#reblogs/reblog chains ain't going anyway

[kirchefuchs]

(this is a long one lmao)

OKAY SO.

It was like 1am last night so I decided to sleep before sending this ahahahagsggs

ANYWAY

Regarding this wonderful reblog chain we had

(I don't know how and where to start ahahahahaaa)

hmmm. well, yk how I mentioned that The Eye of Michael (gasp. a rare instance where I don't forget a name??) took Stanley's voice? well, on the mask design I very much failed on, there was a clock (lmao TK reference) on the forehead part. originally, I wanted the mask to just be covering Stanley's mouth, because... duh. blud ain't got a voice no mo 😞✊ but anyway !!

(additional info: I took inspiration from a bunch of mask designs I found on Pinterest so it was very far from original)

the idea for the clock was for the ticking to be some sort of, uh, warning that he's nearby? like, just imagine finding yourself in an empty corridor, and all of a sudden, you hear a clock ticking in the distance. yeah, that's what I mean

(also I decided to change a bit of the backstory here. basically, The Narrator and Stanley are separate people. The Narrator was Some Dude™ who was in the middle of writing a story about—you guessed it—a man named Stanley. I already have his whole lore figured out but yk I'll cut it short for you so uhhhh blah blah blah The Eye of Michael finds him and encases him in a capsule where live wires that make him forget who he was before he became The Narrator are injected into his system. his voice is used as a way to trap and control Stanley—whose original identity/name was Jim (in this AU, at least)—and. yeah. The Narrator is trapped in a narrative facade whereas "Stanley" was the star of a lonely masquerade)

anyway, you can basically picture Stanley as wearing a full face mask or half of one, but either way, there's meant to be a clock somewhere and one of his eyes are meant to be covered in some sort of. uh. criss-cross threading technique. there's also the addition of some, uh, earphones? I think? they're not really that visible but uhh.. just think of them as the wireless ones, I dunno, I forgot what they're called, but anyway– Those are for The Narrator's voice. Just imagine a pair of. um. those things that help deaf people hear. wait.

HEARING AIDS. hearing aids, yes, uh, just imagine hearing aids, except that they're purposefully rigged to also provide a connection between The Narrator's voice and Stanley. It still functions like a normal pair of hearing aids, it just has the unfortunate annoyance of some angry British voice controlling Stanley's every move

As for the theme of his general outfit? I really wanted to make it fit the theme of the good ol "office worker" thing, so I had a little thought where Stanley pretends to be a tired worker at the start—wearing an ordinary face mask with the excuse of "trying not to breathe in the sand," as was written on a piece of paper (his lips/mouth is bruised as heck and the EoM did not want to take any more chances for instant suspicion), but during the times where Vash was alone, he'd (or, in this case, The Narrator would make him) wear his masquerade mask and put on some sort of blue (masquerade) outfit, with the cane that's totally not a sword/gun in disguise and all. With that being said, maybe the gang won't know his name until Wolfwood realizes who he is? I mean, Stanley can't talk, and. uh. sorry I'm going off-topic hahaa ahem anyway

maybe his title could be "The Masquerade"? not too sure but I like to think that he was trustworthy at first. anyway uhhhh that's about it! do whatever you wish with my two favorite brainrots :D and, sorry if I got a bit too-into the lore I made for him and The Narrator :')

— 🅰️non || Aug. 7 2023

This is gonna be a long one my guy....

🅰️non..... my dear beloved 🅰️non..... I don't know how to break this to you but the masquerade outfit, while a cool idea, is a flippin nightmare to try to translate into the Trigun universe. I tried so hard but it just want working.

Suffice it to say, venetian masquerade and space western do not mix

And it not for lack of trying! I have proof I tried!! The mask works, it's great! That's fine. But the clothes do not :(

I've got a lot of doodles here I gave up on cuz it just wasn't working. I kept having the problem where it either looked too pirate-y or too vampire-y, which is to be expected since masquerades were quite popular in the 18th century (the Golden Age of Piracy if I recall). And unfortunately, neither pirate nor vampire really scream "space cowboy times on desert planet"

Now.... this is an option....... and that is to forgo the masquerade outfit, the mask can stay, but I honest to goodness cannot make an outfit that works. So basically, my proposal for a solution would be to go with the aesthetic that pretty much every member of the Eye Of Michael has in 98 and Maximum. And that's the priest aesthetic.

You see, the Eye Of Michael has always been a religious group in universe, at the very least they pose as one. In reality they train orphans into mindess assassins, but they keep that church front. Hence why Wolfwood and Livio (and Chapel and the other EOM members in Maximum) have cross shaped guns. Also, fun fact Wolfwood was dubbed "The Punisher" because that was the name of his gun. I assume this would apply to Livio, and his guns are "Fangs" giving him the name "The Double Fang", and we know this applies to Razlo too, as he is "The Tri Punisher of Death" (you'd never guess, but he's got 3 Punishers :O).

Anyways, I did try drawing Stanley in the priest aesthetic, just to see if it worked. Make of it as you will.

I kinda imagine if we were to go this route, Stanley's cross would be a sniper rifle. He's already got a sort of stealth going for him, being mute and all, so I think it would fit. I could by no means draw said gun as I am only really good at drawing characters. But I can imagine the gun :')

Now, feel free to take my opinions and throw them in the trash if you don't like them, it's your character after all, it's up to you. But I do want to make it clear that I do love this idea so much and I wanna hear more of the story and how you think it would go. I'm curious if Stanley has a way to communicate back to the Narrator, because that could lead to some cool tandem character development. Like what if after Stanley starts wanting to break free of the Eye Of Michael, Vash agrees to help him free the Narrator as well. Since Stanley is mute, it could be cool if he communicated to the Narrator through his thoughts, so they would have to be on the same page for the escape plan to work. I mean, these are just my silly little ramblings, but this is all just to say that you've got a really good thing going here and I really wanna know more. I really hope my personal struggle with aesthetics doesn't bring you down, cuz I really truly love your idea here and I want it to work so badly.

But, yeah. I might end up drawing more at some point, cuz the idea is so cool and I just love all the story potential with Stanley being used by the Eye Of Michael like this. Anyways, I hope you have a good day, and sorry again for my inability to make the aesthetic work :')

[brightsuzaku]

Day 6

oh my god i cannot keep reblogging myself because it just makes that post chain LONGER AND LONGER

but i called out of work again today, put in my sick day request, and figured i could: either sound like a mucous-y toad all day or maybe not.... But I was still coming up Positive for COVID-19, so I ain't risking it at work

anyway, all i am doing now is a lot of throat clearing, the occasional annoying cough, and have lots of phlegm and runny nose-ness.

Otherwise? I may be out of the woods, as far as symptoms go? Hurrah?

I guess the things to continue monitoring are possibly persistent coughing, any chills or whatever, or... the scary chance of Long Covid.

OH RIGHT:

here's a link nobody needs to the previous post chain!

[ziipzeepzop-eez]

CHIPPY AKDHDKDHDJDHDD you STAY coming in clutch great googly MOOGLY 🤩🤩😱🫣!!!!

Nawl but fr, I honestly think it's the person who I think it is, but even if not — shooooo, my reblogs are what make it fun!! For m e anyways 🥲🥲. I can go a little overboard sometimes when I keep the chain going but it eventually breaks off!! It ends!! Like you said bae: don't like it, delete 💥 block 💥 and/or ‼️ close‼️💥

I was just being chill :')) I was this 🤏 close to calling them out, "come off nonny since you wanna confront", but I'm not even mad?? 😭😭 Like I genuinely wanna know if I made you uncomfy or sumn but you ain't gotta hide if that's how you really feel darlin'!!

Mm, but alas. 🙂😙 Can't have everything these days, can we?

cool it with the obnoxious additions to other peoples posts pls

my bad pookie I just be having a lot to say sometimes 😞 I'll chill tho

[mtnkat3]

2.09pm. 2.21pm [interruptions.]

my Love/s...DOne,DPOne,&Alll.🔆

I don't want "away" camo colors.

My Mossy Oak & Browning b-caps are wilderness & tan camo with pink.

Blushing grin. Naturally.

You...DOne DPOne &Alll. You/Alll have held me up often. I helped maybe some back then... but have I helped or hurt now.

I want to be Your/Alll's mate wife partner... & help You/Alll shoulder the burdens. That is what is right & proper. I'd even perhaps say...right to? But... I want that right because we created it. Because... welll... I wanna shout...

~Yes!!!.~

I just... because of my screwups have been big lately I'm feeling very... unsure. That You/Alll want me. At alll.

That You/Alll have pulled back. To rightfully protect Your/Alll's selves.

But I don't know if You/Alll read the one reblog I've done recently but ... I held it in drafts for a long time. And it's still very true.

Anyways. That reblog is that I am insecure, know it. But only with You/Alll wanting to, will I slowly gain trust of myself. For me, its self worth that I've always struggled with. That I feel a burden. Just... the way I was treated. Now. I wanna break those chains of fear that have bound me!

I wish I could pen multiple posts to the top. Instead of the "top posts", which is no rhyme nor reason. No, the way my description is actually supposed to look, age, etc. But tumblr...the wisdom just ain't there.

Ie, I use fb msgnr with wh, his family, ladies from church, & old school friend ladies. But on there it's possible to look up gifs, has categories & even can create favorites! Gasp! Not spending so much time the msg becomes useless! Gr!

Anyways...

I need to go back & review I think I lost my train of thought there. Sigh.

Blushing beet red.

2.-45-52-54p

I love You/Alll beyond measure.

I am. ~Your's/s'.~

DOne, DPOne, & Alll. 🔆

Alllways & Forevermore. Period.

🔱💖🐻💓🦌💝⚜♠️🗝🧩♾⚓🙏🙇‍♀️🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌻🌹🌷🌳🧶🧵🔆🌠⚡🕯☔🌂🔗🎯🧭🎶💋

2.59pm

[bcrtonarrcws]

1, 3, 7, 8, 11, 22

      Watch as I get banned from the RPC because I got some really unpopular opinions!! Lol, in all seriousness, please remember that these are MY OPINIONS and my opinions only and we don't have to agree on all - or even any - of these to still get along and be friendly!! Life is all about finding people who challenge your life views, and finding some who solidify some life views; growth is important!! 

 Anyway, onto the answers:

1. What would prevent you from following someone?: No rules, bio, alt fc if they're animated - if i don't see them cutting their posts, if i see too much vague blogging; the reblogging of chain mail, huge ooc posts (ie the 'do you love the sky' posts and things of that sort, not mun talking posts). If I don't see our characters interacting, if there's unnecessary amounts of hate on the blog - like I'm going to be honest, I am really picky about who I follow.

3. What current rp trend do you hate?: welp imma get kicked out!! the trend of google docs!! i'm sorry but like no thank you to this one ever!! i give no one permission into my google docs and i never will!! sorry not sorry! i'm terrified of hackers because we all know that that shit can get hacked - data is never safe and i will never risk my important stuff just to follow the current aesthetics of the rpc.

7. What’s your opinion on call out posts?: do you have unbiased proof?? then i'm okay with it, but given that that rarely happens, i hate call out posts. they're wrapped up in the purity culture that now surrounds fandom - where ship and let ship no longer matters; where everything has to be some kind of performative social action or else it doesn't matter!! i'm here to escape from rl problems, to let myself get lost in the mind numbing fanfic and gifsets and rp blogs, not be forced to focus on real life issues!!

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.:

1) the trend of villains needing to be redeemable to be considered good characters - though this one has threads in the main fandom culture, you can still find it rampant in the rpc and i fucking hate it. gimme toxic shitty villains - hell just any toxic shiity people because those are so realistic!! - pls and thank you.

2) i have seen people lying about their ages to get around other's rules about rping with underage people and i'm not here for that. i'm 26 going on 27, i don't want to rp with anyone under 20, it's nothing against you it's just my blog is not a completely safe space - claire has skeletons in her past (so do i) and i ain't got the time or energy to waste trying to figure out how to censor it for younger people.

3) the basis that somehow aesthetics are important to the quality of a writer?? idk why but somehow writing quality is less important than how a blog/writer makes their blog look like, or put their texts, or like ??? idk i can't stand it. i mean, i don't like big giant gif icons or pictures si u do get it (i mean look at number 1 up there, so many things) but at the same time, i'm willing to sacrifice blog aesthetics if a rper is like really in tune with their character because i'm here for character development, not a popularity contest. i did high school and while it wasn't that shitty for me, i don't want to go back!!

11. What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?: that not everybody is reasonable and kind!! some people take this rping thing a little too seriously and i'm just over here like please remember this is a hobby, okay!! i'm not getting paid to do anything - not the graphics, not the words, not the time spent, and yet some people act like it's a job and i'm not here for it!! i don't do jobs that i don't get paid for!! hustle culture is capitalist propaganda and it can fuck right off!!

22. What would make you block someone?: well what doesn't? lets see i block people who soft block me (i don't want to accidentally refollow), i block people who don't tag triggers, i block people who vague blog and post call out posts; i block people who don't rp with genderbends (i don't want to accidentally follow knowing they're not into that); i block people who make me feel uncomfortable, or who don't tag smut. honestly i learned in the fandom i was in prior to coming back here that the block button is my friend, it's how you cultivate a safe dash - it's how you can preemptively protect yourself from a lot of grief!! and i’mma use it liberally if i feel like it!

@murder-popsicle | this munday meme!!

[zoobus]

I'm going to be real as somebody who experiences severe mood swings and mental health episodes including one's where I explode on people this post is actually incredibly gentle and having a huge problem with a "sarcastic tone" is honestly like. A bit of projection on your end.

Let me stop you right there.

I have had friends who've told me privately they appreciated me speaking out because these specific types of posts send them spiraling into suicidal ideation/attempts. I've had strangers comment similar. "That post really upset me but I couldn't explain why. Thank you for putting it into words." "I really like your post but to be honest I don't think I deserve to share it."

There's a longer reblog chain here from someone who works directly with those suffering lifelong mental illnesses, someone who asserts they'd be out of a job -rightfully so- if they ever used this kind of language.

Can you explain to me how your singular experience as a bpd-haver outranks every single person who said this kind of post makes them want to end the burden they always knew they were on others?

It's not a projection. Like. I am trying not to bring out the high school accolades here but I actually have very good reading comprehension. Top percentile. I'm good at picking out tone. The tone here is caustic and passive-aggressive. Whether you've had an episode in your own life has zero relevance to whether this post is hostile (it is).

Blah blah blah that is a you problem

I know you think you've said something. You haven't. This is less than nothing.

I'm not trying to be mean

I wish you would try being smart.

I'm not trying to be cruel

You are dismissing every anecdote counter to yours - those who are triggered into suicidal thoughts/attempts by this common type of post - as irrelevant, unimportant, or lost causes. Look at the braggart over here, being this callous without even trying! I see a ☑️ in your future!

Weh weh we can't even have a gentle conversation that starts off with "hey guys, I'm about to piss you off"

Cry me a river. How many times did I say the advice wasn't bad? How many times? You're soooo defensive of this abrasive tone that you've picked up aliteracy. We can't even have this gentle delicate bambi-legged conversation that we're having right now, the content of which I've endorsed. Isn't it sad how we can't even talk about this? All because zoobus babied the bpds. "if you have borderline personality disorder you should be able to explode and threaten and scream and hold Congress hostage and nobody should be allowed to hold it against them," I heard her say that verbatim.

I am just. I cannot read the rest of this. I'm being sincere. I genuinely despise you. It's not entirely your fault - you may have chosen the fucking clueless Biden-just-Google-it life, but it's unfair to expect you to know how agonizing each of your "no excuse" suggestions are to me personally, as if I haven't pored those resources firsthand. But if this is you not trying...☑️

Edit: I missed how you misread me saying "this symptom reminds me of one illness I have seen a lot of" as "only bpd types lash out." Amazing. I'm going to double down on depranxiety just for that.

It is not manipulative to state facts. The fact is that the tone of this post is antagonistic to people with the shared trait "does not think normal, in a bad way." The fact is that this post sucks liquid shit and you parroting the status quo to me as if I'm some naive wide-eyed child trying to protect an abuser from consequences, god. When I was a kid, my dad liked to blast YouTube motivational videos, where deep voiced speakers would shout NAAAHHH YOU AIN'T READY FOR THIS TRUTH BOMB BUT IT'S COMING ANYWAY... I'M ABOUT TO HURT SOME FEELINGS TONIGHT... I'M ABOUT TO STEP ON SOME TOES...IMMA PISS Y'ALL OFF BUT YOU NEED TO BE TOLD 😤😤😤😤

Followed by the most banal, surface level, tepid, nontroversial observations, if not lies. Twitter has not proven the exception. I'm not sure I've ever seen an exception.

📣📣I'm Gonna Piss You Off📣📣 People don't have to forgive you if you keep messing up. You should apologize after an episode. There are resources out there. 💥💥booooom💥💥🎤🎤🎤

I have nothing kind to say to you, so I'd at least recommend clicking the earlier link to someone who works in the field and their thoughts. Don't respond to me again.

Tl:dr watch Joker (2019) 🙄 learn something.