#putting them ontop of food studies cause

[fishhhhshh]

Morally fluid netrunners who take the money and bail they are so !!!!!!!!! Also Aymeric is cute :3

[hey-there-love]

Apologize

Summary: Friday nights don’t have to be lame when Katsuki Bakugo is involved.

Content Warnings: Aged up, NSFW, 18+, Fem oral receiving, penetration, slight anal play, slight dacryphilia, slight spit play, choking, AU, Adult Language, Enter at your own risk.

WC: 3.1K

It was a boring Friday night alone. You were lost in one of your many textbooks studying for a big test on Monday when your phone notified that you had a snapchat. Assuming it was from your roommate Mina, who should have been busy with work, you grabbed your phone.

It was from Katsuki Bakugo. You rolled your eyes and threw your phone onto the pillow. Bakugo was your on and off again friend with benefits. On and off meaning you saw him when it was convenient to Bakugo and Bakugo only. Sadly, you came back each time because you genuinely liked the guy...

Plus it was the best sex of your life.

It was an unfortunate situation to say the least. In the moment when you were with him you were satisfied, but as you got back home you craved more. You were both alike in many ways. Rough around the edges, but soft once you opened up. Goal oriented, focused on your schooling and your futures. A fucked up sense of humor that matched toe to toe. You both came to a mutual agreement that you were meant to be friends early on, but lately you longed for more.

The thing about your situationship with Bakugo was on the rocks since he canceled on you a few nights ago to go out with his friends. Granted you didn’t owe each other anything, but canceling last minute really pissed you off.

After a few minutes of pondering about the Snapchat, you went against your better judgement and opened it.

Bakugo: What are you doing?

You sucked your teeth and debated on messaging him back. Tentatively you set your phone down, deciding to give him a taste of his own medicine and leaving him on read. You stuck your nose back in your textbook. About 10 minutes of note taking had passed and your phone had went off again. You glared and looked at the message.

Bakugo: Don’t ignore me shitty woman.

Your body fluttered. The part of your body that did was undetermined though. You scraped your brain of something wity to say back.

Y/N: What do you need? You’re interrupting my hot date.

He responded instantly, almost as if he was awaiting your response.

Bakugo: An actual date or your hand because you know I’m better than both.

You swallowed the lump that had formed in the back of your throat. He wasn’t exactly wrong. Bakugo was far more experienced in the handiwork than you were, but that’s exactly what a vibrator was for. You snapped a picture of the textbook in your lap and captioned it.

Y/N: His name is Pearson’s Guide to Anatomy and we’re madly in love.

At this point you gave up on studying because you were clearly distracted and laid down. Your message sat on delivered for a few minutes before he finally opened it. This time it was a picture. You looked at instantly. He snapped a picture of his roommate Kirishima grinning in front of the stove with a spatula in his hand.

Bakugo: Come eat and before you say no it wasn’t a question.

You fought the battle inside your brain. You were still pretty upset with him, but you hadn’t ate since breakfast so you were hungry. Plus...sex of course. You opted to send him a short message.

Y/N : Gimme 30 minutes asshole.

Bakugo replied with the thumbs up emoji and sent you into action. You had just taken a shower and thankfully something told you to shave your legs. You brushed your teeth quickly and brushed your hair back into a tight pony tail. Everything you needed was already in your purse. A toothbrush, a pair of underwear, deodorant, a few condoms, a charger, and body spray. ( AN: I always recommend keeping a mini spendanight bag in your purse just in case :) )

You spent a few minutes deciding what to wear before putting on a black lace bra and matching underwear. You opted for a pair of black sweats and long sleeve shirt. It was a little chilly out so you threw on a hoodie. Deciding you were finally ready you sent a message to Mina, alerting her of your absence.

Mina: Wear protection! ;) I get off at 2 if you need a ride home.

You laughed at your best friend’s response and began the short walk to Bakugo’s. There was a little bit of day light left so it was easy to navigate through his neighborhood.

Pretty soon you were standing in front of his building. You pressed the buzzer. Kirishima’s sing song voice sounded through the speaker. “Whooooo is it?” Clearly he knew it was you.

“Kiri let me in! I’m freaking freezing.” You whinned.

“That’s not the passworddddd.” He chided, laughing.

“Let her in dumbass.” You heard Bakugo growling in the background.

“Hey!” Kirishima cried and the door buzzed. You rode the elevator up to the third floor. You rasped on the front door. It was opened abruptly by Kirishima who rubbed the back of his head cautiously.

“Let me guess, he smacked you didn’t he?” You pondered and gave him a side hug.

“Yeah and it wasn’t very manly of him either.” He sighed and hugged you back.

“Keep it up and I’ll do it again, Shitty Hair.” Bakugo called from the kitchen. You shook your head and ruffled his hair.

Kirishima grinned and whispered in your ear, “I’m glad your here, he’s been in a mood all day.” You blushed majorly and looked down as he trailed off into the kitchen. It wasn’t a secret to your friend group what you and Bakugo were. Kirishima and Mina had walked in on you two multiple times, but it still wasn’t embarrassing.

You removed your shoes and padded into the kitchen. The aroma of deliciousness hit your nose instantly. Your stomach grumbled. “See I knew you were hungry.” Bakugo said finishing up the stir fry.

Your wrapped your arms around his waist tightly and laid your head on his back. “Shut up and feed me.” You mumbled.

“You want dinner or desert first?” He replied and rubbed your arm as he mixed up the food in the pan.

“Who said you were getting desert?”

“Please guys! Not infront of the stir fry! It’s innocent!” Kirishima groaned and shoved you two out of the way deciding it was done.

You both shot him a glare as he happily loaded his plate up with food. Bakugo fixed your plate and handed it to you. The three of you sat down on the couch in front of the tv. Kirishima put on a series he just started. You began to chatter about the show in between bites. Pretty soon you were done eating and he gave you a synopsis. Bakugo took your plates to the kitchen.

“Hold on wait, so wait. If he’s an international criminal why did he just turn himself in like that to help the agent?” You questioned, clearly enthralled by the show.

“That’s what I’m trying to figure out! There’s literally 7 seasons of this! I need answers.” Kirishima agreed.

“Bro what if that’s his like secretly his daughter? Like it makes sense why he’s so connected to her and protects her.” You said excitedly, slapping his leg.

“Dude. That actually makes hella sense.” He replied. Bakugo quietly sat down next to you and began to stroke your lower back, signaling it was time to retreat to his bedroom. You looked up at him with pleading eyes to finish the episode. He rolled his eyes and moved his hand to the back of the couch.

Pretty soon the credits rolled at the end of the episode. “I’m going to bed.” Bakugo announced and stood up.

“Ugh, lame.” Kirishima huffed. Bakugo walked into his bedroom without a word, leaving you two on the couch. You both looked at each other and shrugged.

“I’m definitely going to start watching whenever I get home. Text me about it tomorrow yeah?” You asked making your way to the room.

“For sure!” He called after you as you shut the door. You set your bag down next to the bed and sat down to check your phone. You heard the sink running and then the bathroom door opened revealing a shirtless Bakugo. Grey sweatpants hung off of his hips.

You licked your lips slightly as he turned off the lights and slinked to the bed. A candle faintly flicked in the corner, giving a slight orange glow to the room. “Damn that was like pulling teeth, Y/N” he said and laid down next to you.

“What? You weren’t interested in the show? It was good.” You replied, feeling your pulse quicken as he looked up at you through his lashes.

“I’ve been interested in something else for the past hour.” Bakugo sighed and wrapped his strong arm around your waist, pulling you towards him.

“And what would that be exactly?” You questioned and leaned back into the pillows. He quickly moved ontop of you and hovered over your lips.

“Getting inbetween your thighs.” He whispered. You sucked in a breath before his lips landed on yours. It was slow at first. Sweet closed mouth kisses turned into a passionate tongues mingling together. One of your hands began to run its way through his hair while the other traced the expanse of his bare back.

He groaned into your mouth and you pulled his hair lightly. His hand caressed up your neck until it grabbed your jaw holding you in place. Bakugo began to slowly grind against your sweet spot. Causing you to grow wetter than you already were. His freehand began to explore your body, running along your stomach and up to your bra.

Moans escaped as he began to stroke your nipple through the fabric. He lifted you up from the bed and removed your hoodie and shirt in a swift motion, throwing it somewhere off the bed. You weren’t too concerned at the moment of the location. The hand that gripped your jaw made its way down to your neck as he delicately squeezed the side of your throat.

He kissed down your neck until he made it to the area were your breast pooled ontop of your bra. He began to suck on the revealed flesh before pulling it down to free them. “You’ve got such nice tits, babygirl.” Bakugo growled and took a nipple into his mouth.

You mewled at the praise. He began to nip and suck at it, making sure to tweak and pinch the other in the same fashion. You bucked your hips to meet his, adding more friction to the equation. A few moments passed before he began trail down to the hem of your sweatpants.

Bakugo worked diligently sliding them down your legs before laying in between your thighs. You locked eyes as he started to speak, completely in a trance. “Allow me to formally apologize for canceling on you before.” You nodded slowly. He smiled devilishly and kissed your inner thighs.

The teasing was unreal. It made you so hot that you knew your panties were soaked. He planted a light kiss to your clothed clit. Using his index finger he stroked your pussy vertically with the tip. “You smell so good, Y/N. I can’t wait to taste you.” Bakugo growled. He pulled your panties to the side and slipped the finger in. You instantly clenched around him as he began to pump the tip teasingly.

You were a mess. The strokes were torchous, your mind swirled. “Look at you, grabbing my fucking finger and it’s barely even there.” You loved how vocal he was. He slowly pulled his digit out before entering it again, this time deeper inside you. Your juices cascaded down his hand.

“Shit.” Bakugo cursed and tore your underwear off. You were much too distracted to even worry about your thong being shredded. He added a second finger into the mix. He curled them up inside you, finding the spongy spot that sent you crazy.

Removing his fingers he held them up to the light, entranced by the stringy substance that coated them. “Open your mouth.” He demanded. You did as you were told, no questions asked. Bakugo inserted the two into your mouth. You swirled your tongue around and inbetween then, collecting your slick. He groaned as you sucked and bit down.

His mouth attacked your clit promptly. It was a relief you craved. There was no kitten licks about it. His tongue did figure 8’s around your cunt. You were a moaning mess, saying his name without a care in the world that Kirishima could hear you. Then he did something foreign that you never experienced before. His tongue trailed down your pussy until it found your tight, puckered hole.

You weren’t quite sure what was going on, but in the moment it didn’t matter. Bakugo had your trust completely and he knew it. He didn’t go too far though, just kissing and licking it slightly before focusing his attention back on your throbbing pussy. He plunged the two fingers into your hole again, but this time he fucked it.

The lewd sounds that came from your cunt were enough to make you blush. His free hand flew up to your pelvis and began to gently press down causing pressure. “You hear how loud your cunt is babygirl? You sound like your enjoying it.” Bakugo called. He bit down harshly on your thigh.

“Please Bakugo, please fuck me.” You begged, wrapping your leg around his shoulder.

“That’s not what you should call me Y/N. What’s my name?” He slowed down his pumps, but kept the pressure, making the pleasure the same level of intensity as before.

“Katsuki please!” You cried out. He grinned as you.

“I’m sorry Y/N, but I’m not done apologizing yet.” You threw your head back against the pillows as his mouth attacked you once more. His pace began to speed up again. You felt his fingers scissoring inside of you. Your release barreled towards you.

“I’m about to cum.” You whimpered, pushing his head closer to your cunt. His fingers pumped faster than before, hitting your g-spot every time. Your orgasm washed over you promptly as you moaned his name. Your once rigid body melted against the bed. You felt Bakugo climb up your body.

He grabbed your face and made you open your mouth. He spit the saliva and cum mixed fluid into your mouth before running his hand over your breasts again. You were putty and under his mercy.

“Still want me to fuck your brains out?” Bakugo questioned as he stroked himself through his sweats.

“Please.” You breathed out. He chuckled and stood up, removing his pants. His dick sprang free and slapped against his stomach. Precum pooled around the tip. He pulled a condom out of the drawer on the bed side table.

He noticed you staring at him, “See something you like?” Bakugo questioned as he rolled the condom onto his cock. You nodded sheepishly and spread your legs. He shook his head and then nestled inbetween your legs again as he kissed your lips sweetly. He began to rub the tip against your sensitivity, making you jump at the sensation.

“I’ll go slow this time, I promise.” Bakugo kissed your forehead and gently pressed into you, giving you inch by inch. You both hissed until he sank himself fully in your heat. “Shit, you’re always so tight for me baby.” He moaned rested his head on yours.

He began to thrust slowly allowing you to adjust to the pain. Bakugo was not small in the slightest, so you were grateful at the pace he set. He buried his head into your shoulder as profanities escaped his lips. “Fuck, Katsuki. You fill me up so good.” You moaned, scratching his back lightly.

This encouraged him to increase his speed, grinding his hips into yours until he filled you to the hilt. “You are mine. You’ll always fucking be mine Y/N.” He growled, nipping at your collarbone. The declaration made your heart soar, but it also gave you a sinking feeling in the back of your mind.

Bakugo threw your legs over his shoulders as he drilled deep into you. You felt tears prick in your eyes at the sensation as another orgasm began to build. He grasped your face, “Look me in the eyes when you cum because I know you’re close.” You nodded quickly. Tears flowed freely as your mouth hung open. The next orgasm hit you like a brick wall. You were pretty sure you screamed his name that time, but you couldn’t be too sure.

Once your body calmed down Bakugo pulled out, flipped you over onto your stomach and pulled your ass into the air. He slammed back into you. You attempted to jerk forward, but he gripped your hips tight. A loud smack landing against your ass for trying to run away.

You felt his warm saliva drip down to your puckered hole before he used his thumb to swirl it around. Unintentionally, you jerked again. He paused his actions. “You trust me right?” Bakugo panted and rubbed your cheek delicately.

“Yes, of course.” You whinned at the loss of rhythm. Another slap landed on you cheek.

“Okay, run away again,” he stated, “I’m fucking your ass.” That caused you to remain absolutely still. Granted after the experience before you didn’t mind the thought of it, but you we’re too spent for that tonight and you knew Katsuki Bakugo would make good on his promise. He began fucking you again, this time not as rough. He repeated his actions from earlier and teased your ass again before gently pressing his thumb in your tight rear.

You were grateful that you could shove your head into the pillow because the noises that came from you would have woken up the whole building. You mentally reminded yourself to apologize to Kirishima tomorrow. “Shit, I’m really fucking close babygirl.”

“Please Katsuki, please come inside of me.” You moaned, egging him on. That was all it took. His once steady, prominent strokes turned into sloppy thrusts as he filled the condom. Once he steadied, he removed himself as you collapsed. Bakugo rolled the condom off and threw it into the trash before falling in next to you.

You were both panting messes. Once you caught your breath you glanced over at him. “Apology accepted.”

“Shut up, shitty woman.” Bakugo laughed and kissed you cheek.

[thefreakymunson]

"Where the hell are they?"

The question was rhetorical. Anyone who knew Jon Moxley, knew that he was rarely on time. Pair that with Seth and Roman, who were always ten minutes early, and you've got yourself three people who can never link up on schedule. However, when Roman spoke to Jon on the phone, he made them promise they wouldn't leave before Jon arrived. Jon had someone he wanted them to meet.

Ever since Jon had left, things had been different, which was expected. The trio had become a pair, and while Roman and Seth missed him greatly, they knew he wasn't happy in WWE. They wished him well, and they still hung out when their busy schedules allowed. This time, they hadn't seen each other in three months. So the reunion was going to be fun. They had planned a day at their favorite bar in Peoria, Mack's. The three of them had discovered this bar after a rough episode of Raw in 2016, when they all three desperately needed a beer.

"There," Roman pointed to the door that had opened. Jon was pulling his sunglasses off and tucking them in his shirt while he spoke to someone they couldn't see, "Over here!"

Roman's loud voice caught Jon's attention and Roman and Seth stood up. When Jon got closer, they could see a shorter man walking behind him, holding onto his hand tightly. They all hugged Jon, Roman went to ruffle his hair, but was suddenly stopped when he realized how short his hair was now.

"Ah man, where's your hair?" Roman joked, "You're basically bald now!"

"Too long, had to cut it off." Jon shrugged and turned to the unnamed guest, "This is Darby...he's my boyfriend, Darbs....this is Seth and Roman."

"Yeah, from WWE." Darby nodded, "Nice to meet you two."

The three shook hands and Roman and Seth motioned for them to come sit down, which they gladly did. Darby's feet were killing him. They sat across the booth from one another, Seth and Roman on one side, while Darby and Jon took to the other side. The waitress came over and handed them their menu's and took their drink orders, all four men ordering beer.

"I'm starving," Darby said as he looked down at the menu. He was nervous, meeting these two guys from Jon's past that he talked about a lot. Jon could sense his nerves, and under the table, placed a comforting hand on the inside of his thigh, slightly squeezing to comfort him.

"Yeah. We missed breakfast." Jon sighed as he looked over at the two men, "So...whats up? How have you two been?"

"Really good, actually." Roman nodded, "It's been different since you left, but we're okay. They're pushing Seth as a god..."

"We all know he was perfectly fine with that gimmick," Jon smirked as he glanced over at Seth, "A walking god complex, you are."

Seth glared at him, and kicked his foot lightly under the table, but shot back with "Well...they liked what they seen, I guess."

Darby sat in the corner and watched the three of them interacting, and couldn't help but feel the small amount of jealousy pitting in his stomach. It was stupid, and he knew that. But Jon was one of the best things that had happened to him. The fact they were sitting across from his former teammates and lovers was enough to make anyone antsy. Roman was beautiful, there was no doubt about that. He had a hulking figure, and hair that was surely made of pure silk. Seth was bearded and rugged, and while they had similar styles, Darby knew he was probably no match against Seth. His self confidence diminshed a bit more.

They had a long talk before they came to Mack's. Jon talked about how he had missed the two men, but how happy he was with Darby now, and how Darby shouldn't be jealous of envious of them. They were Jon's past. But they were a past that Jon consistently talked about. He knew the three of them were close. But goddamnit, he wanted that with Jon, too.

The trio had split with the promise of keeping in touch and remaining friendly. However, that didn't sit too well with Darby. In his opinion, past relationships should have stayed in the past. He wanted to do what he could to support his boyfriend though, and if meeting up with Roman and Seth helped him cope with the big changes that he made, then he would meet with them as well. He was surprised when Jon invited him along, telling Darby he wanted to show him off. Darby never considered himself much to be shown. But it eased his trust issues. At least he wouldn't be left in the dark.

"What are you gonna eat?" Jon looked over at Darby, seeing him chewing on his painted black nails. It was a habbit Darby was trying to quit, so he reached up and tangled their fingers together, pulling his hand down to his lap, making Darby blush lightly, "I'm thinking chicken."

"A burger, more than likely." Darby said softly as he leaned against Jon's shoulder and looked over at the two men across from them who were studying their menu's.

"You okay?" Moxley whispered into his ear.

Darby nodded his head and looked up into Jon's blue eyes, seeing the concern. Jon knew how he felt, but he also knew how grateful he was to be included in this. He studied Jon's eyes, seeing the concern for his well being and his mental state. Jon knew about Darby's past relationship, which ended in his heart being shattered after catching his ex boyfriend cheating on him. He wanted nothing more than to prove to Darby that he wouldn't hurt him. That he loved him deeply.

Moxley squeezed his hand comfortingly as he went back to looking over his menu. Soon the waitress arrived to take their order. They ate in comfortable silence, talking amongst themsevles, before Roman adverted his attention to Darby.

"So...I seen you two's match last week." Roman cleared his throat, "When you came out with Jon's face on yours...that was genius."

"That was freaky," Jon laughed, gently elbowing Darby in the side.

"My favorite scare tactic," Darby chuckled, "Did you see his face when he seen it?"

"Yeah, Moxley didn't know what to do. He's a scaredy cat." Roman teased.

"I am not," Jon said with a mouth full of food, "I just wasn't expecting it."

"He won't watch a horror movie with me, either." Darby shook his head, "Looks like a big ole tough guy, but is really a big ole softy."

"Oh shut up," Jon waved his hand dissmissively, "I'm not some psycho that enjoys being scared."

They fell back into eating and occasionally chatting, and Roman noticed the glances and looks Jon and Darby were exchanging. It was cute, and he was glad Jon had found someone to be with. While he desperately missed and loved Jon, he wanted nothing but the best for the man in life. He's always heard, that if you loved something or someone, to set it free. And Jon was finally free in life to do and conquer what he truly wanted in life, which was to be recognized.

They all stayed until late in the afternoon, and Darby found himself immersed in their conversation. It became clear to him soon that Jon had genuinely put their relationship in the past. He caught Jon staring at him a few times, with such a look of love and adoration. It made that warm feeling swell within him. He had to realize that Jon genuinely loved him.

Soon, the bar announced it would be closing. They paid their bill and split the tab four ways, and said their goodbyes. Seth and Roman walked the opposite way of Jon and Darby, leaving the two lovebirds alone.

Darby held Jon's larger hand with both of his as they walked and he noticed that was slightly buzzed, having drank almost six beers. Jon had a goofy grin plastered on his face as they walked.

"What are you so smiley about?" Darby asked, laying his head on Jons shoulder.

"I just had one of the best days of my life in awhile. I missed them, ya know? But I got to spend time with them and you. It was fun." Jon shrugged, "Plus...I'm a little drunk."

Darby laughed and they walked back in silence to their hotel room. Once they were inside, Jon took his shoes and pants off while Darby went to the bathroom to brush his teeth. When he walked out of the bathroom, he found Jon lounding on the bed in his boxers, flipping through the television channels. Darby stripped down to his boxers himself, and crawled in bed beside of him, laying his head on Jon's broad chest. He idly drew hearts through the patch of chest hair and looked up at him, sighing softly, "I gotta admit...I was jealous."

"Jealous?" Jon glanced down at him, "Why?"

"I mean, before we got there. It's not every day that you go with your boyfriend to have dinner with his ex boyfriends." Darby quickly licked his lips, "But...I understand now. The three of you...your friends. I always thought that when relationships ended....they always had to end badly. It isn't that way with the three of you, is it?"

"No," Jon shook his head, "I had fun with them. But a relationship with two other people...it wasn't too much for me, ya know? I loved them both...but I wanted something more personal. I wanted then what I have with you now."

Darby stretched up and cupped Jon's stubbly cheek, and kissed his him, letting his lips linger ontop of Jon's for a few seconds longer, before he pulled back and shook his head, "I didn't think it was possible, but I think I love you even more after today."

"Good," Jon winked at him, "Cause I fall in love with you more every day."

[bts-fake-texts-and-reactions]

It’s Okay Kitten

Jungkook x Hybrid kitten reader

Genre: Fluff

“Kookie,” you purred rubbing against Jungkooks leg as he brushed his teeth

“You okay Kitten?” He asked smiling down at you

“Please, don’t go to work,” you pouted standing to meet him nuzziling your head into his neck

“I wish I could stay here with you all day Kitten. But I have to work. I’m sorry,” he said putting his tooth brush back into the holder next to your pink one.

He turned to you lifting your face from his neck pressing a gentle kiss on your head.

“How about another 10 minuets of snuggling before I go, hmm?” He smiled to which you purred and your tail waved happily as you pulled him to the bed and cuddled up by his side. Your head laying on his arm and in his chest. His other arm sling over your waist and petted your tail softly.

You purred into his chest and he smiled to himself.

“Are you okay kitten, you’ve been very pouty and cuddly the last few days,” you could tell by his voice he was very concerned. You had been very clingy and pouty recently. Little did he know you had fallen in love with him. His kind goofy and caring personality had made you fall head over heels for him. But sadly. Hybrids being with their owners was frowned upon. You could never tell him. But the idea of him meeting someone and falling in love with them and then him bringing them back to live with you both broke your heart.

Of course you wanted him to be happy. But, the feeling of insecurity, of not being able to be with him the way a full human would stopped you from saying anything. So for the past 4 weeks you had been living in constant sorrow that you had met your soulmate but, he would never return your love the way you loved him.

“No, I’ve just been feeling a little...” you trailed off as your eyes began to water.

He felt your body stiffen and felt your shoulders shake slightly from trying to hold back sobs.

“Y/n, Kitten, are you crying?” He asked his fingers coming to run over the fur on your white ears.

You didn’t trust your voice and nodded into his chest pulling him closer to you in a attempt to calm yourself down.

“Shhhh, it’s okay Kitten,” he said pulling you closer into his body tangling his legs with yours and holding you tightly in his arms.

5 minuets passed of Jungkook whispering softly for you to calm down. And that everything was going to be okay. Your sobs stopped when he began singing. His soft beautiful voice filled the room and it never failed to take your breath away. That this beautiful man had such a voice in him. He sounded like an angel.

He kept singing till he felt your body go limp and you purr slightly meaning you had fallen asleep. He knew you slept for a long time during the day. So he had time to slip into work tell his boss he was taking some hybrid days (which is just like sick leave because hybrids are so common that people get paid days off from work to look after them)

When you awoke to an empty room you felt cold as you relised that jugkook had gone to work. So you got up and headed into the kitchen to see your meal he always made you before he left sitting on the bench in your bowl that had kitten printed on it in Pink writing. He really did treasure you. You ate in silence until you heard the door slam shut and heavy footsteps to the kitchen. You hopped off the stool and hid under the table scared someone had broken in. When you saw the intruders legs you tensed and bought your tail up to cover your face.

The sound that followed confused you. You heard plastic bags rattling and someone opening the fridge putting things inside.

A small squeak left your lips as the intruder dropped something on the floor and bent down to pick it up.

“Kitten?” You heard Jungkooks confused voice and uncovered your eyes to see him looking at you smiling “kitten what are you doing under there, are you okay?” He asked reaching his hand out. You took his hand and climbed out from under the table hugging him close

“You scared me Kookie,” you sighed breathing in his scent.

“Sorry Y/n, I didn’t mean too. I thought you’d still be asleep so I went to get some groceries,” he said patting your head softly watching as his movements caused your ears to twitch and his hand fluffing your white hair.

You smiled and helped him unpack the groceries he’d bought when your eyes landed on some salmon stakes

You purred excitedly causing Jungkook to look over at you grinning as he made his way over to you.

“I thought I’d treat you to your favourite dinner tonight?” Jungkook smiled

“Why?” You inquired

“Because, you’ve been very pouty recently and I want to try and cheer you up. So I took a week off work and bought you all your favourite foods. So we can cuddle and eat as much as possible,” Jungkook beamed

“Jungkook,” you whispered looking at your feet pouting sadly

“Hey now Y/n,” he said lifting your chin “won’t you tell me what’s wrong?” He said scratching behind your ear with his other hand.

“You’re so good to me Jungkook. I don’t deserve it,” you said pouting looking away from his intense gaze

“You are so amazing you have no idea how lucky I am to have found you,” he said cupping your cheek with his hand. Your gaze lifted to his eyes and you noticed him smile and rub his thumb over your cheek soothingly

“Come on, let’s go watch a movie,” he smiled taking your hand and pulling you into the lounge where he sat flicking on a movie to watch and sat next to him. Your head on his lap. His fingers combed through your white hair.

“You know Y/n?” Jungkook started and you looked up at him

“I think naturally your hair colour is (y/h/c)” he smiled

“Why do you say that?” You inquired

“The roots of your hair have always been that colour. I think if you where fully human you would have that coloured hair” he smiled down at you.

If only you where fully human...

Hours passed of cuddling and eating when picked your body up in his arms bridal style

“Kookie?” You questioned

“I think it’s time for bed,” he smiled sweetly

“I can walk you know,” you chuckled. He nodded smiling at you as he walked into his room. Odd you thought. I normally sleep in my room.

“Would you like to cuddle tonight?” Jungkook asked as he set you on the floor.

You nodded and smiled happily.

“Aww, there is the smile I love,” he smiled squeezing your hand

“I’ll just go put my pjs on,” you said walking out of the room to get changed.

Climbing into bed with Jungkook is the best feeling ever. He had you laying ontop of him as he rubbed your back. You tail fell between your legs and landed on his thighs.

“I love cuddling with you kitten,” he smiled at your purring self

You looked up at him beaming so hard you had your eyes closed he chuckled lowly. You placed your head in the crook of his neck leaving soft kitten licks and kisses to show affection the way hybrids tend to. Especially cat hybrids.

But to your shock you felt his lips press to your neck softly lingering.

Your head shot up to look at him with wide eyes. A simple small smiled played on his lips and his eyes studied your face with affection in his eyes.

“You are so beautiful y/n,” he smiled as he bought his lips to softly brush against yours as he spoke.

He finally closed the gap. Your lips molding together perfectly as you kissed.

You broke away a massive smile on your face.

“I’m sorry kitten. But I can’t take it anymore. I love you so so much y/n”

Unable to process properly you settled for kissing him again. This time purring as you did so. His hands held you tight to his body.

“I love you too Jungkook,” you smiled playing with his hair

As you both settled down in bed ready to go to sleep Jungkook asked “why have you been so sad recently,”

You smiled and looked up at him again in the dark. Which your eyes glowed softly as you spoke “because, I wasn’t able to kiss you when I wanted, I didn’t think you loved me,” you said kissing his nose

“I don’t just love you, I worship you,” he said before passing out from exhaustion

Sweet dreams tonight. And forever

[104thsquadfam]

💞(all of them for both my boys, ethan is optional for eren, mikasa, armin, and erwin. and montez as optional for Marco.)

Send me a “ 💞 “ and I post a gif showing my muses feeling towards yours.

Eren to Marco: 

Best Buds, Eren enjoys hanging out with Marco.

Mikasa to Marco:

Kick ass together.

Mikasa to Eren:

Get along great, mikasa loves Eren very much and though she often worries for him she gives him the space he needs because she wants her brother to be happy. 

Armin to Marco:

Armin enjoys to hang out with Marco as often as he can, i imagine Marco would teach him different handshakes and Armin would enjoy it.

Armin to Eren:

He loves his best friend in more ways then one.

Annie to Marco:

Annie won’t admit it but she enjoys Marcos company.

Annie to Eren: 

Considers helping him at times but finds it more amusing to watch him stumble and make himself stronger but is willing to help if needed.

Bertholdt to Marco:

He will use his size against Marco.

Bertholdt to Eren:

Bertholdts not much of a fighter especially with bullies but if he see’s Eren in trouble he will use his size to his advantage. 

Reiner to Marco:

Reiner enjoys Training with Marco in the main and au verse. ( He also loves to babysit or pet sit for Marco)

Reiner to Eren:

Reiner can unintentionally be a dick when he’s pranking poor Eren.

Connie to Marco:

Connie loves to hang around Marco and joke around with him, when he’s down Connie does everything he can to make Marco laugh, secretly he loves the guy but hasn’t put two and two together. 

Connie to Eren:

He often jokes around with Eren making it his job to make him laugh when he’s down or just be silly to make his day, he knows how hard Eren has it so he tries everything he can to lighten the mood.

Sasha to Marco: 

Loves to hang around with Marco and often gets herself into trouble but thankfully with Marco around she’s held in check.

Sasha to Eren:

If Eren is asleep you can almost always find Sasha bugging him in some way trying to get him to help her sneak some food.

Erwin to Marco:

Self explanatory 

Erwin to Eren:

Lol, with two adopted boys in the au and between trying to take care of Eren in the main verse, things get hectic there’s only so much one dad can do xD

Jean to Marco:

You already know how my boy Jean feels about Marco

Jean to Eren:

He will cuddle him and tend to him, everyone things they hate each other but that’s far from the truth.

Krista to Marco:

She goes to Marco when she needs some guidance and is feeling down.

Krista to Eren:

She enjoys hanging out with Eren and talking to him. 

Marco to Eren:

Their friendship is a strong one.

Ymir to Marco:

She messes with him a lot but it’s only cause she cares for the idiot.

Ymir to Eren:

Like marco she teases Eren.

BONUSES:

Eren to Ethan:

These two are always messing around, meanwhile Mikasa is just watching and making sure they aren’t getting into any trouble.

Mikasa to Ethan:

Mikasa loves her brothers and loves to show it to them daily, she will kill anyone who dares hurt them.

Erwin to Ethan:

It’s safe to say he’s got his hands full but he loves Ethan so very much, when Ethan, Eren and Mikasa were all little he would let them sleep ontop of him when they had nightmares.

Armin to Ethan:

These two along with Eren make a great trio to hang with and can all be found at times studying together. Armin is one of the few that can tell Eren and Ethan apart and they constantly test him. 

Marco to Montez:

[ataash-varin-katara-blog]

*slams door open* GIVE ME THOSE MOTHER FUCKIN OTP ASKS BOIIIIIIII. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Alex/Eridan and Chase/Izzy?

HO’BOI WITH PLEASURE❤️❤️❤️

Alexander - Eridan

Who washes the dishes by hand and who uses the dishwasher?Alexander does the by hand periodically, But Eridan complains and trys to state the Dishwasher is easier. After surviving everything, the Dishwasher is by far the easiest option.

Who cuts vegetables, fruit, etc by hand and who uses the easy to use chopper?Honestly, both by hand - but if it’s in haste, Eridan uses the chopper - especially if it saves time?

Who pours the cereal into the bowl first and who pours milk before the cereal?Eridan is cereal into the bowl first, Alexander is milk beforehand. Eridan doesn’t always think to check if they even have milk?... if not he’d just easily eat it dry...

Who buys/drinks bottle water and who uses/drinks from the tap?Really this depends where they are based within?I think both are quite ahead of it with water-bottles? But Eridan can just get lazy and drink it from the tap when they’re out... Alexander is probably more ontop of it really.. no question about it?

Who hoards disposable containers and who throws them away?Okay, neither for this. Im going to say both throw them away - but it’s not unlikely one may be found in the back of a cupboard because it could have been useful at a future day. But they probably have like a full house annual cleanup every month?

Who buys milk in a paper carton and who buys it in a plastic jug?Okay, Eridan has periodically always bought paper carton’s in his lifetime until adulthood where he’s finally able to settle down. So if there was a place they could settle down, Eridan would go straight to plastic jugs?Alexander, plastic jugs always? Unless there is none in the store?

Who picks paper bags and who picks plastic bags after grocery shopping?Okay, Eridan is the kind to say none and carry arm-fulls, or maybe a paper bag. And Alexander, plastic bags since they are simpler to handle after the incident where as you could only really carry one paper bag with the injuries?

Who HOARDS the plastic bags and who recycles them?Both recycle them, they aren’t heathens contrary to popular belief. Again, that monthly cleanout..

Who hoards salt/pepper packs, togo silverware and other togo condiments?OH LORD.Eridan ate so unhealthily when alone - it was either not at all because he simply forgot, or just takeout in craigslist apartments with no cutlery or plates etc. So just by habit - Eridan hoards them every time he gets something, just in case?I don’t picture Alexander getting takeout often, really? Since I’m just viewing him as a great chef and what he makes is a thousand times better?

Who lets the garbage can overflow before throwing it out?Okay - this is habit you’d expect Eridan to have but he doesn’t? Living in already shitty apartments and with intense procrastination to his studies.. he frequently threw away anything he gathered - but on the contrary as well, with his ADHD there are moments where he states he will, and his mind wanders as he gets up and just.. goes to do something else..

Who gets annoyed when someone doesn’t use the clips for the potato chips?OH Alexander.. but it’s quite rare Eridan forgets? Usually if he’s trying to eat away a hangover..

Who uses paper plates?Eridan - force of habit.

Who uses coasters?Alexanderrrr~ going to say it isn’t unlikely they have wooden furniture like coffee tables etc, and if so - coasters are just wise?? Eridan usually just drinks out of cans which he doesn’t put down?

Who licks the spoon/butter knife after they use it?..... Okay but, Eridan does it and doesn’t hide the fact and is made fun of for it. His excuse is so he doesn’t waste anything! But..... he does catch Alexander doing it every once and awhile too when he thinks he isn’t being watched, which Eridan just giggles at from the doorframe..

Who loses the bread ties?OH Eridan... but granted, the amount of makeshift ways he knows how to replace something like that is unreal... Alexander also does often? Either out of just misplacing it or because with a single hand, they maybe aren’t the easiest to put back on so they aren’t necessary.

Who kicks the ice under the fridge when it falls on the ground?Okay neither. Eridan is the kind to pick it back up, wash it off and use it again. Alexander isn’t a fucking savage either.. who really may do the same as Eridan again if it’s slyly done?

Who constantly cuts/burns themselves when they cook?..... oh Eridan. But surprisingly he isn’t a bad cook! just... pray Eridan however isn’t caught making his curious concoctions.. Most turn out... okay? But the rest are awful...But Alexander awhile after the accident can be guilty to both catching themself on hot pans etc during mere mindless moments of thought.

Who organizes the spice rack?Who uses the microwave more?The Microwave had once been Eridan’s only friend. But in sheer procrastination he’ll often organise the spice rack in alphabetical order? But for practicality!!! Alexander is always on his A-Game about herbs and spices... and both men adore spicy food so there is no shortage?(also.. spicy as in... actually spicy lets not even go there-)

Who stops the microwave one second before time's up?ERIDAN- always... it’s his favourite game?If you see Eridan just running and skidding across floors in his socks it’s cause he’s racing to the microwave... also being awake at stupid o’clock some times because he generally has moments of trying to study and homework.. just, using it at like 4am and not wanting to wake Alexander up...

Isabella - Chase

Who washes the dishes by hand and who uses the dishwasher?Chase never really lived the high life and still washed her dishes by hand, merely because she also knows she can get it clean as well? Isabella is by dishwasher. Such is simpler and far more effective, also saves time for more work!

Who cuts vegetables, fruit, etc by hand and who uses the easy to use chopper?Chase again likes to do everything by hand, means she knows exactly what she’s doing; Izzy prefers to do either or, whatever is at hand! 

Who pours the cereal into the bowl first and who pours milk before the cereal?Chase is ALWAYS cereal first and milk second, Izzy - Milk first and cereal second. It’s just smarter to do it that way? Doesn’t use too much AND just in case when you’re tired... you don’t just pour cereal and figure out you have no milk - LISTEN, THAT BUSY WORKIN LIFE IS STRESSFUL AND YOU CAN FORGET.... OFTEN.... yup

Who buys/drinks bottle water and who uses/drinks from the tap?Both drink bottled dependant on the area but Chase has no issue with tap/will happily take the time to filter water? It isn’t something she’s new too - though it’s stated the Netherlands has the cleanest tap water in Europe..

Who hoards disposable containers and who throws them away?Okay, Chase hoards them but gives them usage; she always has SOMETHING to do? Isabella I assume would throw them away - because it’s easy to say they have reusable containers..??

Who buys milk in a paper carton and who buys it in a plastic jug?Chase really has no preference, but plastic jugs just seem more practical within their enviroment as well?

Who picks paper bags and who picks plastic bags after grocery shopping?Chase picks paper bags, Isabella plastic bags?

Who HOARDS the plastic bags and who recycles them?Chase does a half and half, and I’d assume Isabella Recycles them once theyve been used

Who hoards salt/pepper packs, togo silverware and other togo condiments?neither? Chase doesn’t eat take-out all that often unless Isabella wanted to get something. Besides that fact, she’s never had a use. Isabella may be but i don’t know, I just don’t see her as the type? But maybe she is!

Who lets the garbage can overflow before throwing it out?Chase.... With a lot of things being done and then Isabella’s trash on top of that it sorta just sits occasionally before they throw it out? But I’d assume Chase primarily deals with the garbage?

Who gets annoyed when someone doesn’t use the clips for the potato chips?Isabella... Chase never entirely see’s the point and just rolls the bag up? Of course Isabella knows the point and can’t get it into her stubborn head.It’s a miracle when it actually happens.

Who uses paper plates?Okay, Neither at home.. But if Chase managed to drag out Izzy to fairs during breaks/holidays then, then? 

Who uses coasters?Both of them. Though Chase is a mechanic she isn’t the stereotypical - constantly dirty and careless being. She does quite like to keep a home clean and tidy!And Isabella is extremely dignified - so if there are coasters it’s only justified to use them, right? 

Who licks the spoon/butter knife after they use it?.... Both when nobody is looking...

Who loses the bread ties?.... Chase guiltily - so she sorta just steals hair-ties?

Who kicks the ice under the fridge when it falls on the ground?..... Neither?

Who constantly cuts/burns themselves when they cook?...... IsabellaThough if sometimes distracted Chase may catch her finger

Who organizes the spice rack?Who uses the microwave more?Isabella uses the microwave more often, but Chase keeps the kitchen in an organised pattern, including the spice rack?

Who stops the microwave one second before time's up?.... Both, Chase if Isabella is still in the kitchen so she’s aware it’s done, Isabella if she’s close by. Because it’s un-admittedly a fun game..

[thenixkat]

Naruto rewrite changes? Nart in general

As with the pilot: Nart with better than human sense of smell and hearing. Also fox-like night vision and strong body odor. 

As the Fox’s host it grants him the ability to sense other’s emotions, impressive digging abilities, and a limited hypnotic charm (very persuasive but can’t make someone do/think something that they are fundamentally opposed to doing/thinking)

Nart keeps several house plants and keeps a garden in a greenhouse in the woods that he built himself. In it he grows seasonings, some medicinal herbs, a couple veggies that he doesn’t hate, and lots of fruit.

-His house plants all have names. He gives people he likes house plants.

- keeps a vermiculture bin for that good compost and worm tea for the plants. Also uses insects and spider to keep harmful pests off his plants.

Nart is bitter towards the 3rd and and never refers to him as the hokage unless he has to. He almost never calls Tsunade the hokage either.

-Nart just generally does not give respect to authority figures unless they’ve earned it in his eyes. It makes things very difficult when new people are put in charge of the team he’s on. He is always down to fight even political figures that either disrespect him of tick him off in any other way. Nart must be watched on diplomatic missions to stop him from creating an international incident.

Nart has no memories of being cared for by anyone in his early childhood. The first adult to give a damn being Teuchi. The second being Iruka who came in later. Both adults being very busy. Nart is entirely self sufficient by age 8.

-Nart is good at math if it relates to money and other important stuff. He’s been budgeting his own finances for a long time and taught himself how to read, count, and do math.

-Nart furnished and maintains everything in his appartment. This includes fixing walls, fixing appliances, fixing water pipes, etc.

- Nart can mend clothing, sew, and knit. He’s not very good at knitting and really only makes scarfs and socks.

-Nart is not too proud to go dumpster diving. He’s found lots of cool stuff that people and has managed to find a use for it.

-He forages and hunts for a decent percentage of the food in his household. Ramen tastes good, is cheap, and easy to make after a long day of training. But mushrooms, meats, fruit, berries, nuts/acorns, etc prevent dying and/or illnesses caused by severe malnutrition.

-----Learned how to tan hides and a little taxidermy

Keeps plenty of scrolls on him and around the house. SOme of them are for studying, some storage scrolls, a few are full of puns. Darn good at making storage scrolls.

Has difficulty keeping focus on things that aren’t fun/cool, useful, or direly important. Has difficulty stay still and ontopic in general.

[girlwithsword]

so i haven’t journaled in 2 weeks because i am a #mess and a lot of stuff has happened so i think broad summaries are more in order

basic themes: the summer, school, the next week, the house, ken, friends, family, my health

the summer: we had the group sicha for mosh madatz applicants and i had my interview with ari for the gilboa position, galil applications just came out

i don’t think i’m going to get mosh or gilboa - not ‘cause i’m not qualified, i am, but there just seems to be a lot of people more suited for that tafkid at those machanot than myself

galil is still open and idk as much what the landscape is like so it’s still a possibility, but idk what i’m going to to if i don’t get madatz madricha. i have been actively trying to separate what i want from the summer from the tafkid and i can’t do it. 

Hannah and Sarah have made a proposal for a kvutzah messima based on leading nachshonimot and I’m down with that, but Hannah think that i could just go to Galil and be with their bogrimot and do that and maybe i could but a) that still wouldn;t give me the tzevet experience i’m looking for b) i wouldnt have the time or freedom to build a tochnit and c) i do NOT want to be the person coming in to the summer, especially as an outsider, demanding to be with certain kids! That person sucks!

I’ve talked to Hannah and to Bekah about it and im trying to talk to the mads but if i don’t get madatz madricha it’s really hard to justify going to a new machaneh to be on tzevet ragil to myself and my mother, not when there is SO MUCH theatre over the summer

anyway we just had a kvutzah call about it - Hannah, Jess and Toviah are applying for MBI! Sara and Ari are thinking about gesher! but sara still only wants to come for one session? arron fine is applying for madatz at miriam and maybe gilboa but idk?

i do have an idea, that maybe if i don’t get madatz, i stay in the city, work in theatre over the summer and spend my free time facilitating the kvutzah. like everyone gets so busy and hyper focused over kayitz and i could be an eye in the sky, keeping everyone updated, helping people with resource gathering and editing peulot - i could still be involved while not missing a summer of opportunities

school: so things are a lot more overwhelming than i want them to be

‘cause i had a bad week at the end of january i feel behind and i still haven;t totally caught up and it’s coming to mid-semester and that’s gonna catch up with me

monologue study is a lot more work than i expected - just doing all the xfript work is taking much longer than i planned for - i /just/ finished making the Lists yesterday and I’ve been working on that for WEEKS. Luckily, we don’t actually have class this week so all that stuff is due after the break - unluckily, i can’t really do work over the break and that shit needs to get done - more on that later

however, my actual piece is looking really good and some of the warm ups and breathing exercises have helped so much! two classes ago we did these breath exercises and then went around and each said a central line from our pieces and i have never been so in the moment and real and in my breath than right then and now i have had a taste and want that always

we’ll be starting shakespeare after the break and i want to try something new, I love my Beatrice, but there is something to be said for repertoire building. Rosanna suggested looking into Rosalind  pieces from As You Like It and that’s promising. I might... try a Juliet? Like, idk if that’s worthwhile im just... not a Juiet, im never gonna be the ingenue, why try? but having something sweeter is definitely a goal, idk i looked at Rosalind pieces and i think there is something that catches my eye

scene study has a similar issue in that the written work is a lot more overwhelming and time consuming than i planned and that /is/ due next week so. however, rehearsals have been going AMAZING, we’re like 98% off book and have to focus on picking up the pace, sticking to tactics and not playing attitudes and getting the blocking a little more fine tuned. 

we had dress rehearsals tuesday and it was a WRECK. /no one/ was off book, a couple scenes were just /stopped/ midway through and everyone was off. then we went up, the only group who didn;t even once call for a line and who was actually on top of our shit. i admit, it felt kinda good to be the best. though, the bar was kinda low. 

I’m being mean, a lot of people had good moments and most of the scenes that derailed derailed ‘cause ONE particular person clearly didn;t have their shit together and it threw everyone off. 

Brandon and i rehearsed today and got pacing a little more down and he’s gonna come over sunday and do a final rehearsal before tuesday’s presentation!!

my elective has been a lot less interesting than i was hoping for, the classes are kinda boring but at least it’s pretty easy. HOWEVER, we did a field trip to city hall yesterday and THAT was fascinating! we got to sit in on the city council sessions as they were deciding the budget and it was! so! cool! that’s the room where it fucking happens. and like, we should all be more on top of local politics ‘cause that’s where the day to day shit gets figured out. i did a whole snapchat rant about it it’s good

fevergraph isn’t technically school but it’s been going really well - i got to get some emotional stuff out through the journeys and i’ve gotten my heart rate up a few times, last class is next week and i think i’m gonna look into maybe some voice lessons for the next half of the semester?

anyway: sunday i need to get all my fucking scene work done, monday i should record all my notes for my TOR midterm ‘cause tuesday im running around a lot and i need to study for that. monologue stuff will have to wait - that’ll be wednesday/thursday, cause thursday afternoon... i’m getting on a plane to israel

so, that’s happening. i kinda was just.., thinking about it.. and then jazz said that if i went she would go with me.. and then my parents said they’d give me 300 for the trip as a bday present.. and then i booked tickets. we’re still figuring out exact details in terms of where we’re staying when but i’ve e-mailed mona and paul and talia and the mads about it and we’re figuring it out

so, yeah... that’s happening. we’re gonna chill and see people and go read on the beach and i’m going to where nothing but dressed the whole time and i’m so fucking excited.

in the meantime, this week i have to get all this fucking work done, my birthday is this weekend!! (there’s gonna be cupcakes and whiskey and an entire afternoon of theatre!!!!) and we need to shove in ten thousand roommate interviews in there sometime

‘cause YEAH, updates on Murnau House: we still haven;t found a new person for the Room That Cannot Be Filled which is Annoying and the previous occupant has not been as ontop of finding a replacement as he said he would so Sam is leading the search, bless her

aaaand our fridge broke last week, again, and we lost a BUNCH of food, but due to my skills of being a polite and efficient BITCH thanks to my mum, we got a new one pretty quickly and that’s going fine.

the ken: we had a tubshvat carnival two weeks ago, some bogrimot came and volunteered, it went fine, but i wasnt as invested as i should’ve been - however, i did see Iris there!! whcih was nice, she’s gonna be chinuch at shomiria this summer and she did the habo/hashi birthright! very cool

then, sem. so, we had a tzevet of 7 for 40 kids, two of whom lefton the saturday night. aaron and yehuda of all people were on mitbach and the post mbiers were a big help. the schedule pretty much went out the window becuase we didn’t even get in till after midnight in friday due to the storm.

i did however get an entire busload of kids off the bus, to a rest stop and back on to the bus in FIFTEEN MINUTES ‘cause i’m amazing, we went to camp and the kids had fun even tho it was very Emotional for me, and we re focused on The Krinkle Project for messima, and even tho we didn;t do the vaad stuff i hoped for, i think we can move forward if i get my shit together enough. we also did kvutzah peulot that, even if they didn’t go /so/ great, i think brought important ideas and next steps into a lot of the kids minds about how to be stronger as a kvtzot

there was gonna be a katkateam this weekend but ido and i are both on vaccations so that’s been cancelled. there;s a purim party on the 5th that might launch our participation in Krinkle if we get that together. Mifgash with Tavor in March, spring sem in May, maybe one final event for messima and then... we’re done. at least. I am. I’m done. And I should be expecting a cheque from Shaul any day now.

friends: sima is interning on a CTV show and getting updates on the PM’s schedule in her work e-mail, and graduating soon

julia is kind’ve her usual mess but also starting to turn a profit in selling her embroideries on etsy, but idk if she has like a plan of any kind? and that worries me to a degree

mikki’s cosplay stuff is BOOMING and she’s back with Lou but... she’s still being kinda self destructive and i’m worried about her??

josh just finished a show and i haven;t talked to him in a while.... 

anna grace and natty are putting on a show that natty wrote!

i don’t ... have that many friends??

family: same pretty much. Alex is migrating in a month, they’re moving a little closer to me than i like but what can you do.

Batsheva was here, we had one of our Talks, i need to find a more permanent therapist to go deeper with once school is done. i should probably join a group... but that im where im at for as young as i am considering everything... im honestly on a pretty good track

my health: so, i doubt anyone is reading at this point so... the weekend after my fatigue flare up at the start of the month i had a suicidal episode. and i’ve only told my therapist

it was my first one in about a year, my worst one in two and over the dumbest thing since highschool .... just being overwhelmed by school work

like, two mays ago i had a really bad one ‘cause i couldn’t get myself to finish my Buddies piece, a year ago i had a much smaller one ‘cause of a HUGE fight with my dad and this was just... being overwhelmed.

and that’s what;s frustrating!! i guess it was frustration at my body and i hadnt eaten that well and i was a day away fro  my period and all that added up to curled into a ball trying desperately not to reach for a handful of my ciprilex and melatonin for most of that saturday??? which just like wtf

OTHER THAN THAT, my physical strength has actually been on an upswing since the start of the month and im feeling a lot more active. i have a cold this week but that’s just it being february and my immune system being shitty. thank god for cold 911

okay, it’s far too late. i gotta shower and sleep and this took about 10x longer than i planned for

it’s gonna be a hell of a week, and i have no idea when i can do this again, but wish me luck!