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Joe Wells Interview

Ed: So today I am joined by autistic comedian from Portsmouth, Joe Wells. He is a fellow Guide Award winner, but he's won three times

Joe: oh, you're a Guide Award winner. What was your Guide Award for?

So mine was for best solo artist

Congratulations.

And it was when I was 16, which, as you can tell a while ago, but I also beat Joe Black that year. Which kind of feels like, yeah, maybe…

Oh right, but Joe Black was a, was it a musical solo or just a solo artist across all mediums?

So at the time, he was kind of between, like, music and then sort of the cabaret/burlesque stuff.

Oh, yeah. Because he used to do almost like, Tom Waits-y type songs didn’t he?

Yeah, I played with him at the Kings Theatre as well before, and to be invited into that kind of moment was amazing. But yeah, so I think I made him really bitter, and that's why he's so famous now

Pretends he's not from Portsmouth. Joe Black goes on Drag Race and says, I'm from Brighton. He’s one of us. He's denying his heritage

Joe Wells calls out Joe Black. But you also co host the Neurodivergent Moments podcast with Abigoliah. I hope I've got that right

Yes, Abigoliah Schamaun

And this year you released your second book, Differently Wired: 30 Neurodivergent People Who You Should Know

Yes, well, Wired Differently. But I've been saying the wrong way around a lot as well so it’s very forgivable

Sorry! So thank you so much for coming to talk with me on this show. I kind of wanted to start off with what was your route getting into comedy and performing?

I guess it's such like a cliche, but at school, didn't quite fit in, didn't know my place in the school system. And then I found out that if I could be the funny one, that was how I fitted in. And I sort of write little funny essays and things, and sometimes the teacher would let me read them out at the end of class. So those are my first gigs. I wrote a book about, I had very severe OCD growing up, and I wrote a book about that. And then I was doing talks linked to that book. And then started watching comedy, started watching Mark Thomas, I used to watch Ross Noble, then went to a comedy club and then sent them an email. I sent an email to Havant Comedy Club, which was at what's now the Spring Art Centre. And this is before I got any gigs. And I said, “oh, I think I could do up to half an hour”, which is just a ridiculous thing to say. That’s like saying “I think I'm starting running, maybe i’ll start with a marathon” you know. And for some reason, Jeff who runs the club, who I still see to this day, he sent me an email back saying, “well, we'll give you ten minutes and see what you do”, and yeah then went from there

Nice. Yeah, I guess performing comedy is actually a lot of hard work so going into that half an hour would have been, well if you haven't learned your craft as well

Generally, yeah, you start with sort of doing 5/10 minute sets and then after a few years, you sort of work your way up to doing 20 minutes sets, then half an hour sets. Particularly in a club, half an hour would usually be, the headliner might do half an hour, might do a longer set, but generally, people 20 minutes in clubs

Obviously, it's something you probably get asked about a lot with going viral, with your piece about having a non-autistic brother, but I wanted to ask you, like, do you kind of see, obviously that was a clip of you performing, but a lot of people, social media is almost like they're performing or an extension of their performing. Does it kind of feel like that to you?

Tweets and things like that do you mean?

Tweets and I guess some people do videos just for Twitter as well

Yeah, I mean, I hate social media. It's such a necessary evil, isn't it? I have to be on it for working, but it is particularly Twitter, it’s just so horribly toxic. Yeah, I guess sometimes I throw a joke out on Twitter. I don't do a lot of sort of sketches or anything like that. I just love stand up. I love doing stand up, so most of what I put on social media content wise is stand up, because that's the thing I really love and the thing that I'm good at. So, yeah, obviously, if anyone's listening to this, producing other TV shows, then I can adapt. But stand up is the thing that I'm sort of passionate about

Yeah, we have got a big TV producer audience, so hopefully this will connect. So Joe has chosen five songs to be played within this interview. Have you got the list there? Do you want to introduce?

Oh, let me remember the order. Oh, I've got Money by N.A.S.A. with autistic David Byrne on. Have you heard this album?

I haven't, no

One of my special interests is music, so i’ll try not to completely info dump on you, but N.A.S.A. is a hip hop album with the most incredible guest list of featured artists. They were a hiphop collective, but they had released this album. It's got David Byrne on it, it's got Kanye West on it, it's got Chuck D, it's got Fat Lip, it's got E40, it's got Tom Waits on it, it's got Karen O from the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. MIA is on it, ODB is on it. Just an amazing guest list on this album. And this track is called Money with David Byrne, and I think it's Chuck D on it, as well as a couple with David Byrne. Yeah, Chuck D and David Byrne on the same song. you can't go wrong with that

Cool. Let's give it a listen

So that was Money by N.A,S.A. featuring David Byrne and Chuck D. So you've got Edinburgh Fringe coming up. Obviously a huge undertaking. You'll be there performing 6th to the 28 August at the Banshee Labyrinth

Yep, midday every day

Without giving any spoilers, I wondered if you could explain about the show a bit?

I had a viral video which was about being autistic, and as a result of that, you get sort of made a sort of an elected spokesperson for autistic people. Which I think is a ridiculous way of running our society and a way of listening to minority groups is sort of whichever one has the best viral video, they get to be in charge of the autistics. But that's what ended up happening, that I got lots of sort of people asking me questions and wanting me to speak at autism awareness events and stuff like that. So sort of about the fallout of that. And if I do have anything to say as the spokesperson for all of us

I guess, do you feel really forced into that position of talking about that stuff, or was it originally kind of a choice?

Well, I want to talk about it in stand up. I want to do stand up about it. I'm interested and I have opinions and ideas, and I want to represent autistic people and the autism discussion, for want of a better phrase, within comedy. I don't want to do a documentary where I look away from the camera and look very sad. Whilst I have thought through my opinions, I'm not someone that is someone that sort of read everything and really thought about this stuff. I'm not someone who's a proper activist or journalist or whatever, but what I can do is do jokes about it. So I try to sort of stay within what I can do within the way that I want to discuss these things

So you had a preview last night. How did that go?

Yeah, it was lovely. The second to last one, so I think the show is pretty much it there. There's sort of a couple of bits where I just want to have a little pace around my room one day and just sort of work out exactly the phrasing on it, so yeah it’s pretty much there, I think, where we've had two years off at the Edinburgh Fringe, I feel like I'm a lot more ready than I have been in previous years. Usually this time I’m going, “oh god, I've got nothing, I've got to go up next week. But I think it's pretty much there. So it's just memorizing it as well. That's the thing, with an hour show it's just remembering the order of the jokes is a hard bit, remembering what comes next. But that will fall into place soon

And I guess the big talking point at the moment is about the Fringe app

Oh, is that yeah, everyone knows about that do they?

Yeah, see, I'm not really in comedy circles, but it's still come up a lot on social media

Okay. Yeah. Set a timer so I don't talk about this for too long. But the issue is that what I like about comedy is that to some extent it is a meritocracy. If you get up there, you're funny enough, then that's what matters. And I think it's very hard to be, well there aren't any successful comedians who aren't funny. There might be successful comedians that you don't find funny or that do stuff that's a bit hack and obvious. But you can't form a following in comedy if you're not making people laugh. So I like that meritocracy. But there is a class problem in comedy where it is dominating, these people are my friends and colleagues, so I don't resent people for leveraging whatever privilege they have. But there's a lot of people doing well in stand up comedy who are from money. And I'm not talking middle class people, I'm talking people who are privately educated and come from families where there's a lot of money. And that's because that's for various reasons, partly because it takes a lot of work to do comedy. So if you can afford to quit your job and not make any money for three years and just go out and do gigs and write and that sort of thing before you start making money from it, then that helps you a lot. And also the importance of the Edinburgh Fringe, that it's a big industry showcase. It's not as important as it used to be, but it can break you as a comedian in both senses of the word

I think what people don't realise, the comedians at the fringe in the paid venues, a lot of them are paying £10,000 to be there, and they make some of that back, but a lot of them are losing thousands and thousands of pounds to be up there. And one of the ways to get around that was the free fringe, where instead of paying thousands and thousands to hire a paid venue, to hire a tech, to hire all the publicity you need to do to get people to pay for tickets. You can get a free room in a pub, but it's free entry, so you get an audience in because it's free entry and your overheads are a lot lower. And that means that, you know I've never come away loaded but I've always made a little bit of money from doing the free fringe because people will go “we've got a couple of hours spare. Let's take a punt on this.”

One of the ways in which audiences would go, “we've got a couple of hours spare. Let's see what's nearby. Oh, here's someone called Joe Wells. They look like they're alright. Let's see what this is like. Let's check this out” was there was an app that had a nearby me function, and people would use the app and they would go, “what's on nearby?” and that would help them to find shows near them, particularly free shows. And it has recently been announced that there's not going to be an app this year, even though when we all paid to be in the brochure, our understanding was that there would be an app. Even in some of the documents, it referred to an app. But that decision to not have an app was made in December before we paid any of the money

It’s… I think I will be fine because I have a bit of a base of people who come to see me in Edinburgh. But for a lot of comics, particularly comics bringing up their first shows on the free fringe that sort of thing, for comics that don't have a big following, getting rid of the app could really damage their audience numbers. And it's unfair, just seems really unfair that the app was a way that sort of people would find out about shows that didn't have big posters up everywhere, didn't have big adverts, and how to pay for the PR so that they can get in the Guardian's top ten shows of the fringe or whatever. It was a way to make comedy a bit fairer, and that's been taken away. So people are very angry about it. I think it's done now. I don't think that anything can be done about it, but I think it's unfair and I think it's part of a wider problem of class in the arts, where the arts is dominated by people… Let's be honest, I'm not from the streets. My dad was a probation officer. I am middle class. But the arts is dominated by people who call themselves middle class, but really are upper class, really. They're not aristocracy, but they were privately educated. And as I said, those people from those privileged backgrounds are my friends and I do not begrudge them doing well. You cannot be a successful comedian without being talented. But it does seem unfair. That is the end of my rant

I guess, yeah, creating more inequality and also after there being minimum of like a year without people being able to do gigs as well, coming off the back of that, it's even worse

Yeah, it seems very unfair and the people who benefit from this will be the PR people, the people that are selling advertising space. And also rent has massively gone up in Edinburgh. I've got very lucky and that our rent rolled on from 2020, but it used to cost well, we're paying £1200 for a room in a shared flat, me and my wife. But I think other people I know, it's sort of costing 2 or £3000 for rooms and shared flats, which is a lot of money. And that makes it more difficult for people to go to the fringe unless they've got money. But, yeah, it's frustrating sometimes. But having said all that, I'm doing all right. And I think that there are lots of ways that particularly the internet now, where people can be seen and can create stuff with nothing. So in other ways, we're living in a much more exciting time where people who maybe wouldn't have the means to fund things. Actually, it's quite easy to make sketches and things on your phone and do your own thing and make comedy and be creative. So whilst there is all that doom and gloom about unfairness in the arts, there is also the hopeful side that anyone who has an iPhone can create their own comedy. And that's quite an exciting time because we're hearing from people who maybe didn't get heard from in the past

So, as this is your platform right now, where can people get tickets for your Fringe show?

Well, it's free fringe, so you just got to show up early enough. So if you show up to at the Banshee Labyrinth at midday, as long as it's not too big a queue, then you can come see the show. I hold a bucket on the way out and yeah, the free fringe, if people are up in Edinburgh, I'd really urge people to support the free fringe. It's a really great way to see lots of stuff and there's some really good quality shows on the free fringe. In the past has been shows that have won the main comedy award, been nominated for the awards as well, and there's a really good stuff and it's free to get in. And I think the good thing about it is you can go in for free and if you decide that's something I would have paid for, you can put some money on the way out. But if you go to a show, take a risk, and it wasn't very good, then you don't have to pay for it. So it's a brilliant system

Win win for everyone. So we're going to go into your second song that you've chosen now, and this is Lovely Bones by Savan DePaul

Yeah, Savan DePaul does the music for our podcast and I love their stuff. It's really interesting, exciting. Yeah, this song is great to dance along to

So that was Lovely Bones by Savan DePaul, who does the music for your podcast, Neurodivergent Moments. How would you explain the podcast to people?

So, Neurodivergent Moments is about the moments in our lives where neurodivergent people realise that our brains are different to neurotypical peoples. So we have an interview with neurodivergent guests. We've had some really exciting people like Rufus Hounds come and talk about ADHD. We had Sarah Gibbs, the autistic writer, and lots of other exciting people. And then we also have audience, our listeners send us in moments where they've realised their brains are different. So it's very much a podcast for, we pitch it for neurodivergent people, but anyone can listen to it. So it’s nice, feels like it's for us in our community

It kind of feels like a cross between, like, I'm having a coffee with you two or I'm having a drink with you two, and you're kind of invited in and with your guests, everyone seems very candid as well

Yeah, that's what's good about podcasts isn't it? Is that you often end up saying stuff that you regret, so yeah. So people have been very honest. We've had quite a few, Rufus Hounds one, I don't know if you've heard that, but he was recently diagnosed and recently been talked openly about this, about going through therapy and properly poured his heart. So, yeah people are very… I think as we talk to comics and comics tend to not have any shame. It's been nice sort of I think I'm very interested in the neurodivergent experience being something which we see in almost like, sort of the diagnostic criteria often don't quite work, but there's almost like there's this sort of essence of being neurodivergent which we can hear in the sort of stories and experiences. I feel like that's where if you're asking “what is it to be autistic?”, I think often diagnostic criterias, whilst obviously they are technical definitions, I think it's in those experiences we've talked about going to school, about relationships, those things, those experiences are sort of where the essence of sort of, it’s very pretentious, but people talk about neurodivergent culture and I think that's what we're exploring. But it's funny as well

Yeah, it is really funny as well as being really informative. And I urge people to go and listen to the podcast. And one of the episodes I listened to the other day was the Rufus Hound one. And it is kind of a special episode because he was so recently diagnosed that, obviously he spent a long time kind of getting to that point, but yeah it kind of felt like he's armed himself with a lot of resources, but he's still kind of in the process of finding a lot of things out

Yeah, it was a real sort of like we've caught you at a moment of self discovery. I think Rufus’ work is just… how many people have such an eclectic CV? He's really good at about 20 different things. I think that's a very ADHD quality. I think a bit later we'll talk about Loyle Carner, but Loyle Carner is an amazing musician, also is an activist around mental health, also runs cookery courses for young people. So I think often that's quite a common thing with ADHD people, that there are these sort of amazing, eclectic CV’s. Angela Barnes we've had on as well, actually, all the ADHD people we've had on the show, you sort of look at their CV’s and you go, wow, you've done sort of at least ten different things very well

Yeah, I won’t spoil it, I'd urge people to go and listen to the Rufus Hound episode, and towards the end he will tell people what he's currently up to this summer. And I think that kind of describes how amazing he is at so many different things

Yeah, he's a real sort of very special person.

So we'll go into the Loyle Carner track now. Would you like to introduce it?

Yeah, this is NO CD by Loyle Carner. It's one of those songs that when I first heard it, it just really made me sort of, picked me up. Sort of “what is this? I haven't heard anything like this before”. It's got that amazing bass. I love the way you can hear the fingers sliding down the guitar. And it's funny, yeah, and it's great

So that was NO CD by Loyle Carner with Rebel Clef. So Loyle Carner is actually within your book, which is Wired Differently: 30 Neurodivergent People Who You Should Know. Would you like to explain a bit about the book?

Yeah, well, it was a lockdown project, I pitched it to the publishers who published my book about having OCD. It's a young adult book about 30 different neurodivergent people. So that's people who have unusual brains, a lot of them have diagnosis of things like dyslexia, dyspraxia, autism, ADHD, those are the diagnosis. Yeah, I suppose similar to what we're saying earlier about sort of uneasy about the idea of being sort of a spokesperson. I'm an expert in my own life and my own experiences, but I'm not an autism expert. And that was the thing where I thought, this is something I can get really excited about and I can read about people who have done really cool things and I can share my excitement about them with readers. So, yeah, it was really fun to write and really fun to research. I just got to read fascinating books and watch stand up comedians I like and listen to music I like and then write about it. So it was a really fun project to do

So where can people get the book?

Well, all bookshops. I am trying to, if people are Portsmouth based, direct people to Pigeon Books, because I think they're a really nice independent bookshop. You can buy it on their website even if you're not in Portsmouth, actually. It’s available in all bookshops, but if you can support an independent bookshop, that's always a good thing

Cool, yeah, Pigeon Books down Albert Road

Yes. It's on the corner by the Fat Fox pub.

And obviously, with the podcast and the book, is it important to you to platform neurodivergent people?

Well, yes, it would be weird if I said no to that wouldn’t it! I think that is where… sometimes when I read stuff written by non-autistic people, I go, well, that's not me. And then sometimes I go, well, maybe the person who diagnosed me got it wrong, maybe I'm not. But then I will read El McNichols books, watching autistic YouTubers, talking to autistic people, watching autistic comedians. And that is where I go, oh that's it, that’s what I am, I am part of that. So, yeah, you know, I think that we should be able to be the people who speak for us. So I always try to sort of keep it in the club with things like our music on the podcast with Savan DePaul, the artist who did my Edinburgh poster is an autistic person, so I try as much as possible to keep it within us.

Okay, so also in the book is Polly Samuel, also known as Donna Williams, who we're going to be playing next. I wondered if you wanted to introduce that track and their work?

Yeah. So Polly Samuel is, I think, a really important writer. If you want to find her work, you have to search for Donna Williams, because most of it was published under the name Donna Williams, but she changed her name later in her life. Yeah, I think what she wrote about, she's one of the few autistic writers writing stuff more than 20/30 years ago, and the stuff hasn't aged at all. Whereas some other writing about autism has aged quite poorly. And I think that there's two things I think to do which were really important. One, I think that she really galvanised the sort of autism rights movement, with a lot of other people as well, but she sort of pushed the idea that we should be speaking for ourselves and we should be advocating for ourselves, and that is very important. I also think the way she talked about, sort of, a lot of it is summed up in this song, Simply Being. A lot of positive stuff about autistic people is sort of saying, well, these traits can be superpowers. You can do this, and if you think differently, then you could design this, or whatever. But I think Donna Williams was sort of saying, Polly Samuel was saying, just the way you are is good on its own, and existing as an autistic person has value in itself. And she wrote a lot about sensory experiences and the deeper connection that having sensory differences can give you with the world. She used have dinner parties where autistic people would all come round and they just look at shiny objects together and enjoy that sensory experience. So I think she's a really important writer. I think she's someone who, I can reread something that she's written and then think about it again. I think that in the future she will be seen as a really important writer, but she's maybe a bit too radical for her time. Yes. This song is called Simply Be, and I think, she wrote songs as well as books, and for this song, I think, in many ways sums up her ethos. What is it she says, “if this is crazy, don't give me sane”. And I think that's her whole ethos really

Cool. So that was Simply Be by Polly Samuel, AKA Donna Williams. So recently you've been compering the comedy club at The Wedge. How is that?

Yeah, it's good fun. It's a Friday night, there are three different comedians on. I like club comedy, even though I'm doing lots of my own shows. It's always nice to do a comedy club work with other comedians. I really urge people to support proper comedy clubs where there's a real talent on the circuit that isn't always on TV. But, yeah, it's always fun there

Is there like sort of a burgeoning sort of Portsmouth comedy scene or is it more like Hampshire?

Yeah, there is. People like Sunjai Arif is very good. Duncan Adam is very good. Ola Labib is really good. She's doing amazing things, she’s been on The News Quiz recently doing TV stuff. Yeah, there's a really nice scene starting up in Portsmouth and some very new people as well who are doing sort of interesting things. We also run a night at The Beacon once a month, second Thursday of every month, and we have some sort of newer act from the local area. Then we have a professional comedian headlining. And, yeah, there's some real talent locally

Also, it will be the weekend that people are listening to this. So if people are listening to this live, they won't be at Latitude, but you will be doing a is it a podcast recording or just a performance?

Yeah, well, I'm also doing a set of Latitude, but, yeah, me and Abigoliah are doing a live recording of the podcast, which is exciting. We haven't done anything live before. We did a first sort of in studio thing yesterday, we were on Radio 4 Extra talking about the podcast, so we went to BBC Studios to do that. Yeah. So doing a live recording of Latitude which, I guess, if people listen to us, they haven't made it to Latitude Festival, but will be recorded and put out as a podcast as well, so you can listen to that

Cool. So I've kind of got a list of few of the gigs that are coming up after this will go out. So coming up, you've got Ventnor Fringe on the Isle of Wight

Yeah. I love Ventnor Fringe

And then on the 29 July, you've got two gigs, the River Studios in Southampton and Winchester

You know more than me

Well, I looked on the website, you did the work for me

Where's the Winchester one? I need to find the details on that. I just put Winchester in my diary and then Google it when it's nearer the time

So if you're local to those shows, go to them. 5th October at the Fat Fox, according to the website. If you're into planning in the future, a bit like I am, I'm more likely to book something in October than I am August now. So Edinburgh Fringe coming up, 6th to the 28th August, The Banshee Labyrinth at Midday, it’s free, make sure you get out there early and queue. Check out Joe's podcast, Neurodivergent Moments with Abigoliah, really great podcast, I feel like I've already learned a lot from two or three episodes

Thank you

Wired Differently: 30 Neurodivergent People Who You Should Know. If you're local, go to Pigeon Books. If you're not local, order from Pigeon Books online or your local bookshop. And, yeah, we've got one more song, if you'd like to introduce that

Yeah. Well I had to put some Kanye on, because I love Kanye. This is from his Kids See Ghosts project. The first verse in this, I just think it’s so… and Kanye's interesting, isn't he? Because he can sometimes write lyrics which are just crass and offensive and awful. But then occasionally I come out with something beautiful, like the first verse of this, and there's a line…

Like a comedian?

Well, yes, I suppose you're right. I think people underestimate how funny he is as well. Anyway, I could talk about Kanye for a long time, but there's a line in the first verse of this where he talks about his bipolar and he says, “what an awesome thing engulfed in shame”, and I think that's like such an incredible description of neurodivergence, of having experience in a world view that is awesome and incredible, but they're still socially been made to feel shame for that. The whole first verse of this is just absolutely beautiful writing

Enjoy

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chaotictempleknight · 6 years ago

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Saryn’s 2018 updates...

... in a nutshell:

Me: You know, Saryn really did not need that big of an update to begin with...

Random Warframe player: Go play another warframe.

Me: Okay then... Well I am not too sure about switching spores to corrosive damage. Corrosive is only really effective against...

Random Warframe player: Go play another warframe.

Me: Um, could you let me talk? Anyways: I do not think making Molt immune to spores was the best idea. It just removes some of the utility that saryn had and...

Random Warframe player: Go play another warframe.

Me: STOP...doing that and let me talk. Removing spread on enemy death from spore was a bad idea. It just makes things more tedious and...

Random Warframe player: Go play another warframe.

Me: You are not interrupting me! As I was saying: Removing death spread just makes it so you have to cast Spore more often. This just makes Saryn more energy hungry and goes against the idea of Saryn not needing energy generation in regards to having toxic lash not grant energy for popping spores anymore. Yes, Spores still spread, but they have one less method of spreading and death spread was the easiset and most convenient method. And do not even get me...

Random Warframe player: Go...play...another...warframe...

Me: ...started on low level content. Gee, if you go in with a powerful Warframe, low level enemies will die pretty quickly. That does not warrant a rework. Now Saryn is only viable in end game content. Why would I use a warframe who is only good in something like sanctuary onslaught or sorties? I want a warframe that is good and fun everywhere. And someone will say “Use your weapons, that is what they are there for...” I DO, but sometimes I like casting abilities or need to cast abilities to clear out a room. The new Saryn changes make that more tedious as death spread is gone and...

Random Warframe player: GO PLAY ANOTHER WARFRAME!!!

Me:

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YOU F***ING STARTED THIS BY TRYING TO SHUT ME UP IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Random Warframe player: (silence)

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Now before you go flipping your lid on me in the comments, asks, or reblogs: The words of the day are Hyperbole and Satire. I mean seriously, I would not have used the best clip on the web if I was being 100% serious. And I have yet to see anyone pull that kind of stunt.

But this post does underline my frustrations with the 2018 Saryn updates. I feel she has been made overly complicated and energy hungry. Yes, I am a console player and the update is not out as of me typing this, but I have been keeping an eye on things and watching videos. And the general sentiment I have seen from people (or at the very least: interpreted) who are in full support of this update is "Go play another warframe.” And yes, that could be a bit of a generalization, but still.

It is frustrating. Now I don't want to play Saryn. I had a similar situation with Ember. She got a power boost with World on Fire, but her range gets cut in half and her energy consumption ramps up. Yes, she has other abilities, but that change was a kick to the balls. World on Fire was barely good to begin with. The only thing that saved it was Firequake. It is kind of pointless when your range gets cut in half.

And before there is that one smart ass in the notes who calls me a "scrublord" or "Noob" or something to those effects: I did not use Ember all the time (you legitimately could not use Ember all the time). I do get bored using a particular loadout after a short while. I was on a Nova kick, a Nidus kick, a Chroma kick, a Mirage kick, a Mesa kick, an Excalibur kick, a Valkyr kick, a Limbo kick, a Titania kick, a Volt kick, and an Atlas Kick. Seriously, I am nut case when it comes to what Warframe mood I am in.

And yes, I will openly admit that Chroma is overly complex. I did not say he was not.

Sorry if all of that was unnecessary, but we all know there will be that one person.

I feel like there needs to be a balance between simple and complex in Warframes. Ash is too simple. And now Saryn has be come an example of a warframe who is too complex. You could argue she was a bit too complex back in Saryn 2.0 and that was the primary complaint I saw. And yes, she was indeed a little too complex.

Saryn 2.0: So you need to cast spore to have them spread to other enemies. The spores will cut the enemies health in half with viral procs. Use molt to create a base for your spores. Now cast toxic lash and use your melee weapon to pop the spores. Then cast miasma to AOE the area. But do not randomly cast Miasma. If you do it without spores, it will be very weak. Miasma will do more damage to enemies that are proc'd and will do corrosive damage which is effective against armor. Make sure you give your spores enough power strength to deal decent damage and so your miasma does damage too. Do not forget power range so you have good range. You will also need duration so your spores last and you can have more time on toxic lash and molt. The health of molt is also affected by power strength. And do not forget efficiency as you need to activate 3-4 abilities to make this startegy work.

Saryn 3.0/3.5: You need to cast spores to have them spread to enemies. The spores will do corrosive damage which is effective against armor. The spores have a 50% status chane to proc corrosive on the enemies, Damage ramps up based on how many are affected. The damage ramp up caps at 10 enemies infected. Spores will not spread on enemy death by the spore so you need to keep casting. Toxic lash will not grant you enenrgy like it did before, but it will allow you to pop spores so they can spread and grants a toxin buff to your weapons. Now if you re-cast spor on an infected enemy, it will detonate the spore and do twice the damage. The damage you accumilated will decay quickly if nothing is infected. Keep an eye on your energy. You can metigate this decay with duration mods. Molt can no longer be used as a base for spores, but it will be temporarily invincible and will grant you a speed boost. Miasma now does Viral damage is has 100% to proc viral and it will refresh the proc. Idealy you want to run effeciency because of how much casting you will do, but remember you need duration to slow down the damage decay of the spores and you need power strength to get goo damage. And you still need range to spread spores. This will be hard to juggle with corrupted mods, but anything is possible.

See how long those paragraphs are and how much I had to explain? I can describe Valkyr in less.

Valkyr: Ripline is ability that allows you to bring enemies to you or grapple to a location if you hit the terrain. Warcry speeds you up and slows down your enemies that were caught in the cast. Paralysis is a stun ability. And Hysteria is a berserker state where you become invicible, gain a claws based weapon, and can recover health. But you need to be careful as Valkyr will be vulnerable after deactivating it. Your best bet for Valkyr is power strength.

How about Harrow?

Harrow: Condemn allows you to stun enemies and gain overshields. The base range is good enough not to need range mods. Sacrifice sacrifices your current shields to give you a speed buff and team healing based on the damage you do to enemies. Thurible drains your enenrgy to allow you to generate energy for your squad based on your kills and how much energy you sacrifiiced. Headshots will grant more energy than bodyshots. Covenant allows you to absorb damage for a brief time and convert into crit chance for your weapons. While absorbing damage, you and you squad will be invicible. A simple build giving a basic boost to all stats and giving you a lot of shields and good health is ideal for Harrow.

Almost as long as Saryn 2.0, but I did not have to explain as much. Harrow is pretty straight forward.

As you can see, Saryn is a bit of a complicated mess at the moment. And the updates made things worse. Saryn is a good idea in concept, but the execution is questionable.

And the thing is: I will probably use Sayrn for Toxic lash and molt and miasma if I can get a good strength build. It is just that this whole situation leaves a sour taste in my mouth. Saryn is not ruined, she is just a bit of a mess right now.

And the true kick to the balls is this: Even though I mocked the sentiment of "go play another Warframe," it is actually a viable solution and I hate that fact.

And if for some reason this post upsets you, remember this: I am just a random nobody venting his frustrations. I have no influence over DE and they would probably not listen to me either way.

I am just frustrated. Not angry, just frustrated.

#ChaoticTempleKnight #Warframe #warframe saryn #venting frustration #rant #saryn is not ruined she is just a bit messy right now

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Lauryn Hill & Rohan Marley Respond To Selah’s Childhood Trauma Video + Selah Clarifies Her Comments, Ask Fans Not To Bash Her Parents

Selah Marley opened up for the first time about childhood trauma she suffered during a two-hour long IG Live session, revealing how her mother, Lauryn Hill, beat her and her siblings like “slaves” and how her father, Rohan Marley, being absent has negatively affected her relationships with men now. Get into the family healing process inside…

Selah Marley – daughter of famed singer Lauryn Hill and entrepreneur Rohan Marley – is on a journey of self-healing as she relives her childhood in an effort to understand her life choices and to become more self-aware.

The 21-year-old often goes on her Instagram Live to share her thoughts and opinions on whatever topic is on her mind. During a recent session, she brought up a topic about generational trauma and began to open up about her own experiences and how she’s still processing childhood trauma.

In a two-hour long Instagram Live video, Selah shared what it was like growing up with her “very angry” Grammy Award winning mom, who she said disciplined her and her siblings with belts and switches. She compared the experience to “slave owner sh*t” and said “all Black parents were on that slave owner sh*t.”

Selah said she’s still traumatized by the sound of a belt hitting.

"You go walk to your doom — it’s like walking to your death. And my mother is an amazing woman, but, um, she obviously didn’t do everything right," she shared during the Live.

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happy father’s day, dad :D too bad you can’t see this bc you’re blocked, but i love you still lmao but on a more serious note, let’s definitely take this time to appreciate our fathers & even more so, black men. this world has not always been nice to you and i see that. & so, i love you, Dad, for your resilience, your optimism, your wisdom, and your care. i don’t know what i’d do without you & so, i want to ensure that i never take that for granted. so i include all my fathers in these pictures because it takes a village to raise a child & you’ve all definitely raised me well. so here’s your day! i love you, Dad(s).

A post shared by @ selah on Jun 21, 2020 at 12:02pm PDT

The granddaughter of Bob Marley also got vulnerable when she talked about how her father, Rohan Marley, was largely absent from her life.

Selah said she saw and mother and father fight a lot, so she “didn’t really see much peace.” When her dad left when she was 10, she said she feels like a part of her stopped growing and maturing. She said she struggles in relationships with men because she's angry at them (projecting the feelings she has for her father), but also feels she needs them.

"I came to the conclusion of how much of my life I’ve f*cked up and how much of me is f*cked up simply because my dad just wasn’t around," she said. "And there’s just a void where there should be a person. And it’s honestly really hard."

Selah said her mother was going through her own trauma when she was a kid, dealing with the music industry, trying to save a relationship with a man whom she had five kids with who seemingly no longer wanted her, on top of being a mother.

“She’s Lauryn Hill,” she said. “She’s getting attacked by the media. She was also going through her own sh*t. She had five kids with a man that — they didn’t really get to know each other. So they were always arguing, always fighting.”

She recalled being awake in her room, crying, while her parents fought and argued.

“I don’t think she realizes how much that sh*t affected me,” she said.

Peep a clip from her Live below:

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Selah's venting session caused an uproar of comments and DMs for Selah - many people sharing they too have experienced the same childhood trauma. Taking up for Selah, people started dragging her mother for her mistakes.

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A post shared by Ms. Lauryn Hill (@mslaurynhill) on Aug 13, 2020 at 1:57pm PDT

L-Boogie caught wind of the controversy and addressed it in a lengthy post she shared on Facebook and Instagram. The"Lost Ones" singer seemingly blamed systemic racism as the reason why she disciplined her children the way she did. She said an "entire opertation" was trying to take her down and that energy was shared in her home life.

"To me, I am just me. If I am guilty of anything it is disciplining in anger, not in disciplining," Lauryn wrote. "The toxic venom I ingested for standing on principle, and confronting systemic racism far BEFORE it was the thing to say or do (everything you NOW celebrate everyone for!)—the people who called me CRAZY and have yet to apologize and say ‘oh yeah, we were wrong’, OF COURSE that seeped into my home, it was intended to. An entire operation trying to break an artist with a voice and knowledge of herself—way ahead of her time—was in motion. I was affected, my family was affected, my children were affected."

Lauryn said once she realized how she and her family were being destroyed she walked away. She said she did so in order to protect her children.

"When I realized that the pressure on me was so incredibly hypocritical and unfair, criminal even, that even my children weren’t allowed to be children, I stepped away. I wasn’t removed, I STEPPED AWAY. Weening myself and my family from the addictions that systems of control attempt to use through fame and celebrity is no joke. It’s painful and people were not above using my children to keep exploiting me. Keeping a child sober minded in the midst of everyone trying to seduce and bribe and coerce is an incredibly challenging thing to do. Sell a few million copies of a recording and see the wolves and sharks for yourself before you determine what’s appropriate and what’s not. The danger was REAL! And this danger I faced alone, unsupported as I should have been, and dumped on by the same people who only a few years before built a fortune off the same gifts they later tried to deny and then COPY. My life has been about protecting my children from all kinds of danger, and that’s only possible when you protect yourself from the danger as well."

The "Ex-Factor" singer acknowledge Selah's feelings and said she has a right to feel the way she feels. Now, she's focused on healing with her daughter and her family.

"Selah is on a road to healing and contextualizing her childhood, and is allowed her process, but if you come for me, come for your own mama, and those absent fathers—come for them too, your grandparents, your great grand parents, your great great grand parents, your great great great grand parents, Caribbean parents, African parents and everyone else damaged and judged for being black and forced to conform and assimilate to western standards of ‘order’ shaped through the filter and lens of anti-blackness."

"Selah and I speak often and she knows we are both working through our stuff—the exploitation, the abandonment, the mistreatment and the muzzling of our own gifts and intelligence to make it more comfortable for others, which is a big mistake to do, it can ONLY lead to implosion or explosion. We’re both learning and healing, and each of my children has a similar story and journey. All of you in a rush to crucify someone, careful who you string up or nail up."

While it may have been harsh, Lauryn justified the way she disciplined her children as a way to them from being shot down in the streets.

"My children are strong-willed and powerful, better I discipline them at home than have them shot down in the streets or locked up. They are not necessarily passive people, and they’re also learning how to navigate a world full of beauty but also full of danger. This was in no way easy to do as a single parent battling a public attack for not conforming, and single-handedly financially responsible for so many. My children’s families on both Hill and Marley sides have been hunted and persecuted for speaking out against and challenging the social, political, economic and spiritual dynamics that require a terroristic fear be put in Black people in order to control them."

Read her full response below:

Uhhhh black people, what??? Selah has every right to express herself, I encourage it, but she also got the discipline...

Posted by Ms. Lauryn Hill on Thursday, August 13, 2020

Thoughts on Lauryn's response?

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My Beautiful Family .. #LIONORDER nice one @edenmarley ‘ Love Unconditional ‘

A post shared by Rohan Marley (@romarley) on Aug 11, 2020 at 7:45am PDT

After Selah's IG Live went viral, Rohan shared a throwback family photo of himself with his children with the caption, "My Beautiful Family." He also responded to what she said about him in the video.

"Selah's expression on Instagram is a healing process for her. I'm very happy that she is fearless in her expression," Rohan said in a statement through his publicist. "I love her very much and do apologize for any contributions I may have added by arguing in front of her as a child. I've grown as a man, a spiritual being and a father. I am constantly growing and will teach my children to always take the higher road in any disagreements. I will be there for her no matter how many hours, days, months or years it will take. I will be the best Dad that I can be. One Love."

Let's hope he keeps his word.

Following the buzzy headlines and extra social media traffic, Selah hopped back online to clarify her comments.

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A post shared by @selah on Aug 11, 2020 at 2:44pm PDT

"I spoke on that subject for two hours.... It's complex," she said in the "clarity" video. "It's a very complex topic, and really what I was discussing was how a lack of unity in the household can create severe trauma that you're not even aware of," Marley addressed in the IG Story video that was preceded by a written note. "And now, I had to go back and see where these different things impacted my life and how they impacted my life. At the end of the day, I never said my father was a f*cking deadbeat completely. I just said that he wasn't as present as I needed him to be.... Don't go bashing my f*cking father and my family."

"I never said that I did not love them. I said their shortcomings created trauma that I now need to consciously and actively heal from.”

She said she hopes by starting this larger conversation, it will inspire others' transparency, vulnerability and openness in discussing their own family traumas.

Peep her Live and her IG Story posts (where she also addressed the trolls) above and below:

Selah continued the conversation in another IG Live video, thanking everyone for their support on her journey:

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so many of you guys reached out to me in DM that you’ve had similar experiences.. it’d take 5 weeks to respond to everyone, so i wanted to get on live to share my thoughts with you about my healing process. hopefully, some of you may find this useful. if not, that’s fine too! we all have unique experiences, personalities, and needs; so what works for me may not work for everyone. & that’s fine! but i did want to share what i could & open the floor for a more general discussion on how to heal core wounds. at the end of the day, i’m not an expert—just a young adult figuring it out for herself that figured i could share a couple things. i really wish @instagram allowed you to see the comments when it posts these lives because you guys say some of the most profound things i’ve ever seen. i’m eternally grateful for your contribution to these conversations because you guys add a layer of depth, understanding, and resonance that’s genuinely needed & appreciated. i want to specifically say thank you to everyone who rocks with me & contributes to the true healing, growth, and love created in these conversations. oh & btw, if you don’t agree with me, please feel free to excuse yourself & keep it pushing—especially when/if you come to my “live.” i’m still having trouble understanding why some people stick around for the sole purpose of perpetuating negativity. P.S. that apple sauce was great

A post shared by @ selah on Aug 13, 2020 at 10:11pm PDT

Looks like she's headed down the right path to healing with supportive parents behind her. We Selah and her family the best.

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