#razael tag

[clever-and-unique-name]

2, 4, 16, and 19 for the ask the part that's out ask! <3

*sends hugs if wanted*

Thanks so much Anni dear, and I'd definitely love some hugs (and I know you could use some too!)

2. How do know its you thats out? What are your usual cues?

I don't usually take note of when it's me out, because I'm just kind of...here a lot, in between other parts being out. But when I do notice, it's because I feel completely exhausted and don't want to move from whatever comfy spot I've deposited myself in. I've usually got that bone-hurty tired.

3. What sort of aesthetics do you draw to?

Hmm, things that are comfy and cozy and warm. I like rich teals, but I also like autumny colors and aesthetics. I think every space could be improved with more blankets and/or pillows.

16. Do you have an inner world? Do you have a place you like in there?

Yeah, we have our enormous tree-that's-a-house. I like the common area a lot, it looks a bit like this:

I also have my own room inside, which is a cozy space with a big desk and some cozy nooks in the walls. Lots of books and blankets.

19. What’s your handwriting like?

[grayscale-kaleidoscope]

Hi Chime (or whoever's around answering)!!

I do have an actual DID question, if you'd be so kind as to answer.... if it's too personal and you don't want to/can't answer, or you would rather talk about it in DMs, that's okay too :)

Ummmm. So for parts that... you have multiple parts that have the same name, or they're kind of all [Name] but different.... how do you know that's what's happening? How do you differentiate them, if you can? I saw your tags on the poll about that, and I think you're the only pwDID we're close enough to ask about it who's experienced it.

We have vague unsettling feelings that we *might* have at least one part that's... well, multiple parts, but we keep going "That's too scary, I'm not going to look at it!"

So... I guess, here's asking if you have parsing-apart advice, or advice for how to look at it, so to speak <3

*big hugs*

*big hugs back*

I'm happy to share our experience with this, for whatever it's worth :')

So we have two different instances of "multiple parts with the same name/identity", and that's the Rues and Razaels.

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The Rues are younger, trauma-stuck parts. They pretty much feel defined by their experiences with attachment trauma, betrayal, and neglect--they all "look" similar inside, and are drawn to the same themes and mantras.

We've identified 5 Rues who consistently show up as separately formed identities who have chosen their own names additional to Rue. Then there are many fragments (which we simply call the "shards" because they feel brittle and sharp like glass) who show up, clearly carry "Rue-like" thoughts and trauma, but feel disconnected from any sort of identity past that. The shards simply feel like memory holders that split off from one of the other Rues and aren't able to think much past flashbacks and strong emotions.

We'd only been able to identify the differences in the Rues because they talked to an external person (Bunny, primarily Hail) who confirmed that their affect and personalities change. It made them become curious about who they were, and stop to reflect on their own about how they saw themselves and such. They realized that they had memory inconsistencies and slightly different feelings towards things, same as any other defined part.

They all still feel like "a Rue" first and foremost, though. Their roots are in that attachment trauma, even if they may have grown in slightly separate directions from it.

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I may talk about the Razaels a bit later, because they experience the "different Raz-es" quite a bit differently, but my thoughts ran out for now. I hope some of that was interesting/useful, at least!

[clever-and-unique-name]

I understand your frustration, but I respectfully disagree.

Full disclosure, we sometimes post personal stories and vents in #dissociative identity disorder for the same reason why we might post personal experiences with our depression and anxiety with the respective #depression and #anxiety tags. So your post does make me feel personally judged and criticized, but I’d like to present my argument anyway.

Frequently-used tags on tumblr turn into community spaces. #dissociative identity disorder is one of the few spaces where people with DID can talk about DID--including education and memes, but not limited to it. To be blunt, you not wanting to see personal posts in the tag sounds like a problem you should deal with on your end (for example, through filtering, muting, and blocking users and additional tags like #personal and #vent), not by asking everyone in the most widely-used DID tag to cater to your preferences.

What you are doing in this post is telling people who share their personal stories and vents in #dissociative identity disorder that “your stories, your experiences, your voices are not welcome here.” Which, since this group of people already tends to deal with inordinate amounts of shame from their own disorder, seems...callous, at best. Your comment about posting in the tag for pity is especially tasteless.

Rather than asking people to keep their personal stories and vents out of #dissociative identity disorder, might I suggest advocating for using additional tags for things like #DIDeducation and #DIDmemes? (As you touched on, #ActuallyDID is the most appropriate tag for personal stories from people with DID.) That way the main tag remains open and welcoming, and people who only want to see those specific kinds of content can follow accordingly.

-- Razael & Abel

Hey guys I have a proposition. So I'm in the "dissociative identity disorder" tag a lot. And one thing that really bugs me is the frequency of personal vents, stories, just talking about alters, and even "do not reblog" posts. I use this tag for information about having DID and also memes. Stuff I can reblog. The frequency of vents and personal stuff, especially since I also follow the tag, makes it so I don't see information. I just get random peoples vents in my feed.

That tag should be for education, not your vents. It really feels like a way to gather more pity for yourself by putting it in tags. And sure if you have DID, it makes sense why you want to use the #ActuallyDID tag so I won't complain about that part of it.

I say we use a new tag called #MyDID and #MyOSDD. A tag where you can talk about your experiences and vent and all that that's removed from the #Dissociative Identity Disorder tag do people can still use those to get information.

- Izabella

[twinunhinged]

is there someone you consider that have given you enlightenment other than family?

► TMI TUESDAY

❝During my time with the Equinox, I learned much about myself and my magick from Razael. I learned to not label my magick as good or bad but to just accept it as what it is. Mine.❞

[clever-and-unique-name]

And that's why they get along.

[clever-and-unique-name]

Handoff

[clever-and-unique-name]

picrew dump picrew dump picrew dump

really liked the one with the older/younger! was nice to pair up some parts with the ones they're closest to

Raz/Moss | Abel/Rue Mal/Reki | Tristan/Rei Iris/Rin | Jynx/Kestrel Diego | Astrid

[picrew 1] [picrew 2] [picrew 3]

[clever-and-unique-name]

doctor-flavored and sleeby

[clever-and-unique-name]

a quick soft Raz and Reki <3

[clever-and-unique-name]

making light of things ft. tristan and razael

[clever-and-unique-name]

picrew d u m p beep beep diversity win! jynx looks like a cartoon antagonist mad about a dog and rue accepted a hot mug of s o m e t h i n g that is hopefully not tied to somfing horrific. n we gave mal a cute flower crown bc him cute and deserve nice things <3

tristan | razael | jynx iris | astrid | mal reki | rue | diego

pls no rebl00gerino n don't ask me for sources bc I do not know blease sir I am only a dorito

[clever-and-unique-name]

found a [cute picrew!] wanted to make some before we have a terrible week >>

razael | tristan reki | mal | rue

(no re/bl0g pls!)

[clever-and-unique-name]

"Good to have you back, my sleepy little one 🖤" "Mal, you know better than anyone that I didn't actually go anywhere." "Perhaps...but it's good to see you, all the same."

[clever-and-unique-name]

[picrew dump]

diego | moss razael | reki jasper | tristan

(please don't re/bl0g!)

[clever-and-unique-name]

picrew dump :3 pls no rebloggy!

reki | razael | rin rei | schuyler | moss mal | rue | diego

picrews:

[reki/rin/schuyler/moss/diego] [razael/rei] [mal] [rue]

[clever-and-unique-name]

"I'm too old for your fairytales, Mal..." "How cynical, to think tenderness is the stuff of fairytales." "Not the...I meant, your smoke-and-mirrors. You're not truly here, and I know that." "I'm as here as you are." A gentle smile. "Rest, my little skeptical one. Dream pleasant dreams and, if you wish, you may return to ignoring me in the morning."

(please don't re/bl0g!)