#pudko

[fluxblush]

"what makes embarrassment so hot?" ....ok we are blush posting!!

thank you for coming to my red talk ♨

[kodas]

Would love to see the diagrams connecting your headlights to your Sonas.

Honestly even just explaining the headlights kinda makes the "Xko is everyone and everyone is Xko and it blends together sometimes." make more sense

aaa thank you! I appreciate you saying that, sometimes I feel like the more info I give the less it makes sense on the outside, ykno?

each sona I depict is an abstraction that appeals to specific headlights I have, usually a blend of them. there are other sonas like derivative self-inserts and fandom stuff, but I only made diagrams for the main 5 I depict the most often (explanations below the cut!!)

puddle is flow + moth, also representative of daze because I'd use puddle for 'reflection'/vent art for a long time. also includes daze because puddle gets so very very tired lol, I always depicted puddle having my physical body pains despite them being made of slime?? LMAO

pudko/'werewolf puddle' is moth + pup + daze/red highly reactive + hyper-aware of body pains & super foggy ... I don't draw pudko much these days... I should draw them more... 💭

xko is pup + fawn (bubbling over with awe/wonder) with red's high reactivity. feels no pain or fear!!!!!!

the next two are very similar!! neither of them remember they are part of xko, while the previously mentioned sonas are always aware of xko as their 'core'

roboko is pup + fawn + daze/red

easily flustered + foggy, more likely to vibe/coast through stuff or experience half-awareness, switching to excitability/pup brain to coast

(technically I have an in-universe reason why roboko and xko are linked via flux but it's convoluted/lewd and an unnecessary detail for this ask lmao if you're curious it's briefly mentioned in the roboko user forums)

flux is fawn + red/daze

similar, easily flustered + foggy but fully present through difficult circumstances

as I mentioned before, daze and red are typically together or feel like they're part of 'the same self' so the order of daze/red or red/daze in these has a difference to me lol;; it's so weird how little details feel like a big deal! I put them all together in a big image canvas (at the start of this post), and the LOCATIONS of the diagrams together felt like they had a right and wrong place.

[rugenepyu]

2017 last active nako dire sa tumblr. Pero nawala akung gana mag blog tung nangawala nasad akung mga peyborit blogger, ug mga crush nako nga blogger na ang dahilan kung bakit ako nabubuhay sa araw-araw char lang!.

Karon try nako maging active.Kung active ko sa sex dapat active pudko sa tumblr ( Syempre joke lang) Bukod sa bored nako aning Quarantine- Quarantine. Poison napod kaayo ang Socmed Karon, daghan kaayog toxic sa kalibutan. I hope na dre sa tumblr makapahuway akung utok dile ko makabasag #Oustduterte #istandwithduterte #DDS #Dilawan #MochaUson #Marizracal #rugenepyugwapo. Maliban aning tumblr, Netflix ug Pornhub akung therapy para mawala akung stress. HAHAHA

[fluxblush]

in honor of the full moon here’s an old pudko pic I never posted ft. a wardrobe malfunction... from 2019 or 2020 I think?? I see a bunch of stuff I wanna re-render but I'm being strong and leaving it be 😤

[kodas]

holds this up with a bundle of red string in my other hand

ultimately I haven’t decided if I’m gonna publicly name the new oc/sona or not- I’ve been calling them Milky in development, but that’s just the name of the intergalactic fantasy SW company they work for and not their actual name lol... they only get the white M highlight on their bangs when they’re on the clock.

oooooooooo so many ideas...........

if xko is puddle and xko is everyone else, is puddle also flux?

yes but no! xko becomes flux or puddle- but pudko is puddle!

it's kinda like pokemon eevee evolutions! certain circumstances result in different forms/states of xko

here I'll make a diagram (takes 10 hours)

[kodas]

shoves all my ocs in a blender to combine them

ends up w a dog with 4 ears

[kodas]

Tell me about your OCs and sonas +_+

aw HI CAYTLIN!! ty I'll use any opportunity to talk about my sonas!!

it's easy to just call puddle my project-sona, but I've been using puddle online for about 12 years!! they're a genderfluid slime person and a 'reflection' of myself for my autobios and personal work- I also use their design for comic tip videos here and there on youtube.

also somewhere on there is the original lore of puddle and all the variations they went through before I started developing xko! (10-ko, my 10th sona variation)

my first concepts for xko looked a lot more puddle-like. the way I see it now is that xko spent the last decade trying to blend in as close to people as possible- the result of that being Puddle as we know them today: a humanoid cartoonist slime just doin their best!! but trying to keep 'together' gets exhausting quick- sometimes energy levels are harder to control and puddle has to take a break, or excitement runs a bit high and xko pops back out.

just as xko can become puddle, I got sooo many other variants, too!! they're all the same character, but they're also... not? they have some different priorities, interests, preferences, comfort levels- some understand they're xko, some don't know* (or know for sure). they're all still a part of xko.

this batch of characters connected to xko are as follows:

[redacted]*

div*

puddle (pbbbt)

koda* (first fursona, made a one-off NSFW comic)

pudko (werewolf deerdog puddle) - made for an animal crossing meme on youtube but the design grew on me quick.. 😅

pomo🍅 (will become relevant again someday!)

flux* (blushy deerdog I draw NSFW for)

roboko* (another NSFW- micro stimtoy fursona)

robokOS (operating system, desktop assistant menace to roboko's software, pngtuber for nsfw streams)

xko!! (my twitch vtuber sona and slug of the hour)

I also tend to put my sonas together into a cocktail shaker and mix them up, design-wise. it's fun to draw them all on top of each other inhabiting the same body and end up with a dog with 6 ears. how did it take so long to find out I had a dissociative disorder lol

right now I'm blowin the dust off my first fursona design koda, pomo🍅, and a scrapped side design I've had to combine them into a new variant for an adult anthology comic 😋

I also have lwam and street magic but I can't talk about them without spoiling their stories 😭

[rugenepyu]

Nagcomment ko sa youtube tas naay nag reply. HAHAHA makatawa ko. Salamat sa imuha kay na remind ko nga naa diay koy tumblr account. Regards nalang pud ko sa imong asawa.

Iniwiys. Medyo cold nako aning tumblr bitaw. Feel nako murag wala na syay papel sa akung kinabuhi.Lahi rajud basta naay mas importanteng bagay na mas kailangan unahon. Sorry tumblr kung gigamit teka. Kung gigamit teka sa mga panahon na wala akung magawa sa aking boring life. Pero, salamat gihapon kay tungod sa imo nagawas nako tanang kalagot sa mga taong dimunyu sa akung panan-aw. Mag sorry nalang ko sa imuha kay naka decide nako nga kalimtan ka. Mag deactivate nako dre sa tumblr. Kabalo manko nga dile ko nimo kawalan, so okie ra sa imuha nga mawala ko. Kay okie raman pudko kung mawala ka. Patas lang ta! Goodbye. (Pero joke-joke lang) Syempre! Unsaon nalang kung mawala ka.

Bitaw uys! Nagdownload jud kog tumbr app para any time everywhere maka-blog ko (miskang walay nangutana) murag nanibago lang ko sa dashboard karon. Para akung isang estranghero sa sariling bansa. Nangawala nato akung mga favorite bloggers ug katong mga bisaya bloggers dre.

[rugenepyu]

PISTENG YAWA!!! Ang akung kinabuhi isa ka dakung PISTENG YAWA! Bitaw, halos adlaw-adlaw. Mao na nga words akung bukang bibig ang PISTENG YAWA!!

Bad words pero makagaan ug gibati, every time na gina-ingon nako na with feelings. Ambot lang noh! Wala naman koy kalipay bah, negative na kaayo ko nga pagkatao. Halos tanan nakapalibot sa akua. Kay Annoying kaayo. Pati ikaw, Oo ikaw! nga nagbasa ani maglagot pudko sa imo, lami kaayo ka tuk-on! Pero atik lang. 

Lahi rajud ang Noon at Ngayon. Kay Noon, malipay raman kug makagasto ug dyis pesos maka-internet ug tumblr lang. Karon miskang naay wifi left and right dile naman judko malipay. Dile napud ko happy sa akung trabaho, kahit pa upo-upo lang. Tas, last week lang gi-chat ug gipansin najud ko sakung uyab este, crush. Pero unsa mani uy nganong dile manko happy mga Mega/Mego.

Karon dile man lovelife akung gusto para mahappy ko, ang gusto lang jud nako karon para mahappy ko.

- Dile makita akung libakera nga silingan for one week.

-Makatulog ug 48 Hours

- Kape! Kape! kape.

- Unlimited French fries.

- Unlimited Sex!

- Maka lips to lips si Blackpink Rose miskang 5 hours lang. Haha char lang!..

Palihog lang! Miskang isa lang diha mahappy nako.

[rugenepyu]

Bisaya no more

Lisod kaayo sya nga desisyon sa akua na mag iba ug genre.Char! singer? i mean,kanang mag tinagalog nako magblog (miskang walay nangutana).Mura bitawg gigive up nako akung virginity. Nisaka pako ug bundok para mapag-isa ug makahuna-huna ug tarong kung tama ba akung desisyon.Okey,OA. 

3 years nagud ko nagblog ug karon pako nagback read sakung gipang-blog at ang masasabi ko lang. 

 “Asdfqgjtskadgunbjtmk"

Hahaha daghan man diay kug na experience na mga katangahan ug mga kabuang.Lakip na mga bed scene nako nga dile dapat i-blog akung giapil. Am i bastos right?.Pero proud pudko kay daghan naka-appreciate ug daghan nalingaw sakung blog post.Makita sab nako akung mga post sa mga facebook na site.Wahaha. Ayun! back to title.Starting today magtatagalog na ako gusto ko lang maiba at makakilala ng bagong kalandian este kaibigan.Pero kung dile ko kalahutay mubalik kug bisaya.Hahaha.

Gusto ra nako matry magblog gamit ang lenggwaheng hebrew dejk.Gusto nako pina-seryoso using filipino  language! para char kaayo. Kaya mga angkol mga ante wag nyo na akung bisayain,tagalogin nyo na ako kase di nako alam magbisaya eh! HAHAHA.

[kodas]

if xko is puddle and xko is everyone else, is puddle also flux?

yes but no! xko becomes flux or puddle- but pudko is puddle!

it's kinda like pokemon eevee evolutions! certain circumstances result in different forms/states of xko

here I'll make a diagram (takes 10 hours)