#reading that book is like going to therapy istg XD

[studentbyday]

{ 09.11.24 } · { 50 days of routine } · { day 11 }

I woke up unintentionally early, feeling very anxious about the amount of work I have to do. So since I was wide awake and I don't want to associate my bed with restlessness and worry, I just did some work until the adrenaline wore off. (And then took an extended study break...immediately after that, I felt guilty because I could have probably finished the whole module section in that time and I am really strapped for time... 🥺😣 And it's not like I could've studied more after that because I had made plans with family and I didn't want to let them down again and I can still make it...just not as soon as I had hoped. I don't know what I should've done. I still achieved my minimum goals today tho. But I feel I should've done more... Oh, I don't know.)

After that, so many things happened emotionally. Still processing. How do I slow down enough to assess the whole situation, to stop feeling so pressured and rushed by no one but myself I implode? How do I stop overthinking (and then getting overwhelmed by) everything until I despair? Can I truly believe I'm not so far behind that all hope is lost? How do I move forward from here to make up for lost time? Where on earth do I start?

I must remind myself that the game isn't over as long as there are still pieces left on the board:

“The game is never over until it is over. It isn’t over if there is a single pawn still on the board. If one side is down to a pawn and a king, and the other side has every player, there is still a game. And even if you were a pawn – maybe we all are – then you should remember that a pawn is the most magical piece of all. It might look small and ordinary but it isn’t. Because a pawn is never just a pawn. A pawn is a queen-in-waiting. All you need to do is find a way to keep moving forward. One square after another. And you can get to the other side and unlock all kinds of power.” –Mrs. Elm, The Midnight Library

Affirmation: I am nothing if not potential.