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ă Boundaries. ă
READ BEFORE YOU INTERACT.
â Do NOT mention politics here
-> if you have a concern, then dm it to me. otherwise please do not talk about it at all otherwise it's an instant block. im not sacrificing my mental health again for anything.
â Do NOT repost my art, or feed to ai
⥠ALWAYS ASK me first before using my art!! + Art credit is MANDATORY
â ALWAYS read my art request rules before you send in a req AND always check my art request status before sending in a request as I WILL DELETE any that have been sent to me while it's closed
â please try to keep mentions of any and all religions to a minimum!! especially anything to do with christianity bc of my religious trauma
â Please be patient with me if I've done something wrong. I have issues picking up social cues and would prefer if i was directly communicated with.
â I'm not the best at wording things as English is not my first language. I apologize in advance if I worded something horribly and it gets misinterpreted
Breaking my boundaries is a very quick way to get blocked without warning. I am here to have silly interactions with people in a place where I feel comfortable.
#please read before interacting#i think it's about time to post this since I keep seeing people send political shit in my inbox#my PINNED. intro post literally states that any mention of politics isn't allowed on this specfic acc#its fine if its on my sideblog/alt just not here#boundaries#nemis boundaries#read before interacting#important#nemi rambles
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[Just a general reminder for those who roleplay: make sure you don't dictate other characters' actions and feelings in your asks and replies âșïž Nobody wants to have their autonomy taken away! If you really want to make your intent known, instead of writing "He hugs her" try "He makes a move to hug her", "He attempts to hug her", "You can see it in his eyes that he wants to hug her", and so on. That way the other character can change the narrative if they are uncomfortable đ«. But even in that case they are not obligated to reply and you should respect that.
And if you think that nobody is interested in your blog â I guarantee it's not the case! Chances are, not that many people know about your OC/MC/character you play so try to put yourself out there! Engage with people! Send asks, write replies, do reblogs, DM if you have any questions or if it puts your mind at ease before plunging into rp! I know it's hard if you're a shy or reserved person. But nobody else can solve this for you đ« ]
#[Just don't be weird or creepy ;)]#[Justifying violations by saying âThat's just what my character doesâ is not right â *you* are the one in charge of how you play]#[Roleplayers have their boundaries too]#[Even if it's something that might seem non-threatening at first glance cause media conditioned us to ignore it]#[Like kissing a character out of the blue]#[Sure things like that happen in real life]#[But this is not real life and you would make people feel unsafe roleplaying around you because everyone here could read what's been posted#[It is one thing to agree to things like that beforehand or your friends know you well and another â throw it at somebody]#[Both the character and roleplayer]#[If they have a post talking about dos and don'ts â really read it before interacting!]#[Also no worries; nothing happened and I didn't receive anything violating]#[Just a thing that's been on my mind for a long time and it's not just about written roleplay either]#[Game systems like DnD and Fate and even silly smaller games like Mouse Guard are part of this conversation too]#[It's just a little different when spoken but the principle is still the same: your freedom ends where freedom of the other person begins]
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honestly. it's so fucking frustrating and disheartening. that the only thing making me hesitant to cleanly cut contact with my mom, the thing that still looms after cutting away from my dad........ is that when they both finally bite it, that's two houses to sell. that's money that may mean *i* get to have my own house someday.
the key to the security my parents failed to give me from the moment i was born lies in their deaths. the least they can do. the very fucking *least* is to leave me the means to build that security on my own. they owe me so much more than that, but realistically? that small act of restitution is all i can and will ask for.
until then? i want nothing to do with them.
#the comments of the article i'm reading involves people discussing their reasons for not going no contact with both parents#one of which being that they're not ready to be an orphan yet#and fuck. i know it's more complicated than this but. i've *always* been an orphan#i've wanted to let my parents go for a very long time#it took longer to do my due dilligence in giving my mom eight million chances but. those chances have come and gone#i don't want to do the work to whittle down our interactions. i don't think our relationship is worth carving it down to 'we can talk for 20#minutes once a month about light topics only. i don't want to hear about your sisters or my dad again thanks'#i get nothing out of that#i feel like now that i've Made Up My Mind (finally. it took so fucking long đą) i'm obligated to give her one last chance#after outlining the New Rules#but she's an adult. as one commenter said '[s]he was always capable of respecting you.'#my mom is an adult. for all the work she's done on herself#she could've caught on that benting about her sisters every time we talk is not an appropriate topic of conversation#she could have noticed all the times i tried to interrupt her when she was here. not even to interrupt her to stop her from talking but#interrupting her so i could PARTICIPATE in the conversation#she is an ADULT and she is capable of looking at our interactions and seeing that they need improvement#there are certain boundaries that polite well adjusted people do not need to deliberately express to expect to have them respected#my mother is responsible for identifying those boundaries and that work. no i can't expect her to read my mind and intuit my boundaries#without me saying so. but i CAN expect her to ask my consent before discussing heavy topics. i CAN expect her to be self aware enough to#allow me to participate in conversations with her#i CAN expect her to manage her emotions to not be a volatile monster just waiting to trauma dump or explode#it is not my responsibility to teach her basic interpersonal decency#and i don't need to give her the eight million and one'th chance to prove she can be respectful this time#she was always capable of respecting me. she just chose not to#venting her feelings and being in her triggers is more important to her#and i sincerely hope she'll stay tangled in those feelings and not bring out the gaslighty 'i'll do anything to keep you in my life!!!!!!'#because. clearly. she will not.#she was always capable of respecting me. and emotional manipulation is not a part of that#personal#i just want to get my parents dying over with so i can afford a down payment on a fucking house
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âĄâĄI wanna make kawaii and gyaru gal friendsđ„șđ„șâĄâĄ
#babygirl things#daddy's good girl#follow#kitten#18+ age range#confession#daddyâs babygirl#dollete aesthetic#gyaru gal#i want friends#send me dms#dms open#read rules before interacting#please read rules#be respectful#setting boundaries#girlblog âĄ
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idk how irl celebrities handle fame at a young age like at seventeen i had a couple hundred people regularly interacting with me and putting me on a pedestal and that almost made me crazy. i see new writers getting attention in fandom and i immediately have to put myself in front of them and start barking. get behind me girl
#I FEEL LIKE THIS SHOULD BE TALKED ABOUT MORE LMAO LIKE EVEN THOUGH IT'S A VERY SMALL AMOUNT OF ATTENTION#COMPARED TO LIKE. ACTUAL CELEBRITY#IT'S STILL INSANE LIKE FOR THE PAST THREE YEARS IVE HAD RECURRING INSTANCES OF PEOPLE BEING WEIRD#AND PUSHING BOUNDARIES AND GENERALLY FORGETTING IM AN ACTUAL REAL LIFE PERSON#AND EVEN A LOT OF THOSE WHO AREN'T - ACCIDENTALLY OR INTENTIONALLY - NEGATIVE ABOUT IT#STILL VERY CASUALLY TALK ABOUT ME LIKE IM SOME SUPERIOR FORCE#LIKE IM JUST A GUY ACTUALLY#AND EVEN THOUGH IM ONLY TWENTY I CAN HANDLE IT A LOTTTTTTT BETTER#BUT SOMEONE NEEDS TO DO A STUDY ON THIS SHIT FOR YOUNGER PEOPLE#BC AT SEVENTEEN I REALLY REALLY CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW BAD THAT SHIT WAS FOR ME LMAO#and now i just go crazy overprotective of newer/more unsure writers/artists in fandom#if ur reading this and ive done this to you then my bad <3#like if we're in the same circle and you get a mean ask/comment/experience then it's truly a matter of time before i descend from the sky#sorry <3 it will happen again <3#someone ive interacted with maybe one time: i got a mean ask-#me immediately seeing red: do you want me to kill them for you#nothing triggered this post btw it's just something that's on my mind a lot#i feel like a war veteran and im literally a student. ive been in the trenches besties. i have suffered more than jesus i think
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ă ă â â ăă âŹă ăê â
â â đ ă à§àă â AIDEN : my rules !
ă ă â â ăă âŹă ăË âč
ă ă ⧜â i can and will say no to a request if i dont like it, or if i cant write it. i will typically always reply to requests though, so you at least know i saw it and what my thoughts are.
ă ă ⧜â dont pressure me into writing by being an asshole, otherwise i'll write it slower, or just cancel your request entirely. im usually pretty lenient though, just dont be disrespectful towards me or my works, please.
ă ă ⧜â below are a list of things i will write, then a list of things i wont write. if you request something in the "wont write" list, i'll decline the request and after a day or so once i think youve read my response, it will be deleted. depending on what youre asking for, i'll block you.
ă ă ⧜â absolutely do not interact with me in any way if youre transphobic, racist, homophobic, etc. this goes for people who enjoy "taboo" topics such as age play, incest/stepcest, pedophilia, etc. there are some taboo topics i enjoy/i'll write, but none will be illegal or fall under those categories.
ă ă ⧜â reposting/translating my works is okay! just give me credits please, do not claim my writing as your own.
what i'll write : male reader, fem reader, gn reader, trans readers, professor x college student (student will be at MINIMUM 20 years old), sibling's best friend x reader, ex s/o x reader, smut, fluff, angst, angst w no comfort/happy ending, mlm, wlw, mlw, poly, threesomes, age gap (reader will be 25 minimum), etc. for any kinks, you can just ask.
what i wont write : age play, incest/stepcest, pedophilia, smut with minors, minors being aged up for smut (unless theres a canon timeskip), dirty rimming, foot fetish, cnc, noncon, 18 yr old x anyone 25, intoxicated sex (unless tipsy and high functioning), basically anything weird.
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Read before you int!!
Blog intro <- go here to know more about us!!
We're 14! (A MINORRRR)
We are proship! Definition below!! âŹïž
What is proship? Well Proship means at its most basic ship and let ship, we ship what we want you ship what you want and we leave each other alone! While we are proship we do not believe in romanticizing toxic and unhealthy relationships. As long as you are not perpetuating the idea that these relationships are ok and handling them with the care and maturity these topics deserve we see no reason to be upset with what you are shipping!
We have bpd and tend to display obsessive and unhealthy behaviors when interacting with romantic partners/intrests, so please be aware that we am sensitive.
We are also suspected to have autism and adhd! So please use tone tags when speaking with us it helps a lot!! And if we don't get back to your message or ask right away it's because we're distracted ;-;
DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS BLOG IF...
You are a Pedo or Zoo
You are antiship
You are discriminatory to anyone for something can't control (ex. race, sexuality, gender)
You are 17+
You are against age regression as a form of coping
You are a NSFW/Kink blog
You are here to argue
you are easily triggered by mentions of
-violence
-self harm
-obsessive behaviors
-drugs
-abuse
-SA
ASKS!!
Please when sending regular asks use something to differentiate you from the others!!
taken anon tags:
#before you follow#before you interact#boundaries#blog boundaries#pinned dni.#pinned post#pinned info#please read pinned!#check pinned#new pinned
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open to:Â any
verse:Â modern
plot:Â I want a toxic relationship. I want someone that has the upper hand over my muse, because god knows thatâs a rarity in its own. I want possessiveness. And control issues. Intensity. Â
Dany let out a sigh, her happiness to tell her partner about her night vanished the moment they started talking. "Hey it was just a few drinks it's not a big deal..." She frowned a little, slowly pulling her arms away from them. This was meant to be a win for her-- for them. A promotion at work, a chance to do more things together and this wasn't the response she expected. "Babe I'm not even drunk."
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Things that have PERSONALLY helped me shift
Please keep in mind that while these have worked for me, it might not for others. Everyone's journey is different!
Subliminals (mainly improved self concept, mental health, and shifting. I personally found that boosters, playlist repeaters/activators and permanent result subliminals help since my list runs long. I listen to these regularly, not just when I go to shift. I have yet to experiment with making my own subliminals but I do have interest in trying it!)
Less time on social media (anything that could lock me into scrolling paralysisâ exception being Pinterest since I use it to help script, make my manifestation board, etc)
Doing some form of self care regularly (basically so I don't feel as shitty if I don't end up in my DR)
Making DR-related art (this has helped me picture myself in scenarios immensely)
Reconnecting to main source of my DRs (if there's any). Game, show, movie, music, anything that's related to it. Hell, even fics and fanart!
Not obsessing too much on blockages and limiting beliefs. I never understood why so much was considered limiting when I first came to shiftblr, and that's from someone that started from shifttok but rarely interacted with it. If you believe something will hinder you, then it will because you're allowing it to. That's something I've learned in therapy
#đźđ§żđź#ally rambles#read boundaries before interacting#shifting realities#shifting#shifting antis dni#shifting motivation#shifting community#reality shifting#shifting blog#desired reality#shiftblr#shifter
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I finally just blocked a longtime mutual/friend who has been posting some really gross transphobic stuff for awhile now (i'm p sure is a full on terf or at least agrees with/reblogs from them often enough that i don't feel safe anymore interacting) and i'm feeling immense guilt for blocking without talking to them about it since we've been mutuals for so long, but I did NOT feel remotely safe having a conversation with them about it and I can't put up with it anymore
it started as mostly innocuous posts, things that like.. sounded okay but then when you think about them for a bit you realize that it was actually some kinda transphobic talking points. and then also for months this person has been alluding to like escaping some kind of cult mentality and turns out they meant the existence of trans people :))
so. yeah. it took a bit but I finally bit the bullet and blocked, and couldn't post about it before bc obviously i didn't want this person to see me vagueing about them and now i'm just. ugh. it feels bad, but it was giving me so much anxiety. I get it like I have anxiety about being blocked without being talked to and this person literally made a ton of posts about how they felt so bad about this "thing" that they believed/thought and that they knew that people would hate them if they found out and it's like no shit dude maybe it's because it's... transphobia??? so. fuck it, my own safety and wellbeing is obviously more important and if they think my entire existence is a threat to them or that i'm just delusional or faking or whatever, then fuck all the way off i guess?
the hoops terfs jump through to convince themself that they're oppressed reminds me of the victimization of evangelical christians convincing themselves that they're persecuted actually. like you're not. you're just a bigoted asshole lol.
anyway i'm spending the next week at home being deadnamed and misgendered by my family so i'm not gonna come on tumblr to read posts about how gender dysphoria isn't real lol
#all this to say uhhh i'm kinda proud of myself for doing that#i've come far this year in setting my boundaries and i think this is a good example of that#obviously i hate the 'you don't owe anyone anything' mentality in a lot of ways#but in this case? i did not owe this person shit#also if you are reading this and have figured out who i am talking about (since we have some mutuals) please please do not share this post#with them i am trusting you all here bc i've had someone violate that before#this is not for that person to see#i do not want to interact with that person ever again#win rambles
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ÖŽ đ Ę princess LIUHKOâS RULES đ Ę Ë
please read this page carefully before requesting anything.
à«ź WILL smut, fluff, angst, hurt, comfort, platonic works such as sibling or child reader, all gender readers, dom!reader or sub!character (and vice versa), black readers, AUs, nsfw + sfw alphabets
à«ź WONâT incest, dub/non con, SA, scat/piss, age/pet play, mental illnesses/health conditions (if i donât have it, i wonât write it), teacher x student, somnophilia, anything sexual involving religions and/or religious figures (priests, nuns, etc.) or anything that disrespects religions.
iâm a minor writing smut, if youâre uncomfortable then stay away from my blog.
i wonât tolerate being bashed because of my age.
i respect MDNI blogs, you can interact if youâd like but keep in mind that iâm a minor.
most of my works are very light hearted and sweet, even when including smut or angst. i like to pair things up, so expect to see fluff + smut and things of that nature.
i wonât write nsfw content for characters who arenât CANONICALLY 18!
iâm a black girl, my works will more often than not cater to black (chubby + feminine) women. however, they can be read by any and all.
my blog is a safe space for black and/or lgbtq+ people <3
respect my boundaries. for those who write anything listed in my WONâT section; you may interact, but if i feel uncomfortable at any time i will block.
rules are subject to change! please like, reblog, and comment! it helps me out, plus comments are motivating and itâs nice to see what people think. have fun on my blog, support me, follow my rules and we wonât have an issue. ⥠(ÉËĐ·(ËâŁËc)
#blog rules#boundaries#read rules before interacting#black writers#women writers#fanfiction writer#fanfic writer#â ⥠â jolene's blog.#joey .á àŽ#rulebook#female writers#anime and manga#animanga#writing#rule#guidelines
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⥠WELCOME âĄ
hi hello! my name is Paige (or you can call me Rat)! this blog will be where i post art, answer questions, etc etc.
⥠ABOUT ME âĄ
đ im 16 y.o
đ im a small artist and aspiring content creator
đ im bi, genderfluid, and i go by any pronouns! (except it/its)
đ i occasionally have a hard time understanding tone, so please use indicators when needed!
đ im very bad at being active and consistent with posting :')
⥠ABOUT THE BLOG! âĄ
đž i touch on many dark themes such as violence towards self and others, susbstance use, sexual (but not explicit) themes, abusive situations, mental illness, etc
đž i welcome any asks that come my way! just please be mindful about personal questions
đž fanart, reblogging, and notes are very much appreciated! but please dont steal, copy, or take heavy inspo from my art/ocs
⥠DO NOT INTERACT âĄ
â NO MINORS UNDER THE AGE OF 13
â NO RACISM, HOMOPHOBIA, TRANSPHOBIA, ABLEISM, ETC
â NO PROSHIPPERSS, EXTREMELY RELIGIOUS PEOPLE (sorry), TERFS, BIGOTS, ETC
⥠if you wish to check out my other socials, here's my carrd! âŹïž (IT IS STILL UNDER CONSTRUCTION!!)
#about#artists on tumblr#please read#pinned bio#digital artist#oc artist#personal boundaries#before you follow#before you interact#rules#this is my first post help
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if you've been blocked recently, it's bc i actually check my notes and have had so many blogs on my dni on my personal posts that i have been blocking anyone associated with those accounts. either you have your likes hidden for this reason or you don't pay attention to who you're interacting with and what content they're posting. check the source, ppl đ
#it really sucks when trans people reblog the posts i actually wrote and there gets to be a chain of reblogs and then it branches out from#everyone else that reblogs from them and then it extends out of the trans circle and suddenly i have all these straight guys with#their patriarchal misogyny kinks and women with traditional gender role kinks etc and it all feels very sexist and#transphobic and homophobic and after it goes beyond that outer circle then i start getting dms that specifically are unwanted#i understand we're in public online but it's like the difference between me walking into a gay dungeon or a room full of people who#genuinely want me dead and want it to be as harmful as possible like i use tags for a reason#no one likes seeing all the dni labels directly on EVERY SINGLE post we make so is it really so unreasonable to have it on my blog#and to have that be respected by people who claim to care and want their own boundaries to be respected#i know the arseholes who dgaf never will mind themselves but i'm talking about US like where is the respect and accountability#why is the propaganda working on everyone and dividing us like we need to stick together#it sucks. i wouldn't even have half the dni criteria if people would just be cool and not force their kinks on me but every time i say#hey thanks for the ask or dm but i'm not a sub or i'm not into that actually or did you read my pinned (before it became a dni mess lol)#they'd always feel shite and it'd be a waste of both our time and a majority of those interactions would begin like normal#like they were trying to act nice first and ease their way into kinks i didn't share with them until i realized and then they'd be upset#(btw i meant to clarify the first part of these tags are trans people with detrans or forcefem kinks etc)#domb brain
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Plz read my rules and dni before interacting with my posts.
Because honestly im tired of people who post about stuff that makes me uncomfortable liking and sharing my posts.
#mortal kombat#admin talks#plz read before interacting#plz read#my dni card#dni card#like it take 2 sec to read and not much to respect boundaries my dudes#you dont have to understand the dni but plz respect it
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REALISTIC EXPECTATIONS â S.JY
What should have never been an option became a routine over the years. This year is different though. Itâs time to face whatâs been done and put an end to it for goodâŠexcept your step-brother Jake isnât ready to face it, and your little boyfriend isnât going to stand in the way of getting what he wants either. or the one where you made a bad decision in fooling around with your step-brother during your early college days and he refuses to let you put an end to it.Â
leave feedback and reblog to support me please!Â
minors do not interact.Â
WORDCOUNTâ 8.9k
PAIRINGâ step-brother jake sim x afab reader (ft. boyfriend sunghoon)
WARNINGS â step cest, dub-con/non-con, blackmail, nonconsensual phone sexÂ
NOTEâ MIND. THE. WARNINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO, shoutout to anon for giving me this idea.reminder that this is not a representation of me or the idols as real life people. anyway, not proof read.
smut tags under cut::Â
smut tagsâ non con/dub con, normal size dick jake and mentions of bigger dick sunghoon, implications from jake that sunghoon is actually gay for him, camera use, fisting, degradation, manipulation, phone sex-ish, choking, suffocation, cum stuffing, cream pie, unprotected sex, forced blowjob, crying, break-up implications
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âYouâre being ridiculous.â Jake scoffs, leaning against your bedroom dresser with his arms crossed. âWe did it last summer, why is this year any different? We always do it.âÂ
You roll your eyes at him in an attempt to hide the guilt you feel, holding the blanket tightly to your chest in case he tries to pull them off of you again. Jake knows damn well why. Not only should it not have happened last year, or the year before that, or the year before that, but to actively and truly believe itâs something that can continue is something only a mad man would think.Â
Not to mention, you have a boyfriend now. A real boyfriend, one who matters in your life.
âSunghoon have anything to do with this?â He questions you now, reaching for the blanket and tugging. âCome on, playing around isnât gonna hurt anything. Itâs not like anyone is going to know anywayââÂ
You huff, yanking your blanket up a bit to pull it from his grasp again. You get why heâs asking and why heâs confused because, well, last summer you were all over the idea like usual. You knew he would expect the same this summer, but honestly, it has to stop. Things have changed. Things needed to change.Â
âJake, we canât be doing that stuff anymore.â You say as if itâs fine, a bite to your voice that hits him right in the gut.Â
In all honesty though, you really do feel guilty. Like youâve led him on all these years with his sweet, borderline boyfriendly words. You lived in the fantasy with him for a while, like it could work out despite the family ties. Thereâs a reality though, one that you found yourself living in upon meeting Sunghoon, and thereâs a fantasy that you need to pull Jake out of. You feel awful, especially knowing thereâs a part of you that would if you could. ButâŠyou canât, nor can he.
Never again.Â
Jake feels singled out at this moment. Like heâs the weird one for even asking when you were the one who came onto him when it happened the very first time. All those talks of âwe arenât blood related, itâs not that bad.â and âIf our parents divorce, maybe someday we can go on a date or somethingââ Do they mean nothing now? Youâre going to blame him for expecting it?
âWhy the fuck not?â He narrows his eyes at you. âGonna act like you werenât the one who tried to fuck me at Jayâs party last summer? Acting all high and mighty now, like suddenly itâs so wrong?âÂ
You look away from him, feeling worse because heâs right. Given, the guilt should have hit you after the first time, but it didnât. You had your fun pushing boundaries but now that graduation is coming up itâs like..it doesnât feel right. Did he really just expect the two of you to keep fucking well into adulthood? Did he expect you to get married to someone else and still get on your knees during family Christmas parties?Â
Did he expect to be the one marrying you?
âWe have to grow up.â You finally say, shifting your eyes back to him. âThis is starting to feel reallyâgross.âÂ
âHeyââ He looks at you now, almost pleading. âItâs not gross, we arenât gross.â He takes two steps towards the bed in a fit of desperation, leaning with his hands now palm-down on your mattress. ButâŠwhen he tries to follow up on his words, he knows youâre serious.
Realistically, despite having been your step-brother since the beginning of high-schoolâŠactively choosing to fuck each other as soon as college started was maybe not the best idea. Hormones were high, the freedom to fuck was blatant, and wellâŠitâs not his fault youâd walk around in all those slutty little pajama shorts and try to jump his bones every time you found yourself alone with him. If anything, youâre the one who pulled him into this. He really did think it was gross at first, but thinking with his dick outweighed that, and then his heart decided to play a part in all of it too.Â
He really does think there could be something here if the two of you worked for it. After all, youâre entirely his type, despite marriage ruining it. The breaking of morals eventually became the best part for him, having what his father wishes he could have solely because youâre just a younger, hotter, version of your own mother.
You even said it yourself all that time ago when it first happened. âItâs ok jakey, youâre a guy. guys have needs.âÂ
Well, what about his needs now?! He was so happy to be able to come home and see you again. He misses you  so much when youâre both away at your respective colleges, and he thinks about you all the time. He should have known that something was changing all those months ago when you stopped texting him back as much as you usually would. Now what? He just has to accept that youâre done?
âYouâre seriously not going to give it up?â He pushes his hands under the bottom of your blankets, quickly running his fingers up your legs just to try and encourage a giggle, or a smile from you.
Thatâs when he notes how you havenât even shaved your legs. Which, itâs not like he gives two fucks on whether you do or not but likeâŠyou always shave. Your skin was always so smooth, plump, soft, and moisturized when you knew youâd be wanting to play around with him. And clearly, you donât expect to be getting fucked this summer.
Ah, heâs starting to resent you.
âDoes that boyfriend of yours know about us?â He finally says, standing tall at the end of your bed and looming much darker than his usual, bright persona.Â
You stare at him, eyes widening.Â
âExcuse me?â You furrow your brows. âJake, what the fuck are you sayiââ
Before you can even finish or get a response from him, heâs leaving your bedroom and slamming the door behind him.Â
Already you know this is going to be a long fucking summer.Â
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Jake knew you were a smart girl. You always believe everything he says, but never once has he used that against you until now. That little mention of Sunghoon seems to have made you panic, and he canât help but find it endearing that you took his threat so easily. Each time he comes home now, from hanging out with your boyfriend, youâre always sitting on the couch like a cute little puppy greeting him with a wagging tail.
If at all, he knows youâre doing it to try and butter him up. To distract him from what youâre taking away from him. Dangling yourself like nothing has changed but denying him time and time again of it. Youâre nice, but never this nice. Offering to hang out, watch movies, go out. Youâre promising just about everything to him except for the one thing he needs from you.Â
Heâs thankful though, with all circumstances considered, that the good olâ parents donât notice a shift in how youâre acting solely because the two of you have always been close. Even before the sex stuff. You were his best friend. He protected you from highschool bullies, potential assholes trying to steal your first kiss, virginity, and even the first experience of sneaking out.Â
Back then, itâs not like Jake ever wanted to be your first kiss, the one to take said virginity, or sneak you out to parties you shouldnât be at. Truly, he just wanted to protect you. It wasnât until the two of you were away from each other for the first time as freshmans in college that he felt some type of way towards you. Which, again, was entirely your fault.
Ah, he still remembers that first summer back home walking into the house and being smacked in the face with a sensual, fruity scent radiating off of you. After not seeing you for three and a half months, he was entirely shocked at how much you had changed. You lookedâŠconfident in yourself. Like youâd been growing internally and learning what you want in life. He found it very attractive of you, believing that once you get a boyfriend, theyâd be very lucky to have you in their life.Â
Then of course, youâd bend over in those shorts and look back at him smirking. Like you only saw him as a man now, and not your protective step brother. Youâd whine to him about ruined hook-ups, about the frat parties, about all the guys trying to touch you and wishing he was there to keep them off of you. All whileâŠdoing that. All while waltzing around like youâd invite him to do the same.Â
And you did invite him. That first night has been burned into his memory. The fear, the guilt, the disgust, the love he felt for you. So quiet in his bedroom, giggling to each other with all the lights off in the silence of his room, trying to pretend it was only a one-time thing to satiate a specific need. There was nothing kinky, nothing weird outside of the dynamic of who you were supposed to be to each other.
It kept happening after that, and each time the guilt would wash away with the sweat that always dripped onto you from his temple. You could even say it was shy at first, both of you were very generous to each other. It only started getting dirty as the summers at home continued.Â
And nowâŠnothing? After all of that, nothing?!Â
If you think you can change so drastically over a single semester, so be it. Jake can change too, and he already has. Both of you now, entirely different compared to that first summer together. You, all jittery and freaked out, him, with all the power.Â
You though, truly youâre fucking panicking. If your boyfriend found out about all of this, heâd think youâre a freak. Or a slut. Or a piece of trash. Maybe all three of those things and then some. And you know, youâd think Jake is bluffingâŠreally. Except you got a text from Sunghoon the same night Jake tried to get in your pants. You remember reading those words, the pit in your stomach digging deep. âYour bro is gonna come hang out with me for a bit, youâre coming too right?â
Nevermind the fact that Sunghoon lives an hour away from your hometown, where the two of you get to meet in the middle during active semesters on campus. What about the fact that Jake barely fucking knows him?! Through mutual friends (Jay and Heeseung) all three of you were aware of each other, but youâre the one who got the closest to Sunghoon.Â
Youâre his girlfriend now. Which, apparently demoted Jake from popular-porn-trope to actual step-brother.Â
And that pisses him off.Â
So, is it weird for Sunghoon to get a sudden hang out text from a guy he assumed is just wanting to get to know him? No. After all, he knows Jake is your âbrother.â What he doesnât and hopefully will never know is that youâve fucked said step-brother.
 Is it weird that you donât go with Jake to see your own boyfriend? Yes. Unfortunately, Jake basically demanded you âstay in your fucking place. if you wanna get fucked so bad, Iâll be home after.âÂ
Even Sunghoon doesnât find it weird and texts you everyday as usual. It sucks actually, that heâs so willing to let you do as you please and trusts you to an extent that he doesnât even ask why you donât come with Jake. Instead, heâs too busy saying you should definitely join next time, that Jake is super cool and seems to like him a lot.Â
The good news: Sunghoon offers no mention of knowing, soâŠit seems you really do have to stay at home. Empty. Wanting to be next to Sunghoon so bad but forced to deal with any oncoming feelings alone.Â
Since when was Jake even capable of being so awful? Since when did he hate you so much?
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âJakeâplease.â You beg quietly, shaking his arm gently in the soft light of the morning. Everyone is sound asleep, which must be fucking nice.
Itâs been two weeks now of such loneliness, such lack of sleep, such intense need to just let yourself spiral and drown in anxiety. Jake is barely talking to you now, only giving you sarcastic and evil little smiles from time to time. As if to remind you of whatâs at risk. Sunghoon is normal, too normal. So normal, in fact, that he tried to jerk off on facetime last night for you and you ended up crying and apologizing because you couldnât even get turned on.Â
Even if Jake hasnât told him anything, your relationship is already starting to fall apart because of him. He fucking knows it too.Â
âPlease,â
âPlease, what?â Your step-brother's sleepy voice croaks out, turning himself on the bed towards you with a single half opened eye.Â
âIâm losing sleep, please stop doing this to me.â
âNo.â He says now, closing his eyes again and turning away from you, nuzzling against his pillow without a care in the world.Â
âPlease.âÂ
âFuck offââ He complains, throwing his arm behind himself to shove you away and surprised to find that youâve crawled up on the bed with him.
Just like that night so long ago, the first time the two of you broke past any boundaries.Â
âIâll do anything.â You nearly cry, so sleepy, so anxiety ridden, so out of your mind at this point that you genuinely would do anything to feel normal again.Â
âAnything?âÂ
You feel slight relief in his interest, nodding your head aggressively with a broken voice. âYes! I promise. I swear, anything you want. Please, justââ
âThen get the fuck out of my room.âÂ
You know better than to disobey at this point. All you can do is sulk back to your room and hope that sleep overtakes you this time. If anything, maybe he will consider your plea in the morning.
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Itâs surprising, honestly. Jake didnât even know he was into seeing you suffer like this, let alone having power over you. He spent so much time protecting you that he never realized how attractive it is to see you fear him. The joy that runs through him now, the orgasms he gets out of it, fuck. Who cares if itâs his own hand doing the work right now? With the thoughts of you doing âanythingâ like you said, being disgusting, begging, pleading, crying. He might be a little insane for you now, if he wasnât already.Â
And still even today, you look so desperate for any amount of relief. Jake finds joy in the fact that you canât even go to your boyfriend about it.Â
Heâs never felt so powerful, truly. Especially now, watching you try to seduce him as if you didnât deny him of it before. The slutty shorts are back. Youâre not wearing bras anymore. Youâll leave the bathroom stark fucking naked if it happens to just be you and him at home.
Ah, heaven on earth. Honestly, his days are so fun now. Save for when he has to hang out with that fucking idiot of a man Sunghoon. What a loser, honestly. Openly sharing all the stuff youâve done in bed with him like Jake isnât your step-brother? If anyone is weird, itâs Sunghoon. Hell, Jake isnât even sure now if the dude would care if he found out that youâve ridden some related-by-marriage cock before.Â
He hates hanging out with him. Always having to hold back the scoffs when Sunghoon is drunkenly slurring out more sex acts youâve performed on him followed by a love confession and a whine of how much he misses you. As if you didnât do all of that for Jake first. Ugh, he genuinely canât believe that youâre even with Sunghoon at all.Â
After a little while longer though, with the great days and the annoying hang outs, a nice month into summer vacationâ Jakeâs been ready to take what he needs. Youâve been begging for it, after all. He loves looking and seeing you so desperate for him to stop the mind games but goddamn itâs getting hard to think straight himself by now.
Thankfully, heâs thinking clearly enough whether itâs through his cock rather than his brain to come up with how heâll go about it. He waits a little more, cock throbbing in his pants due to not allowing himself to get off in the past two days in preparation for this.Â
Every night when everyone goes to bed, you call Sunghoon. And every night, Jake has listened. Tonight though? Sunghoon will be the one listening.
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Like clockwork, the parents have gone to bed and Jake hears the hushed muttering just a room over. Heâs already standing to his feet, shooting a hand directly to his bulge to adjust it with a silent groan in his throat. Before he can even leave his room heâs rolling his eyes back with another grope of his sensitive cock, almost unable to stop touching himself after denying himself of it. Heâs practically drooling at the image of having you all to himself again. The anticipation he feels inside right now is insane. He feels his skin prickle and his eyes are barely able to focus on his own bedroom door out of sheer arousal of what heâs about to do to you.
He composes himself shortly after, as best he can anyway, tiptoeing to your room and chuckling at the way your eyes light up when you see him. Heâs ignored you for too long. Not a single response to anything youâve said to him, hell, he even stopped letting you see him look at you.Â
Of course your eyes light up, it means heâs going to stop. It means heâs going to tell you what he wants.Â
And youâre happy, even with Sunghoon on the line sweet talking to you about his day like usual.Â
âHoonie, can I call you back?â You ask quickly into the phone, only to see Jake take a seat next to you on your bed and shake his head at you.Â
You tilt your head in question, feeling your heart thump in your ears to the point you barely even hear Sunghoon at all.Â
âKeep talking to him.â He whispers to you now, nearly just mouthing it.Â
You never knew you were so good at reading lips, but you listen to him. Furrowing your brows in question and adjusting your phone against your ear.
âNevermind, weâre good.â You say in a voice too calm for Jakeâs liking.Â
And itâs like that for a few minutes as Jake lets you get into the groove of conversing with your boyfriend again before he makes a move. The move he makes? Leaning against you, pressing you back against your pillows, and licking your neck.
He smiles against your skin when he feels it prickle and lets out a whispered chuckle at how much heâs missed the taste of your skin. So warm, so soft. The fact that youâre letting him tells him all he needs to know, despite the way your shoulders stiffen, he knows youâre going to give him anything.
âGonna let me fuck it again, yeah?â Jake whispers as he moves up against your ear, pinning your arms to your chest, forcing your phone closer to his mouth compared to yours. âGonna let him hear it too.â
Ah, there she is. You, in all your glory, are already tearing up at the very idea of it.Â
âJake, no.â You say, holding your hand over the speaker and body language trying to twist away from him.Â
âYou said anything.â Jake corrects you quietly, slapping your hand off of the speaker and quickly thrusting his own hand between your legs.
He chooses not to be gentle with you this time. Heâs not going to be what youâre used to, not after that shit you tried to pull with him. His finger pushes in dry, and he smiles at the way you hold your breath and try to squeeze your legs shut to stop him. Sunghoon on the other end is muffled, but still heard by both of you.Â
You stay silent throughout his ministrations, pissing him off further, only making him move his hand faster, forcing a reaction, daring you to stop him.Â
âPhone.â Jake instructs, loosening his other grip on your hands as a means to let you raise the phone back up to your ear. âTalk.â
You stare at him, feeling the burning between your legs of where your body has yet to do anything more than tighten around his fingers. Still, they drag painfully due to your body feeling no pleasure in this. In fact, youâre afraid.Â
Youâre afraid Sunghoon will find out, afraid of Jake, afraid of showing that you like what heâs doing, afraid of realizing youâll always like this, afraid of losing either of them solely because you can only love, fuck, and be with one of them.
And itâs obvious who the one has to be becauseâŠthe other isnât possible. Itâs just not.Â
So, you try. You try to talk, try to relax, try to do everything Jake asks of you solely to prolong the situation enough to where you can find a way to put a proper, healthy end to it.Â
âIâm sorry, what was that?â You finally croak into the phone, having not heard a single word from Sunghoon this entire time and trying not to focus on that same drag Jake only pushes harder into you with that terrifying smirk.Â
âI asked if that was Jake I just heardââ Sunghoon responded as brightly as always, bless him.Â
âSpeaker.â Jake mouths to you, and of course you listen. Reluctantly, but you still do it, shaking fingers hitting the speaker-phone button so Jake can hear whatâs being said.
âWhat are you guys doing? Let me hear what?â Sunghoon continues.Â
Jake flashes a full grin at you and wiggles his eyebrows before heâs pulling his fingers out, sucking them into his mouth, then moving back down with three before shoving them back in with even more force.Â
âYeahâ Tell him.â Jake says as casually as ever. âGo on, let him in on the secret weâve been keeping from him.âÂ
Sunghoon hears Jake all too well, but doesnât question that itâs anything weird. If at all, he wonders if maybe you two have been planning something behind his back considering you never come over when Jake does. Which is actually weird, but he tried not to question it. He and you are practically attached at the hip during the semesters, so, this would make sense.Â
Of course there is a secret surprise for him!Â
âIââ You yelp both out of pain and unintentional pleasure, cutting yourself off in a gasp.Â
You can feel the pit in your stomach dig deeper and deeper, arousing you when itâs the last thing you could ever want at this moment. You know Jake feels it though, with the slide of his fingers becoming easier, and that permanent smile on his face.Â
Sunghoon feels so far away right nowâŠLike, who are you kidding? He canât get you out of this and you doubt heâd even want to if you were to ever even consider explaining it to him.Â
âIâI miss you a lot.â You try to come up with words, missing him being all that you can muster up right now.Â
Unfortunately, Jakeâs scary smile is less terrifying compared to his face now, where he narrows his eyes and glares straight through you for saying such a thing in front of him. Heâs trying to crowd four fingers into you now, making you squirm and squeeze your legs together again. He is quick to disallow you though, forcing one of your legs open with his shoulder and spitting directly on your stretched and pulsing hole.Â
âI miss you too babyââ Sunghoon says in a slightly confused voice. âWhat else?â
You pause, taking a moment to feel Jake between your legs and how much itâŠgod, it feels so good. Butâ youâre unsure of how to balance speaking with Sunghoon and dealing with Jake right now. If you have to deal with them both at the same timeâŠthis isnât what youâd prefer.Â
âI wish you were here right now.âÂ
Sunghoon smiles on his end, assuming Jake has now left your room due to the silence and lack of hearing him now.Â
âIs Jake still around?â He mutters to you through the speaker, because based on your tone of voice, he knows what mood youâre in.
Jake shakes his head at you, encouraging that you lie before focusing back on watching the hole heâs missed so much. The one Sunghoonâs probably played with before, that fucking loser.Â
âNopeâJâJust me!â You find yourself forcing a smile as you say it, just to hope your voice comes out in a way that sounds brighter than it feels.Â
âYou wish I was there?â Sunghoon says now, his own voice growing deeper. âWhyâs that?â He spreads his legs out wide against his bed, assuming itâs about to be a regular session of facetime fucking.Â
âMhm,â You accidentally moan, a bit too obvious. âJust feel safe with you when Iâm feeling like this.â
Jake rolls his eyes, slowly forcing his thumb in beside the rest of his fingers, growing more angry, more aroused, and more insatiable towards you.Â
âHow are you feeling right now baby?âÂ
âEmpty.âÂ
âWish you were full of something?â Sunghoon smiles, a cheeky voice calling out to you. âOf me?â
You groan at that moment, all of Jakeâs fingers stretch you open until you feel knuckles trying to force past the boundary. Your hands shake at the feeling as your eyes cross momentarily, tears prickle from the pain but it feels soâŠgood. And only a moment goes by before you, quite literally, kick Jake away.Â
The sudden emptiness you get from that feels so much better, but Jake is too quick to get back up. Fire in his dark eyes as he grabs you by the ankles and pulls you roughly down the bed. There is a small sound that escapes your lips at the action, almost a giggle. Youâre quick to tighten your lips though, trying to will your body to stop liking the way Jake is being with you right now. You donât want this, you donât like it. You never should have in the first place, and to be honest, youâre trying to force yourself to believe youâre making the right choice in continuing to deny him of this.
Itâs only natural that your body wants it, just like it was natural to kick him off of you from the pain, right? And then, Jake reminds you of just how much you regret denying him the first night back home, because he's leaning over you so fast, hugging your waist and forcing all five fingers back into you.Â
You kick, squirm, whine, and ultimately shout out a âNo, no, no!â despite your hips chasing up to let him, almost to invite him. Andâoh, fuck. You forgot Sunghoon can hear all of this.Â
âBaby?â Sunghoonâs voice rings back in your ears. âAre you okay? Youâre already touching yourself? Why do you sound soââÂ
Jakeâs own ears are ringing watching your body fight your brain. You still want him. He can tell by the way you look at him with those tear-filled eyes, with the way your pussy is dripping for this, the way your hips beg him to keep abusing you. Who is he to deny you? He has never denied you pleasure. So, he tries to force more, more, more into you. Thereâs a boundary here, your pussy clenched so tight around his fingers already, but you want him to keep pushing until he breaks the boundary. You want to feel the pain of it andâŠfinally, he does get it in. His entire hand being gripped so tightly that even he seethes out a pained moan for you.
âFuckââ He holds his fist in place, removing himself from your waist to look at you. âYou really took it all.â
Thereâs tears in your eyes by this point and you canât tell if itâs from realizing how much you need Jake, or the fact that Sunghoon definitely knows something is up. No words are coming out though, youâre more afraid to speak what you feel than you are of Jake right now.
âJake?â Sunghoon questions, confused.Â
âYeah, whatâs up?â Jake responds with a smile instantly, staring right at you as he begins to fuck a size far too big into you, watching you bite your tongue to keep from showing him how much you love it.Â
âWaitââ Sunghoon continues with a pause. âWhatâs going on?âÂ
âI couldnât help myself.â Jake smiles at you, wiggling his eyebrows again. âAfter all those things you told me about her, I guess I needed to see for myself.âÂ
And then, you moan. That searing pain inside of you somehow subsides, shaking legs and hands are gripping onto Jake in his entirety now, youâre practically drooling for it.
âI guess you were right.â Jake continues. âShe really can take a lot, huh? Bet your dick didnât feel this good for her though.â
Youâre truly unable to comprehend most of whatâs happening right now, even the phone vibrating in your hand as Sunghoon goes silent and instead, hangs up before instantly facetiming you. Youâre so hyper-fixated on the feeling of knuckles dragging against your tightly clenched walls, choking back every sound or word you want to scream out.Â
Jake watches as you cry a bit harder now, probably a bit too overwhelmed with the situation. Like the good step-brother he is though, Heâll take care of it for you, of course he will.Â
âWhatâs the hold up?â Jake laughs, halting his hand as he reaches for the phone and instantly answers it. He stares down as you continue to fuck yourself on it, smiling at your brief whine before he speaks into the receiver with a confident voice. âCatâs outta the bag.â
Sunghoon is there on the screen, witnessing the way Jake angles the phone more at himself and your hole than your face. His entire fist has disappeared inside of you, glistening with a sticky mess that spills out of you.Â
Nothing else is said as Sunghoon stares at it. Jake being a cocky bastard and sticking his tongue out like some idiot frat boy, and then? He hears you.
âJake, stop!â You cry out.Â
He doesnât stop, in fact, he fucks his fist into you quickly making damn sure Sunghoon can not only see how your wet spurts out around his wrist, but hear it too.Â
âStop what? Showing your boyfriend what you really want?âÂ
âHang up the phone!â You cry out again, showing Sunghoon that perhapsâŠyou donât miss him at all.
Jake isnât doing anything you donât want. You just donât want your boyfriend to witness you be so honest with yourself.Â
âAwh,â Jake pouts now, angling the phone back at himself and feeling proud of the way Sunghoon appears to be entirely shocked, mouth hung open, eyebrows furrowed. âBut he needed to know, baby, didnât he?â He adds now, lying the phone down briefly to pull his cock out.Â
âCome on now, donât be shy.â Jake continues with his confidence, picking the phone back up and angling it towards you.Â
He intentionally drags his fist in and out of you a few more times before gently pulling it out, moaning at the way it sounds, obsessing over it really. Sunghoon watches in horror at the way you squeeze your eyes shut, sadly wondering what Jake must be doing off screen for you to look so fucking guilty. The horror only grows when he has to watch Jakeâs cock come on screen, pussy soaked hand jerking himself off before shoving the head right against your lips.
God, you know Sunghoon hates you now.Â
Jake knows it too, and doesnât care as he uses that same soaked hand and pries your lips apart before pushing it into your mouth. He thrusts forward too quick for you to take a breath, and you feel the leaking tip hit the back of your throat in a way that makes you choke and gag around him.Â
Your eyes shoot open, looking up at him and barely able to comprehend the camera just inches from your face.Â
Sunghoon has seen you look up at him like this too. Why arenât you fighting Jake though? Why are you willingly gagging, choking, and drooling all over yourself with such a forceful fuck to your face? You always pull off of him when he tries to thrust even a little bitâŠbut youâre..
âIââ Sunghoon goes to say, still staring at you and the way youâre shamefully getting your mouth fucked open. âThat is fucking disgusting.â He finally lets out, but he canât look away. He doesnât want to see this butâŠhe canât bring himself to hang up.Â
âYeah, thatâs what she thinks too.â Jake chuckles with a heaved breath, enjoying himself, now angling the phone at his face. âI think she likes it thoughâ wouldnât you agree?â
There goes the camera again, pointing right at your choking mouth. Jake pushes all the way in too, letting your nose rest against his pelvis and moaning loudly for Sunghoon to hear.
âShit, see? Sheâs not even fighting it.â
Sunghoon canât tell only because Jake doesnât let him. Youâre gripping Jakeâs hips and trying to push him out of your mouth, but he stays in place, enjoying the way your choking and suffocating throat jerks him off better than his own hand ever could.Â
The best part? He knows youâre only pushing him away to breathe because you werenât fighting at all at first. In fact, he felt you silently hum against him like you want his cock so bad. So, heâs not actually lying. He just thinks itâs polite to not let Sunghoon know how youâre suffocating right now.Â
Oh well.Â
Only after your eyes start to fog over and roll back does Jake pull out, relishing in that wet gasp you lend. He looks down at the phone now, wanting to make sure Sunghoon witnessed all of that before realizing he fucking hung up.
Who the fuck hangs up on imagery like that? Fucking idiot, is what Sunghoon is.Â
To be fair though, Sunghoon hung up shortly before Jake pulled out. He had to force himself to do it, because he didnât quite enjoy the way his cock jumped at the image of his girlfriend letting her step-brother fuck her mouth like that. Heâs entirely blindsided. Like, not only are you cheating on him, but he had to see it like that?! In 4k?! God, his stomach would be in knots to catch you like this with anyone, but the fact that itâs withâŠJake. Of all people.
Youâre fucking your own brother.Â
None of that matters to Jake though, nor does it matter to you at this moment as the tears continue to pour from your eyes knowing that Jake did this on purpose and for a reason. Itâs insane how kind he is to you now that Sunghoon isnât watching, actually. Lending you a deep, meaningful kiss before sinking back down the bed and resuming his previous position.Â
âYou liked this.â He comments, seeing if his hand will still fit, and moaning when it does. âYouâre so fucking wet itâs insane.â
God, you know heâs punishing you yet you canât bring yourself to be mad about it because already you can feel the bubbles in your stomach threaten an orgasm. Proving to both Jake and yourself thatâŠyou do like it. Never have you even imagined wanting a whole goddamn fist in you before now butâyou more than like it. You love it.Â
In fact, feeling his hand dragging in and out of you now makes you forget about the way you nearly just died with a cock in your throat. Youâre already moaning again, actually.Â
And fuck, you promised youâd do anything to keep this a secret, and while doing that anything for him, no matter how willing, he still fucking told. He fucking showed the dirty acts to the last person on earth youâd ever want to see, hear, or know. The crying is a given, from both the anxiety, the fear, and the pleasure because you canât stop the oncoming orgasm or the love you have for the man giving it to you either.Â
The way he holds you through it should disgust you, with his fist buried so deep your orgasm comes in long, drawn out and painful waves. He grips onto you though, whispering more to himself against your thigh than to you, âIâve got you. Iâll always have you, itâs okay.âÂ
You donât want to melt for him, but you do. Even through your ringing ears itâs like your body instinctively hears his whispers when you shouldnât. The words bring comfort, reminding you that heâll still protect you even from Sunghoon and what he feels about this situation. Even from your parents, from outsiders, from everything.Â
The orgasm feels like it bruises your brain, a throbbing headache coming shortly after when Jake takes on a more gentle persona and pulls his hand from you. He inspects your open cunt for a moment, seeing how wet it is inside for him before it pulses closed and he averts his gaze to his hand.Â
Glistening, so wet. You needed that, he thinks. The reminder that heâs the only one who can love you in more ways than you truly need.Â
âYou did so well.â He compliments, crawling up and over you to wipe those tears with the same hand.Â
You donât move away, if anything you need this comfort now more than anything because you simply donât know what to feel, or think, or admit right now. You think Jake already knows, he wouldnât need you to say it simply because heâs always read you like a book.Â
âNo more pretending you donât want this.â He says now, in a darker voice. âEven with Sunghoon listening, you moaned my name. I donât think you remember doing that, do you?â
You cry more, closing your eyes tightly and pretending like Jakeâs hand is Sunghoonâs. You really liked Sunghoon, genuinely thought you could have a future with him. Even so, pretending that Jake is him doesnât bring safety because you almost would prefer it be Jake. A hand youâre so familiar with.Â
He had been so awful to you recently, and only now do you realize thatâŠmaybe it really was for your own good.
âYou donât need him.â Jake says now, adjusting himself between your legs.âNot when you have me. You know Iâll take care of you.â He continues, slipping his cock deep into your already loosened hole.Â
Heâs shocked that you still manage to be tight after all of that, but he guesses thatâs just how pussies work. Or how yours works, anyway. He knows it more than he knows his own cock at this point, which is insane.Â
Feeling him inside of you, so familiar, slightly smaller than Sunghoonâ itâsâŠcomforting. The tears that spill from you now are more for missing him than anything. You canât help it when you wrap your legs around him or throw your arms around his shoulders, shivering and clinging to him like heâs your last line of sanity despite everything about this being entirely insane.Â
âJakeââ You moan at how he fucks you, so much softer than with his hand butâŠnormal. Like the first time you ever did this with him. âI really want you but,â
Jake pauses, feeling that same pit in his stomach at how you say those words.
âWhat you just did to me could ruin my life.â You finally say, still clinging, not at all asking him to stop. âWhat youâre doing right now, will ruin my life.â
âDonât be silly. Your life will be ruined without me, baby, you know that, right?â He says, reminding you of who has the power by quickening his hips and pointing his cock directly at your already sensitive g-spot. âYou canât say no to me, you tried and still you want me.â
You nod your head in agreement despite wishing he was wrong.Â
âWe canât.â You say to him in a half-groaned whisper. âIâm begging you to stop.âÂ
If at all, youâre just begging him to stop being what you want. To stop being able to have a hold over you like this. To stop being everything that Sunghoon isnât and still being the most desirable man in your life. To stop being your step-brother. To stop being a taboo in your life, if only to become someone youâre allowed to need like this.Â
âNo.â Jake says, unknowing of what youâre actually asking of him. âIâll never stop.â
With those words, you moan. Heâs promising something that neither of you should feel or need, but you accept it. Shocked at the way you feel him inside of you like always, no pain, or lack of feeling from the previous size fucked into you. Itâs justâŠJake. Intentionally fucking you harder to punish you for words that are actually fighting more for him than against him.Â
âOkay.â You whimper, falling silent with your broken voice fading into nothing but cries of the inevitable.Â
For all Jake knows, youâre asking him to stop this. What heâs doing to you right now, not for anything else that you meant it for. For your own sake, because you know that after this, you truly may not be able to pull yourself from this fantasy with him. Technically, heâs showing you that heâs willing to hurt you to keep you. To take it from you if thatâs what it takes to get what he wants. And that hurts a lot to know, a pain deep within you making you spiral a little more than you ever thought you could.
Heâd really go as far as to keep going when youâre crying for him to stop? If just to show you that heâŠloves you? No, maybe just that he wants this, he wants you.Â
You want this, but itâs the fact that he just knows. Even if you say no, even if you beg or plead for him to stop, heâll just keep going because he knows better than you that youâll always want him in return. Even if youâre lying to yourself, even if you were able to truly convince yourself that this isnât at all what you want. Even if it feels like Jake is committing atrocities right now, he knows heâs not. Heâs not, even if you say he is.Â
And at the end of the day, right now. He truly isnât.Â
You can feel your heart rotting at all thatâs lost now. A life with someone normal. A life where youâre normal and can be seen hand in hand with the love of your life as you grocery shop, or get ice cream, or even just take the future dog on a walk. Your dreams are dying, and you canât stop them.Â
You feel a burning pain throughout your body at the force of him now, seemingly trying to fuck your concern away from you. Only now do you open your eyes to look at him, heâs just shapes now. Your tears are messing up the normal clear view youâd have, but you can tell heâs smiling lovingly.Â
He doesnât care that he just ruined your relationship, he doesnât care that youâre his step-sister, he doesnât care nor think of how the future could work if he were to keep trying to follow this path, and continue to make you realize youâll willingly walk down it with himâŠ.not when heâs getting this from you.Â
Not when he knows that, now at least, heâll always get what he wants.
You cling harder to him now, sucking your bottom lip into your mouth as you lift to his shoulder and tuck your face there, replacing your lip with his warm and pulsing skin. Jake is pleasantly surprised by this, after all that he did to you, he really thought heâd have to work harder to get these lips to willingly suck on his skin again without him puppeteering you.Â
âYeah?â He turns his face against your forehead as you suck, still crying and tasting the salt from your tears mixed with the saliva youâre drooling onto him. âSunghoon canât make you feel this good?â He continues to talk himself up.Â
You remain silent as you try to drown out your thoughts with the pleasure he gives instead, feeling the way his normally gentle hands are rough holding you up, feeling the way your body shifts with each thrust up, hearing the way he breathes for you, speaks for you, and moans for you.Â
You hate to say you love it right now. Hate that you let your dream of a normal life die so easily. Hate you love him enough to let him do this to you, really.Â
âJakeââ You hiccup, exhausted. âI canât believe youâd go this far.âÂ
Only in those words do you realize how taboo andâŠerotic it is. To have a man willing to not only claim you as his own through forcing jealousy on your boyfriend and pain on you, but you guess the borderline sexual assault is another thing.Â
Itâs not that youâre into it. In fact, youâre terrified of that. But itâs justâŠthe way he knows you is attractive. The way he will protect you from any situation he causedâŠturns you on, even if heâs the one you need protecting from. God, the way heâll fuck you through all the lies you tell yourself.Â
Shit.
âIâd go further.â He chuckles, out of breath as he chases the expanse of your clenched walls. âWouldâve brought you to his house and fucked you right there at his front door. Let everyone know.â
You shake your head out of fear of that situation at first, and then suddenly find yourself smiling and losing your mind a bit. God, that would be hot if it were like, you know, not something that would get you disowned by not only family, but literally everyone aside from Jake.Â
âShouldâve seen his face, babyââ Jake moans just thinking about it, loving that he has what no one else can have. âSaid he was disgusted butâŠI think he was turned on. Really, couldnât look away from you sucking my dick like thatâ God,â He cuts himself off by grabbing at you, shoving you back down and into your pillows, both hands running up your shirt and pushing it up to your collarbone. He gropes and pinches at your tits, half of his plush bottom lip caught between his teeth as sweat drips into his eyelashes.Â
âCouldnât tell if he wished he was meââ A sarcastic laugh. âor maybe even you.â His moans continue to mesh with his laughter, now moving one hand to your neck and leaning down to lick against your lips with another pointed thrust. âIâd never fuck anyone better than Iâll fuck you though.â
âGotta say, if he wanted it bad enough, heâd look pretty choking on it too. Never as pretty as you.â He continues talking, and talking, and talking.Â
You donât really process his words though, or recognize if heâs being truthful or just making shit up, nor do you care. To be fair, there isnât anything in this world left to care about aside from him now. Not yourself, not Sunghoon, your parents, or anyone out wandering the world right now.Â
âStopââ You moan at the way he rubs his pelvis against your clit with his now, deeper thrusts. âStop fucking talking about him.â
He smiles wide against your lips in victory, feeling his muscle tense up at you asking to forget about Sunghoon. And so, he listens to you for the first time since youâve been home, he fucking listens.Â
Jake says nothing now, instead he focuses his hips and notes how now, your pussy feels too used. Or maybe his cock is just numb and oversensitive, heâs not sure. Itâs not hard really, to reach down and shove three fingers into you alongside his cock, offering extra sensation to both his balls and the underside of his length as he continues to fuck into you with what he can only assume to be a painful stretch.Â
His body shivers with an embarrassing moan at that, rolling his eyes back.Â
âYou hate him?â Jake says, but it sounds more like a plea for you to agree as he chases an orgasm far too fucking close.Â
You donât respond because at this point his words are just there as fluff in your head. Youâre more focused on the insecure feeling inside of you at how heâs had to use his hand to help him get off. It...feels so bad knowing that you canât give him what he wants after all this. After you promised. And, so, you build up the courage to lift quickly, catching him off guard, and hug him around his neck.Â
There, his fingers skew slightly, to the point itâs painful for him to keep them in place and heâs forced to pull them back and instead, hold you up in his own hug as he spirals. God, he missed you so much. Look at you now, after trying to deny him, deny yourself of wanting this. Youâre bouncing on him like you always have, frantically moving your hips with no rhyme or reason, solely to get him off.Â
He lets out a loud moan, not caring if your parents wake up to it. Not caring about anything but the pussy choking his cock out now. The change in position offered a new form of tightness, and he doesnât need an extra boost of pleasure anymore. Not with you breathing against his mouth like this, still crying, except now itâs like youâre crying because he hasnât gotten off yet.Â
âYeah, thatâs it.â He nods his head, lips playing with yours with each nod of his head as he squeezes his eyes shut. âFuck, you always know what I like.â
Just like that, all of your insecurity is washed away. You feel him twitch inside of you, and the way his hands nearly bruise you in this hug feelsâŠright. Itâs what you need, what you want.Â
âHe ever cum in you?â Jake pants out, noting the way you aggressively shake your head in an answer.Â
And normally, heâd pull out. Normally, thereâs a condom involved in this. Not today though, even as you note the familiar sound choking from his throat, and that even more familiar twitch of his cock. You try to pry yourself away from him, palms pressing on his chest as you argue.Â
âJake! Pull out, Let me up!âÂ
He doesnât let you though. Instead, he grabs both of your wrists and presses you right back down on the bed, overpowering you through his orgasm and fucking all of that cum right into you. Intentionally, with purpose.Â
âNo,â He croaks out in a breath, still lost in his orgasm. âI wonât.âÂ
You try to wiggle away from him still, despite knowing heâs already started cumming. Whatâs the point now if not just to still have some type of control over your own body? He, again, doesnât let you, pressing your wrists painfully into your own stomach, forcing you to feel each pulse and spurt of him for the first time through the pressure of his hold.
Heâs never done this to you before, then again, This isnât the same Jake youâre used to no matter how much you try to relate the feelings and love to the Jake you were with last summer. AndâŠyou need to lie to yourself right now at how good it feels to have him fuck his cum into you well past his orgasm, because admitting it would be the last thing you could do tonight to really throw you off the deep end.Â
He makes you admit it though, still fucking his cock into you regardless of how itâs growing softer and softer by the second. Doing it solely because he knows more cum will drip out as he shrinks back down. He wants to feel each second of your walls clenching, trying to push him out and knowing it never can.Â
He holds you down harder now, wincing at his own sensitivity as he plays with himself inside of you, lending pained chuckles and eye rolls with each sound of disgust you make towards him for it. And only after he slips out and canât manage to fold it back into you does he really look at you.Â
Tilting his head with an innocent smile on his face, he releases your hands and shoots his own up to your face, cupping both cheeks before leaning down and kissing you as hard as he can with what little breath he has left.Â
âI deserved that.â He says between kisses. âYou deserved it.â He sounds slightly irritated saying that part, but his kiss stays gentle and sweet. âYou owed me this.â
Youâre not sure if he meant any of that, but you find yourself agreeing.Â
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