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[dragonscalesofold]

I need to put this thank you to dimension 20 and it’s cast out into the world.

TLDR: A crown of candy got me through my first ever Easter Sunday without attending mass and I will be forever grateful.

Tw: Catholic guilt

I have been re watching a crown of candy because it brings me an odd amount of comfort.

And today was also the first ever Easter I didn’t attend mass. I grew up incredibly Catholic but also surrounded by people who believed in the universe and in karma and tarot cards and nature. I was the a catholic school girl who read the bible as an act of rebellion. And to no ones surprise I grew up and left the church in favor of the belief in people and nature and energy.

That doesn’t mean not attending mass today wasn’t incredibly hard the amount of catholic guilt that incurred was horrible. And watching a DnD campaign where the main antagonist was a thinly veiled metaphor for the Catholic Church was the only thing that got me through today.

Because today when I had to look the little girl inside of me with a giant smile and a cute little Easter dress who believed so fiercely in the church and what it taught us in the eyes and tell her i wasn’t going because the church itself had destroyed my faith. And a silly little show where fate chooses so much held my hand and reminded me that I am not my guilt and I do not owe my life to an organization that would have seen me dead 100s of times throughout history.

I know it’s just a show but it is a show I will be forever grateful to because today it is absolutely the only reason I chose me over my guilt.