#readin ntn

[xoshepard]

he’s saying he didn’t want gideon to remember or for any of them to remember because they wouldn’t forgive themselves but it’s literally because he doesn’t want anyone to question him for 1) killing the entire population of the earth and then 2) making himself a fucking god

this guy really killed 10 billion people and only resurrected a few million and made them all worship him and forget what he did

he refuses to face consequences or even being questioned by people that used to be his partners- making them his “saints” and shit, like he talks about the “cult” thing as though his hand was forced and as though it was a front he put up to get publicity but literally all he wanted in the end was to be a fuckin cult leader and he made a whole world based on that

he is literally a manchild that got unspeakable power and used that power to do the worst shit possible i hate this guy so fucking much

[angelsstranger]

finch reading update for no reason . i read the third bear by jeff vandermeer the other day .. theeber... seether.. but ya it was a total hit for me.. i love the idea of depicting the medieval village which is so vulnerable and susceptible to the elements and even becoming prey to large predators. they mythologize their troubles.. but at the same time there is something genuinely untenable and completely unhuman that they can never reason with so they have no choice but to be worshipful of it. he has a rly nice approach at an old fairy tale like protag does something despicable and learns his lesson the very hard way

. i wanna read Borne now bc it kind of sounds like the bear is a main feature in this story.

im reading fhis book called cuckoo song rn abt this girl who might be a changeling and her haunted doll or somth. which i like a lot . i have been readin the Machine Mandate series by benjanun sriduankaew which izzy and may have recomended me and theyre amazing! The second book Now Will Machines Hollow The Beast and the Prologue short story both featuring anoushka as the protag were my favs so far. I loved the themes revolving around the leviathan and the way the author continue to take orientalist and transphobic conventions in sci-fi and turn them inside out and make this genre her own bend it to her will etc. theyre quick reads and tbh sexy asf and super clever and dark.

probably next ill read as yet unsent and the intro to ntn by Tamsyn Muir

[xoshepard]

ughhh i had seen that line about gideon before but it still hurt so bad in context bc it was a very show-then-tell moment like..... gideon NEVER acted like that and it hurt just seeing her act like that and then that line from nona just fucking killed me.....

[xoshepard]

the nice thing about if nona DID bodysnatch harrow is that she’s the first person to openly compliment harrow’s looks, everybody else is weird about it and puts a bunch of qualifiers >:(

[xoshepard]

me as the spirit of the earth compressed into a synthesized human body and having switched into another organic human body and forgotten where i came from: MAN i love women and eating garbage

[xoshepard]

“Why are you not appeased? That is how meat loves meat.”

and

“Get in line, thou big slut.”

killing me

[xoshepard]

OPEN THE DICTIONARY TO THE WORD HYPOCRITE AND JOHN GAIUS’S STUPID SMUG FACE IS THERE I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL HE GETS WHAT IS COMING TO HIM BC HES BEEN OUT HERE SACRIFICING PEOPLE- THE PEOPLE CLOSEST TO HIM HE SACRIFICED TWICE!!!!- AND HE NEEDS TO BE TAKEN OUT FOR GOOD

[xoshepard]

1) if my theory about alecto being nona is right then it puts gideon asking “do you love her” into some perspective that makes me want to die!!! at least i’m thinking that gideon and i have the same theory (or maybe gideon actually does know) and i’m :((((

2) god palamedes and camilla becoming Actual Garnet is so bittersweet i can’t wait to see what kind of character they are

[xoshepard]

man i can’t wait to find out what’s nona’s deal is, she has the ability to incapacitate necromancers??? and she loves the resurrection beast??? 🤔🤔🤔

[xoshepard]

i hate how john maintains this “hey now im just some guy 🤷‍♂️” demeanor i really do

[xoshepard]

ohhh nona said “you’re in love with th-” so whoever corona is in love with has a title that starts with “the”

the captain????? that would be insane

[xoshepard]

the initials in john’s stories do match the lyctors’ and their cavaliers’ initials so i’ve been assuming that’s who this is about but also when mercy and augustine call john out about perfect lyctorhood their whole thing about the eyes sounds like sleuthing rather than an accusation based on their memories

however, he is naming two of the bodies names that a lyctor/cavalier pair have so who knows. cant wait to see how this goes

[xoshepard]

god i’m thinking about how ianthe keeps alluding to johns having apparently spent this whole book wallowing in self pity and i want to strangle him so bad

[xoshepard]

okay finished… thoughts-

gideon didn’t deserve that. it was like crux won at the end. he always had some shit to say and she lost her cool, rightfully so, but god i wish he had just shut the fuck up and died

poor nona, but i’m excited about alecto. i hope she remembers and is able to… follow through? on her time as nona

finally realizing what alecto is has me so hype, rly wanna reread the whole series now but i doubt i’ll have time before i lend the books to my friend

cannot wait to see more of paul in the next book and rly glad that pal and camilla made it through this book in their way. i love seeing pal refuse to die time and time again, It’s What He Deserves

[xoshepard]

“that is how meat loves meat” is so fucking funny bc i’ve seen art w that line on it and thought it was gonna be some big dramatic moment but instead it is a meat-bound planet spirit like “this is the kinda shit y’all like to do right? did i do it wrong, or-” GDKDHDKDBDJ

[xoshepard]

john lost his fucking mind and killed everyone to save earth and then sacrificed earth to save himself from the resurrection beasts? it’s so crazy how this guy keeps making me hate him more and more despite me being fully at maximum hatred for him

like of course you think true forgiveness doesn’t exist bc you cannot ever be forgiven for your endless list of crimes you fucking idiot