#q&a section ! ; asks

[cenvast]

toshiro in your fanfic seems to like hugging/holding/cuddling kabru a lot. i forgot if he is like that in the manga but would you say he would be the more cuddlier of the two (especially with kabru)?

you're definitely right about toshiro being touch-starved in my fic sldkfj the short answer to your question is that yes, he's clingier than kabru in their relationship. i'll explain why i wrote him this way!

in canon, toshiro seems to dislike affectionate physical contact from other people. he appears to be uncomfortable with laios' touch though it's unclear if that's just influenced by his relationship with laios. in my memory, the only other person to consistently touch him is maizuru, who he ignores, since it's usually in the context of her grooming him as his servant. i would still categorize her touch as affectionate since she cares for him deeply and still dotes on him. we see falin touch him to rescue him from the nightmares, which sort of counts as affection since healing is a type of care, but he doesn't look particularly comfortable there either.

kabru touches people, including toshiro, much more casually than toshiro does. he shakes and squeezes laios' hand. he hugs rin. he grips mithrun's shoulders. etcetera. kabru is very comfortable using touch as a tool to foster intimacy in his relationships.

opposingly, we can glean from canon that toshiro hasn't experienced much physical affection in his life. he comes from a household where loving touch is rare. his father and hien don't hug him for comfort when he cries as a child. we rarely see maizuru hug him or touch him affectionately. multiple factors contribute to his physical distance from others including his culture's norms, his parents' general neglect, and his noble status. it'd be inappropriate for servants like maizuru or hien to frequently hug him even as a child, so if his father and mother weren't hugging him, no one really was.

i personally think that since toshiro hasn't experienced much touch, he doesn't know how much he craves it. although some people try to be physically affectionate with him, he's uncomfortable because his guard remains up. the situation with kabru is different because 1. they've already had sex, so the most embarrassing situation (or the reveal of his inner desires) is out of the way. it costs him little to take the next step after sex and ask kabru to cuddle 2. they're in a private setting.

at the beginning of the fic, toshiro chases physical closeness to kabru because it feels good and it's easier to ask for more when kabru initiates things. the intimacy kabru grants toshiro is something he isn't getting anywhere else in his life, so he takes as much of it as he can get. at least at first, toshiro is kind of latching onto the first guy that gives him affection without crossing his boundaries. he does like kabru as a person, ofc. i don't think he'd look so comfortable with kabru touching him so soon after getting to know him in canon if that wasn't the case. and in my fic, toshiro's feelings for kabru do eventually develop into something deeper. but overall, he's also just silly lol

kabru, on the other hand, enjoys physical affection, but he's not as starved for it as toshiro. historically, his main issue has been preventing his relationships from reaching beyond a certain level of emotional intimacy, so he highly values the fact that he and toshiro are openly and vocally in love with each other; that's what's rocking his world. their emotional intimacy is also important to toshiro, but he just has that added layer of trying to make up for 26 years of not being hugged alkjflfdkj

[marigoldbaker]

hi!!! sorry if the answer to this ask requires like, the most ever info, i just WANT T O PLAY ASK GMAES WITH EVERYBODY

for EVERYBODY:

⚠️

👖(going w/coffee shop this time, since we already have a hs one)

🧠

⚡

🗡️

👁️‍🗨️

🌕

🐸

📓

🎀 (we already know thea collects children, but for everyone else)

🎃

🔪

🍇 (just type since we already know everyone's orientation)

🧨

🍑

🐹

🔥

for briar & marigold:

👁️

for briar, marigold, & evie:

💛

for everyone but marigold & thea:

🍼

TYSM!!!! I LOVE YOUR GIRLS I LOVE THEM I ALWYA S WANT TO HEAR ABT THEM <3333

HI HAPPY TO OBLIGE !!! <3 under the cut bc this will get so. so long and a little nsft in places. lol.

⚠️ - If this oc came with a warning sign, what would it be?

for fun: i am going to provide all the warning signs and none of the ocs. not at all listed in order:

THINKS SHE IS EVIL INCARNATE FOR BEING MAD AT PEOPLE WHO COMMIT ATROCITIES

KEEPS DEFENDING THE WORST WOMAN ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH AND WILL NOT LET YOU KILL HER

WILL BURN DOWN THE WORLD BEFORE ADMITTING SHE'S WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING

IS LITERALLY LYING TO YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY AT ALL TIMES

actually no warning sign is needed at all for evie. i am going to be very clear here: there is no warning sign for evie and i'm removing her from the mystery options just so we all know that. instead she comes with a little sign that i wrote myself that reads "please be gentle and conscientious! she will do anything for you if she loves you, and that's a lot of power to hold over someone. please try to encourage her to make healthy choices, and take care of her when you can."

👖 - Coffee shop or high school AU, your choice: tell me their role.

this is hilarious lol because the girlies literally work in a bakery and i HAVE thought about this one. it's basically exactly the same. marigold works the cash register because she's the only one who can talk to people without causing the entire process to screech to a grinding halt. norie makes drinks and writes people's names wrong deliberately and no one can get her to stop because her mommy owns the place (this is a coffee shop of nepo babies). roslin makes drinks and writes people's names wrong by accident and she's very apologetic :( thea owns the place. evie probably picks up a job there at some point while she and marigold are working through their issues.

🧠 - What is their stress response: fight, flight, freeze, or fawn?

fight: roslin,

flight: evie

freeze: thea, norie

fawn: marigold

⚡ - Does this oc have any unusual or “irrational” fears?

roslin is afraid of bugs and frogs and squishy jumpy things.

norie is afraid of thunderstorms.

thea and marigold are both so steeped in complex unaddressed trauma that all of their fears are kinda tied to that and therefore not really "unusual/irrational."

evie does not process fear like a normal person and therefore isn't really afraid of anything.

🗡️ - Does this oc have a signature object, accessory, or weapon?

evie has her collar :) it's fine it's normal.

thea has her battle hammer, named Consequences.

norie has her morningstar named Spider's Bite and a silver coin on a chain engraved with a feather and blessed by thea (it's a feather-fall pendant to keep her from getting hurt when she falls from great heights, since she spent so much of her childhood climbing on rafters and ceilings).

roslin has a harper pin that once belonged to jaheira's husband (in 20 years we will all find out why she has it).

marigold has a heavy golden coin on a chain, engraved by thea with a little marigold and blessed with safety charms, and thea also wears a matching necklace to ensure that her blessing stays. so that's another signature object :")

👁️‍🗨️ - Eye contact: good or bad for this oc?

all of these women are on some sort of neurodivergence spectrum. either they can't handle eye contact (marigold, norie, thea) or they keep forgetting they have to make it (roslin, evie, interestingly marigold is also on this list)

🌕 - If this oc was an animal, what kind would they be?

augh i actually wrote out a list a while back thru a consultation with my bonus mom! soooo!

marigold: bunny rabbit (OBVIOUSLY)

evie: tasmanian devil

thea: badger

norie: stoat

roslin: husky puppy <33

🐸 - What’s this oc’s sense of humor like?

marigold and roslin are both so giggly that they'll get set off by, like, cheesy popsicle stick jokes. it does not take a lot to get them started, especially when they're with each other.

thea will kinda smirk a little at a REALLY good joke, but the only person who can get her to actually laugh is usually the woman she's in love with.

norie is almost humorless. i say "almost" because roslin will sometimes make her go :') with a really bad joke.

📓 - Do you associate any quotes or lyrics with this oc?

god. yes. we're going to play mix and match again :)

you can fool me once and i'll actually believe you / if you fool me twice, i'm like putty in your hands / just like a lamb, i'll trust you in the still heat / sucking the finger of the butcher who'll kill me

boy, it's not that complicated / you should stay in my good graces / or i'll switch it up like that so fast / cause no one's more amazing at turning loving into hatred

she's always late for chapel but her penitence is real / she's always late for everything except for every meal / i hate to have to say it but i very firmly feel / maria's not an asset to the abbey!

i'll get it if you need it / i'll search if you don't see it / you're thirsty, i'll be rain / you get hurt, i'll take your pain

i'm learning to fly but i ain't got wings / coming down is the hardest thing

🎀Do they have something they collect? {Stamps, rocks, stickers, etc}

putting this one in a modern timeline :D

roslin would collect concert tickets and boy band memorabilia!

norie collects bibles and has this whole stack of bibles in her room because she was trying to get under thea's skin in her teens (as thea was raised in a convent) but thea was like "well why are you collecting bibles if the text doesn't mean anything to you" and she got mad that thea had her number and collected bibles even harder and now she has a really really wild number of bibles and doesn't know what to do with them (norie kind of creates situations for herself).

marigold collects cookbooks and probably also stickers :')

thea does collect children but she actually also collects bottlecaps. generally from bottles she drinks.

evie is too mobile to have a consistent collection. she has a very sparse amount of possessions.

🎃What would their Halloween outfit be?

marigold goes as a playboy bunny ;) and this does her entire family like intense insane amounts of psychic damage which is 100 percent the reason why she picked it. horrible horrible girl.

thea has the Ron Swanson Situation going on where she's just a pirate every year and describes it as her "halloween costume" and cannot be convinced to try anything else at any point in time.

norie goes as a nun. not a sexy nun. just a nun. possibly a possessed nun. she adds a lot of fake blood down her mouth and face. usually norie's costumes are pretty horrifying i think.

roslin goes as barbie <3 and she goes ALL OUT. maybe even makes herself like a fake box or something.

evie actually also goes as a pirate lol? slightly sexier than thea who's also more of a butch pirate captain than a corseted pirate wench. they look at each other on halloween like that spiderman pointing meme. it's really funny.

🔪Say they were put in a classic 80s slasher/horror setting, who would they be? {Example: The killer. The dude who dies first. Etc.}

norie is the haunted ghost thing that's causing all the weird paranormal readings and is just Evil Incarnate No Tragic Backstory Just Evil Evil Evil Evil (she's having the best time and she does kill everyone)

roslin is the final girl but like the final girl in one of those movies where you're like "oh my god how is it even possible that SHE'S the one who survived." does not even break a nail. wearing pink the whole time. possibly missed 40 percent of the plot of the movie because she was getting a mani pedi. our unbothered queen.

thea is the grizzled expert on whatever horrible monster thing they're all trying to fight who comes out of retirement to fight it only to die horribly, probably (sorry my baby)

marigold. oh jesus. uh i think she probably called down the monster through sheer hubris and is now trying to control it to wield absolute power and help it kill people and definitely gets herself killed in the process

evie is Party Extra #2 who's in less than one shot and doesn't get killed entirely because she's not at all plot relevant but for some reason she develops a cult following for being hot and having one of the funniest one liners in the movie

🍇What is their sexuality? And what is their "type"?

marigold likes people who are smart enough to keep up with her and entertain her and who will also simultaneously give her the princess treatment AND hold her accountable for her war crimes.

though she's not fully cognizant of it and would describe jasmine when asked for her type, thea likes a self-possessed, caring, compassionate woman, always a woman who understands the difficulties of being a single mom with a strong sense of justice (usually by also being a single mom with a strong sense of justice), and a woman who, when given absolute power over her, will not abuse it. someone who likes taking care of her and can actually look out for her.

evie is a lovergirl :') all you really have to do is need her and she'll love you. that's it.

roslin likes a nice, sturdy boy with a good heart! she's also an absolute sucker for a bit of muscle. she's really into boy bands in any close-to-now timeline. hardcore directioner.

norie likes a girl who presents herself as a cutthroat terror but is truly a soft little puppy (just like her....)

🧨If they could screw anyone without any consequences, who would they choose?

thea would choose the woman she's been in love with for thirty years without saying anything about it, except she wouldn't, because she's repressed that shit so efficiently that she has no idea that's what she wants to do <3

evie kind of already hooks up with whoever she wants without any consequences. or uh mostly she just ignores the consequences. mostly that second part.

marigold has every disorder. she would overload at this question.

roslin would hook up with a hot celebrity IMMEDIATELY. i think roslin's issue is less that she's concerned about consequences and more that she can't figure out how to get past the celebrity's security detail which could lead to jail time (hence. consequences). i think roslin has misunderstood the fundamental point of this question.

norie would make a beeline for her comphet serial killer crush and finds out that he's aroace and also sees her as a kid sister and ALSO he immediately takes her back to her mom and treats the entire thing like the five year old just asked him to marry her and he's a little concerned about that what with all the serial killing (i am holding my breath trying not to laugh as i write this)

🍑How did they react to having their "first time?" And was their partner understanding if they were nervous?

thea's first time was with jasmine when she was seventeen and jasmine was a fully grown adult at LEAST decades older than her who'd been visiting the convent a TEENAGE thea lived at to do charity work, and if i write more i will kill someone <3 sometimes i entertain writing more of this concept and i think it will just make me homicidal. get that woman away from her

evie's first time ... man i kinda think it was with lion. a very cute and fumbling affair where they were both very overwhelmed by their feelings. lion was the nervous one. they had to stop five minutes in because he had too many feelings and was too worried about "doing it wrong" and evie (used to this) just kinda sat on the bed like :) rubbing his shoulders until he calmed down.

norie's first time was extremely boring for her. she went through kind of a loose dating period prior to finding Her Person where she just met a lot of people she didn't click with trying to find one she did, and so the first person she slept with was very unmemorable and sparked nothing.

ros's first time was for sure very goofy and silly and heartfelt. she's good at finding boys who are incredibly sweet and gentlemanly about things. she was not nervous but she made her partner a little nervous with how insanely confident she was for having 0 experience.

i think i will know more about mari's first time when i write it! she's my dearest most favorite girl. it's going to be fun to find out.

🐹What "pet" names do they like being used for them? {Babe, Kitten, Puppy, Mutt, etc.}

marigold's self-chosen middle name is cathy (i decided this last week lol) so i think she actually really appreciates the intimate cleverness of "kitten." also the fact that it makes everyone in the room uncomfortable. that's a win for her.

lenora likes "lenora" from her partner because "norie" is family only and also she thinks pet names are stupid. she WILL however tolerate old timey way too long and specific pet names like "my gothic rose" or "my sweetest addiction" or anything that sounds like it's from a bodice ripper romance novel.

roslin IS a nickname -- and though this is a secret that only the guy who marries roslin is ever going to figure out, not any of her casual boyfriends, roslin really loves being called by her given name (rosalie) by people who know Her Whole Deal.

thea likes when her partner calls her al or allie, especially because jasmine went for the full-name althea.

🔥Do they get turned on by strange things, such as fire, chaos, blood, etc?

norie is extremely into a little bit of fighting for righteous purposes. she'll get all hair-twirly if her partner's the kind of person to start a bar fight over a Moral Issue.

evie will kind of try anything if it's presented to her! which can get a little wild sometimes.

thea's into being tied up. anyone following along with thea should not be toooo surprised by this. :)

i get the sense that marigold's love for decadent dessert spills over into her sex life! she's very down to involve food somehow.

roslin. god. i am truly not sure. might have to mull this one over.

👁️ - How do other people perceive this oc? How close do their first assumptions come to the truth?

first impressions of marigold are rarely accurate. she hides behind a lovely little paper fan made of sugar and spice and everything nice -- lots of nervous compassion and never-ending chatter -- but it doesn't take too long to notice that this girl is intensely intelligent, incredibly stubborn, and does not take no for an answer if yes is the one she wants. of course she's very CUTE and SWEET when she's refusing to accept your no! very POLITE about it! does it in SEVENTEEN SENTENCES! but the point still stands.

briar...it depends. prior to the narrative hitting her like a truck, i think first impressions of her as ditzy, silly, and loving were also not always accurate, though i don't think anyone in her life actually realized how inaccurate they were (aside from maybe her sister and father, because they literally watched her grow up). she is insanely selfish and self-obsessed and i don't know how much empathy she always has for other people. she wants to be taken care of at all times and has made herself a Local Nuisance to ensure that this is always happening. she grew up very spoiled and very sheltered and this is causing problems.

💛 - Are they ‘good with children’, or more awkward?

marigold is a MOMMY :"D she loves kids! a little doting and oh-you're-so-cute and sometimes kids get annoyed with that, but she is very confident about it and will jump at the chance to keep an eye on people's kids. kids do not think she's cool unless those kids are her own daughter (who is also not cool).

evie is good with baby animals and sees kids as baby animals and treats kids like she treats baby animals. so she's very indulgent and silly and relaxed and takes them very seriously, which means, yes, she is very good with kids.

briar . god. i don't think she should be around children lol. she's the kind of wine aunt who when the kids are like "we're going to climb the electric fence" is like okay cool :) and then when the kids get electrocuted tells the parents that they "just got away from her." she has zero interest in children because they take the attention away from her (queen princess of perfection).

🍼Do they have kids? Or are they willing to have any?

evie...hmm. it's very situational. i lean towards "no" with her, unless it's a case of accidental baby acquisition, but i think she would actually be a really wonderful mother. she's definitely a little bit of a space cadet but she's loving and silly and extremely protective.

roslin wants a HUGE family and when she settles down she likely will have one! LOTS of kids for this girl. she grew up the oldest of seven, so she's always someone who wants a whole bunch of chaos in the house.

norie. augh. i honestly don't know. i sometimes float the notion of her and minthara magic-engineering the World's Most Perfect Daughter in future, but i still haven't pinned that one down? POSSIBLY. if she does have kids, it's only one, and she takes her job as Mom extremely seriously.

[psyche-in-the-window]

@fuckyeahasexual one of the bigger sources of asexual info on this website, as just reblogged radfem ideologies that isn't even trying to hide itself as a radfem ideology. I hate to be making a call-out post (and if anyone else as made one, sorry!!) but they have disabled asks and DMs so this is the only thing I can do

For now, I'll choose to believe that they just didn't read the whole post, but this is pretty damning and I hope people will help in calling them out as a single blogger won't be able to to much

[klingerfashionarchive]

season 3 episode 21

[biantianyang]

bian tianyang interview for FUNNY-FASHION

[supportive-editor]

Shibu, what made you realize you wanted to marry your wife?

Oh, a chance to talk about Yuu-chan! He loves questions like this...

"Well, stranger-- She just felt like the one, you know? Sure we haven't known each other for long like Tak and Rumi have-- But, if you love someone who loves you for you, and that person does the same...You gotta keep 'em, right? Shoot your shot, and never let them go."

[hwanghyunjinenthusiast]

for hard hours imagine sitting in between cheol’s legs with his hand rubbing your clit, the other hand around your neck, and his legs wrapped around yours to keep them open. sorry but the visual is INSANEEE to me and like him dirty talking in your ear with his deep voice 🧎🏻‍♀️

“thought you were more interested in playing your game, love.”

and it’s true—you were. then seungcheol, fresh out of the shower, took it upon himself to settle behind you, wrap an arm around your middle, and provide free, unsolicited commentary on your playthrough of breath of the wild.

then his hand under your tee, warm on your stomach (“when’s zelda showing up?” “she’s not in this area, loser.”). kisses, languid and more tongue than not, on your shoulder. his other hand finds your inner thigh, which would normally be fine, except it lingers a little high and you’re notably not wearing shorts.

no matter. you have things to do and none of them involve seungcheol at the moment. the controller is cool and grounding in your hands and you’re not easily distracted.

distraction is a cruel mistress, though, because two loading screens later, his thumb finds your clit through the silk of your underwear. he’s slow, gentle, just running it over the thin fabric.

“how’s takeout sound for dinner?” he asks, voice low. “sound good to you?”

“y-yeah.”

it’s your worst trait, but your stubbornness will not allow you to just put the controller down and let whatever is happening to just happen.

you buy some arrows, mind level as he strokes you over your underwear. never mind that you can feel his cock, half hard, pressed up against your back. you briefly think about the night before now, when you were gagging on it, your own hand down your shorts. but you digress—ignorance must be bliss.

“thai? greek? i can pick it up.” his voice has dropped an octave, and it’s such a little thing, but it still makes your tummy knot into itself. just a little more pressure on your sensitive cunt, and traitorously, your feel your thighs spread for him, just a little. “wouldn’t wanna distract you from your game.”

“you-you wouldn’t be.”

whatever he’s doing feels really fucking good, though. you’re scared to look down from the screen because you know you’ll see his forearm strong against your front, veiny hand between your legs, and it’ll all be over for you.

you kill some goblins. then he peels your panties, arousal-sticky, to the side, letting his skin kiss yours.

fuck, he swears under his breath, and you almost whimper out loud. two fingers slide between your pussy lips, and before you know it, he’s holding them in front of your face. they’re so, so glossy with your slick, and you let yourself go a little by taking them into your mouth. the tang hits your tongue and he groans behind you and you feel your mind fuzz up with desire all at once.

it’s dizzying but you are no quitter. not even when he bites your earlobe, murmuring something about how wet you are and how he wants to bend you over the couch and fuck you into tomorrow.

it’s a little harder when he’s fucking those fingers into you, trapping your legs behind his so you can’t avoid him any longer. your hands are losing grip of the controller and you’ve stopped trying to fight the rock of your hips into his hand.

“you were doing so good,” he laughs. “still focused?”

“y-yeah,” you breathe. “don’t know what you’re talking about.”

he grinds the heel of his palm into your clit, letting the pads of his fingers hook into your g-spot. “how about now?”

you shake your head, but you put the controller down. your eyes are watering with pleasure and you can’t really see the screen anyway.

teeth on your jaw. a hand on your neck. a rough thumb on your clit, and the cruel realization that he’s got you trapped in his arms and you like it.

“now?”

[rolex-kaard]

THOUGHTS & OPINIONS on mouthwashing ?

well first off AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!! AAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!

[postmakerkiwi]

can't bring myself to repeat all this, so.

[welcometoteyvat]

archon: which nation’s known ‘ideal’ do you like the most: freedom, contracts, eternity, wisdom, justice, or war?

i already answered this but! eternity <3 putting aside the writing of inazuma's main arc, I like makoto and yoimiya's takes on eternity !!

[real answer over, random thoughts starting now lol] honestly though, i think the countries we've seen so far have all had like really solid development of their ideals and I like the "2 sides of the same coin" deal that the story has been pushing. favorites (besides eternity) include sumeru's wisdom/knowledge vs dreams, and correspondingly science vs the arts, and contracts from liyue. like the reversal where dreams are a place of knowledge and truth, while real life is absurd and doesn't make sense,,, that's pretty fire idk. I think the thing about knowledge and forgetting, like what is wisdom and what is truth? what about memories, what happens when people forget the past, forget what really happened? are there things more important than knowledge and truth? that's a banger theme to explore T_T I'm sure someone has said this before but also. your life's dream can also be interpreted as your ambitions right. so dreams = a source of knowledge -> ambitions -> vision = a "true" way of seeing the world, or the gods acknowledging your perspective of the world?????? is this anything

I also think contracts are fun bc there's a good parallel with "what is freedom when asked of you by a god". zhongli and venti interactions strike again. like what is a contract to live happily how you see fit? (aka yanfei's contract, with her parents) what is a contract to act according to one's own will, given to someone who has only known obedience? (zhongli and xiao, because I'm still a zx clown) you can also reasonably extend them to promises, and like wow that hurts. "come back to me when you're done with business there" "I will" and then the other person actually does not come back. what then. zhongli's way of structuring the world is so fun honestly. I like contracts also because they mesh with my brain well—it's so straightforward; you get one thing for another and conduct a formal equivalent exchange—with however many or however little emotions involved as you want! literally if this was how real life worked I would be set lol

[russeliarat]

I apologise to the Zelda people but I have many thoughts and feelings about Mr Jash and I must throw art about it into the world. Zelda will return shortly, if not by the end of the month when TotK is released. Until then, just look at my funky designs without context and hear my unfiltered screaming about lore and memes for a bit

[filmsnroses]

my ochem prof knows my name 😭🫶🏼 i need time to savor the moment 

[gilbertscurls]

holaa i got request that like 7 mins vids of chris and reader being in love but they are bsf like some fan did vid showing moments chris and reader do that shows their love to eachother

hope you like it!! <3

also, i think i've seen a similar story somewhere, so credits to the original

7 Minutes of Chris and Y/N Being in Love ➵ Chris Sturniolo

You stumbled upon the video late one night, alone in your room with the glow of your phone casting soft shadows across the walls. It was titled “7 Minutes of Chris and Y/N Being in Love But Not Admitting It”, posted by one of the Sturniolo Triplets’ most dedicated fans. Curious, you clicked on it, not quite ready for the trip down memory lane.

The video started with a soft piano tune, and each moment was introduced by a little title. You held your breath as the first clip began.

1. “The Hoodie Thing”

The video opened with a scene from a casual vlog, probably from a random day where the four of you had just been hanging out. The camera was set up on the counter, capturing Chris as he talked animatedly about something or another. In the middle of his story, he looked over and spotted you wrapped up in his hoodie. You saw his mouth twitch in that familiar way as he tried to keep his composure, but his cheeks betrayed him, turning just a bit pink.

“Is that mine?” he asked, pretending to be annoyed, though the sparkle in his eyes told a different story.

You shrugged, smiling as you hugged the hoodie tighter. “You left it here. Finders, keepers.”

The fan had zoomed in on his face just then, catching the soft expression he wore as he looked at you, that look he always gave when he thought you weren’t watching.

2. “The Arm Thing”

The next clip was from one of their prank videos, where Nick had decided to try scaring you by hiding behind the door. The plan went off without a hitch; you’d jumped in fright, letting out a little squeal. The moment Chris heard it, he stepped in close, putting an arm around your shoulders, almost instinctively, like a protective reflex.

“Are you okay?” he asked, not even giving Nick the satisfaction of a laugh.

You laughed, brushing it off, but Chris kept his arm around you for the rest of the video. The fan had added a heart overlay on that moment, making it all the more obvious to anyone watching that this wasn’t just a casual gesture. It was his way of telling you, without words, that he’d always be there to protect you.

3. “The Way He Looks At Her”

This cutscene played moments from several videos stitched together: every time Chris’s gaze lingered on you a little longer than necessary, his eyes softening, or the way his face would light up whenever you walked into the room.

One clip was from a road trip vlog where Nick had asked you a question, and you’d gone off on a tangent, laughing at your own story. The fan had slowed down the footage as Chris watched you, his smile widening with every word you spoke. They’d even added text overlay: Look at the way he smiles at her.

And there it was—that undeniable, heart-melting look that said so much more than words ever could.

4. “The Hand Thing”

The screen faded to another clip, this time from a Q&A the triplets had done with you sitting behind Chris. He’d been laughing at something Matt said, his hand reaching back to rest on yours almost absentmindedly. You’d barely registered it, but the fans clearly had, picking up on the way his fingers subtly intertwined with yours.

At one point, you noticed and looked down, a slight blush coloring your cheeks. But Chris didn’t pull away; he just squeezed your hand gently, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.

The fan had zoomed in here, highlighting the way his thumb rubbed small circles on your hand, creating a moment that had clearly been noticed by everyone but you two.

5. “Little Things He Remembers”

This section showed clips where Chris would mention something small about you, things you didn’t even realize he’d picked up on. In one of the videos, you’d talked about a favorite candy that you hadn’t had in years, and a month later, in a different video, Chris had surprised you with it.

Your face had lit up, and the fan had looped Chris’s shy smile when he saw your reaction. Then came another clip from a Christmas gift exchange vlog, where he’d somehow known exactly what to get you—a rare vinyl record you’d been looking for forever.

As you hugged him in gratitude, the fan captioned it: he remembers the little things.

6. “The Almost Kiss”

This was the clip that made you catch your breath. It was from a few weeks back, a late night when you and Chris had been filming a random vlog in his room. He’d been teasing you about something, and you’d leaned in to swat his shoulder, both of you laughing.

But then there was that moment—a pause—where your faces were just inches apart, his gaze locked on yours, and everything had gone quiet. You could almost feel the unspoken words hanging in the air, the what if.

The fan had zoomed in, adding a soft overlay to heighten the tension, and you watched yourself look up at him, eyes wide, both of you caught in that heart-stopping second. His face had softened, and he’d opened his mouth as if he were about to say something, but then he’d pulled away, laughing to break the tension.

The screen faded to black as the fan added one final caption: maybe one day.

You stared at the end screen, your heart racing. You’d felt all those moments before, lingering on the edges of your friendship with Chris, but seeing them compiled like this left you breathless. Your mind raced back to that last clip, to the almost kiss. What would have happened if he hadn’t laughed it off? If you hadn’t pulled away?

Just as you were lost in thought, your phone buzzed with a text from Chris.

Chris: Yo, did you see this vid someone made of us? LMAO they really think we’re in love or something 😂

You felt a rush of nerves, unsure of how to respond.

You: Haha yeah, just saw it… it’s kinda cute though, don’t you think?

There was a pause, longer than usual, and you held your breath, waiting.

Chris: Yeah… kinda cute.

Chris: Listen, about that one clip… you know the one I’m talking about, right?

You: Yeah. I know.

Chris: What if I said I wasn’t just acting for the camera?

Your heart skipped a beat. You could almost picture him, staring down at his phone, wondering if he’d said too much. But something told you it was time to finally say the words that had been on the tip of your tongue for years.

You: Then I’d say… me neither.

It was a simple exchange, a confession years in the making, and yet somehow, that was all it took.

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[leopardom]

so you happened to miss the live Q&A with Nace and Bojan on the Joker Out official discord server yesterday? worry not, i got you covered

Souvenir Pop Discord Listening Party - Q&A with Bojan and Nace ✨

questions are in bold and are all from discord

quotation marks are being used for all the the word-by-word answers by Bojan and Nace

dialogues between Bojan and Nace, reactions and some worth-mentioning moments are in italics

there were some questions about touring to specific places again or for the first time. answers to all of them were vaguelly positive, so i didn't include them here

the whole listening party lasted about an hour and a half so this is a long read

{steaming Muzika Za Decu and Šta Bih Ja and waiting for Bojan and Nace to join}

Q: How are you doing after the album release? [missed Bojan's answer] N: "Feeling as usual - super bad" *joking about it with Bojan*, had to get up early to take Pino to the vet

Q: Which artists were your musical influences for Lips? both: The Weeknd, Lana Del Rey and Nick Cave

Q: How did you do the screaming kids in Muzika Za Decu? N: initial recordings were done with kids of their friends. after bringing the tracks to their producer, he asked for more voices so they recorded more with some kids from a music school in Kranj (Nace's hometown). Nace was present in all those recordings

Q: Do you have any vacation plans? N: most of them are going to Thailand again B: Thailand is "too far away to call it a vacation" so he's probably going somewhere closer to Slovenia

Q: Why is Carpe Diem ever so slightly diffrent? B: they remastered the song because they realised the mastering they had done already was a bit bad - "that's why it sounded like it came out of a toaster compared to other eurovision songs"

Q: Any TV series recommendations? B: Atypical, Narcos, Peaky Blinders N: Game Of Thrones Nace asks Bojan if he's watching anything atm and he says only some history stuff. Nace and Kris are watching Naked and Afraid religiously, and according to Bojan, "in the van, outside the van, in hotel rooms, everywhere"

Q: How do you choose what the next song will be about? Are there any criteria? B: "The songs just happen as they do, a storyline usually comes with the vocal melody [...] The story is never a fake thing, it's always something real so there is really no choosing more in a sense of like "we have a couple of songs and we choose which one we're gonna have" but it's not connected to what the song is about. More like "what the song sounds like and what kind of a vibe we wanna put out""

Q: What is your go to effect for your instrument/for some songs? N: only uses drive and tape echo

Q: Which song did change the most during the recording process? B: Lips *Nace agrees* - it started as a whole different song called J’taime and was supposed to be an english/french or slovene/french duet and also very rock n roll

Q: Are there any more tour dates coming? B: yes but they have nothing planned yet so it will take some time

Q: If you had to live somewhere for 6 months where would it be? both: London B: "If I had to go live somewhere for longer, I would go to Palermo"

Q: Why are your songs so good!? How do you never make bad music? B: "We do, you just don't get to hear it"

Q: Who is writing the weekly updates? N: all of them *Bojan gets confused for a moment and doesn't realise they're talking about the openstage weekly updates*

Q: Thought process during the making of the album? B: "It’s a clusterfuck" *banter about how they love and hate what they do while making an album*

{break to listen to Carpe Diem and Stephanie. Pino starts barking at the first few moments of Carpe Diem and then Nace and Bojan realise they need to close their mic for that section lol}

Q: (question for Nace) What strings/bass equipment are you using and if you have any small tips for bass beginners? N: tip - "the equipment doesn't matter, what matters is what you do with the bass. start with lighter strings and try to learn as many songs as you can" // he's using D’Addario and La Bella flat strings

Q: Which song took the longest to finish? both: Šta Bih Ja (they crashed the studio pc because of the number of takes they had to do)

Q: What was your music inspiration for Mesto Duhov? both: there wasn't some specific inspiration music-wise

Q: Which song did y'all think think would be the fan favourite?? N: Bluza [missed Bojan's answer here because my laptop ran out of battery lol]

Q: Nace, what is your screentime on your phone because you‘re online like every time N: 9h 23min today “because it was release day”, usually is around 3-4 hours (Bojan's is 3h)

*Bojan proceeds to yap about how he's learning spanish on duolingo*

Q: Ever thought of selling posters ? It's a lil less expensive way to support you and also propaganda both: no because it's difficult to ship and they get ruined in the process. they may think about posters as merch for concerts only

Q: Who played the piano in Sonce? B: it's written and played by Jan N: "One of Slovenia's best piano players, renowned..."

Q: What happend with Schlager? B: "Nothing happened to it, it's doing quite well, we had a chat yesterday and everything is going fine in Schlagerland, but it couldn't make it to the album. Didn't feel like it. Maybe next time"

Q: When you first made music did you expect it to reach people so powerfully that it created year lasting friendships and have people travel so far to see you live? B: no because they were used to the way things work in Slovenia (smaller distances and sometimes people don't even travel from one city to another even if they're around 20 minutes away from each other) so this was very new to them but they're happy to see it

Q: How is the new album going to affect the setlist? Will you still perform older songs? B: the whole third album will be performed on the upcoming tour and there will be some variations on the setlists regarding the songs from the previous 2 albums

Q: Is there any possibility to hear you singing in italian on next albums? B: there was an idea for this album but didn't work out

Q: Do you have plans for a spanish song? B: "There was an idea called "si me das in beso más" but didn't go through [...] because it was getting into a reggaeton-ish direction"

Q: Will there be a french song in the future? B: J’taime was supposed to be one but didn't happen

Q: What about Souvenir Pop fridge magnets? B: they're considering it (Nace adds that he'd love to have one)

Q: Best slovenian cuisine and best places to visit in Slovenia N: food - prekmurska gibanica // places - Bovec and Bohinj B: food - kranjska klobasa and žlikrofi (to represent Jure) // places - Bohinj, Postojna cave, Logarska Dolina

Q: Nace, which cruise ships did you play on? We would love to have Joker Out cruise gig in Finland! N: the cruise ship he worked on was AIDAbella (belongs to german cruise line AIDA Cruises), he was there for 6 months and the cruise was in the Baltics B: would love to do the cruise from Finland to Estonia "where everybody supposedly gets extremely smashed"

Q: Was the writing process of Stephanie different, because you have Žare as composer but not Jure? B: the percussions were computer-based drum loops so maybe that's why

Q: Where do you get your inspiration from? Or do you just wake up with it one morning? B: "(inspiration) is memories becoming visible in your own head" - they all have memories and impressions in their lives that just get triggered when writing a song

Q: How did you get the idea of making Lips? It has such a different vibe of all the songs you have B: Žare showed them the heartbeat that can be heard in the song, Bojan came up with the "put your lips on mine" line and proceeded to finish the lyrics on their way back home from Bucharest after Summer Well fest. it was basically Nace who turned the idea of Lips into a song music-wise

Q: Why did you decide to release stephanie so close before the album release? Was it the plan all along? B: apparently he didn't know the song was getting released, he just saw it on their instagram stories and rolled with it lol

Q: Does lyrics just pop into your head and then you decide the story or do you decide on a common theme/story the song is gonna have and then make the lyrics about that? B: usually there's an insistent thought in his head and he works around it

Q: What do you think of Baldies Out? Which song do you want us to cover next? context: Baldies Out is a group on instagram which posts - you guessed it - bald edits of Joker Out. occasionally there are covers of Joker Out songs, adapted with lyrics that fit the bald theme of the account B: they could cover Lips and turn the lyrics into "put your hair on mine" or Ako Toga Više Neće Biti "so it's a man who's going bald singing to his hair - it's a song between a guy and his hair" Bojan is frustrated because he looks very bad bald meanwhile Nace finds himself cool in his bald edition, Bojan too believes bald Nace looks cool, Nace jokes about shaving off all his hair and Bojan says he'd like to see that and proceeds to complement his beard and tell him he'd look "badass as hell"

Q: What's something you want to experience in life but haven't yet? N: see mount Everest/visit Nepal B: have a farm *banter with Nace: he'd like to have goats, chickens, a horse, rabbits, dogs, cats and a bull*

Q: Why did you choose the openers for the tour that you chose (I love them) B: the answer was in the question; they love them too

Q: Also Romania misses you guys, please come back next year B: they all loved Romania and Summer Well, he then mentions how he's not a fan of festivals as an attendand and has been to one for a couple of days only once when he was 18

Q: Are the cities at the end of the Bluza MV a teasing of a European tour? B: no, they were just cities on the old radio they used for the mv

{break to listen to Ako Toga Više Neće Biti and Bluza}

Q: Ruisrock next year?! B: they loved Ruisrock this year and would love to be back

Q: What are your favourite books, if you have any? B: The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini N: he's currently reading The Creative Act by Rick Rubin

Q: What's your favourite Big Foot Mama songs? both: Buldožer, Led s severa, Neki sladkega

Q: Have you heard of the genre "midwest emo"? both: no (and they had to google it)

Q: What was the most cathartic song to write and why? B: Everybody's Waiting, Lips and Ako Toga Više Neće Biti

Q: What’s your fav Schlager (as in the German music)? N: mentions Semino Rossi and Ibo and the songs Ibiza (by Ibo) and Rot sind die Rosen (by Semino Rossi)

Q: Are there more songs like Muzika Za Decu & Mesto Duhov (more loud and rock) songs in the vault??? B: no, just these two

Q: Souvenir pop Vinyl/CD when? N: CDs will be available at the gigs but they're not sure when they'll be available online. vinyls will come around January/February

Q: What is your favourite memory from making the album? N: the recording of Ako Toga Više Neće Biti *Bojan agrees*

Q: Fav Finnish artists/bands you know? (Käärijä doesn't count) B: Sonny, Ville Valo *Nace agrees*, Sunrise Avenue and he loves the Blind Channel cover of Left Outside Alone (Nace says this is Bojan's guilty pleasure song) N: Pikku G

Q: When new merch? B: it's coming with the tour

Q: Would you like to receive Get Watermarked stickers next tour? context: it's a photo of Mark in a pool(or a hot tub i'm not sure) and someone edited the phrase "Get Watermarked" on it and turned it into a sticker for the sys tour both: they'd absolutely want one

Q: Do you often get stopped by fans on the street or any public places? Is there anything that irritates you? B: gets followed around often but people are not very invasive N: doesn't get stalked as much as Bojan and doesn't mind when fans stop him on the street

Q: Are you familiar with Käärijä's EuroPass on Kollekt and would you consider doing something similar in the future? B: they don't know what that is and "if it's good then we should consider it but if it's not good then we're not considering it"

Q: Tying onto the q before, restaurant reccomendations and favourite sight? Bojan's fave restaurant is Aftr and Nace's is Sushimama, they both agree that their fave sight is the Ljubljana castle

Q: I noticed you guys follow some of my fav musicians on instagram so i was wondering Nace what’s your favorite Declan McKenna song and Bojan what’s your favorite Greta van Fleet song N: Nothing Works B: doesn't have a fave GVF song, just likes the band

Q: What are the possibilities for JO (whether concert and/or meet and greet) in the US and/or the UK? both: they were supposed to play in NYC in May but it was a very last-minute thing and didn't manage to get working visas in time. they'll have a gig or more in the UK next year

Q: When you were at the Sziget festival, have you tasted hungarian foods? if yes, what was it? / when will be new products in the shop? B: has been in Hungary twice (once this year for Sziget and once as a child) but hasn't tried anything hungarian - ✨I love food no matter where it comes from. Hopefully the kitchen✨ N: new products will be online hopefully by the end of 2024 but they're not sure yet

Q: Is the concert in Novi Sad definitely happening? Due to the tragedy a lot of events have been canceled out of respect for the victims so there's been some rumors about it possibly getting canceled B: the concert will go on and the profits will go to the families of those who have lost someone and those in need

Q: Are you gonna come back to places you've already performed at during the EU tour, or maybe try to get to new cities? B: "A little bit of both"

Q: What's your fav spanish dish? both: paella

Q: How is the trumpet playing going? Will we see it on stage? B: trumpet playing is going great, will happen on stage at some point too

Q: Is there any connection between Mesto Duhov and the lyrics : "mesto polno je duhov" ? "mesto polno je duhov" is a lyric from Padam B: "There is no connection except for the connection that both of them were written by me and it looks like I have horrible imagination"

Q: Did any of you play any unexpected instruments for any songs? For instance we already know Nace has a guitar track and a drum track on the album but are there any other surprising credits? - Jan played lots of synths and bass on the chorus of Stephanie - Nace played synths and programmed the drums for Stephanie and Lips - Bojan played the drums for Ako Toga Više Neće Biti, bass on the verses of Stephanie and also did synths for Stephanie - Jure played piano for Bluza (???) all credits are written down on the album

Q: Any chance of coming back to Scotland next year? *they both chant "no Scotland no party"*

Q: Do you like BOOOM? both: yes N: he used to be their producer and worked with them on their first songs

Q: Can you give advice for young musicians like you? B: "Surround yourself with people you love and people who inspire you. Trust yourself. Always be critical to yourself but not to a point where you become self harmful"

Q: What do you value the most in life? B: health N: health and relationships

Q: What book could you recommend? Or if you can't choose one, what book are you reading now? B: The Kite Runner and The Alchemist (he then jokes about how Nace should recommend some Disney cartoon)

Q: Who had the idea using the piano for Sonce and who played the part? (I assume Jan but still) And can you upload the damn music sheet for it? I need to play this B: the idea about the piano was collective and if anyone wants the sheet music for the song, they should ask Jan for it

Q: If you had the chance to record and release a cover of a song of any of your favourite artists, which song would it be? *Bojan jokes about it being Gangnam Style* N: something by The Beatles, maybe Let It Be B: Silencio or Bulería by David Bisbal *starts singing Bulería*

Q: Nace, what is the best bassist joke you have ever heard? N: most of them are in slovene and he doesn’t say any B: "I think being the bassist is the biggest joke"

Q: How do you approach writing lyrics? Do you prioritize storytelling, imagery, or rhythm? B: prefers and prioritizes storytelling

Q: Which song do you personally find the most emotional and why? B: "Everybody's Waiting because it's like a very personal struggle song, Ako Toga Više Neće Biti because it's… a very personal struggle song" N: "Whenever I’m hearing Sonce I just get in this special state like I'm getting drown in a song and stop thinking about everything else"

Q: Assuming you’ll come back to The Netherlands in the future, is there another city you’d like to visit or a venue/festival you’d like to play? both: they'd like to play Pinkpop fest

Q: Would you ever like to hold a concert in Ukraine?? B: they'd love that and hopefully as soon as possible

Q: Will there be music videos for the new songs on the album? B: yes N: they're recording a new video soon apparently Bojan wasn't aware of that either lol

Q: Any Italian French or Spanish music that inspired you to try writing in those languages? Also Bojan you can pick two+ languages on duolingo and do them at the same time N: they we listening a lot to an italian song called Il mio canto libero, he loves Nek and he listens to a lot of french electronic B: he's listening to italian, french and spanish music a lot, he loves a song called Buona sera signorina (note: had to google this and maybe the title is actually Buona sera ciao ciao) both: they all like L'Impératrice and Bojan butchers the pronunciation of the band name

*at this moment Bojan finds out you can learn two and more languages on duolingo at the same time and proceeds to add italian to his account*

Q: 1 - What were some of the inspirations for Muzika Za Decu? 2 - Bojan can you tell us a dad joke? 3 - I just wanted to say that Lips should be a soundtrack of a movie B: party breakers *doesn't answer the second question because he's too busy doing italian on duolingo* both: they agree that Lips should be in a movie soundtrack

Q: Do you know when will you release the dates and the cities for the tour? I assume there will be a european tour for the new album N: there will be a european tour at some point next year and they will announce it "once Bojan stops learning italian" (Nace basically makes fun of Bojan doing his duolingo right at that moment)

{break to listen to Lips, Mesto Duhov and Sonce}

Q: Bojan would you try to sing Carpe Diem in estonian ever again? B: yes

Q: Can we expect a new concert intro for the tour for one of the new songs like the intro for Katrina and Gola? N: yes

Q: Is Bojan learning finnish in Duolingo? B: no, only spanish and italian

Q: Will there be a chance of a collab between Joker Out and Käärijä? B: hopefully one day

Q: Do any of you play chess? B: he and Kris play chess online, Kris less often than Bojan

Q: Will you pop a souvenir in Istanbul soon? N: they want to but have to find a date to reschedule the cancelled gig from this summer

Q: Have you visited any tourist attractions while in Bucharest? N: no and only he and Kris walked around the city centre for a bit while being there

Q: Nace, why did you bring four basses to the recording studio in Hamburg and did you record on all of them? N: one of those basses wasn't his and "when you're in the studio you just wanna have more basses"

Q: Is Pino the best boy in whole world? N: yes ❤️❤️❤️

Q: How do you guys decide to who to follow on insta? (for example fan pages,artists) N: they just follow the pages they like

Q: Apart from Nace and gluten, are there any things you all don't like or can't eat? B: he doesn't like tomatoes and is intolerant to avocado

Q: Do y’all notice Joker Out edits on TikTok? Do (did) you like them? N: he and Bojan don't have tiktok. Jure, however, is addicted to it

Q: Did you know that all of you are saving and changing peoples lives? B: "When we started doing music none of us could ever believe, or think even, that it could mean so much to someone as it does to a lot of you. Even though we went through so many different stages in a very short period of time, because our life changed so dramaticaly, I will say that the fact that you actually feel the music and it helps you in certain situations and hard times... I just want you guys to know that literally it means the same to us. The whole sharing of this energy is very real and we are trying to do our best to kind of make you know that we're here. And sometimes it's also hard for us because we're trying to tolerate our personal life and everything else with the music and with communicating with fans, but we appreciate it so dearly and we're happy that it's changing your lives and, just so you know, you're also changing our lives everyday. We're very, very honoured to have you on board with us and so thankful for all your help and all your enthusiasm, for all the love. You're incredible artists as well, we see the arts that you create daily - a lot of it is inspired by us which is also crazy and incredible so... Just a big thank you! And thank you to the Joker Out discord server, you're doing an incredible job, it's become so much bigger than what we ever expected. (thank you) to Joker Out Subs, all the groups that have been formed, as well as Baldies Out. I think it's a very big contribution to the bald Joker Out generation 💀😂. Just thank you so much!"

*Bojan presses something, gets lost in the server and both he and Nace are trying to figure out how to get back to the channel with all the questions (they succeed), they announce that an art contest will start (more info about that can be found on the latest-news channel of the official server) and Nace informs everyone he has to take Pino for a walk before saying bye to the chat*

end

[supportive-editor]

Trick question. That lad is never okay my good sir. He'd consume something forbidden for a cornchip most likely.

"Forbidden Potatoes and forbidden cornchips..? Is this slang for like-- that cognitive science thing Takuto is researching into?"

[toxicanonymity]

raider masterlist

dark!Joel Miller x f!reader

new one shot Jan 5, 2025: forest floor.

⚠️ this post hit the link limit, and I haven't decided what to do. I will still try to update the newest fic link above.

moodboard by @milla-frenchy 🖤 a rb will not stay up-to-date.

SUMMARY: He's a bad guy, and you're his good girl. Joel saves you from bad men, but claims you for himself. His persona starts to crack, but he gets even more possessive. You're his world, and he'll do anything to keep you. Emotional slow burn but smut the whole time. WARNINGS: 18+ canon-typical violence, noncon via implicit threat, evolving to enthusiastic dubious consent (stockholm syndrome), depraved use of praise and pet names (sweet pea, baby), unsafe P in V, exhibitionism, extreme possessiveness, dark fluff (🖤), angst, and more. NO USE of Y/N, No physical description of reader.

Spotify: raider, sweet pea (smut) Optional reference: trailer floor plan

Carter masterlist

main story

Note, non-bold links in this section were written out of order and may contain spoilers or references to future events. their placement in this list is based on timeline.

Raider: (Mar 24, 2023) - He "saves" you, then has his way with you but is kinda sweet about it. Joel POV (Oct 3, 1k)

Failed Rescue (Apr 8 - 1.9k) Your bf tries to save you. Joel makes him watch then keeps you.

Stash House (Apr 11 - 850)- Joel takes you to the stash house and shows everyone you're his. Wash Bin 🖤 (Aug 27, 1k) Shooting Practice Drabble(Jul 28, 1.6k)

Failed Escape (Apr 23, 4k)- Joel saves you from FEDRA, bathes you, amd edges you.

J. Miller (May 19, 2k) - Joel labels you with his switchblade and claims all your holes. dark. Can be skipped.

Home (May 29, 1.3k) - Joel makes dinner at home, cleans your chest, and tucks you in. 🖤

Company (Jun 9, 2.2k) - Joel brings home a girl to distract his men. dark. Extra Scene - angst.

Close (Jul 3, 2.7k) - close call with other raiders. You-almost-died sex, and later, tender sex 🖤

Gun Hug (Jul 31, 3.7k) - Joel traps 2 bad guys with some help and kills them while you. . .🖤 If you want him (1.5k) - he holds out to see🖤

Night Air (Aug 30, 3.5k) - Joel is brutal with a bad guy and his POV reveals some feelings. 🖤 Bonus blurb, wakeup pwp drabble

Hunger (Sep 29, 7k) - Joel takes you on a trek, comforts you, kills a guy, and gives you head. 🖤 He's only human (1.1k) - 👱‍♂️Carter POV, overlaps w/ hunger.

Bodies (Dec 3, 7.8k) - Strangers show up and cause a shitstorm, but Joel takes a big step. 🖤 Raider POV

No cliffhangers. Bulletin from Tox

more (drabbles, etc)

🔥 smut

Trying to use him (800) (riding) 🔥

House meeting drabble 🖤

You get sick at night drabble 🖤

He goes down on you (oral f) 🔥

If you touched his scar

if men had hurt you in the past

if you got your period 🖤

magazine and makeup 🖤

yoga pwp drabble piv 1k 🔥

boots drabble (oral f receiving) 🔥

graveyard blurb (spice)

if you bit his arm drabble (p in v) 🔥

If you snapped (emotional spice) 🖤

face sitting on sofa 🔥

being bad, looking good (2.8k, smut) 🔥

Van ride drabble (800) 🖤

sleeping beast (<1k), PWP 🔥

If Joel was sick 🖤

If you were annoying

cutting his hair 🖤

waking up on top 🔥

tired 🖤

waking up on top again 🔥

Sweet pea overhears Joel 🔥

Choking on his dick (600) 🔥

his birthday 🥺

quickie (daddy kink scenario) 🔥

✨Roly poly - comfort 🖤

Note: not all content is linked. Asks can lead to lore, snippets, and previews or hints of future plot points, etc. which are not added here.

Headcanons (not written like fic)

If another man has his way (Q&A)

dacryphilia - evolved update (Q&A)

if you had scars or tattoos (Q&A)

sweet pea by herself

If you sketched Joel and Jack

Apple picking 🖤

Responding to a Nightmare 🖤

accidentally hurting her 🖤

Analysis (#raider!analysis)

why does he keep her

why did he snap (in Company extra scene)

his eye contact

his affection / feelings, trajectory 🖤

falling for sweet pea

his self hate and her feelings

the dog and joel's concern for you

awareness of growth / why keep her

Raider Tommy

Birds of prey (2.6k)

Art, etc.

Mattress by esquire magazine

Stitches by @not-a-unique-snowflake-blog

collage by @milla-frenchy

lose control edit by @survivingandenduring

🌸 sweet pea mood boards by various

6 month collage by milla-frenchy

6 month cake by not-a-unique-snowflake-blog

🌸 sweet pea cosplay from night air

👱‍♂️carter mood board by @romana-after-dark

pts. 1-3 rb mood boards by @iamasaddie

night air gif by not-a-unique-snowflake-blog

raider/sweet pea collage by milla

sweet pea's pup by @dark-scape

want it that bad gif by dark-scape

Bodies gif by not-a-unique-snowflake-blog

👱‍♂️carter mood board by milla

Then and now drawing by romana-after-dark

Raider/sweet pea drawings by @lumoverheaven

our stars moodboard by milla

raiding edits by gasolinerainbowpuddles

under the anger by iamasaddie

🎥 Trailer (video) by @carminepoison

birthday sketch by lumoverheaven

In love w raider by milla

✨ checks that you're ok 🐺 by milla

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