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One of Those Days

Today, I don’t love myself as much. I feel so insecure about so many things. I feel ugly and fat. I feel like I am not doing enough at work and in life in general. I had been lazier and irresponsible these past few months. Unable to make healthy decisions for myself. Frustrated about my failures and wrong decisions in the past. Worrying about tomorrow. Always indulging in the calling of the flesh. Seeking attention and validation from the wrong people and places. Making myself feel so unwanted and undesired. I had neglected my quiet time with God. I feel empty and lonely. It’s depressing. I tested Covid positive today too btw. Amazingly, God’s peace and joy covered my entire being. I know that I’m gon be okay, just like how I had always been. I know that this is just one of those days again.

For a moment, I allowed myself again to think only of me. When I look at myself, I see all these scars and imperfections and now I realize why we are called to look at Jesus.

How could you love someone like me, Lord? You who is perfect and divine, how could you still love me to the extent of dying on the cross to pay for these very sinful thoughts that I am writing right now? Forgive me O God. Renew my strength to serve you and praise you in the manner that your Holy Name deserves. Forgive me, Father.

Date: 12/08/2022 at 1:59 am