#razakh

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wip wednesday thursday here's raz having a normal one

ty for the tag @bladesmitten!! @fllagellant @vampireposter @baronmpontmercy @ikarons you're up

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OCs in 3s

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razakh - haunted one, bronze bloodline draconic sorcerer

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the thing abt raz is he desperately wants out of his shitty fucked up body and this essentially supercedes any other priority for him.

he is fascinated by shadowheart, in part bc of her shar worship (goddess of absence goddess of loss goddess of pain, a beacon for a man with no memories and no anchor but the pain in his body and the ways he finds to relieve it) and in part bc of the parallels between them - chronic pain and absent memories, a punishmentblessing from a god who sees you as a useful tool, an extension of their will (not that he knows this is his position, yet), and so he pushes her towards shar more and more because if shadowheart can be rewarded for her faith - if she can overcome her doubts and ultimately her pain, her punishment, then maybe he can too, and maybe it'll all start to make sense.

and for a while, it does! he gets the slayer form he gets a way out of his pain and his body he gets the rewardhigh from the killing and slowly he starts to tip over from -the pain is worth bearing for the larger goal- to -why shouldn't I be free of this- and he gets less and less concerned about it, and the relief starts to outweigh the guilt, and if he's being honest with himself he never felt that guilty anyway-

because raz is, when it comes down to it, a deeply selfish, intensely self important person, and the way his body is forces him to think about himself more than anything else (his pain, his loss, his absent memories) and that starts to consume him. and he does love shadowheart, but not enough to save her, and he does love his friends, but not enough to see past the things they tell him they want (ascending astarion, letting karlach die) because ultimately, everything else pales in comparison to him and his own desires.

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each wound a mouth singing

1k words durge/abdirak not sure how to content warn but. bdsm/torture/blood warnings (it's abdirak + durge)

His legs shake, Abdirak's hand on his neck the only thing keeping him upright. His breath comes fast, panting hot against the stone, hands flexing nails bloody and blackened. All he can smell, taste, feel, is the blood that pours from him, pools at his feet, in the curve of his spine. He revels in it, in the heat of it, on his skin and in his gut, singing-sparking               alive                and                 mine                 and                redredred                 like the rising sun.

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🌹🌹🌹

mwah have some raz<3

Open the mouth (taste the rot) and spit onto the ground, cram the fingers between the teeth (wide and flat no fangs here) and bite down until the pain is too much, traitorous body rebelling against the impulse (not these fingers not these bones) and drag the hand out dripping mouthwet bloodshine. It tastes wrong. Bitter like rot, stale like old blood turned black.

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most important things about modern au raz,in order:

seemingly indefinite collection of sick jackets

guy who is perpetually on his phone but never answers texts

has one of those tiktok kitchens that's incredibly sleek and beautiful and modern and has never once been used for actual cooking

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🍫💐🩷 for whoever you wish !!! MWAH

🍫 Who is more likely to steal the other's clothes? What are their favorite items to steal?

falynstarion: simply does not happen; they have wildly different dress senses. maybe they'd switch shirts once in a while, but... not really

tiawyll: wyll -> tia's clothes. it shortcircuits tia's brain every time.

shadowraz: raz Will borrow ('borrow') shadowheart's clothes bc he likes the smell. shirts/jackets in particular.

💐 What’s their favorite “domestic bliss” moment? Do they cook/clean together? Do they like to go out shopping together?

falynstarion: if they cook together, what's actually happening is falyn is cooking while astarion lounges around looking pretty. this works for them both. falyn hates shopping; astarion drags her out (<- knows she hates it)

tiawyll: tia will help wyll cook, but they're not much of a chef themself; they'd rather help out with cleaning while he cooks, or something similar. i can see them sitting around quietly reading together or smth similar tho......parallel play<3

shadowraz: i don't think either of them are particularly Domestic; they spend a lot of time sitting around drinking wine and talking shit, though.

🩶 Which one apologizes first? How do they apologize?

falynstarion: it depends on the situation; i think they're both equally not-great at apologising, but they'll both get to it eventually

tiawyll: they are both surprisingly good at communicating! sometimes wyll has to nudge tia a bit but they are both a bit self-sacrificing and tend to take things on even if it's not their fault, so they will usually apologise to each other pretty easily

shadowraz: shadowheart. raz has a strict 'never apologise' policy bc he's the worst<3

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hihiHI I would love to indulge ye … If they could change their ancestry and choose to live another life, would they? What path would they take? And What do they gain from taking a life ?

MWAH ty!! answered the first one for tia just below so I'll do the second one for them all :3

TIAVYN

it depends on the life - there's a certain satisfaction in killing someone who deserves it, and they do enjoy the act of killing in itself. there's accomplishment in winning a fight, there's a grim satisfaction in being the one to survive, and there's the physical sensation of doing the thing your body was made to do.

its not until later that the crippling guilt comes in:)

FALYN

similar to tia, I think she gets the most enjoyment out of the knowledge of success, of victory, the survival and the adrenaline rush of it.

RAZAKH

for him, I think it's much more of a physical sensation : he's never closer to bhaal than when he's killing, and that's when the pain and the wrongness of his body kinda fall away and he feels closest to himself. it's almost identity affirming, in a way, and combined with the relief of his physical symptoms it's a real high for him.

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MWAH. OKAY. How would falyn spend the last night of her life? ANDDD if tia could change their ancestry and choose to live another life, would they? What path would they take? AND. What keeps raz up at night?  or swap em around if u want mwah mwah

MWAH love youuu!!

FALYN

i think. depending on how she was gonna die and how she knew it was happening....she'd want to be outside. probably on her own- says her goodbyes, in her usual awkward stilted way, the day before, and then just vanishes into the woods. she wouldn't want anyone to see her die, especially not astarion. maybe she'd go hunting, maybe she'd just walk into the woods and keep going until she couldn't any more. either way, she's doing it as quiet and normal as she can. no funeral, no burial; let the hyenas have her.

TIAVYN

ohhhh....I think they'd be tempted. like, so, so tempted. I think, in the end, by the epilogue, they'd choose not to - they've been through so much and they have finally learned some kind of peace, and if nothing else there's a sense that this is a life they've fought and bled for, and it's theirs; still, they'd think pretty hard about it. there are a lot of points through act 1 and 2 where they'd do it in a heartbeat, too.

RAZAKH

he has nightmares + chronic pain lol so. there's that. there's also conflict about what he's doing, that sense that there's something else he should be doing, that things don't quite fit - he spends a lot of time going around in circles about what that could be, about the memories he's missing and concerns about how he came to be here, and to be the way he is.

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new baby:3 (he is sick in the head) (and also in the body)

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Haiiii hihihi.. 11 + 16 + 28 for ur Guys .. whomever you wish to discuss :33

hiii MWAH gonna do this for my boys<3

How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?

razakh: generally pretty good at finding out what's going on, usually in a way that implies everyone else in the room is the idiot; gets irritated if he remains confused

fathom: chronically pretending to know what's going on, to the point where it has landed him in charge of this gang of armed maniacs who are infinitely smarter and more powerful than him

What makes their stomach turn?

razakh: he's very frequently nauseous with pain: physical exertion and strain can also trigger this (8str babey) but he's good at hiding it. gore and bloodshed don't do this for him

fathom: he's not really inoculated against blood and guts the way the others are as dark urges, so he's a lot more sensitive to that. also very unsanitary things make him a bit green (figuratively) and spider imagery gets him also<3

Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

razakh: unpleasant truth, both to tell and be told - he does not like being lied to, and he will take offence.

fathom: much prefers telling lies (he does not like to say things that will upset people) but he'd rather be told the truth. he likes knowing what's going on:)

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2, 4, 5 for Everyone :3

ough juleeeees you're makinge my life DIFFICULT (<- LOVE talking about my guys)

How easy is it for your character to laugh?

tiavyn: not difficult, per se, but they have quite a specific sense of humour and a very flat affect; they're pretty deadpan generally even when they find stuff funny

falyn: if you are one of her specific favourite guys, not hard at all! she likes funny (mean) people:) if you are not one of her faves you get Nothing.

fathom: he loves to laugh:) is he being sincere? were you actually funny? is laughter appropriate in the situation? doesn't matter! he loves a joke he loves a laugh he is a smiley joyous boy<3

razakh: he laughs a lot and it is almost never a good sign. he tends to laugh as an emotional reaction to stuff that's not necessarily funny, and his sense of humour is Warped also🥰

lysander: she is a very serious person with a very deadpan sense of humour, so if you can make her laugh out loud that is an Achievement<3

How easy is it to earn their trust?

tiavyn: it really depends on the situation - quite difficult, but once earned it is very very difficult to break. they make this snap judgement based entirely on vibes also.

falyn: very hard. probably requires multiple demonstrations of reliability before she can really be said to trust someone.

fathom: what does trust mean, really? he is very quick at judging people's behaviour, and a lot of his decisions are made on faith that his own conclusions are correct and people will act the way he predicts. and if that's not trust, what is?:)

razakh: it....really doesn't matter that much to him. similar to fathom, he often leans on his interpretations of people to behave the way he expects, and treats them accordingly, but unlike fathom he generally won't adjust his behaviour or change anything to endear himself to people - he doesn't need people in the way fathom does, so trust really isn't an issue for him (real answer: very very difficult)

lysander: she'd like to say difficult, but really if someone is like. decent and somewhat helpful to her she's like 💕yay💕. she generally assumes people are Reasonable and Rational and can be relied upon to act Correctly if the situation is explained to them properly (<- high wis bitch who thinks everyone else thinks like this too)

How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

tiavyn: they're fairly distrustful in general, but they try not to be? they like giving people the benefit of the doubt...but if you take advantage of that it's over<3

falyn: easy. babygirl is on a hair trigger at all times

fathom: assumes everyone is out for themselves all the time,just like him; he will leap to conclusions and decide almost at random that people hate him/want him dead/are actively trying to sabotage him, etc cetera. easy.

razakh: doesn't trust anyone, as a general rule; not in a particularly paranoid way, but he is the centre of the universe and that comes with its own drawbacks:/

lysander: there are very specific things you can do that will ruin your relationship with her forever, but she's pretty forgiving on the whole! still, once broken, her trust is very hard to gain back.

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my little princess who has done so many crimes

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🤍💜🍭

forrrrrrrr tiawyll anddd falynastarion anddddd shadowheartraz :3

🍭 What's something they can never agree on (big or small)?

falynastarion: there's a lot of little things; they have very different outlooks, and different day-to-day priorities. what i'm saying here is about three times a week they have a row about some petty bullshit (astarion took too long to get ready; falyn tracked mud through the house)

tiawyll: tia will never fully forgive themself for their role in the absolute plan; they have reservations about their 'atonement' and how redeemable they are, which do differ from wyll's feelings😔

shadowraz: i think there are differences in the ways they worship: this won't be a big deal until later in their story, but raz (being the direct child of bhaal rather than simply chosen for his particular devotion) takes a lot more liberties with his interpretations of what it means to be Chosen, something shadowheart takes very very seriously, and something that will increasingly cause friction between them

💜 How do they silently show love or affection towards the other?

falynstarion: she likes being near him, physically; not sex, just sleeping nearby, keeping him in sight, Being Around Him; he, at least later in the relationship, has to learn to be quite direct about what he needs/wants from her, which is kind of a struggle for him but I think a thing he does try to do :3

tiawyll: tia will always always check on wyll first after a fight, before anything else; they heal him, obviously, and gradually learn to be more physically affectionate than they're used to, and they start to branch out into trying new things with his encouragement, which they'd never do on their own. wyll is pretty openly affectionate, but I think he develops a really strong sense for when they're overwhelmed or distressed and gets very good at defusing/getting them out of situations without drawing attention to the fact that's what he's doing

shadowraz: i think there are a lot of Meaningful Looks - neither of them are super verbal people, and they both get good at expressing a lot through looks; raz is also a secret gift giver and will leave little things around for shadowheart to find and then pretend he didn't<3

🤍 What is their favorite or most admired quality in the other?

falynstarion: survival. both of them recognise the other's survival drive, and while it's not necessarily a positive trait for them both all the time, it's something they both value highly in themselves and each other, and drives them to a borderline codependent level of loyalty

tiawyll: for tia, it's wyll's sense of justice; he's willing to reassess and change his mind in context, but he knows what he believes and he does stick to it, even to his own detriment. for wyll, it's tia's resilience: they've survived some insane shit, sacrificed an incredible amount for their beliefs, and they've pulled through

shadowraz: for shadowheart, it's raz's intensity: he's pretty single-minded a lot of the time and as someone who's spent her whole life working to a single goal, she recognises and likes that. for raz, it's her devotion, the strength of her belief and her willingness to sacrifice for it.

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"contemptible blood-pervert" is EXACTLY how I would describe razakh