#queue:portrait

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A photo of long skinny white dog with a long snout and sad eyes looking up at the viewer. It's next to a screen door that's mostly of of frame and it's standing on pavement.

There is text above and below it that says:

(Above) "WE ARE NOT "BORN TO DIE", DOES A BOOK BEGIN JUST TO FINISH? DOES A SONG OPEN WITH A BEAUTIFUL CHORD PURELY TO END?"

(Below) "YES WE ARE BORN WIT HTHE INEVITABLE FATE OF DEATH, BUT THAT IS MERELY THE FINAL ACT OF THE PLAY. WE ARE BORN TO LOVE, BE JOYOUS, TO MOVE, LEARN, CRY, AND FEEL. WE ARE IN FACT BORN TO LIVE."]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID:

lady macbeth macbeth

i love you you have transformed me with strange tenderness and i am the monster that startles me in the mirror. and i have come full circle. i cannot allow this. this is me, myself as i was destined to be from my birth. so soft it hurts.

note: unsure how this poem translates to screen readers, so just in case, i wanted to put it into plain words.

there are two blocks of text next to each other. one for lady macbeth, one for macbeth.

if you just read lady macbeth's, it reads: "i love / you / with strange tenderness / that startles me / and / i cannot allow / myself / to be / so soft."

macbeth's reads: "you / have transformed me / and i am the monster / in the mirror. / i have come full circle. / this. this is me, / as i was destined / from my birth. / it hurts."

when you read the two together, it goes: "i love you / you have transformed me / with strange tenderness / and i am the monster / that startles me / in the mirror. / and i have come full circle. / i cannot allow this. / this is me, / myself as i was destined / to be from birth. / so soft it hurts."

ID end.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID:

Option 1: "will there be negative consequences if you dont do the thing? -> yes -> do it bored/scared/stupid but by jove just do it"

Option 2: "will there be negative consequences if you dont do the thing? -> no -> will you feel better after doing the thing? -> yes -> do it bored/scared/stupid but by jove just do it"

Option 3: "will there be negative consequences if you dont do the thing? -> no -> will you feel better after doing the thing? -> no -> if it sucks.... hit DA BRICKS!"]

biggest mindfuck is the fact that it can be so so difficult to tell the difference between when it's time for "do it bored/scared/stupid but by jove just do it" and when it's time for "if it sucks hit the bricks"

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: The top left of a piece of paper. Some words have been cut off or blacked out.

"STRICTLY PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTI-- They Them

(Personal details are blacked out with marker.)

Manchester

Dear Them,

You have been referred for an assessmen--"

End ID.]

the funniest thing that’s happened to me recently is that someone seemingly tried to update my pronouns on the medical system but accidentally made it so that my actual name is now “They Them”

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A screenshot that's simple black text on a white background. The brackets used were originally square brackets, but I changed them to rounded brackets because I wasn't sure if having too many square brackets would mess up any screen readers.

The text reads: "Chapter 49 - someone (an event takes place, impacting one or more characters)"

End ID.]

Just opened my fic document and found this

Thanks, past me. Incredibly helpful.

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A small sandy-brown rabbit tucked into a fluffy white bed, with a similarly soft-looking white blanket drawn over it. There's a green leaf pattern on the blanket. The rabbit's eyes are half-closed, like it's drifting off. In the top left, there is black text that says "it has gotten better before". End ID.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A screenshot of a Tweet from tate @50FirstTates. The profile picture is a white cat in round sunglasses and a blue patterned shirt.

“the banana was once a perfect representation of phone shape. u could hold it up like ‘haha hello?’ and ur friends would die laughing. those times are behind us. phones are just rectangles. we need a replacement food. it’s the poptart’

Posted 2023-04-05. 

End ID.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: On a light yellow background, the words say, "The dog that weeps after it kills is no better than the dog that doesn't. My guilt will not purify me." The image is cropped tightly so it's made up of only those words. End ID.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A photo of a raccoon sitting on a rocking chair, in front of a fireplace with a brick wall. It's biting on a keyring, with a key attached to it. Overlaid on the picture is large white text, with some words written in WordArt, represented in different colours below.

It says, "If I ever come off a little weird

and you wonder if there's something wrong with me

I assure you there is." End ID.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A text from John Rogers @/jonrog1, on June 1 2022.

"Yet another evening I close my eyes, pinch the bridge of my nose, take two short sharp breaths and remind myself millions of people led satisfying, meaningful lives during the fall of the Roman Empire."

End ID.]

I will never get over how weird it feels to have tragic and emotional chapters of your life where you just also still go to work, and the grocery store, and see funny videos online all while feeling such paralyzing fear and heartache

life just goes on no matter what

[badboyportrait]

[Image: A text message that says "Can we keep arguing it was turning me on". End ID.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: The first image is a gif of someone standing up at throwing a shoe at George Bush. It flies over his head and hits the American flag behind him. The gif zooms in so you can see the whole thing happen again more clearly.

The next image is a set of tags that say '#am i studying the reddit refugees like geckos in a terrarium? #yes #but also i'm never going to not reblog a hero throwing his shoes at dubya'

End ID.]

Having your own personal blog is honestly quite a nice change of pace compared to Reddit. I could put a funny GIF of George Bush getting hit by a shoe on here and the worse case scenario is that no one even notices.

You put that on a big subreddit and you get your eyes gouged out and a heap of political discourse underneath your post.

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A screenshot that says "'I just think goodness is more interesting,' Morrison said. 'Evil is more constant. You can think of different ways to murder people, but you can do that at age five. But you have to be an adult to consciously, deliberately be good - and that's complicated.'" End ID.]

cruelty is so easy. youre not special for choosing it

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: A screenshot from Disco Elysium.

"LOGIC (Medium: Success) - Do it for the picture puzzle. Put it all together. Solve the world. One conversation at a time."

End ID. ]

at times when hope is too big of a thing to have, curiosity (even clinical or small) is a very good placeholder

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: Tweet by cinnamon bun @notsofiacoppola. It says "securing your desired username on a new app is the closest millennials and zoomers will get to owning land." End ID.]

[badboyportrait]

[Image ID: #bro shoulda been anywhere but the club]

tempted to make a "he should've been at the club" joke about majima being only 24 in yakuza 0 but like. technically he WAS at the club. as the manager