#quoting 4.48 psychosis is my fave activity to do 4 life | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

beastblade69 · 9 months ago

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I wanted to check out another lone ranger comic which is about tonto, but Ion have any motivation. thinking about rewatching one flew movie, but I'm afraid that if I rewatch it for too many times it'll become average to me. I'd fucking love to reread the book because it once made me feel so alive and feeling like I'm alive is a vital need for me. but I have too many projects to do and I'd rather spend my free time watching a movie because it's really hard for me to concentrate on books

#I'm so fucking tired #need to erase my memory to reread one flew once again to feel it like I felt for the first time #the fucking all time problem is that I cannot find new hyperfixations #they are so rare to have for me #I could have thousands of average interests but they don't feel the same as the hyperfixation #THE FUCKING FEELING I GET WHEN I'M FIXATED. ME AND MY HYPERFIXATION BECOME ONE WE CANNOT PART #fucking want it back #I love sarah kane and lone ranger but these ain't fixations unfortunately #I get up at six and start my search for you. if I've dreamt a message of a station or a pub or a street I go there. And I wait for you.#me trying to find a new fixation #quoting 4.48 psychosis is my fave activity to do 4 life

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