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The Great Pumpkin Patch TGPP Arthur Illinois Corn Maze Noah's Ark Pumpki...

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do you ever just see someone and think "yeah, i would bang you so hard ur eyeballs would fall out" 

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1 month later, and things are still good :) I think things are back on track, and I'm just really happy. Thank you guys for sending me such supportive and kind messages when I wasn't feeling too great, it really means a lot ^_^ 

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I feel like I'm loosing it, and I'm terrified. 

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It's getting bad again. And I don't know how to make it better. I can't even cry anymore, I'm so numb. I'm losing interest in all the things that used to make me happy, and I'm pushing everyone away; it's like abandoning a sinking ship. I get so annoyed at the smallest things, and it's just not making sense. Nothing does anymore. 

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waddup i just updated my me page ^_^

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so laid back im practically horizontal

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Silent screams, invisible tears.

All of my so called 'friends' joke about depression, self harm, anxiety and bulimia, and it pains me to just sit back and listen, because they don't know the destructive side of me. They don't know the depressed, suicidal, bulimic girl. They can't see past my bubbly facade. It really makes me question if they actually care about me, or are just pretending. 

I'm so sick of living with this, I've got no one to talk to. I can't talk to her because she would never understand. I'd be put in a mental institute. I always ask myself, "Why me?" 

Why is it me, out of all of my friends that suffers from these mental illnesses? I should see someone, a professional, but no one will understand.

What if all teenagers experience this? What if my 'friends' are going through this? What if I'm a bad friend, and they think that they have no one to talk to? The harsh truth is that, in the end, we're alone. We come into this world alone, and we'll leave it alone. 

Why do we constantly sought out human company? All it has ever done is cause sadness, pain and grief. I can't stand it anymore.

I'm tired of living, but I'm too scared to die. Trapped in a state of in between. Bound by mood swings, ranging from suicidal to hyperactive and overjoyed. How do I figure this out? I think I just need to tell someone this, have a shoulder to cry on, and it'll be better. I don't have anyone to turn to. Sure I've got heaps of close friends, but I'm pushing them away because they don't understand. It's my fault, actually. If I was more open, I'd have people to understand this.

But for now, I'll just lock my door, scream and sob into my pillow, and let this lethal combination of sadness, loneliness and anger seep out of my body in the form of salty tears.

And when I have to face the world again, I'll put on the act I've perfected over 14 years. I'll be the bubbly, happy girl again and no one will know.

Silent screams, invisible tears. 

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He's so confusing. I don't know what's happening with him because one minute he's really nice and flirty, and the next minute he's being a total bitch.

I give up on people

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FANGIRLING BECAUSE HE THINKS I'M CUTE O M G 

AHFAHSFIOASHIFSFAIUSHIUSFGSUI HE ACTUALLY SAID THAT I'M CUTE 

I'M CRYING OMG

TEARS OF EUPHORIA 

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If you're British, you automatically qualify to be in my pants

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do u remember when memes were cool?

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Holy crap.. Guitar harmonies = eargasm