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vamptastic · 5 months ago

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It can just be sort of exhausting growing up in a time where everybody's worst projections and stereotypes and misconceptions about transness are constantly shoved in your face by assholes if you're remotely involved in trans communities online. Or hell, they're just in the news headlines themselves. Or being espoused by peers that wouldn't have had transgenderism so much as cross their mind twenty years ago. I'm tired of the evil voice in my head having an endless supply of ammunition.

#that rogd shit makes me want to kill someone #my mom even fell for it and was interrogating me abt my friends in middle school #in reality i knew internally years before telling classmates was outed against my will by a friend and everybody who turned out queer #came out after me or while i was planning how to come out myself whilst convinced i would then promptly be kicked out of my house #and also a lot of that theory presupposes that #a. I can't tell the difference between gender dysphoria and normal insecurity and general mental illness #b. Addressing those other issues would eliminate the gender dysphoria #and c. That I received any kind of social reward for coming out (cough cough being outed) as an 11 year old (I did not)#in short it's the neuroses of a bunch of idiot mothers who would've done the same shit about any other myth shoved in their face #rainbow party and satanic panic level of critical thinking.#but well. it plays well into the fears of parents and the notions people have about young GNC women #and in terms of a demand it essentially boils down to keep existing the way that makes you miserable forever #until you convince yourself it's not so bad. Which I've spent 7 years on. And am very sick of.#well. anyway. there's just a lot of awful ideas in my head from some of the most bigoted people alive tormenting me.#sometimes looking at that sort of drivel helps in that i realise these people are idiots #they usually are just very mean sadistic people or deeply scared and paranoid. or both. or just dumb.#and finding the logical holes helps. but some of it just nastiness and the nastiness sticks.#and it doesn't help when i know most cis people around me buy into these ideas at least a little

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