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The jackal and the witch AU ๏ฝ Nahida and Scaramouche ๐ป๐โโฌ
A new characters reference sheet makes an appearance, about witch Nahida and her familiar Scaramouche (or Scarameow for friends... who are not so many๐)!
Although he looks like an adorable cuddly kitten, in reality Scaramouche's body is that of a puppet. In fact many years ago, his previous witch, summoning his spirit from the spirit realm, trapped him in a physical body through a curse, in order to experiment and find a way to harness the power of spirits as much as possible without all the contractual constraints that normally bind a witch to a familiar. Unfortunately, the experiment was not very successful, because even if reduced, contractual constraints still require some commitment on the part of both parties to achieve this power exchange, instead of free access to the magic of the spirit indefinitely without limits. That's why the first witch quickly lost interest about Scara, and abandoned him to pursue other goals. Later, after wandering alone for a long time in Teyvat and having some traumatic experiences with humans that didn't exactly end well, Scaramouche was found by Nahida and made a contract with her เธ
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Nahida, instead, despite her appearance, is one of the most powerful witches in Teyvat, cursed to constantly appear with the body of a child without ever aging. She was cursed centuries ago to protect her nation from some ancient and evil forces, and for 500 years she has been the principal of the Sumeru Akademiya. Despite her past, she lives her curse very calmly and serenely, always trying to remain sunny and optimistic about the future, convinced that knowledge can help raise new generations of witches who can do good and improve the world through magic (โโข ึ โขโ)๐ She is currently not on good terms with the Sages, the council of older teachers of the Akademiya, but she puts up with them so as not to create further unnecessary turmoil within the school๐
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Since the two have entered into a contract, Scaramouche's unique physical constitution allows him and Nahida not to be constantly together, allowing them to be apart even for long distances and periods of time. Nahida rarely harnesses Scara's power, but rather would like to try to be his friend, having discovered the emptiness the latter carries since he has been forced to live on earth. Not exactly knowing how to return to the spirit realm by his own, Scara accepted his new life within the Akademiya (and secretly beginning to appreciate it, while slowly healing from his past traumas too)๐ป๐โโฌ
If these two has made you curious about this fantasy AU, here are other reference sheets that I've already drawn: Tighnari and Cyno / Kaveh and Alhaitham / Collei and Amber
Oh btw, today is a certain fennec boy's birthday, right? So, happy bday to Tighnari ahah!!๐๐ If you are looking for a fantasy fic about him and Cyno, you can find it here! The next chapter will be out tomorrow!๐๐๐
#nahida#lesser lord kusanali#scaramouche#wanderer#scarameow#genshin impact#genshin impact au#genshin impact fanart#witch au#witch x familiar au#fantasy au#genshin impact fic#ao3 fanfic#my fics#my sketches#my art
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Ravein would concur with Nunnallyโs thoughts that the kitchen here was very warm and had an inviting atmosphere. Though, there was an element of being intimidating to someone who didnโt know their way around making coffee or tea, but aside from that, it was clear that the kitchen was designed and decorated with comfort and homeliness in mind. It really was nice here, and it spoke volumes to how quickly he acclimated and found this place to be โhomeโ.
Ravein pauses to think about her question before he flips through a few pages in his notebook.
[Both]
It was good to know her preferences so he could try finding a mug that would be suitable for now and it would serve as a guideline to help find a personal mug for her use later. He would consult with Roberto on the matter and they could both keep their eye out for a mug that she may like.
Thin edges, shades of blues, oranges, or reds. Birds or intense colorsโฆ they didnโt have any with birds on them. Ravein logged the information in his mind for future reference and he cross-referenced with some of the mugs they currently had. He rummaged through one of the cupboards, remembering there was a plain red mug in the back. It didnโt have thin edges, but they werenโt too thick either. It was probably the best fit for now. He presents her the mug and waits for her approval or rejection.
Her comment about getting it together with him stuck out in his mind. Perhaps she wanted the opportunity to go shopping for a mug together? That way they could ensure that the mug she got was something of her tastes- which was the most efficient way of going about it, even if it did require some planning ahead of time around their schedules.
[Go together?]
It couldnโt be too dangerous to go looking for some mugs together. Who would ever expect that a guy on the run (and in disguise) would be shopping around for cute mugs? No one would suspect such bold behavior- so it was like reverse-psychology, almost. Besides, unless they wished to get in trouble with the local law enforcement, it wouldnโt do anyone any good to cause a scene in such an enclosed public space.
Nunnally did remember that he felt unnerved by the approach of others, especially given his history and his circumstances. Though late, she did belatedly recall this fact and apologize. A small thing, but he appreciated it all the same. He nods his head to show that he accepted her apology. He wasnโt totally put off by it, so it was fine. It would just take some time for him to truly accept her touch without first inwardly panicking first.
Something in his gut told him that it would happen eventually, in time. Even with him and Roberto, there was a sense of distance because the older man was being considerate towards Ravein. It didnโt mean that he always kept a strict distance, however. It was important for Ravein to slowly become acclimated to the touch of others if he wanted to become a part of normal society. Exposure therapy with someone he trusted was important- even if it made Ravein uncomfortable for a while.
The bunny man watched as Nunnally was preparing the drinks, curious to see what she had planned for them. His ears were also paying attention to what was going on behind him. He could hear that Roberto was handling customers, taking a few orders. Once he finished taking all the orders, heโd come into the back to start making the beverages.
In a matter of minutes, the older man came back into the kitchen, โI hope you donโt mind me joining you, Miss Nunnally. I have a few drinks to prepare for customers.โ He gives Ravein a look and motions for the younger to stay seated. He could handle this small order of drinks himself. โI promise I wonโt sneak a peak at what youโre making.โ He cracks a small joke towards Nunnally, who was still preparing the drinks.
โPreferences for a mug for today or for a mug that we are going to get for me soon?โ โ she asked cheerfully; it would be too much to say that Nunnally got used to this kind of conversation with Ravein, when she had to fill in gaps or missing information. She had never considered herself to be too good at it, but it wasn't that she minded it too much either.
She had always lived in an environment clouded with secrecy, although Nunnally might not have been always aware of it. Though she perceived Ravein secretive, she didn't see his silent nature in the same way as she was thinking about her own father. Mr. Ambly des Ayvalles. Her father.
Even during the times she believed he was merely a successful businessman, her father had spoken little, often leaving her to guess or figure things out on her own. Perhaps he thought he had been clear enough? Nunnally could never truly decide. The ambiguity of his words and actions created a veil of mystery around him; one she rarely dared to penetrate. Even back then. When he was j u s t her father. It was now much clearer for her as she reflected on her childhood and early teen years trying to identify what had gone so wrong. After she had learnt the truth...
With her father, she preferred not to ask questions, fearing the disappointment of trying and failing to understand (or rather to please) him. His silence was a wall she had learned to navigate around rather than to confront. This unspoken distance between them left her feeling isolated (unhappy even), always yearning for a connection that seemed just out of reach.
In contrast, Robertoโs kitchen, with its warm, inviting atmosphere, offered a different environment. Here, she felt (more) comfortable and relaxed, even though she was surrounded by unfamiliar things and sights. The presence of Ravein added a layer of comfort, a stark difference from the guarded interactions she had grown accustomed to at home. Or rather in her life in general.
Probably that was the reason Nunnally continued speaking not really giving Ravein any time to proceed with a reply in his notebook.
โAny mug will do for nowโฆI like the thin edges thoughโฆโ
A pause.
โI like all various shades of bluesโฆOranges or redsโฆโ โ true, she liked intense colours, but it was also a sort of a new situation for her, when she was to decide what she wanted. She had learnt not to care about details like that. But her very own mug hereโฆ Well, that was a much more difficult decision in Nunnally's eyes.
What would she like?
Initially she had thought 'birds' or 'ladybugs' or 'polka dots'. While she would surely like all of them, Nunnally suddenly thought they might be too a v e r a g e for a special occasion like this one: getting her mug here. But what would be special?
โAnything that you choose Raveinโฆโ โ she said realizing that it was not about the mug but about getting it together with him โ โYou knowโฆโ โ she continued slightly surprising herself with that โ โItโs not really about the mug but about getting it with youโฆโ
โBut I like birdsโฆ and intense colorsโฆโ โ Nunnally added, feeling unusually relaxed. In her ease, she reached out to fix his hair, a gesture so natural for her that she forgot to be cautious. Though he showed no visible reaction, the moment she withdrew her hand, she realized her mistake. She should have asked for p e r m i s s i o n before touching him. She suddenly remembered how uncomfortable Ravein was with anyone, except perhaps Roberto, invading his personal space. Though was he comfortable with Roberto? She had never witnessed these two interacting without her being involved (mainly in a bad way), so she could not be sure either.
The realization brought a faint flush of embarrassment onto her cheeks. She had overstepped a boundary. Again. What was a causal form of intimacy for her, was probably something else for Ravein. Nunnally had only hoped that he would understand that her gesture had come from a place of affection and not disregard for his feelings.: --
โIโฆI am sorry.โ โ she hoped he would understand what she was apologizing for as she didnโt find it in herself to provide more explanation.
And she simply focused on preparing the drinks. Though his return to his chair poured some hope that her overstepping was not as much unwelcomed as she initially had thought.
#Lured-into-wonderland#(Nunnally01)#RPans#((Muse; Nunnally))#((Kekek with someone like Ravein that's probs a good thing. He's an odd one and hard to understand))
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"๐๐จ๐ฐ ๐๐จ ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค? ๐๐จ๐ง๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฆ๐๐ง?" -๐๐ฎ๐ซ๐ข๐ฉ๐ข๐๐๐ฌ (๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฌ. ๐๐ง๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง)
๐๐๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ข๐ญ๐ข๐. ๐๐ญ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ, ๐๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ ๐๐ฎ๐ข๐ฅ๐. ๐๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ, ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐๐ซ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ ๐๐ญ ๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐จ๐.
[๐๐๐ฆ๐]โ๐ฌ ๐ก๐๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐ง ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฒ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ. ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐ข๐ฆ. ๐๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ก๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐ข๐ฆ. ๐๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐ข๐ฆ.
[๐๐๐ฆ๐] ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐จ๐๐ฌ. ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐. ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ฌ๐ก๐จ๐ฉ ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฆ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ, โ๐๐ข๐ซ, ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐๐๐ซ๐ค. ๐โ [๐๐๐ฆ๐], ๐ก๐โ ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ. ๐๐ ๐๐ข๐๐ง'๐ญ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐๐โฆโ
๐๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ๐ญ ๐๐ซ๐๐. ๐๐จ๐ญ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ง ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฅ๐๐ฉ ๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฐ๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ. ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ- ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ ๐จ๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ก-๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ฒ๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ณ๐๐ ๐๐ฒ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ข๐ซ ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐๐ง. ๐๐ก๐จ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ค ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐๐๐ฅ๐ ๐จ๐ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ซ๐๐๐ซ?
โ - To my dear readers, greetings! I'm here to announce that I will be working on a new story, ๐๐๐๐๐๐, which I will be uploading on Wattpad.
๐๐๐๐๐๐ is a story centered around [Name] (Who will sometimes be referred to as King), who dies in his 7th year at St. Augustine's International Academy. Four years after his death, another student, who just so happens to share the same name, dies during a hazing.
For reasons that even [Name] isn't privy to, he is able to possess the student's body. He uses this opportunity to kickstart his plan to exact revenge from his 'friends', who all hid the truth behind his death.
Be warned, none of the main cast are good people. And do not expect them to become good people either.
You may wonder, dear reader, why Wattpad? To put it simply: It's a platform I'm familiar with (in terms of uploading stories), and so I am more comfortable using it as opposed to sites such as Quora, or Ao3.
You may also be asking: Well, if the problem is ease of access, then why not use Tumblr?
For me, Tumblr works better for oneshots; longer posts that can stand well enough on their own. Of course, there are authors on this website who have proved me wrong by posting stories with multiple chapters. But as I've stated before, I am more comfortable with using Wattpad for uploading stories. That applies to uploading stories that span multiple chapters.
Will I consider uploading the chapters to Tumblr in the future? Yes, I am. Though, not at the current moment since I don't have access to my laptop.
This has been Mr. Sage, now signing off.
#yandere x reader#yandere oc#male reader#yandere#yandere x male reader#yandere male#yandere imagines#male yandere
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Donโt u hate it when you draw something and then ur like โwow uh no one follows me for this fandomโ haha lol anyway
Undertale is a pretty cool game, I may have a favorite character from it uhโ
#undertale#undertale papyrus#papyrus#undertale fanart#hashtags yippie#art post#my art#not my usual content#but whatever#I have too much art to put on here#I look through my gallery and genuinely get stressed out#anyway#have fun picking out every little reference in this#I might draw him again in the future who knows#I used to hate drawing him but Iโve figured it out now lol#a silly little guy#all of my favorite characters have something in common#itโs concerning!#have fun guessing what that is#I should like actually play undertale again#not a Castlevania post
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MAILMAN - SOUNDGARDEN
BABYGIRL WHAT IF THE SINGLE PLANK PATH TURNED MY YOUTHFUL INNOCENCE INTO A TOXIC COCKTAIL OF HUBRIS AND MORBID RESIGNATION
yeah. follow for more of the character of all time XO
#verse 2: for all of your kisses turned to spit in my face / for all that reminds me which is my place#for all of the times when you made me disappear / this time iโm sure you will know that i am here#verse 3: my place was beneath you / but now i am above#and now i send you a message of love / a simple reminder of what you wonโt see / a future so holy without me#its the bitterness. the references to an inferior origin. the mocking tone. the finality.#the โiโm bringing you down with me and the eventuality of my demise gives me power over you.โ#the spiteful continuance. OURGHHHHH#urgh yeah. โa simple reminder of what you wonโt see/ a future so holy without meโ is probably my favorite line in reference to the yllz#my favorite song from Superunknown (album) is Limo Wreck!#but this has been on my wwx playlist for a while. and its right next to LVCRFTโs Dead Donโt Die djbdhgf#which is a banger about how awesome and spooky it is to be undead#(its like. hip hop x pop x how villain songs in musicals are always the best)#e.g.#โwelcome to my lair / put your bones in the airโ#sorry lemme just#DEAD DONT DIEEEEE (the dead dont die we just multiply) DEAD DONT DIEEEE (does this look in my eye make you terrified?)#yeah its more goofy silly post resurrection wwx. hes a multifaceted character <3#is the curtain of talismans in the demon suppressing cave fanon or canon btw? i cannot rember where i got it from#used my yllz nenderoid as a reference ๐#art#mdzs#cringetober 2023#mo dao zu shi#my art#yiling laozu#yiling patriarch#wei wuxian#the grandmaster of diabolism#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation#self harm tw
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if they actually have buck move out of the loft to move in with tommy it will confirm what i know in my heart of hearts, theyโre endgame.
#putting this here for future reference purposes#yes i am speculating 4 episodes too early with zero story information and one vague ostark quote we exist#bucktommy#911 spoilers#buck x tommy
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Hey! I just wanted to ask if you have the full story/talk/chat of the event puzz reve athletic meet cops vs robbers. With their voice too?
Ah I have all the dialogue screnshotted but not a video. There is this YouTube account though that posted a lot of videos of the old events, it follows pazuribe rather then puzz reve but the dialogue is the same, if you just want the voices.
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The books Gabriel sorts in the bookshop
In episode 2.
First lines cited:
"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times" (A Tale of Two Cities, Charles Dickens)
"It was the day my grandmother exploded." (Crow Road, Ian Banks - notably this is a hardcover and the one Crowley gives Muriel later is a paperback, so Aziraphale has at least two copies)
"It is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want of a wife." (Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen - because of fucking course)
"It was a nice day." (Good Omens)
Also, shown in the shelf:
I Capture the Castle (Dodie Smith)
No Woman, No Cry (Rita Marley)
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time (Mark Haddon)
Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
Love in the Time of Cholera (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
Nineteen Eighty-Four (George Orwell)
The Big Sleep (Raymond Chandler)
The Bible
The Great Gatsby (F. Scott Fitzgerald)
The Catcher in the Rye (J. D. Salinger)
A Series of Unfortunate Events (Lemony Snicket)
Herzog (Saul Bellow)
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens spoilers#good omens 2 spoilers#gos2spoilers#I looked this up for myself but I figured I may as well put it here for future reference#in case any of this turns out to be Relevant#call it sneakiness-proof
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i do love canon amy & rory but god, does some part of me wish they really had gone with the idea of the doctor picking up a child as a companion (and then later, that childโs best friend with a huge crush on her.) with the rest of the season really not changing at all, except now itโs amelia pond with an angel in her head killing her and lost alone in the woods. itโs little rory who dies and is forgotten and becomes a toy soldier. if this is going to be a fairy tale, then let it be one. children have never been safe in fairy tales.
#it wouldnโt have to change any of the actual plot of the season. except MAYBE amyโs choice but even then i think amyโs choice would be the#one episode where they should be adults. if only for the half where they live in a village in that dream.#because thatโs the kind of future that children would dream up. they live in a little cottage and nothing ever goes wrong and their best#friend visits them all the time even though theyโve grown up.#they arenโt actually adults there just children with an idea of what they should be as adults and acting accordingly#and it would still end the same way.#but idk its just. roryโs 2000 years waiting for amy inside the pandorica is already tragic. yes.#now imagine its a kid. a kid in a little roman soldier helmet who will never grow up. who will not leave his best friend.#he loves her and sheโs more important than the whole universe and that sort of love is supposed to MEAN something in a fairy tale!#its supposed to melt the ice out of hearts and transform people from stone.#and what that love means here. is that he will have to wait 2000 years. a child and a box.#little rory and the amelia who followed the doctorโs letters to the pandorica. and she doesnโt recognize him again.#and amelia in the pandoricaโฆ 2000 years a child trapped in a small box waiting to be rescued.#s5 is already fucked for them but it could be worse. it could be so much worse.#and it would make the doctor choosing to take her place in the pandorica to save the universe later even better.#because who else but the doctor would put the fate of the universe on the shoulders of two children and realize much too late what a#monstrous thing heโd done. and still have to hope. have to hope. that amelia would remember him fondly enough to bring him back to reality.#the logistics of all of this would have been a pain lmao. child labor laws in acting and all that.#BUT. hypothetically. it would have slapped.#doctor who#amy pond#rory williams#<- also this entire time ive been referring to him in my head as rory pond so much that i fuckin. forgot his actual last name.#and then like if you want them to be adults in s6 or whatever you can just timeskip to them getting married and still have amelia remember#the doctor there. it would work. it would.#amelia pond au
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OH DONT WORRY!!!
ANY TIME THERE IS A LEMON KID IS FAMOUS IN MY HEART I KNOW THEM <333
#lemon kids and pups haunt the future just because lemongrab and lady and jake wanted to have families of their own#<333#the baby in the comic i drew isnt Directly a reference to this guy but it was like halfway thru i was like HEY WAIT. TH. THE ONE COMIC. HEY#I just like putting lemon kids in places#not art#replies#the white and black the kid is wearing here is sooooo. grips table. the lemongrab of it all.
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I opened Pinterest for the first time in months.
That made me realize a lot about how bad I was actually doing and how much of a Waffle House Index use of Pinterest is for adult me, apparently.
I hadnโt realized it had grown that foundational to me in a healthy-brain-exercise-and-hobby-joy way. Nice to know moving forward! Itโs another sign I can keep track of and use to spot correlation/indicator patterns earlier my behavior.
I love this kind of thing, it makes me so excited!
#personal data hacking is my passion#someday Iโll tell a story about the most notable times I tracked things or hacked my own mental processes from childhood to now#including the fear of spiders and bed wetting and behavior changes and posture and heart rate and cursive and putting kitchen items and#trash away as soon as Iโm finished using them instead of never ever or ages and ages later#Iโm so proud of that#you have to give it time and still commit. chaining thoughts and routines and behaviors really works#we are not separate brains and bodies and external environments#anyway Iโm gonna go haha I used up he last of my energy burst on Discord and here and I need to go rest and lie on the floor and probly doze#love you all be back soon bye mwah!#add to journal#trauma evolution#my Waffle House index#this is going to be a fun new tag Iโm so going to have fun with this and I bet itโll be a helpful example reference for other people too#more than just for future me!#so excited so proud of myself so happy so grateful for hope about me really trusting that my ability and my behavior and my performance#are able to and going to yes keep getting better#long many-milestone path-journeys of potential#like when I was a little 6-7 year old kid-team athlete looking ahead at a concept of a future with me over time getting#stronger and cleverer and faster and slicker and calmer and even happier and more and more capable and able to accomplish!#a gift. all this time I didnโt think Iโd have and have been living anyway is such a gift.#knowing that I truly have future time to grow and explore and change and improve in even though I still canโt FEEL or IMAGINE that future#time yet. also a gift.#the time I will one day realize I can imagine a future and imagine myself alive? will be a gift.#breath is a gift. experiencing life is a gift. other life is a gift. rhythm is a gift. motion is a gift. awake is a gift. color is a gift.#such a great expanse. all of it new. all of it eternal. all of it me. all of it nothing Iโve ever known before. all of it all of it#all of it. gifts.#gonna go have floor time now. this would be such a nice time to re-re-regain my ability to cry!#mwah I love you future me. take care of your hand and thank u for writing all this down ๐#hey little star whatcha gonna queue?#my poetry
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oh yeah in no particular order here are some transparents I've made for my discord profile pictures lol you're free to use them (sorry they're crusty I didn't bother cleaning them up since you see em super tiny anyway)
here's the background I usually use but it's very specific lmao
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shitpost time. i don't usually do ships but I needed to do this.
#maybe in the future#I didnt use references for this so ignore the way they're drawn here. first time drawing estonia#aph estonia#aph india#I don't seriously ship it but this was funny to me and had to be done#putting this here for funsies#hws Estonia#hws India#ik its nothing like the style of the og but I like how it turned out
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him. trant cremm
#ted lasso#trent crimm#hes just. silly guy!#im having a bit of fun doodling figured i might as well put it here for future reference
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more!
#south park#butters stotch#vic chaos#professor chaos#marjorine stotch#vampire butters#my art#sketches#i felt the need to include the drawing explaining vic#he is not the ''evil alter'' he is a protector who wants revenge on their abusers#also while im here: as i see it ''vic'' and ''professor chaos'' become two different alters at some point in the future#so vic chaos in post covid is not professor victor chaos. you know?#vic chaos in post covid splits from butters being grounded for 16 years. and so the prof victor chaos we have here becomes prof chaos#two different alters IN THE FUTURE as of now they are one.#and also vic will always be older than butters. the only ones who dont age are marjorine and butters after a point#i like to imagine as an adult. even in return to covid. vic is still the host of the system. so butters basically becomes a little who is#like at oldest maybe 14#i imagine vampire will grow with butters until hes a teenager and then stop aging around 14-16.#also i reference inside mari in the first sketch but really i think of this more like jane from doom patrol. how the entire system works to#protect kay. how jane becomes the host for years and has the pressure put on her not to do anything that would hurt kay.#like that feels like vic chaos to me. hes got pressure on him to not hurt butters. and theyve all got a job to protect butters.#sorry for the ramble ill definitely draw smth in reference to the scene from doom patrol s4 when jane gets high and apologizes to kay#and shes like ''im sorry. this is your body.'' and kay goes ''its our body.''
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*reaches out my hand and grabs you* I have the power to subject non vocaloid people to pinop..
TW: for flashing lights
Mushroom mother analysis in my tags. ..
#vocaloid#pinochiop#i saw this video link wasn't posted anywhere on tumblr and thought i should share#(i will be gendering protagonist as 'she' and writer as 'he' for simplicity)#anyway to me in my interpretation the song is written about specific person's reaction to mental illness/neurodivergence.#the fact that mushrooms are growing on heads is a reference to mushrooms only growing in darkness and-#-and is a common anime trope to imply that a character is depressed or a shut in (shimeji situation did this) (also a panel in ohshs)#there is this familiarity between the singer and who she is singing to (presumably the writer) like these are the words of a past lover..#making it feel like the pinop almost HATES the protagonist of this song. that he was called the one with the 'mushroom mother'#but it almost feels like that protagonist does become obsessed a little with the idea of not catching a mental illness from pinop#but then in their obsession of 'not catching it' they start exhibiting like a hypochondriac ocd but for mentalillnesses#the 'your mother is a mushroom mother' to me is a teasing (almost child like) jeer almost felt aimed at pinop/writer.#to imply that.. because his mother gave birth to him she's a mushroom mother. because he is a mushroom (like a yo mama joke)#in my mind the writer is insulting himself here. that the chorus is insulting him in that teasey child's tone#anyway later in the song the protagonist gets more paranoid about others spreading their emotional toxicity to her.#and in her sanitation attempt she winds up hurting other people (implied i think. because of the violence of setting mushrooms on fire)#eventually though I think she stops seeing mental illnesses as a flaw and instead of 100% hating she jumps to 100% loving them#tbh this interpretation is the shakiest part (because why would she put on a mushroom on her head in the end) (what does it mean??)#I think it means that she's embraced being allowed to be publicly mentally ill. and she takes that 'being allowed' as permission to be crue#the protagonist was cruel and toxic even before this transformation#then the writer.. in some perspective thinks about how in retrospect her actions were hollow#the writer surmises that living in that cycle would feel emotionally unfulfilling .. empty.#the writer here is coping with what was done to them in the past.. the person that hurt them enough to write this song#then now that she has those mushrooms growing on her head/is depressed and so the chorus of mushroom mother returns to poke fun at her#and in the end i think the writer joins in in that gloating chorus#The writer feels mixed on celebrating an 'ex' being confirmed as something he was for having#but there is also the celebration of being petty. and the franticness those sort of mixed emotions would give u..#and in the end the writer thinks that in the future that the world will keep changing on it's view on the mentally ill#but because those ending lines are repeated twice i think he's implying that there is a cycle to it#that there is a resignation to the world moving and changing into something else but not getting totally better
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