-esteem, and it impacts the way people around us view us.  The more times we say something, even as a joke, the more we start to believe it, and the more the people around us start to believe it.  So instead, make fun of yourself by pretending you’re really, really cocky.  If you trip and fall, instead of saying, “I’m such a disaster”, replace it with “I’m the epitome of grace and beauty”.  If you make a piece of art and you think it sucks, say, “Obviously I’m the next Di Vinci/Michelangelo/whatever.”  If you say something dumb, instead of saying, “I’m so stupid,” say, “I’m clearly the next Einstein.”  You still get to make a joke and diffuse any awkwardness the situation has, but you also get practice saying nice things about yourself.  And eventually, you’ll get so used to saying nice things about yourself as a joke that it won’t feel so weird to say those things about yourself in a serious way, too.

For those people who feel insecure about things they did in their past, try and think of something embarrassing one of your friends has done.  Can you think of anything?  The vast majority of people remember their own embarrassing moments really vividly, but don’t remember things other people have done at all.  Reminding yourself that you’re probably the only one who remembers or cares about the mistake you made can help you let go.  The mistakes you’ve made in the past are learning experiences that you’ve grown from and changed from, and the fact that you’re embarrassed by them is a good thing.  It means that you’re not that person anymore- that you’ve become someone better.  I think that’s something to celebrate instead of something to cringe at.  It can also help to talk to yourself as if you were a friend who’s remembering an embarrassing moment. Would you tell them how embarrassing that moment was and how much they suck?  Probably not.  You’d be nice to them and tell them things will be okay.  Talk to yourself like you would a friend.

The fact that people aren’t paying attention to what you’re doing doesn’t just apply to cringey things you did in your past.  People are unlikely to remember that one time you tried a new hairstyle or wore an unusual piece of clothing.  They’re unlikely to remember that one time you asked someone out and they rejected you.  So many of the social pressures we feel can be remedied by remembering that most people are way too worried about what they’re doing and how they appear to the world to care about what you’re doing. 

One more piece of advice- stop comparing yourself to other people.  The old adage, “comparison is the thief of joy” is totally, scientifically proven to be true.  Comparing ourselves to other people (or to TV shows, movies, characters in books, etc) makes us much less happy because we’re comparing everything we know about ourselves, good and bad, with a curated version of this person.  We don’t see them when they wake up in the morning with crusty eyes and frizzy hair, or when they have the flu, or when they’re overwhelmed and anxious and lashing out at the people around them.  But the truth is that everyone, even the people you think have perfect lives that you see on social media, are just people.  They have bad habits and negative traits and days where they’re not at their best, just like the rest of us.  If you really want to start being confident, one of the best things you can do for yourself is to mute or unfollow the people who make you feel insecure online, and replace them with people who inspire you- artists or activists or cute videos of animals, whatever works.  You’ll never be able to feel good about yourself if you’re constantly tracking all the ways in which you feel you don’t measure up.  But you will if you’re constantly seeing all the ways in which you do.

Last thing. Basic life care stuff, like good posture, exercising, eating well, sleeping well, meditating, and just generally practicing self-care and taking care of yourself can improve your confidence as well.  If you’re not starting on a strong foundation, it’s hard to build anything that will last.  But if your foundation is solid, all of the things you do to build your self-confidence on top of that will be, too.

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No man is a failure who has comrades

Last night we had Christmas with my MIL, which involves watching It’s a Wonderful Life and then as many versions of A Christmas Carol as we can find. (Muppets > all others, btw.)

It’s weird that some of America’s most beloved Christmas movies aren’t about Jesus or Santa, right? It’s weird that they contain such an implicit critique of capitalism?

I mean, it’s not a hardcore critique. Scrooge and Potter are both exemplars of greed, the Cratchitts and the Baileys of poverty, but both stories seem to conclude that problem isn’t a system that allows such monstrous inequality but the personal morality of the rich and powerful. George Bailey is also a capitalist, but a “bad” one, who puts kindness ahead of the B&L’s profit margin.

(Though apparently the FBI totally thought that Potter was deliberate Communist propaganda designed to stir up a hatred of bankers. It’s also interesting that Potter’s plot to ruin George unravels without Potter actually getting punished. He just steals eight grand and gets away with it. That’s a violation of the Hayes Code, that is.)

Charles Dickens was absolutely writing from a “fuck capitalism” perspective, and most film adaptations leave out some of the preachiest parts. Frank Capra was absolutely not intending to write anything anti-capitalist -- dude was a conservative who hated FDR and was obsessed with the American Dream and the idea of the self-made man. And yet the movie gives us lines like this:

Just remember this, Mr. Potter, that this rabble you're talking about... they do most of the working and paying and living and dying in this community. Well, is it too much to have them work and pay and live and die in a couple of decent rooms and a bath? 

::cups hands around mouth:: WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY MR. POTTER. GET BENT

As @lofrothepirate pointed out to me, the state is pretty much absent in both stories -- we never see the mayor of Bedford Falls, and while Scrooge famously mentions taxes, the only people trying to actually improve the lives of the working class are Beaker and Honeydew the rich guys soliciting charitable donations from other rich guys. George Bailey was apparently born with an unshakable sense to duty to others, even as his personal ambitions curdle unfulfilled; Ebenezer Scrooge learns a kind of noblesse oblige under the threat of eternal damnation. It’s all about personal virtue, not structural remedies. Having a dictator wouldn’t be so bad if we could ensure it was always a “good” dictator, right?

And yet. The stories are mirror images in a lot of ways: Potter and Scrooge are both landlords, though we never really get into Potter’s head beyond George’s description of a “warped, frustrated old man;” he’s almost more of an abstract emblem of Vice than an actual character. Bob Cratchitt (and even moreso, Tiny Tim) is just the opposite, a walking icon of Virtue in the face of all hardship; George breaks down, lashes out at others, and has to call the divine suicide hotline. Scrooge has to speedrun empathy and face the threat of eternal damnation to change his ways, while George just has to be reminded of the fact that he cares about other people to free him from the Lonely break him out of his spiral.

(Also, the single most hilarious part of the film is the abject horror everyone holds of Mary becoming a spinster librarian. MY GOD, ANYTHING BUT THAT.)

Another thing that sticks out is that, despite the dystopian world being called Pottersville, Mr. Potter himself is completely absent -- there’s no scene where George passes him on the street or runs up to his mansion to see him lighting his cigars with wads of burning cash. All of the suffering Potter has caused is not actually attributed to Potter, but to George’s absence. And nobody ever does realize he stole the money. In parallel, the ghosts force Scrooge to confront how other people talk about him in his absence -- both in the present (his nephew makes fun of him, Emily Cratchitt cusses him out) and the future (people joke about his death, in contrast to the genuine grief the Cratchitts feel over Tiny Tim). But all the bullshit they witness IS Scrooge’s fault, if only as sins of omission, and he tries to make amends.

And finally, the epilogues: Scrooge is transformed from a miser into a philanthropist, while George is consumed with love for his community instead of a dreary sense of duty. Scrooge spends money, while George recognizes the power of solidarity friendship when half the town shows up to “loan” him the missing money. Which somehow nullifies the warrant and obviates the inevitable fraud investigation? Like, the bank examiner and the sheriff are right there, they know that there’s still an $8k error in the books. But LOOK PAPA THE BELL IS RINGING SHOULD AULD ACQUAINTANCE BE FORGOT AND NEVER BROUGHT TO MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIND

Ahem. If Christmas Carol is about “the rich must be supernaturally terrorized into acting right,” then Wonderful Life is “local man cannot ask for help without literal divine intervention.” They’re both ultimately populist with a soft Social Democrat slant, and yet they’re the staple Christmas movies of the modern American kleptocracy. Also, Christmas Carol fetishizes the specialness of Christmas to a degree not seen outside of a Hallmark movie, usually, whereas Life is almost incidentally a holiday movie at all.

It’s weird, right?

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Class Notes: Rising income and wealth inequality, parent spending, and more

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Class Notes: Rising income and wealth inequality, parent spending, and more

By Ember Smith, Richard V. Reeves

This week in Class Notes:

As income and wealth inequality grew over the last four decades, taxes have become less progressive. In 2018, the top 1% of earners received 19% of pre-tax U.S. income and the top 0.1% wealthiest individuals held 18% of all wealth.

Single parents spend a higher proportion of their income on kids compared to married and cohabiting parents. Controlling for income, cohabiting parents spend the least among white families.

Food stamps are associated with increased political participation among young adults who don’t pay close attention to politics.

This week’s top chart shows that among all parents, single moms faced the sharpest decline in employment from a year ago.

In this week’s choice opinion, Melinda Gates argues that the Biden administration should appoint a caregiving czar, push to fund the child-care industry, and allocate resources to clear Medicaid’s long-term care waitlist.

Finally, check out our latest piece on race gaps in SAT math scores and policies to remedy their effect.

Escalating wealth and income inequality

It is well known that inequality has increased in the last few decades. But by how much? What are the differences between wealth and income? How far do taxes dampen the impact of market inequalities? These are the questions Emmanuel Saez and Gabriel Zucman set out to answer. In the last 40 years, wealth has grown at twice the rate of income; in 1980, the top 1% owned wealth equal to 60 times the average U.S. income. In 2020, the top 1% owns wealth equal to 200 times the average U.S. income. A similar trend holds for the top 10% wealthiest individuals, who owned 67% of total wealth in 1989, but 77% in 2018. Saez and Zucman also find that the effective individual income tax has become much less progressive, and in fact quite regressive at the top end of the distribution.

Single parents spend the largest portion of their income on their children

Using Consumer Expenditure Surveys from 2013-2018, Orestes Hastings and Daniel Schneider investigate differences in financial investments in child care, schooling, and children’s enrichment activities by family structure—married, cohabitating, or single. Married parents (unsurprisingly) spent the most on their children overall, followed by cohabitating parents, then single parents. But as a proportion of household income, single parents spend the most, and cohabiting parents spend the smallest proportion of their income, a trend mostly driven by white cohabiters; Black and Hispanic cohabiting parents spent about the same as married Black and Hispanic parents, after controlling for income. The spending gaps are widest among those with 4-year degrees and in white households.

Cash assistance programs may actually encourage political participation

Do cash assistance programs politically alienate or incorporate participants? In contrast to earlier research, Naomi Sugie and Emma Conner find little evidence that participation in cash assistance programs (like welfare) deters political participation overall. But there are differences by sub-group, especially in terms of prior levels of interest in politics and government. Using a sample of young adults (ages 19-29) from the National Longitudinal Survey of Youth 1997, they find that food stamps are positively correlated with being registered to vote among those who pay less attention to government affairs. Among more attentive young adults, food stamps decreased the likelihood of voting or being registered to vote.

Top chart: Unpartnered moms saw the largest employment drops among parents

This week’s top chart shows that employment among single mothers dropped by 9 percentage points compared to a year ago—the steepest decline among parents. By contrast, single dads saw a 4-percentage point decline, similar to that of partnered moms and dads who each experienced a 5-point drop.

Choice opinion: Our caregiving system is broken

“The coronavirus has laid bare what was painfully clear to many families already: The caregiving system in the United States is broken, and it is women who are paying the price. Even before the pandemic began, child care and long-term care solutions were often unaffordable and inaccessible, and women were filling the gaps at tremendous cost to their own economic potential. Now, with child-care centers closed, schools operating remotely, and families caring for sick adults and aging parents at home, what was previously untenable has become almost impossible — especially for single mothers, essential workers and others working low-wage jobs with unpredictable hours,” writes Melinda Gates in the Washington Post.

Self-promotion: SAT math scores mirror and maintain racial inequity

The SAT was created to give talented students—regardless of income—the chance to compete for college admission and scholarships. Nearly 100 years later, the test often excludes the lower-income students it was designed to help. In our latest piece, Richard Reeves and I investigate the class of 2020’s SAT math scores and discover startling gaps by race. Fewer than a third of Black or Hispanic or Latino test takers met the college readiness benchmark in math, compared to 59% and 80% of white and Asian test takers. A similar trend holds at the top end of the score distribution—among all students scoring in the top 10% on the math section, fewer than 10% are either Black or Hispanic or Latino. Progress in narrowing the gap has been painfully slow; addressing racial inequities in education will require earlier childhood interventions and providing admissions committees with more background context when considering SAT scores.

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The Last Guardian: A Review

Forward: It’s been slightly over a year since the release of The Last Guardian. Team Ico, and their games have been highly influential to me, getting me through rough times, and providing me with inspiration. I would like to thank Nick B. for proofreading my draft, @fleshwerks​ whose tagging prompted me to dig up this patiently waiting review and finally post it, as well as a huge thank you to anyone who reads this. I am no writer however, writing this meant a lot to me and I hope you enjoy reading it.

-Aki Mao

  The game that lives, The Last Guardian (TLG), was easily on it’s way to the shadowy world where unfinished games are laid to rest. However, after almost ten years of troubled development, E3 no-shows, and two generations of console changes, TLG finally stepped out of the shadows. Similar to it’s predecessors TLG is a simple game implementing platforming, companions, mild combat, and relying heavily on atmosphere to convey the burden of an uncertain future.

It was with that same uncertainty that I finally gazed upon the opening sequence; a circular object flickering with unknown power, and my own anticipation. Poignant notes played as the title emerged and a myriad  of drawings appeared. Bees, birds, bats and more flashed upon the screen, a beautiful bestiary that expanded to include unicorns, griffons, dragons, and finally the fantastical creature known as Trico. As the music takes a more sombre turn and Trico fades to black, I’m left with a sense of anticipation tinged with unease.

    Returning from the darkness, you, ‘The Boy’ awaken. “Be among the chosen ones…” flashes upon screen as the deep-voiced adult narrator takes over. This voice, initially viewed with skepticism, later becomes a guiding hand of reassurance. Contrasting sharply, the younger voice of The Boy provides a sense of innocence and grounding to a character who’s both vulnerable but strangely courageous. Slowly you rise into a crouch, a simple press of the thumbstick, whereupon you startle to see the heaving sides of the ‘man-eater’ lying before you. Standing up, the juxtaposed adult voice continues to narrate, while the smaller child’s voice asks the simple question of, “Where?”

Almost in answer, the strange body of Trico-part cat, bird, and horned beast-bursts into life; screeching a curious blend animal noises both familiar and alien. All sense of unease vanished and I was instantly concerned for the beast, whose fierce actions contradicted the pain and fear deep in the glowing magenta of his eyes. In my mad dash forward, button prompts return, becoming a recurring visual in the game popping up even on tasks that have been correctly achieved before. Yet, this also illustrates the wider array of commands at your disposal, as removing the spear that so clearly agitated my would-be friend required combining the circle button with pressing backwards on the thumbstick. With great effort, the spear is removed, and it is hard to not feel accomplished after straining to remove what might in any other game be remedied by a potion or med-pack. Physically I cringed, gasping as my hard work is rewarded with a swift kick to the head; a wonderfully gravitational cutscene that cemented my interconnection to ‘The Boy’.

    From here, I woke once more to find the very pained Trico hungering for something that thankfully wasn’t me. Ever wary, he refused to let me get close. Wings flapping in agitation, he chittered warnings his eyes and mouth illuminated with a fearful neon purple. In this, Team Ico did an exceptional job of making a creature that lives, breathes, and has his own separate agenda. Trico’s movements, from the bob of his head while consuming barrels, to the flaps of his wings, and flash of his eyes, all brought life and more importantly personality to the great creature. Utilizing core components of the game, a series of jumps, climbs and lever-pulls, allowed me to quickly sate my cell-mate’s hunger. Pain-free, and hunger abated, Trico finally trusted me enough to allow my tiny frame to climb him and remove the collar binding him to the room. Proudly perched aboard his lithe figure, the tumultuous relationship between boy and beast began.

Now in the early stages of our relationship Trico functioned independantly. He was animal along for the ride, not yet fully committed to our journey. Frequently food bribes were needed to get Trico to move in the proper forward direction, and often it was easier to walk ahead and let him inquisitively follow. Other times, uncertainty halted my friend in his path and only through reassuring head-rubs and soft spoken words were his doubts quashed and we could move forward. What a feeling it was to have the towering beast lower his head, chuffing in pleasure, as I rubbed the spots around his glowing horns. It was in these moments, petting Trico until he was lured into a brief contented slumber, that our bond solidified into something beyond a thin layer of mutual companionship.

    Outdoors sprawling in every direction runic architecture populated the landscape. Each building, each bridge, each piece of rust worn chain, lay carefully placed by unknown hands. Full of character, the twists and turns of the buildings never grew old or tiresome. Instead, each room was a place to be explored as startled lizards scurryied out of the way beneath our exuberant feet. Birds swooped and dove through the large cliffside gardens, adding life and vitality to the game in a way that a monotonous indoor existence could not. Standing at the edge of the cliffs I gazed down at the foggy blue base of the valley. Impossible to see the bottom of, I would later find myself dashing to safety amid collapsing structures, making terrifying leaps of faith,and even tightrope walking over the very same abyss. Allowing for an stunning view, rotating the camera was a wonderful tool that would only periodically malfunction; now and then lodging itself into awkward angles. Incomparable to those of Tomb Raider or Final Fantasy, the graphics of TLG are stunning in their own right. It is in this landscape that Trico truly shone, crying out at the neighboring towers, wind rustling the feathers that covered his large body.

    After one more look into the architectural abyss I climb onto my companion’s back and we depart. Ears perked and head up, Trico readies his leaps onto columns with a familiar cat-like wiggle, deftly carrying me to places I could never have reached alone. His movements are fluid, unlike my own sometimes awkward adolescent movements, and he becomes more believable the longer you travel together. Indoors Trico also climbs, jumping to window sills and small outcroppings of rocks that seem impossible to balance on. When left to explore ahead his cries tormented me. Looking back, I could often find his head lodged in too-small archways; his vain attempt to follow.

    Becoming accustomed to my presence, I gained the ability to command Trico. With various gestures, charades and vocalizations, Trico would act. Rearing up onto his hind legs, he was a patient if confused bridge. Jumping commands helped us navigate routes only I might see, and by furiously pointing and stomping my feet I could guide his changing direction. Swipes with his bird-like talons were a saving grace on more than one occasion. Additionally, through the use of a mysterious mirror, I could even command some of Trico’s more sensational attacks. Trico’s biggest flaw however, was his reasoning; as he periodically responded contrary to my hopes, either looking around and doing nothing, or attempting to do what was asked of him but in the wrong way. This could have easily been frustrating however, I never looked at him as a human comrade, instead considering him a highly trained, if at times confused animal companion (with a massive fear of stained glass).

Over the course of our escapades, I became attached to Trico. Our relationship, which started weak with food and freedom based trust, deepened as we traveled together relying heavily on the other’s talents. If there was an area I could not reach, Trico would reach it for me. When a gate separated us, my quick searching and small frame easily accessed the levers that allowed our reunion. The enemies-glowing suits of armor-only served to add to our bond as Tricio bound to my aide, visibly agitated by the foes in whose arms I had to flail wildly to escape. Recklessly I would charge headfirst, careening madly towards our foes and flinging my body against theirs. I was desperate to knock them over, for it forced them to drop spears and fumble the shields that so menaced my dear protector. Weak though I was, and vulnerable as he was, together we were indomitable. Once the skirmishes were over I would hastily tend to Trico’s wounds, guilty that I could not do more for him.

    The game’s final component-the soundtrack-while subtle, was a marvelous enhancement. Declining the grandiose, each song slowly pulled me deeper into the current experience, be it combat, or a heartfelt moment. It is there, in those moments that The Last Guardian’s crowning jewel is carefully kept. In a world where story struggles for a place next to graphics or gameplay, TLG harmoniously combines all three into an emotional symphony. What starts out as a gently extended hand of guidance by the game becomes self-driven second nature; each step you take, feels as much a part of you as it does a part of the game. Atmosphere is created by culmination of music, sprawling towers, somber torch-lit halls, enemies impervious to your terrified struggles, and an ocean-deep emotional connection to the very living Trico. In the end, The Last Guardian is not a game, but an monumental experience that leaves you with only a whisper of a word on your breath.

    trico.

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I omit my mother increasingly every day. Gerard says quite a few unkind matters approximately people that I don't like however possibly that is just her way. But on our wedding ceremony day she turned into my Cinderella. I became her prince. For the young making love is only for fun. I even have never study Charles Buckskin, William Faulkner, D.H. Lawrence, Nadine Gordimer, and J.M. Colette. I've by no means even heard of Salinger. They have all swept my eldest daughter away. Sometimes I suppose to myself will she ever be a bride? Will she ever fall in love? Feel what her dad felt as he checked out his new wife. With our married existence in advance people. A day vintage. Will a man ever take her in his palms and say, 'I love you pleasant?' But these are simply the thoughts of an old guy inside the autumn of his years. This morning I felt depressed. The world can do this to you while you're infirm. You think nothing will ever hurt you again. You're built like an impenetrable fort inside the mountains at the give up of the sector. Our marriage had promised us new beginnings. Wonderful beginnings. But now there's silence  Custom Made Jewellery I cry for what I have misplaced. Not real tears. Just a sob or  that wracks my frame. She's now not up to now faraway from me. The  double beds are inside the identical room. Gerda is analyzing through the light from a lamp even as I search for my prescription drugs. Swallow my pills as if they were aspirin. Curbing my enthusiasm as I watch her disrobe. Looking at her now I recognize how a good deal I still love her. Let me matter the ways. Love has a sensitive scent. It manner to provide you the rituals of sacrifice, buying a residence, transferring furniture, a wife with the aid of the name of Gerda observing her mirrored image inside the replicate while she brushes the tangles out of her hair, pats her hair down, puts a stocking on and wraps a headband round her head. She is still beautiful, however no longer simply to me, to different human beings as well. I nonetheless suppose I didn't deserve her. Is she satisfied? Have I made her happy? She stayed with me for better or for the worst. I ministered to my kids. I lectured my children when it had to be achieved. To set them instantly. To set them on their life adventure. Their pilgrimage of kinds. And I took them all, my loving, boisterous circle of relatives from hell to an eternity of hell. And of direction in the wards of hell, or the wards of Valkenburg, there isn't always a whole lot of a presence of turning into indoctrinated with the aid of religion. I failed to discover Buddha once I was in Valkenburg. I failed to turn in a Brahmin. I turned into most effective brought to that a good deal later when my children were youngster-agers. Things like meditation. I did give up smoking, however not red meat. Wiping the fat off my lips. I never drank lots. I hated the stuff. I saw what it did to my own father.

Gerda is silent. In her own world, and I marvel (it isn't always for the primary time) what is she considering? Does she nevertheless love me as a lot as I love her? What I would not do to embrace her like I did the first night of our married life? I hate this loneliness that is flowering interior of me like a lotus. I need to write about what I like, what I mesmerises my all-knowing, all-seeing eyes, approximately the difficulties of married life, the first meal my spouse cooked for me as my wife, how I watched the moves of my spouse at our wedding ceremonial dinner set out in a church corridor, packed with Johannesburg human beings, and some contributors of my circle of relatives. I ought to write approximately what makes me emotional (yes, even guys get emotional, over-excited about the annihilation of evil with the aid of properly). I have to write about what makes me misty-eyed, what cuts me deep where the depths of suicidal infection awaits, watching my youngsters in Victoria Park playing whilst I watched them from afar, sitting on a park bench that turned into as soon as reserved for Whites only in a White people's park. Over weekends the park would usually be abandoned. I'd get chocolate and packets of crisps for the kids. I'd see their smiles. Their laughter and sticky fingers might carry me. Give me a buoyant mood. Perhaps you are sensing that I am no longer telling you the whole fact. There had been days once I needed to pressure myself to get away from bed. I was a man who had lots of duties. I could not just deliver in, end existence, cease family life, lie at the couch, stop taking bloodless, clean showers that restored some power, some electricity to my mind, and readability of idea, vision and self-actualisation to my insight. I couldn't escape my youngsters, I could not no longer renowned me them (their pain turned into my pain, their emotional material in time, become my emotional material in time and area, and their moments of early life depression stopped me dead in my tracks). I could not simply stop my kid's global, divorce their mom, live with out the problems of a husband, live in a bachelor pad with relative freedom, no home duties from their world, due to the fact they wanted me. My family wished me. And as I watched my small kids looking at all of the things I could not buy for them (their picks they already knew had to in shape my pocket), such things as that could soften my heart within the Greek's keep, and as they carefully made their purchases I was endlessly thankful that I had made it through any other day. I had made it thru another manic depressive episode. No greater aspirin for me. I had placed Valkenburg at the back of me. There turned into Elizabeth Donkin, and the start of lithium remedy. There become my beautiful wearing blue denims, a comfy jersey that I had visible her in usually, and a white shirt. There became my wife getting out of the auto. I was expecting her on the steps of ward F. Waiting for her perfunctory kiss at the cheek. Waiting to take a seat down in properly-worn chairs.

'How are you?'

'I've missed you.'

'I've overlooked you too. When are you coming home?'

Well, the verbal exchange could move some thing like that.

I watched her guard her eyes, looking, searching, and seeking out me. And then her discipline of imaginative and prescient modified. Her eyes met mine. And then she become locking the auto door. Making her way towards me with that day's newspaper, a variety of magazines, bottles of juices, or a fruit basket. And the depression, with its elated highs that felt so invincible, that made me sense fantastic frustration, the faith that I had that the emotions were killing me, each day could include their turning points. My coronary heart turned into suicidal melancholy's apprentice. My brain turned into its master. I put my wife on a pedestal, however did she realize it? In the beginning earlier than I become married, I concept of all women as sex objects. Did I tell her how tons I loved her? I worshiped the ground she walked on. Before her I became now not romantic. Before I met my future wife my fashion and technique of a lover turned into dry after I changed into depressed. She made me into the man I am nowadays. Throughout it all she satisfied me to pick life, discriminate loss of life. For each season there may be a mindless tragedy. In love nothing is insignificant.

'Off to the vintage age domestic with you.' She stated the other day. It broke my heart to hear her say that. We do not make love anymore. We sleep in separate beds. There's a distance between us now that I can't describe. It has no time or area. It's like a bridge. If we stayed together or maybe for so long as we've got it's far only due to the kids. Sometimes I wonder what my spouse changed into like as a child. The grief she have to have felt as a younger child after losing a sibling, a brother. But we never spoke approximately things like that. I never yearned to invite my fiancé, or new bride anything that might make her sense uncomfortable. In her eyes, I desired to be give her simplest top recollections. I desired to make her forget about about the ache of her early life the way she made me neglect approximately my very own painful childhood. How I became bullied, terrorised at the playground, teased, called names.

As a toddler I become a watcher, a dreamer. I changed into constantly in love with books. With self-getting to know. With coaching myself new matters about the world around me. Life revel in. That's what White human beings referred to as it. White human beings had motors. White humans sold. White human beings had been business minded specialists. When I became a child I fell in love with training. Maybe that is after I became a instructor. In adolescence. I had an unquiet mind. I still do. There are a whole lot of rituals when I visit church on Sunday morning. There's the breaking of bread and Holy Communion. It's now not actual wine of course. It's simply grape juice. I'm a modified man after I go away the church (less depressed. I feel less lonely. I do not know why this is. Maybe is has to with the biochemistry of the brain, or social sports, being involved in some thing although it is as mundane as going to church). And the bread is not the thin wafers we used to get on the Union Congregational Church that the youngsters looked at so longingly of their innocent hearts with that angelic shine on their faces. My wife and I could bite into the wafers. With that one bite the body of Christ become now a part of our spirit, our soul awareness, our physical our bodies. Abigail could not take into account that she needed to be confirmed earlier than she could partake of the body of Christ and the consuming of grape juice. She advised me that we (it become always we despite the fact that I turned into the one in the back of the steerage wheel of the auto) road past Mrs Turner in the road, and that even though Mrs Turner (Abigail referred to as her Mrs Turnip at the back of her lower back after that day) saw us, need to have regarded our car she did not wave lower back. Well her body is all weirdly fashioned like a turnip was Abigail's concept and I instructed her that is what befell to people as they got older. Everything bodily modified and on occasion they commenced to forget matters too like their manners (etiquette to Abigail).

I just smiled after which I laughed and stated, 'Really? Maybe she didn't see us.'

'Daddy, really? Are you certain? She looked right at me and I waved and I waved and I waved and she nevertheless didn't wave back.'

I couldn't inform her this then. She turned into too young. An innocent. They should harm me, however I would no longer allow them to hurt my children.

The following 12 months we started out going to Pearson Congregational Church which was located in Central. Everyone who went there has been White. You love your youngsters. You without a doubt do whether they have got carried out some thing precise or horrific. You're the one individual within the international they are able to to after they want something. If they ask you for cash you bend down and you inform them to select the money off the money tree. You tell them that you love them because that is the treatment for the whole lot. When they may be sick you nurse them back to health. When it's their birthday you buy them a cake, provides wrapped in brightly coloured paper, blow up balloons, and also you give them a celebration and invite all the neighbourhood. You provide them a hug once they it the most even if they are at their most rebellious nature. Shower them with fatherly subject whilst giving recommendation. It's also your honour, and privilege to offer day by day inspiration from a verse in the Bible, to high school initiatives. But after they get depressed of course you worry for them. You have discussions in the back of a closed bed room door within the nighttime that go and cross on until the early hours of the morning and you observed back to when you had been in high faculty. I become from a distinct technology. The extra matters alternate the greater they live the same. Isn't that what the adage says? Should all of us cross and speak to someone like a family counsellor, a therapist. Gerda was usually the only who become two steps in advance of me. She didn't pop out and say it or tell me what she turned into thinking. She took Abigail when she turned into barely out of her teens to a psychiatrist who studied in Vienna. He had wild hair like Einstein. She have been prepared for an eventuality of this value. She become the one who had been organized. Not me. And there was part of me that felt like a failure. I were absolutely blindsided. I had now not seen the diagnosis coming. Not from a mile away. My beautiful, darling daughter. My darling, darling daughter was a manic depressive much like me. Bipolar. Bipolar. Bipolar. I was struck dumb. Speechless. What may want to I say? How ought to I comfort her?

She hated college. She hated each minute every 2nd of it. A monumental waste of her time it became she said. She already knew that everything she changed into being taught got here out of a textbook that supported the reason of a colonial grasp. That supported a White motive. A liberal's troubles. Not hers through a protracted shot. We needed to do a whole lot of speakme, and listening, and the having of extra conversations in the back of a closed bed room door at night time to try to persuade her to live in faculty. They were masses of tears. Everybody cried. There were arguments. There had been instances when she stayed with her aunt in Johannesburg and we'd be underneath the false impression that now the entirety could be all proper once more in her world. We had goals for me. She became brought up with norms and values. And we failed to, could not simply let her throw her lifestyles away like that. Somehow, somewhere whilst she become fifteen years old she had written away to The London Film School. 'So she wants to run away to London now.' Gerda sighed. She wore a perplexed look on her face, chewing her backside lip in pensive mode. I notion back to Abigail's last phrases of the communique the 3 folks had, mother, father, with their rebellious, fiercely clever, notably temperamental daughter. 'I hate you.' She almost spat. 'You're killing me. If I stay right here I'll die. You'll see. I'll display all of you. I'll kill myself if I do not visit film college. I want to go to London.'

Gerda had greater intuition, information and insight into how ladies thought and bonded and  at the hours of darkness she bloomed. Her face pale in the moonlight, with aquiline features that her daughter Abigail had inherited from her however no longer her tennis legs or her mom's love for that recreation. I could not make out her face but I knew it changed into shining full of affection for me, and for our daughter. All 3 of our children had been conceived in love.

'Where will she stay? Where will she sleep? What will she devour each day for breakfast, lunch, and supper? Is she drowsing now I marvel? She just sits glued in front of that tv all hours of the day and night time. Ambrose inform me, what do you watched I need to do? We? Us? She'll never be widespread. I read that tale. It's terrible. But if I say that to her it'll damage her coronary heart. She's fifteen taking place sixteen.' Back and forth my flashbacks goes. Presently we are right here. The house is quiet haunted by ghosts from the past. Stephen. Jean. Magdalene. My mother and father. Gerda's own dad and mom surpassed away while Abigail turned into nonetheless a infant. Baby Ethan is sleeping soundly among his parents on their double mattress. He is a real busybody. He best has eyes for his mom Already he has two milk teeth which has anybody in a frenzy inside the household.

I want sometimes that I had listened extra, praised her cooking skills (even though she burnt the pots more times than I should maintain track of), given extra attention to my spouse. Had no longer dealt with her like I had handled all the ladies in my lifestyles. Indentured slave women best there to make me tea, be my secretary, flirt with. Women who could stroke my ego given the danger. She had given me the entirety of herself that she may want to as a wife, but I had no longer been absolutely open with her. Only on reflection after I look again on the activities of the beyond decade and that they fashioned all 3 of our kids's futures did I see how egocentric and arrogant I had been. I had not come smooth. Pharmaceuticals can not wash away sins. With my silence I had passed down three lifestyles sentences. I want I had achieved some thing. Said anything to console my spouse it'd be twenty years until we got our daughter returned. Have I made Gerda satisfied, and what about my kids, are they satisfied? Are they successful? Have my children fulfilled all their childhood goals? People exchange from one generation to the following. That's the factor with humans, milestones and events. They are usually changing, and yet constantly staying the identical. I concept I would be my daughter's anchor in that second like my mom have been in mine.

'Fine. If you need to head then leave. We won't stand to your manner if that is going to make you glad.' I stated with my eyes assembly the floor we covered in carpet.

I failed to want her to see the dejection in my eyes. I would omit her laughter, our talks, heated discussions, and debates. Mostly I would omit her presence. But she changed into depressed. She hated school. She had carried out very badly in the tests. Magdalene become still alive then. So Swaziland it turned into then for O and A levels after which The London Film School this is if she ought to get a British Council scholarship if she become lucky.

My mom have been my anchor for the duration of my depressive episodes. The crushing highs that took me to the wuthering heights of Rhodes and London and the numbing, frustrating lows that took me to my mattress. Sometimes I could simply lay on the bed still in my fit.My body become not sore, did not experience tired, my eyes had been burning, but sleep could now not come, handiest a numb sensation starting from the top of me head that could make its way all the way down to the guidelines of my feet. Every parent desires to protect their infant, once in a while guard them from the entirety. The world isn't always all awful. Tomorrow isn't going to be all doom and gloom like today become. There are desirable human beings in this world who are simply as affected by sickness, continual contamination, cancers, diseases

Madness? Madness! What is madness? What a query! Do humans query John Nash? Do they call him mad, insane, tell him that he is weird? Do they query this genius's sanity, his intelligence, or do they just write him off as stressed out otherwise from the rest of the human race. Is he an anomaly? One nighttime my youngsters came to me. My son looked at me. Tall, darkish, and good-looking, one might be forgiven for questioning his introversion is conceitedness he stated, 'Dad. It's time in an effort to sit down down and write your tale. Write your memoir. Write your autobiography if you may.' To tell you the truth it's been  years now, almost 3. I can't sincerely don't forget if that communication ever passed off. I cannot consider who said what, when, the how I become going to head about it. I actually have written approximately depression. I actually have written about mental fitness. I have written books. South End. The aftermath of the forced removals. To be honest with you human beings didn't stand in line for me sign that book. My guess that that become a signal. A sign from God. I paid attention. I listened. And I grew to become my attentions elsewhere to committee conferences, studying the newspapers. People simply failed to like me to talk approximately apartheid. That e-book quietly disappeared, and went out of print. People simply were not into that vibe. The book wasn't giving off suitable vibrations so human beings were not turning up to buy that ebook. But out of the whole lot that I have written thus far that book is my favourite. I have written about melancholy earlier than from a victim's perspective, and that little e book grew to become out to be an tremendous little bit of loose cannon, then a diamond in the tough, after which a little gem of a book.

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[atelhaddad]

A repetitive pattern of phases I've noticed recently, it goes too deep into your guts and brains. I've experienced something similar before, recently found people labeling it as psychosis, schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. I am no psychologist to determine whether the three share the same symptoms, if the person experiencing such extreme and sudden alteration of feelings could fall unto the 3 spectrums simultaneously, or if they even share a spectrum. But it is becoming too recurring that it's alarming. A believer voluntarily gives into a truth without argumentation or reasoning. A delusional believer tailors a chain of reasons to fit his beliefs. A realist -to me- is the highest form of a believer. He sees what is, names it for what it is to his attainable understanding, and accepts its existence, non existence, or even its existence on a metaphysical level. The pattern I speak of occurs when someone spends too much time inside one's head. "Recreational drugs" could be a very dangerous catalyst to the surfacing of such pattern. It starts with an immature, hyper-yea approach to loving life in all its ways, shapes and forms. What one usually overseas in such phase is the "serpent" that lies beneath. The hate that could very dangerously be the root for the immature, superficial love, the love that is very personal, selfish, and self-rewarding. Which makes such love void of its true value. Acceptance. I accept because I love, making this love unjustified. However, if I love because I accept, makes it justified, and that's no way for true love. What inspired me to write this piece is what I've come across recently on social media. Namely, the account of someone who was at a certain point a personal-favorite satirist, Hesham Mansour. A very bright person, from what I've noticed during the very brief, cyber insights I've had on his personality through his show (Al3elm wal Emaw). His facebook posts, his instagram captions, they always showed me how this person's wit and social-intelligence gave him a passport to all classes. His accounts had pictures with celebrities, blue collars, academics and even diplomats. Recently, Hesham has been raiding his accounts with posts that contained a lot of symbolism. And that was the first sign to me, however significant these symbols are, believing that they're timeless or divine throws your sanity off-course.

"Horus is here" 

"They allowed the devil to be in human form.Plenty. That's basically what Jews did, the root of their deal with the devil" "All the negativity in the world, caused by Jews, All terrorism in the world, caused by jews, All depression, darkness, also jews. They stole all the positive energy! And as of 2019, it has begun returning to its rightful owners" And finally: "Now let's kill some jews" Needless to say, Mansour's twitter account that had nearly 900k followers got suspended, sending a torrent of angry people to his instagram account's comment section, calling him an antisemite and a nazi (oh, he later posted a photo of Hitler dabbing by the way, while wearing a ribbon with a Swastika on it).

Finally, the end to put an end to all endings for me was his reply to one of the comments his earlier posted golden cross picture .. "The people posting the Israeli flag are Jews, I am the Messiah, and Doomsday is happening" 

- Hesham rode a rather quick path to fame, starting on YouTube, then Television then most recently, with politicians and diplomats. A path very few people could handle without experiencing Megalomania. He -from what appears- indulged in substance abuse as well. From his abundant use of hash or alcohol-related jokes, it was very obvious how lightly he took their input to his state of mind. He admitted in his TED talk that he consumed alcohol and drugs. His over-reading into symbolism and ancient figures, shows that his belief system was getting disrupted. Some of his tweets reflected an absurd belief that Jews have control over the universe, from the space-time continuum to the human spirit, to fate even! I doubt that the most radical of athiests would believe that man can possess such a power, let alone a believer. 

The pattern goes as follows; An average human leading an average life, gets surrounded by a different kind of people than those he's habitual to, ego inflation starts with a very toxic loop of mutual gratification between him and such a people in the circle, the circle gets bigger and suddenly one becomes more concerned with his reflection in the people's eyes than in his own mirror, more substance abuse, a sudden feeling of exclusion, a hard fall for a significant other. That fall, that very fall, is the sole reason why someone would start looking into their own mirror. All of a sudden the flaws start to appear, they become more agonizing, one thinks to oneself "the very flaws that I've been pointing my fingers at are deeply rooted within me". A shock, traumatic even to some extent. I like to refer to this fall as the first taste of true love, because it shows you who you really are and reflects how much your actions weigh against your opinions, beliefs and claims. It hits you like lightning, cannot be compared to any other feeling or emotion, and I would even go as far as calling it an awakening. At which point, one starts to feel perplexed, "How did I, of all people, lose track of my actions like that. How did I drift so far off the path I'd had drawn for myself to the point where I'm that appalling, to ME!" An episode of self-loathing, followed by another of denial take over one's brain, and their only remedy is accusation and blame. In Hesham's case, he blamed the jews for everything negative, literally.  He showed respect for Hitler's actions. The only logical explanation I can think of is that he was trying to blame someone else for everything that's going wrong with his life -I am guessing because his love wasnt reconciled by Nadine, whom he had mentioned in an earlier post on instagram- and couldn't and wouldn't accept that he's not as perfect as he thought he was when swimming in the toxic micro-reality of gratification he was living in.

A faux sense of -exaggerated- self worth starts to manifest itself, little by little, till it reaches the point of a sense of holiness, divinity or of one being a saint, simply because one is too scared to admit they've done mistakes, however small they might be. I feel for Hesham, I feel sorry for the Jews who had to read his tweets, no one should ever face this amount of hatred. I wonder if He was born in a different country, who would he direct this hate upon? If you're reading this, Hesham, I want you to know that I have never felt more empathy towards someone I've never met than I do towards you now. I will pray that this phase goes away as quickly and as smoothly as possible. Because you've just crossed the starting line of the path to true love. What's coming next is only better. You'll regain control over yourself, you'll call yourself out on the mistakes that you've made and you'll own them. You'll feel like they're beneath you and your heart will grow to unprecedented levels because -even though we never met- it shows how much love you have in you man. I will very boldly even say that you'll love the very jews you called evil and rapists and all that ugly noise. Why? Because you'll see the doing of the higher consciousness, that your claim of "Control over the spirit" is well beyond man. And that the existence of the gorgeous dance of what we all subjectively label as good and evil within ourselves and ultimately across this whole universe presents itself as a mind blowingly brilliant composotion of life, so our whole existence would evolve as one. 

Love. 

[scottyunfamous]

The Importance of Self-Care

Hellur, fancy face!

Welcome to another highly inappropriate weight loss journey post. It may interest you to know that I’ve recently (as in like 5 hours ago) embarked on a lil experiment with a 14 day teatox created by BooTea. It was recommended to me by one of my girls who has lost maddddddd weight (like MAAAADDDDD weight), so I thought ‘Shit den, lemme see what it’s really saying.’ I’ll be doing live updates on my Snapchat and will deliver a full honest review in 2 weeks’ time on your fave new blog (…yes, I mean this blog lol).

Onto what we’re actually talking about today…

When I began my weight loss journey again I had an idea of what to expect; the resisting of temptation to consume things I shouldn't to improve my diet, the physical challenges I would have to overcome to improve my fitness, the discipline to keep at it, and creating the mind-set to help me grow mentally and emotionally on this sometimes very fucking emotional experience.

When we take on these trying ass journeys, it's never a flippin straight road or uphill climb. Nope -the shit goes up, down, left, right…generally any direction you don’t want it to. When it comes to our body’s reactions, there's only so much about it that we can control. Ideally, everytime we eat a piece of salad, drink a glass of water, or do anything that resembles some semblance of exercise (walking to the fridge counts as cardio. Don’t @ me.) we want to see that we are 15 pounds lighter when we step on them scales, but that's not how the shit works.

When you first jump on this weight loss ting and you change yo shit up, your body is on a mad one. Weight loss is you and you are weight loss...then your body gets used to your new diet and routine, which means you've got to push a little more. It's a constant challenge, especially when you aren't blessed with a fast metabolism.

If you’re like me, the constant (self-imposed) pressure to go harder may be a lot for you to deal with mentally, especially when shit isn't going to plan.

Last week I had my cheat day. The following day, Mr took me to a hotel. I got high as fuck, and for those of you who enjoy God's magic flower, you already know how them munchies will have you fucking up a plate of food like it’s your last meal. I ordered too much then ate too much... I should probably stop smoking… Anyway, the following afternoon I stood on the scales to see that I'd gained 3 kilos.

I.

Was.

Up.

Set.

I stripped off and stood on the scales again: 2.5 kg.

I went to the bathroom: 2 kg.

Embarking on these journeys then putting on a significant amount of weight in the process is the worst. You feel like a failure, like you didn't try as hard as you should have, that maybe cheat days aren't for you. As you shrink it’s like you get even harder on yourself because you can’t come this far then go backwards. That’s not progress. Honestly, it doesn't get easier, you just have to get tougher, but tough doesn’t always equal…well, tough.

The thing that has carried a heaux throughout this last year has been making sure that I fucks with myself, heavily, like on a whole other level of extravaganza. Self-care is one of the most valuable remedies I’ve learned through this process, simply because it pushes me to continue without berating myself and gives me a stress-free way to pick myself back up when I’m down.

Do shit that makes you feel good about your fuckin self, betch. It’s okay to take a lil break and switch off for a hot sec to get your head right. It’s vital.

Here’s a few self-care activities that I love that you can try out/incorporate into your own self-care routines for those dayswhen things don’t go to plan.

When I feel like shit I listen to music with high vibrations, the kinda music that makes me feel like a cheeri-heaux (get it? Cheerio...cheri-he...anyway). I sing along at ig’nant volumes and dance in the mirror to it like it’s just me, by myself, and bitch when I say dance in the mirror I’m talking that carefree black girl 'wow wow wow thots' shit that you may not do in public because it’s that peak (in my case, extremely whorish or neeky). Listen, I do not fuck about when it's music time. Lemme get sad and fling on some Cheetah Girls (DON’T PLAY LIKE YOU DON’T FUCK WITH THE CHEETAH GIRLS PLEASE); a heaux will be strutting like she means it and freeing my uckin mind all up and down my room, doing dramatic hair flips with my wig and not caring if it flies off coz ain’t nobody but me there to see it. I’ll be doing big big international diva in my bedroom, singing all the harmonies and adlibs by my damn self all at the same time, because I am a one-bitch-band. Issa wave.

D’you know what else is a vibe, low key -herbal tea. You will drink a cup of peppermint tea and feel like your soul has been cleansed and refreshed, bitch!

Next: baths, and not just any regular bitch bath, nope. Heaux I‘m talking that ‘I done used half the fucking bottle of bubble bath, this water is so hot it will probably burn my skin so I’mma have to ease into it, there are candles all over the place like say I‘m being romanced but really I am romancing my damn self, I got that Sade on in the background and a fire ass book to read, so I will sit in this shit till my skin is wrinkled and the water turns cold, then I’mma top it up with more hot water because bitch, I aint done yet!’ kind of baths. Hooker, it is imperative that you go all out for these self-care baths. Stay in there for 5 hours. Enjoy yo’self!

Personal grooming is also my shit.

Ain’t no better feeling in the world that when you have removed all of the hair from your body. You feel like a vivacious velvet vixen, just be rubbing your thighs together for fun because the shit is smooth.

We doing the whole fuckin’ face regimen tonight, heaux! I’mma exfoliate, lather it in some weird shit that promises to tighten my pores, put some cumbers on my eyes and lay back because I’m bougie and tonight, life is a spa, rinse it off, use my face wash, get that micellar water, clear these pores, get that toner, then bitch I will slap on the thickest layer of Astral you have seen in your life (this tip came from Muva Amber Rose), and just sit there and let the shit marinate.

Wash your hair. Use all the products, deep condition yo shit, massage yo fuckin scalp! Yes betch, you smell like a coconut summer breeze and it’s wonderful!

Do your nails, do your makeup, because sometimes the shit that will bring you back from the edge is remembering how truly tun up you are, and realising that you’re on this journey and this ain’t even your final form. THESE SKREETZ AIN’T READY FOR YOU WHEN YOU REACH YOUR GOAL BITCH, HOW ARE YOU SO FIRE NOW AND THERE’S MORE FLYNESS TO COME. FUCK OFF. YOU ARE TOO MUCH!

Clear your space. Fling on some good music and tidy your room, change the sheets, dust, polish, sweep and reorganise some shit, then light you some incense and relax. This is heaven.

This is another good one; get your thoughts out. When I’m too wound up I write out exactly how the fuck I feel, completely unfiltered ‘cause ain’t nobody reading the shit but me. By the end of it I’ve talked myself down of whatever ledge I’m on, I’ve found a resolution to my problem and my peace is back where it should be.

Go outside. I’m not telling you to go hug no trees or nothing, but it’s summer, there is a park somewhere, just go there by yourself and just be amongst nature. Sometimes being surrounded by plants and animals and shit reminds you how small and magical you really are in the grand scheme of things, that whatever you’re worrying about may not be as deep as you think, and that you will get through it, because bitch, you've gotten over all the other shit in your life and you’re still here, getting these haters mad and thriving.

Take a nap. You remember when you were younger and it was nap time and you just were not on it, these days, as busy as we all are, naps are luxury. Literally, when I get too overwhelmed, it’s nap time. Shut off the world and dream a little dream of no stress. By the time I wake up, I’m good.

However, if you don’t have time to nap, I strongly recommend meditation. For those of you who follow me on Snapchat, you’ll know that I’ve hopped back on my spiritual journey and that my life is on the up because it helps to keep me focused and centred. Being that I fell off for a while, it’s not always easy to meditate without getting distracted, so for those of you who this is new to or if like me you have a little trouble clearing your mind, here is some great meditation music. Literally, all you have to do is set a timer for 10 minutes and concentrate on your breathing and nothing else (saying ‘so’ when you breathe in and ‘hum’ when you breathe out in your head or out loud also helps –recommended by Deepak Chopra). When your time is up you feel a little calmer and clearer.

Go to the gym. Yes, I know, it’s horrible and it makes you get hot, tired and sweaty and there is no dick involved, but girl, working out is scientifically proven to improve your mood because of the endorphins that it releases (endorphins are the chemicals that make you happy).

Understand that you are the captain of your yacht (I know the saying is ship, but I think yacht sounds more bougie and extra, so well go with that), and part of being the captain of your yacht mean that you are in control of yourself at every given moment, even when you don’t think you are. If shit goes left you can either choose to be upset about it and let circumstance control you or you can control your circumstance by choosing to find a lesson in every bad situation. Every negative experience you have can teach you something, if you let it.

It’s all about perspective, heaux. Look at where you went wrong and decide how you’re gonna handle it should it pop up on you again.

This is my best tip so I saved it till last -yell nice things at yourself in the mirror. When you’re feeling down about fucking up, or the way your body looks or whatever, all you’re focusing on is lack. You look for all the results you haven’t acquired yet and you beat yourself down about not having them, overlooking everything that you do have. I stand in the mirror (sometimes naked if I need a lotta love) and I compliment myself. When I first tried this method of affirmation, I begun with all the things I physically liked about myself. As my confidence grew I started finding the good in stuff I wasn’t too hot on: “YOU CAN REST SNACKS AND BOOKS ON YOUR BOOBS AND TUMMY. IT’S LIKE HAVING A DELUXE BUILT IN TRAY, LIKE ON A PLANE. YOU’RE LIKE A PRIVATE JET, BETCH!” I then moved onto my personality: “YOU DON’T SWEAR TOO MUCH, YOU’RE JUST FUCKING PASSIONATE ABOUT SHIT, PLUS SWEARING MAKES SHIT FUNNIER. YOU’RE BASICALLY A COMEDIAN!”

The reason that I harp on about building yourself up mentally throughout this process is because of the times when it’s not as easy as you’d like it to be. It’s important that you can be your own support system because you may not always have someone to lean on. Once you’ve shown yourself some proper love and respect, your mind will be right as rain (never understood that saying. Rain is dead.) and you can get back on track without having anything fucking with you.

If you enjoyed this post you may also enjoy my free downloadable guide, #LavishLife, a motivational 9 step programme that I createdespecially for you, to help you live your best life beyond just weight loss, e.g. if you want a new job, more money, a better social life, etc, the #LavishLife guide will have something for you. You deserve to have everything you want and you can. All you gotta do is take care of you, bitch.

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 Until next time, fancy face

Love Scotty x

[katbird787]

At Last (part 7)

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Warning: Nightmares, Anxiety, Vague mentions of torture

Summary: Reader was captured by HYDRA until The Avengers come to her rescue

Word Count: ~1700

A/N: Sorry this took so long to get out, I have been sick as a dog for two weeks with zero motivation/inspiration to write, but I’m finally feeling better! Huzzah!

Part 6

Slamming the door behind me I collapse against it completely spent. Fatigue and exhaustion seeps into my mind and body.  Stumbling to my bed I crawl into it, tears pricking my eyes as the events of the past months finally catch up me.  How is it that I am finally out of that hellhole, but still seem to be trapped? What was it that actually happened to me?  How can I move past this? Why me?  

These thoughts consume me as sleep claims me.

No. No!  I don't know!

Please stop!  I beg.

Another blow.

More questions I can't answer.

Pain.

Tears.

I shoot up in bed, gasping. Wiping my face.  Feeling tears. Eyes darting around the room. Ok. I'm not there anymore.  But not safe. Right? I don't know anymore.  

Looking at the clock I see it's not even 4am.  Resigning myself to being awake, I swing my leg over the side of the bed and make my way to the bathroom.  Turning on the lights, I am taken aback by what I see in the mirror.  Dark circles under my eyes. Bruises turning nasty shades of purple, yellow, and black. A testament to my time spent with HYDRA. Closing my eyes against the sight, I splash some water on my face hoping to drive away the nightmare.

Walking back into the bedroom I take in the disheveled sheets and realize I won't be getting any more sleep tonight. I decide to head to common room to get a drink and maybe a snack. Grabbing one of the oversized sweaters the girls left for me and pulling it on, I head for the elevator. It arrives and I press the button for the correct floor, still trapped in thoughts of my nightmare. The arrival bell is still jarringly loud, but I don't startle as I did earlier this evening.  Distractedly I head for the kitchen area, grabbing a bottle of scotch on the way. After pouring myself a generous helping, I take a drink, hoping to calm my nerves. It's then that I hear a throat being cleared.

Buckys POV

The elevator dings, heralding an arrival.  I have been enjoying the peace and solitude of the early morning hours, as I usually do, so the addition of another person is somewhat irritating.  That is until I see who comes down through the door.  I feel like an idiot, she caught my eye at dinner and I was so lost in my thoughts that I am still not sure what my expression was.  Whatever it was caused her to retreat so fast, that I didn't have a chance to remedy the situation. But here I am tucked away in the corner, shadows cascading over me as she walks in.  Her hair is messy with sleep; she has a sweater wrapped around her as if it were armor; bruises on her face casting light on our harsh reality; her eyes, however, give me pause.  They have that haunted, empty look, that I notice in my own upon awakening from a nightmare. She nearly slinks into the kitchen and pours herself a drink; scotch, never would have pictured her as a scotch drinker.  I roll my eyes at myself; idiot, you have only known her for about 10 hours.

Clearing my mind and, unconsciously, my throat her head whips around searching for the source of the sound.

Y/n POV

My head whips around toward the sound, eyes wide, slowly backing myself against the counter, shrinking, bracing for an attack. And then James stands up, from his place in the shadows. A sharp exhale escapes me, relief harsh within my body.  Casting my eyes back to the drink in my hands, I miss the pain that flashes across his face.

"I'm sorry. About earlier," he offers.  "I was caught up in my own thoughts. It's not an excuse, but it's the truth."

Wrenching my eyes toward his, I see his brows pulled together in sincerity, yet still staying in the far corner he had be sitting in when I arrived. Pulling my lips between my teeth, I nod. Knowing how captivating the mind can be.

He slowly walks toward me, hands held out in a peaceful gesture. I park myself on one of the bar stools and James slides into the one next to mine.

"Nightmare?" He asks.

Bringing the glass to my lips I take a long pull before nodding. Glad that I didn't add ice as it would have given away the tremble of my hands.

Slowly shaking his head in acknowledgment "Yea, me too" he trails off.

His admission startles me and I turn to look at him.  His hair is loose and messy, the dim lights casting shadows along his sharp jaw. He turns toward me and I can feel the blush rising to my cheeks, as I'm caught starting.  But his lips quirk up in a small smile, one I try to return, successfully I believe. He stands and I think he's going to leave, a pang of disappointment shoots through me, instead he walks around to refill my drink and pour one of his own. Leaning against the bar he takes a sip, looking at me.

"Do you want to watch TV? It helps take your mind off it" he invites as he pushes off and goes to sit on one of the couches grabbing the remote before plopping down on the cushion.

Slowing standing from my stool, I make my way over to the living area. I fold myself into the far corner of the couch as James decides what to watch.

Two episodes later and a smile has etched itself on my face. He was right; it's a good distraction. Suddenly he stands up and makes to leave.  Catching his eyes I furrow my brows and tilt my head in confusion.

"Oh. Steve will be waking up about now, and he asks too many questions if he isn't the first one here in the morning" he grins conspiratorially as he heads for the elevator.

Figuring I'm probably safe from said inquisition I go to brew a pot of coffee. If I'm to appear at and hopefully not participate in a mission debriefing, I will need caffeine.

Sure enough, before the coffee had finished, Steve shuffles into the kitchen. All messy haired and bleary eyed. He does a double take when he sees someone else is awake.

"Oh hi" he mumbles, still not fully awake.  I pour two cups and offer him one as I go to sit at the table. He wanders to the table, sits down, and opens the newspaper, seemingly having come from nowhere. Separating his preferred section, he slides the rest to me.  

So as to have something to do with my hands I pull out a section and go to read it, when something catches my eye. April. I went running in December. Before Christmas.  Four months. Pushing the paper away in a huff, I stand. Abandoning my coffee, I run for the elevator and the sanctuary of my room, leaving Steve sitting at the table, staring after me, cup stalled half way to his mouth.

Bursting into my apartment, throwing the door closed behind me I immediately start pacing.  

4 months.

Four.

I missed Christmas.

I missed New Years.

Panic snakes its way into my throat, carding my fingers through my hair I practically stumble onto the balcony. The city is waking up. Car horns, sirens, the hushed conversation from the pedestrians below.  In a way, being up here above all of that chaos calms my mind and soothes my soul. A few more minutes of calming breaths, and I feel the panic slowly start to recede.  I take a seat on a chair and just let the cool morning breeze caress my frazzled nerves.

Buckys POV

Upon returning to my room, I do the dishes that are in the sink, straighten up the living room and then head into my bedroom.  This is my least favorite part of the morning.  As if I need another reminder of how my night went, I take in the disheveled bed.  Quilt and top sheet are on the floor at the foot of the bed. Only one pillow remains and the bottom sheet is pulled up at two of the corners.  Sighing the memories of the previous night away, I go to make the bed, opting to just change the sheets as they were mostly up anyways. On nights when I sleep through the night, the bed is mostly intact.  But nights like this past one?  The proof is always in the sheets.

Figuring enough time has passed, I make my way back to the common area for the morning.  Walking in I see Steve's eyes dart to the door from his place at the table, looking disappointed that it was me.  Pouring myself a cup of coffee, I go sit at the table to pick up the paper, her presence notably absent.

"Did you happen to pass Y/n on your way up?" He asks suddenly.

Nearly choking on my coffee from the question, as though he knew I was thinking about her. Spluttering I manage to gasp, "No, I didn't see anyone."

"Oh. Ok" he mumbled looking down to the paper.  

A few moments of silence pass, before I have to address it "Steve, what's wrong?  You aren't your usual annoyingly chipper self"

Steve sighs before taking a sip of his coffee. "She was here making coffee when I came in." He starts. "We sat here and she picked up the newspaper, looked at it for a few minutes, before running off" he finishes.

Bring my cup to my lips, I glance over the paper, trying to figure out what had startled her, and then it hit me. "The date" I breathe out.

"What..." Steve says, before recognition and pain flashes across his eyes.  He understands what it's like to lose large portions of time. "God damn it. I didn't even think…" he muttered more to himself.

Resting my hand on his shoulder I give him a tight-lipped smile. I know that won't help ease his conscience, but he needs to know it wasn't his fault.

We sit in silence as the rest of the team slowly filters in for breakfast.

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Artifact: The Persian Celestial Globe 

          A Celestial Globe shows the positions of the stars in the sky according to the human eye. “The celestial globe represents . . . the model of the universe according to the theory put forward by Ptolemy around 150 A. D. . . .This near perfect system, which accounted for essentially all of the movements described by the Heavenly Bodies, and which confirmed mankind in its geocentrism . . .” (Kugel 1). In the 1500’s Copernicus proved that the Celestial Globe was flawed, because “the globe is constructed so that the stars are in the positions they actually occupy on the imaginary celestial sphere, [so] then the star field will appear back-to-front on the surface of the globe” (Franklin Institute 1). What this means is that the Earth’s view is in the center, but when you look at the globe you are on the outside of it. In order to fix this Astronomers produced globes in “mirror image” and made more modern globes with transparent outer surfaces to correct this issue. “Opaque celestial globes that are made with the constellations correctly placed, so they appear as mirror images when directly viewed from outside the globe, are often viewed in a mirror, so the constellations have their familiar appearances” (Franklin Institute 2).

          The artifact reminds me of Gamasa al- Bulti, a character in Arabian Nights & Days, who goes through many transformations over the course of the novel. Gamasa is a corrupt police chief who releases Singam, the genie, from his imprisonment inside of a metal ball by accident. Singam critiques Gamasa for basically talking the talk, but not walking the walk:

“You people are skilled at memorizing, quoting, and hypocrisy, and in proportion to your knowledge must be your reckoning, so woe to you!”

“We wage a continuous struggle with ourselves, with people, and with life . . .” (Mahfouz 33).

          The genie then makes it his duty to show Gamasa that “Corruption is not an excuse for corruption”, and this set the course for Gamasa’s character throughout the rest of the novel. Gamasa kills the governor, soon after releasing Singam, and tells the Sultan that it was a “ . . . bloody act of repentance” (Mahfouz 48). The Sultan orders him to be beheaded, but Singam saves him by having them kill a “likeness of his making” (Mahfouz 50). Gamasa then becomes “Abdullah the porter” and sees what it is like to be Gamasa “the dead” and Abdullah “the living”. He now has a different way of looking at the world and tells himself that “. . . just as the stars proceed on their way in splendid order, so too must the concerns of God’s creatures” (Mahfouz 54). Gamasa regrets the actions of his former life and puts his life in God’s hands. He was then “Abdullah of the Land”, where he confessed to killing the chief of police to save his loved ones. Then he was “The Madman” who defeated the “Red Lady” (Mahfouz 142-143), and finally he regained his position as the chief of police and was known as “Abdullah the Sane” (Mahfouz 207).

          The Persian Celestial Globe was used to map out the stars and heavenly bodies for scientific study, but it showed the Earth as the center of the universe, which made it flawed. In order to correct the Globe, Astronomers had to see the mirror image of the constellations, and without the mirror they wouldn’t have been able to fix the problem. Gamasa underwent a similar ordeal after he saw himself killed. Looking into a mirror image of himself, he was able to gain some much needed insight into the corrupt way he was living his life. He was able to transform multiple times throughout the story, and each time he became a better person. The Persian Celestial Globe and Gamasa represent the negative and positive possibilities in mankind. Both started out in the wrong direction, but eventually the stars aligned, and the correct path was found.  

- Cheyenna Cook

          I really enjoyed how you were able to connect such an interesting Persian artifact to Arabian Nights and Days. It brought out new information about this culture that I’m not familiar with and allowed me to understand aspects of the book better. The connections you made about the corruptive nature of Gamasa al- Bulti’s character and how him seeing his own death broke him out of that reminded me of our discussion about cyclical characters. Gamasa al- Bulti had to acknowledge his flaws by facing his own death multiple times in order to become a wise man. He had to see through the mirror that he was trapped in a cycle before breaking free of it. Although his situation might be seen as negative because he owas required to die, this artifact shows his death as a clarifying experience of self identity. I also found this artifact interesting because it highlights the celestial imagery and the comment on human identity that is found within the text which you pointed out well. Just like the stars we can be lost and we need the mirror to observe ourselves. Only then can we hope to perceive the world in a new way through self discovery. - Lauryn Bosse

          Something to think about also is that when,“Copernicus proved that the Celestial Globe was flawed” he may have also been considered a madman, even though we now think of him as a pioneer who saw something that others didn't. The same can be said for, Abdullah's treatment in the novel. It is only once that quarter accepts him as , “Abdullah the Sane,” and begin to use his knowledge are they able to “venture...upon a new experience”(Mahfouz 207). The fact that the Celestial Globe's were “often viewed in a mirror, so the constellations h[ad] their familiar appearances” after there corrections were made demonstrates how people prefer what is familiar as opposed to what is true. This can also be seen in, Arabian Nights and Days through the minor character of, Suleiman al-Zeini, whose wife, Gamila is found to be a conspirator in the murder plot of their maid. “He resist[s] facing up to the truth”of his wife's crime, and instead acts as if nothing happened so he can maintain the image of “the mother to his children”(Mahfouz 152) leaving him dishonoured. Mahfouz shows us that even when we are presented with the truth it is our choice to accept it or continue to look at its distorted mirror-image.

-Danielle Easley

Gamasa is such an interesting character in the novel, continually rising and falling in the reader’s esteem as he transforms both physically and internally. The genie’s own intentions are morally ambiguous, but Gamasa does originally act out of a belief that he is remedying a real problem in their world. The quote “corruption is not an excuse for corruption” is not only pertinent to the development of Gamasa, but is also an underlying theme of the novel that resurfaces time and time again. We as humans are in a place of great difficulty at times, as finding the ethical solution to violence is often more time-consuming and challenging than the more readily available courses of action. I believe Mahfouz is commenting on this struggle, saying that it is necessary to not only stop negative actions, but to do so with something positive that will neutralize the imbalance between good and bad.

Your connection drawn between the globe and the novel is insightful and beautiful – we are flawed by nature, and it is not something escapable. We can, however, be aware of these tendencies for weakness and choose to act in opposition of them. I believe that is the message of Mahfouz’s Arabian Nights and Days, to give us dose of honesty that is equal parts hope and painful reality.

- Melanie  Radliff

          Your mention of the flawed condition of the Persian Celestial Globe is so interesting when related to the larger novel. The inability to see things as they truly are and, instead, be convinced of fake realities is extremely pivotal to quite a few threads in the book. There is, for example, the jinn pretending to be a noblewoman; the reality and the perception of reality are completely different, but her existence as a noblewoman is real for those who cannot accept the truth. This nature of perception versus truth and how what is believed becomes real is shown through your artifact; the Persians, while proven wrong, would have believed this to be true for a long period of time and, it stands to reason, some of them would have died after spending their whole life holding only this one belief without ever finding it to be false. Mahfouz’s novel encourages a questioning of what we consider to be “knowledge” under this same idea. While an idea may be held, believed, and proven to be true utilizing present information, the introduction of new information is always on the horizon. Mahfouz is writing of the past in a modern setting, with full awareness of many of the beliefs and systems of government being outdated if not completely obsolete. His history, and even our present, must be under the same scrutiny as the Celestial Globe and your comments do a fantastic job of discussing that. 

- Kali Cheesman

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WITCH TIPS & HOROSCOPES 8/28-9/3/2019

WITCH TIPS

This week kicks off with a positive earthy aspect between action planet Mars, who’s currently in Virgo, and rebellious Uranus, who’s retrograde in Taurus, on the 28th. We are veering off the beaten path and manifesting our unique visions. This sentiment is further echoed by the harmonious connection between the Virgo Sun and Uranus retrograde on the 29th. Mercury enters Virgo on August 29th, giving us analytical insight and mindfulness into our desires for the next few weeks. The following day, on the 30th, the cosmos grant us a scrumptious New Moon in Virgo, which will serve as a catalyst for growth and transformation. September 1st allows us to discuss our radical new visions when Mercury and Uranus retrograde link up. But, we may hold back on implementing our dreams into reality on the 1st, as Venus, who’s in rigid Virgo, and Saturn, who’s retrograde in practical Capricorn, connect. September 2nd is the best time to move forward with our desires, as the Sun and Mars touch in the sky, motivating us to take action. Venus and Jupiter, who’s in lucky Sagittarius, square off on the 2nd, creating expansion to our hopes. We may meet people who will help propel our intentions forward on the 3rd, when the Sun, Mercury, and Mars are all in alignment in the cosmos. Venus and the Nodes of Destiny also link up on the 3rd, offering us an investment opportunity that may prove faulty later on. Be careful in matters of the heart and financial investments. Don’t believe everything you hear—process the information with a grain of salt. Remember, all that glitters isn’t necessarily gold.

Aries

March 21-April 19

This week, you’re aiming to calm energies within to create a harmonious vibe. Inner worries and apprehensions are consuming your mind, making you feel more anxious than ever. Instead of holding all your emotions in, let them out. This doesn’t mean yelling and having arguments with others. Rather, take on a physical activity like a sport or get a massage to alleviate stresses. Yoga will help melt away tensions by detoxing your muscles. Don’t huff and puff yourself into a frantic tizzy this week. Release the negativity through self-care and R & R.

Taurus

April 20-May 20

Relationships are more confusing than ever this week. You’re been pulled and pushed in too many different directions recently, making you uncertain of who you can trust. You’re feeling lost in your emotions, without a safety net in sight. The remedy for your seasonal blues is mediation. Zoom in on your emotions to gain clarity on your deepest feelings. Focus your energy on healing your heart chakra in order to move forward (in any direction). Only then will you be able to make clear decisions and manifest your romantic visions. Open your heart to create and connect with your dreams.

Gemini

May 21-June 20

Fear has been holding you back from creating your vision quests in reality. In order to put your goals into motion, it’s essential for you to change your mindset. Stop all of the negative thinking and doubt within by changing your attitude. Try adding positivity to your life throughout the day, by incorporating mindful thoughts into pessimistic views. Replace “I can’t” with “I can.” This little hack will act as a catalyst for you to set sail with your desires and elevate your spirit. Encourage and motivate yourself to reach for the stars. You’ll succeed and prosper as a result.

Cancer

June 21-July 22

After a few weeks out of the social scene, you’re longing to reconnect with your coven. You’re also in the mood to propose a community oriented project to your coven, in which you give back to those in your neighborhood. This can mean starting a charity in which you raise money for the local schools or protest for others in need. You want to revolutionize and shakeup the system, with the hope for a brighter tomorrow and future. By helping another person and standing up for your beliefs, you’re changing the world for the better, one step at a time.

Leo

July 23-August 22

Success has proven to be a long and winding road for you. Meaning, it’s been an intense journey to the top. While your professional and personal life may be at a high, you’re feeling a little insecure. Your confidence high is dwindling, causing you to feel self-doubt and uncertainty in your choices. Instead of wallowing in self-pity this week, try to insert affirmations into your daily regimen to help squash the critic within. Stand in front of a mirror and state all of your wonderful attributes. This technique will squash all the qualms in your head and calm your anxieties.

Virgo 

August 23-September 22

You’re not one to censor your thoughts. This week, you are addressing issues with others—but, in a peaceful and kind way. Instead of arguing about your feelings, take a different approach. Write a handwritten letter or send an email to those who you wish to mend fences with or express your feelings to. Before you start writing, make an outline stating all the issues and topics you wish to address. Be concise and straightforward with others. Don’t play the blame game. Most importantly, be kind. You can make up in no time if you approach the matter with warmth and tenderness.

Libra

September 23-October 22

For a while, your anxieties and frustrations have been kept at bay. This week, your sentiments are coming to a head, as mundane annoyances are causing issues in your daily vibe. All of the above is a great excuse to take time away from others for yourself to heal. Bust out the CBD oil and add a warm bath with roses, along with Himalayan salt. Put on relaxing music and light white candles. Let your body rest and relax in the healing warmth of water. Wash away your irritations this week and you will feel back to your old self.

Scorpio

October 23-November 21

All of your interpersonal relationships feel like they’re taking a ride on a cosmic roller coaster, leaving you longing for stability within partnerships. The only caveat is that you’re feeling the after effects of the highs, the lows, and sideways turns—all of which has left you with dizzying motion sickness. While you may feel the urgency to repair all your relationships this week, it’s best to take a moment away from others to reflect to figure out what you want. Mend your heart, then worry about others. This will allow you to navigate through your emotions before making any major decisions.

Sagittarius

November 22-December 21

You’ve worked very hard to reach the top of your profession—sacrificing relationships and social events on your road to success. Now, you’re feeling a bit lonely and cut off from others and longing for more concrete relationships (with your friends and family). Although you may find work is going swimmingly well, you long for connections with others and a thriving social life. You may even question if you want to continue down this path. The answer to your existential quandary is simple: create balance between your work and personal life. Then, you can have the best of both worlds.

Capricorn

December 22-January 19

This week, you’re seeing first hand that you don’t need to be the “best” to win. You’re a star no matter what! Opportunities will come and go. You are learning that what really matters is how you treat others. You’ve desired fame and glory in your youth. Now, you know that it’s all meaningless if you don’t have anyone to share it with. Reach out to your family, friends, and colleagues to rejoice in love. Celebrate life this week. Don’t dwell on the past. Use your good vibes to enjoy the sweet and tender feelings this week has to offer.

Aquarius

January 20-February 18

Setting boundaries with others isn’t hard for you when others try to implant themselves into your orb. But, when the shoe is on the other foot, it’s a bit different. Meaning, you’re unable to accept and understand those who set limits with you in their life. Although you may feel ostracized from the social scene in the beginning of the week, things do change over the weekend. You’re coming to realize that you can let others have their space and still maintain a healthy relationship. You don’t have to sell yourself—everyone adores you as you are. Have faith in others.

Pisces

February 19-March 20

Partnerships are changing this week—for the better. You’re beginning to express your emotions to others, which is a major step for you. While you may clash sentiments with some of your brood, don’t let that one setback hold you back. The truth is, you’re evolving and transforming. You’re becoming the person you’ve always dreamed of being. You’re unabashedly and unapologetically wearing your heart on your sleeve. You’re telling people how you feel—on your terms. They can either love it or hate it. But, they’ll have to accept your sentiments. It’s taken you a lifetime to get here, revel in it.

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Regarding Primal Beauty Secrets program

Primal Beauty Secrets involve a self-displined diet plan to aid you acquire all-natural charm. Exactly how, you would certainly ask. Well all of it depend on the Paleo diet regimen; even more like consume just what the neanderthal consumed attitude.

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Order this financially rewarding overview. Allow’s decrease the roadway of acquiring all-natural charm on a Paleo diet plan.

Paleo Diet regimen

Perhaps you became aware of this yet you really did not completely understand the significance? Or you have actually been searching for an overview to assist you recognize this principle.

Paul Vandyken, the PaleoDiet.com visitor author produced an easy overview for you. According to Paul, the Paleo diet regimen states plainly what to consume as well as what not to consume

What to consume

Nuts as well as seeds, eggs, fish/seafood, yard generated and also healthy oils. These oils consist of Olive oil, Macadamia, Avocado as well as Coconut.

What not to consume.

Fine-tuned sugar, dairy products, improved veggie oils, refined foods, salt as well as beans.

The writer’s overview better informs of what the diet plan advises for morning meal, lunch and also supper.

Morning meal

3 or 5 clambered eggs rushed in olive oil

Grapefruit

Organic Tea

After that, get a treat consisting of experienced fruit as well as cut beef

Lunch

Salad with poultry top it up with natural tea

Obtain your treat of apple pieces and also raw walnuts.

Supper

A barbequed Turkey bust

Tomato and also Avocado pieces

Steamed Broccoli and also Carrots

Dish of fresh blueberries

Clean down with a glass of gewurztraminer or mineral water. You might have assumed that getting on a diet regimen is a pain-staking point to start. The Paleo diet plan is a lot enjoyable; it makes me really feel hungry currently.

I wish this testimonial has actually assisted you comprehend the essentials of the Paleo diet regimen, a crucial component of the Primal Beauty Secrets program.

Concerning the writer, Paul Vandyken

The writer is a nourishment train as well as an individual instructor. He has an individual internet site, RigorFitness.com where he blog sites on health and fitness, nourishment as well as healthy and balanced living. He overviews you through a number of write-ups, overviews as well as images.

Does Primal Beauty Secrets function?

Since we have actually snuffed out one crucial part of this item, allow’s currently concentrate on how/whether it functions.

Allow me place it out right, yes it does function. Nelly Quinn’s item isn’t a rip-off. It without a doubt boosts all-natural skin radiance. If you will not take my word for it, after that recognize that the writer had charm concerns in the beginning, triggering her to discover this program.

She likewise mosted likely to college as well as the 4 year rigours of research saw her ended up being a nourishment expert. That alone must improve your self-confidence that this item isn’t a rip-off. Examine various other testimonials, they absolutely agree.

The very best feature of the program is that it’s void of surgical procedure, pricey therapies and also make-up.

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Just how does it function?

The program paper requires research study in a day-by-day program targeted at boosting all-natural skin radiance. Scientific research supports the program in guaranty that it’ll aid you acquire;

Lowered creases as well as great lines

Loss of blackheads, acnes as well as acne

Weight management in your body components

Attractive skin

Glowing skin

The writer focuses on Avocado stating it maintains the skin smooth as well as moistened. Get your avocado shake now.

The Primal Beauty Secrets item consists of the adhering to;

Primal beauty very foods

Raw foods that make your skin luster

Reasons various other diet regimens you have actually attempted have actually stopped working

The 1 most critical active ingredient of all-natural charm

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The primal beauty rip off sheet

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Regarding the writer, Neely Quinn.

The writer is a licensed Paleo Nourishment specialist. This implies that she concentrates on showing regarding appropriate, healthy and balanced consuming using the Paleo Diet plan. Do you pick up cooperation?

If you did, your instinct is. The writer in cooperation with Paleo Hacks worked with this program. If you carry out a fast search online, you’ll learn they are among the most effective, otherwise the most effective.

With the mix of their competence and also Nelly’s understanding, they produced a food program created to reveal you that you exactly how to attain optimum health and wellness, both inside as well as on the surface.

The writer’s objective, she claims is to instruct you just how to have the body, way of life as well as health and wellness you have actually constantly wanted.

Surprisingly, the writer has her very own dishes in a Paleo Convenience Recipe Book. It seems like she’s enthusiastic regarding food preparation.

1. Below are a few of her preferred dishes.

Primal Beauty Secrets Dishes.

Bacon covered eggs.

Bacon Avocado Turkey covers.

Avocado BTL dish.

Zesty Fresh Tacos.

Spicy Italian Pork Roast.

2. Appeal Cuisines.

Chorizo eggs.

African curry.

Turkey hamburgers.

Squashetti.

Perfect pizza attacks.

Delicious chocolate cookies.

3. Shake dishes.

High, dark as well as good-looking’s hot delicious chocolate sibling( banana, almond, milk, cacao powder, cinnamon as well as medjool days).

Post-Yoga booty shake( fresh blueberries, coconut milk, healthy protein powder and also child spinach).

Strawberry sexy( strawberries, honey, coconut milk and also water).

She takes place more to genuine the leading 100 very foods that obtain this, are appropriate in your kitchen area. By very food I wager you considered some crossbreed foods. They consist of;.

Tomatoes.

Cinnamon.

Pineapple.

Avocado.

Onion.

Mango.

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Cons

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The Psychology Of Materialism, And Why It's Making You Unhappy

More money, more problems? It might just be true. Americans today, compared to 55 years ago, own twice as many cars and eat out twice as much per person, but we don't seem to be any happier because of it. Rather than rising levels of well-being, we've seen mounting credit card debt and increasing numbers of self-storage facilities to house the things we compulsively buy.

The holidays in particular have become a time when consumer culture comes out in full force. Black Friday, the annual post-Thanksgiving discount shopping spree, results each year in multiple deaths and injuries of consumers trampled by crowds in stores and shopping malls.

In a poignant, viral Huffington Post blog last month, "If You Shop On Thanksgiving, You're Part Of The Problem," writer Matt Walsh cast a harsh light on what the holiday shopping frenzy really says about our culture:

That's our entire economic system: buy things. Everybody buy. It doesn't matter what you buy. Just buy. It doesn't matter if you don't have money. Just buy. Our entire civilization now rests on the assumption that, no matter what else happens, we will all continue to buy lots and lots of things. Buy, buy, buy, buy, buy. And then buy a little more. Don't create, or produce, or discover -- just buy. Never save, never invest, never cut back -- just buy. Buy what you don't need with money you don't have... Buy like you breathe, only more frequently.

To some extent, most of us participate in consumer culture and value material possessions, and that's perfectly fine. But in excess, materialism can take a toll on your well-being, relationships and quality of life. Here are six things you should know about the psychology of consumption -- and strategies to find freedom from materialism.

Consumer culture may be harming individual well-being.

Research suggests that Americans' well-being has, if anything, declined since the 1950s, according to the American Psychological Association, while our consumption has only increased.

"Compared with their grandparents, today's young adults have grown up with much more affluence, slightly less happiness and much greater risk of depression and assorted social pathology," David G. Myers, author of The American Paradox: Spiritual Hunger in an Age of Plenty, wrote in an American Psychologist article. "Our becoming much better off over the last four decades has not been accompanied by one iota of increased subjective well-being."

The materialistic values that consumer cultures support may be to blame. Those who pursue wealth and material possessions tend to be less satisfied and experience fewer positive emotions each day. On the other hand, research has found that life satisfaction -- surprise, surprise -- is correlated with having less materialistic values.

Materialist values are linked to Type-A behavior.

Are you highly ambitious and competitive? It could mean you're also more materialistic. Australian research from the 1990s found materialist values and a possessions-based definition of success share common characteristics with type-A behaviors, including competitiveness and aggression. A 2008 study published in the Journal of Pacific Rim Psychology reiterated the finding that the desire to accumulate wealth and possessions is related to Type-A qualities.

Money really can't buy you happiness.

The Beatles wisely noted that money can't buy love, and we'd do well to remember that money can't buy happiness, either. Research has shown that there is no direct correlation between income and happiness. Once our basic needs are met, wealth makes very little difference to one's overall well-being and happiness. And in fact, extremely wealthy people actually suffer from higher rates of depression.

“The failure of additional wealth and consumption to help people have satisfying lives may be the most eloquent argument for reevaluating our current approach to consumption,” the authors of Worldwatch Institute's 2011 State of Consumption report wrote.

Some data, however, has suggested that there could be a link between higher income and increased life satisfaction. It seems that it may not be the money itself that leads to dissatisfaction, but rather, the continual striving for greater wealth and more possessions that is linked to unhappiness.

Materialism could ruin your relationships.

Can money buy you love? Not so much, and according to a study published in the Journal Of Couple & Marriage Therapy, materialism is actually correlated with unhappiness in marriages. Researchers studied more than 1,700 couples to find that those in which both partners had high levels of materialism exhibited lower marital quality than couples with lower materialism scores. Previous studies have found that students with higher extrinsic, materialistic values tend to have lower-quality relationships, and to feel less connected to others.

Materialistic people also typically have less pro-social and empathetic qualities, both towards others and towards the environment.

Consumer cultures may breed narcissistic personalities.

Some psychologists have suggested that consumer cultures may contribute to the development of narcissistic personalities and behaviors, "by focusing individuals on the glorification of consumption," psychologist Tim Kasser wrote in The High Price Of Materialism. Narcissists generally act with arrogance and are deeply concerned with issues of personal adequacy, seeking power and prestige to cover for feelings of inner emptiness and low-self worth, Kasser explains.

"Narcissists' desire for external validation fits well with our conception of materialistic values as extrinsic and focused on others' praise," he writes. "Thus it was not surprising to find that students with strong materialistic tendencies scored high on a standard measure of narcissism, agreeing with statements such as 'I am more capable than other people' ... 'I wish somebody would write my biography someday.'"

Consumerism is fueled by insecurity -- and remedied by mindfulness.

Research suggests that materialistic values are fueled by insecurity. A 2002 study published in the journal Psychology and Marketing found that those who chronically doubt themselves and their own self-worth tend to be more materialistic.

Consumerism -- which has been called a "modern religion" -- tends to capitalize on this insecurity and use it to sell products.

"In a practical sense, consumerism is a belief system and culture that promotes consuming as the path to self- and social improvement," Stephanie Kaza, University of Vermont Environment Professor and Buddhism practitioner, wrote in Tricycle: The Buddhist Review. "As a dominant cultural force, consumerism offers products to address every dissatisfaction."

So what's the antidote? Mindfulness -- the focused awareness on the present moment, which can be cultivated through meditation and contemplative practice -- may be an effective remedy to empty or compulsive consumption. As beat writer and American Buddhist thinker Allen Ginsberg put it in a 1966 letter to the Washington Post: "You own twice as much rug if you're twice as aware of the rug."

Americans are redefining success beyond money and power.

Our collective definition of the American Dream is slowly starting to change from one of materialism to a more purposeful idea of what it means to live the good life. According to the 2013 LifeTwist study, only around one-quarter of Americans still believe that wealth determines success.

"Dozens of the survey’s findings reflect a new American notion of success, but perhaps none more starkly than the sentiment that Americans ranked 'having a lot of money' 20th on a list of 22 possible contributors to having a successful life," the LifeTwist Study's authors wrote in a press release. "This sentiment mirrors the steadily rising trend ... that Americans are increasingly placing greater priority on living a fulfilling life –- in which being wealthy is not the most significant factor."

By Carolyn Gregoire