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I hope you learn to listen to science. I genuinely wholeheartedly hope that your experience hasn't harmed you if you truly are a system. Trauma is tough, I hope you find peace.

Endos may be scientifically impossible, and the endo community has done horrible things to the system community as a whole, but I truly do hope you are okay, regardless of being horribly misinformed.

omg our first hate ask! our blog is big enough for that, yippee! /s

violet here! okay, so normally i wouldn’t respond to this kind of thing very intensely because honestly we don’t like getting into syscourse much. however, this is a good time and place to put our stance on things, as well as answer this ask anyways. (everything is going below the cut now since it is a bit long)

okay so first of all, i wanna address the fact that you are implying that we’ve had trauma, and this isn’t really true. sure we’ve had a few scary events and whatnot from when we were younger, but we don’t really have trauma. our family is and was, for the most part, kind and caring as well, and hasn’t informed us of any traumatic events.

back when we thought we were traumagenic, as it was the only type of system we had known of at the time, we were stumped on one thing. where our trauma was. and believe me when i say we dug and dug and dug, trying to find anything that would be traumatic. it became a major life focus, made us paranoid, and made us feel horrible that we hadn’t found anything. we tried to force memories that didn’t exist. starting becoming scared of things that had never happened to us. tried to reason that fictive exomemories must be telling us something about our past trauma. and yet, we found nothing.

so, despite having no trauma whatsoever, we still felt all of these things. we were scared, and felt horribly like frauds. during therapy sessions about plurality, we shared almost nothing because we were scared that because we couldn’t find our trauma, that we couldn’t be real. we were told by both the therapist and our mom that our headmates were not real. cyan started to push us away in fear. headmates began to hide themselves away too. even our happy littles, who are the whole reason we know we’re plural, hid. the only two people near the front were cyan and purple. both of them were screaming and crying at each other. cyan told purple to go away because e “wasn’t real”. purple broke, and after months of feeling so happy together, we broke apart, feeling more empty than before.

and yet, the headmates never really left. we continued to show up, even though many of us were in denial about being real. we are still there, a long time after being told we didn’t exist. we still experience changes in who controls the body, contrasting likes and dislikes, very different personalities from each other. we were still there.

so, we eventually stumbled onto the term endogenic, and things just kind of clicked. hearing that we are a system, even though it wasn’t caused by trauma was life changing. finally, we started to feel whole, we started to feel like we understood and belonged. we realized that we are still real, and much more real than we were when we were digging for trauma that didn’t exist. that’s how we know we’re real. we know our own experiences, and one person telling us that we’re “scientifically impossible” and doing “horrible things to the system community” isn’t going to change that fact that we exist.

however, i’m not done yet. you happened to say that endos are “scientifically impossible” and doing “horrible things to the system community”, as previously mentioned. however, these claims aren’t really very true.

firstly, i would love if you could provide me some actual evidence that endogenic systems can’t exist, since you are the one making such a claim. secondly, some evidence for endos being harmful would also be great as well.

thing number one, here is an article that is commonly brought up in endo related debates that i could not leave out. i suggest you check it out and give it a good read. since it is a source that mostly speaks for itself, i will simply let you read the many pages worth of information on endogenic systems.

in addition to that, here is another article i found on my own time, and while it is not particularly about endogenic systems, i felt it was informative regardless. i would like to preface this by saying i am not exact a fan of this article, as there were some parts that i didn’t like how it was written and what not, but it is a third person perspective, neutral group, with no bias. if i am reading it correctly (which i really do hope i am, though sometimes i do fail on my reading comprehension), the article is about the ties in plurality and other identities, as well as making comparisons in traumagenic plurality versus other pluralities, tulpas and endos. primarily, the comparison section is about tulpas and traumagenic, and i am not well educated on those, so i will be leaving that part at that. what i’m primarily here to call out is the way it describes how similar the experiences and symptoms are noted from both traumagenic systems and nontraumagenic systems, as well as the segments where it states that many traumagenic systems may not meet all the criteria’s for a diagnosis. i bring this up because it seems as if some anti endos think that to be plural you MUST fit all of the diagnostic criteria AND be traumagenic, when this does not appear to be true. the DSM is NOT a holy text, and scientists discover new things quite frequently.

for you last point, i’m a bit confused on where you’re getting that the endo community has “done horrible things to the system community as a whole”. i have never seen that before, and that is an incredibly bold claim to make without presenting any evidence of this happening. since i’m not exactly sure what you are talking about, or what you mean by “horrible things”, i will just says that endos are not harming the plural community. for starters, “plural” is a term that INCLUDES endos, and i believe it was MADE for this purpose (however i currently cannot find the source for this information, i have seen it many times). so, by pushing endos away, the PLURAL community is being harmed. i since i assume you are equating traumagenic to DID/OSDD (which i believe are not the same, but i am unsure of where any sources on that are either), i would also like to inform you that i have NEVER seen an endogenic system claim to have DID or OSDD. endogenic systems are NOT inherently claiming to be a disordered system. we are NOT taking away from traumagenic systems.

that being said, i would LOVE to inform you that we ARE okay, and are doing quite well as we are becoming informed on endogenic systems. thank you for your time to anyone who read this!

also please let me know if i said anything stupid, or messed up! i have no idea if i’m doing this right at all! i’ve never really done syscourse like this before so this is a first! (and please let me know if the second source is bad, since i bet someone is much better at reading and breaking down those types of studies and articles)

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(note: this contains usage of plural me and a general plural identity that our system uses. this is noted because we don’t want this to read as too confusing. however, this is still kinda abstract and confusing so i have no idea if this makes any sense at all)

i wish we didn’t have to say “i can’t explain my gender” to everyone else. the gender connects so deeply and directly to what this creature body is, that it can’t be explained without outing our non humanity. we are no female nor male, and we serve no function in reproductive processes. we are another, more complex role. a care taker of sorts, one who watches over, with no urge to create more ourselves. we are not only another gender, but another sex. one that is unlike those of humans. our role is different, but is it not just as important? i must watch over and take care, for both the young and the old. it is my duty to simply observe, care for, protect, and sometimes even raise, yet not create. to take in those who are in need. to oversee, and intervene. to serve for those who are other than me. my gender is creature and my gender is to serve.

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filter tags list:

tags are organized by who is being tagged for because some headmates will still want to look, it’s just so we can tell the ones tagged for to look away. the tags have different titles because some headmates need different wordings to prevent them from looking anyways. these may be updated at any time, and we will post if anything is updated.

violet: (#tag for violet)

talk of eating

talk relating to stomachs

cannibalism in all forms

derealization

extreme gore imagery

v0re (i have doubts it will show up but just in case)

purple: (#purple don’t look)

gambling and casino themes

prey drive

consumption of eggs

yandere content (just in general ig)

hard to read text just so we can warn him or tell him what ur says before his eyes hurt (colored text, cursive fonts, fonts like tumblr font “chat”, images with text that don’t have an image id or alt with image id, text gifs, weirdly shaped text)

orange: (#orange please ignore)

fakeclaiming and mentions of it (she gets really pissed at fakeclaimers, which is reasonable but we don’t want him to start vauge posting about it)

nothing else for him yet, but we have a feeling she will need some in the future because under some circumstances he can get really aggressive

as of september 16, 2024, this is everyone and everything that would be nice to have filter tagged

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✮🛸intro🪐✮

we don’t use code names anymore because none of us gaf lmao. we have dsmp fictives so if you don’t like that then leave. also we swear. a lot

we’re a endo system who has been on tumblr for a little bit and are redoing certain aspects of our blog to be a bit more accurate! many of us are nonhuman in the headspace in one way or another (kin, holothere, etc). in addition to this, we’re all collectively a goop dog alien who also has parasites, or as we call them, “bugs”! we are physically goop, but are usually in a human form as it takes too much effort to intentionally shift so might as well stay in disguise. we are also able to rarely shift into other creatures, such as a jerboa, but we usually stay human or sometimes our true body. originally we were nervous about bringing up the whole physically nonhuman thing, but with the recent in holothere content, we decided to go ahead and show that part of ourselves to tumblr. also, we mostly use the color purple, despite the rainbow username so yeah.

dni/byi

filter tags

goopsona refenerce image

✮🛸basic info🪐✮

~ our name is goop (collective identity) or lemons (tumblr system name)!

~ collectively we currently use they/them (in a plural sense), it/its, and be/bim/bis/bimself!

~ we use the label holothere usually, but don’t rlly care much abt or mind labels

~ we’re probably neurodivergent so keep that in mind!

~ some of us are adults, while others are not (the body is a minor tho so don’t be weird and shit)

~ endo system (no syscourse, most of us hate discourse and all that stuff)

~ we’re still learning abt the whole parasitical bugs thing, and will add more abt that whenever we find stuff out

~ plz interact u you want, we like to try and meet new people even tho we’re bad at social stuff! (rbs, asks, comments are much appreciated!)

~ we mostly post nonhuman and alterhuman stuff, so except to see that kind of thing on this blog as we get better at writing (we struggle with writing so we’ll see how much improving actually happens lol)

~ the purple goopy alien dog designs is a more online sona version of what we look like, which was designed by a friend!

✮🛸headmates list🪐✮

codename+emoji (pronouns//non-human?//kin type//other)

~ tommy (moots and headmates can call me toms/tom)🌹(he/fae/she//existence related to tommyinnit in some way but we don’t know for sure the details//red panda and bird hybrid//polar bearkin//minor)

~ nick or nikki 🏵️(he/she//piplup and vampire//huskykin//age regressor?)*

~ yellow 🍋(alien//whalekin and monkeykin//dsmp ponk but doesn’t rlly like talking abt it)

~ phil 🍃(he/him//part crow//shockingly philza,idk where he’s been tho)

~ cyan (can also call pup) 🦋(kinda dogkin but it’s complicated, hawkkin, arctic foxkin, sockeye salmonkin//minor)

~ ranboo 🫐(he/him//some kind of creature//ranboo fictive but dunno where he’s been)

~ sodalite/soda 🌀(dragon//uses translations form other alters)

~ purple(d)/finn/cosmo (moots and headmates can call me purp)🪻(ey/em/eirs/emself and he/him//dsmp purpled fictive, don’t like me? fuck off then because i like me//alien, rabbit, and jerboa (complicated)//rabbitkin, duckkin, agoutikin, maybe something else but idk)

~ iris ☂️ (they/them//alien//polecat therian//minor//age regressor)

~ pink 🌸(he/him//pig//technoblade fictive but doesn’t rlly care if you call him that or not)

~ crimson 🧣(he/him//demon dog)

~ frost ❄️ (any pronouns, including neos//bug alien//questioning sea turtle kin)

~ taffy 🎀 (any//angel)*

~ lime 🍊(any of he/she/they/it//lion)

~ ube 🪁 (he/him, sometimes they, never she//eevee//luigi fictionkin(i think)//age regressor//i’m not the brightest or best at communicating sorry//trans in a kinda confusing way??? [complicated but i feel the need to specify as it is very important to me specifically])*

~ forest 🐊 (he/it, maybe other but dunno//crocodilian or gator thing//maybe agre?//it types like this a lot so be patient with it)*

~ littles 🌤️ (anonymous)

*very close to each other and often all active at the same time

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do really wish we could talk about that source because many of us do really like one very small specific part of it that was mostly away from the really shitty parts (which is the mentioned headmates specific source) without people disliking us for it though. it not like we *chose* that source or we *chose* that character anyways

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ahahahaha why is the physical shift thing happening again and why is it happening in publiccccc

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DNI:

basic dni (harmful paraphillias (pro/neu/complex contact), racists, queerphobes, intersexists, ableists, antisematics, etc)

ra.dqueers/transID

proship

anti endos and sysmeds (we are endo)

anti d.smp fictives (our source is not a reason to be rude)

weight and body shamers of any kind

pro ana

nsfw blogs

disordered abuse believers

anti nonhuman (all forms of nonhuman)

SH and ED centric blogs

anti-self-dx with research

those who do not filter tag animal death and gore

anti palestine

BYI:

las nevadas fictionfolk be warned that our purp fictive is quite “territorial” so to say. when interacting please be aware of this because he very frequently can do a complete 180 in attitude and we’re not exactly sure how ey would interact with a las nevadas fictionfolk. (this especially applies to quackitys. e is not scared of them, quite the opposite actually.)

some of our headmates are very sensitive so if your blog frequently posts about our headmate’s triggers please do not ask to be mututals unless willing to actually filter tag

ask to be mututals please

purp has a lot of behavioral “issues” and gets upset very easily. we’re not asking for him to be babied just for other to be careful when interacting with him, and we have a guide on interacting with him that you can search for

if you consistently and/or intentionally trigger headmates we will let purp go after you, and ey will not be as nice as the rest of us will be

purp is also very picky about the portrayal of his canon counterpart, and may get upset if something doesn’t fit what he sees

we’re not anti-kink, just uncomfortable with seeing nsfw in our safe space

do not mention food or stomach related things to us without filter tagging. if iris reads it they will not feel good and we will all be upset. do not ask for reasons behind this.

some of us don’t use tone tags, but can provide them if asked to

we try to avoid discourse, but occasionally purp engages because ey feel that it is a way of protecting us by eliminating the problem. do not try to criticize him about this because we are already working on it

some of us can’t read typing quirks so please translate if we ask

singlets who engage in syscourse and system related identity policing are on thin ice

last updated september 10, 2024

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just made some changes to our pinned!

btw we have other fictives that are not dsmp, we just latched onto that source when we were troubled, and they’re the only fictive who actually like to use tumblr lol

the changes in a nutshell:

-purp stopped caring abt ppl knowing he’s a dsmp fictive and also uses the names finn and cosmo (he also very much so likes being called purpled, and moots+headmates can use purp for him. can also still call him purple) new tag is #purp🪻

-violet’s name is iris! also doesn’t mind bein called violet tho. new tag is #iris☂️

-cyan can also be called pup, no tag change

-orange’s name is nick and she also uses nikki. new tag is #nick🏵️

-yellow is technically a dsmp fictive but plz don’t talk abt it with them, no tag or name change but more detail in pinned

-green and blue (who don’t use the account but showed interest before we made it) are philza and ranboo. their tags are updated but again, we don’t use those tags

-red’s name is tommy and was created in some way, shape, or form that relates to tommyinnit (moots+headmates can call him toms) new tag is #tommy🌹

-indigo’s name is sodalite/soda, new tag is #sodaliteee🌀

-arctic’s name is frost, new tag #frost❄️

-pink is also a fictive but doesn’t rlly care, no tag change but details in pinned

-also were adding a dni sometime soon i swear

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we’re probably getting rid of the whole code names thing coz most of us don’t actually care abt it. was only done for our fictive’s safety, but apparently most of them don’t care anymore, and the ones that do enjoy using their code name as a sceond name anyways

so liek sometime very soon (possibly in the next hour) we might get rid of that so then everyone will know our actual names! (excluding the body’s name, and those who don’t wnat their actual name out there)

might hold a poll for something beforehand, but i wnat it mututals only so i will likely make an sideblog for that

-vio

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Things are… not going well innerworld. We will try our best to keep the issue away from Tumblr, as we do not want to bother anyone with it. However it is becoming more difficult for me to monitor the front, so things might be said regardless. All I’m doing is giving a heads up so mutuals know.

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mututals! we’re gonna be on a plane for a few hours so we were wondering if we could draw some of you? (nonhuman specifically)

if so, let us know!

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as a minor clarification, to us the like button can be viewed as just “oh i like this” or as “i support you/this”

just stating this to prevent further misunderstandings, don’t feel obligated to do anything /nbr,informing

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stupid aaa fingers stop hitting the unfollow button we’re not trying to unfollow ppl

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we might yoink some new collective neopronouns coz we have wanted some for a while and never got around to looking for them

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completely random but imma drop the art our friend made of our nonhuman sona self (essentially our nonhuman form but more aesthetically pleasing)

just incase people wanna more in-depth visual image of the alien goop dog you’re reading about!

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was wondering if there are any other physical nonhumans who can shapeshift into multiple different things? i’m interested in seeing who else is like us and to compare experiences (i find community documenting fascinating and fun)