#rawts leigh

[birdybirdnerd]

Dr Joy has some concerns about the Stanley Brigade

[birdybirdnerd]

Turns out just putting the Bucket over Perry's head like a blanket over a birdcage is enough to chill it out. Huh

Maybe don’t…. Look too hard at these ones. Kay?

[romansroys]

Omg that ep made the list?? That’s amazing!!!! God I love RAWT IN HELL! So good. And the reunion when they’re talking about feminism and Jax says “#MeToo” and everyone’s like🤦🏻‍♀️ and when Sandoval is in drag saying “he’s a fucking battered wife!” And kicks the door open oh my fucking god! OR when Jax dumps Laura-Leigh on the curb after her AA meeting (and she had that plaid mini skirt on) oh my god so many golden moments. I’m so excited for Kristen and Ariana to be friends! I’ve been waiting!

i know, i was so excited when i saw it on the list!! OMFG WHEN JAX SAID “#METOO” god he’s so so dumb. also “i’m not really sure what i’ve done to you, but i’ll take a pinot grigio” and that whole saga right after tom and ariana started dating and kristen like flew the miami girl to weho and cornered them at sur and they fled the scene and kristen and the maimi girl were just left alone in the back parking lot lmao. and the battered wife gif is truly my favorite thing in the world and i wish i had more of a reason to use it 

[birdybirdnerd]

SOOO many doodles and ideas. I'm having a blast with this new flavor of guy

Busts of all the rawts/rtaos guys, more random doodles including studies of Michael sheens face (mays narrators faceclaim), Stanley b giving the Narrator the old scare post-rtaos, and an idea we tossed around of perry trying to use its familiar face to trick the reconnaissance boys to... fun conclusions

[birdybirdnerd]

New entry into the rawts/rtaos collection! Late night perryfic.

Leigh's Narrator is the last to go.

[birdybirdnerd]

New guy just dropped for @queenburd's reset the actors on stage au

It is… not a Stanley. It looks like a Stanley, but that's just because, when it was collapsing in on itself and scrabbling at the shreds of code that remained, the Stanley model was the only one that existed, and so… it looks like Stanley.

What is it?

It's the Parable.

Specifically, the Parable that the programmer Stanley - the one who dragged the RAWTS boys together and started the process of saving Stan's Narrator - escaped from.

His Narrator was just as stubborn as he, and when The Narrator stole his Stanley away, it broke something inside his code. See, the Parable cannot continue without a Stanley. And just like how RAWTS bends around Stanley, how the story changes because of just how much he wants certain things to happen, so does the RTAOS au bend around the whims of his Narrator.

He wants revenge, on the Narrator that stole his Stanley. His Parable just wants Stanley.

But without the requisite parts of the wheel to keep turning, the Parable ends up cannibalizing itself, collapsing in on itself and shredding its code to ratty tatters.

The Narrator is no more- maybe, there are parts of him still in there. Dregs, pieces of his personality. Perhaps this entity born of a program's death throes even talks in his voice, in ripped and stitched-together voice lines. There are pieces of the Curator in there as well, and 432, but all has been reduced to a slurry of code that drags itself to other Parables in search of its Stanley, in search of the Narrator that did this to it.

When it comes across the other Narrators, having gathered to plot what would become RTAOS, they realize that it is the missing piece to how, exactly, they would even get their hands on the fellow. After all, there's still enough of that Stanley's Narrator in there, that reality tends to bend to his will.

At least, enough to reach through the veil and grab an unsuspecting Narrator.

This entity - whom the other Narrators took to calling 'Perry', as referring to it as 'the Parable' simply would not do, let's Leigh's Narrator believe he's the one in charge. After all, their goals are aligned at the moment, and all it wants is for things to be made right once more.

But once he starts acting outside of those aligned goals, it will be made in no uncertain terms who is really in charge.

The only problem is, even if Perry did get its hands back on its original Stanley, that won't… help, anymore. Not at this point.

Because it no longer has a Narrator. In its desperate efforts to hold its bit-rotting code together, it has long since cannibalized what remains of the fellow.

Of course, you'd think that could be solved by kidnapping another Narrator- only, there's enough redundancies in what remains of its code, enough pieces of him left that it keeps catching and tearing, it can't push past with another one can't ignore what's left, but that Narrator is gone he's dead he's dissolved but enough of him is still THERE but it's not enough-

So even if it did get Stanley back, even if it got another Narrator, it wouldn't be enough.

It would never be enough.

It's simply too… hungry, now.

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And now for something stupid to polish off the horror with:

[queenburd]

@birdybirdnerd has a therapist who specializes in protagonists who have made it out of their stories. After the events of rawts, Leigh referred our favorite duo to her. The Narrator seemed to think he didn’t need any therapy, having gone through a lot of growth in his time playing hero.

But he’s repressed a lot of emotions, suffers from some real stupid acts of self punishment, and has a desperate need to become whatever will best help other people. He wants more than anything to be worth liking and caring about.

Even so….he WAS a far cry different from the person who had severe choice paralysis and had a tendency to spiral and fixate.

But rtaos really brought those bad habits back to the forefront. Being forced back into a role and being severely punished if you fought back is a very triggering experience in its own right, not even considering the trauma the situation adds as well.

Good thing they have an excellent therapist and great support system, right?

[queenburd]

Some rawts and rtaos stuff!! Leigh continues to be the illegally the best, the Narrator sees a number of people he never thought he would see again, and somebody keeps mouthing off to his captors despite their best attempts to shut him up.

[queenburd]

some ramblings about rawts and rtaos under the cut ft @misspelled-magic

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 4:51 PM ok. have some thoughts now: some of the issues here might be coming from the fact that the narrators want to put Stanley and the Narrator into their roles within the Parable. where is this instinct coming from? is it just a sense of superiority? just the superiority thing wouldn't warrant all this effort. like, it makes more sense that they'd just try to get their Stanleys back. hm. also, the narrators are out of their own Parables. hm. yeah, as it is, Leigh's narrator doesn't feel like he has the right motivation to be a major antagonist. like... it feels like it has to be more personal?

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 4:52 PM straight up, i have no interest in pursuing this tory. this has literally become whump for whumps sake. so im checked out already

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 4:52 PM but like. it's mostly a punishment from the other narrators. that this bitch thought he was so much better than them [4:53 PM] honestly its just to hurt a person, which is what most of them were doing to their stanleys anyway [4:53 PM] which was the whole point. like. theyre not LEARNING. [4:53 PM] but you know. sunk cost fallacy.

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 4:53 PM god the narrator is consistently a idiot in every single variation.

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 4:54 PM i just heard my guy rear his head like "HEY" like. babe. you are also an idiot. in a funnier way.

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 4:54 PM he's an idiot (affectionate) (I adore this feature)

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 4:55 PM honestly i think i just keep like.... i dont know how to describe it but its obviously a theme underlying a lot of these ideas [4:56 PM] the theme that "maybe this one narrator was the one that went wrong. that broke his design. a narrator is not supposed to BE this way. he's not supposed to CARE like this." and the repeated challenging of that idea. [4:59 PM] and repeatedly, the theme is left unresolved. it's left open ended. because hes ONLY going to the places where there are narrators who could never compromise with their Stanleys. the call Stanley puts out will NEVER be answered by any other Stanley who got out just fine with his Narrator, because they never had REASON to interact with this Narrator. [4:59 PM] we dont know if there are any of those out there. [5:00 PM] the answer I keep trying to go with is "does it matter? this is how he is now. this is the person he wants to be. and it's a good person." (edited) [5:00 PM] but i dont think my mind is resting.

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 5:00 PM mmmmmm. see, the idea of what if other narrators changed because of what they saw with Stan's narrator-- I LOVE that idea.  i feel like that would need to happen for it to be narratively satisfying. because like... to me, the Narrator and Stanley have to be together-- even when they are the worst versions of themselves, they are codependent. and honestly, I feel like the Stanleys that were hurt would be in the minority

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 5:34 PM i might be remembering how things work wrong, but i dont think that most iterations of the Narrator and Stanley would know about the pod be defualt-- so in those instances, the Narrator (stan's) would just be able to show them to the pod? and then these other iterations of the Narrator and Stanley don't experience the thing where the Narrator gets stuck in the Parable?

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 5:36 PM hes only ending up in Parables where the relationship is so deteriorated that that iteration's narrator would never give Stanley a chance at freedom

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 5:37 PM ohhh. he's has to go to parables like that [5:37 PM] is there a particular reason that's going on?

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 5:37 PM yeah, the idea is he doesnt know if hes ending up where hes NEEDED or if he is literally the outlier [5:38 PM] hence. gestures again. the theme.

Misspelled-Magic — Yesterday at 5:38 PM ahhh [5:38 PM] thats gonna hurt

May “Knife Bird” Sparrow — Yesterday at 5:39 PM yeah, thats why he has such a shit time of it and why its like "this is going to hurt no matter how he looks at it" [5:39 PM] "so he doesnt. look at it. he just does what he has done for years: he helps Stanley." [5:42 PM] because yes, there is a codependency to the narrator and stanley, on the whole, they do NEED each other, but here he is, on his own, trying to make the best of it, and watching these ones who have their stanleys and treat them as so lesser, and there has to be a point where the line gets drawn. you can say "they need each other" all you like, but if one of them never treats the other like a person, then.... a good person on the outside is going to object.